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--------------------------------------------------------------stree-puroosh ke rishton ka yatharth aakhyan --------------------------------------------------------------nari avashy hi poojaniy hai . main un nariyon ko naman karata hoon jisane svayan ke sath-sath parivarik,samajik,rashtriy maryadaon ko mahatv diya hai. main un nariyon ko naman karata hoon jisane apane ahankar ko tyag kar manavata ke lie manaviy kartavyon ka nirvahan kiya hai.main un nariyon ko naman karata hoon jisane parivar,samaj aur desh ko kuchh diya hai.

main un nariyon ko naman karata hoon jinhone apane astitv ko oonchaiyon tak pahoonnchaya hai.main un nariyon ko naman karata han jisane puroosh ke kandhe se kandha milakar chalane kee koshish kee ho . main un nariyon ko naman karata hoon jinake samaksh svayan hi purooshon ka mastak nat ho jata hai. -- krishnnashankar `` aurat jiti-jagati moorkhata hai.aurat intazar nahin kar sakati.apani ichchha poori hone par fir bechain ho jati hai.aurat samarpit hona chahati hai , hoti hai , lekin isaka dosh puroosh par lagati hai.bad men namr banane ke lie ,aurat pahale puroosh ke sath dushtata karati hai.bad men dushtata ka aanand lene ke lie,pahale puroosh ke sath namrata se pesh aati hai.aurat patit hai aur apani drishti men poori divyata ke sath nirmal hai.vah eeshvar se ,purooshon se ,apane se jhooth bolati hai.vah jivan men ulajhati nahin, usase khelati hai ,jivan ko usi tarah apane poz deti hai -jaise darpan ko.stree chehare banati hai ,hav-bhav badalati hai ,to sirf yah mahasoos karane ke lie ki usaka astitv hai. isake viparit puroosh ka nairantary usakee vastavikata ka praman hai.nari apane svatv ko apane parivartan se prakat karana chahati hai , puroosh sthayitv se. puroosh ek hona chahata hai ,aurat ``bahut-si``. puroosh apane samast gunn-doshon kee chetana se oorja hasil karata hai,aurat apani poorn anabhigyata se. puroosh ek poorn suvyavasthit sansar hai to aurat ek arajak duniya ,vah kuchh bhi kar sakati hai puroosh ko aurat se door bhagana chahie ya fir us par shasan karane kee ichchha tyag dena chahie. `` -- dostovaskee kee jivani : thanda jvalamukhi se sabhar (``sakshatkar ``327 march 2007 men uddharat) --------------------------------------------------------------kektas ke fool oonche pahadon se utarati huee nadiya ka manohari drishy jitana aakhon ko suhata hai usase kahin adhik vah hriday ko mohit kar deta hai. shvet dugdh kee tarah jaladhara door se aisi pratit hoti jaise ooche aasaman se bhagirathi gaga devo ke dev mahadev kee jata men samane ke lie teji se utarati chali aa rahi ho . kinaron par hare-bhare oonche-oonche vriksh aise pratit hote hai jaise ve pahadon kee raksha ke lie sina tan ke khade ho aur vasundhara ke vaksh ko shitalata pradan kar rahe ho .nazaron se jaha tak drishti jati vaha tak ghane jangal kee hari chadar bichhi dikhaee deti hai. aah ! kya vastav men yah dhara itani sundar hai ki koee bhi vyakti apar sukh-shanti ke sath is dhara par apana jivan ji sakata hai. yah prakriti aur usakee apar sampada manushyamatr ke lie kam pad jaegi ! nahin prakritik sampada manushy ke lie eeshvar ka varadan hai tab hi to yah vasundhara manushyon ke lie ma ke saman hai . jo jitana adhik dharati man ke karib rahega use apar sukh prapt hoega hi lekin jis kisi ne bhi prakriti ke pratikool kary kiya use prakriti ne usake parinamasvap vah hi diya jisaka vah pratibhagi tha . prakriti, mata svarupa hai jitana adhik vah sneh karati hai utana hi adhikarasvaroop parinam bhi deti hai aur yahi jivan jine ka aadhar bhoot mantr hai. bahati huee sarita ke saman jivan lagatar bina ruke bahate rahane ka nam hai. chhote chhote nale-gadade,patthar-pahad,umad-khabad raste,kahin bilkul sidhe ,kahin bahut hi tede-medhe ,kahin shant-ganbhir bahav to kahin tivr gati aur kahin-kahin nchaee se niche kee or girati huee dharaen bhi ek saman nahin bahati nadi thik isi tarah jivan bhi ek saman nahin chalata . kaha gaya hai jivan jina kathin nahi to aasan bhi nahin hai. kisi ne hans-hans kar to kisi ne ro-rokar jivan jiya . jiya jis kisi tarah jiya . kahin dher sari safalataen ,kahin asafalataon ka ambar . koee bhare pet sota hai,koee khali pet sari rat jag-jag kar kat deta hai. koee jiya to bina kisi udedshy ke aur koee jiya to udedshy ko lekar tajindagi uhapoh men laga raha . duniyadari har kisi ke vash men nahin hoti . jis kisi ne bhi duniyadari ko aatmasat kar liya vah duniya ke mayajal ko aasani

se kat kar bahar nikal aaya . vahi jit paya aur vastav men ji paya hai. keval siddhanton ko apanakar jina saral nahin hai balki jine ke lie siddhanton ko ek taraf rakhana bhi bahut jaruri ho jata hai. vastavikata vah chij hai jo siddhanton ko taka sa javab dekar prithak kar deti hai. yatharth ka jivan siddhanton par nahin jiya ja sakata balki siddhanton kee aad men nij hit ke lie jo bhi sanbhav ho vahi kiya jata hai.yah saty hai ki kanoon andha hota hai vaha siddhant bilkul apahij kee tarah hote hai vaha saty sahi sabit nahin ho pata balki saty kee tooti bolane lag jati hai. hari subah das baje bhopal se ravana hue .tabhi se hriday ke kisi kone men atit ke chitr chitrapat ke saman manasakash men tirane lage the. man men kaee kaee tarah ke prashn uth rahe the . khandavamen in paitis salon men kitana kuchh badal gaya hoga . ve log , vah mausam , ve sathi , vo skool , ve khet-khalihan , vo bailagadi men baithakar kheton men jana ,vah tapti nadi ka tat jisake kinare baithakar akele men dhyanabhyas kiya karate the ,oonche pedon par baithe mormorani kee jodi dekhana .n jane kitane vichar ,kitane drishy man ke aangan men utar rahe then . kampartamet men samane kee sit par baitha sahayatree yadi yah nahin poochhata ki kya yahi narmada hai to shayad mujhe mahasoos hi nahin hota ki hoshangabad aa gaya . unhone sahayatree ko bataya ki hon yahi narmada hai aur usake sath-sath unhonne bhi kuchh sikke narmada ko samarpit kar diye . sahayatree shayad khandava se aage poona ja raha tha . unhone bataya ki main aage nahin jaooga balki usake pahane khandava steshan utar jaoonga . khandava ka nam sunate hi vah chaunk pada , bola, `` khandava jile men hi eshiya ka sabase bada akhabari pepar mil hai ! unhone hon men apana sir hila diya tha . fir to vah lagatar bole ja raha tha . halanki vah kya bole ja raha tha isaka unhen bilkul bhi ahasas nahin tha kyonki bhopal se chalate samay hi hridayakash men khandava kee bhaugolik sthiti , vahan ke log aur ve sara atit tairane laga tha . sochane laga ,`` n jane kab khandava aata aur jaldi hi steshan se bahar nikalata . steshan se bahar nikalate hi bahut se parichit aur rishtedar mil hi jaainge . bhopal se khandava ka chh: ghante ka samay katana hari ke lie asahy ho raha tha . paitis sal bad ke khandavakee sthiti janane kee utsukata aur utavalapan dekhane nahi banata tha . bar-bar khidkee se bahar jhankana . bar -bar rist voch dekhana , baran-bar sit se uthakar get tak jana baicheniyan ajib si baicheni mahasoos ho rahi thi . samane vali sit par baitha sahayatree akela nahin tha . usake sath ek bis-baees sal kee ladkee thi . pata nahin vah us sahayatree kee kya lagati hogi , pata nahin . han, ve aapas men bahut batiya rahe the aur bar-bar ek doosare ke kadhon par apana sir rakh diya karate the . kabhi-kabhi vah ladkee pair lambe kar ladke kee god men sir rakh deti thi aur aankhe moond leti thi fir us ladke ko dekhakar muskara deti thi . ladkee sundar thi . ek had tak use sundar hi kaha ja sakata thi kyoki vah ladkee hai aur ladkiyon chahe kaisi bhi ho sundar hi hoti hai. prakriti ne ladkiyon ko sundarata pradan kee hai . yadi ladkiyon sundar nahin hoti to sare jamane kee ladkiyon n jane kahon hoti aur yah jamana n jane kis or ja raha hota ya yah duniya hi nahin hoti . ladkee shabd ka matalab samany nahin ho sakata . prakriti se bahut hi nikat ka rishta hota hai ladkiyon ya yon kaha ja sakata hai ki ladkiyon prakriti ka hi doosara rup hoti hai. prakriti mane ladkee aur ladkee mane prakriti . ab tak n to kisi ne prakriti ko jana hai aur n hi ladkee ko donon ek doosare ka poorak hoti hai ,aisi meri manyata hai . pata nahin sari duniya is bare me kya sochati hai. kaha gaya hai ki ladkee ya aurat nahin hoti to sari duniya raunakahin hoti . noor hi nahin hota is jahan men . jivan ka hona n hona ladkee ya aurat par nirbhar karata hai. yah manana jaruri nahin hai ki aap ise manate ho ,lekin yadi aap ise nahin manate ho to aap bahut badi bhool kar rahe hoge . manane ke lie keee vivash nahin kar raha hai lekin zara ladkee ya aurat ke bina ji kar dekhiya sara majara saf saf dikhaee dene lagega aur aap manane ke lie svayan hi vivash ho jaenge . sare duniya ke logon kee kahani matr tin vastuon ke aasapas ghumati rahati hai. chahe jis bhi kal ke itihas ko uthakar dekhen, sara majara saf-saf dikhaee dene lagega . vah tin vastuen hai zar joru jamin sara itihas aur sara vishv sahity inhi chijon ke ird-gird ghumata huaa dikhaee deta hai. halanki ye sare sandarbh ginane kee aavashyakata nahin honi chahie. lekin isalie

ginana pad raha hai ki ye sari vastuen manav ke aasapas hone vali ghatanaon ke patr hai. koee bhi ghatana in tin vastuon se achhooti nahin hai. isilie khandava ya bhopal ke vatavaran men jo ghatanaen lagatar ghatit hote rahi hai. ve sari aonkhon ke samane pratyaksh hote rahi hai .main isalie kuchh nahin kar saka ki main bhi in ghatanaon ka ek bahut ahan evan jatil patr hoon ya raha hoon. samane vale jodi apani thidholiyon men vyast thi chahe utana koee bhi rishta ho . stree aur purush ke jodon ke karan hi to sari ghatanaen ghatate chali aa rahi hai aur aage bhi anant kal tak ghatit hote rahegi . ise n to main rok sakata aur n hi aap ya aanevala samay . inhi ke lie hi to sara sahity likha gaya likha ja raha aur likha jata rahega . ek vah tis jo in rishton ke bich huaa karati hai. kahin n kahin vyakti ko kachotate rahati hai . yahi tis likhane ke lie vivash karati hai . hamare jaise log tis ko ukhad fenkane ke lie ya hriday ko halaka karane ke lie ya to kisi ko bata dete hai ya dher sare safed kagajon ko kala-nila kar dete hai , main bhi kar raha hoon. hari ke bhi apane kuchh sapane the,kuchh apekshaen thi ,kuchh aakankshaen rahi.sapanon ko gunana,apekshaon ka talashana aur aakankshaon ko dhalane kee koshish rahi.insan kee sabhi kamanaen poorn nahin hoti.apoorn kamanaon kee poorti ke lie vyakti aajivan bhatakate rahata hai.kuchh bhi karane ke lie tatpar rahata hai.tab vah yah nahin janata ki vah jo kar raha hai vah sahi hai athava galat .use donon hi sahi mahasoos hote hai.isalie vah jitana sahi kary karate rahata hai utana galat bhi karate rahata hai.use tab pata chalata hai jab usake parinam parilakshit hone lagate hai. hari bhi achhoote nahin rahe jo bhi kary kiye ,safalata kam ,asafalata adhik mili .jane-anajane bahut se kary achchhe bhi hue aur usase adhik kary galat bhi hue. yah atit kee bat hai .jabaki atit ko yad karana uchit nahin hota kintu yadi atit ke anubhav ko dekh kar chalen to bhavishy men honevali galatiyon se bacha ja sakata hai. ek tis aaj bhi hriday men chubh rahi hai .ab tak kiye gaye sare kary hasiye par pade hai ya to un karyon kee ahamiyat nahin hai ya ve sare ke sare kary evan prayas nirarthak lag rahe hai. jivan bahut sundar hai.use aashavadi nazariye se dekhate rahe. fir bhi nirashaen hi hisse men aa sakee.isake lie ya to kary karane ka tarika sahi nahin tha ya hari kuchh karana nahin janate the.sanbhavat:ab bhi nahin janate . 00 hari jyada padhe-likhe nahin hai.lekin unakee bhi apani mahatvakankshaen hai.jaise , pratyek kary men safal hona .chahe koee bhi kary ho ,vah chook nahin jana chahie.yadi chook gaye to yah samajhana hoga ki kahin n kahin avashy hi koee badi galati rahi hogi. manav ka svabhav hi hai ki vah aksar chookate rahata hai yani ki insan galati karate rahata hai.yadi vah galati n karen to vah manav nahin ho sakata.tab vah ya to devata ho sakata hai ya danav .hari donon men se kuchh bhi nahin hai.ek manav hone ke karan kahin to galati ho hi jati hai.manovigyan ka niyam hai ki manav svayan galati kee moorat hai.vah apoorn hai.poorv to vah kabhi ho nahin sakata.jis din vah poorn ho jaega us din vah manav nahin kahalayega.mahamanav ho sakata hai vah .mahamanav devatuly hota hai. manav jab devatuly ho jata hai tab vah parivar aur samaj se door ho jata hai.usakee apekshaen dhool-dhoosarit hone lagati hai.usaka apana kuchh bhi nahin hota.vah poojaniy ho jata hai.use ghar ke kisi kone men pratisthapit kar diya jata hai. use kaha jata hai ,` tum to mahamanav ho ,tumhari kya aavashyakataen ho sakati.tum to svayan hi poornnakam ho.`` yah poornnakam hone ke bad vah mahamanav apane hriday par patthar rakhakar khamaush ho jata hai. hari n to mahamanav banana chahata hai, n devata aur n danav.unakee niyati manav tak hi simit rahe to behatar hai. hari kee bhi apani apekshaen hai.vah bhi parivar ke sath rahana chahata hai.vah chahata hai ki samaj men use bhi vah sthan mile jo ek parivarik manav ko milata hai. parivar , samaj kee ikaee hoti hai.vah parivar ke sath rahakar samajik banana chahata raha.

lekin samay ne use avasar nahin diya. vah avasar kee talash men bhatakate raha.ek dar se doosare par aate-jata raha .kisi bhi dar par thaur nahin mili.kaha gaya ki tumhari thaur yaha nahin hai , aage jao.vah aage chal diya.isi tarah anekon daron par gaye.aage chala die gae.aaj bhi unhe n to koee dar mila aur n hi koee thaur mili. n manzil mili n thikana . usi din dekhie.ramesh ke ghar parti par use aamantrit nahin kiya gaya.vah rah dekhata raha ki koee to use bulane aaega.lekin koee nahin aaya.pata lagaya.gyat huaa ki use n bulane ka karan parivar rahit hona hai.yani ki jab tak parivar n ho tab tak kisi parivarik aur samajik karyakramon men unhen aamantrit nahin kiya jaega . us din unhen vastav men bahut du:kh huaa.lekin is du:kh ko kisake samane pragat karen. ve kahate hai ,`vah akela hai use kis bat kee chinta.aa jaega ,bas, ek patr dal do.unaka bheja gaya patr use tab prapt hota hai jab karyakram ho raha hota hai ya ho chuka hota hai. yah sthiti upasthit kee jati hai.isase unako yah bahana mil jata hai ki yah sab achanak ho gaya tha .isalie aisa ho gaya hai .vagairah , vagairah. unakee pida hai ki ve apane jivan men akele hain.unakee akanksha hai ki koee to ho jo unako samajhe.unhen aadar-samman den.sneh ke do bol bolen. unase aakar koee yah poochhe ki ve kaise hai.unhone bhojan kiya hai ya nahin.koee unako ekant men kahen ki ve bhi unaka khayal rakhate hai.bas ,inhi ichchhaon kee poorti ke lie ve apana sarvasv samarpit hone ke lie taiyar ho jate hai. unhone jana hi nahin ki sukh kya hota hai. ve logon ke mukh se avashy sunate ki unake jivan men sukh-hi-sukh hai.lekin ve nahin janate un logon ko sukh kaise milata hai. vivah to unaka huaa tha .unhone unakee patni ko bahut peram diya tha.ve apani patni kee chhoti si chhoti ichchha ko turant poora karane kee koshish karate rahe.unhone patni par vishvas kiya.poora vishvas kiya.lekin ve stree ke man kee bat nahin jan paye.striyan kya chahati hai?,yah janana unake lie kathin tha.halanki ve bahut sanvedanashil the. marmagy the.zara sa ishara jan jate the kintu patni ke man kee bat nahin jan pate the.vastav men unakee patni ne unako kabhi chaha hi nahin.unakee patni unase kahin adhik chatur-sujan thi.vah chalate hue vyakti kee aakh ka kagaj chura leti thi.vah udte panchhi ke par katar leti thi.vah aakh bachakar vo sab kuchh kar leti thi jisakee kisi samany vyakti ko zara bhi sanbhavana nahin hoti thi.unakee patni channaky ke sootr ke anusar kuchh aur hi thi, ,jise unakee jaisi stree hi janati thi ya striyon ka koee janakar hi jan pata tha. bahut dinon tak ve patni ke pichhe divane bane rahe.patni ne unako ghas tak nahin dali.usamen sanvedana nahin thi.mamata ka to usamen thoda bhi vas nahin tha.bachchon ke prati bahut laparavah huaa karati thi.ant men kya huaa.hota vahi hai jo vidhi ka vidhan chahata hai. unhone sapane men bhi nahin socha tha ki ve us dorahe par khade bant joenge jaha se aage badhane ke lie unhen kaee bar sochana hoga.ek vah rah hai jahan se ve vahin vapas ja sakate hain jahan ab unhen jana sanbhav nahin,,kyonki vaha pahuchane par unhen apane nahin balki auron ke matanusar chalana hoga aur aunron ke m tanusar samajhauta karana hoga.doosara rasta us or jata hai ,jis or n to koee sathi hai n koee sahara hai aur n manzil .unhone yah doosara rasta chunana uchit samajha.bhale hi is doosare raste par akele jalana ho kintu is doosare raste akelepan men bhi shanti hai.

00 pratyek mata-pita chahate hain ki unake putra-putriyon ka vivah ho aur ve apana jivan sanvar le.bharatiy sanskriti men vidyadhyayan ke bad vivah kee parampara hai jise kiya jana ati aavashyak mana jata hai. manusmriti ke anusar vivah ek sanstha hai jisake madhyam se vyakti parivarik aur samajik jivan men pravesh karata hai.jab tak vivah nahin hota tab tak vyakti ka parivarik jivan prarambh nahin hota ,aisa mana jata hai.yah sach hai lekin yah manana tha ki abhi hari kee shiksha poorn nahin ho paee hai ,unhen aage kee padhaee jari rakhani hai taki ve

padhaee poorn karane ke bad bhavishy ke bare vichar kar saken. lekin mataji-evan-pitaji ko prathamat:hari ke vivah sanskar kee jyada chinta thi. jab hari khandavake pavar haus men dainik vetan par karyarat the.usi vakt unakee sagaee kee bat chal padi thi.filahal ve vivah ke paksh men bilkul nahin the.unake hriday men vivah kee koee dharana nahin thi. bavajood isake unake agraj aur unake shvasur unhen bahala-fusalakar ladkee dikhane le gaye . ve kahane lage ki bete pahale ladkee dekh lo .yadi ladkee pasand nahin aaye to mana kar dena .ve bole ki koee bhi ladkee kharab ya achchhi se arth nahin hai vivah to ladkaladkee men hi hota hi hai lekin unaka apana hriday vivah ke lie abhi svikati nahin deta. fir bhi hon-na ke dauran agraj tatha unake shvasur ladkee dikhane le gae. aapako pahale hi bata den ki hari hriday bahut hi sanvedanashil hai. kabhi na kahana sikha hi nahin, yah sabhi janate hai . ek din nishchit karake hari ko lekar ladkee ke pita ke ghar ja pahunche.sanbhavat:ladkeevale pahale se hi taiyar the aur intazar men the. rat ka samay tha. lagabhag aath-ya-nau baj rahe honge.ladkee ko samane laya gaya .ek pandrah-solah aayu kee ladkee ,samany kad-kathi ,gora rang,badi-badi aonkhe .balb ke halke-halke prakash men use nakh se shikh tak dekha. hari bale , ladkee ,ladkee hoti hai isamen dikhane se kya hoga.raha pasand ya napasand ka saval to samanyat:ladkiyon ek jaisi hoti hai.yah alag bat hai ki koee gori hoti hai koee kali hoti hai.koee looli-langadi ya kani hoti hai . hari ne apane agraj se poochha,``kitani padhi likhi hai.`` ``nisha abhi padh rahi hai.`` ``yah to usake padhane kee umr hai.use padhana-likhana chahie usake bad dekha jaega.`` lekin hari ke agraj aur unake shvasur kahane lage ``,pahale bat to ho jay .yadi tum kaho to use aage bhi padhayenge.`` ``yadi use aage padhane doge to thik hai. anyatha kya matalab.hamare samaj men vaise hi shiksha kee bahut jaroorat hai.`` ladkee ke mata-pita ne bhi ladkee ko aage padhane ke lie hami bhar di. ladkee abhi vivah yogy nahin thi. usakee aayu bamushkil se pandrah-solah ke aasapas hogi.hari sochane lage ki mujhase usakee umr chhupaee ja rahi hai.kaha ja raha hai ki ladkee bahut achchhi hai.jodi achchhi janchegi.donon hi nakh se shikh tak gaur varnnaZ.bilkul bhoore jaise birfale sthanon men rahane vale hote hai , thik usi tarah. hari jab skool padha karate the.ve bahut gore huaa karate the.vah gaur varn is samay bhi unake angon par jhalak raha tha .unhe parivar ke sabhi sadasy gorya kahakar pukara karate the. nisha bhi bahut gori hi hai.isalie jodi jamane ya n jamane ka prashn hi nahin uthata tha.gharaangan men khushiya hi khushiya chhane lagi . jyohi hari ne ``ha `` kah diya ,sabhi ne prasannata vyakt kee. harimohan ne rahat kee sans li.ve chahate hi the ki jitani jaldi hari ka vivah ho jae utana hi achchha hai. donon parivar ke sadasyon ne bina samay ganvaye sagaee kee rism shighr nipatane men apana bhala samajha.is vishvas ke sath bat aage badhi aur kuchh hi din ke bad samaj ke sadasyon ke samane nisha ke sath hari kee sagaee ho gaee thi. badhaeeyon ka tanta lag gaya. abhi sagaee hue adhik samay nahin huaa. do din bad hi bhopal se hari ke chachaji ne tar bheja ki hari ko mantralay ke naukari ke aadesh aaye hai .vah aakar naukari jvain kar len. sarvis kee charcha shighr hi samaj men fail gaee.samaj ke log kahane lage ki nisha sakshat lakshmi ban kar aaee hai , dekho sagaee hote hi doosare din hari ko naukari lag gaee. parivar aur samaj ke any bujurg ise ya to kismat man rahe the ya nisha ke aagaman ko bahut shubh man rahe the. sab log nisha ko shubhashish aur usakee balaiya dene lage . ek baragi hari ko bhi laga ki nisha unake lie bahut shubh hai . nisha ke prati hari ke hriday men bahut pyar umad aaya. ve bhabhi se bole,main nisha se milana chahata hoon.`` bhabhi ne turant hi nisha se milane kee anumati de di.hari gadagad ho gae. ve nisha se ja mile .us din pahali bar unhone nisha ko gahari nazar se dekha.vah gaur varn kee bahut sundar dikh

rahi thi .unhone sahasa usake mathe par apane adhar rakh diye.vah laja gaee. bole,tum vastav men bahut shubh ho ,dekho sagaee hone ke do din bad hi mujhe naukari mil gaee .ab tumhari aur meri padhaee ke lie koee badha utpann nahin hogi . `` us din sham ve nisha ko khandava ke steshan se lekar van vibhag kee narsari tak ghumane le gaye.us din unaka man atyant prasann tha.ve sochane lage,yah mere ahobhagy hai ki aisi ladkee ke sath mera vivah ho raha hai jisake charan shubh hai ,sanbhavat:vah lakshmi banakar mere pas aaee ho . main dhany dhany ho gaya .`` doosare din hari bhopal chale aaye aur mantralay men naukari jvain kar li. naukari men aane ke bad hari yada`-kada khandavaaa jaya karate rahe taki is dauran nisha se mulakat bhi ho sake. nisha ke mata-pita bhi use bhej dete the. halanki us samay samaj men sagaee ke bad ladkeladakee ka milana achchha nahin mana jata tha .lekin sab janate the ki hari sabase alag kism ka ladka hai aur kisi ko koee aapatti nahin honi chahie . nisha ,unake bhabhi kee chacheri bahan hoti hai.bhabhi kahati thi ``,hari tum nisha ko apani bahan jaisi rakhana . use kabhi koee kasht mat hone dena .`` ve bhabhi ko kahate ,`` bhabhi jaise aap chahogi main vaisa hi karoonga .`` bhabhi aksar majak karate rahati thi.unhone kaha `` koee vyakti apani patni ko bahan jaise kaise rakhega.`` bhabhi ji hans deti thi. samay dhire-dhire sarakane laga aur thik sagaee ke do varsh bad hari aur nisha ka vivah kiya jana tay huaa. vivah ke aamantran patr rishtedaron ko vitarit kiye gaye . jis samay vivah ka aamantran patr hari ke samane aaya.ve padh kar dang rah gae kyoki usamen unaka nam badalakar chandakant rakha gaya tha. pahale to unhone socha kisi aur ke vivah ka kard hoga lekin jaldi hi pata chala ki yah vivah ka nimantrannapatr unake hi vivah ka tha.mata-pita se poochhane par bataya gaya ki hari nam se vivah ka muhurt nikal nahin raha tha isalie ghar nam badalana pada.unhe yah janakar bahut du:kh huaa . vivah men door door se mehaman aaye. pitaji ne ghar-aangan men tarah-tarah kee sajavat kee.gane-bajane hone lage.mahilaen mangalagan gane lagi.samajik pritha ke anusar jo jo bhi sanskar aur vidhiyon honi hoti ve sab hone lage. charon taraf haldi aur ubatan kee sugandh se vatavaran mahak utha. lagn mandap men aam ke toran lagaye gaye.kul devata kee pooja aur kul devi kee pooja vidhi anusar brahamn ke vdara karaee gaee. ghar men pahale se hi pir kee bhi pooja hoti chali aa rahi hai .at: haldi lagane ke pahale roza rakha jata hai aur misjad se maulana aakar namaj ada karavata hai. pirababa ko bati ka churama chadhaya jata hai. kul devi kee pooja men ek chhote bakare kee bali di jati hai. jab bakare ke bali kee rasm kee bat uthi .unhone kaha ,bakare kee bali n di jay balki usake badale aate se bakare kee pratima banakar devi ke samane us pratima kee bali di jay kyonki vedon men bali ka arth kisi jiv kee hatya nahin kaha gaya hai balki jiv ke sthan par jau ya gehoonn ke aate kee pratima bana kar bali di jane ka pravadhan hai. hari ke samajhane par pitaji-mataji man gaye the. is manane ka ek bahut bada karan yah bhi tha ki karnatak se samaj ke jangam aaye hue the aur usako hari kee bat bahut sahi lagi.unhone bhi hari ke tathy ko svikar kiya . is tarah bakare kee bali tal gaee. samaj ke riti-niti ke anusar pooja ke karyakram bina kisi rookavat ke sampann ho gae.parivar ke paramparik poojari jangam svami bhi bahut prasann ho gae. pooja-path ke bad subah das baje haldi ka karyakram tha. mahilavarg dulhe ko lakadi ke pithe par baithakar mangalagan karate hue haldi lagati hai. sataven-aanthave dashak tak dulhe ko tin-din tak haldi lagati thi.dulhe ko haldi lagane ke bad bachi huee haldi dulhan ke lie bhej di jati hai. hari ke agraj ke vivah ke samay sat din tak dulhadulhan ko haldi lagane ka riti-rivaj tha.hari ke vivah tak yah rivaj tin-din tak simat kar rah gaya. nauve aur dasave dashak ke bad ab matr ek din dulha-dulhan ko haldi lagaee jane lagi . isaka bahut bada karan yah ho sakata hai ki is bhagamabhag jivanashaili men ab kisi ke pas itana samay nahin raha ki ve tin din ya sat din tak vivah ka utsav manaye . santave dashak ke poorv samaj men log milajul kar raha karate the.ek hi kutumb hota tha .sabalog milajulakar vivah ka

utsav manaya karate the.ab parivar simat gae hai.naukari-peshe ke lie door-door ke shaharon men ja base hai parinamasvaroop jaise shariron ke fasale badh gae usi tarah dilon ke fasale bhi badh gae. log ab samay par jyada dhyan dene lage hai. tisare din sandhya ke samay barat ghar se ravana huee thi.dulhan ka mandap matr dedh kilomitar kee doori par tha. parivar aur samaj ke log barati the. barat men n ghodi thi aur hi any koee sadhan ,at: pitaji ne bailagadi men bithakar barat nikali.nachate-gate-bajate barat samay par dulhan ke mandap pahunnchi. hari ka man dulhan roop men nisha ko dekhane ka bahut ho raha tha. sangaee ke do sal bad dulhan ke roop men nisha vastav men bilkul chond hi lag rahi thi. nisha ka haldi se aur adhik roop khil gaya tha.gori ladkiyon haldi lag jane ke bad aur adhik khili-khili dikhaee deti hai yadi vah sundar hai to vah aur adhik sundar dikhaee deti hai. isi tarah nisha haldi lage tan aur dulhan ke jode men bahut hi sundar lag rahi thi. halanki us samay byootipalar ka jamana nahin tha ,dulhanon ka vaise hi samanyat: sajaya savara jata tha. tis par bhi nisha bahut sundar lag rahi thi. jangam vivah ke sanskar ke mantr padh rahe the aur hari kanakhiyon se nisha ke roop ko nihar rahe the.vah bhi prasann vadana poornnamasi ke chond ke samaj damak rahi thi. jyonhi jangam ne mantr poore kiye ek doosare ke gale men varamala dal di. baje bajane lage.shahanaee goonj uthi . gramofon vale ne filmi git bajaya.baratiyon ne fool barasaye aur mahilaen mangalagan gane lagi.lagn mandap men prasannata kee lahar daud padi.hari ke agraj donon anujon ne khoob aatishabaji kee.navayuvak nachane lage. door door se barati aaye hue the.lagn mandap se bahar bhi baratiyon kee bhid lagi huee thi.vriddh ek doosare ke gale mil rahe the. jangam vdara pun:mangalacharan prarambh ho gaya aur agni ke sat fere dalavaye gaye.hari sochane lage ki ye sat fere kya hote the. jangam ne sat feron ke bad dulha-dulhan ko sat vachanon ko duharane ka kaha aur kaha ki kaho ,ham donon kabhi ek doosare ka sath nahin chhodege.sukh-du:kh men ek doosare kee seva karenge. aadi .isake bad bujugo ke charan spasht karaye gaye.badon ne aashirvad diya aur hamaumravalon ne badhaiyo di . hari ke samaj men dahej kee pritha kabhi nahin rahi. pichhale do sau varshon ka itihas raha hai ki dulhan paksh se dahej kee mang nahin kee jati aur n hi dahej ke lie dabav dala jata hai. aaj samaj poornnat: to nahin fir bhi kuchh kuchh shikshit jaroor hai lekin is shiksha ke bavajood koee n to dahej mangata hai aur n koee dahej deta hai. parinnay sanskar poorn hone ke bad prithanusar dulhan ko vida kiya gaya.hari ka hriday pulakit ho raha tha.use lag raha tha ki vah duniya men sabase jyada bhagyashali hai. jise itani sundar dulhan mili . vivah ke samay hari kee aayu baees varsh tatha nisha kee aayu matr solah-satrah varsh kee rahi hogi.unhe ab tak nisha kee aayu ke bare men bataya nahin gaya tha.aaj bhi ve nisha kee aayu se poornnat:anabhigy hi hain. khair, dulhal kee vidaee ho gaee.hari ke hriday me laddoo foot rahe the .ve bar-bar nisha ka shreemukh dekhate jate aur use dekh muskarate jate.nisha dulhal ke paridhan men khoobasoorat lag rahi thi.vah bar-bar dekhati jati aur man hi man muskarati jati.usakee saheliya gali bhare git ga rahi thi. unakee galiya bahut achchhi lag rahi thi.vivah samaroh men galiya bataur badhaee ke gaee jati hai. is samay vo hi git gaye ja rahe the. jitani gori nisha thi usi ke mukabale hari bhi utane hi gore aur svasthy tha.donon kee jodi dekhate hi banati thi.barati mahilaen bar-bar balaiya le rahi thi. dulhan lekar barat jab ghar pahunnchi , unaka man bahut prasann tha. ghar aaee huee dulhan kee aarati utari gaee .use dehari par karane ko kaha gaya.mangalagiton ke sath dulhan ne grih pravesh kiya. vivah men aae hue mehamanon se ghar-aangan bhara huaa tha.gane-bajane hone lage.doosare din dulhan ke aane kee khushi men dulhen kee or se samuhik bhoj rakha jata hai jaisa ki aaj risepshan men sabhi ko aamantrit kiya jata hai . dulhan ke paksh ke baratiyon ko bhi aamantrit kiya gaya . mandap bhara huaa tha.mahilaen mangalagan ga rahi thi . maddham maddham shahanaee baj rahi thi. mandap ke bahar kafi bhid ekatr ho gaee . jis din risepshan ka din tha us din ghar -aangan men bahut chahal pahal thi.mehamanon ka tanta laga huaa tha.aangan men mehaman pangat jim rahe the.hari ke sas-sasur aur unakee

taraf ke log aur aasapas ke ganv ke log bhi aaye hue the.us din satyanarayan kee pooja ka karyakram bhi tha . din me hi pooja-havan aadi sampann ho gae the. hari apane mitron ke sath thithauli men vyast the . tabhi n jane hari ko kya sujhee ve dulhal nisha ko dekhane uth khade hue. ve dulhan ko khojate-khojate pooja ghar men achanak ja pahunnche .pooja ghar ka drishy dekhakar ve stimbhat ho gaya .ve dekhate hain ki unaka anuj kishan aur nisha aalinganabaddh hai. do yuva tan-man ekakar ho gae.yuvavastha ka nasha vyakti ko madahosh kar deta hai.yah us samay aur adhik pragadh ho jata hai jab do tan do man apane nijatv ko khokar kisi auron ke hone lagate hai ya ho jate hai.tab ve do tan-do-man ek doosare se vilag hone kee pida bardast nahin kar pate.donon ka lava foot padta hai.bina soche-samajhe kuchh bhi karane ko taiyar ho jate hai.aisi sthiti men ve kyon n ek doosare men kho jaen! kisi bhi tarah ka aakarshan thik usi tarah andha hota hai jis tarah kanoon ko andha mana gaya hai.do tan-man ka aakarshan bhi andha hi hota hai.is andhepan men sahi-galat ka andaza lagana kathin ho jata hai. is samay ve donon ek doosare ke adharon ka rasamrit pan karane men mast hai.nisha ke vastr bikhar rahe the.vah dulihan paridhaaan men sajidhaji huee thi.kishan se bichhoh ka du:kh bhi use ho raha tha.usi tarah kee pida kishan ke hriday me bhi vyapt thi kintu nisha ka vivah ho jane se ab kuchh bhi sanbhav nahin tha.aise men kya kiya jay unhen pata nahin tha.isi vichhoh kee pida men aaj ve donon aalinganabaddh ho ek doosare men kho gae the.unhen mahasoos hi nahin ho paya ki hari aae hue hai. sanbhavat:unhen anuman nahin hoga ki hari anayas is tarah aa jaenge. hari ko dekhate hi donon sakucha gaye aur unakee or dekhane lage.choonnki kishan ,hari ke anuj hai. use ve kis tarah kahe aur nisha abhi abhi aaee huee naee dulhan hai ,use kis tarah samajhae. yah unake lie bahut kathin samay tha. hari ke hriday men tarah tarah ke vichar uthane lage. sochane lage , shayad yah vivah galat jagah huaa ya dulhe ke chayan men ya dulhan ke chayan men kahin koee galati ho gaee hai. unhone samajhadari se kam lena uchit samajha.tatkshan jakar mataji-pitaji ,bhaiya-bhabhi aur rishtedaron ko jakar sthiti kee janakari di aur kaha`` yah din dikhane kee apeksha aap log isi kshan kishan aur nisha ka vivah kar do . mujhe koee aapatti nahin hai.aage koee bat n uthe isalie yah karana uchit hoga. mainne pahale hi kaha tha ki mujhe vivah nahin karana hai . ab aisi sthiti utpann ho gaee hai to badanami n ho isase behatar hai ki aap log in donon ka vivah isi samay kar do.takee ghar kee bat ghar men hi dabi rahe. `` kishan ko vivah ke sapane pal bhar men mitti men milate dikhaee dene lage. unhen aisa lagane laga yah mera vivah nahin aur kuchh ho raha hai. unaka man ghabarane laga .ab kya kiya ja sakata hai. yah aisi sthiti niniZt ho gaee jise n to svikara ja sakata aur n hi nakara ja sakata.yani ki n nigalate bane aur n ugalate bane. us vakt bujugo ne ain-ken prakaren samajha bujhakar mamala shant kar diya . lekin unaka man ashant tha.vivah kee rasme poori karane ke kuchh din bad nisha ,bhaiya-bhabhi aur hari bhopal chale aaye . bhopal aane ke bad hari ke man men sakaratmak vicharon kee lahar uthi .ve sochane lage,nahin , vah ek sapana tha jise mainne sanbhavat:galat dekha ho.`` hari us ghatana ko bhula jana chahate the. bhaiya-bhabhi ne donon ke lie ek alag kamara le liya kyonki ek hi kamare men naye vivahit jode ke sath kaise rah sakate the. bhopal men nisha ke sath hari kee yah pahali rat thi. vah tukur-tukur unhen dekha karati rahi .ve sochane lage``nisha ko aisa n lage ki main use pyar nahin karata .`` nve sari rat nisha ko apane sine lagakar usaka chandramukh dekhate rahe.man men tarah-tarah ke tufan uth rahe the.vivah kee pahali rat suhagarat kahalati hai lekin yah kaisi rat ki yahon man ke kisi kone men us risepshanavala drishy chubhane laga. man men vichar uthate rahe ki kisi ne apani beti mujhe de di yah kya kam hai . ab farj banata hai ki kisi kee beti dulhal banakar aaee to use khush rakhana chahie. suhagarat ke anubhav svapn se lagane lage. yah kaisi suhagarat jahon khushi honi chahie vahon is tarah du:kh ke badal mandarane lage. din to kisi tarah gujar jata tha kintu jyonhi rat hoti nisha gumasum ho jaya karati aur ab to vah rone bhi lagi . vivah ke bad

stree-puroosh ke sambandh n keval ek doosare ke prati eemanadar hote balki poornnat:samarpit bhi hote hai. unhe lagane laga sanbhavat:nisha kee aayu ab bhi vivah yogy nahin hai.lekin jaisa ki vivah yogy aayu hona chahie tha vah aayu nisha kee thi hi fir yah sthiti kyon upasthit ho rahi hai. abhi ek saptah bhi nahin huaa tha ki nisha ne mayake jane kee jid kar li .use bahut samajhaya ``,bachchon kee tarah aise jid nahin karani chahie.aaj to tum chali jaongi lekin bar-bar aisa nahin ho sakata.jis ladkee ka vivah ho jata hai ,use tajindagi apane pati ke ghar hi rahana hota hai.yah shashvat saty hai.`` itana samajhane ke bad bhi vah apani jid pakade rahi.ve use turant khandava pahuncha kar aaye. lautakar ve du:khi bhi bahut hue.aakhir kiya kya sakata hai.sanvedanashil hriday hari apane pran nyauchhavar karane ke lie aatur hai.udhar hai ki nisha ek pal bhi hari ke sath bitane ke lie taiyar nahin.mayake men bhi use samajhaeesh di gaee.ek bar ladkee ka vivah ho jay to pati ka ghar usaka apana ghar hota hai.vah vaha chahe jaise rah sakati hai.vah apane man kee malakin hai. nisha ke mayake men sabhi janate hain ki hari ,nisha ke upayukt hi hai kintu nisha ko ve footi aankh nahin suhate.aise kaise jindagi chal padegi.ab sab kuchh ho gaya hai.kisi tarah bhi aise rishto ko thukarane ke parinam sukhad nahin ho sakate.yah bat nisha kee samajh se pare the.vah yah sab nahin janana chahati.vah keval itana janati hai ki unhen hari achchhe nahin lagate.usane vivah ke pahale hi bata diya hota yah sab lekin ab to sab kuchh ho gaya hai.vivah koee bachchon ka khel nahin hai.chahe jab khel liya aur chahe jab mita diya. hazar bar nisha ko samajhane ke bad antat: nisha ke mayake vale use bhopal le aae. is tarah vah mah men tin bar mayake jati aur mayake vale use mah men tin bar bhopal pahuchane chale aate.yah kram lagatar chalate raha. donon ke mata-pita ne bahut koshish kee ki jis kisi tarah nisha sasural men hi rahe kintu vah manane ko taiyar nahin thi . bahut dinon tak usane rone ke alava kuchh nahin kaha . ek sandhya ,donon parivar ke sadasyon ne vichar kiya ki in donon ko aamane-samane bithakar is kathinaee kee sulah kee jae.nisha aur hari ko bulaya gaya.aamane-samane bithaya gadhya.poochha gaya ,hari ko kya kathinaee hai.nisha ko kya kathinaee hai.hari bole``vivah ko vivah kee tarah nirvahan kiya jana bahut jaroori hai.yadi koee patni ya pati vivah ka nirvahan nahin karate to bich ka koee rasta nikala jana chahie. bas ,mujhe isake alava kuchh nahin kahana hai.`` antat: nisha ne kah hi diya ki inaka munh bandar kee tarah dikhata hai.ye mujhe achchhe nahin lagate . poochhane par vah batati rahi ki nahin inakee koee galati nahin lekin ye mujhe achchhe nahin lagate . nisha kee is samasya ka nidan kisi ke pas nahin tha. sare log use itana hi samajhate rahe ki ab tumhara vivah hari se ho gaya hai.vivah ke bad pati ka ghar ladkee ka apana ghar hota hai.use har kisi tarah samajhaya gaya .itana samajhane ke bad bhi usane apane mukh se ek shabd nahin nikala.parivar ke sadasyon ne samajha ,sanbhavat:nisha ab sab samajh gaee hai.vah ab pahale se jyada behatar rahegi.un sabako aisa pratit hone laga. 0 isi bich kishan ke gale ke nasoor kee takalif badh gaee . khandava men chikitsakon ne bataya ki turant hi gale ke nasoor ka aopareshan karavana aavashyak hai anyatha yah nasoor bahut badh sakata hai. use bhopal laya gaya.hamidiya aspatal men gale ke nasoor ka aopareshan huaa.aopareshan ke dauran vah behosh tha.kuchh din tak usakee chikitsa aspatal men hi chalati rahi . bad men aspatal se chhutti de di gaee. aspatal se discharj ke bad kishan ko ghar laya gaya. roshanapura men ek kamare ka makan tha jo hari aur nisha ke lie paryapt tha.tisare sadasy ke lie is ek kamare ke makan men rahane kee koee gunjaish nahin thi kintu kishan ke aopareshan ke bad use chikitsarth aur dekh-rekh ke lie bhopal men hari ke alava any koee vikalp nahin tha.halanki bade bhaiya-bhabhi bhopal men the

kintu ve nahin chahate the ki unake sath koee bhaee muft men rahen. aktoobar ka mahina tha.kishan ko aspatal se ghar laya gaya tha.usake gale men abhi ghav taja the.use poori tarah se chikilsa aur aaram kee aavashyakata thi.kishan ko medisin de kar sula diya tha. hari aur nisha bhi fashaZ par bistar bichha kar let gae . hari,bade bhaiya-bhabhi se alag rahane lage the. bhabhi ji aur ve chahate the ki ve unhen apana poora vetan pratimah de diya kare.ve kaha karate the ki tum hamen poora vetan de diya karo ham tum donon ka mahine bhar ka kharch utha legen .poore mahine ke lie das roopaya jeb kharch ke lie diya karenge. poora vetan unhen dena ganvara nahin huaa. unhone kaha ,tum donon ka kharch ham logo kee apeksha jyada hai.panch kilo dal aur pachas kilo gehoo tum logon ka ek mah ka kharch hai.hari samajh gaye the ki ab bade bhaiya unaka shoshan karana chahate hai. jo unhen ganvara nahin tha. aisi sthiti men unhen apana hisab kitab alag rakhana hi pasand aaya.tab se unhone apana sabakuchh alag hi kar liya tha. us rat kishan kee tabiyat jyada nashad thi.vah medisin lekar so gaya tha.hari sone ke upakram men the .daktar se davaiyan likhavaee thi.daktar ne sari davaen badal kar likhi thi.sara din yahon-vahon bhagamabham men hari bahut thak gae the.isalie letate hi unhen lagabhag nind lag chukee thi.aadhi rat ke bad kuchh khataka sa huaa .hari uth baithe.kamare men maddham maddham diye kee roshani thi . nisha bistar par nahin thi.unhone nisha ko idhar udhar dekha.vah kishan ke pas leti huee thi.kishan gahari nind men so rahe the.nisha ko is tarah kishan ke pas lete dekh hari bole,yah kya ,yah achchhi bat nahin hai chalo aao niche aa jao. vah chupachap bina koee pratikar kar kishan ke pas se utar bistar men aakar let gaee. doosari or karavat badalakar nisha bhi let gaee.thodi hi der men hari ko nindramagn ho gae. subah nind khuli . kamare ka daravaza khula tha.nisha pahale jag chukee thi. lekin nisha kamare men nahin thabh.hari ne socha shayad vah nal par pani bharane gaee hogi .subah ka samayatha nal ka pani subah sat baje aa jata hai.pani ke lie lain lagani hoti hai.yah sochakar ve fir bistar men let gayo.lagabhag aath baje tak ve bistar men hi lete rahe.sooraj oopar chadh aa gaya tha. kafi der ke bad bhi nisha nahin lauti . hari uthakar pani ke lie nal par gaye.nal par koee nahin tha. unhone socha nisha sanbhavat: nityakriya ke lie gaee hogi.at: ab tak bhi ve samany rahe lekin jab dekha ki vah do ghante ke bad bhi nahin lauti tab chinta badh gaee. hari use khojane bannaganga gaye.roshanapura ke nivasi pratidin nityakriya aur snanadi ke lie bannaganga hi jate the.isilie unhone socha nisha bannaganga par hogi.makan malik shankar bhaiya aur bhabhi se poochha . kahin nisha ka pata nahin mil raha tha. subah ke das baje the.unhone bade bhaiya-bhabhi ji ko bataya.unhone koee dhyan nahin diya.chachaji ke ghar jakar dekha.vah vahan bhi nahin nisha nahin thi. ve lautakar ghar aaye. kishan ko bahut tej jvar chadha huaa tha. lekin ab kiya ja sakata hai. kishan unake apane bhaee hai.chhota hone ke karan vah unhen priy tha . isalie use kuchh kahana uchit nahin samajha .bas itana hi bataya ki n jane tumhari bhabhi kahon chali gaee. ve nisha ko dhoondhane nyoo market gaye . relve steshan gaye. rel ke dibbe-dibbe men talash kee li . bagichon me gaye . kahin vah dikhaee nahin di. ve hatash hokar chhote talab kinare ja baithe. bahut der tak talab kinare chintatur baithe rahe.koee rasta soojh nahin raha tha.jane unhen kya soojhee ve chalakar jahangirabad thane pahunche . ti aaee ko apani kah sunaee . nisha kee tasvir dikhaee. gyat huaa ki nisha budhavara thane men hai. ve turant hi budhavara thane ja pahuncha.thane men nisha ko dekhakar sukoon mila.ti aaee se mile. unhone bataya ,yah ladkee dhobi ghat par aatmahatya karane ke lie ja rahi thi.vahan se use pakad kar laya hai. tum usake pati ho , chalo andar chalo.tum par is ladakee ne iljam lagaya hai ki isako tumane bahut mara hai aur use aatmahatya karane ke lie ukasaya hai. pulis ne hari ko salakon ke pichhe dal diya . unhone pulis se nivedan kiya ki is ghatana kee janakari unake chachaji aur bade bhaee ko deni hai.unhone svikriti de di.chachaji ke aafis men fon kar diya.khabar pate hi ve daude chale aaye. hari thane ke lonk-ap men band kar die ge aur nisha ko tiaaee ke kamare men hi bitha diya

gaya.chachaji ke aane par unako poori ghatana sunadi. pulis ka kahana tha ki ladkee ne riport likhavaee hai ,isalie ab hari ko majistret ke samane khada karana hi hoga . ab kary aaj nahin kal hoga.tab tak ke lie ve chahe to nisha ko apane sath ghar le ja sakate hai.chachaji aur bade bhaiya ne nisha ko sath men ghar le jane se inkar kar diya. chachaji ka kahana tha ki nisha ko ghar le jane par kahin aisa n ho ki ye ladkee bijali ke bord men hath ya anguli dal kar aatmahatya karane kee koshish karen. at:chachaji aur bade bhaiya vapas ghar laut gaye . budhavar ka din tha. rat ho chali thi.ab tak hari pulis lok-ap men band the. nisha ko tiaaee ke kamare men bitha diya gaya. pulis karmiyon ka jamavada badhata ja raha tha.har koee pulisakamiZ oolajoolool prashn karata.badale men ek bhaddi si gali de deta. aisa lagane laga jaise yah pulis thana nahin hai, gundon ka layasensashuda adada hai.yaha har pulisavala kisi gunde se kam gunon ko nahin darshata balki vah gunde se jyada ashlil aur harami ho jata hai.lagata hai pulis men bharati hone ke bad vyakti ka vyaktitv manaviy n hokar pashavik ho jata hai.yah sthiti dekh rooh kanp gaee. aadhi rat se jyada ka samay ho raha hoga.thane men aane-janevalon kabh aagat tham gaee.rod par aavagaman bhi lagabhag band ho gaya tha.ti aaee bhi chale gaye the. din kee shiftavale pulis karmachariyon ke jane ke bad rat kee shiftavale pulis karmachari thane men aane lage.do pulis rat men gasht lagane ke lie purani siti kee or chal die.keval char-chh:pulis javan thane men rook gae. hari ghabara rahe the.is tarah kee pratikool sthiti unake jivan men pahali bar aaee.halanki unhone aisi koee galati nahin kee thi.jisase unhe lok-ap men band kar diya jay.lekin pulis se ulajhane ka matalab hai ki aur adhik musibat men fans jana.ve bechain hote ja rahe the. lok-ap men bahut garami ho rahi thi aur peshab kee bahut badaboo aa rahi thi.lok-ap men do aparadhi bhi band the.vahon baithane ya sone ke lie koee samuchit vyavastha nahin thi. lok-ap kalakothari jaisa lag raha thi..machchhar bhinabhina rahe the.chhat par pankha nahin tha.unake pas aisi koee chij nahin thi jisase ki hava li ja saken.ek to garami-andhera-silanayukt lok-ap ,peshab kee badaboo aur machchharon ke aatank ke karan kafi takalif ho rahi thi . unakee bechaini badhati ja rahi thi. kya kiya ja sakata tha aisi musibat men, unakee samajh men kuchh nahin aa raha tha. rat karib do-tin baje pulis karmachariyon ke irade kuchh badale-badale se lage.ek bola``yar!aaj to thane men bahut achchha mal aaya huaa hai.chakhakar dekhana chahie.`` ``ye us harami kee bivi hai.jo lok-ap men band hai.`` ``to use lok-ap men hi band rahane do.vah yaha aane se raha.`` ``kahate to tum bahut thik.achchha,ek-ek karake nipatate hai.pahara dena bhi jaroori hai n!`` ``thik hai.pahale main nipatata hoo.tum pahara dete rahana.ssala kuchh bola to dapat dena.kuchh nahin kar sakata vo harami.`` nsabane milakar zoron se thahaka lagay.ek bola``chalo shuroo ho javo.jab tak ham pahara dete hai.`` ek pulis ka javan thasake ke sath nisha ke pas gaya.use niche se oopar tak ghoor-ghoor kar dekhane laga.nisha ko nind lag chukee thi.vah farsh par hi let kar so rahi thi.pulis ke javab ne kapade utare aur nisha ko daboch liya.anayas is tarah ke sparsh se nisha hadbada gaee.vah chikh uthi.pulis javan se use zoradar ek thappad mara. vah badbadaya``ssali haramajadi! chillati hai.chop nahi to boti-boti chaba daloonga. chop madar cho-----` nisha rone lagi .pulis javan ne nisha ko buri tarah se apani majaboot bahon men jakad liya.usakee sadi utar kar alag fenk di.blaus men hath dalakar jamakar masak diya.nisha chikh padi aur rone lagi. ``nahin ````nahin chhod do nahin `nahin aisa mat karo nahin nahin mujhe chhod do nahin nahin .`` pulis javan par haivaniyat savar thi.usane nisha kee boti-boti noch dali.jab vah skhalit ho gaya nisha ko rota-bilakhata chhod diya.hari ne nisha kee rone kee aavaj suni.ve chintit ho gae.thane men is tarah kisi nari ko rat menn rokana uchit nahin hai.bhaiya aur chacha yadi nisha ko sath le jate to use is tarah kee takalif nahin hoti.unhone aavaz dekar pulis javan ko bulaya.pulis javan

un par dapat pada. ve bole- , `` bhaee use takalif ho rahi hogi . use mere samane le aao . lekin pulis javan nahin mana . dapat pada . bola`` itani chinta hai to kyon mara usako haramakhor pulis javan ke asabhy vyavahar aur usake dapatane par ve chup ho gaye. pulis javan ne ek bhadadi si ashlil gali di. nisha us rat thane men rat bhar rote rahi. vah ``nahinn hin chhod do``karati rahi aur pulis vale usake sath jor-jabaradasti karate rahe.yah pulisavalon kee haivaniyat thi.hari ko bhi janaboojhakar lok-ap men rakha gaya.jisase ki pulisakarmiyon ko manamani ka poora avasar mil jay. chachaji yadi nisha ko sath men le jate to pulis ke javanon ko kabhi aisa dushkrity karane ka avasar nahin milata. pulis ke kuchh badachalan karmachari desh seva ke nam par pulis ko ganda karane se nahin chukate. rat jis kisi tarah se bit gaee. hari ko pulisavalon se itani sakht nafarat aur ghrina ho gaee hai ki ab kisi pulis javan ka chehara dekhana bhi pasand nahin karate. subah das baje chachaji aur bade bhaiya aaye. pulis us din guroovar ko unhen majistret ke samaksh khada karanevali thi.chachaji ne hari kee jamanat ke