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Addiction

Kimmie Wood


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Table of Contents

Slide 1 : Title Page

Slide 2 : Table of contents

Slide 3 : Preface

Slide 4 : True Ecstasy by Linda Frohlich

Slide 5 : True Ecstasy commentary

Slide 6 : Suicide Solution by Osbourne, Rhodes andDaisly

Slide 7 : Suicide Solution commentary

Slide 8 : Hurt by Trent Reznor

Slide 9 : Hurt commentary

Slide 10 : Thats Why Im Here by Craig Wiseman and

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Preface

I have selected five poems on addiction. Addiction is a partof my past and will forever be a part of my future. It is notalways a well understood subject, so I want to enlightenthe world on how real addiction is and also how it can beovercome. With addiction, pain follows closely behind it.

The order in which my poems are presented are from the

darkest period of addiction and ending in the mostliberating and celebratory of ways: recovery! The point I

am seeking to make in this project, is that addiction can beovercome, however, it takes hard work and dedication.These poems are more than words written on a power

point slide, these are emotions that I feel and have felt.This is a very personal subject for me but I firmly believethat in order to celebrate recovery, you must first be

educated on the meaning and the celebration of fightingthe disease of addiction.

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I am but an embryo

Inside the womb

Growing and concealed

With restricted room

Sensory deprivation

And I cant yet see

Whats waiting for me

When Im free

Written by LindaFrohlich1997GiGi

True

Ecstasy


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Commentary

Total Ecstasy is a short poem written by my

grandmother. Her book was published in 1997 and Ifound this short poem in it. The meaning that I get

from this poem is there is something that is about tocome. It, to me, means that something wonderful isabout to happen, yet I am currently restricted from

doing so. Perhaps I dont know how to get to this pointof ecstasy that is spoken of but I know that I will end

up there. I also may not know what exactly is about tochange. You will find through my commentary that I

do flourish and I do find freedom within myself. TotalEcstasy perfectly describes what it feels like to be

feel as if you are tied down and are unable to move.This short poem gives me hope. It says that I am going

to be free; its only a matter of time!


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Wine is fine but whiskey's quickerSuicide is slow with liquor

Take a bottle, drown your sorrowsThen it floods away tomorrowsAway tomorrows

Evil thoughts and evil doingsCold, alone; you hang in ruins

Thought that you'd escape the reaperYou can't escape the master keeper

'Cause you feel life's unrealAnd you're living a lieSuch a shame, who's to blameAnd you're wondering why

Then you ask from your caskIs there life after birthWhat you sow can mean hell on this earthHell on this earth

Now you live inside that bottleThe reaper's travelling at fullthrottleIt's catching you but you don'tsee

The reaper's you and the reaperis me

Breaking laws, knocking doorsBut there's no one at homeMade your bed, rest your headBut you lie there and moanWhere to hide, suicide is the only

way outDon't you know what it's reallyabout

Wine is fine but whiskey'squickerSuicide is slow with liquor

Take a bottle, drown your

sorrowsThen it floods away tomorrows

Suicide Solution

Written By Osbourne, Rhodes andDaisly

1980


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Commentary

I chose this piece of work because it perfectly explains

what it feels like to be so consumed into alcohol thatnothing else matters. Wine is fine, but whiskey is

quicker could have easily been the slogan for my lifesix months ago. It is well known that Ozzy Osbourne

struggled with addiction throughout much of hislifetime. Every single word in this song is what I havefelt in the past. I have and will continue to feel guiltand so much shame. Perhaps this isnt exactly howMr. Osbourne felt, but he and his fellow co-writers

have described perfectly every single emotion that Ifelt while I was drinking. This is most likely the darkest

of my hours and I am not proud of it. It is almost ashame that I have felt everything written in this song.

I dont like to admit that but that is part of the processof recovery!


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Johnny CashWritten by Trent Reznor

1994

I hurt myself todayTo see if I still feelI focus on the pain

The only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut I remember everything

What have I becomeMy sweetest friendEveryone I know

goes awayIn the endAnd you could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thornsUpon my liar's chair

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Full of broken thoughtsI cannot repairBeneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone elseI am still right here

What have I becomeMy sweetest friendEveryone I knowgoes awayIn the endAnd you could have it all

My empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurt

If I could start againA million miles awayI would keep myselfI would find a way

HURT


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Commentary

Hurt is a prime example of what loneliness feels

like. It explains how numbness but pain as well.This is an important piece for my anthology

because I feel that it is crucial to know what analcoholic feels like. It is important for my recovery

to include this and it is also important for me toshare this so that I can reflect on these feelings inorder to realize that I never want to feel this again.I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel is what Idid to myself every single time I took a drink. I

knew that I was hurting myself but I continued topush every single limit that I had. I was hurt. I wassad, I lost a lot of friends and many people gave upon me. I thought that I was destined to live in pain

for the remainder of my life.


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Well, they started talkin bout stepsyou takeMistakes you make

The hearts you breakAnd the price you payI almost walked away

You could hear a pin drop

When this old manStood up and said I'm gonna' say it

It's the simple things in lifeLike the kids at home and a loving wife

That you miss the most, when you losecontrolAnd everything you love starts to disappear

The devil takes your hand and says no fearHave another shot, just one more beer

Yah, I've been there, that's why I'm here

This ole boy stood up in the aisleSaid he'd been living a life of denialAnd he cried as he talked about wasted years

I couldn't believe what I heardIt was my life word for wordAnd all of the sudden it was clear

It's the simple things in lifeLike the kids at home and a loving wife



Yah, I've been there, that's why I'm here

I know for us it may be too lateBut it would mean the world to meIf you were there when I stand to sayIt's the simple things in lifeLike the kids at home and a loving wife



Yah, I've been there, that's wh I'm here

Thats Why ImHereWritten by Craig

Wiseman and Jim Collins2002

No I ain't had nothingto drink

I knew thats probablywhat you'd thinkIf I dropped by thistime of nightRemember way backwhenI promised you I'd dropinAt one of those

meetings down at theY


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Commentary

At this point of my project, I am emotionally drained.I have realized that I have a problem and now I haveto fix it. This song, sung by Kenny Chesney,

reminded me of the reasons that I realized that I hadto quit drinking. It reminds me of temptation,

confusion and even still a little pain. It reminded meabout how I felt when I had finally realized that I wasputting my children through the same thing that mymother put me through. It reminds me of the years

that I wasted and took for granted when my childrenwere younger. My son is almost in school and I feelso guilty that it took this long to realize that I

needed to quit drinking. This song is an amazingreminder of why it is necessary for me to continue

on the road of sobriety. I shall look ahead, and I will


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Closing timeTime for you to go out go out into the world.Closing timeTurn the lights up over every boy and everygirl.Closing timeOne last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey

or beer.Closing timeYou don't have to go home but you can't stayhere.

I know who I want to take me home.I know who I want to take me home.I know who I want to take me home.Take me home

Closing timeEvery new beginning comes from some otherbeginning's end.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.I know who I want to take me home.Take me home

Closing timeTime for you to go back to the places you will befrom

I know who I want to take me home.I know who I want to take me home.I know who I want to take me home.Take me home

Closing timeEvery new beginning comes from some otherbeginning's end

Closing timeTime for you to go back tothe places you will be from.

Closing timeThis room won't be open 'tilyour brothers or you sisterscome.So gather up your jackets,and move it to the exitsI hope you have found aFriend.

ClosingTimeSemisoni

c 1998Written byDan Wilson


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Closing Time could be interpreted in manydifferent ways. Some people are sure to believe

that this is a song that is played at last call in thebar. To me, this is the end of the darkest chapterof my life. I know who I want to take me home issymbolic to me because I am finally realizing that Ineed my family and they need me. I want them totake me home! I have finished my whiskey, I have

finished my beer, my mind is now becoming moreand more clear. This song symbolizes what I took

for granted, and the very simple fact that I amready for the bar to close.

Every new beginning comes from some other

beginnings endThis says to me that the end of my addiction is hereand a new beginning is approaching me.

The title Closing Time has an abundance ofmeaning. As the reader, it means that its the

closing time of my alcohol addiction, which has, in

fact, been closed!

Commentary


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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,courage to change the

Things I can and wisdom to know the difference.

These are the reasonsthat I have overcomeMy alcohol addiction!


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Epilogue

The five poems and songs that I have collected for my anthology symbolize thedarkest of hours for an alcoholic. It also symbolizes that there is light at the end

of the tunnel if you allow it for yourself. This is a very personal message from meto you on how difficult my life was when alcohol was the primary choice in my life.The last slide features my family; my husband, Carl, my son, Landon and my

daughter, Belle. There is a message with these pieces of poetry; life can befulfilling. There can and will always be heartbreak, slips, slides, ups and downs.For some people, there are a lot more than others. The beginning of this projectdeemed itself emotionally expensive but I am gratified that I am able to share

through words that life can change for the better. The five pieces of literature Ichose work well as a timeline of what happened to me personally. There can bemany meanings from all five pieces of work, but in this situation, it is primarily

focused on alcohol, how it can be detrimental and how it can also enlighten yourworld more than you could have ever imagined. The first poem True Ecstasy is

slightly different than the others because it is there to represent what change wasabout to happen in my life. I decided to go straight into what alcoholism feels like

on a personal level and gradually get to the point where it stops, if you choose toallow that. Closing Time is not too different but, to me, represents the closing ofa chapter rather than the closing of a bar. I added the very last slide to show that

after addiction, there is a meaning for life. I also included the serenity prayerbecause I say those words every single day. It sums up what I am trying to

portray with this project. I hope that this has been enjoyed by the reader. I haveenjoyed giving my perspective on what addiction means to me and I have also

enjoyed using personal experience to convey that message.

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