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1907 Crowley diary fragment

Copyright (c) O.T.O.

[March, 1907 E.V.]

Thurd

ay 7

Began V.I.T.R.I.O.L.

Beat Sunny Jim by 7 & at h a !tro"e.#rote to $.$.S. a!"ing %or permi!!ion to o a Vo' o% Sience an to appoint a perio.

!riday

"Scuping. $aeth or rather Che!e.

#aturd

ay 9

.* +.,. Began -o' o% Re%u!ing to an!'er ue!tion!. $.$.S. !ay! 7 ay!. / !ip i! to be puni!he 'ith a

ra0or1cut.Ro!e i! -ery angry2 o% cour!e.

One notice! in Re%u!ing to /n!'er 3ue!tion! that neary e-erything !ai to one i! a ue!tion.

One notice! that year! ago one 'ou ha-e cae a the 4o! to 'itne!! a ma5e!tic ceremonia Vo'6 at

 pre!ent one etermine!2 & begin! %orth'ith.One may u!e thi! %ormua to batte again!t an o-ercome the 4reat $e-i

One !hou con!ier be%ore !pea"ing at a 'hether the !peech i! both nece!!ary an unimportant6 %or une!!

the!e conition! are %u%ie one brea"! the Vo' o% Sience2 o% 'hich thi! i! a branch.One ha! been in %ighting %orm a ay2 but thi! %ormua gi-e! one an iea o% tremenou! controe %orce.

ay./ thing! are 'oner%u to me. I "no' that I am on the -ery thre!ho o% Binah6 that hence%orth I !ha go

about my 'ay! in utter eight an prai!e. ai8

Thi! matter o% R9e%u!ing: to /9n!'er: 39ue!tion!: re!o-e! it!e% into a -igiance o-er !peech. It i! thu! a

much harer ta!" than pain Sience6 %or intere!t in the con-er!ation betrayeth thi! -igiance.It ha! !truc" me that ;;the Bac" ,agician ab!tain! %rom !at<< i! Tohu1Bohu. The ab!tainer %rom !at i !o

to 'or" e-i 'ithout becoming nima"1"haram. ence he 'a! !u!pecte o% !orcery.

#unday10 +aying go% at ,aienhea. Very trying thi! Vo' o% R. to /.3. => !ip! in the +ractice ti no'.

Monda

y 11

Too" at ?*.=> +.,. a minute uantity o% a!hi!h 111 too !ma to ha-e any po!!ibe e%%ect2 one 'ou !ay2

 5uging by pre-iou! e@perience.??.A* ene in $..$.<! uring me a'ay a!o I neary !ept. Ro!e & ha tea & no' 'rite thi!. I thin" the

ha!hi!h ha! ha itte or no e%%ect perhap! 5u!t e!! than the e!ire 'a"ing o% +ratyahara. But no

haucination!6 no o!! o% time1!en!e. +o!!iby !ight !e%1con!ciou!ne!!6 but one 'oun<t i"e to a!!ert it.

?= Sip! uring ,onay.

Tueda

y 1$

7 !ip! in the +ractice.

/t ?* +.,. about2 the minimum o!e o% .. /nhaonium Le'inii being = rop!2 too" ? rop ony.T/ROT re' A o% Cup! (curiou!y enough the car re Tan"er-ie !ai by $.$.S. to be Bac" ,agic)

;;/bunance<<.

Be%ore ta"ing rug2 I note my phy!ica conition e@ceent2 my menta epre!!e %rom not being abe to'rite 'hat I 'ant to2 my magica e@ate an on the -erge o% Samahi. See oppo!ite.?*.? /! !tate oppo!ite too" ? rop /9nhaonium: L9e'inii: in a goo ea o% 'arm 'ater. The ta!te i! not

unpea!ant6 it i! -ery !trongy remini!cent o% the tea o% Dunnan2 a! there prepare an run".

I procee to

?*.A /m bu!ying my!e% 'ith coour1thought! o% i-ine nature6 an the /.L. ha-ing prouce no perceptibe re!ut 'hate-er too" ? rop more.

?*. Sti no apparent re!ut. Too" = rop!.

+o!!iby the Vioet centre! are !timuate. I !ee the %ame o% a match 'ith green bue & -ioet at it! ege.

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+robaby thi! i! mere +ratyahara re!uting %rom intention to attain. Co!ing the eye! prouce! no re!ut.

??.7 Stri"ing the magic Be2 co!e eye!2 I !a' an opae!cent ight2 not 'e mar"e. urther I ha !een

!ome %ine opa matri@ in Bon St a %e' hour! earier.

??.=7 a-e mae an run" much tea. Eo !ymptom 'hate-er %rom the /.L.??.A* Too" A rop! more.

??.* Eo !ymptom. Too" A rop! more. ?* rop! in a. Thi! being ma@ o!e2 mentione on abe2 'i ta"e

no more.See page =*F.

,arch ?= cont. ?Ath ,inight.?. Conc11n not inter%ere 'ith by rug. ,aybe one get! occa!iona briiant

 picture! 'ith eye! !hut6 but it i! not enough to recor. I cou get a! goo 'ith pain e@pectation. /m

apparenty -ery !eepy. +upi! certainy not iate. ye! boo!hot2 'hich i! no !urpri!e2 a%ter !taring harat the eectric gobe %or o-er ?* minute!.

9,arch2 ?*7:

?=.A* /.,. #ent a!tra tour no coour e%%ect! to !pea" o%.

.A* /.,. Eothing 'hate-er unu!ua.#ene!ay ?A

/n e@ceent ay. Buc"ma!ter! charming.

Scuping. Ta' or 4ime1Beth1Vau1Re!h1e %or R9o!e: mae a !cene.

?* brea"! in practice.

I GGGGGG Ro!e an !ept i"e a ogGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG 

Thurd

ay 1%

4a-e Sunny Jim ?A & 'on by = & a!o the Bye.

Re%u!e to 'rite or 'ire. Rough on Rat!8 !ip! in the +ractice.

!riday

1&

7 !ip! in the +ractice.

+eh1/eph1Re!h1Ta' Theory per%ect. +ractice eHebre' 'ith Do to Do !anctum. Do 'ith Do an +eto the Be!!e ount o% the Superna Via Lactea2 !o that at .? +.,. I too" > rop! .. /nhaonium

Le'inii in co 'ater.

/m rather tire 'ith my ay<! !hopping2 but peace%u & 'e.

.>* Too" rop!.?*.* GGGGG GGGGG.

?*.=7 GGGGG GGGGG.

??.A /ccommoation o% age !ti per%ect.Too" 7 rop!.

 Eo re!ut6 but %et a! i% near !omething. /!o !ight !tomachic i!com%ort.

Saturay ?

Cambrige 'on the Boat Race. / gran %ight o% the mpire.

7 !ip! in the +ractice (7= in a). n thereo% at .* +.,. / etter %rom $.$.S.,oreo-er I i emon!trate my !uperiority to the 'arring %action! o% Eet0ach & o by %ormuating De!o

in the number Do1Vau1$aet.