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Meditation is pure magic! At least this is the only way I can express what has happened in the case of Dahlia. She started coming to the meditation happenings in the beginning of March 05. She was new in meditation and did not know much about it. She refused to read about it. No books - no headucation... She got no verbal instructions in meditation from me. She decided only to listen to what would happen in her own Body and Soul and follow that. What has happened since March 05 is a Divine Miracle - nothing less. She has the courage just to follow one thing: surrender: And this makes all words and theories from outside utterly unimportant. She has got and gets all knowledge from within. She has become her own Truth and in this sense she is a light on the path of Lions. And out of the blue she has become a most powerful healer. I know she will hate this... But I have to say: She is the Boss! Please note that there are as many inward journeys as there are human beings. Don't compare your journey with Dahlias! Dahlia Salem Larsen Aisha The feminine element of cosmic fire a th Cosmic Journal 8. March 7. March 25.Februar 7. February 6. February 4. February Journal of this past week 7 th - 12 th of February 06

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Meditation is pure magic! At least this is the only way I can express what has happened in the case of Dahlia. She started coming to the meditation happenings in the beginning of March 05. She was new in meditation and did not know much about it. She refused to read about it. No books - no headucation... She got no verbal instructions in meditation from me. She decided only to listen to what would happen in her own Body and Soul and follow that. What has happened since March 05 is a Divine Miracle - nothing less. She has the courage just to follow one thing: surrender: And this makes all words and theories from outside utterly unimportant. She has got and gets all knowledge from within. She has become her own Truth and in this sense she is a light on the path of Lions. And out of the blue she has become a most powerful healer. I know she will hate this... But I have to say: She is the Boss! Please note that there are as many inward journeys as there are human beings. Don't compare your journey with Dahlias!

Dahlia Salem Larsen

Aisha

The feminine element of cosmic fire

SMS from Dahlia:

So clear it is in this now to this body...

My body feel me.. it has right this minute received from me the knowledge of feeling, that makes it possible for it to see, feel and

know... That I am not it! And then... who am I?

I am you... I am/you are the very essence of every

living being... such a simple feeling... Yet so hard for this as every body to attain... I see

through the mirror of this body. Right this now...

06-03-8 - 18:22

Cosmic Journal

20. March 8. March 7. March 25.Februar 23. February 15. February 7. February 6. February 4. February 1. February

Journal of this past week 7th - 12th of February 06

The story of this past week, contains only words of victory after victory in the celebration of love and life. Energy took a turn. To put it short, energy kicked me off my feet.

Bodyreaction And what turned out to be an end to the road of chest pains as a sign to let go, turned out to become something different – and yet exactly the same. My body's work in letting go, turned out to take me to the point, where I now regularly, and as of today once a day, go into a trance. What happens exactly is that my body is turned off like an electrical device, and all that remains functioning is my lungs and my heart. As the body goes down, the lungs also lower their function. Deep breaths are unnecessary – uses too much power for a body being out of function. Instead lungs deliver minimum capacity. That is what it feels like. The rest of the body is without power and it is not possible for me to lift a finger or wiggle a toe until God has finished his conversation with me. At first it took me many hours to return to full body functionality, but the last three days have taught my body to kick back hard and get back on my feet as soon as me, as consciousness, has returned. Oh what a joy.

Trance and expanded consciousness I discovered the state of trance already before I was kicked off my feet. During sleep a week before this. But every day my body gets more and I get better and better at going down there. Down through the door to nothingness. For every trance I get, more and more healing energy is poured into my body and I come out feeling exactly the same… but a little stronger yet. I see now, that the reason my body didn’t want to sleep at night, before this period, was because it would rather stay awake than surrender to, what it could not escape – which has happened during these last 7 days. The part of letting entirely go of all body-energy, in order to come as close as possible to the bottom of the whole of nothingness, with out letting the body go entirely… All of this in order for me to discover the state of consciousness not sleeping and not being awake – being out of this world, but being aware.

All of my life I have fallen into the hole, and right through the door to sleep, as most people. Only been aware of the three states – awake, on the way to sleep and being asleep. But as of now my consciousness have expanded to become aware of the possibility to pass the door of sleep. And go further down into the hole of nothingness.

The sense of falling one sometimes get right before falling asleep, is falling into this same hole. Through the trances I am getting more and more aware of how to move myself past the door of sleep and go deeper and deeper down the hole of Nothingness. The place to be, which I never had an idea was there. I don’t loose myself going there, I just have no idea of time and have no thoughts. Am just awareness. The body closes down to minimum functionality as earlier described, which it doesn’t do while sleeping.

The feeling of carrying the energy When I’m in between trances now, it still feels very much the same being me. Except from the fact that I have a silent humming noice, like a generator buzzing, inside my body. All that feels different is the feeling of this energy as a silent and soft motion - A curve with movements ever so soft and light, that you have to look closely to become aware that the motion exists.

Right now have a little pain in my left arm from the trance of yesterday where God turned up full volume on this arm, which turned into unbearable pain. Felt like the pain in the stomach, when I gave birth to my son. The pain was not accompanied by nor contractions or a baby… I am fairly sure… I actually made Gunnar check, ha ha ha.

I also now know why I got this pain. I had expectations to where the trance would take me, that made me go down again after a journey returned safely – I knew not it was over.

Going down there by own self made will, had the result of the pain unbearable. I was not

able to let go of this, until I let go of the thought of, what was going to happen. And this took several hours.

The pain in the arm exists now because such high cosmic voltage was sent through my arm. Gunnar told me he had felt my arm as a total power plant.

I now know, that I can never go down there by own will, only when I am summoned. Because the body is not ready to take in more energy before integrating the last planted.

Journal of this past week

7th of February – Going down… This day I went through a period, where the part of letting go felt different. My entire body got so heavy that I had to lie down. Felt like my arm weighed a ton alone. My fingers started to sleep. Before long both of the arms. Did I try to move it, electricity shot up and down the area which was sleeping… characteristic stinging like a thousand bees. The chest pain that normally was a sign to let go, moved to the stomach. Further down to my uterus. My body was crying and moaning. Then all of a sudden gone. Every sign – in mere seconds the sleeping of the arms were gone too. Laughing in relief, I ate some food. The entire body felt like a power plant. Especially and mostly both of the arms.

I had a break… And mistakenly thought that this time, I had hit some kind of climax, which I kind of had. Until 20 minutes later when everything was back. Ha ha ha. Pains included… but somehow different. Felt like my body had to learn the lesson of not moving by which action to take or not to take to be in pain. As though pain was used as a tool for God to manipulate my body to do the right thing.

From this day my body started to sleep at night again. This night for 5 hours.

8th of February – desires turning the way of Gods will New rhythm of the body. New rules. This day I couldn’t use my muscles without them hurting. If I was lying still there was no pain. Body was learning to let go the hard way. If I moved the body energy forced fire to the area I just spent energy from. Filling me up once again, for the energy to do its job.

Every usage of energy. Even talking demanded so much. When I relaxed the body, it stopped breathing several times that day. As if the body was practicing the part of letting go of everything but lungs and heart, but failed a couple of times before learning to do the job. When my breath started again, it felt very uncomfortable. I felt no hunger or thirst. But still did both by own will, when given a short period of extra power. Energy forced me to spend my entire day lying on the back. It felt like energy was running right below the skin and that pressure added to any one spot on the body made the free flow stop at that spot, to cause pain.

Then it came to that control of the energy in the body was restricted – as I was not able to do the things that before caused me pain, so in trying, to do the things that before had caused me pain, I just failed.

At this day energy often got so high that being felt very uncomfortable in the body. I automatically seeked to escape the body. At first my escape was into music or outer skin where, I asked for someone to touch me, but more and more I started going under – and into the hole. At first I often ended up behind the sleeping door. But some of the times I passed the door to dreamland. At this time I became aware of the place of expanded consciousness. I also discovered, that while being there the body receives maximum healing from Gods energy.

I started using this hole as a fire escape door, when energy got to high in the body. The body acted like it was sleeping, but many of the times during being there, I was very

much aware of what was going on around my body. No thoughts of any kind but registering the music somewhere far away and so on. My brain went out several times this day. People could talk to me and all of a sudden I could have left the building. Exit through the door.

This day I escaped 7-8 times into the hole - 3-4 of them I actually went through the door of sleep. The rest of them I passed sleep and went directly to awareness in nothing. My body was learning to master being in this state of expanded consciousness. Of course I had no idea that it was what I were doing. But now I see, it was.

My body only allowed me to walk around two times ten minutes that day. The rest of the time I was either breathing freely down the fire escape or at full consciousness, just staying in a body which couldn't be moved. No will… None at all.

9th of February – heavy on my heart… It now felt like the body had learned not to feel like doing anything that caused pain. I could do things that didn’t require much energy, but my body didn’t feel like it. The day before was a day of the body’s learning to turn its desires into the path of Gods will with this.

This day offered me a lot of pain. It felt like the body went into hibernation. This could happen any time no matter who was around me if they were in the middle of- or if I were in the middle of a sentence. When I came out the pain was still higher. The body used 2-3 hours to get used to the new level of pain and then out I went again.

My body started to feel like it weighed 400 kilos. Combined with the pain, it made it more and more difficult for me to take care of my own body’s needs. I didn’t feel like being present, but turned instead consciousness inwards regularly and when possible. Already in the afternoon I wished to leave the body, fall into the hole of unconsciousness and not return until the body was less painful – but I could not choose this option. There were no breaks just more and more pain. The border between being in and out of the hole became fluid. As evening came I drifted in and out of consciousness.

The time came to ask baba Gunnar for help. Gunnar was out of the country, I had total contact with him over the phone and especially by heart and body through the mentioned period of time. When time came, where I no longer could hold the phone, time had come to ask baba Gunnar for help. He immediately responded and returned to Denmark to let the force of his body help me out of this spiral my body was stuck in.

At 10 pm Gunnar arrived. When Gunnar walked in, the most amazing thing happened. It had become hard to be in the room, but the force in Gunnar walked right up to me and told the force in me, to let go and give me a break. As it happened. Gunnar said he had felt me literally, since this kicked off. He told me afterwards that he had no idea what would come out his mouth. He left the room. When he walked back upstairs, we both started laughing. And we laughed our asses off. Man it was good.

God had made the transfer of information from Gunnar's body to mine, which taught my body instantly to let go. Instantly removed all of the pain. Only left was the incoming numbness. I was up and about again. I had a break – and a Kitkat! Ha ha ha.

I see now that the pain of this day emerged because I tried using the state of not being here as a way to escape the pain my body already had. So every chance I got, I dived into the hole by self made will. For every time I returned God had turned up the energy. And the pain. As I discovered I can only move into this hole when being summond. Otherwise the healing will be too strong and cause me pain.

10th of February – From passivity to activity… From Friday my body started turning from the state of total normality to the opposite of total hibernation. It happened kind of suddenly from one moment to the next with only 30 seconds of notice. At one time my body turned off while I was walking up the stairs to my living room. When hibernation occurred I was totally present and aware. Looking out

through the eyes, but without any control to move an inch. I was in this state for 30-50 minutes at the time.

After a turn of hibernation, Gunnar and I decided to head for his home. We decided to take the train – which came to be the most funny, hardest and most impossible trip I ever took with a train. Everything went wrong. My body went down two times during the trip. We had a hilarious time of him carrying me through the train station and everything. Wonderful. My body learned on this trip that will power could somehow effect the returning from the hibernation state. Valuable lesson that I came to explore later on. I didn’t go into the hole during this period – only the body went down. My body had in cooperation with me, to fight its way onto its feet.

During the times I went up and down again on that Friday, my body became more and more strong at the part of pulling itself back onto its feet. Willpower had everything to do with it.

At one time after a trance, I could stand no more to lie waiting to move. I wanted to go turn up the music, because this music had great energy that made me wish to dance. I went from close to total numbness to dancing and screaming “YES!!!” in 7-8 minutes. I can now activate my body even quicker. This incident gave the feeling of total and merciful victory which started a lavine of tears while dancing.

Joy of life, love and dancing.

11th of February – Way to will Saturday offered me the beginning (if there are any beginnings or ends to be mentioned at all) to the end of this round of battling with the beast… ha ha ha….

I started the Day with getting to total heavy feeling in all of body. It was like numbness in every muscle, making it hard to move… but not hard enough, I was to discover. I was on my back for 4 hours after going into the hole the first time that day. When I finally had fought my way back on my feet, The first thing I had to do was feel out the hearts of my friends surrounding me.

After that we went for a walk on the beach. It was so lovely. I felt the oceans sounds could pull me back into the state of total surrender. Had to move quickly there as my body once again laid the groundwork to start letting go. Luckily my friend Thomas has muscles worth mentioning as my body went wobbly 5-10 minutes before we arrived at Gunnar's house again. They practically carried me the last 40 meters to the house. Again – body numb – but again not totally. All I could do was to let go.

The rest of the day offered again my moving closer and closer - my body learning to restore itself by down period after down period.

What happened before was me learning to dive into the hole. After that my body had to learn to return from total numbness – and in the end, these abilities were combined. I had to learn to go into the hole and to come back and be able to function immediately in this body.

12th of February – Hitting ground zero This day started with a near death experience that fucked my mind up. No fear of death had crossed my mind, but the thought of death had been there. Just no fear. Somehow I knew that if it was to happen, I would return in this very same body. This knowledge came from the trust in God. That if I keep my end of the bargain and surrender to him totally, he will let me satisfy my own need to finish off this feeling of need to help others. For this need is still unsatisfied.

The trance I had right after waking up that morning showed me into his garden – I hit ground cero. I took only 2-3 steps, but was pulled back into this body, with the motion of swallowing. After the trance I had pain in the neck and shoulders. Shortly after in the

chest and the throat. I were up for 30 minutes, then I was pulled back into trance.

The numbness was getting more and more massive. The end of this period of being nailed to the ground happened later this day. During the time up to this climax, there was like a countdown – I could feel my body's energy getting less and less restored in between the trances – but instead getting a little bit weaker for every time. I had 4-5 trances that day – they became shorter and shorter and were coming closer and closer to each other.

I see now that every time I had a trance I went deeper and deeper into the hole. The body closed down further and further, and I got closer and closer to ground cero. The experience of hitting ground cero happened like this:

From the evening before I had the desire to eat lamb. This afternoon I finally got it. When I was to start eating my body was totally without energy. All functioning was my eyes and mouth. My body was placed well by my loving friends. I could still talk and move my eyes. No pain was involved anymore. It was pure bodywork. As I ate I felt my throat getting number, at last my tongue and in the end my eyes were closing.

And there I was. Behind closed shuts. Body out of order. At first I stayed in the body. Felt it. Felt that nothing but lungs and heart was functional. But registered my lungs where lowering my breath into short breaths getting further and further apart. I started to go deep and fell through the sleeping door. The walking through this wrong door set off the reaction of a electrical body movement in my foot. Became aware of my body again. As the body wasn’t able to move and send out this energy burst it fired off from my foot and all the way to my head – like the body I feel and normally can control, was nothing but an electrical field – I felt very vividly that this shoot-out under normal circumstances would have caused my foot to move and send out the energy through motion. I went deep again. Again passed through the wrong door. A dream started appearing that I was to push something away from me, but again, the only thing reacting was energy. No body movement. But at this time I hit out and could in my dream actually see my hands in front of me, but at that time I returned to awareness and the thought was oh no I cant do that, but at the same time I saw my own hands up in front of me. I was aware. And saw my hands not as hands, but as the same light I see when healing people. Jumping out of the telling, I have to mention, that when I close my eyes during a healing I see a total road-map over the energy of the body I am healing. Before I sometimes doubted that what I saw is really what it is, but I followed it anyway. But now… I am sure.

Back to the telling. I was there. Looking at my hands shaped as hands but visionally looking like light. I quickly let go of the thought that I couldn’t do this – I WAS doing this. I moved them from side to side. I moved them into the mattress I was lying on and pushed my body up. I got up – but the physical body was still lying there. I stood up – standing in my own stomach. I could see my friends surrounding me – again not with eyes but with this vision. Seeing energy. From that point on I was moving quickly back to the body. Have no memory of crawling back into the body. But when I returned to behind the eyelids – I felt my body again. Totally numb… But again will made me move my fingers on one hand. And another. And I started to heal my own body back to life. Amazing to feel the energy – the life and love pass from my hand and into every muscle as I moved my hands from place to place. I returned safely.

After this there was a lot of hugging, major love and I very quickly regained all of my strength. Within the hour I danced and laughed and we ended up having a great night with movie and snacks.

I must say, that even though going to sleep this night involved a “Gulp, I wonder what it will be like to wake up tomorrow”… once again I must confess… It feels like nothing ever happened… Just another nice weekend at Gunnars, Ha ha ha…

Back in the streets… Again I must bow my head in total respect of the creation of Gods called the human

body.

I have to thank with all of my heart my main man Gunnar help in carrying me through these days. Literally at the train station, Hellerup in Denmark, as well as emotionally. Love for the heart of this man as well of the rest of my great and loving backup team: My boyfriend Morten, My sister and brothers of heart: Nadége, Jesper and Thomas. And the greatest of appreciation for God giving my body such a wonderful Mother, Judy, Thank you all for trusting the life in me blindly and respecting my wishes. The biggest of respect to them all.

I fear not the day of tomorrow, I fear nothing, and would and will accept and kiss welcome any pain God causes this body, in order to get the job done. When the brain is thinking, my body finds comfort in the fact, that when this is all over, I will have so much more to offer to the world. Hope I get to heal you soon…

Love to you all…

Dahlia

Email: [email protected]

Reflection 6th of February 06

Dahlia Salem Larsen at a costume party New Years Eve 06

Pardon me for being unknowing... Ha ha ha ha....but I finally start being aware of what is happening. As no body is to tell me or teach me this, I will myself get this knowledge from inside – from experience and intuition. Yesterday in the evening ... starting with major energy build-ups in the body which had the immediate response to let go of something. What happened when I tried was that I fell asleep. The body was lacking the physical energy... I slept.. Woke up during the night, felt heat, went back to sleep. When I woke up, it continued... turned in to the now well known chest pains. I had to cancel all of the days appointments, to give in.... I did... It took me about an hour of letting go... then It was gone.... Now less than 8 hours later, I got the chest-pains back. I went upstairs... The body let go immediately when I lied down. The result: I was at consciousness, but so close to the edge of sleep, that the body acted like it was sleeping. The mouth made the characteristic sleeping sound, the body was in total hibernation. Amazing to experience. Being awake and sleeping at the same time. My awareness moved to the bottom of my body and I could actually see my own body from the feet up. As though my sight followed the attention. Totally amazing... As I started this mail... I am getting aware of what is happening. I see a pattern. A pattern of these chest pains moving closer and closer to each other. I observe that my body has become excellent at letting go. The part of letting go I feel very vividly, when its time for my body to let go of something. I get the already mentioned chest pains. These pains can not be described to a person who haven't had them. With other than the words "The need to let go"... The process starts with the body receiving energy. Heat arises in the body. The following period is the integrating of this higher energy in the body. When the energy is integrated, the heat is not felt as much. The chest pains appear – the need to let go. Following that need is the desire to let go. And at the end, the action of letting go: I relax every muscle. The energy roars through my body as a wave throwing itself on shore. And it disappears. The chest pains are very physical pains. Like the chest is carrying a heavy load. And up till now the process of letting go can take from 30-50 minutes. Coming home – the birth The last couple of days, weeks, months… years… has led up to this. I see now. Before today there had become 24 hours between the body’s need to let go. Today… 8 hours. Something is moving closer, and I have a feeling what it is. This feels like some kind of birth… Feels like this birth started with the kiss of God in the body, which was the body’s receiving and total coverage of the blue light. Read the previous written description. What happened was the total equality of the heart – I received the love from God – learned to love myself and see my self as I see everybody else. As a body in need of love. It has now been 3 days since this experience of coming to feel God and not just energy all the time. Feels like a warm and strong arm around me – a total warm hug of the entire body. I see now, this was not a birth – but the beginning of one. As of now… there are 8 hours, between the contractions. Mother earth turns her body pushing me out in pain… The body of me is passing the birth-canal… And like the child’s lungs are preparing to change from living without air to receiving the first breath, so my body becomes more and more ready for receiving the first breath of pure light.… letting go through pain after pain. Without knowing at all I have a feeling that this will come to a climax within a short period of time. The periods of time, between this body’s need to let go, will become shorter and shorter. Until all there’s left is pain after pain and the final action of letting it all go for the last time. As I experience that what is happening with this letting go, is the energy becoming stronger and stronger in my body, leaving less and less space for the dark and earthbound animal, this body was born as, I believe the result will be nothing but light. I feel this because my intuition tells me that the chest pains will not stop until the energy-body has claimed all of its place in this body. Has been through the process of turning this body’s foundation for being into universal air – light.

When did the chest pains begin? Time is not my strong side anymore, ha ha ha, but I remember I was still in my old job at an accounting firm. I stopped there in September 2005. I think it started about a month prior to that. Started as a painful sensation of energy right in solar plexus. Its now February 2006.

Feels like life until now has been a life spent in the wound of mother earth. No chance of escaping the dark of the wound, until the body is ready for being (re)-born. Birth followed by rebirth – birth on earth followed by birth of reality. Have been in the wound of mother earth for 26 years. I see the result of this birth will be me, still present on this earth, but no longer imprisoned by it. I see my mother and father. I will come to feel my mother and father with my entire body. I was right. It is moving closer. At 6 pm last night… approximately I wrote about the experience of my body sleeping but my conscience still being a part of this world. At 10:30 pm… The chest pains where back. Again body seeking shelter. Lying on the back, arms and legs spread out. Receiving tons of energy… ending up with the body falling asleep. Letting go. I slept until an hour and a half ago. Woke up at 3 am. 4 hours later. Body on fire. Moaning, sighing in pain and agony of the heat. Now, an hour and a half later, chest pains are back, but the body not so much on fire – as if the energy has become integrated during the period of an hour and a half. Time is of no importance, only writing this to share it with you. Feels like… no time at all. Only as now after now after now. Getting my computer, I saw my body in the mirror. What did I see? Not the body and definitely not any kind of person, only my body temple on constant fire. Like I am seeing with my feelings and not my eyes. Of course I register the body in the mirror, but it seems extraordinarily secondary. Not much more to tell right now. Will again lie down and feel my body’s energy work... I am not afraid - exactly as the last time I was a part of a birth - giving it to the body of my son... No worries... Only now... The body totally takes over. No fear at all. Just being with what is. I expect nothing and accept everything... To be continued... Ha ha ha...

St. Theresa enjoying delicate bliss-pain

Coming home 4th of February 06

Energy rising. Energy higher than the body can take without being affected obviously. Instinct to seek shelter. A place to give in. Laying the body on its backside, arms and legs spread out from the centre of the body. The body moaning and shaking, sighing. Feels like energy is rising. A blue non-static circle of light seem to appear right above the area of the mouth. No sharp edges of the circle, but a flowing edge – like the circle is breathing and glowing. Pure white light shining like a frame from the edges of the blue circle. Looking into the light. Pain but attraction. Feels right to give in to this power of light. The thought arises, “Why all this waiting, take me home now” and the words “take me home” repeatedly arising again and again in the mind. The blue circle starts to grow with the breathing out. Subtracts a little for every time breath is pulled in. But still growing bigger and bigger with each breath. Feels like its growing as a circle which covers more and more of the body. Attention follows the boundaries of the blue light. Feeling and seeing with inner sight at first head totally covered with blue light, then attention shifts to arms, again following with every breathing in its growing farther and farther out to cover both arms… A perfectly round blue circle of light. Reaching from one hand to the other. Moving attention to the rest of the body. The circle… A perfectly round shape with expanding edges… covers down to the middle of the legs at the state where it covers the arms.. The circle grows to cover the legs too.

The attention does nothing but observe. No will of any kind as to where the attention moves and no shifting the attention back and forth. When blue light covers the whole body, it starts moving under the body reaching itself on the back of arms, knees, ankles, backside. Feels like the whole body is being embraced in one big warm hug.

When the blue light covers the whole body, the relief of coming home and into the big warm arms of God, starts a lavine of tears. Shaking the whole body, crying from relief. Existence in the body now feels like one big hug. Such relief. Such freedom. Such love.

When gotten comfortable in the arms of God, the body starts laughing. This feels great. To be home. Feels exactly like home - even though the mind has no memory of being there. Everything feels right.

12 hours later. Feel the hug right under the skin. Covering the whole body. No more fear… only feelings of total safety and comfort, joy and love. Knowledge that there is nothing to be said about being here. Just am with what is.

Feels like there is not any room for the dark inside the body. Like God takes up so much space in the body, that there’s no room for the negative things of being in this world – no room for mind made thoughts of wrong and right… There is only oneness. Only God. Only good.

Born again. Felt like light covered the body, but maybe body was drawn into light instead. Out of mothers wound and into daddy's arms. Rebirth. No more darkness. Feels like life until now has been a life spent in the wound of mother earth. No chance of escaping the dark of the wound, until the body is ready for being (re)-born. Birth followed by rebirth – birth on earth followed by birth of reality. Have been in the wound of mother earth for 26 years. Now… out in the light, covered by the arms of God. Still present on this earth, but no longer imprisoned by it. I see my mother and father. I feel my mother and father. The earth under my feet – and the sun in my body.

Feel like taking everyone with me into the arms of God. Feels like I can. Feels like I can pull any body into the arms of God with me, and them into the open space to feel… to take a deep breath of freedom… until their bodies are ready to be born too. Every touch of another human being is healing and pulling the receiving body a little bit into to the light. Kind of makes healing as a treatment unnecessary. But still opens for the love-therapy to be just right and a chance for any body to receive as much of Gods hug, that my body can offer in this world. No restrictions. My whole body is offered to any body to pass on this gift of love and freedom.

Have no fear of going back. Feels like there’s no turning back – that a birth is a birth is a birth. The moving closer… closer.. and then a little farther away, affected by surroundings, people, situations… All of which has been characteristic for the past, is no longer an issue. There’s is

no crawling back into the wound.

Light is light is light.

I feel… this body can contain any desire – act out any action, without the light ever changing… Because there is no doing right or doing wrong, being right or being wrong. This only exists if the body has a goal of being or acting in a specific way, according to that body’s belief of what is right and wrong. Hasn’t for a long time had the need to sit down and meditate. When the need was there it was to attain a specific state of mind and body. Meditation is no longer a tool. But even though I feel his embrace at all times, to sit down and close my eyes now, feels like a simple way of being with the father of everything. And just him. As a way to enjoy Gods company so much in silence and pure feeling and as a celebration of life.

1th of February 06

Dear Gunnar

Here I am, sitting again at this our of the day. I just woke up after no more than 1 hour of sleep. its 20 past 12 am.

I found myself hovering between consciousness and unconsciousness for 30 minutes before I woke up. Getting waves of energy send through my body.

It feels not like the kundalini shot, and then again it does - it feels like the exact same and only energy, only this time, much stronger and more powerful running through a body much more soft and receivable. I feel the difference now in the feeling, that the waves of energy are not, by my body, constrained into short repeated movements resembling shaking. But instead energy passing through the body which carries out one motion after another. As waves of energy softly carried throughout the entire body, like waves in the ocean throwing themselves to shore.

The day leading up to this has not been bad. My body spent a lot of energy through healing people for 6 hours. As I have told you I feel the need for SOMETHING during the day between healings. My heart works like a sportsman through my healing, but my muscles don't... So it cant be the answer to eat more, as i have done, because the food will only bring more energy to my body's muscles, which are not the ones being used. And will in time only cause my body to gain unnecessary weight... (I gained 1,5 kg - I think, this past week)

But I start sensing, that what the body needs through the day is not more food... But rest?! And I sense that maybe the desire for something, is not coming from my entire body as much as from my heart?!

.. I feel a smaller and smaller need for sleep - maybe my body will only have the need for short periods of rest in the future, as a cause of all the energy becoming a part of my body.

... I have this last week, maybe mistakenly, eaten more to cover for the need for energy, that I feel as a result of pouring love out of my heart for several hours a day in healing others.

... I feel a yet undiscovered truth in that need I feel between healings... That it has something to do with myself and my heart, and with giving myself the love to make my body able to pass this on to the loved ones I heal.

My body needs love as well as every body else. But food is not love. So maybe the answer is in giving myself time between healings to give my heart attention, instead of having one healing after another?..... This feels kind of right. Also seen from the fact that I sit here right now. When I am just me, not healing people, my energy does not dive...

I treat my body well. But maybe in this sense not well enough. I give out a lot of love and I have never and can never heal a body without feeling the desire to... But maybe my body needs more time to let God pass the love into me right now, in order for me not to feel that gap? This feels like a solution. I feel it is right, to see to that I have 30 minutes or so between healings... To give myself love.

I just stopped writing, closed my eyes and felt the whole body... every inch is filled with a close to disastrous high energy. feels like it could turn into shaking if I don't move softly with it. and that almost happened as i turned closer and closer to consciousness when I woke up before... did I stay in the bed the body would get thrown around like a piece of cloth...

Because I DID return from the hovering state between asleep and awake.

oh, back to my undiscovered truths :o)... I can tell you what did appear in me about this reaction from my heart... several times through this last week. Its just a feeling that as of now has grown to a thought. I feel that at some point my heart will stop tiring me out, as it gets used to pouring out more and more love/energy during healing - at least when I reach a point where my heart cannot open anymore... (maybe at the end of this process I am going through these days?)

I have noticed that when you and I join energy, my body reacts as it has had a shot of love higher, than what I experience otherwise through healing... I have no doubt that healing IS love, and that the love I feel in my heart for you, is the exact same thing making my heart pound through healing others. I think that the answer with giving myself more rest between healings is necessary now, but not necessarily will keep on being necessary. I feel that my heart carries a lot of weight right now, when I heal (maybe as a result of the speed in which this process is taking place in me), and that the pounding is a result of my heart working towards being entirely open. That in fact the pounding IS healing... That kind of explains the very strong reaction I get from hugging you. That we heal each other through this love we share while being together.

As I believe all I experience are connected somehow, I thereby can not isolate the action of my heart pounding from what I otherwise experience, in the terms of my personality dissolving.

There is no doubt in me, that what I am experiencing right now is there, because the part of my personality carrying the personal relationships to other human beings, is getting thrown out of my system. I see this because I have noticed a difference in the actions my body feels like carrying out through the healing of strangers and the healing of people i have had and has a personal relationship with.

My body has reached a point, where I feel like my relatives are "just" humans. A consciousness with a body... and that is exactly the feeling that follows my body through healing, no matter who I heal. BUT I see a difference in the action my body feels like doing through the healing of people I have a relationship with.

While my body, with no compromise and in the greatest feeling of love, makes me feel like and actually carry out the action of pulling strangers to the floor in attacking and healing their hearts with the energy of love (with no regard to their personal boundaries what so ever), my body feels not the same desire to carry out this action with the people my body still carries personal relations for... and this even though it feels absolutely as the primary and most right thing to do. This feels so right to do, and now that I have followed that desire, my experience is, that the personal boundaries can very easily be broken, and the inner child be reached... simply with this energy/love pouring out through my heart.

I have, with my consciousness, reached the point of the greatest respect and love for every body I lay my hands on as well as meet on my way. No matter the belief or disbelief of the mind following that body... And although my body can carry and express the great love for the people I have relations with, an even greater love is expressed through my heart for the people my body doesn't constrain itself for. I think my body still has to learn this.

I have in higher and higher sense and sensibility dissolved the layers of love I have felt for my fellow humans. Now I experience that I can pass on the greatest love for the people I have no personal relationship to. This means and just made me aware of the connection between my hearts pounding, the dissolving of my personal relations and the opening of my

heart.

I see now, that the reason my heart is pounding is because when I heal people - God heals my heart. When I hug you - God heals my heart.

What I have thought off as work being carried out by my heart (as in the belief as the heart as a muscle), is in fact my heart getting healed and opened by love. The true and un-personal love, I can express with strangers as well as with you, will in time and with what is going on these days come to exclude my personal feelings for the people I know. What I experience this very now, tonight, the waves of energy, and has experienced this last week (the feelings of grief, loneliness in love and so on...) Is in reality as well as my hearts pounding work from my body to attain the exact same thing. My heart must open entirely... My body must let go off the personal feelings... Only then will everybody be equal in my heart.

Not one single day without the learning process of my body taking me a very noticeable step. I release my breath in deep respect for Gods plans with this body, and look forward to every single moment of the rest of my life.

Hope your sleeping tight and already my fellow traveler...

I had an experience the other day, which had an effect on me, that yet hasn't worn off. To feel this reality makes me unable to forget...

I saw myself more deeply, than I ever have - I saw reality... I realize, that hadn't I stopped my constant thinking, I would not have come to see this reality. I experienced for real what I really am - I have no ego, I am no personality - I experienced myself as my attention. Attention which has come to live in a body. A body which is really only as much alive and animal as my cat. But my presence combined with my consciousness makes me different than my cat. I see that what is looking out through my eyes is really me... that the body I live in, is a gift, only given for a purpose. And a purpose other than living for myself - for that be no purpose.

I stripped naked and saw my body not as me, but as a piece of equipment, for the first time. I stared in wonderment. Turned my hands, looked at my legs and feat in full amazement over this piece of craftsmanship. A body, with millions of years of intelligence, able to heal itself, able to make my consciousness aware of lacks and flaws, as for example lack of food, water and so on. I realized that all I have to do is listen carefully. Listen to the signs - that will make this body last to fulfill my every purpose for being in it.

To feel the truth in these words... means that it no longer has any meaning for me to act anyhow different or to give to my body anything other than what it needs to function optimally.

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Meditation is pure magic! At least this is the only way I can express what has happened in the case of Aisha. She started coming to the meditation happenings in the beginning of March 05. She was new in meditation and did not know much about it. She refused to read about it. No books - no headucation... She got no verbal instructions in meditation from me. She decided only to listen to what would happen in her own Body and Soul and follow that. What has happened since March 05 is a Divine Miracle - nothing less. She has the courage just to follow one thing: surrender: And this makes all words and theories from outside utterly unimportant. She has got and gets all knowledge from within. She has become her own Truth and in this sense she is a light on the path of Lions. And out of the blue she has become a most powerful healer. I know she will hate this... But I have to say: She is the Boss! Please note that there are as many inward journeys as there are human beings. Don't compare your journey with Aishas!

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The last lesson of Love

12.5.06

Learning true love Only by paying attention to the feelings the heart send into the body in full honesty to one self, can the heart become one with God. The hearts true nature will make man learn to care for and have compassion for everybody. When this is done, the heart is open for Gods love to enter.

Until the love of God has entered, the feelings felt by the heart, can only vary in depth from human to human based on how close this body’s relationship is with other humans. The depth of this love, for it being human, can only be based on how close this human body is with other people. The care can however reach from family to stranger.

Loving every man the same can only come, when the heart has learned to carry the love of God - learned True Love.

My own body letting go of the ego A quick recap of what has happened this last year in this body, can be described as the story of my body, called Dahlia, that started out owning itself, but being blessed with a sense of feeling that came very close to its true nature – me. The process in its totality has been of my body learning through heart that the person called Dahlia does not exist. Learning that there is no free will accompanied by anything else, but moving with the desires of the heart and body. Accepting that the body has a will of its own, independent of the will the mind carries with the ego and perception of “I”. Did you get that? :o)

In the past, the heart in my body loved a few, and acted thereby. Slowly (or maybe not so slowly :-) ) selfishness was let go, as well as everything else, the only thing my heart didn’t stop caring for was humans. My heart was opened up, learning to care for every body – thief as well as holy man. Read the piece called “strangers becoming family”, which describe this experience of hierarchy between people disappearing – my heart

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So clear it is in this now to this body...

My body feel me.. it has right this minute received from me the knowledge of feeling, that makes it possible for it to see, feel and

know... That I am not it! And then... who am I?

I am you... I am/you are the very essence of every

living being... such a simple feeling... Yet so hard for this as every body to attain... I see

through the mirror of this body. Right this now...

06-03-8 - 18:22

learning to care for everybody.

I thought at that time, that my heart was learning to love everybody, but this step, I see now, has not happened until now. What happened back then, when I wrote the piece mentioned above, was, that my heart was learning compassion. I see this now, because I see the big difference between learning to care and learning to love. Love contains no selfishness.

When the body lets go of the selfishness, the heart becomes open for learning to love. The last step is letting go of the personal love, which has always, and can never be a result of anything other than personal relationships. If there is no ego there can be no person – this go hand in hand. If there is no person there can be no personal love. My body has now taken love to the next and highest level.

Letting go of personal love What happened last in the transformation of this body was, that my heart was through the process of letting go of personal love. If anybody should care it happened during a period of 3-4 days mid May 2006.

This happened by insight coming to my attention, of course followed by feeling as feeling always comes before thought, and becoming able to see the human being. Seeing the human being in its totality made my heart realize, that the people my heart had trusted completely, was not to be trusted this way, for seeing the ego for what it is, is seeing the human being consisting in both love and selfishness.

The feeling of loosing every one my heart has ever loved was demolishing. This put a distance that at first felt very bad between these human beings and my heart. Not one single cell in my body was however in doubt that the pain and in particular the distance, was utter illusion. What happened was that specific love towards specific human beings was disappearing. This not to protect my heart from being hurt, only to be replaced by the love of God.

The feeling of the pain is so very hard to describe, but it came to my body as the feeling, that my heart only seeks and needs me. That my heart needs no human, and that every human it offers its love in the hunt for satisfaction, will only be able to keep the heart satisfied briefly. As what it seeks is me. Through the pain, I saw very clearly and felt the comfort in the knowledge that this is true, that I can and must stand alone to be satisfied. Every human being carrying an ego carries the duality making the entity ego able to turn against any other human – because this heart still carries selfishness. No matter how much love this person carries in its heart it IS still and can only give human love, and this love is in more than one way limited. The limit of course consists in the fact that what makes the heart offer its love, in a body carrying selfishness, is the selfish need to be satisfied. Humans love to get love returned. God does not.

Seeing the human being for what it is The one thing every body fears is loosing the ones they love. It became painfully clear to my heart, by feeling followed by insight, that any man carrying an ego entity has the duality of opposites in them. This means, that any human with an ego carries selfishness, as well as love. A heart that hasn’t learned the lessons of love is most likely to turn this selfishness out towards people they don’t know, keeping the selected ones they love, through relationships, close to the heart.

A person can be accepting of bad sides of another person, but can never come to love these sides. And as these sides are a part of any human being carrying an ego, no man can truly love another. This makes some people easier to love for human beings, than others.

A person can accept selfishness in its partner’s treatment of others, but

the heart will always be hurt, does this selfishness turn towards the person itself. The egotistical side of a human being is the part that can turn and hurt the person that same heart claims to love.

Any humans love can only be as strong as the humans’ body’s knowledge of God. The strength of this love makes some people more trustworthy than others, but no matter what, if the human being carries this entity, the love can never be perfect, as the heart is only able to love humans as a human, with the amount of selfishness the body carries.

Only feeling existence above this life makes heart able to love something more than life itself. And this, dear human, is how I love you now. Gods love is not accomplishable for any person - only for the human being.

How is the love of God experienced by me as a conscious nothingness? The result of the old way to love getting pushed out of my heart is my heart learning to carry the love of God. This love is totally different from the love from a human being. Now as I look at the humans that before were close to me, by relationship, I see a human being, I don’t see Judy, Morten or Gunnar, as in feeling my personal relationship with them. The difference is however, that my heart loves these humans so deeply, as each and every one of them stands there in their on perfectly imperfectness. The love coming from this heart is no longer personal and dependent on my body’s knowledge or closeness to these people. The love of my heart can only exist from a view seen from above man. It is a heart now being able to love what by man is considered bad, as well as what is considered good.

Before a difference was felt in the depth of my hearts feelings, as to whether it was a human I was close to by relationship or not. The people I was closest to in heart and enjoyed being with the most, was the people that let my body be me, as much as it was able to. These people made my body feel good, because it didn’t make my body fight to be with me and to stay and exist in its true nature.

It was easier to be with some people than others, because being with bodies that knows very little of truth, made my body open heart to heal the other body, which wore my body out. And very early in the process made my body forget me, until my body was no longer under the influence of this opposite to me.

Now the depth of feelings is even deeper, and the feeling majestic. My heart has for finding me, been rewarded ten gold pieces… ha ha ha, no, but has been rewarded the knowledge and constant feeling of energy, as in being a part of God. This makes no body able to pull my consciousness or bodily feeling in any other direction than me. This view from above doesn’t move an inch depending on the person I am with. As no body makes my body feel different, I can be with any body and still feel me.

The only thing that happens now is, that my body can be tired after a whole day of being with other human beings, because my body’s being with humans, carry the full time job of distributing me through healing them, just by being near them :o) .

Of course the pleasure of a humans company can vary a great deal, depending on the person, but by feeling, the feelings of love are not deeper for bodies being closer to me in relationships.

Seeing through people and receiving their love The personal love is of course received, by my heart, from other people on a personal level, as the ones loving me are humans. But the love returned to the people I know, as well as the people I haven’t met yet, is now not varying and depending on the relationship between me and this other human.

This means that in my heart, I feel no difference between the stranger on the street and the child in my care. Both I love with all of heart and more than life itself. As I see-feel any and every human, of course I see completely the relationship between love and selfishness in bodies, but the humans standing place is not the foundation of how deep the love is felt by my heart.

All of them are seen from above and seen through in a way, that very distinctively tells selfishness from love, but in a way that doesn’t make my heart judge neither side and thereby not judge humans that stand farther away from me or favour people being closer to me (not by relationship, but by heart). There is no difference between any human being carrying an ego i.e. carrying selfishness. It is all just a process going on, on this level of time and space. In truth there is no process. In truth they all are a part of God, but just don’t know it.

Being with true love My body has through this last period of time become utterly dehumanised and no longer feel human. As my body now feels me as my Self, it feels up most satisfaction in itself. When walking around town, my body now feels and sees the other beings as humans, but at the same time feel me and has the view from my point of being. My consciousness see-feel everything here from above.

Through the last six months, during my body still feeling human, my body used itself to express and receive the personal love in the heart, as well as distributing me. Now my body no longer feelingwise gain anything by expressing love physically to another human being. I consider the physical love a part of being with humans and can only consider it part of healing, because I, by hugging another human, let this human being into the sphere of my own being in this body. There is no doubt I until further notice or massiveness in this body travel lighter by touching. The motherly care my body has expressed, was a sign of personal love, as for me being in a female body.

Honesty between hearts I have to have 100% honesty in all I do, because human beings are very easy to manipulate. I see right through the heart of a human being, and am able to go right through it as well as see the state of it. I doubt not that lightning will strike this body so hard for stepping wrong. In this sense my body has learned highest self control. This makes my body and being, the most reliable source of love, because it is not able to do wrong, not able to deceive or lie.

This makes up a whole new set of rules for my body, as I can allow no heart-games in my interaction with humans. I can not let my body play with other bodies in a way affecting the bodies’ hearts, because it now has ability of passing me on, as for no body’s heart to be able to turn the other way. Letting the body use this to play with people, would be an incredible misuse of power. And it would be a totally unfair match, as my body now knows the strengths as well as weaknesses of man.

Hour of Truth Every heart seeks God, and as every body has one and can’t stand without it, every body is bound to walk the path of love. That is the genius plan of this life. Love is the master plan and only love can free you from this duality and unsatisfied feeling of selfishness.

Man can practice getting attention into body by yoga, martial arts, meditation etc. but the only thing, that can really take you home, is love. All it really need is to be able to feel its heart and build the courage to stand by it.

For if body feels all of itself only a physical level, but heart is still not open, God can not pour freely into the body. As long as the body still carries selfishness, heart can not be as open as for God to enter it. And thereby it is not possible to become one with God. God can enter the body in the sense of energy, but if heart hasn’t opened completely, it will never be able to become The One.

The truth of your nature is attained purely by paying attention to the feelings, in greatest courage of self honesty and letting go of selfishness. Be true to yourself, and learn the values of the heart in your chest. Let your heart walk in front, and watch out for the traps you put out for yourself.

Some majestic feeling it is to sit and look over the ocean and having the thoughts rising: “unbelievable, all of this is mine…” ha ha ha…

20th of March 06

Here I am - New changes, new abilities, new experiences

Who am “I”? God moved in. My body is now constantly able to feel God, and doesn’t forget at any time, who is the boss. I now live with my body in a totally different way. It is like a whole new partnership.

This doesn’t mean God has filled up my body yet, but it does mean, that the part of this body that still has human feats, never and not even during feeling bad, mistakes its own being and the “I” for the “I” that is now represented in being God. Me, as in being a consciousness, am just a servant. Before I served the body in its belief that “I” am it. Now... This has changed. I now serve God in this body, feeling this is the “I” I really belong to and was meant to serve.

The fact that I have learned which “I”, I really serve, in fact makes no confusion in my head – as for the body to believe, that it is God. My body is fully aware, that what it carries is a little raindrop of God spilled on its heart. I now experience the abilities my body has got, as a result of God moving in.

Feeling others The greatest one of them is the one that follows being able to feel God in my body. The result of my consciousness having expanded, is me now being able to expand into other bodies. This ability makes me able to feel and connect to the energy in any other body. And this is amazing. It makes the feeling of being with another living creature a whole new

experience, and makes a totally new connection between me and other bodies – by feeling.

Being able to feel “Me”/God in other bodies, also make me able to tune in on other bodies feelings – good as well as bad. This makes me able to share love as well as compassion with another human being in a way only imaginable to a mind not experiencing this.

Healing The way my body only acted before during healing (pulling feelings of others into my own body, for the purpose of my body letting them go afterwards), so this happens now all the time, when I wish it to and tune in to other bodies. Healing is no longer something that goes on when I prepare my body for it, as the body is now always in the state of being this open to receive this information from other bodies. So healing now is being with other people and no longer takes any effort or change in state of body from me. I can feel only the feeling by tuning in, but not by choice hear the thoughts, that this feeling has set off. But it happens more and more, that the thoughts following that feeling is served to me regularly. I can not read thought… yet… ha ha ha… but sometimes I receive a thought, that is the cause of me feeling another humans feelings. I am never confused that these feelings are not mine, as they feel like an extra layer upon my own being.

Eyesight changing Another thing is, that my eyesight is changing - expanding. It is achieving another state of normality. I experience again and again that my eyes don’t focus on anything or anyone. But sees everything within the reach of the eye. This means that turning my head into the direction of another human being doesn’t make my eyes focus on that person, but only makes that person the center of my vision. Takes some getting used to. But I can without any trouble drive a car and so on, just without the need to orientate me other than look straight ahead and keep my eyes open. The body then drives the car when its green, and stops if cars slow down in front of me. Without me spending any awareness on it. It sees all.

The ability, I have had for some time, to see a roadmap of energies in bodies, that normally required my eyes closed, now and again happens with my eyes open. Nothing more to say to that.

Sexuality disappearing Also, although it has been quite a while now, my sexuality disappeared. This was a process passing over a couple of months. Sex now has no colour to me. It is not that I can’t participate, but the need doesn’t rise in my own body and participating doesn’t make my body urge for any kind of climax. The body’s letting go of this human need, has made a physical change in my reproductive organs.

I wont try to explain how or why all these abilities and changes - I, as consciousness, just experience and observe. The human body is very complicated, and I see that more and more abilities, that in fact all bodies, including your own, carry, are getting revealed to me as God fills up more and more of this body.

Human needs – “who” needs them… part one So it only just happened, that my body learned, that I am not a “who”, but a “what”. My mind surely got to thinking once again, that “well, now my body has learned what I am, maybe it is over…” Ha ha ha…(I laugh because it has thought this a lot of times). But it is not over, and will not be over, until God has thrown every and any human need out of this body. This he can do now because there is no “who” disturbing his work with this body… God doesn’t want to seem to slow down. My body again and these days

are moving through a passage where another need is dissolving – and more importantly more energy is getting thrown into my system – and more and more hot air thrown out.

I have to say, that it has become very clear to me, what is the only thing worth having focus on in this process… And it is the big picture. All of these abilities getting revealed to me are not important… The only thing important to this body is that it is being filled up. What ever abilities this drags with it are only bi-products. These abilities are only important in the sense of my using them to spread the energy of God from my body to others – in healing… in loving.

Body changing ownership God is life, as energy equals life to me. This knowledge of truth can come only from feeling (feel energy – feel God). The element making your heart and mine beat is God.

As I have written before, love exists only in the meeting between mother earth and father God (Allah, or whatever – the ONE). Father without mother would just be energy - life. Mother without father would just be material things – dead things. Life, as you know it, exists only in this meeting, as it is here some things are added life. Nature-elements like grass, flowers and trees, and what we call animals - one of these animals being the human body.

My body is now going through the process of more and more of God being brought into this world through my body - my body being filled up, step by step, with this life. This can only happen because my body has learned the lesson of love – to open this heart to ONE and all.

The result of me going through this process, I feel and see now; This body will come to be and express the greatest love possible on this earth.

Ownership of this body has never been mine, as I am a consciousness, but I see now the ownership is moving from mother to father. And I see that every aspect of life mother earth ever taught me (the needs we all follow to stay alive), is getting outlined by Godfather. Ha ha ha.

Mind the heart – and not the brain… As I speak of really deep human needs getting thrown out of the temple, that is my body, I know I am not to let my brain tamper AT ALL with the result of what’s going on. By this I mean, that I don’t allow my brain, to use my attention trying to figure out, what is going on. I can not let my brain get involved in this, by listening to it, because it can make it very hard for me, to follow only Gods order (the desire of my heart) on what is going to happen with this body. Even though the intention of the brain is ever so lovely, the mind always tries to set goals of reaching and achieving. If it gets an idea, that this and this will happen, it will try to make me reach a destination. If it is wrong, as it has been on more than one occasion, ha ha ha… It can really drag the body into trouble especially at the point, where my body is, at where I speak of basic needs getting outlined.

This of course doesn’t mean my brain doesn’t occasionally try to figure out whats going on, ha ha ha, but the brain has a way of shutting up, once you stop listening to it… Ha ha ha… trick for meditation ;o) .

If I did let the brain think, it would start making dramas. The problem here is that the mind thinks too small. The changes in my body that, for the brain, can be thought off as a big deal, is in reality utterly unimportant. Only the result is important. The big picture.

And seeing the big picture, the only thing worth looking at is Energy, God, Allah, or whatever we call it being and growing inside this body, making

more and more perfect meeting of element of mother earth and Godfather.

For the mind to set out to reach the highest love possible, is a good thing – it is to start seeking. But trust in yourself… Never try hunting bodily knowledge outside your own body – as your body, as mine, holds all the answers.

Stop listening to your mind or any body else's, and start following your heart.

Mind your heart and the desires of it… And love will take you home.

Human needs – “who” needs them… part two I became aware of my body letting go of human needs already a few months ago. As it happened the need to protect my offspring was let go by my body, as my heart opened to everyone. As my body learned that I am not a who but a what, there is no “who” holding on to these needs anymore.

Since then my body has let go of the sexual need and these days I experience my need to feed dissolving.

I see that the action of letting go of human needs follow a pattern. This pattern is parted in three states which the body goes through. I will use the example of my need to feed dissolving to make this pattern clear as day.

The first state the body is in is the ordinary animal-like way of being, that the body is in from birth, where it is born animal. In this state a need is the cause of a desire, and the desire cause of an action, to satisfy this need. This is how most humans reacts most of their life.

I experience the before mentioned state changes, as the body is preparing to let go of the need. This is when the body's desire to fulfill this need disappears. When the desire disappears, but the need is still a part of the body, the body is to do the work of letting go. My body changed from getting a desire to eat, to not getting this desire anymore.

The part of letting go, the body carries out through a period of time that can vary a great deal from journey to journey. For me this period meant energy rising to be almost unbearable. Body reacts as under pressure. Getting bad feelings. These feelings although, are not attached to any thing or any thought. These feelings are not to be tampered with in any way – the only way is just to let the body be and learn.

For my body, during this period of letting go of need for food and drink, this has felt like added pressure inside the nervous system, burning sensations in the whole body, but in particular in arms and legs, and the worst is a feeling of total mess inside the chest and stomach area. So many feelings – all of which feels bad. The first couple of days I felt very vividly that the body was breaking a habit.

The body can react in various ways to this pressure, but when pressure was at the highest, my body reacted with trances returning, incl. the numbness. When pressure lightens as a result of integration, trances disappear again and my body needs to let go through crying or anger. It is very clear to me that the body uses these known exits – actions of living out sadness and anger – to let go of the high pressure in pushing out the need from the system.

Through this, the body at no time forgets who I am, and thereby I can just let it react. This of course takes some understanding from the

surroundings not to take this personally ( ha ha ha ). But holding back is not an option – as the body goes down, if pressure is not taken off the system. Within a few days my body learned to carry the energy and let go of the crap, that there is no room for now energy has taken its place.

After the karma has been burned out, the desire can return. The desire is now totally unattached. There is no more fear in the body, not to get the desire fulfilled. As this fear is gone the feeling is total freedom around the aspect, that before was a need. I don’t have to do anything. But of course this doesn’t mean, I don’t want to do anything. But now I am able to let the animal be the animal without having any attachment to the body as in living with these needs as a part of me.

When my lust for eating returned to the body in this totally free and unattached way, I ate again. But I also experienced that eating this meal meant 3 hours of stomach-pains. I still have a part of me not agreeing with the fact, that I don’t just go to a café anymore and order a sandwich, but actually I am at a point now, where it is not a goal for me to stop eating, but as well it is not a goal for me to eat.

By having these stomach aches, my body lost some of its desire to eat again. Whether I will stop eating entirely is totally up to the body and only time will tell. I will not accept any signs of disease as a result of not eating. I will not accept my body losing too much weight either. I have some fat on the body to throw away, but I wish not for my body to get weak. And as long as those two demands are fulfilled, I will follow only my body’s wishes. And this day – It didn’t feel like taking in food.

Every time we feel bad – we are confronted with our own shortcomings. Every single time.

Love – the only human need needed… As my body these days are letting go of the need to feed. The only needs I have left in this body is the need for sleep and the need for love. You can hold me to this, but I believe strongly, that there will be one last big round of battling with the beast. And I think this will remove the need for sleep.

How is it then, that all the needs disappear, but one need remains?

The need for love is the last and purest attachment to the body. When this is let go of, there is no need holding me to this body anymore. This makes love the last and only need worth keeping. As I enjoy life much and enough to stay here for my loved ones. The day I start feeling my body let go of this last need, I will be able to say when this body will die. I know this will happen as this is exit for me. But when… I don’t know. I just know I get to have a stay in this. Although I haven’t had a say in any of it since the body started going through this process, I know I wont let go of the need to love with this heart, until this body feels this need satisfied.

8th of March 06

And so my body arrived at the state of which it is able to feel me. The body has to learn and come to terms with the feeling that, the “I” combined with any kind of identity is nothing. This it must, before it can come to realize, that the “I”, that I really am… is everything. How does it feel?… Oh yes, Is this body able to describe the feeling of me? Is a human body able to describe the feeling of being, if this being is not to be compared with anything of this world? The answer is no, of course not… And then again, it is possible… But by no means through words, as the taste of sugar can hardly be explained to someone without a tongue (love for you Arun Baba). The feeling of being can only be described to other bodies in terms of being. If words are to be put to this. It must be… That my body feels life. Not just in its own substance… But in everything. I am here in this body, but also all around it. I feel Me in my son… I feel Me in You… Being with You is being with Me… When healing other bodies, I call for the Me in the body connected to mine. The only true feeling… is love. God is energy… life. Only God combined with the material elements of mother earth can create love. The meeting between earth and sky. Mother and father. And this feeling of total truth, that can be found only in love, is so true because it is the cleanest and clearest form of feeling resembling All That Is. Every and any other feeling than love, has a sense of missing truth in it. Any other feeling than love, holds some kind of an illusion, created by a body that knows no better. I hope the Me in me get to be with the Me in you... Please contact me for a healing… I wish to be with you… The lovely practicality of Me joining up in all togetherness: My phone-number is: +45 26 27 80 76

Big roar of compassion,

love and victory from a heart of God in a chest of mother earth.

06-02-22 - 23:07

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No hole to move into... and never was... only space of

nothingness... emptiness... feels like I have moved into space... but still

looking out through these eyes, when not closing them...

Deepest love to you... 06-02-22 - 19:15

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Closing my eyes now IS being with God. 06-02-22 - 16:08

! Don't know what I expected or why this amazes me ... for a long time I have felt like something was replacing something else inside my body. But now the feeling when closing my eyes is... like stepping into outer space. Not a feeling of being filled with something... But the exact

opposite... filled with.. nothing... only thing I am able to feel with eyes

closed is the boundaries between space and this world: my skin...

These boundaries feels like a moving energy field...

06-02-22 - 16:05

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Closing my eyes... utterly pulls me to outer space... But eyes wide open... I'm just me... Just a consciousness.

06-02-22 - 15:49

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Very strange to be alone. Amazed how when alone I can feel God being

in this body... But yet again feel like nothing ever happened... Like not one single thing has

changed... 06-02-22 - 15:47

7th of March 06

State of cosmic eruption - trance turns to ecstasy This last period of time (1! month) my life has been very affected by the trances, because of the nature of them. This nature being my body was sent to the ground in total numbness, followed by me as consciousness dropping into the hole, leading out of this world. Did I not place my body somewhere, where I could let go of it, without it having to stay alert, the body would not fully recover its strength in between trances. Resulting in a crash and burn-situation, where it could take the body up to 24 hours to regain its total strength.

The trances quickly turned totally painless and peaceful, and the time I spent out of the body, became shorter and shorter for the body to obtain, what it had to. Of course this was and is healing.

As it happened sometimes, when I was pulled out of a trance too early, by my surroundings, I arrived in a body totally on fire. Unbearable. I still experience nights, where I have to get up, because a sound pulls me to the surface. These times I have to move the body around, because I can not stand to have it lie still. The heat is too intense. Moving into the hole means great healing, getting ripped out… ouch! So I came to the point where I preferred being all-one/alone during these trances.

Of course this healing is what every body experience during sleep. But as my body moves deeper into the hole, than during regular sleep, my body receives even greater healing, than it ever had.

What happened now is, that trances evolved. I now no longer get pulled into trances during the day, where my body collapses by itself, pulling me down with it. Through a period of 4-5 days, my body started to move into a new kind of trances. This new kind of trance I experience, as a total cosmic eruption in the body. The trance doesn’t any longer push me out of the body, but invites me to stay and play in total presence.

During the first trances of this kind, I, as always, had no choice but to close my eyes and give in to the enormous temptation of being twirled into the meeting between earth and sky taking place in the body – it actually feels like God enters the body filling every cell with feelings of love, light and energy… As I found out, my body was very usable during this kind of trance, and as I was not to leave the body all together, I now can actually be in surroundings not fulfilling the demands of being quiet. During the first of these trances, I was able to sit and even walk. The first time it was a joyride lasting 1! hour. It was interrupted, by my moving my body from a pizza-place in Helsingoer to Gunnar's house. But it was no problem. I could, but just didn’t feel like it… As the feeling of surrender into this is so very tempting and overpowering. I slowly, through trance after trance learned that the body is fully functional even during this state of total inner surrender and feeling.

An hour and a half turned into three days Two days ago this energy exploded once again. I felt God entering me, as before, but this ride on Gods ecstasy-wave lasted more than 2 days. These trances have now been a part of my body for almost a week.

On the first day of this cosmic eruption, every move my body made, sent totally blissful waves of love-energy through my entire being. As I felt it coming during carrying out a task of the day, I saw no reason to stop, but instead continued working with my body in total bliss. And It actually made working a totally to sex-comparable experience. I didn’t have to get caught up, but instead I let myself, when ever I felt like it, and just for a few seconds at the time. It was pure explosion of passion in my chest.

In lack of feelings to compare this with, I can compare this to nothing but a sexual climax… And describe it only as a total cosmic and chest-

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Somebody wants to dance with me now.

Write when it is over. 06-02-14-14.27

So peaceful, so lovely, such bliss. Quick in... Quick out... greeted HIM

with a smile and a coke. He took me in. And just sent me back. So Amazing.

06-02-14-14.58

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imploding orgasm. Of course this had nothing to do with stimulation of reproductive organs, but was centred in all of my torso, reaching down from the stomach over solar plexus and into the open chest, sending these vibrations out to surround my arms. The energy I received from God.

This first day the eruption was so extreme, that every being I touched sent of explosive love-vibrations and a tremendous feeling of share-ability all the way through my body. Contact with other beings… receiving a loving touch this day… was the very wind turning my already stormy waters into giant waves of emotion.

The 2nd day I still felt the eruption constantly eyes open, but less vividly. If I closed my eyes, I felt the arousing energy roaring in all of my upper body. This made the healings I had yesterday, a whole new experience. I can surely say, that the feeling of giving touch was more intense, than I ever imagined possible. During healing I closed my eyes, and I can almost say for sure, that I enjoyed those healings more, than the bodies I healed. :o)

3rd day… Today… the feeling of carrying this energy is less explosive and mindblowing. I am able to keep focus outside, without the inner process taking up a part of my attention the entire time. But the feeling of the energy is there.

What started out as trances pulling me of stage, now has become something else. I can hardly use the word trance to cover it anymore. On the contrary I feel and see my body integrating more and more of this energy through these bursts of ecstasy, that when erupts, feel like total fulfilment.

These creamy love-flavoured heart attacks, seem to come again and again. And up till now, they have become longer and longer in duration. I don’t feel that the energy, that on day one was causing this extreme experience in me, has disappeared. On the contrary, that the energy got integrated in my body. The result of these 3 days: The overwhelming experience is gone… But the energy stayed… Making my body feel me differently.

Ha ha ha, as I write this… I feel another steamy roar of God echoing through my body, turning up energy ones again, for me to body-feel in total surrender simultaneously with being in this now…

These bursts of sunshine makes my entire body feel again and again as it has never been able to before.

What a journey… Ha ha ha…

Love from Dahlia

I have come to enjoy the living creatures of God enormously... Especially the ones

with no minds ... animals... they react spontaneously and natural with the energy... love so pure.

Iiiih... My cat want to sit on top of me all the time. It's

impossible to get anything done around here... But then again...

might as well surrender... ha ha ha ha ha ha

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25th of February 06

What happened to my self(ish)? This last period of 4-6 months I can now see in perspective. I now realize my body was learning the lessons of love. The taught hierarchy of love As I was raised, my body was taught to love people differently – to love some more than others. The love that place people in hierarchies, I see now, is built on missing bodily knowledge. My entire life I have lived categorising people. In my body and mind was created a hierarchy of love with my child and boyfriend on top, parents, closest friends, friends and at the bottom strangers! I didn’t feel much for strangers as a lot of people don’t. My love was based on personal relationships. As to the people I was closest with was the ones I loved the most. This by far, have changed and turned out to be the opposite of truth of heart. This I see now was the lesson of my life. The lessons in love. Through these last 4-6 months my heart has learned to love with no conditions, restrictions, demands or expectations. Strangers becoming family I observed this was happening, when I observed my bodys behaviour and feeling around strangers changed. The layers of dividing people into categories, disappeared one by one and from the bottom. Strangers started to feel like friends. Friends started to feel like close friends and so on. My experience was that slowly my heart started opening to more and more people. None of the people I already had feelings for, lost any part of me – no man was degraded in my heart – but every one not on top, was upgraded. Somehow strangers started to feel just like people I cared for. Through these last 4 months my relationship with every human became one and the same.

Through this very period I received from within insight/feeling about how every body on this planet is exactly the same and equal. Realizing what I am, meant seeing that other people are exactly the same as I. a Consciousness with a body – more or less developed to see and more importantly feel the truth. This was not attached to any thought, but was and is pure feeling. Standing with a body I never saw before, I started to feel the receiver as a consciousness living inside a terribly misunderstood body. I observed this was happening when strangers became family, and family all of a sudden didn’t feel quite as personal, as they did before. The day my body let go of the instinct of protecting my son from everything bad in this world (as all is good), was the day every body all of sudden felt like my sons and daughters. I cried for 3-4 hours. Couldn’t stand thinking of anybody I know, as the thought made me cry harder. I had to return to the now, to be able to stop crying. No thinking at all. In the time following this, my body had to learn the lesson for good. And this it did through healing – and through me becoming aware of its way of treating family differently than strangers. Learning by healing – learning by doing! I have become aware, that the personal relationships I have had with my family was actually, what kept me back from being mercifully loving with them. With strangers my body had no fear at all in carrying out all the loving grace that pours through my heart no matter the action. But as soon as I was with family, my body automatically restrained itself and captured itself in the ways of habit, feelings returning of the personal relationships from the past. This I started to become aware of when letting my body perform the first love-therapy-healing.

One day I received an sms from Gunnar, asking if I wished to come heal a friend of his. My body reacted very efficiently. I returned the message: “Will he surrender and do I have free hands to do whatever necessary?”. The answer was yes. The next day I showed up. Deep heartburn. I started healing this man the conventional way, but within long, my body felt like pulling this body to the ground, and letting my heart explode in the receiving body. I followed my bodys desire to do so – and he surrendered. My body and energy, God, Allah, (or whatever you wish to call it), penetrated the heart of this man, with no mercy and no regard to any of his personal restrictions. God poured love out of my heart, and his heart reacted. Ended up beating like a drum. Never before I experienced such great cooperation between the energy and my body – and all I did was stand aside and let the body carry out its desire. I had felt no filters of personal restrictions or relations carrying out this healing – as I had none. From

SMS from Dahlia:

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I look him straight in the eyes ... every chance I get... and this will probably be my

downfall.. .for all I experience is Him striking again and again, killing me not quite so softly..

I surrender to God... with every bit of my conscience... and I stand tall through it.. .partly because I accept I have no

will and all of this is his territory..

and not mine.. and partly because I have

the balls of a bull ha ha ha

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I

am nothing and he is everything

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Ha ha ha ... is it not perfect!

I laugh at my own previous effort in reaching nothing...

I now achieve nothing being nothing.

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then on, I started being aware of the difference between my bodys desires when healing strangers and family. Healing family automatically put a soft freedom-reducing pillow over the desires and hence the actions carried out during healing.

Since I observed and got aware of this, my body has moved closer and closer to throwing all personal relationships out of its. The restrictions have disappeared one by one, and now the captivity of my past relations are encredibly small and getting closer by the day to non existent. What a paradox, huh? The people I set out and claimed to love the most, turned out to be the people I had most trouble helping! Ha ha ha! The irony!!!

Truth in heart – truth in love The lesson my heart learned does not exist from head knowledge, but from knowledge from within. My heart now beats like a drum directly into other bodies. Healing now is an invitation to other hearts to dance a lively and love-celebrating beat. It has been quite a while since I had a healing where I have not observed the heart of the other human being reacting heavily to mine. I feel all of our bodies are closely connected through hearts. The feeling and experience of healing other people has done nothing but change, from each and every time to the next. I now feel the closest connection possible with the people I spend time with. My body is healing everybody I am with (hence all the trances that by the way becomes more the more people I am with), and healing has very little to do with a specific situation with a body placed just so, and me standing doing just so. Healing now is done by my talking to other people as well as touching them as my body wish to. By being present and aware. As every school of healing will hate me for saying this, there is and can be no technique possible to learn or teach any body else of healing others. The only technique available to learn the lessons of love, is to follow the body’s desire and be aware how your own body reacts to the people you heal. Awareness is what moves your body closer and closer to learn the lessons in love. My experience is this, and that my body has learned through me getting aware of its behaviour. First comes awareness, then comes bodily knowledge.

I am very aware, that with the growth of my heart as it has happened, I found respect, accept, compassion and love for other humans. No matter shape or size, and more importantly no matter belief or knowledge. I know my life is not about convincing any other human, that what I see and say is true, but about sharing through un-personal relationships with people, what move them in their lives. No action is right or wrong. The only thing that makes anything right from wrong is whether the human being does this action from desire or force. From love or fear.

23th of February 06

Dear… Each and every time I sit alone, I cannot help but exploring the space inside my body. And really, I can sit there wondering how on earth this body can be breathing. With closed eyes I feel the outer form moving in breathing in and out, but inside is just space… So big, so massive, bottomless nothingness…

Only had 2 trances today… Have been alone today. There is nothing dramatic about the trances anymore, no pain, only joyous ease and peace. Love.

When I am alone my body has not the same need to let go. I feel the healing of every person I am with, no matter if I put my hands on them or not, and I see clearly, it is my being with other people, that makes the trances come more often. But it is all good, I don’t mind having these trances, they help me help others, nothing could be more perfect… As I carry this wish as a part of my body. The trances is no more moving into a hole. It is pure nothingness and a body releasing all into the space of nothing. Every body reading this is more than welcome to contact me… my number is 0045 2627 8076. I wish to help every body, that wishes to receive my help… Love from Heart of Himalaya… Dahlia

15th of February 06

A peaceful conversation with God… Wauw… total loss for words. Was sitting here writing about the former 6-7 days of battling with the beast. When suddenly my head dropped. Had been 24 hours since the last time. Now once again. Moved to my bed. My experience of what was happening no longer involved any misplaced thoughts of what was happening with these trances…. And therefore no more battling with the beast… Only dancing.

I accepted and greeted God with a smile and passed out through the nothingness-door. It all went very quickly. 3 minutes from warning to turn off. Was gone for 30 minutes and returned safely to a body I could activate almost immediately. Such a safe journey. And nothing but a feeling of bliss – total peace and joy in letting go.

All very peaceful and lovely. Big wauw. Feel so lifted and blessed.