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Guardians of the Gray Tower 5
Guardian’s Honor
Guardian Varian Dross has become a stinking drunk. He blames
himself for the death of the queen because he was the guard onduty when she was poisoned. His loss of honor has driven him to
seek forgetfulness at the bottom of a liquor bottle.
As a former addict, Masun Eselin knows just how difficult it is toovercome the grip of drugs and alcohol. Asked by his best friend
Rom to help Varian quit drinking, he is unable to refuse.
Masun and Varian are not strangers to one another. Now throwntogether by fate, the two men must face the powerful attraction
they feel for one another. When they become lovers, they decideto work together to discover the identity of the mysterious duke
who has conspired with the Angkeshi to kill the queen. Will theybe able to find him before he can strike again?
Genre: Alternative (M/M or F/F), Fantasy, Historical
Length: 27,645 words
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GUARDIAN’S HONOR
Guardians of the Gray Tower 5
Britt Kenley
EROTIC ROMANCE
MANLOVE
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GUARDIAN’S HONOR
Guardians of the Gray Tower 5
BRITT KENLEYCopyright © 2012
Prologue
In a medieval world very similar to our own lies the rich and
prosperous kingdom of Emryn. Emryn is located in the FarNorth and
is ruled by King Kelan the Wise. Enemies of the kingdom are many,
but most threatening is the neighboring country of Angkesh, whose
queen will stop at nothing to wrest control of Emryn for herself. The
king and the rest of the royal family are guarded by an elite group of
soldiers known as the Guardians of the Gray Tower. Called simplythe Gray by the citizens of Emryn, it is their sworn duty to protect,
with their last breath, the kingdom of Emryn and its royal family.
Their strength is unyielding. Their loyalty is unquestioning. Their
dedication unswerving.
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Chapter One
Varian knocked on the door to his captain’s office and stood
waiting for the call to enter. He’d been ordered to report to Rom first
thing this morning. He knew that he was in a lot of trouble, and he
dreaded the coming interview. It wasn’t going to be good. He’d
screwed up the night before, and he figured that he was in for a
serious dressing-down. The door opened, and Rom stood before him,
grim faced. Standing back, his captain gestured him in and then
closed the door behind him.
“Have a seat, Varian.” Rom nodded to one of the chairs in front of
his desk. Varian sat and waited while Rom returned to his own chair
behind the desk. The Captain of the Guardians of the Gray Tower
looked at him for several long moments, letting the silence between
them stretch and making Varian squirm uncomfortably in his seat. Hewished the man would just get to it so he could return to his duties in
the training yard. Finally Rom spoke. “Varian, I realize that you’ve
been having a difficult time of it lately. I know that you blame
yourself for the queen’s death.” Rom met his gaze with a frank
concern. Varian tightened his lips but said nothing. He saw the other
man shake his head. “I have told you that neither I nor Kelan hold you
to blame for the events of that day, yet you continue to act in a
manner that indicates to me that you did not take me seriously.”
“Because I was to blame.” Varian blurted out the words and then
shut up at the look of reprimand in Rom’s eyes.
“I’m not here to argue with you about this anymore. As far as I am
concerned, this matter is closed.” The captain shook his head.
“However, there is a larger problem. Your drinking has gotten out of
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control. Last night, your fellow Gray could not rely on you to come tohis assistance to capture a dangerous criminal because you were too
drunk to even realize there was a situation going on. Instead, he had to
get help from a civilian, a prospective priest with absolutely no
training of any sort. Brax could have been in serious trouble.”
Varian dropped his eyes guiltily.
“In addition to that, it has been reported to me by several of your
fellow soldiers that there have been a few instances when you have
reported to duty smelling of alcohol. Your reaction time has slowed,
and your temper is short. They are concerned. I am concerned as
well.”
He paused, and Varian looked up to meet his eyes. “Have you
anything to say?”
“I wasn’t on duty that night, Captain. I think I am allowed to let
off some steam on my off-duty hours. And I have never reported for
duty drunk.” He may have had a drink before going on duty one or
two times, but he had not been drunk.
Rom nodded. “I am aware of that fact, but you should know that
the Gray are always in service to the crown, even during their off-duty
hours. And if your fellow warriors worry that they cannot rely on youin a difficult situation that unexpectedly occurs, such as the incident at
Mal’s, you become a hindrance to your comrades rather than a help.”
Rom stood and came around the desk to lean against it and look down
at Varian. “Varian, it pains me to see you doing this to yourself. You
are a great soldier and a powerful asset to the Gray. I can’t count the
number of times when you have gone above and beyond your duty
and been a great source of pride to this company. But if you can’t gain
control of yourself and your drinking, you are not going to be of use
to anyone.” He let out a heavy sigh. “So I’m temporarily suspending
your duties starting immediately.”
Varian was stunned. “What? But that isn’t fair. It was just one
incident.”
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Rom nodded. “I thought you’d feel that way, and I truly hate to doit, but my first thoughts must be of the Gray. I have to count on the
men under my command. You are out of control, Varian. The one
incident last night was just a foreshadowing of things to come if you
continue on your current course. I’m giving you a month to get
yourself together and to resolve the guilt you feel over what
happened. Thirty days to straighten yourself out. If you are unable to
do that, I will have to release you from the Gray permanently.”
Varian could feel the blood draining from his face at those words.
Being a member of the Guardians of the Gray Tower was his life.
“Please, Rom. Give me another chance. I’ll do better. I swear it by
Salara’s Shield. Don’t suspend me. Put me on Tower duty. I’ll scrub
floors. Peel potatoes. Anything. I’ll change, you’ll see.”
Rom shook his head. “I wish I could believe that, Varian. I truly
do. But you know the situation we’re dealing with right now is critical
for the safety of Emryn. The men under my command must be men
that I trust completely, and right now, I don’t trust you to do your job.
I’m sorry. Use this time to think about what you are doing to yourself,
Varian. I care about you. I need you.”
“If you needed me so much, you wouldn’t be doing this to me.”Varian’s words were bitter as anger took the place of shock. “I know
you blame me for what happened even though you’ve denied it. The
king, too, I’m sure, holds me responsible. If it weren’t for me, Lyra
would still be alive. I let that woman poison the queen and didn’t lift a
finger to stop her. Everyone knows it. I can see it in their eyes every
time that they look at me. Oh, they pretend like everything’s okay, but
it’s obvious what they really believe.”
“You’re wrong, Varian. So wrong. No one blames you. There was
no way you could have known that Vivie was working for the enemy.
She’d been serving the queen for months, and there had never been a
problem. Tobiah used his powers of mesmerism and brainwashing to
get her to put that Elder Spice in the queen’s food and poison her.”
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“Caid knew. As soon as he saw her, he knew.” Varian narrowedhis eyes. “If he had been on duty instead of me, the queen would still
be alive. It is my fault she is dead. I have lost my honor.”
“He only knew because he’d seen her before with Tobiah. He had
information that no one else did. It could have been anyone else on
guard that day, Varian, and the results would have been the same. I
will repeat one more time. It was not your fault. You had no way of
knowing what she had planned.”
Varian just sat there, stubbornly silent. Rom was wrong. If he’d
just been more observant, he might have seen that Vivie had been
acting suspiciously. Surely she had done something that he would
have seen if he’d been paying more attention. He should have tasted
the food before he let her in. He would have died, but at least the
queen would have been saved. No, Rom was wrong. It was all his
fault. He was surprised King Kelan had not ordered his immediate
arrest and execution.
He heard Rom sigh. Then his captain returned to his seat and
picked up his quill. After dipping it into the inkwell that sat on his
desk, he began writing something on a piece of parchment. When he
was done, he sanded it and laid it aside to dry. “I’m giving you theseorders. When you leave here, report to Lieutenant Pike and give them
to him. It tells him that you are to be removed from the duty roster for
the next thirty days. At the end of that time, we will meet again and
discuss your future with the Gray. Do you understand, Varian?”
Varian nodded shortly, knowing it would be pointless to argue
further. Obviously Rom had made up his mind. This was all probably
just some elaborate ruse to make him think they weren’t going to kick
him out of the Gray. He could see where this was headed. Farking
hell, he couldn’t believe this was happening. He needed a drink.
“I recommend that you find someone that you can talk to, perhaps
someone who has gone through something similar. You need to get
help so that you can deal with this problem. There are other men who
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have struggled with addiction who can help you. Or the priests ofSalara. They are trained to give aid in such cases as yours.”
“I’m not an addict.” He was shocked that Rom would think that,
though he should have realized from the other things that his captain
had said. “And you think thirty days is going to be enough to cure me
if I am?” he asked sarcastically.
“I don’t know, Varian. But it’s hopefully enough time to help you
see that you need help. I am here for you, as are your fellow members
of the Gray. You just have to admit that you have a problem. If you’re
not an addict yet, you’re well on your way to becoming one.”
“Help? You think suspending me from my duties is going to help
me?”
“I hope it will, Varian. I hope it will shock you into seeing what
you are doing to yourself because if it doesn’t, your career in the Gray
will be over.”
Varian’s heart sank in his chest at the thought. “You wouldn’t do
that.”
“I wouldn’t want to, but trust me, I will do whatever it takes to
ensure that this company functions to the best of its ability. And it
cannot do that if one of its membership is not in control of his own body.” He rolled up the now-dried parchment and sealed it with his
personal seal. Then he passed the document to Varian. “You’re
dismissed.”
* * * *
Masun Eselin was walking up the stairs to the second floor in the
Gray Tower when he heard a door slam. Then thunderous footsteps
headed in his direction. He glanced up as the dark figure of one of the
Gray appeared at the top of the steps. It was Varian Dross, and from
the look on his face, he was not in a good mood. His broad shoulders
brushed against Masun as he passed him without a word of
acknowledgment or greeting. Masun turned to stare briefly as the man
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rushed down the stairs. He admired the man’s lean figure, a contrastto his own bulky muscularity, and felt a flash of desire which he
quickly suppressed. He had seen the warrior several times and had
been tempted to get to know him better, but he had not had the
opportunity lately because he had been so busy in the armory.
Varian’s brown hair, worn just a little long, and black heavy-
lidded eyes, combined with his wiry but muscular form and the gold
earring in his left ear, stirred Masun in a way he had not felt in a long
time. He thought about turning and following him, but it was obvious
the man was in a temper. It was probably not the best time to pursue
him. Ah, well, perhaps another time. He shrugged and continued on
up the stairs to his destination.
He knocked on Rom’s door and waited for his permission to enter.
When he heard his friend’s voice, he opened the door and looked
inside. Rom was seated at his desk, a look of concern on his face. He
managed a small smile when he saw Masun. “Come in, my friend.
Join me in a drink?”
“A little early in the day, isn’t it?” Masun cocked his head to the
side questioningly.
“Maybe, but I need it.”Masun strode forward and sat down in one of the chairs. “Well, all
right, then. You have any of that Jaelic whiskey left that you had the
last time I was here?”
Rom chuckled. “As a matter of fact, I do.” He reached into a
drawer and pulled out a bottle of the dark-amber liquid and a couple
of glasses. After pouring them both a small shot, he passed one glass
to Masun and then picked up his own. Raising it in a toast, he said,
“Long life.” He tossed back the drink in one swallow.
Masun followed suit, enjoying the burn of the fiery liquor as it slid
down his throat. He set his glass on the table and looked at Rom.
“What’s got you so angry?”
Rom shook his head. “Not angry. I just had to deal with
something that was unpleasant.”
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Masun narrowed his eyes. “Something to do with Varian Dross? I just passed him on the stairway, and he did not look like a very happy
man.”
Rom let out a sigh and sat back. “No, he’s not. I had to suspend
him from his duties for thirty days, Masun. And if he doesn’t get
things together, I may have to expel him from the company.”
“For Salara’s sake, why?” Masun was more than surprised. The
Gray were some of the best warriors in the kingdom, and Varian had
been a member of the company for years. While Masun didn’t know
him well, he certainly knew of his reputation. He couldn’t imagine
what he might have done that would warrant a reprimand much less
an expulsion.
His friend sighed and shook his head. “He’s drinking. To excess. I
believe he’s become addicted to alcohol.”
“Drinking?”
“To the point where he’s become a danger to the other members
of the Gray. He blames himself for Lyra’s death. He was the man on
duty the day she was poisoned, and he feels like it’s his fault that she
died. He believes his honor is in question.” He rubbed his hands
across his face. “I knew how he felt, and I’ve tried talking to him, buthe just keeps getting worse and worse. Last night, he was at Mal’s
when Brax spotted Tobiah, but he was too drunk to offer assistance.
Hell, he didn’t even know anything was going on.”
“So it’s true, then. You did capture Tobiah?”
Rom nodded his head. “We did. Unfortunately the man is dead.
Brax had to kill him when Tobiah attacked Jai. We had him in
custody, and still he managed to almost kill someone. Truthfully, I’m
glad he’s gone. Saves us the trouble of bringing charges.”
“Did you learn anything useful from him before he died?” Rom
and Masun were best friends, and Rom had kept Masun informed
about the search for the nobleman who was suspected of financing the
plot to kill the queen. It was believed that the man was in a conspiracy
with Kalandra, the Queen of Angkesh. The queen would stop at
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nothing to seize control of Emryn any way she could. For years shehad tried to find a way to do just that without success. Because of the
natural boundary of the Mountains of the Gloam, which separated
Emryn from Angkesh, a straightforward attack by the Angkeshi army
had little hope of success. Lately there had been several incidents that
indicated that she had turned her mind to a more devious means of
gaining the crown. The assassination of Queen Lyra had been the
latest in a series of suspicious activities that had the country on high
alert.
“He told us the man we are looking for is a duke. His last words
were ‘the Duke of…’”
Masun considered that. “It’s too bad you didn’t get a name, but
that information should narrow the field down quite a bit. There aren’t
that many dukes in Emryn.”
Rom nodded. “That’s true. But there are enough to make it a time-
consuming search. Javan is already doing whatever he can to try to
figure out which duke is the one we’re looking for. I know we will
find him eventually, hopefully before anyone else dies. Emryn is in
such a dangerous position right now. It’s impossible to know where or
when another attack will occur, but I’m farking sure there will beanother one. Which is another reason why I cannot allow any of the
Gray to be functioning at anything less than peak efficiency.”
“I’m sure Varian understands why you had to do what you did. At
least, he will after he’s had time to calm down and think about it.”
Rom nodded. “I trust you’re right. I need him. The Gray needs
him. But we need him as he was, not as he is. If he doesn’t find some
way to get over his feelings of guilt and turn himself around, I fear
that he will be lost to us permanently.”
“I know what he’s going through.” Masun reminded his friend of
his own dark past. “Addiction is a harsh taskmaster, and guilt a
powerful enemy.”
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Rom met his gaze frankly. “I know you do, old friend. I know youdo. I just hope that he finds someone who can help him as you did.
It’s not a battle that he can fight alone.”
“You’re right about that. Perhaps I can talk to him.”
Rom’s brows rose. “You’d do that? You don’t even know him
that well.”
“Maybe not, but I know you. He wouldn’t have lasted as a
member of the Gray all this time if you didn’t respect and admire the
man.”
“It’s true. Before all of this happened, he was one of my best men.
He will be difficult to replace if he cannot overcome this problem. If
you would be willing to help him, I would be grateful.”
“I’ll talk to him. See if he will listen to me. Of course, he probably
won’t welcome my help.”
“Do what you can. If he refuses to listen to you, at least you will
have tried.”
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Chapter Two
In a dark corner of Madame Lingo’s, Varian sat hunched over his
drink, his whole body signaling to the other patrons of the bar that he
was not there to socialize. He sat alone, a half-empty bottle of
whiskey on the table in front of him and a glass of the same amber
liquid in his hand. He studied the drink for a few moments, twirling
the glass around and watching the flickering candlelight glint in its
dark depths, before raising it to his lips and taking a long swallow. It
burned like fire going down, scalding his throat and hitting his belly
like a punch. Farking hells. He still couldn’t believe he’d been
suspended from the Gray. Of course, he couldn’t really blame Rom
for what he’d done. Once he’d gotten past his anger, he realized the
man hadn’t had any choice. He’d used Varian’s drinking as an excuse,
but Varian knew the truth. Rom believed he couldn’t be trusted because it was his fault Lyra was dead. Plain and simple. He’d failed
in his duty, and he supposed he’d deserved what had happened. Hells,
he was surprised he hadn’t gotten worse.
He took another drink of the whiskey, emptying the glass, and
picked up the bottle to pour himself some more. What he needed was
to drink until he passed out and slid like a limp heap onto the floor.
Then maybe he wouldn’t have to remember everything that had
happened. He just wanted to sink into the bliss of forgetfulness. But
he wasn’t an alcoholic. That was completely ridiculous. Rom was
wrong about that. He could quit whenever he wanted to. He just
didn’t want to. Why should he? He just needed to numb the
memories, that was all. If he didn’t, all he did was think about what
had happened. He’d go over and over and over it in his mind until he
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thought he was insane. He’d fantasize that he’d done thingsdifferently, that Lyra was still alive, that it was all just a horrible
dream. But it wasn’t a dream.
He didn’t know how it had all gone to shit so fast. A week ago,
he’d had the perfect life. He was a respected member of the Gray,
with friends and companions whom he truly liked. He had enough
coin to spend on the simple pleasures he most enjoyed—playing
three-card fist, making a monthly trip to the country to hunt wild
game, and joining the occasional male whore in the rooms upstairs.
And now, this.
The worst thing was he had no one to blame but himself. If he
hadn’t allowed himself to be distracted from his duties, none of this
would have happened. Lyra would still be alive, and he would still be
carrying out his responsibilities in the Gray. He hadn’t told anyone,
but he knew that he hadn’t been paying much attention the day Vivie
had delivered the queen’s morning meal. The truth was, he’d been
thinking about the man he’d spotted watching him the night before at
a small gathering he’d attended instead of doing his duty.
He’d been talking to several friends when he had felt someone’s
eyes on him. When he’d turned, he saw him. The man had lifted theglass he held, smiling in a silent toast, and Varian had smiled back,
lifting his own glass. Then someone had spoken to him, and he’d
turned to answer a question. When he’d looked back a moment later,
the other man had been laughing at something one of his companions
had said. Then the group had moved out of Varian’s eyesight.
The man was pretty well-known among the Gray, since he was
their captain’s best friend and also served as armorer to the company.
Masun Eselin. Varian had noticed the man watching him several more
times that night and had found him very attractive. He wasn’t as tall
as Varian, but he was very muscular, a result of his occupation,
Varian had decided. It took a lot of strength and fortitude to twist and
mold metal into weapons.
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Though not typically handsome, the man’s face was arresting,with its slightly crooked nose and full, sensuous lips. His eyes were a
light brown that crinkled at the corner when he smiled, and his short
hair was deep auburn. He had hoped Masun would approach him, but
he never had. Disappointed, Varian had left the party an hour later
and returned to his room in the Tower.
Unable to get the man out of his thoughts, Varian had been
mooning over Masun when he should have been tending to his guard
duties the next morning. And as a result, the queen was dead.
He had just lifted the glass to his mouth, needing to drown out his
thoughts, when his arm was suddenly jostled by a body brushing
against him, and the liquid that he was about to drink spilled all down
the front of his tunic.
He surged to his feet, searching out the person who had caused the
accident. He spotted the man, who continued to walk by as though
nothing had happened. Without thought, he surged forward, anger and
drink scrambling his thoughts. He grabbed the man’s arm and spun
him around in one quick movement. He caught a glimpse of surprise
on the stranger’s face a second before he sent his fist plowing into it.
The man fell back across the table behind him, spilling drinks andsending cards flying everywhere. The men at that table jumped up,
and curses blackened the air around them.
“What the farking hell!” The exclamation came from a man
standing somewhere to his right. Other voices of dismay and fury
flew around the room.
Varian ignored them, all his attention focused on the burly figure
that was slowly rising from the table where he’d fallen. The man was
glaring at Varian, blood pouring from his nose.
“You crazy bastard!” the man he’d hit shouted at him. Then he
rushed forward, plowing into Varian and sending them both sprawling
to the floor. The whole bar erupted.
Varian was vaguely aware of men gathering around as he and his
opponent rolled back and forth on the floor. He felt a punch land
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against his ribs and gasped, the breath knocked out of him. Painstreaked through him, and he struggled to get free. He rose to his
knees and managed to land another blow, this time on the stranger’s
chin.
The man fell back, and Varian struggled to his feet. The other man
did the same. They began circling one another, with the men around
them shouting curses and words of encouragement. Varian moved in,
attempting to punch the man in his torso, but his blow was blocked,
and the man hit him again, an uppercut to the chin. Varian staggered,
his ears ringing. The other man didn’t hesitate but moved forward,
hitting him again and again until Varian crumpled to the floor, barely
conscious.
In the distance he heard a loud roar. “What in seven hells is going
on in here?” A hush fell over the room. He heard someone say, “He
started it. That man on the floor. He just punched Arry for no reason.”
“Is that so?” The voice was somewhat familiar, but Varian
couldn’t quite place it.
He felt a nudge against his hips and forced his eyes open to peer
up at the man gazing down at him. When the fog of his vision had
cleared somewhat, he looked into familiar light-brown eyes. Salara’s bones, what was he doing here, of all people?
The man held out a hand and, after a momentary hesitation,
Varian raised his own to clasp it. In a moment, the man had pulled
Varian to his feet, where he stood swaying unsteadily.
“He’s gonna have to pay for the damages, Masun. I don’t care if
he is one of the Gray. He broke a table and two chairs.”
“I’ll see to it, Jagger. I’ll take personal responsibility for him. Will
that do?”
“Yes. Just get him out of here. When he gets sober enough, tell
him not to come back until he can act more civilized. This isn’t some
Lowtown dive. If he wants to go somewhere to get drunk and act a
fool, he needs to find somewhere else.”
“Will do. Come on, Varian. Let’s get your sorry ass out of here.”
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Masun collected their cloaks and led Varian to the door. WithMasun’s help, Varian managed to stagger out onto the front porch. It
was cold, as usual, and both men stood there huddled together until
the horses were brought around. The other man helped him climb up
on it.
“Can you manage to stay up there without falling off?” he heard
Masun ask.
He nodded.
“Good.” The other man mounted his own horse, and then turned
to look at Varian. “I’m not taking you back to the Tower like this.
We’ll go to my place. Follow me.”
Masun nudged his horse forward, and Varian urged his own to
follow.
* * * *
Masun had been looking for Varian for a couple of hours. After he
had spoken to Rom, he had needed to finish some work at the armory.
That had taken longer than he had intended. It had been late afternoon
before he had been able to get away and try to find the man. He’dtried the bars first, mostly the little out-of-the-way places that many of
the hard drinkers preferred, figuring that Varian would not want to be
anywhere that he might run into some of his fellow members of the
Gray. He’d had no luck. Finally he’d decided to try Madame Lingo’s
brothel. He hadn’t really expected to find the man there but thought
he might find someone there who knew where he was. If not, at least
he could enjoy a quiet drink and some pleasant companionship for a
bit. A light snow had begun to fall, and he needed something to warm
him up. Instead, he’d walked into a full-fledged brawl.
Jagger had seen him enter and, when he found out he was looking
for Varian, had asked for his help in breaking things up. That’s when
Masun had discovered that Varian was right there in the thick of
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around the two men. Masun wasn’t as tall as some, but his job in thearmory had built up his strength so that he was a match for just about
anyone. Luckily, the fight had ended just as he’d started to pull the
combatants apart.
He’d shaken his head at the sorry picture of Varian sprawled on
the floor. His mouth and nose were bloody, and he looked like he had
the beginnings of a beautiful black eye. Jagger had walked up, and the
men who’d been watching the fight were eagerly telling him how the
fight had started. Masun had frowned as he listened to their accounts
with half an ear while he studied Varian. He seemed to be regaining
his wits and began struggling to rise.
After he’d spoken to Jagger and finally gotten Varian to his feet
and out the door, he’d contemplated taking him back to the Tower,
but quickly dismissed that idea. He didn’t imagine Varian would like
the idea of his fellow Guardians seeing him like that. They would be
full of questions, and Masun was unsure just how much they knew
about what was going on with Varian. No, it was probably best not to
go there. With a decisive nod to himself, he decided to take Varian
back to his own place. It was private, and Varian could sleep off his
drunk there.By the time they arrived at his small house behind the armory,
Varian was barely able to keep himself upright. Masun got him down
and managed to half drag, half carry him into the house and to his
bedroom without dropping him to the floor. With the man sprawled
out on his bed, he was tempted to just leave him as he was until
morning. He finally decided to at least get the man out of some of his
clothes since they were filthy from where he’d rolled around on the
floor of Madame Lingo’s. He stripped Varian of his boots, tunic, and
trousers, and then pulled a blanket up to cover his lower body. He
used a damp rag to wash as much of the blood and filth from his face
as he could. When that was done, he went outside to tend to their
horses, putting them in the small shelter he had and feeding them
some oats. Finally he was able to go back inside and sit down to rest.
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He poured himself a mug of red tea and thought about the warriorcurrently passed out in his bed.
The man was in bad shape. Not only had he been on the losing
side of the fight, but he was obviously drunk as well. From all the
accounts he’d heard, Varian was the one who had started the whole
thing. In Masun’s opinion, Varian was lucky to still be in one piece.
Though he was a trained warrior, the other man had been large and
well muscled. As drunk as he’d been, Varian hadn’t stood a chance.
“Farking hells,” he said to himself, his voice echoing in the quiet
room. “What in the name of the Goddess have I gotten myself into?”
Maybe he wouldn’t have been so eager to offer his help if he’d known
just how low Varian had sunk. Apparently the news Rom had given
him earlier had pushed Varian over an edge. It seemed to Masun that
the man had been looking for trouble. To decide to get limp-dick
drunk at Madame Lingo’s was just asking for it. Jagger kept a sharp
eye on the place and did allow that kind of stupidity. Brawls and
fights between drunks had a way of discouraging the customers from
gambling and hiring the whores for the night.
Masun took a sip of his drink and let it knock the chill from his
bones. Staring into the flickering flames of his small fire, he shook hishead over the foolish choices men made when life took a wrong turn,
and it seemed impossible to get back on the right path. He knew all
about that. He himself had once been addicted to smoking Darkleaf,
and it had been a hard journey back to sanity and reason. He’d been
clean now for almost five years, and he didn’t often let himself dwell
on those years. It was the lowest point of his life, and he tried to only
look forward these days. But all this trouble with Varian had brought
back the memories of those painful days and the events that had led
up to them.
He had been in love with a man named Yavil. Yavil was a daring
young man, willing to try any new adventure that came along. Masun
had adored that about him. He was totally fearless. Yavil had
purchased a horse that was completely wild. Lord, that horse had been
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a beauty. Coal black he was. A stallion. Not a speck of whiteanywhere. It was tall, at least seventeen hands. Yavil had adored that
horse, but riding him was another thing altogether. It took weeks just
to break the horse to the saddle and bridle.
He had teased Yavil about how much he loved that damned horse,
and that sometimes it seemed he spent more time with the horse than
he had with Masun. Yavil denied it, but had agreed to go out drinking
with Masun the next night to make up for his neglect. Of course, they
had both had too much to drink, and when they had gotten home,
Yavil just had to go check on that farking horse. Masun had mocked
him, saying he didn’t think Yavil was ever going to actually ride the
damned thing. He had dared Yavil to just get up on him once, and
Yavil had been just drunk enough, and just crazy enough, to accept
the dare.
Masun had sat on the fence and watched, getting more and more
worried as he saw how skittish the stallion was. Maybe it was the
lateness of the hour. Maybe it was the smell of the alcohol. Maybe it
was just sheer orneriness on the part of the horse. Masun didn’t know.
But what he did know was that the minute Yavil climbed on that
horse’s back, it had acted like it had gone completely mad. It had bucked and twisted like a whirling child’s toy. Yavil hadn’t lasted
long. The horse had tossed the man off his back like he was nothing
more than a bothersome fly. When Yavil hit, Masun had known
immediately that something was wrong. He had run for the healers.
After several long hours, they had told him that Yavil’s back had
been broken, and his skull had cracked. He was unconscious. They
didn’t know if he would ever wake up and, even if he did, feared that
he would be paralyzed from the neck down.
Yavil had lingered for three months, never regaining
consciousness. Masun had tended to his lover, blaming himself and
his stupid jealousy over a horse for what had happened. He had killed
the horse himself, slitting its throat and feeling a surge of gladness as
he’d watched the blood pouring onto the ground. When Yavil had
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finally succumbed to his injuries and died, he had gone to the funeraldry eyed. He didn’t shed a tear in the weeks that followed.
Instead he had turned to Darkleaf to help him numb himself to the
feelings that he couldn’t cope with. It had taken almost three years,
three long years of sinking further and further into the claws of
addiction before he had finally pulled himself out of that dark pit. He
couldn’t let Varian do to himself what Masun had done. If he could
stop him from wasting his life like that, he had to do it. He had to try.
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Chapter Three
Varian was cold. At least, his chest was cold. His back was cozy
and warm. He stirred, reaching for his covers, when his hand
encountered a hair-roughened calf lying alongside his own. His eyes
fluttered open, and he turned his head slightly. The man sleeping
beside him was familiar. Masun Eselin. Varian’s thoughts were fuzzy,
but he easily remembered his growing attraction to the man who was
spooned against his back. He couldn’t remember exactly how he had
ended up in the man’s bed, but apparently he had finally managed to
act on his interest.
He pulled away slightly, turning so that he now faced the other
man and had to suppress a gasp of pain at the movement. He looked
down only to discover that his torso was covered with several
darkening bruises. As he shook his head in chagrin, a sharp stabstruck in the back of his head. He reached back and felt a lump that
rose beneath the tousled strands of hair. Vague images of him fighting
another man flittered through his head, and he felt a sense of shame at
such out-of-character conduct. Though he wasn’t one to shy away
from a physical confrontation, he’d never been a brawler. And he’d
never been the one who started the fight, which he unhappily
suspected had been the case in this instance. Was Rom right? Had he
let his drinking drive him completely out of control? He didn’t want
to think about it, so he pushed the idea to the back of his brain and let
his eyes study the man stretched out before him, a much more
pleasant occupation.
Even in repose, Masun’s face held a strength and an understated
masculinity that drew Varian. He lifted a hand to stroke gently down
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Masun’s cheek and was startled to notice the back of his hand was cutand bruised. More evidence of his previous night’s adventure, he
thought in disgust. His hand slid across the shadowed roughness of
Masun’s jaw, and he used one finger to softly trace around the outline
of Masun’s generous lips, which parted slightly at the touch. Wishing
he could remember how that mouth felt on his own, he licked his lips
in anticipation of the next time he would feel them. Would they be
rough and demanding, or soft and teasing?
Turning his attention to the rest of Masun’s sprawled form, he let
his eyes travel down over the broad chest covered with a generous
sprinkling of dark, curling hair. Light-brown nipples peeked up
through the curls, hard and tight, thanks, no doubt, to the chilly air in
the room. Unable to resist, Varian leaned forward and gently tongued
one stiff nub. His hand moved to the other, and his thumb brushed
over the sensitive flesh. Masun stirred slightly, and Varian drew back,
holding his breath until the other man settled down again.
Reaching out, he gently tugged the blanket that covered Masun’s
lower body until he could clearly see every inch of the other man. He
sucked in a deep breath at the image of male perfection. His eyes
moved over Masun’s body, lingering at the soft penis lying in its nestof curls. Even limp, it was an impressive size. He could just imagine
how it would look engorged with blood. His mouth watered at the
thought of taking that flesh in his mouth and feeling it harden from his
ministrations. The wrinkled of sacs that rested below Masun’s cock
also drew his gaze, and he pictured himself caressing them, rolling the
balls through his fingers as his mouth worked the swelling length of
Masun’s shaft. His own cock stirred at the thought.
At last he tore his gaze away and let his eyes continue their
journey down Masun’s well-shaped legs, admiring their blatant
masculinity. Then his gaze returned to the tempting sight at the apex
of his thighs. He moved, ignoring the protesting twinges of pain from
his body and positioned himself above Masun’s resting cock. He
leaned forward and, using just the tip of his tongue, licked a wet trail
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down the flaccid length. Then he blew lightly on the dampened flesh.It twitched, and Varian grinned. He continued the moist caresses until
the cock began to harden from his ministrations.
Taking a moment to glance up, he saw that Masun was still sound
asleep. Gaining confidence, he reached out gently and took Masun’s
cock in his hand and lifted it. His lips closed over the tip, and he
began to suckle. Slowly but surely, the rod began to become firm and
solid as he drew it deeper and deeper into the warm depths of his
mouth. He moved his hand, pushing Masun’s thighs apart, and began
a slow caress of the ball sac that lay there, just as he’d imagined
doing.
Suddenly he felt Masun’s hips arch up into the caress and heard a
sharp gasp. “Varian…What—”
Varian pulled his mouth off Masun’s erection and looked up at the
other man, whose eyes were now wide open. “Just lie back and enjoy,
Masun.”
“Farking hells, Varian, I didn’t bring you back here for this.”
“Didn’t you?” Varian didn’t know, and didn’t really care, why he
was here. All he cared about at that moment was getting his mouth
back on Masun’s beautiful cock. And it was truly beautiful. It waslong and slightly curved, a dark, ruddy color. The head was
mushroom shaped and a bit darker than the shaft. It was about eight
inches long and about five or six inches around. Veins bulged in a
random pattern down the swollen surface of the cock, making it look
powerful and dangerous. Delicious.
“No. You should stop. You’re injured and drunk. You don’t know
what you’re doing, Varian.”
Varian chuckled softly. “Does it feel like I don’t know what I’m
doing?” He bent and gave the shaft a long lick, lingering around the
head to delve into the slit for a brief taste. “And I’m not drunk. Not
anymore.” With that, he engulfed the head in his mouth and once
again began to suckle, drawing the cock deep. He felt Masun’s hand
clench in his hair, and, for a moment thought the other man would
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pull him off his cock. Instead, after a moment of hesitation, Masunused his grip to direct Varian’s movements. If he could have smiled,
he would have. Instead, he allowed the other man to show him just
what he liked and how he liked it.
He could tell from the Masun’s increasingly ragged breathing that
he was nearing his climax. He sped up his movements, adding his
hand to his strokes in order to increase the friction.
“Salara’s bones, Varian, that feels so good. Your mouth feels so
good on my cock.”
Varian hummed lightly to let Masun know that he heard him even
though he couldn’t answer him at right that moment. When he did,
Masun moaned. “Goddess, that’s farking amazing. I’m about to come,
Varian. If you don’t want a full mouth, you’d better pull back.”
But Varian was having none of it. Pull off? No way in farking
hells. He wanted to feel the hot explosion as Masun erupted in his
mouth. He wanted to taste the salty sweetness of the man’s seed as it
slid down his throat. Ignoring Masun’s words, he continued to work
the throbbing cock, faster now, taking it deeper and deeper. He
loosened his jaw and breathed through his nose, swallowing the shaft
as deep as he could take it. With a harsh shout, Masun began coming.Varian swallowed each hot spurt, relishing the knowledge that he had
given Masun such pleasure. He sucked and sucked until Masun lay
back limply on the bed, his hands falling loose onto the bed at his
sides.
Varian sat up, using the back of his hand to swipe across his
mouth to remove any excess seed that he hadn’t been able to swallow.
His eyes focused on Masun, watching as his quickened breathing
began to slow until finally the other man’s brown eyes blinked open
and his gaze met Varian’s. Masun’s lids were lowered sleepily, and
his hair was a wild mess from where he’d tossed his head back and
forth on the pillow, giving him a sexy, tousled appearance that Varian
found very appealing.
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“Come here.” Masun’s voice was a low growl as he gestured forVarian to lie beside him on the bed. Varian complied quickly, eager to
feel the warm length of Masun’s body against his own. His cock
throbbed with unfulfilled need.
* * * *
He couldn’t farking believe what had just happened. He’d been
having the most incredible dream. In the dream he was lying in a sun-
drenched meadow, the kind he’d seen once when he’d traveled to
Vensor Province. He was nude, stretched out in a field of yellow
flowers, their silky petals tickling his body where they touched it and
causing ripples of goose bumps to roll over his skin. The warmth of
the sun’s rays warmed him, giving him a feeling of languid
contentment. The warmth moved down his body like a gentle breeze,
touching him softly here and there. Then he felt it on his cock, which
had risen to aroused hardness at the feel of that gentle touch. He was
engulfed in it, and he had been drowning in the sensation.
When he had finally awakened, he’d been at first puzzled and then
shocked at the sight of Varian’s head in his lap and the feel of theman’s mouth sucking heatedly on his erection. After he finally
realized what was happening, he had thought for a moment that he
should stop him, that the other man was too drunk to know what he
was doing. But he had been unable to resist the exquisite sensations of
Varian’s hand and mouth. So he had lain back and just enjoyed the
other man’s skillful lovemaking. His climax, when it hit, was one of
the most fulfilling he’d ever experienced, and as he lay back, amazed
by what had just happened, he couldn’t regret it.
Now he lay, his body molded against Varian’s, his eyes gazing
deeply into the other man’s, and he knew that it wasn’t over. His hand
came up to cup the back of Varian’s head, and he pulled the other
man closer. When their lips met, he could taste his own cum on his
lover’s lips. Varian’s mouth parted beneath the carnal demand of his
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own, and he pressed forward with sensuous pressure. His tonguetraced a slow, damp trail around the edge of the other man’s lips
before pushing inside to slide moistly against Varian’s. His lover’s
response was all he could have hoped for. His mouth moved
tantalizingly against Masun’s, and a short gasping breath caught in
Varian’s throat, revealing his eager arousal.
He tasted like hot, musky male mixed with the alcohol he’d drunk
earlier, and Masun found the taste enthralling. He moved, pressing
Varian onto his back so that he could cover the other man’s body with
his own. He felt Varian’s erection prod into his belly. Masun arched
against him, pressing against his cock in a slow stroke that drew a
moan of pleasure from his lover.
Their mouths parted, and Masun dropped soft kisses down
Varian’s neck, biting delicately at the sensitive skin of his shoulder.
Varian moaned again. “I am on fire, Masun. Please, touch me.”
Masun’s hand slid between their two bodies and took gentle hold
of Varian’s straining erection. Sliding to the side to allow himself
more room to maneuver, he wrapped his fingers around the pulsing
shaft, tightening his grip as he began sliding his hand up and down in
a way that he knew Varian needed.“Yes. Goddess, that feels good.” Varian’s breathy moan of
approval was loud in the near silence of the room. Masun continued to
lave Varian’s neck and shoulders with kisses even as he continued to
stroke the man’s cock with increasing demand. His thumb rubbed
over the tiny slit, feeling the drops of pre-cum that had gathered there.
He spread the moisture over the cockhead, enjoying the feel of the
sticky liquid and craving a taste. He raised up and turned, reversing
his body so that his head hovered over the hard shaft and his hip
brushed against Varian’s shoulder, his own erection rising again as he
bent to swipe his tongue through the tempting wetness.
Varian jerked as he felt that rough caress. Masun felt the other
man’s hands moving softly over his body in encouragement, one
coming to rest on his own semi-erect cock. The other man’s hand
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boldly took hold of him and began to tug gently, sending more bloodrushing into the rod, and amazingly, Masun could feel it thickening
and lengthening again.
He used his tongue to lick and stroke over every inch of Varian’s
cock, wetting it thoroughly before he took it into his mouth,
swallowing it down until his nose was pressed tightly against the
curling hairs at the base of the shaft. Breathing through his nose, he
held still for a few moments, relishing the sounds of approval which
were coming from Varian’s throat. The other man’s hand tightened
even more on Masun’s own erection.
He pulled back, letting the long, slender rod slide almost
completely out of his mouth before engulfing it once again to the hilt.
Varian moaned, and his other hand clenched in Masun’s hair. Masun
stayed there for several long moments before he drew back once
more. He felt Varian’s hand tugging in his hair, so he released the
man’s cock to gaze up at him. Varian’s eyes were dazed with arousal,
but he whispered, “Wait.”
Varian moved, taking hold of Masun’s body and maneuvering
him so that he was stretched above Varian, his thighs on either side of
Varian’s head. His cock was hard as a rock now as he realized whatVarian planned. He felt the man’s mouth on him again, pulling the
head of his cock into his mouth. His eyes closed for a moment at the
exquisite pleasure. When he opened them, he saw Varian’s own cock,
hard and pointing upward, just inches from his mouth. He grinned
before opening his lips and taking that hard shaft into the heated
warmth of his mouth once again.
For several minutes the only sounds that could be heard in the
room were the licking and sucking as the two men orally pleasured
one another. Masun could barely think, so caught up in the exquisite
dual sensations of Varian’s mouth on him and the feel of the other
man’s cock filling his mouth and throat as he moved his cock in and
out.
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He could tell from the other man’s quickened breathing andfrantic movements that he was nearing climax. Lifting his hand from
where it had rested on Varian’s hip, he reached down to stimulate the
area between his balls and his anus, stroking it with the tip of his
finger. Varian groaned loudly, releasing Masun’s cock, and climaxed,
his body stiffening and his cum shooting into Masun’s mouth in a hot
splash. Masun continued sucking, milking Varian of every drop.
When he was done, he released Varian’s cock and reached over to
lift the lid of the trunk which sat beside his bed. Grabbing the bottle of
tunis oil he kept there for just such occasions, he pulled the stopper
out and poured a dollop of the liquid into his cupped hand. Varian lay
limp and satiated on his bed in a loose-limbed sprawl. Using his free
hand, Masun pushed the other man’s legs wide and reached down,
probing for the anal opening hidden from his sight. He saw Varian’s
eyes open and understanding dawn in them. Varian moved his legs so
that his feet were flat on the bed and lifted his hips so that Masun
would have better access. Using the tunis oil, he coated the outer ring
and then slid one finger inside gently, twisting and turning it before
adding a second and then a third. When he was sure Varian could
accept him comfortably, he used the remaining oil to coat the head ofhis cock.
Then he positioned himself above Varian, his erection prodding at
the hole. He began to push forward, his eyes and Varian’s locked as
he began entering the other man’s body an inch at a time. He kept his
movement slow and steady, not wanting to hurt the other man by
going too quickly. At last he was fully seated in Varian’s body, his
balls resting gently against the firm mounds of Varian’s ass.
The other man smiled and licked his lips. Taking that as a signal,
Masun pulled back, his cock sliding easily in the well-lubricated
passage. Then he pushed forward again, and Varian let out a husky
groan. Keeping the pace easy and smooth, Masun moved again and
again to sink his cock into the eager body of the man lying beneath
him. The entire time he kept his eyes focused on his lover. When he
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felt his climax nearing, he sped up, his strokes becoming rougher anddeeper. At last he came, spewing himself into Varian’s tight channel,
holding himself there until ever last drop of his cum had been
emptied.
He pulled free and fell to the side, his breathing harsh and loud.
Varian snuggled close, his head moving to rest on Masun’s chest and
his hand stroking across his abdomen before he fell into sleep. Masun
pulled the blankets up to cover them both from the chill air and then
lay wide awake, stunned by what had happened between him and the
suspended Guardian. Oh, he had been attracted to Varian, had planned
to pursue him even, before everything had gone to seven hells. And
now things were completely messed up. He’d wanted to help the man
stop his destructive path and, instead, he had fucked him so
thoroughly they were both exhausted. What the farking hell was he
supposed to do now?
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Chapter Four
When Varian awoke, the room was just beginning to lighten from
the rising sun. He opened his eyes, and his gaze traveled around the
unfamiliar quarters as he tried to put together the events of last night.
The throbbing pain in his skull didn’t help any. He started to sit up,
and he felt even more aches and pains. The fight. He’d gone to
Madame Lingo’s to drown his sorrows in drink, and somehow he’d
gotten into a fight with one of the patrons.
He finally managed to get up, swinging his legs over the side of
the bed and sitting there, hands rubbing over his face as the memories
came flooding back. Masun had been there. He had broken up the
brawl and had brought Varian home. Heat filled his belly as he
recalled the passionate encounter they had shared in the middle of the
night.He heard a noise from the other room and rose. After making
quick use of the chamber pot, he dressed quickly before washing his
face and hands in the water-filled bowl sitting on a large chest. When
he was finished, he opened the door and stepped into the main room
of the house. He saw Masun crouched before the fireplace, lifting a
pot of what smelled like red tea from the banked coals and setting it
on an iron tile to keep the hot surface off the wooden tabletop. He
looked up when Varian entered.
His face wore a blank expression as he took in Varian’s
appearance. Varian managed a smile. “Good morning.”
Masun nodded and stood. “Good morning. How are you feeling?”
“Like somebody beat the shit out of me last night,” he answered
ruefully.
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Masun laughed then, and his eyes lit with humor. “That’s aboutright, then.” He gestured to a chair at the table where he obviously ate
his meals. “Have a seat, and I’ll tend to some of those cuts and
scratches. I should’ve done it last night, but I was just too farking
tired after practically dragging your sorry ass inside and getting you in
the bed.”
Varian did as he was asked, sinking down onto the wooden chair
and watching interestedly as Masun gathered together a bowl of
water, a rag, and a small, round jar. Silently the other man began
examining his wounds and gently washing off the dried blood in a
few spots before opening the jar and scooping up some of the foul-
smelling ointment to apply to the worst of the cuts.
“Salara’s bones, that stinks.” Varian couldn’t prevent the
comment when he got his first whiff. His eyes watered, and he drew
his head back quickly.
Masun just smiled and shrugged. “It does that, but it’ll help keep
the infection out.”
Varian studied the man standing so close. The warmth from
Masun’s hands and the faint smell of musk and male began to stir
Varian’s desires, and he couldn’t stop from remembering all thethings he and Masun had done to one another the night before. He
could feel his cock begin to harden.
“I haven’t thanked you for last night,” he told the other man, who
shrugged and brushed off his thanks.
“It’s nothing. Somebody had to stop you before you got yourself
killed.”
Varian paused a moment. “I wasn’t talking about the fight.”
Masun’s hands stilled a moment before he continued tending to
the cuts, his eyes avoiding Varian’s. “You certainly don’t have to
thank me for that. Truth is, it probably shouldn’t have happened.
You’d been drinking, and you weren’t in any condition to have
been—” He floundered for words, his cheeks turning an interesting
shade of pink.
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“To have been enjoying myself in your bed?” Varian supplied.At that, Masun’s eyes rose to meet his. “Yes.”
Varian shrugged. “I’ve been attracted to you for quite some time,
and I think you’ve felt the same. And I certainly wasn’t unwilling last
night. In fact, if I remember correctly, I was the aggressor. Not you.”
Masun finished his doctoring and began putting away his supplies.
“Perhaps. But you weren’t completely sober, and I was. I should have
known better.”
Varian studied the man’s averted face. “Does that mean that you
haven’t been attracted to me? Was I wrong? For some reason, I’d
thought the interest was mutual.”
Masun sighed and faced him, his eyes guarded. “No. You weren’t
wrong.”
“Well, then I guess it was a lucky chance that you happened to be
there last night to rescue me, wasn’t I?”
Masun sat in the chair opposite his. “It wasn’t chance that brought
me there last night, Varian. I was looking for you.”
Varian smiled, undeterred by the serious look Masun sent him.
“All the better then.” He couldn’t understand why Masun seemed so
upset by what had happened.“I was looking for you because Rom asked me to talk to you about
your problem.”
Varian’s smile vanished. “What? My problem?”
Masun just nodded grimly. Varian could feel the anger stirring in
his gut. “You mean the drinking?” He stood and paced across the
room, his thoughts whirling around in his head. He swung back to
face Masun. “I told him I don’t have a problem.”
“I think the events of last night prove that you do.”
“A barroom brawl doesn’t prove a problem with alcohol. If that
were true, then half the men in Winterreach have a problem.”
“First of all, it wasn’t a barroom. It was Madame Lingo’s. You
know as well as I that neither she nor Jagger allow that kind of
foolishness to go on in their establishment. And second, the fact is
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that the first thing you did after you left Rom’s office was to go getdrunk. That seems to be your typical reaction these days, from what I
understand. Can’t you handle hearing bad news without resorting to
alcohol, Varian?”
Varian clenched his hands. “What in seven hells would you know
about it?”
Masun frowned and leaned forward, resting his elbows on the
table. “I’ve been down that road, Varian. I’ve needed to lose myself in
the forgetfulness offered by mind-altering drink and drugs. I was a
Darkleaf addict for five years before I finally realized what I was
doing to myself. I hate to see that happen to you, but it will if you
continue as you are.”
Varian could barely contain his shock at Masun’s confession. But
then he shook the thought aside. “It’s still none of your business what
I choose to do.”
Masun nodded. “You’re right. It’s not. Rom asked me to, and he’s
a good friend, so I agreed. But I can’t do more unless you decide you
want help. Unless you admit you have a problem. I just want to say
this to you, and then I’m done. Rom says you blame yourself for
Lyra’s death. That you feel responsible for not realizing what wasgoing on. If that is true, then what you’re doing now, using alcohol to
dull the guilt, is a coward’s way of handling it, don’t you think? If
you really think it’s your fault, why aren’t you out there trying to do
something about it, trying to find the people responsible, instead of
wallowing in your own self-pity?”
Varian sat back, the words that Masun threw at him hitting him
hard. “I’m no coward.” He bit that out through clenched teeth.
Masun just looked at him pityingly. “Aren’t you?” He rose. “I
have to go to work. Help yourself to the tea. Lock up when you
leave.” With that, he crossed to the door, grabbed a fur-lined cloak
from the peg, and left.
Varian just stayed where he was, Masun’s words echoing in his
brain like the refrain from a bad melody. Could it be true? Was he a
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coward? Was he taking the easy way out? Uneasily he thought overhis actions since Lyra’s death, and what he remembered made him
cringe a bit. He thought of the expression in Rom’s eyes when he had
told him that he was suspending him from the Gray. He remembered
the looks on his fellow Guardian’s faces when they had smelled the
alcohol on his breath during training. Goddess, had he been that much
of a fool? And what was being done to catch the traitors who had
engineered the queen’s death? He didn’t have any idea. Why hadn’t
he been the one to volunteer to find the people responsible?
He needed to think, clear his head. A long walk through the crisp,
cold Emryn air might help him get his befuddled thoughts in order.
* * * *
Masun stood at the window of the armory, looking over the
training yard where the new Guardian recruits were being put through
their paces. He wasn’t getting much work done because he couldn’t
keep his mind from returning to the events of the previous night,
especially the unexpected but incredible lovemaking he had
experienced with Varian. Just recalling the way Varian’s hands andmouth had felt on him, the tightness of his body when he’d entered it,
had Masun hard and thick with arousal and need.
Though he hadn’t intended what had happened, he couldn’t say he
was sorry about it. It had been better than he could have possibly
imagined. He’d been with too many men not to recognize something
special when he felt it. It was true that he’d been attracted to Varian
and had been hoping that something would happen between the two
of them, but he did feel a twinge of guilt. After all, he knew that
Varian was struggling with a drinking problem, and that was more
important than getting physical satisfaction. Right now, that should be
his focus.
He heard one of his assistants call out a greeting and turned just as
King Kelan entered, accompanied by Rom and another man Masun
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recognized as Queen Lyra’s brother. Teris Bas Rillian, Duke ofHawksworth, had come to Winterreach for his sister’s funeral and had
remained behind after the rest of his family had returned home. He
and Kelan seemed to draw comfort from each other’s presence, and
Masun thought perhaps a bit more. He had seen the two men
exchanging glances in what was not a fraternal fashion.
He focused on Kelan now as the king approached, bowing his
head when the man stopped before him. “Good morning, Masun. I
hope we’re not disturbing you with this early visit.”
Masun smiled and shook his head. “Not at all, Your Majesty.
Truthfully, I haven’t been getting much accomplished anyway. My
mind doesn’t seem to want to focus on much of anything this morn.”
Kelan grinned, and Masun was glad to see the king in a more
lighthearted mood since the last time he had seen him. “Well, then, I
don’t feel so guilty for interrupting your work.”
“I told you that Masun never minds taking a break, sire,” Rom put
in facetiously.
Masun agreed. “Rom knows me only too well, Majesty. Now,
what can I do for you gentlemen this cold and windy morning?”
“I’m not sure if you’ve met Lyra’s brother, His Grace, the Dukeof Hawksworth?” The king gestured toward the other man, who
nodded at Masun.
“I don’t think we’ve been formally introduced. I’m very sorry for
your loss, Your Grace.”
The other man, who bore a striking resemblance to the deceased
queen, smiled slightly. “I’ve heard a lot of good things about your
work, sirrah.”
“Teris is in need of a new sword, and I told him that you did some
of the best work in Emryn,” Kelan said.
Teris looked around at the swords, daggers, and other pieces of
weaponry and armor in various states of completion that were
displayed on the walls, tables, and practically any other available
surface in the room.
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“Indeed, I see you have quite a collection,” Teris observed.“Please, look around. Most of these pieces are for the Gray, but I
would be pleased to make a sword for you, Your Grace, if you like
my workmanship. I could design one to your personal specifications.”
Teris smiled, and he and Kelan began to wander around the room,
picking up various pieces to study them and test their worthiness.
Rom walked over to Masun. “So how did things go last night? Did
you manage to find Varian?”
He nodded. “Yes. He was at Madame Lingo’s, drunk and
brawling.” He told Varian the details of the fight. Rom winced at the
description of the state Varian was in when Masun got him home.
“So I guess he was in no shape for you to talk to him.”
Masun shrugged. “Not really. Though I did speak to him a little
this morn at breakfast.” Masun could feel his face grow red as he
remembered the other things he’d managed to do to Varian, and
Rom’s gaze sharpened on his face as he spotted that telltale blush.
“What aren’t you telling me, Masun?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Masun tried to look
innocent but knew he’d failed miserably when Rom’s eyes narrowed
suspiciously.“Come on, Masun, I know you too well. Something happened,
and I want to know what it was.”
“It’s nothing. None of your business, Rom.” Masun turned away
from that piercing gaze, pretending to straighten up his tools that lay
on the table before him.
Rom was silent for a long moment. Finally he let out a small
laugh. “Are you involved with Varian, Masun?” He paused for a
second. “No, wait. Don’t answer that. You don’t need to. I can always
tell when you’ve become infatuated with some man or other, my
friend. You always get that same look on your face.”
Masun swung around to face Rom, knowing he looked guilty and
defensive as seven hells. “Look, Rom, I didn’t mean for it to
happen—”
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Rom let out a bark of laughter so loud that Kelan and Teris lookedover at them. “Farking hells, you fucked him.”
Masun grimaced, cursing the fact that his best friend knew him so
well. “It was an accident. And do you have to be so loud?”
Rom laughed again, though he did keep it a bit quieter this time.
“An accident? Oh, I’d love to hear the explanation for that one.”
“Can we talk about something else, for the Goddess’s sake?”
Rom just shook his head, a smile still playing around his lips. “All
right. All right. I’ll leave you with a bit of privacy. Just try to
remember that I asked you to help me with Varian’s drinking
problem, won’t you?”
Masun nodded. “I haven’t forgotten. I’m hoping some of what I
said this morn sank in.”
“Good, good.”
“So, how are things going in the search for the mysterious duke?”
Masun knew that Rom and Javan, along with several other members
of the Gray, were desperately seeking the identity of the highly-placed
traitor to Emryn.
Rom shook his head. “Slow. We have to be careful not to insult
any of our most powerful supporters, and we also don’t want to let theman know we’re looking for him. Javan has spies everywhere, and
we’ve been sorting through the information as it comes in, but it’s not
going to be an easy task.”
“How would you feel if Varian and I did a little searching of our
own?” Masun asked, an idea beginning to form in his brain from
some of the things he had said to Varian that morning. “I think it
would be good for him to participate in finding the man ultimately
responsible for the queen’s death.”
Rom’s forehead creased in thought. “I don’t know. I suspended
him from the Gray for thirty days for a reason. I suppose I couldn’t
stop him if he wanted to spend his free time trying to locate the
unknown duke.” He looked at Masun. “Do you really think it will
help him?”
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Masun nodded. “He needs a way to overcome his guilt for thequeen’s assassination. Finding the man behind the murder could be
the only way he will ever be able to get past what happened.”
“I don’t have a problem with it, just as long as you make sure that
you don’t give yourselves away to the wrong people. The last thing
we need is for our target to realize that we’re closing in on him.”
Masun agreed. “Of course. We’ll be very careful.”
“And you have to agree to come to me with any information you
discover. I don’t want you and Varian acting on your own if you do
discover who this man is. The Gray needs to handle apprehending the
man and anyone who might be working with him. Swear to me on
Salara’s bones that you will keep me informed of anything that you
learn and that you will not act without my permission.”
“Absolutely. I have no desire to play the hero.”
“Just make sure that Varian feels the same way, or I will lock him
up if I have to.”
“I will.”
The king and Teris began walking back toward where Rom and
Masun stood, so the two men ended their conversation quickly. After
Teris placed an order for a sword, and Masun agreed on a price, thethree men left the armory.
Masun considered the plan he had come up with to help Varian.
He only hoped the other man would agree. The more he thought about
it, the more convinced Masun was that it was exactly what Varian
needed in order to feel good about himself again. Masun knew very
well just how destructive guilt and self-blame could be, and he didn’t
want to see Varian sink any lower than he already had. It could very
well be his last chance to save himself and to remain a member of the
Gray.
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Chapter Five
Varian spent a lot of time over the next couple of days thinking
about what Masun had said to him. The first day, he’d gone through
so many emotions that he’d been almost dizzy with the changes. That
night he’d gone to a bar near the Old Quarter. It was dank and dark.
The only customers were old drunks nursing their beverages and a
few workers from the field houses. They’d given him a brief glance
when he’d walked in and then promptly ignored him. After he’d
ordered a bottle of whiskey, he went and sat at a scarred table in the
corner. He’d poured a glass and then sat and stared at the amber liquid
a long, long time.
Finally, he’d stood up and walked out, leaving both bottle and
glass sitting on the table, untouched. He’d walked slowly through the
streets with no particular destination in mind. The streets were nearlydeserted, and the winter’s cold winds lashed at his face, stirring up
flakes of snow and bringing with it a measure of peace and sanity that
he’d been missing for weeks.
When he had arrived back at the Tower, he’d ignored the
speculative looks of the men huddled around the fire in the Great
Room. Instead, he’d headed to the stairs and climbed them to his own
room. Once there, he’d stirred up the fire and then gone to bed, falling
easily in to a deep sleep, something he hadn’t been able to do since
the queen’s murder.
The next day he’d gone to the training yard, working out like a
mad man, sparring with anyone who was willing. The days after
followed a similar pattern. He fell into bed each night exhausted but
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content. Most important, he hadn’t touched a drop of alcohol, thoughthere were times when the temptation to do so almost defeated him.
On the evening of the fourth day following his night with Masun,
Varian found himself standing in front of Masun’s door. He could see
from the light in the window that the man was home, but still he
hesitated. He wasn’t sure why. Normally, he was not shy or easily
embarrassed. But this man’s opinion meant a lot to him, and his
memories of the things Masun had said to him, the way he had acted
toward the other man, caused him to cringe a little inside. He almost
turned and walked away, but something stopped him. He took a deep
breath, lifted his hand, and rapped sharply on the wooden door.
The door swung open, and Masun stood there, a look of surprise
on his face when he saw Varian. For a moment, neither man spoke.
Then, hesitantly, Varian asked, “May I come in?”
Masun’s eyes studied him, their gaze traveling quickly up and
down his body, taking in, Varian knew, the fact that he was sober and
neatly dressed. Masun shrugged and stepped aside, giving Varian
room to enter. Masun gestured to the table and chairs. “Would you
like to have a seat?”
Varian managed a smile. “Perhaps in a moment. What I’d like tosay is best said on my feet. First I want to thank you.” He saw the
look of surprise that flashed across Masun’s face. “And apologize. I
know that I acted like an ass when you were just trying to help. I
guess I didn’t want to hear it, but what you said, well, it really made
me start to think. And little as I want to admit it, you were absolutely
right. I was wallowing in my own stupid self-pity when I should have
been out there with the rest of the Gray trying to find the person who
was responsible. If you see Rom, I’d like for you to tell him that I
understand why he did what he did, and that I’m going to try very
hard to straighten up and act like a true Guardian of the Gray Tower
instead of a spoiled, sulking brat.”
The whole time he was talking, Masun just stood there with an
inscrutable look on his face. When he finally quit talking, Masun
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didn’t say anything. Varian’s face heated. “I guess that’s all I have tosay. I’ll go now and let you get back to whatever it is you were
doing.”
He was reaching for the door handle when Masun’s voice halted
him. “Would you like a cup of red tea?”
He swung quickly back around. Masun was looking at him with a
small smile. He managed to smile back. “I’d love one.”
Masun led him over to the table and told him to sit. Varian
watched as the other man moved efficiently around the small room,
grabbing the pot that had been sitting on a grate near the fire and
pouring them both a glass of the warm, soothing liquid.
After he had set the cups on the table and joined Varian, they both
took a sip of the warm beverage, and then Varian spoke. “You said
you couldn’t help me unless I admitted I have a problem.” He met
Masun’s eyes easily, wanting to convince the other man of his
sincerity. “So I admit it. I need help. Can you help me?”
Masun’s face was serious. “I can, as long as you’re willing to help
yourself.”
“You were once addicted to Darkleaf?” Varian had remembered
the shock when Masun had confessed that fact to him. “Can you tellme about it?”
Masun sat back, the cup of red tea cupped between his hands, and
sighed. “It’s not a story I’m proud of, but it’s part of my life, and if it
can help anyone by my telling it, then I am happy to do that.”
“What happened?”
Varian sat and listened as Masun told his tale. He was enthralled
by the story of a young, wild Masun whose lover had died so
tragically. He could understand Masun’s feelings of remorse and
regret over what his careless words had caused to happen. He easily
related to the agonizing feelings of guilt that had l