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Entry for 16 August 2008

The picture above is a recent demo sculpture in plaster that I did. It was experimental in

that I added baking soda and salt to the mixture of plaster to try and ariate the plaster in

hopes of making it easier to carve. It was but perhaps a bit too soft in places escpecially at

the bottom of the mold area where the salt seemed to congregate. Still this is the result.

My second point today is an old one that seems to need repeating to all the new people

that come in. I don't spend much time at blogging any more so invitations are ignored

because I don't fill I have time to relate to friends here. At present the list is about 180

invitations or so which I will eventually dump because it clogs up my mail box and slowsdown my access to mail. generally I leave for awhile in case people want access to the

blog for awhile but I recommend just choosing a connection if you want to come back

rather than friend invite or use bookmarks.

Along with this is I'm getting a lot of people that want one to one contact which I again

just choose to not do so sending me email addresses, phone numbers and links are a waste

of your time. If you want some kind of contact I do attempt when I get the chance to leave

messages on peoples blogs if they have their quick comments or comments open to the

public. I'd say over 90% of the people seeking contact don't have either open so if your

one of those that's why you probably didn't get a message.

I suspect that since we humans tend to reach out and communicate through our own

experiences and aren't aware of how busy other people may be we tend to expect people

might respond to our requests because we asked. The thing is there are a lot of factors as

to why someone might not respond. Generally I've often read on various blogs how those

who have active blogs refuse to respond to blank ikons with inactive and closed blogs.

I've gotten to that point myself a while back because even if you respond more often than

not one ends up wasting ones time. It doesn't mean I don't want to interact if there is a

purpose that I can relate to in the offering. When I do interact it is generally with people

openly writing in their blog and have open to public settings showing they are willing to

take the same risks as I do. This tends to reduce those using scams and physhing

techniques to make contact. Because Yahoo has put my blog out there to the world by

picking it as an interesting page I suspect I get more than my fair share of scam contacts

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which I do report when they seem obvious to me. It's interesting how they seem to soon

disappear.

Now perhaps the reason I've chosen to be a bit harder on those that choose to stay in the

shadows a bit comes from the fact that my car was broken into this last week and a few

art craft tools ended up disappearing from the car leaving me a few less items to use in

my work with recovering mental health clients that attend my art sessions. So now I

arrive to the main point of this blog today.

I often talk about staying in the present which allows one to stay in life and living. This

break in with a broken window is one of those experiences that can and will come along

to challenge one. In my case it was during the drive home that I got out of the now with

finding myself at different stages of the trip home not being aware of the trip to those

current moments of being awake and aware. My watcher could see my mind continually

going back to the moment of finding the broken window in the car which was the past. As

I grew back into awareness I found that I could evaluate and learn and make choices

without getting angry at the perpetrator for doing the break in or myself for not having

listened to my intuition that night. So I have found myself being thankful that I was

relatively protected since much worse could have happened and have also found myself lifting up the perpetrator in prayer. I've learned that those that attack in one form or

another are generally coming from a place of some form of fear. Now I now to most

someone walking past who is willing to break a window to grab something and go away

at the risk of being seen in public doesn't appear fearful. The thing is one has to go deeper.

What makes a person feel needful enough to take something from another without

considering how it might affect the person taken from. I really believe awake aware

people automatically live by the 10 commandments because they are coming from love

and recognize how stealing can affect another . So for some reason this person or persons

must feel needy in some way and hoped this action would take them out of their fear for a

time. So I have a choice to wish harm and add to that persons fear thus continuing the

energy cycle that goes with it. My other choice is to lift them up in hopes that Love cantouch their hearts and minds in order to raise them from fear actions to life giving actions.

The how it should happen is then left up to God. Any plan I might come up no doubt

would fall short.

Having shared all this it doesn't mean that if it so happened that the perp is caught and I'm

asked to give evidence that I wouldn't. It is in fact something that I would still need to

pray about in attempting to find the most life giving path not just for myself but for all

concerned. After all I wouldn't want this person to do it again. Still I won't spend much

time on this now as that's at present only a possible future and little to do with the present.

As I visit other blogs and read of different interactions and people's hurts and how someget caught up in victim hood because of what has happened to them I notice that

becoming a victim often locks us into the past and it is so easy to get into story telling and

anger. I've had that temptation this week but because I've chosen to keep my watcher on I

could see through ego's attempts to get me, to make me a poor me, or an angry grouch

over what happened,hitting out at the family cat or calling names and putting down

someone with less ower than me. or a manipulator that tries to get back what was lost

from others. All are control dramas one uses because I could let fear grasp me too. So to

all I hope my path has been one of love in all this.

Finally I thank all those who daily just leave positive comments of support in one form or

another. You all help me more than you know. You are reminders that my blog does offer something beyond me that is Love in some form. Thanks be to God.



Entry for 02 August 2008

Lately I’ve been thinking about our world we live in and

individuals. One of the things that tends to motivate me about

writing my blog is that I see so much potential in people and how

we as individuals can create the world we live in. This may seem

radical since most of us at one time or another are hit by ego telling

us what difference can I make? We usually hear ego telling us

nothing with a bunch of excuses that tell us exactly why based on

the many imperfections we believe we have. Things like age,

looks, status, lack of friends among a whole lot of others that you

can input yourself since each of you who are reading are more

intimate with your own self than anybody else in this world. I was

reading on someone else’s blog who left me a message an article

on what a true friend is like. Not sure if it was their words or

someone else’s but that isn’t the point. In reading it I thought about

the many other blogs I’ve read with similar points. The thing most

of us don’t often recognize is that the one friend that can live up toall these qualities is our own self.

Back in the days when I did a lot more reading to try and work out

who I am and why I was the way I was

(depressed/directionless/full of doubt) I would come across clues

that help me recognize how important being my own friend is.

Things like a question How can I expect someone else to know me

when I don’t even know myself very well? Psychology books oninner child work and how as an adult we can go back and visit our





child self in the past and see the ego causing us to make decisions

that will negatively affect us in the present. By our adult visiting

with adult knowledge we can hug and teach the child self different

ways of seeing those moments. The love we give ourselves brings

healing and each time we heal we become better people thus

making this world a better place.

That may seem a small thing but if we all are doing such things

imagine the changes and what our world could be like if we all

came from that kind of love. Each time we are truly kinder to self

we become more tolerant of others for we become aware that they

are like us too.

It is usually from our belief in self that we find the energy to put

ourselves out there, to attempt to accomplish and do things. If weare strong in that self friendship we can take the times we don’t

succeed because we have developed a secure foundation. Love is

that foundation and for new readers to me God and Love are the

same. That foundation is present in all of us but for many it is

hidden a lot of the time. Even at the stage of development I’ve

attained, I’m aware that I have times I lose touch with that

foundation and let ego in so I’m sharing from my experience here.

The thing is that as I grow that foundation seems stronger andstronger and I get back in touch with it/love much quicker these

days.

As a person who knows that words have power and that when God

uses my writing I can wield a lot of power, I’m also aware that

responsibilities also comes with it. That’s why from time to time I

try to remind people that it is important not to get caught up and

hold me up higher than I deserve. I don’t write to acquire a

following who try to take on my particular beliefs. I even

discourage too much contact so I can keep ego from puffing me up.

There’s a balance that can only be found in understanding love and

its difference from how Satan or ego would have us believe. All I

really do is share my bits of a bigger puzzle as I’ve been to find in

my life. By sharing I hope those bits may connect with some of

you to make a bigger picture just as I’ve taken on bits that others

have shared with me.



While I’m on the topic of what can one person do I’d like to share

a bit about my son in law who is just finishing off working on his

doctorate in law and is now looking for work. His thesis is

generally about the internet and some of the things individuals and

concerned parties are doing to develop an internet that doesn’t

deteriorate into a chaotic island like happens in the novel “Lord of

the Flies” To do this users need to get together and communicate

and agree on a whole range of issues.. The UN is one of the

participating communities and they have conferences where those

interested get together to try to put together some system of order

and regulation. Ultimately the success or lack of success will come

down to those who participate. We all have a stake in what kind of

regulation will result over this internet that we now use. As

individuals misuse the internet for ego reason that hurt others it

generally causes reaction that can set down rules or laws that might

block life giving use later. The more proactive action done in these

early days is important. So if your interested in knowing more than

two links are available: http://press.terminus.net.au/igfbook.

or http://books.google.com/books?id=G8ETBPD6jHIC

If you know of any companies or universities or government

contacts that could use a young lawyer with expertise in internetlaw issues make contact. Buy the book that grew out of his thesis

since Jobs like this aren’t very available here in Perth. He has my

daughter and grandson to support.

Entry for 14 July 2008

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I've not been online much lately so my responding to mail and messages has been limited.My art and work among other priorities are a factor. Today's short post is response to one

of my readers who recently did me the honor of doing a caricature of me on her blog. So

Abeth this caricature of you is my gift back.

Again because I am not in as often as I was I am not replacing friends that have left Just

don't think it is fair to those who want to be my friend. I do intend to continue posting as I

get time. I have many insights that I've learned that have value to share. I am a slow

writer though so I really need appropriate time and space in which to share. I do thank all

those who continue to leave positive messages of support. Your prayers and love are

appreciated.

Entry for 28 May 2008

Following is an email I received from a friend who has taught me a lot onenergy. In light of the situation in Burma I felt it worth sharing since itcame from a well known source to me. The next four words are hers:

these are great people







Sharon Salzberg,

Founders, Insight Meditation Society

and Spirit Rock Meditation Center

Robert Thurman, President

Tibet House and Professor Columbia University

Nena Thurman, Co-founder

Tibet House

Ram Dass

Alan Senauke

Berkeley Zen Center, Clear View Project

Sylvia Boorstein

Spirit Rock Meditation Center

Gail Seneca, Board Member

Foundation for the People of Burma

Entry for 25 May 2008

Today I hope to cover several topics so it may be a bit long winded. I’ve actually

brainstormed my thoughts beforehand in hopes that I can write to paragraphs and not get

sidetracked. Feedback appreciated if this post is any easier to follow or if my usual

approach which is more natural to me is better.





I start today with a caricature of Heath Ledger. A young man who died too young is a

term I’ve read and heard relating to him often. I could possibly write a blog alone on the

archetype of this but for today will just share that what stands out for me is that he seems

to have lived and enjoyed much of his life. It is of some interest to note that fame and its

pressures seems to have challenged some of his perceptions. This is most noticed with his

last part. In preparation for playing the Joker as an actor he enmeshed himself into a type

of insanity. He did this so much so that after filming was over it is said that his sleep was

affected. Hence his turn towards sleeping tablets and other prescription aids. (just an aside

her loss of sleep is a symptom of depression) I suppose one of the reasons what I’ve read

has stimulated my writing is that in my own story and slide I can relate to that spending

too much time with the shadow side of life and trying to understand it. Much of my

writing these days is about taking care to notice ones energy and how it is affected by

what one does. Heath embraced the shadows for a part and I wonder if he’d had the

opportunity to understand the idea that what we put in is what we get out that had he also

put in things to balance himself while playing that role if things would have turned out

differently. Still this is past and therefore what has happened has been for a deeper reason

I’m not privy to. I suspect being awake to our energies would at least give choice and

proactive direction.

This leads me to my next topic. Byron Katie, She’s only recently come into my

experience through some fairly long time friends I’ve had before I even started this blog.

She has founded something called The Work. This week I took the opportunity to watch

several short U Tube films of her interacting with people and their stories. What I found

of most interest was her ability to help people see the core of how ego works in their

thinking to affect their inner peace and makes them realize that they have a choice

between reacting and being proactive. The thing is to be proactive one has to let go of the

need to be right and in control. Anyhow if any of you readers Google her name and visit

her site or go to U Tube and watch the tapes I’m open to comments about what insights

you might gain.

I seem to be doing well following an outline. I’m getting through most of my material

fairly quickly and sticking to the points till now of course.

The next thing I wish to cover is on something I’ve shared on before and often. The

friendship list and my interacting with others outside of the blog, which never ceases to

be one of those ego in control issues I have. If it weren’t I probably wouldn’t devote so

much energy towards it. I’ve been blessed with a few close friends here in the past and as

I attracted more and more people to this site began to find that what I wanted to do in my

enthusiasm had physical limits. I just don’t know how to interact with everyone on a

personal level. Because I see Christ at some level in all people I know that I can be

blessed with each and everyone of you that I connect with. This ability to look past the projected images and into the person each of you was created to be is a blessing to me but

has its opposite side when ego plays on my mind about it. In order to be proactive and

deal with ego I find that I need like Christ to take myself away and be with the Father.

This path is very inviting and sometimes it is tempting to join a cloister where I can have

a life time of that kind of focus. Without it I probably wouldn’t have the things to say that

seems to touch so many who tell me that they are blessed by my blog. I do need to be up

front and tell new readers over and over and that means boring long time readers that if

you attempt to connect as friend for most the response will be left by me. By sending the

invitation one gets an automatic two week connection to my blog. It would be better if

they just chose the connect option without the friendship. Occasionally someone comes

along that I hope offers me something back. This week I said yes to a cloistered priest

whose blog writings are very scripture based and will be a stimulus to my writing here.



Hopefully it will help me at times quote the specific location in scripture that I talk about.

I’ve never been very good at quoting chapter and verse and why I don’t see myself as an

academic. I will admit some bias here because I respect the training that priests do go

through in learning scripture. Much of my own early training I’ve said came from my

time spent at Newman Club while at university.

Ok this last paragraph getting a bit long so breaking it up by moving into another aspect

that comes from doing this blog. I get a lot of requests from people from other countries

that ask me to sponsor them or adopt them or provide them with money etc… Some bear

all the hall marks of scam and some of those are getting more and more sophisticated. In

other cases they are no doubt real; just like the people who are touched by my blog and

because I have a profile seems to give a perception that I’m seeking a wife so they reach

out. I recognize that each one comes here with a unique perception and reaches out from

that limited perception. I also recognize that words are open to misperception and

therefore the words I share may seem to say because I love I will give you all I have. To

me that isn’t love as it focuses on this three d world. If I were to respond from three d

alone then I suspect I’d be more commercial. Since so many seem to connect to my words

here I probably have among some of you people that would purchase a book if I were to

write it or perhaps a video tape or DVD since that seems to be growing in popularity. Thatcould lead me out of subsistence level work and volunteer work and possibly provide me

with the financial means to give more to charity than I do. I haven’t really heard that call.

Perhaps I’m blocking it because I have a certain amount of peace the way things are and

see how complicated just a little bit of fame has. Just know before you ask my current

means of giving to those online is through this blog alone.

From time to time I encourage visitors to check out my friend list. There are many types

of people there. Some don’t blog and got in before I got fussy and I will keep them there

for my own philosophical reasons explained in previous blogs. Some are just fairly

normal people with varying interests and just looking for friends so if that’s why you are

here looking for friends some of them may be more likely to say yes and let you join themthan I because they have the time. I’ve found people with fewer friends tend to want to

give more time to those they choose. Before submitting friendship requests consider what

it is you offer and put that into the request rather than the auto comment yahoo provides.

It makes you more a person and less just another request.

As I’m talking about my friend list today I will highlight Artist Light’s blog. She is one

that I interact with because she gives back through being herself. Lately she offers

meditations and prayers that seem to be just what I need when I come in. So for me I’ve

saved the best for last.

May God’s light enter the darkness of your minds and free you to be you.

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