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8/12/2019 Conrad - Youth http://slidepdf.com/reader/full/conrad-youth 1/18 Youth  Joseph Conrad  This page copyright © 2001 Blackmask Online.  http://www.blackmask.com * ". . . But the Dwarf answered: No; something human is dearer to me than the wealth of all the world." GRIMM'S TALES. TO MY WIFE  THIS could have occurred nowhere but in England, where men and sea interpenetrate, so to speak--the sea entering into the life of most men, and the men know- ing something or everything about the sea, in the way of amusement, of travel, or of bread-winning.  We were sitting round a mahogany table that reflected the bottle, the claret-glasses, and our faces as we leaned on our elbows. There was a director of companies, an accountant, a lawyer, Marlow, and myself. The direc- tor had been a CONWAY boy, the accountant had served four years at sea, the lawyer--a fine crusted Tory, High Churchman, the best of old fellows, the soul of honor-- had been chief officer in the P. & O. service in the good old days when mail-boats were square-rigged at least on two masts, and used to come down the China Sea before a fair monsoon with stun'-sails set alow and aloft. We all began life in the merchant service. Between the five of us there was the strong bond of the sea, and also the fellowship of the craft, which no amount of enthusiasm for yachting, cruising, and so on can give, since one is only the amusement of life and the other is life itself. Marlow (at least I think that is how he spelt his name) told the story, or rather the chronicle, of a voyage:  "Yes, I have seen a little of the Eastern seas; but what I remember best is my first voyage there. You fellows know there are those voyages that seem ordered for the illustration of life, that might stand for a symbol of existence. You fight, work, sweat, nearly kill yourself, sometimes do kill yourself, trying to accomplish some- thing--and you can't. Not from any fault of yours. You simply can do nothing, neither great nor little-- not a thing in the world--not even marry an old maid, or get a wretched 600-ton cargo of coal to its port of desti- nation.  "It was altogether a memorable affair. It was my first voyage to the East, and my first voyage as second mate; it was also my skipper's first command. You'll admit it was time. He was sixty if a day; a little man, with a broad, not very straight back, with bowed shoul- ders and one leg more bandy than the other, he had that queer twisted-about appearance you see so often in men who work in the fields. He had a nut-cracker face--chin and nose trying to come together over a sunken mouth-- and it was framed in iron-gray fluffy hair, that looked like a chin strap of cotton-wool sprinkled with coal-dust. And he had  blue eyes in that old face of his, which were amazingly like a boy's, with that candid expression some quite common men preserve to the end of their days by a rare internal gift of simplicity of heart and rectitude of soul. What induced him to accept me was a wonder. I had come out of a crack Australian clipper, where I had been third officer, and he seemed to have a prejudice against crack clippers as aristocratic and high-toned. He said to me, 'You know, in this ship you will have to work.' I said I had to Page 1

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Youth

  Jo s ep h C on r ad  T hi s p ag e cop yr ig ht © 2 00 1 B lack mask O nl in e.

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". . . But the Dwarf answered: No; something human is dearer tome than the wealth of all the world."

GRIMM'S TALES. TOMYWIFE

  T HI S c ou ld h av e o cc ur re d n ow he re b ut i n E ng la nd , w he re m en a nd s ea i nt er pe ne tr at e, s o t o s pe ak -- th es ea e nt er in g i nt o t he l if e o f m os t m en , a nd t he m en k now - i ng s om et hi ng o r e ve ryt hi ng a bou t t he s ea , i n

t he w ay o f amu sement , o f t ravel, o r o f b read -w in ni ng .

  W e w er e s it ti ng r ou nd a m ah og an y t ab le t ha t r ef le ct ed t he b ot tl e, t he c la re t- gl as se s, a nd o ur f ac es a s w e

l ea ne d o n o ur e lb ow s. T he re w as a d ir ec to r o f c om pa ni es , a n a cc ou nt an t, a l aw ye r, M ar lo w, a nd m ys el f.

T he d ir ec - t or h ad b ee n a C ON WA Y b oy , t he a cc ou nt an t h ad s er ve d f ou r y ea rs a t s ea , t he l aw ye r- -a

f in e c rus te d T or y, H ig h C hu rc hm an , t he b es t o f o ld f el lo ws , t he s ou l o f h ono r- - ha d b ee n c hi ef of fi ce r i n

t he P . & O . s er vi ce i n t he go od ol d d ay s w he n m ai l- bo at s w er e s qu ar e- ri gge d a t l ea st on t wo m as ts , a nd

u se d t o c om e d ow n t he C hi na S ea b ef or e a f ai r m on so on w it h s tu n' -s ai ls s et a lo w a nd a lo ft . W e a ll b eg an

l if e i n t he me rc ha nt s er vi ce . Be twe en t he f ive of us t he re w as t he s tr ong bond of th e s ea , a nd a ls o t hef el lo ws hi p o f t he craft , w hi ch n o amo un t o f ent hu si as m f or y acht in g, cru is in g, and s o o n can g iv e, s in ce

on e i s o nl y t he a mu se me nt of l if e a nd t he ot he r i s l if e i ts el f.

M ar low ( at l ea st I th in k t ha t is how he s pe lt hi s na me ) t ol d t he s tor y, or r at he r t he c hr on ic le , of a voy age :

  " Ye s, I ha ve s ee n a l it tl e o f t he Ea st er n s ea s; but wha t I r em embe r be st i s my f ir st vo ya ge t he re . You

f el lo ws k no w t he re a re t ho se v oy ag es t ha t s ee m or de re d f or t he i ll us tr at io n o f l if e, t ha t m ig ht s ta nd f or a

symbol of existence. You fight, work, sweat, nearly kill yourself, sometimes do kill yourself, trying to

accom pl is h s om e- t hi ng -- an d y ou can 't . N ot f ro m any f au lt o f y ou rs . Y ou s im pl y can d o n ot hi ng , n ei th er  

gr ea t no r l it tl e- - no t a t hi ng i n t he wo rl d- -no t e ve n ma rr y a n o ld m ai d, or g et a wr et ch ed 6 00- ton c ar go

of c oa l t o i ts por t of d es ti - na ti on.

  " It w as a lt og et he r a m em or ab le a ff ai r. I t w as m y f ir st v oy ag e t o t he E as t, a nd m y f ir st v oy ag e a s s ec on d

m at e; i t w as a ls o m y s ki pp er 's f ir st c om ma nd . Y ou 'l l a dm it i t w as t im e. H e w as s ixt y i f a da y; a l it tl e m an ,

w it h a b roa d, not v er y s tr ai gh t ba ck, wi th bo we d s houl - de rs a nd o ne l eg m or e ba ndy t ha n t he o the r, h e

ha d t ha t q ue er t wi st ed- abo ut a pp ea ra nc e yo u s ee s o o ft en i n m en wh o w or k i n t he f ie lds . H e ha d a

n ut -c ra ck er f ac e- -c hi n a nd n os e t ry in g t o c om e t og et he r o ve r a s un ke n m ou th -- a nd i t w as f ra me d i n

i ro n- gr ay f lu ff y h ai r, t hat l oo ked l ik e a chi n s tr ap o f cot to n- wo ol s pr in kl ed w it h coal- du st . A nd h e h ad

 blue eyes in that old face of his, which were amazingly like a boy's, with that candid expression some

q ui te c om mo n m en p re se rve t o t he e nd o f t he ir d ay s b y a r ar e i nt er na l gi ft o f s im pl ic it y o f h ea rt a nd

r ec ti tu de o f s oul . W ha t i ndu ce d h im t o a cc ept m e wa s a won de r. I ha d c om e ou t of a c ra ck A us tr al ia nc li pp er , w he re I h ad b ee n t hi rd o ff ic er , a nd h e s ee me d t o h av e a p re ju di ce a ga in st c ra ck c li pp er s a s

a ri st oc ra ti c a nd hi gh- tone d. He s ai d t o m e, ' You know , i n t hi s s hi p y ou wi ll ha ve t o w or k.' I s ai d I h ad t o

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w or k i n e ve ry s hi p I h ad e ve r b ee n i n. ' Ah , b ut t hi s i s d if fe re nt , a nd y ou g en tl em en o ut o f t he m bi g s hi ps ; .

. . bu t t he re ! I d ar e s ay y ou w il l d o. J oi n t o- mor ro w. '

  " I j oi ne d t o- mo rr ow . I t w as t we nt y- tw o ye ar s a go ; a nd I w as j us t t we nt y. Ho w t im e p as se s! I t wa s o ne

o f t he h ap pi es t d ay s o f m y l if e. F an cy ! S ec on d m at e f or t he f ir st t im e- -a r ea ll y r es po ns ib le o ff ic er ! I

w ou ld n' t h av e t hr ow n u p m y n ew b il le t f or a f or tu ne . T he m at e l oo ke d m e ov er c ar ef ul ly. H e w as a ls o a n

ol d c ha p, b ut o f a not he r s ta mp . He h ad a Ro ma n n os e, a s now -w hi te , l ong b ea rd, a nd h is n am e w asM ah on , b ut h e i ns is te d t ha t i t s ho ul d b e p ro no un ce d M an n. H e w as w el l c on ne ct ed ; y et t he re w as

s om et hi ng w ro ng w it h h is l uc k, a nd he h ad n eve r g ot o n.

" As t o t he c apt ai n, he ha d be en f or ye ar s i n c oa st er s, t he n i n t he M ed it er ra ne an, a nd l as t i n t he W es t

I ndi an t ra de . H e h ad n ev er b ee n r ou nd t he Ca pe s. He c oul d j us t w ri te a ki nd o f s ke tc hy h and , a nd di dn 't

c ar e f or w ri ti ng a t a ll . B ot h w er e t ho ro ug h g oo d s ea me n o f c ou rs e, a nd b et we en t ho se t wo o ld c ha ps I

f el t l ik e a s mall b oy b et ween t wo g rand fath er s.

" The s hi p a ls o w as o ld. H er n ame wa s t he J ude a. Q ue er na me , i sn 't i t? S he b el ong ed t o a m an Wi lm er ,

W il co x- -s om e n am e l ik e t ha t; b ut h e h as b ee n b an kr up t a nd d ea d t he se t we nt y y ea rs o r m or e, a nd h isn am e d on 't m at te r. S he h ad b ee n l ai d u p i n S ha dw el l b as in f or e ve r s o l on g. Y ou c an i ma gi ne h er s ta te .

Sh e w as a ll r us t, dus t, gr im e- -s oot a lo ft , di rt on d ec k. T o me i t wa s l ike c om ing ou t o f a pa la ce i nt o a

r ui ne d c ot ta ge . S he w as a bo ut 4 00 t on s, h ad a p ri mi ti ve w in dl as s, w oo de n l at ch es t o t he d oo rs , n ot a b it

of br as s a bout h er , a nd a bi g s qua re s te rn . Th er e w as on i t, be low he r n am e i n bi g l et te rs , a l ot o f s cr ol l

w or k, wi th t he gi lt of f, a nd s om e s or t of a c oa t of a rm s, wi th t he m ot to ' Do o r D ie ' u nde r- ne at h. I

r em em be r i t t oo k m y f an cy i mm en se ly . Th er e w as a t ou ch o f r om an ce i n i t, s om et hi ng t ha t m ade m e l ove

t he o ld t hi ng -- so meth in g t hat app ealed t o m y y ou th !

  " We l ef t L on do n i n b al la st -- sa nd b al la st -- to l oa d a c ar go o f c oa l i n a n or th er n p or t f or B an ko k.

B ank ok! I t hr il le d. I h ad b ee n s ix ye ar s a t s ea , b ut ha d on ly s ee n M el bo ur ne a nd Syd ne y, v er y g ood

 places, charming places in their way--but Bankok!

" We w or ke d out o f t he T ha me s u nd er c anva s, w it h a No rt h S ea pi lot o n boa rd. Hi s na me w as J er my n,

a nd h e d od ge d a ll d ay l on g a bo ut t he g al le y d ry in g h is h an d- k er ch ie f b ef or e t he s to ve . A pp ar en tl y h e

ne ve r s le pt . H e w as a di sma l ma n, wi th a pe rp et ua l t ea r s pa rk li ng a t t he e nd of hi s nos e, w ho e it he r h ad

 been in trouble, or was in trouble, or expected to be in trouble--couldn't be happy unless something went

w ro ng . H e m is tr us ted m y y ou th , m y com mo n- sens e, and m y s eamans hi p, and m ad e a p oi nt o f s ho wi ng i t

i n a hundr ed l it tl e w ays . I da re s ay he wa s r ig ht . It s ee ms t o m e I kne w ve ry l it tl e th en, a nd I know not

muc h mor e now; but I c her is h a ha te for tha t J er myn t o t hi s da y.

  "W e we re a w ee k wo rk ing u p a s f ar a s Ya rm ou th R oa ds , a nd t he n w e go t i nt o a ga le -- th e f am ousO ct ob er g al e o f t we nt y- tw o y ea rs a go . I t w as w in d, l ig ht ni ng , s le et , s no w, a nd a t er ri fi c s ea . W e w er e

f ly in g l ig ht , a nd y ou m ay i ma gi ne h ow ba d i t w as w he n I t el l yo u we h ad s ma she d b ul wa rk s a nd a f loo de d

de ck. On t he s ec ond ni gh t s he s hi ft ed he r ba ll as t i nt o t he l ee bo w, a nd by t ha t t im e we ha d be en bl own

o ff s om ew he re o n t he D og ge r B an k. T he re w as n ot hi ng f or i t b ut g o b el ow w it h s ho ve ls a nd t ry t o r ig ht

h er , a nd t he re w e w er e i n t ha t v as t h ol d, g lo om y l ik e a c av er n, t he t al lo w d ip s s tu ck a nd f li ck er in g o n t he

 beams, the gale howling above, the ship tossing about like mad on her side; there we all were, Jermyn,

t he c ap ta in , e ve ry on e, h ar dl y a bl e t o k ee p o ur f ee t, e ng ag ed o n t ha t g ra ve di gg er 's w or k, a nd t ry - i ng t o

t os s s ho ve lf ul s o f w et s an d u p t o w in dw ar d. A t e ve ry t um bl e o f t he s hi p y ou c ou ld s ee v ag ue ly i n t he d im

l ig ht m en f al li ng d ow n w it h a g re at f lo ur is h o f s ho v- e ls . O ne o f t he s hi p' s b oys ( we h ad t wo ), i mp re ss ed

 by the weirdness of the scene, wept as if his heart would break. We could hear him blubbering

s om ew here i n t he s hado ws .

" On t he t hi rd d ay t he g al e di ed o ut , a nd by -a nd -by a no rt h- co un tr y t ug pi cke d u s up . W e t ook s ix te en

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da ys i n a ll t o ge t f rom Londo n t o t he Tyne ! Whe n we g ot i nt o d oc k we ha d l os t our t ur n f or l oa di ng, a nd

t he y ha ul ed us of f t o a t ie r w he re w e r em ai ne d f or a mo nt h. Mr s. Be ar d ( th e c apt ai n' s na me w as Be ar d)

c ame f rom C ol che st er t o s ee t he ol d ma n. S he l iv ed on b oa rd. T he c re w of r unn er s ha d l ef t, a nd t he re

r em ai ne d o nl y t he o ff ic er s, o ne b oy , a nd t he s te wa rd , a m ul at to w ho a n- s we re d t o t he n am e o f                  

Ab ra ha m. M rs . B ea rd w as a n ol d wo ma n, wi th a r ac e a ll w ri nk le d a nd r uddy l ik e a w int er a ppl e, a nd t he

f igu re of a yo un g g ir l. S he c au ght s ig ht of m e on ce , s ew ing on a bu tt on , a nd i ns is te d on ha vi ng m y s hi rt s t o

r ep ai r. T hi s w as s om et hi ng d if ferent f ro m t he cap tain s' w iv es I h ad k no wn o n b oard crack cli pp er s.W he n I b ro ug ht h er t he s hi rt s, s he s ai d: ' An d t he s oc ks ? T he y w an t m en di ng , I a m s ur e, a nd J oh n' s- -

C ap ta in B ea rd 's -- th in gs a re a ll i n o rd er n ow . I w ou ld b e g la d o f s om et hi ng t o d o. ' B le ss t he o ld w om an .

S he o ve rh au le d m y o ut fi t f or m e, a nd m ea nt im e I r ea d f or t he f ir st t im e ' Sa rt or R es ar tu s' a nd B ur na by 's

' Ri de t o K hi va .' I d id n' t u nd er st an d m uc h o f t he f ir st t he n; b ut I r em em be r I p re fe rr ed t he s ol di er t o t he

 philosopher at the time; a preference which life has only confirmed. One was a man, and the other was

e it he r m or e- -o r l es s. H ow ev er , t he y a re b ot h d ea d, a nd M rs . B ea rd i s d ea d, a nd y ou th , s tr en gt h, g en iu s,

t ho ug ht s, a ch ie ve me nt s, s im pl e h ea rt s- -a ll d ie . . . . N o m at te r.

  " Th ey l oa de d us a t l as t. W e s hi pp ed a c re w. Ei ght a bl e s ea me n a nd t wo boy s. W e h aul ed of f o ne

e ve ni ng t o t he b uo ys a t t he d oc k- ga te s, r ea dy t o g o o ut , a nd w it h a f ai r p ro sp ec t o f b eg in ni ng t he v oy ag enext day. Mrs . Be ar d wa s t o s ta rt f or home by a la te tr ai n. When the s hip wa s f as t we we nt to te a. We

s at r at he r s il en t t hr ou gh t he m ea l- -M ah on , t he o ld c ou pl e, a nd I . I f in is he d f ir st , a nd s li pp ed a wa y f or a

s mo ke , m y c ab in b ei ng i n a d ec k- ho us e j us t a ga in st t he p oo p. I t w as h ig h w at er , b lo wi ng f re sh w it h a

d ri zz le ; t he d ou bl e d oc k- g at es w er e o pe ne d, a nd t he s te am c ol li er s w er e g oi ng i n a nd o ut i n t he

d ar kn es s w it h t heir l ig ht s b ur ni ng b ri gh t, a g reat p lash in g o f p ro pell er s, r at tl in g o f w in ch es , and a l ot o f                  

hailing on the pier-heads. I watched the procession of head-lights gliding high and of green lights gliding

l ow i n t he n ig ht , w hen s ud denl y a r ed g leam f lash ed at m e, v an is hed, cam e i nt o v iew again , and r em ai ned.

T he f or e- end of a s te am er l oom ed u p c lo se . I s ho ut ed do wn t he c abi n, ' Com e u p, q ui ck! ' a nd t he n he ar d

a s ta rt le d v oi ce s ay in g a fa r i n t he d ar k, ' St op h er , s ir .' A b el l j in gl ed . A no th er v oi ce c ri ed w ar ni ng ly , ' We

a re g oi ng r ig ht i nt o t ha t b ar k, s ir .' T he a ns we r t o t hi s w as a gr uf f ' Al l r ig ht ,' a nd t he n ex t t hi ng w as a h ea vy

c ra sh a s t he s te am er s tr uc k a g la nc in g b lo w w it h t he b lu ff o f h er b ow a bo ut o ur f or e- ri gg in g. T he re w as amoment of confusion, yelling, and running about. Steam roared. Then somebody was heard saying, 'All

c le ar , s ir .' . . . ' Ar e y ou a ll r igh t? ' a ske d t he gr uf f v oi ce . I h ad j um pe d f or wa rd t o s ee t he d am ag e, a nd

h ai le d b ac k, ' I t hi nk s o. ' ' Ea sy a st er n, ' s ai d t he g ru ff v oi ce . A b el l j in gl ed . ' Wh at s te am er i s t ha t? '

s cr ea me d M ah on . B y t ha t t im e s he w as n o m or e t o u s t ha n a b ul ky s ha do w m an eu ve ri ng a l it tl e w ay o ff .

T he y s ho ut ed a t u s s om e n am e- -a w om an 's n am e, M ir an da o r M el is sa -- or s om e s uc h t hi ng . ' Th is m ea ns

a no th er m on th i n t hi s b ea st ly h ol e, ' s ai d M ah on t o m e, a s w e p ee re d w it h l am ps a bo ut t he s pl in te re d

 bulwarks and broken braces. 'But where's the captain?'

" We ha d not he ar d or s ee n a nyt hi ng of hi m a ll tha t t ime . W e we nt a ft t o l ook. A dole ful voi ce a ros e ha il -

ing somewhe re in t he middle of the dock, 'Jude a ahoy!' . . . How the devi l did he get t her e? . . . 'Hall o!'w e s ho ut ed . ' I a m a dr if t i n o ur b oa t w it ho ut o ar s, ' h e c ri ed . A b el at ed w at er ma n o ff er ed h is s er vi ce s, a nd

M ah on s tr uc k a b ar ga in w it h h im f or h al f- a- cr ow n t o t ow o ur s ki pp er a lo ng si de ; b ut i t w as M rs . B ea rd

t ha t c am e u p t he l ad de r f ir st . T he y ha d b ee n f lo at in g a bo ut t he d oc k i n t ha t m iz zl y c ol d r ai n f or n ea rl y a n

h ou r. I w as n ev er s o s ur pr is ed i n m y l if e.

" It a pp ea rs t ha t w he n he he ar d my s hou t ' Co me up ,' he un de rs too d a t on ce w ha t w as t he m at te r, c aug ht

up hi s wi fe , ra n on de ck, a nd a cross , a nd down int o our boat , whi ch wa s f as t t o the l adder . Not bad f or  

a s ix ty -y ear- o ld . J us t i magi ne t hat o ld f el lo w s av in g h er oi call y i n h is arm s t hat o ld w om an -- th e w om an o f                  

hi s l if e. H e s et h er d ow n on a t hw ar t, a nd wa s r ea dy t o c li mb b ac k o n bo ar d wh en t he pa int er c am e

adr if t s om eh ow , and away t hey w en t t og et her. O f cou rs e i n t he con fu si on w e d id n ot h ear h im s ho ut in g.

H e l oo ke d a ba sh ed . S he s ai d c he er fu ll y, ' I s up po se i t d oe s n ot m at te r m y l os in g t he t ra in n ow ?' ' No ,

J en ny- -you go b el ow a nd ge t w ar m, ' he gr owl ed. Th en t o us : ' A s ai lor ha s n o bus i- n es s wi th a w if e- -I

say. The re I was, out of t he ship. Wel l, no har m done this time . Let' s go a nd look a t what that fool of a

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steamer smashed.'

  " It w as n' t m uc h, b ut i t d el ay ed u s t hr ee w ee ks . A t t he e nd o f t ha t t im e, t he c ap ta in b ei ng e ng ag ed w it h

h is a ge nt s, I c ar ri ed M rs . B ea rd 's b ag t o t he r ai lw ay -s ta - t io n a nd p ut h er a ll c om fy i nt o a t hi rd -c la ss

c ar ri ag e. S he l ow er ed t he w in do w t o s ay , ' Yo u a re a g oo d y ou ng m an . I f y ou s ee J oh n- -C ap ta in

B eard -- wi th ou t h is m uf fl er at n ig ht , j us t r em in d h im f ro m m e t o k eep h is t hr oat w el l w rapp ed u p. '

' Ce rt ai nl y, M rs . B ea rd ,' I s ai d. ' Yo u a re a g oo d yo ung m an ; I n ot ic ed h ow a t- t ent iv e yo u a re t o J ohn -- toCa pt ai n- -' Th e t ra in pu ll ed ou t s udd enl y; I t ook my c ap of f t o t he ol d w om an: I ne ve r s aw h er a ga in . . . .

P as s t he b ot tl e.

  " We w en t t o s ea ne xt d ay . W he n we ma de t ha t s ta rt f or Ba nk ok w e ha d b ee n a lr ea dy t hr ee mo nt hs ou t

o f Lo nd on . W e h ad e xp ec te d t o b e a f or tn ig ht o r s o- -a t t he o ut si de .

  "I t w as J an uary , and t he w eath er w as b eaut if ul -- th e b eaut if ul s un ny w in ter w eath er t hat h as m or e charm

t ha n i n t he s um me r- ti me , b ec au se i t i s u ne xp ec te d, a nd c ri sp , a nd y ou k no w i t w on 't , i t c an 't , l as t l on g.

I t' s l ik e a w in df al l, l ik e a g od se nd , l ik e a n u ne xp ec te d p ie ce o f l uc k.

" It l as te d a ll dow n t he Nor th S ea , a ll down Cha nn el; a nd i t l as te d t il l w e we re t hr ee hund re d mi le s or s o

t o t he we st wa rd o f t he Li za rd s: t he n t he w in d we nt r ou nd t o t he s ou 'w es t a nd be ga n t o p ipe u p. I n t wo

da ys i t bl ew a ga le . T he J ude a, h ove t o, wa ll owe d on t he At la nt ic l ike a n o ld c andl ebo x. I t bl ew da y a ft er  

d ay : i t b lew w it h s pi te, w it ho ut i nt er val, w it ho ut m er cy , w it ho ut r es t. T he w or ld w as n ot hi ng b ut an

i mm en si ty o f g re at f oa m- i ng w av es r us hi ng a t u s, un de r a s ky l ow e nou gh t o t ou ch w it h t he h and a nd

d ir ty l ik e a s mo ke d c ei li ng. I n t he s to rm y s pa ce s ur ro und in g us t he re w as a s m uc h f ly in g s pr ay a s a ir . D ay

a ft er d ay a nd ni gh t a ft er ni gh t t he re w as no th in g r oun d t he s hi p b ut t he h ow l of t he w in d, t he t um ul t o f t he

s ea , the noi se of wa te r pouri ng over her dec k. The re wa s no re st f or her and no r es t for us . She t os sed,

s he pi tc he d, s he s tood on her he ad, she s at on her ta il, s he roll ed, she gr oa ne d, a nd we ha d t o hol d on

whi le on de ck a nd cl ing t o our bunks whe n be low , i n a c ons ta nt e ff or t of body an d wor ry of mi nd.

  " On e n ig ht M ah on s po ke t hr ou gh t he s ma ll w in do w o f m y b er th . I t op en ed r igh t i nt o m y v er y b ed , a nd I

w as l yi ng t he re s le ep le ss , i n m y b oo ts , f ee li ng a s t ho ug h I h ad n ot s le pt f or y ea rs , a nd c ou ld n ot i f I t ri ed .

H e s ai d excit edl y- -

  " 'Y ou g ot t he s ou nd in g- ro d i n h er e, M ar lo w? I c an 't g et t he p um ps t o s uc k. B y G od ! i t' s n o c hi ld 's p la y. '

  " I g av e h im t he s ou nd in g- ro d and l ay d ow n again , t ry in g t o t hi nk o f v ar io us t hi ng s- -b ut I t ho ug ht o nl y o f                  

t he pumps . Whe n I c ame on de ck t hey we re s ti ll a t i t, a nd m y wa tc h r eli eve d a t t he pum ps . By t he l ight of                  

t he l an te rn b ro ug ht o n d ec k t o e xa mi ne t he s ou nd in g- r od I c au gh t a g li mp se o f t he ir w ea ry , s er io us

f ac es . W e p um pe d a ll t he f ou r h ou rs . W e p um pe d a ll n ig ht , a ll d ay , a ll t he w ee k, -- wa tc h a nd w at ch . S hew as w or k- i ng h er se lf l oo se , a nd l ea ke d b ad ly -- no t e no ug h t o d ro wn u s a t o nc e, b ut e no ug h t o k il l u s

w it h t he w or k a t t he p um ps . A nd w hi le w e pu mp ed t he s hi p w as g oi ng f ro m u s pi ec em ea l: t he b ul wa rks

w en t, t he s ta nc hi on s w er e t or n o ut , t he v en ti la to rs s ma sh ed , t he c ab in -d oo r b ur st i n. T he re w as n ot a d ry

s po t i n t he s hi p. S he w as b ei ng g ut te d b it b y b it . T he l on g- bo at c ha ng ed , a s i f b y m ag ic , i nt o m at ch wo od

w he re s he s to od i n h er g ri pe s. I h ad l as he d h er m ys el f, a nd w as r at he r p ro ud o f m y h an di wo rk , w hi ch

ha d wi ths too d s o l ong t he ma li ce o f t he s ea . An d we p um pe d. A nd t he re w as n o br ea k i n t he we at he r.

The s ea wa s whi te l ike a s he et of f oa m, l ike a c al dr on of bo il ing m il k; t he re wa s not a br ea k i n t he c louds ,

n o- -n ot t he s iz e o f a m an 's h an d- -no , no t f or s o m uc h a s t en s ec ond s. T he re w as f or u s no s ky , t he re

w er e f or u s n o s ta rs , n o s un , n o u ni ve rs e- -n ot hi ng b ut a ng ry c lo ud s a nd a n i nf ur ia te d s ea . W e p um pe d

w at ch a nd w at ch , f or d ea r l if e; a nd i t s ee me d t o l as t f or m on th s, f or y ea rs , f or a ll e te rn it y, a s t ho ug h w e

ha d be en de ad a nd gon e t o a he ll f or s ai lo rs . W e f or go t t he d ay of t he we ek, t he n am e of t he m on th,

w ha t ye ar i t w as , a nd w he th er w e ha d e ve r b ee n a sho re . Th e s ai ls bl ew a wa y, s he l ay br oa ds id e on

u nde r a w ea th er -c lo th , t he o ce an p ou re d o ve r h er , a nd w e d id n ot c ar e. W e t ur ne d t ho se h an dl es , a nd

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had t he e ye s of i di ots . As s oon a s we ha d cr awle d on de ck I us ed t o ta ke a r ound t ur n wi th a rope about

t he m en , t he p um ps , a nd t he m ai nm as t, a nd w e t ur ne d, w e t ur ne d i nc es sa nt ly , w it h t he w at er t o o ur  

wai st s, to our nec ks , over our hea ds . I t was al l one . We ha d f or gott en how i t fe lt to be dry.

  " An d t here w as s om ew here i n m e t he t ho ug ht : B y J ov e! t hi s i s t he d eu ce o f an adv en tu re-- so meth in g y ou

r ea d a bo ut ; a nd i t i s my f ir st vo ya ge a s s ec on d m at e- - a nd I a m onl y t we nt y- -a nd h er e I a m l as ti ng i t ou t

as well as a ny of these men, and kee ping my c haps up to t he mark. I was plea sed. I would not ha veg iv en u p t he exp er ience f or w or ld s. I h ad m om en ts o f exu lt at io n. W henever t he o ld d is mant led craft

 pitched heavily with her counter high in the air, she seemed to me to throw up, like an appeal, like a

d ef ia nc e, l ik e a c ry t o t he c lo ud s w it ho ut m er cy , t he w or ds w ri tt en o n h er s te rn : ' Ju de a, L on do n. D o o r  

Die.'

  " O yo ut h! T he s tr en gt h o f i t, t he f ai th o f i t, t he i ma gi na ti on o f i t! T o m e s he w as n ot a n o ld r at tl e- tr ap

c ar ti ng a bout t he w or ld a l ot o f c oa l f or a f re ig ht -- to me s he w as t he e nde avor , t he t es t, t he t ri al of l if e. I

t hi nk o f h er w it h p le as ur e, w it h a ff ec ti on , w it h r egr et -- a s y ou w ou ld t hi nk o f s om eo ne d ea d y ou h av e

l ove d. I s ha ll n ev er f or ge t he r. . . . P as s t he b ot tl e.

  " On e n ig ht w he n t ie d t o t he m as t, a s I e xp la in ed , w e w er e p um pi ng o n, d ea fe ne d w it h t he w in d, a nd

w it ho ut s pi ri t e no ug h i n u s t o w is h o ur se lv es d ea d, a h ea vy s ea c ra sh ed a bo ar d a nd s we pt c le an o ve r u s.

A s s oon a s I go t my br ea th I s hout ed, a s i n d ut y bo und , ' Ke ep o n, bo ys !' w he n s udd enl y I f el t s om et hi ng

ha rd floa ting on deck s trike t he calf of my leg. I ma de a grab a t i t a nd missed. It wa s so dar k we could

n ot s ee e ac h o th er 's f ac es w it hi n a f oo t- -y ou u nd er st an d.

  " Af te r t ha t t hu mp t he s hi p k ep t q ui et f or a w hi le , a nd t he t hi ng , w ha te ve r i t w as , s tr uc k m y l eg a ga in. T hi s

t im e I cau gh t i t- -and i t w as a s au ce-p an . A t f ir st , b ei ng s tu pi d w it h f at ig ue and t hi nk in g o f n ot hi ng b ut t he

 pumps, I did not understand what I had in my hand. Suddenly it dawned upon me, and I shouted, 'Boys,

t he ho us e on de ck i s g on e. L ea ve t hi s, a nd l et 's l ook f or t he c oo k. '

  " Th er e w as a d ec k- ho us e f or wa rd , w hi ch c on ta in ed t he g al le y, t he c oo k' s b er th , a nd t he q ua rt er s o f t he

c re w. As w e ha d e xpec te d for da ys t o s ee it s we pt a wa y, t he ha nds had be en orde red t o s lee p i n the

cab in -- th e o nl y s af e p lace i n t he s hi p. T he s teward , A br ah am , h ow ev er , p er si st ed i n cli ng in g t o h is b er th ,

s tu pi dl y, l ik e a m ul e- -f ro m s heer f ri gh t I b el ieve, l ik e an ani mal t hat o n' t l eave a s tabl e f al li ng i n an

e ar thqua ke . S o we we nt t o l ook f or hi m. I t wa s c ha nc ing de at h, s in ce onc e ou t o f o ur l as hi ngs we w er e

a s e xp os ed a s i f o n a r af t. Bu t we w en t. T he h ou se w as s ha tt er ed a s i f a s he ll ha d e xpl ode d i ns ide . M os t

o f i t h ad g on e o ve rb oa rd -- st ov e, m en 's q ua rt er s, a nd t he ir p ro pe rt y, a ll w as g on e; b ut t wo p os ts , h ol di ng

a po rt ion o f t he bul khe ad t o wh ic h Ab ra ha m' s bun k w as a tt ac he d, r ema ine d a s i f b y a m ir - a cl e. W e

g ro pe d i n t he r ui ns a nd c am e u po n t hi s, a nd t he re h e w as , s it ti ng i n h is b un k, s ur ro un de d b y f oa m a nd

w reck ag e, j ab beri ng cheer fu ll y t o h im self . H e w as o ut o f h is m in d; com pl et el y and f or ever m ad , w it h t hi ss ud de n s ho ck c om in g u po n t he f ag -e nd o f h is e nd ur an ce . W e s na tc he d h im u p, l ug ge d h im a ft , a nd

 pitched him head-first down the cabin companion. You understand there was no time to carry him down

wi th i nf ini te pr e- c aut ions a nd w ait to s ee how he got on. Thos e b el ow woul d p ic k hi m up a t t he bot tom

of the s tairs al l ri ght. We were in a hurry to go back to the pumps. Tha t busi- ness could not wait. A bad

leak is an inhuman thing.

" One w oul d t hi nk t ha t t he s ol e pur pos e of t ha t f ie nd - i sh ga le ha d b ee n t o ma ke a l una ti c of t ha t poor  

de vi l of a m ul at to. I t e as ed be for e m or ni ng , a nd ne xt da y t he s ky c le ar ed, a nd a s t he s ea w en t d ow n t he

l ea k t oo k u p. W he n i t c am e t o b en di ng a f re sh s et of s ai ls t he c re w de ma nde d t o pu t ba ck -- and r ea ll y

t he re w as n ot hi ng e ls e t o d o. B oa ts g on e, d ec ks s we pt c le an , c ab in g ut te d, m en w it ho ut a s ti tc h b ut w ha t

t he y s to od i n, s to re s s po il ed , s hi p s tr ai ne d. W e p ut h er h ea d f or h om e, a nd -- wo ul d y ou b el ie ve i t? T he

w in d c am e e as t r ig ht i n o ur t ee th . I t b le w f re sh , i t b le w c on ti nu ou sl y. W e h ad t o b ea t u p e ve ry i nc h o f t he

w ay , b ut s he d id n ot l ea k s o b ad ly , t he w at er k ee pi ng c om pa ra ti ve ly s mo ot h. T wo h ou rs ' p um pi ng i n

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e ve ry f our i s no j oke -- bu t i t ke pt he r a fl oa t a s f ar a s Fa lm out h.

  " Th e goo d pe opl e t he re l ive o n c as ua lt ie s o f t he s ea , a nd no d ou bt we re gl ad t o s ee us . A hu ngr y c ro wd

o f s hi pw ri gh ts s ha rp en ed t he ir c hi se ls a t t he s ig ht o f t ha t c ar ca ss o f a s hi p. A nd , b y J ov e! t he y h ad p re tt y

 pick- ings off us before they were done. I fancy the owner was already in a tight place. There were

d el ay s. T he n i t wa s d ec ide d t o t ak e pa rt of t he c ar go o ut a nd c al k he r t op si de s. Th is w as do ne , t he

r ep ai rs f in is he d, c ar go r e- s hi pp ed ; a n ew c re w c am e on b oa rd , a nd w e w ent o ut -- f or B an ko k. A t t hee nd o f a we ek w e w er e ba ck a ga in. Th e c re w s ai d t he y we re n' t g oi ng t o B ank ok -- a hun dr ed a nd f if ty

d ay s' p as sage-- in a s om et hi ng h oo ker t hat w an ted p um pi ng eig ht h ou rs o ut o f t he t went y- fo ur ; and t he

n au ti ca l p ap er s i ns er te d a ga in t he l it tl e p ar a- g ra ph : ' Ju de a. B ar k. T yn e t o B an ko k; c oa ls ; p ut b ac k t o

Falmouth leaky and with crew refusing duty.'

  " Th er e w er e m or e d el ay s- -m or e t in ke ri ng . T he o wn er c am e d ow n f or a d ay , a nd s ai d s he w as a s r ig ht

a s a l it tl e f id dl e. P oo r o ld C ap ta in B ea rd l oo ke d l ik e t he g ho st o f a G eo rd ie s ki pp er -- th ro ug h t he w or ry

a nd hu mi li at io n o f i t. Re me mb er h e w as s ix ty , a nd i t w as h is f ir st c omm and . M ah on s ai d i t w as a f oo li sh

 business, and would end badly. I loved the ship more than ever, and wanted awfully to get to Bankok.

T o B an ko k! M ag ic n am e, b le ss ed n am e. M es op ot am ia w as n' t a p at ch n i t. R em em be r I w as t we nt y, a ndi t w as m y f ir st s ec on d m at e' s b il le t, a nd t he E as t w as w ai ti ng f or m e.

" We w ent o ut a nd a nc ho re d i n t he o ut er r oa ds w it h a f re sh c re w- -t he t hi rd. Sh e l ea ke d w or se t ha n e ve r.

I t w as a s i f t ho se c on fo un de d s hi pw ri gh ts h ad a ct ua ll y m ade a h ol e i n h er . T hi s t im e w e di d n ot e ve n g o

o ut si de. T he crew s im pl y r ef us ed t o m an t he w in dl as s.

" The y t ow ed u s b ac k t o t he i nne r ha rbor , a nd we be - c am e a f ixt ur e, a f ea tur e, a n i ns ti tut ion of t he

 place. People pointed us out to visitors as 'That 'ere bark that's going to Bankok--has been here six

m on th s- -p ut b ack t hr ee t im es .' O n h ol id ay s t he s mall b oy s p ul li ng abo ut i n b oats w ou ld h ai l, ' Ju dea,

a ho y! ' a nd i f a he ad s ho we d a bo ve t he r ai l s ho ut ed , ' Wh er e y ou b ou nd t o? -- B an ko k? ' a nd j ee re d. W e

w er e o nl y t hr ee o n b oa rd . T he p oo r o ld s ki pp er m oo ne d i n t he c ab in . M ah on u n- d er to ok t he c oo ki ng ,and unexpectedly developed all a Frenchman's genius for preparing nice little messes. I looked languidly

a ft er t he r ig gi ng . W e b ec am e c it iz en s o f F al mo ut h. E ve ry s ho pk ee pe r k ne w u s. A t t he b ar - b er 's o r  

t ob acco ni st 's t hey ask ed f am il iarl y, ' Do y ou t hi nk y ou w il l ever g et t o B an ko k?' M eant im e t he o wn er , t he

u nd er wr it er s, a nd t he c ha rt er er s s qu ab bl ed a mo ng st t he ms el ve s i n L on do n, a nd o ur p ay w en t o n. . . .

P as s t he b ot tl e.

  " I t w as h or ri d. M or al ly i t w as w or se t ha n p um pi ng f or l if e. I t s ee me d a s t ho ug h w e h ad b ee n f or go tt en

 by the world, belonged to nobody, would get nowhere; it seemed that, as if bewitched, we would have

t o l ive f or e ve r a nd e ve r i n t ha t i nne r ha rb or , a de ri si on a nd a by - w or d t o ge ne ra ti ons of l ong- shor e

l oa fe rs a nd d is ho ne st b oa tm en . I o bt ai ne d t hr ee m on th s' p ay a nd a f iv e d ay s' l ea ve , a nd m ad e a r us h f or  L on don . I t t oo k m e a d ay t o g et t he re a nd pr et ty w el l a not he r t o c om e b ac k- -b ut t hr ee m on th s' p ay w en t

a ll th e s am e. I d on' t k now wha t I d id w it h i t. I w ent t o a mus ic -ha ll , I be li eve , l unc he d, di ne d, a nd s upp ed

i n a s we ll pl ac e i n Re ge nt S tr ee t, a nd wa s ba ck t o t im e, wi th not hi ng b ut a c om pl et e s et of Byr on' s w or ks

a nd a ne w r ail way r ug t o s how for thr ee m ont hs' wor k. The boa tma n who pull ed me of f t o t he s hi p s ai d:

' Ha ll o! I t ho ug ht y ou h ad l ef t t he o ld t hi ng . S HE w il l n ev er g et t o B an ko k. ' ' Th at 's a ll Y OU k no w a bo ut

i t, ' I s ai d s co rn fu ll y- -b ut I d id n' t l ik e t ha t p ro ph - e cy a t a ll .

  " Su dd en ly a m an , s om e k in d o f a ge nt t o s om eb od y, a pp ea re d w it h f ul l p ow er s. H e h ad g ro g b lo ss om s

a ll o ve r h is f ac e, a n i nd om it ab le e ne rgy , a nd w as a j ol ly s ou l. W e l ea pe d i nt o l if e a ga in . A h ul k c am e

a lo ng - s id e, t oo k o ur c ar go , a nd t he n w e w en t i nt o d ry do ck t o g et o ur c op pe r s tr ipp ed . N o w ond er s he

l ea ke d. T he p oo r t hi ng , s tr ai ne d b ey on d e nd ur an ce b y t he g al e, h ad , a s i f i n d is gu st , s pa t o ut a ll t he

o ak um o f h er l ow er s ea ms . S he w as r ec al ke d, n ew c op pe re d, a nd m ad e a s t ig ht a s a b ot tl e. W e w en t

 back to the hulk and re- shipped our cargo.

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  " Th en o n a f in e m oo nl ig ht n ig ht , all t he r at s l ef t t he s hi p.

  " We h ad b ee n i nf es te d w it h t he m. T he y h ad d es tr oy ed o ur s ai ls , c on su me d m or e s to re s t ha n t he c re w,

a ff ab ly s ha re d o ur b ed s a nd o ur d an ge rs , a nd n ow , w he n t he s hi p w as m ad e s ea wo rt hy , c on cl ud ed t o

c le ar o ut . I c al le d M ah on t o e nj oy t he s pe ct ac le . R at a ft er r at a p- pe ar ed o n ou r r ai l, t oo k a l as t l oo k  

o ve r h is s ho ul de r, a nd l ea pe d w it h a h ol lo w t hu d i nt o t he e mp ty h ul k. W e t ri ed t o c ou nt t he m, b ut s oo nl os t t he t al e. M ah on s ai d: ' We ll , w el l! d on' t t al k t o m e a bo ut t he i nt el li ge nc e o f r at s. T he y o ug ht t o ha ve

l ef t b ef or e, w he n w e h ad t ha t n ar ro w s qu ea k f ro m f ou nde ri ng . T he re y ou h av e t he p ro of h ow s il ly i s t he

s up er st it io n a bo ut t he m. T he y l ea ve a g oo d s hi p f or a n o ld r ot te n h ul k, w he re t he re i s n ot hi ng t o e at , t oo ,

the f ool s! . . . I don' t beli eve they know wha t i s safe or wha t is good for them, any more tha n you or I.'

  " An d a ft er s om e m or e t al k w e a gr ee d t ha t t he w is do m o f r at s h ad b ee n g ro ss ly o ve rr at ed , b ei ng i n f ac t

n o g re at er t ha n t ha t o f m en .

" Th e s tor y of t he s hi p wa s k nown, by t hi s, a ll up t he C ha nne l f rom La nd' s End t o t he For el and s, a nd w e

c oul d ge t no c re w o n t he s out h c oa st . T he y s ent us one a ll c ompl et e f rom Li ve rpo ol , a nd we l ef t onc emore--for Bankok.

  " We h ad f ai r b re ez es , s mo ot h w at er r ig ht i nt o t he t ro pi cs , a nd t he o ld J ud ea l um be re d a lo ng i n t he s un -

s hi ne . W he n s he w en t e ig ht k no ts e ve ry th in g c ra ck ed a lo ft , a nd w e t ie d o ur c ap s t o o ur h ea ds ; b ut m os tl y

s he s tr ol le d on a t t he r at e of t hr ee m il es a n ho ur . Wh at c oul d y ou e xpe ct ? S he w as t ir ed- -t ha t ol d s hi p.

H er y ou th w as w here m in e i s- -w here y ou rs i s- -y ou f el lo ws w ho l is ten t o t hi s y ar n; and w hat f ri en d w ou ld

t hr ow y our y ea rs a nd your we ar in es s i n yo ur f ac e? W e d idn' t gr um bl e a t he r. T o u s a ft , a t l ea st , i t

s ee me d a s t hou gh we ha d be en b or n i n he r, r ea re d i n h er , ha d l iv ed i n h er f or a ge s, ha d n eve r kno wn a ny

o th er s hi p. I w ou ld j us t a s s oo n h av e a bu se d t he o ld v il la ge c hu rc h a t h om e f or n ot b ei ng a c at he dr al .

  " And f or m e t he re wa s a ls o my you th t o ma ke m e p a- t ie nt . T he re wa s a ll t he Ea st be for e me , a nd a lll if e, a nd t he t hought tha t I ha d be en tr ie d i n t hat s hi p a nd ha d c ome out pre tt y we ll. And I t hought of m en

of ol d who , c ent ur ie s a go , w ent t ha t r oa d i n s hi ps t ha t s ai le d no b et te r, t o t he l and of pa lm s, a nd s pi ce s,

a nd y el lo w s an ds , a nd o f b ro wn n at io ns r ul ed b y k in gs m or e c ru el t ha n N er o t he R om an a nd m or e

s pl en di d t ha n S ol om on t he J ew . T he o ld b ar k l um be re d o n, h ea vy w it h h er a ge a nd t he b ur de n o f h er  

car go , w hi le I l iv ed t he l if e o f y ou th i n i gn or an ce and h op e. S he l um bered o n t hr ou gh an i nt er mi nabl e

 procession of days; and the fresh gild- ing flashed back at the setting sun, seemed to cry out over the

d ar ke ni ng s ea t he w or ds p ai nt ed o n h er s te rn , ' Ju de a, L on do n. D o o r D ie .'

  " Th en w e e nt er ed t he I nd ia n O ce an a nd s te er ed n or th - e rl y f or J av a H ea d. T he w in ds w er e l ig ht . W ee ks

s li ppe d b y. S he c ra wl ed o n, d o o r di e, a nd p eo pl e a t h om e b eg an t o t hi nk o f po st in g u s a s ov er due .

" On e Sa tur da y e ve nin g, I be ing of f dut y, t he me n a ske d me t o gi ve t he m a n e xtr a buc ke t of w at er or  

s o- - f or w as hi ng c lo th es . A s I d id n ot wi sh t o s cr ew o n t he f re sh -w at er p um p s o l at e, I w ent f or wa rd

w hi st li ng , a nd w it h a k ey i n m y h an d t o u nl oc k t he f or ep ea k s cu tt le , i nt en di ng t o s er ve t he w at er ou t o f a

s pa re t an k w e k ep t t he re .

" Th e s me ll d ow n b el ow w as a s u ne xp ec te d a s i t w as f ri gh tf ul . O ne w ou ld h av e t ho ug ht h un dr ed s o f p ar -

a ff in -l am ps h ad b ee n f la ri ng a nd s mo ki ng i n t ha t h ol e f or d ay s. I wa s gl ad t o g et o ut . T he m an w it h m e

c ou gh ed a nd s ai d, ' Fu nn y s me ll , s ir .' I a ns we re d n eg li - g en tl y, ' It 's g oo d f or t he h ea lt h, t he y s ay ,' a nd

walked aft.

"The f ir st t hing I di d wa s t o put my he ad down the s qua re of the mi ds hi p ve nti lat or. As I l if te d t he l id a

v is ib le b reat h, s om et hi ng l ik e a t hi n f og , a p uf f o f f ai nt h aze, r os e f ro m t he o peni ng . T he ascen di ng air w as

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h ot , a nd h ad a h ea vy , s oo ty, p ar af fi ny s me ll . I g av e o ne s ni ff , a nd p ut d ow n t he l id g en tl y. I t w as n o u se

c ho ki ng m y- s el f. T he c ar go w as o n f ir e.

"Next day she be ga n t o s moke i n e ar ne st . You s ee it wa s t o be e xpec te d, f or though the c oa l wa s of a

s af e k in d, t ha t c ar go h ad b ee n s o h an dl ed , s o b ro ke n u p w it h h an dl in g, t ha t i t l oo ke d m or e l ik e s mi th y

c oa l t ha n a ny - t hi ng e ls e. T he n i t h ad b ee n w et te d- -m or e t ha n o nc e. I t r ai ne d a ll t he t im e w e w er e t ak in g

i t ba ck f rom t he hu lk, a nd no w w it h t hi s l ong pa ss age i t g ot h ea te d, a nd t he re wa s a not he r c as e of                  spontaneous combustion.

" Th e c apt ai n c al le d u s i nt o t he c abi n. He h ad a c ha rt s pr ea d o n t he t abl e, a nd l ook ed un ha ppy . H e s ai d,

' Th e c oa st o f W es t A us tr al ia i s n ea r, b ut I m ea n t o p ro ce ed t o o ur d es ti na ti on . I t i s t he h ur ri ca ne m on th

t oo; but we wi ll j us t ke ep he r he ad f or B ankok , a nd f ig ht t he f ir e. No mo re pu tt ing b ac k a nywhe re , i f we

a ll g et r oa st ed . W e w il l t ry f ir st t o s ti fl e t hi s ' er e d am ne d c om bu st ion b y w an t o f a ir .'

  " We t ri ed . W e b at tened d ow n every th in g, and s ti ll s he s mo ked. T he s mo ke k ep t com in g o ut t hr ou gh i m-

 perceptible crevices; it forced itself through bulkheads and covers; it oozed here and there and

every wh er e i n s lend er t hr eads , i n an i nv is ib le f il m, i n an i ncom pr eh en - s ib le m an ner. I t m ad e i ts w ay i nt ot he c ab in , i nt o t he f or ec as tl e; i t p oi so ne d t he s he lt er ed p la ce s o n t he d ec k, i t c ou ld b e s ni ff ed a s h ig h a s

t he m ai ny ar d. I t w as c le ar t ha t i f t he s mo ke c am e o ut t he a ir c am e i n. T hi s w as d is he ar te ni ng . T hi s

combustion refused to be stifled.

  " We r es ol ved t o t ry w at er , and t oo k t he h at ch es o ff . E no rm ou s v ol um es o f s mo ke, w hi ti sh , y el lo wi sh ,

t hi ck , g re as y, m is ty , c ho ki ng , a sc en de d a s h ig h a s t he t ru ck s. A ll h an ds c le ar ed o ut a ft . T he n t he

 poisonous cloud blew away, and we went back to work in a smoke that was no thicker now than that of         

an ordinary factory chimney.

  " We r igg ed t he f or ce pu mp, g ot t he hos e a lo ng , a nd by -a nd- by i t bu rs t. W el l, i t wa s a s ol d a s t he

s hi p- -a p re hi st or ic h os e, a nd p as t r ep ai r. T he n w e p um pe d w it h t he f ee bl e h ea d- pu mp , d re w w at er w it h buckets, and in this way managed in time to pour lots of Indian Ocean into the main hatch. The bright

s tr ea m f la sh ed i n s un - s hi ne , f el l i nt o a l aye r o f w hi te c ra wl in g s mo ke , a nd va n- i sh ed on t he bl ac k s ur fa ce

o f c oa l. S te am a sc en de d m in gl in g w it h t he s mo ke . W e p ou re d s al t w at er a s i nt o a b ar re l w it ho ut a

 bottom. It was our fate to pump in that ship, to pump out of her, to pump into her; and after keeping

w at er o ut o f h er t o s av e o ur se lv es f ro m b ei ng d ro wn ed , w e f ra nt ic al ly p ou re d w at er i nt o h er t o s av e

ourselves from being burnt.

  " And s he c ra wl ed on, d o o r d ie , i n t he s er en e w ea the r. The s ky w as a m ir ac le of pur it y, a m ir ac le of                  

a zu re . T he s ea w as p ol is he d, w as b lu e, w as p el lu ci d, w as s pa rk - l in g l ik e a p re ci ou s s to ne , e xt en di ng o n

a ll s id es , a ll r ou nd t o t he h or iz on -- as i f t he w ho le t er re st ri al g lo be h ad b ee n o ne j ew el , o ne c ol os sa ls ap ph ir e, a s in gl e g em f as hi on ed i nt o a p la ne t. A nd o n t he l us te r o f t he g re at c al m w at er s t he J ud ea g li de d

i mp er cept ib ly , env el op ed i n l an gu id and u nclean v ap or s, i n a l azy clo ud t hat d ri ft ed t o l eeward , l ig ht and

s lo w: a p es ti fero us clo ud d ef il in g t he s pl en do r o f s ea and s ky .

  " Al l t hi s t im e o f c ou rs e w e s aw n o f ir e. T he c ar go s mo ld er ed a t t he b ot to m s om ew he re . O nc e M ah on ,

a s we we re wor ki ng s ide by si de , s ai d t o me wi th a que er s mi le : ' Now , i f s he onl y woul d s pr ing a t idy

l ea k- - l ik e t ha t t im e w he n w e f ir st l ef t t he C ha nn el -- it w ou ld p ut a s to pp er o n t hi s f ir e. W ou ld n' t i t? ' I

r em ar ked i rr el ev an tl y, ' Do y ou r em em ber t he r at s ?'

  " We f ou ght t he f ir e a nd s ai le d t he s hi p t oo a s c ar ef ul ly a s t ho ug h n ot hi ng h ad b ee n t he m at te r. T he

s te wa rd c oo ke d a nd a tt en de d o n u s. O f t he o th er t we lv e m en , e ig ht w or ke d w hi le f ou r r es te d. E ve ry on e

t oo k h is t ur n, c ap ta in i nc lu de d. T he re w as e qu al it y, a nd i f n ot e xa ct ly f ra te rn it y, t he n a d ea l o f g oo d

f ee li ng . S om e- t im es a m an , a s h e d as he d a b uc ke tf ul o f w at er d ow n t he h at ch wa y, w ou ld y el l o ut ,

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t he t op s te p. I s ta re d a t hi m i n u nbe li ef , a nd h e s ta re d a t m e wi th a qu ee r ki nd o f s hoc ke d c ur io si ty. I d id

n ot k no w t ha t I h ad n o h ai r, n o e ye br ow s, n o e ye la sh es , t ha t m y y ou ng m us ta ch e w as b ur nt o ff , t ha t m y

f ac e wa s bl ac k, on e c he ek l ai d ope n, m y nos e c ut , a nd my c hi n bl ee di ng. I ha d l os t m y c ap, one of my

s li ppe rs , a nd m y s hi rt wa s t or n t o r ag s. Of a ll t hi s I w as not a wa re . I wa s a ma ze d t o s ee t he s hi p s ti ll

a fl oa t, t he po op -de ck w ho le -- and , m os t o f a ll , t o s ee a ny bod y a li ve . A ls o t he p ea ce of t he s ky a nd t he

s er en it y o f t he s ea w er e i st in ct ly s ur pr is in g. I s up po se I e xp ec te d t o s ee t he m c on vu ls ed w it h h or ro r. . . .

P as s t he b ot tl e.

" Th er e w as a v oi ce h ai li ng t he s hi p f ro m s om ew he re - -i n t he a ir , i n t he s ky -- I c ou ld n' t t el l. P re se nt ly I

s aw t he c apt ai n- -a nd h e w as m ad . H e a sk ed m e e ag er ly , ' Wh er e' s t he c abi n- ta bl e? ' a nd t o h ea r s uc h a

q ue st io n w as a f ri gh tf ul s ho ck . I h ad j us t b ee n b lo wn u p, y ou u nd er st an d, a nd v ib ra te d w it h t ha t

e xp er ie nc e, -- I w as n' t q ui te s ur e w he th er I w as a li ve . M ah on b eg an t o s ta mp w it h b ot h f ee t a nd y el le d a t

hi m, ' Good G od! do n' t y ou s ee t he d ec k' s b low n ou t of he r? ' I f oun d my voi ce , a nd s ta mm er ed out a s i f                  

c on sc io us o f s om e g ro ss n eg le ct o f d ut y, ' I d on 't k no w w he re t he c ab in -t ab le i s. ' I t w as l ik e a n a bs ur d

dream.

" Do you know wha t he w ant ed ne xt ? We ll , he wa nt ed t o t ri m t he ya rds . Ve ry pl ac idl y, a nd a s i f l os t i nt ho ug ht , h e i ns is ted o n h av in g t he f or ey ar d s qu ar ed . ' I d on 't k no w i f t here's any bo dy ali ve,' s aid M ah on ,

alm os t t earf ul ly . ' Su rely ,' h e s ai d g en tl y, ' th er e w il l b e eno ug h l ef t t o s qu ar e t he f or ey ar d. '

  " Th e o ld c ha p, i t s ee ms , w as i n h is o wn b er th , w in d- i ng u p t he c hr on om et er s, w he n t he s ho ck s en t h im

s pi n- n in g. I mm ed iately i t o ccur red t o h im -- as h e s ai d aft er - w ar ds -- th at t he s hi p h ad s tr uck s om et hi ng ,

a nd h e r an o ut i nt o t he c ab in . T he re , h e s aw , t he c ab in -t ab le h ad v an is he d s om ew he re . T he d ec k b ei ng

 blown up, it had fallen down into the lazarette of course. Where we had our breakfast that morning he

s aw o nl y a g re at h ol e i n t he f lo or . T hi s a pp ea re d t o hi m s o a wf ul ly m ys te ri ou s, a nd i mpr es se d h im s o

i mm en se ly , t ha t w ha t h e s aw a nd h ea rd a ft er h e g ot o n d ec k w er e m er e t ri fl es i n c om - p ar is on . A nd ,

m ar k, h e n ot ic ed d ir ec tl y t he w he el d e- s er te d a nd h is b ar k o ff h er c ou rs e- -a nd h is o nl y t ho ug ht w as t o

g et t hat m is er ab le, s tr ip ped, u nd ecked, s mo ld er in g s hell o f a s hi p b ack again w it h h er h ead p oi nt in g at h er   port of destination. Bankok! That's what he was after. I tell you this quiet, bowed, bandy- legged, almost

d ef or med l it tl e m an w as i mm en se i n t he s in gl en es s o f h is i dea and i n h is p laci d i gn or an ce o f o ur agi tati on .

H e m ot io ne d u s f or wa rd w it h a c om - m an di ng g es tu re , a nd w en t t o t ak e t he w he el h im - s el f.

  " Ye s; t ha t w as t he f ir st t hi ng w e d id -- tr im t he y ar ds o f t ha t w re ck ! N o o ne w as k il le d, o r e ve n d is ab le d,

 but everyone was more or less hurt. You should have seen them! Some were in rags, with black faces,

l ik e c oa l- h ea ve rs , l ik e s we ep s, a nd h ad b ul le t h ea ds t ha t s ee me d c lo se ly c ro pp ed , b ut w er e i n f ac t

s in ge d t o t he s ki n. O th er s, o f t he w at ch b el ow , a wa ke ne d b y b ei ng s ho t o ut f ro m t he ir c ol la ps in g b un ks ,

s hi ve re d i nc es sa nt ly , a nd k ep t o n g ro an in g e ve n a s w e w en t a bo ut o ur w or k. B ut t he y a ll w or ke d. T ha t

c re w o f L iv er po ol h ar d c as es h ad i n t he m t he r ig ht s tu ff . I t' s m y e xp er ie nc e t he y a lw ay s h av e. I t i s t he s eat hat g iv es i t- -t he v as tn es s, t he l on e- l in es s s ur ro un di ng t heir d ar k s to li d s ou ls . A h! W el l! w e s tu mb led, w e

c re pt , w e f el l, we ba rk ed ou r s hi ns on t he w re ck ag e, w e h aul ed . T he m as ts s too d, b ut we di d n ot kn ow

h ow m uc h t he y m ig ht b e c ha rr ed do wn b el ow . I t w as n ea rl y c al m, b ut a l on g s we ll r an f ro m t he w es t a nd

m ad e h er r ol l. T he y m ig ht g o a t a ny m om en t. W e l oo ke d a t t he m w it h a pp re he ns io n. O ne c ou ld n ot f or e-

s ee w hi ch w ay t hey w ou ld f al l.

  " The n w e r et re at ed a ft a nd l oo ke d a bou t u s. Th e d ec k w as a t an gl e o f p la nk s o n e dg e, o f p la nk s o n e nd ,

o f s pl in te rs , o f r ui ne d w oo dw or k. T he m as ts r os e f ro m t ha t c ha os l ik e b ig t re es a bo ve a m at te d

undergrowth. The interstices of that mass of wreckage were full of something whitish, sluggish, stirring--of         

s om et hi ng t hat w as l ik e a g reas y f og . T he s mo ke o f t he i nv is ib le f ir e w as com in g u p again , w as t rail in g,

l ik e a p oi so no us t hi ck m is t i n s om e v al ley cho ked w it h d ead w oo d. A lr eady l azy w is ps w er e b eg in ni ng t o

c ur l u pw ar ds a mo ng st t he m as s o f s pl in te rs . H er e a nd t he re a p ie ce o f t im be r, s tu ck u pr ig ht , r es em bl ed a

 post. Half of a fife-rail had been shot through the foresail, and the sky made a patch of glorious blue in

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t he i gn ob ly s oi led can vas. A p or ti on o f s ev er al b oard s h ol di ng t og et her h ad f al len acr os s t he r ai l, and o ne

end p ro tr ud ed o verb oard , l ik e a g an gw ay l eadi ng u po n n ot hi ng , l ik e a g an gw ay l eadi ng o ver t he d eep

s ea , l ea di ng t o d ea th -- as i f i nv it in g u s t o w al k t he p la nk a t o nc e a nd b e d on e w it h o ur r id ic ul ou s t ro ub le s.

A nd s ti ll t he air , t he s ky -- a g ho st , s om et hi ng i nv is ib le w as h ai li ng t he s hi p.

  " So meon e h ad t he s en se t o l oo k o ver, and t here w as t he h el ms man, w ho h ad i mp ul si vely j um ped

o ve rb oa rd , a nx io us t o c om e b ac k. H e y el le d a nd s wa m l us ti ly l ik e a m er ma n, k ee pi ng u p w it h t he s hi p.W e t hr ew h im a r op e, a nd p re se nt ly h e s to od a mo ng st u s s tr ea mi ng w it h w at er a nd v er y c re st -f al le n. T he

c ap ta in h ad s ur re n- d er ed t he w he el , a nd a pa rt , e lb ow o n r ai l a nd c hi n i n h an d, g az ed a t t he s ea w is tf ul ly .

W e a sk ed o ur se lv es , W ha t n ex t? I t ho ug ht , N ow , t hi s i s s om et hi ng l ik e. T hi s i s g re at . I w on de r w ha t w il l

h ap pen. O y ou th !

  " Su dd en ly M ah on s ig ht ed a s te am er f ar a st er n. C ap - t ai n B ea rd s ai d, ' We m ay d o s om et hi ng w it h h er  

y et .' W e h oi st ed t wo f lags , w hi ch s ai d i n t he i nt er nati on al l an gu ag e o f t he s ea, ' On f ir e. W an t i mm ed iate

a ss is - t an ce .' T he s te am er g re w b ig ge r r ap id ly , a nd b y- an d- b y s po ke w it h t wo f la gs o n h er f or em as t, ' I

am com in g t o y ou r ass is tance. '

  " In h al f an h ou r s he w as abr east , t o w in dw ar d, w it hi n h ai l, and r ol li ng s li gh tl y, w it h h er eng in es s to pp ed .

W e l os t o ur c om po su re , a nd y el le d a ll t og et he r w it h e xc it e- m en t, ' We 'v e b ee n b lo wn u p. ' A m an i n a

w hi te h el me t, o n t he b ri dg e, c ri ed , ' Ye s! A ll r ig ht ! a ll r ig ht !' a nd h e no dd ed h is h ea d, a nd s mi le d, a nd

m ad e s oo th in g m o- t io ns w it h h is h an d a s t ho ug h a t a l ot o f f ri gh te ne d c hi l- d re n. O ne o f t he b oa ts

d rop pe d i n t he wa te r, a nd w al ke d t ow ar ds us u pon t he s ea w it h h er l on g o ar s. Fo ur Ca la sh es pu ll ed a

s wi ng in g s tr ok e. T hi s w as m y f ir st s ig ht o f M al ay s eamen. I 'v e k no wn t hem s in ce, b ut w hat s tr uck m e

t hen w as t heir u ncon cern : t hey cam e alo ng si de, and even t he b ow man s tand in g u p and h ol di ng t o o ur  

m ai n- ch ai ns w it h t he b oa t- ho ok d id n ot d ei gn t o l if t h is h ea d f or a g la nc e. I t ho ug ht p eo pl e w ho h ad b ee n

 blown up deserved more attention.

  " A l it tl e ma n, dr y l ike a c hi p a nd a gi le l ike a monk ey, c la mbe re d up. I t wa s t he ma te of t he s te ame r. Heg av e o ne l oo k, a nd c ri ed , ' O b oy s- -y ou h ad b et te r q ui t. '

  "W e w er e s il en t. H e t al ke d a pa rt w it h t he c ap ta in f or a t im e, -- se em ed t o a rg ue w it h h im . T he n t he y w en t

a wa y t og et he r t o t he s te am er .

" Wh en o ur s ki pp er c am e b ac k w e l ea rn ed t ha t t he s te am er w as t he S om me rv il le , C ap ta in N as h, f ro m

W es t A us tr al ia t o S in ga po re v ia B at av ia w it h m ai ls , a nd t ha t t he a gr ee me nt w as s he s ho ul d t ow u s t o

A nj er o r B a- t av ia , i f p os si bl e, w he re w e c ou ld e xt in gu is h t he f ir e b y s cu tt li ng , a nd t he n p ro ce ed o n o ur  

v oy ag e- -t o B an ko k! T he o ld m an s ee me d e xc it ed . ' We w il l d o i t y et ,' h e s ai d t o M ah on , f ie rc el y. H e

s ho ok h is f is t a t t he s ky. N ob od y e ls e s ai d a w or d.

  " At noo n t he s te am er be ga n t o t ow . She we nt a he ad s li m a nd hi gh, a nd wh at w as l ef t of t he J ude a

f ol lo wed at t he end o f s ev en ty f at ho m o f t ow -r op e, -- fo ll ow ed h er s wi ft ly l ik e a clo ud o f s mo ke w it h

m as th ea ds p ro - t ru di ng a bo ve . W e w en t a lo ft t o f ur l t he s ai ls . W e c ou gh ed o n t he y ar ds , a nd w er e

c ar ef ul a bout th e bunt s. Do y ou s ee t he l ot of us t he re , put ti ng a ne at f ur l on t he s ai ls of t ha t s hi p doo me d

t o a rr iv e n ow he re ? T he re w as n ot a m an w ho d id n' t t hi nk t ha t a t a ny m om en t t he m as ts w ou ld t op pl e

o ve r. F ro m a lo ft w e c ou ld n ot s ee t he s hi p f or s mo ke , a nd t he y w or ke d c ar ef ul ly , p as si ng t he g as ke ts

w it h even t ur ns . ' Har bo r f ur l- -alo ft t here!' cri ed M ah on f ro m b el ow .

"Y ou un de rs ta nd t hi s? I don' t t hi nk one of t ho se c ha ps e xpe ct ed t o g et d own i n t he us ua l wa y. Wh en we

di d I he ar d t he m s ay ing t o e ac h ot he r, ' We ll , I t houg ht we wo ul d c ome do wn ov er boa rd , i n a l um p- -

s ti ck s and all -- bl am e m e i f I d id n' t. ' ' Th at 's w hat I w as t hi nk in g t o m ys el f, ' w ou ld ans wer w eari ly ano th er  

 battered and bandaged scarecrow. And, mind, these were men without the drilled-in habit of obedience.

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T o a n o nl oo ke r t he y w ou ld b e a l ot o f p ro fa ne s ca ll yw ag s w it ho ut a r ed ee mi ng p oi nt . W ha t m ad e t he m

d o i t- - w ha t m ad e t he m o be y m e w he n I , t hi nk in g c on sc io us ly h ow f in e i t w as , m ad e t he m d ro p t he b un t

o f t he f or es ai l t wi ce t o t ry a nd d o i t b et te r? W ha t? T he y h ad n o p ro - f es si on al r ep ut at io n- -n o e xa mp le s,

n o p ra is e. I t w as n' t a s en se o f d ut y; t he y a ll k ne w w el l e no ug h h ow t o s hi rk , a nd l az e, a nd d od ge -- wh en

t he y ha d a mi nd t o i t- -a nd mo st ly t he y h ad. W as i t t he t wo poun ds t en a mo nt h t ha t s ent t he m t he re ?

T hey d id n' t t hi nk t heir p ay h al f g oo d eno ug h. N o; i t w as s om et hi ng i n t hem, s om et hi ng i nb or n and s ub tl e

a nd e ve rl as ti ng . I d on 't s ay p os i- t iv el y t ha t t he c re w o f a F re nc h o r G er ma n m er ch an t- m an w ou ld n' tha ve d one i t, b ut I do ubt w he the r i t wo ul d h av e be en do ne i n t he s am e w ay . Th er e w as a c om pl et e- n es s

in it, something solid like a principle, and masterful like an instinct--a disclosure of something secret--of         

t hat h id den s om et hi ng , t hat g if t, o f g oo d o r evi l t hat m ak es r acial d if ference, t hat s hapes t he f at e o f                  

nations.

  " It wa s t hat ni ght at t en t ha t, f or the f irs t t im e si nc e we had be en f ight ing it , we s aw t he fi re . The s pee d of                  

t he t ow in g h ad f an ned t he s mo ld er in g d es tr ucti on . A b lu e g leam app eared f or ward , s hi ni ng b el ow t he

w re ck of t he de ck. I t wa ve re d i n p at che s, i t s ee me d t o s ti r a nd c re ep l ike t he l ight o f a gl oww or m. I s aw

i t f ir st , a nd t ol d M ahon . ' Th en t he ga me 's up ,' he s ai d. ' We h ad be tt er s to p t hi s t ow ing, o r s he wi ll bur st

ou t s udde nl y f or e a nd a ft b ef or e w e c an c le ar ou t.' W e s et u p a y el l; r ang b el ls t o a tt ra ct t he ir a tt ent ion;they towe d on. At la st Ma hon a nd I ha d to cr awl forwar d a nd c ut the rope wi th a n a x. Ther e was no

t im e t o cas t o ff t he l as hi ng s. R ed t on gu es cou ld b e s een l icki ng t he w il dern es s o f s pl in ters u nd er o ur f eet

as we ma de our way back to the poop.

  "O f c ou rs e t he y v er y s oo n f oun d o ut i n t he s te ame r t ha t t he r op e w as go ne . S he ga ve a l oud bl as t o f h er  

w hi st le, h er l ig ht s w er e s een s weep in g i n a w id e cir cl e, s he cam e u p r an gi ng clo se alo ng si de, and

s top pe d. W e w er e a ll i n a t ig ht g roup on t he p oop l ooki ng a t he r. E ve ry ma n ha d s ave d a l it tl e b undl e or  

a ba g. Su dd enl y a c on- i ca l f la me w it h a t wi st ed t op s hot up f or wa rd a nd t hr ew u po n t he bl ac k s ea a

c ir cl e of l ig ht , w it h t he t wo v es se ls s id e b y s id e a nd h ea vi ng g en tl y i n i ts c en te r. C ap ta in B ea rd ha d b ee n

s it ti ng o n t he g ra ti ng s s ti ll a nd m ut e f or h ou rs , b ut no w h e r os e s lo wl y a nd a dva nc ed i n f ro nt of u s, t o t he

m izzen -s hr ou ds . C ap tain N as h h ai led: ' Co me alo ng ! L oo k s harp . I h av e m ai l- bags o n b oard . I w il l t ak ey ou a nd y ou r b oa ts t o S in ga po re .'

  " 'T ha nk y ou ! N o! ' s ai d o ur s ki ppe r. ' We m us t s ee t he l as t o f t he s hi p. '

" 'I c an 't s ta nd b y a ny l on ge r, ' s ho ut ed t he o th er . ' Ma il s- -y ou k no w. '

  "' Ay ! a y! W e a re a ll r ig ht .'

  " 'V er y w el l! I 'l l r ep or t y ou i n S in ga po re . . . . G oo d- by !'

" He w av ed h is h an d. O ur m en d ro pp ed t he ir b un dl es q ui et ly . T he s te am er m ov ed a he ad , a nd p as si ng

o ut o f t he c ir cl e of l ig ht , v an is he d a t on ce f ro m o ur s ig ht , d az - z le d b y t he f ir e w hi ch bu rne d f ie rc el y. A nd

t hen I kne w tha t I would s ee the Ea st f irs t a s com mande r of a s ma ll boa t. I thought it f ine ; a nd the f ide lit y

t o t he ol d s hi p wa s fi ne . We s houl d s ee t he l as t of he r. Oh t he gl amour of yout h! Oh t he f ir e of i t, mor e

dazzling than the flames of the burning ship, throwing a magic light on the wide earth, leaping audaciously

t o t he s ky , p re se nt ly t o b e q ue nc he d b y t im e, m or e c ru el , m or e p it il es s, m or e b it te r t ha n t he s ea -- an d l ik e

the flames of the burning ship surrounded by an impenetrable night.

  . . . . .

" The ol d ma n wa rne d us in hi s gent le and i nfl exibl e wa y tha t i t wa s pa rt of our dut y t o sa ve f or t he unde r-

w ri te rs a s m uc h a s we c oul d of t he s hi p' s ge ar . Ac cor d- i ng we w ent t o w or k a ft , wh il e s he b la ze d

f or wa rd to give us ple nt y of l ight . W e l ugged out a l ot of rubbi sh. Wha t di dn' t we s ave ? An ol d

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  " On t he b ackg ro un d o f f lames t wi st in g i n f ierce t on gu es abo ve t heir h eads t hey s eemed at h om e l ik e

s al am an de rs , a nd l oo ke d l ik e a b an d o f d es pe ra te p ir at es . T he f ir e s pa rk le d i n t he w hi te s o f t he ir e ye s,

g le am ed o n p at ch es o f w hi te s ki n s ee n t hr ou gh t he t or n s hi rt s. E ac h h ad t he m ar ks a s o f a b at tl e a bo ut

h im -- ba nd ag ed h ea ds , t ie d- up a rm s, a s tr ip o f d ir ty r ag r ou nd a k ne e- -a nd e ac h m an h ad a b ot tl e

 between his legs and a chunk of cheese in his hand. Mahon got up. With his handsome and disreputable

h ea d, h is h oo ke d p ro fi le , h is l on g w hi te b ea rd , a nd w it h a n u nc or ke d b ot tl e i n h is h an d, h e r e- s em bl edo ne o f t ho se r ec kl es s s ea -r ob be rs o f o ld m ak in g m er ry a mi ds t v io le nc e a nd d is as te r. ' Th e l as t m ea l o n

 board,' he explained solemnly. 'We had nothing to eat all day, and it was no use leaving all this.' He

f lo ur is hed t he b ot tl e and i nd icat ed t he s leep in g s ki pp er . ' He s ai d h e cou ld n' t s wall ow any th in g, s o I g ot

hi m t o l ie d ow n, ' he w ent o n; a nd a s I s ta re d, ' I don 't kn ow w he the r y ou a re a wa re , you ng f el low , t he

m an ha d n o s le ep t o s pe ak of f or d ays -- and t he re w il l be da m' l it tl e s le ep i n t he bo at s. ' ' The re w il l be no

 boats by-and-by if you fool about much longer,' I said, indignantly. I walked up to the skipper and shook 

hi m by t he s hou lde r. A t l as t he ope ne d hi s e ye s, but d id not move . ' Ti me t o l ea ve he r, s ir ,' I s ai d, qui et ly.

  " He g ot u p p ai nf ul ly , l oo ke d a t t he f la me s, a t t he s ea s pa rk li ng r ou nd t he s hi p, a nd b la ck , b la ck a s i nk  

f ar th er a wa y; h e l oo ke d a t t he s ta rs s hi ni ng d im t hr ou gh a t hi n v ei l o f s mo ke i n a s ky b la ck , b la ck a sErebus.

  "'Youngest first,' he said.

" An d t he o rd in ar y s ea ma n, w ip in g hi s m ou th w it h t he b ac k o f h is ha nd , g ot u p, c la mb er ed ov er t he

t af fr ai l, a nd v an is he d. O th er s f ol lo we d. O ne , o n t he p oi nt o f g oi ng o ve r, s to pp ed s ho rt t o d ra in h is b ot tl e,

a nd wi th a gre at s wi ng of hi s ar m f lung it at t he f ir e. 'Ta ke t his !' he cr ied.

" Th e s ki pp er l in gered d is co ns ol at el y, and w e l ef t h im t o com mu ne alo ne f or awh il e w it h h is f ir st

c omm and. The n I we nt up a ga in a nd br oug ht hi m a wa y a t l as t. I t wa s t ime . Th e i ronwor k on t he poop

w as ho t t o t he t ouc h.

  " Th en t he p ai nt er o f t he l on g- bo at w as c ut , a nd t he t hr ee b oa ts , t ie d t og et he r, d ri ft ed c le ar o f t he s hi p. I t

w as j us t s ix te en h ou rs a ft er t he e xp lo si on w he n w e a ba n- d on ed h er . M ah on h ad c ha rg e o f t he s ec on d

 boat, and I had the smallest--the 14-foot thing. The long-boat would have taken the lot of us; but the

s ki pp er s ai d w e m us t s av e a s m uc h p ro pe rt y a s w e c ou ld -- for t he un de r- wr it er s- -a nd s o I g ot m y f ir st

command. I had two men with me, a bag of bis cuit s, a f ew ti ns of mea t, and a bre ake r of water . I wa s

o rd er ed t o k ee p c lo se t o t he l ong -bo at , t ha t i n c as e of ba d w ea th er w e m ig ht be t ak en i nt o h er .

  " An d do y ou k now wh at I t houg ht ? I t hou gh t I w ou ld p ar t c omp an y a s s oon a s I c ou ld. I w an te d t o

h av e m y f ir st c om ma nd a ll t o m ys el f. I w as n' t g oi ng t o s ai l i n a s qu ad ro n i f t he re w er e a c ha nc e f or  i nd ep en d- e nt c ru is in g. I w ou ld m ak e l an d b y m ys el f. I w ou ld b ea t t he o th er b oa ts . Y ou th ! A ll y ou th ! T he

silly, charming, beautiful youth.

  "But we di d not ma ke a st ar t at once. We must s ee the la st of t he ship. And so the boa ts dri fte d a bout

t ha t n ig ht , h ea vi ng a nd s et ti ng o n t he s we ll . T he m en d oz ed , w ak ed , s ig he d, g ro an ed . I l oo ke d a t t he

 burning ship.

  " Be tw ee n t he d ar kn es s o f e ar th a nd h ea ve n s he w as b ur ni ng f ie rc el y u po n a d is c o f p ur pl e s ea s ho t b y

t he b lo od -r ed p la y o f g le am s; u po n a d is c o f w at er g li tt er - i ng a nd s in is te r. A h ig h, c le ar f la me , a n

i mm en se a nd l on el y f la me , a sc en de d f ro m t he o ce an , a nd f ro m i ts s um - m it t he b la ck s mo ke p ou re d

continuously at the sky. She burned furiously, mournful and imposing like a funeral pile kindled in the

n ig ht , s ur ro un de d b y t he s ea , w at ch ed o ve r b y t he s ta rs . A m ag ni fi ce nt d ea th h ad c om e l ik e a g ra ce , l ik e

a gi ft , l ike a r ewa rd t o t ha t ol d s hi p a t t he e nd of he r l abo ri ou s d ays . Th e s ur re nde r o f h er we ar y gho st t o

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t he k ee pi ng o f s ta rs a nd s ea w as s ti rr in g l ik e t he s ig ht o f a g lo ri ou s t ri um ph . T he m as ts f el l j us t b ef or e

d ay br ea k, a nd f or a m om ent t he re w as a b ur st a nd t ur - m oi l o f s pa rk s t ha t s ee me d t o f il l w it h f ly in g f ir e

t he n ig ht p at ient and w at ch fu l, t he v as t n ig ht l yi ng s il en t u po n t he s ea. A t d ay li gh t s he w as o nl y a charr ed

s hell , f lo at - i ng s ti ll u nd er a clo ud o f s mo ke and b eari ng a g lo wi ng m as s o f coal w it hi n.

" The n t he oa rs we re got out, and t he boa ts f or ming i n a li ne move d r ound he r re ma ins a s if i n

 procession--the long-boat leading. As we pulled across her stern a slim dart of fire shot out viciously atu s, a nd s ud de nl y s he w en t d ow n, h ea d f ir st , i n a g re at h is s o f s te am . T he u nc on su me d s te rn w as t he l as t

t o s in k; bu t t he p ai nt ha d go ne , h ad c ra ck ed , ha d pe el ed o ff , a nd t he re w er e n o l et te rs , t he re w as n o

wo rd, no s tubb or n de vi ce t ha t wa s l ike he r s oul , t o f la sh a t t he r is ing s un he r c re ed a nd he r na me .

  " We ma de o ur w ay n or th. A br ee ze s pr an g up , a nd a bou t no on a ll t he bo at s c am e t oge the r f or t he l as t

time. I had no mast or s ail in mine, but I made a mast out of a s par e oar and hois ted a boat-awni ng for a

s ai l, w it h a b oa t- ho ok f or a y ar d. S he w as c er ta in ly o ve r- ma st ed , b ut I h ad t he s at is fa ct io n o f k no wi ng

tha t with the wind a ft I could beat the othe r two. I had to wa it for them. Then we a ll had a look at the

c ap ta in 's c ha rt , a nd , a ft er a s oc ia bl e m ea l o f h ar d b re ad a nd w at er , g ot o ur l as t i ns tr uc ti on s. T he se w er e

s im pl e: s te er n or th , a nd k ee p t og et he r a s m uc h a s p os si bl e. ' Be c ar ef ul w it h t ha t j ur y r ig , M ar lo w, ' s ai dt he c ap ta in ; a nd M ah on , a s I s ai le d p ro ud ly p as t h is b oa t, w ri nk le d h is c ur ve d n os e a nd h ai le d, ' Yo u w il l

s ai l t ha t s hi p o f y ou rs u nd er w at er , i f y ou d on 't l oo k o ut , y ou ng f el lo w. ' H e w as a m al ic io us o ld m an -- an d

ma y t he de ep s ea w he re he s le eps now r oc k hi m g ent ly, r oc k hi m t ende rl y t o t he e nd of t ime !

  " Be fo re s un se t a t hi ck r ai n- sq ua ll p as se d o ve r t he t wo b oa ts , w hi ch w er e f ar a st er n, a nd t ha t w as t he l as t

I s aw o f t he m f or a t im e. N ex t d ay I s at s te er in g m y c oc kl e- sh el l- -m y f ir st c om ma nd -- wi th n ot hi ng b ut

wa te r a nd s ky a round me . I di d s ight i n t he a ft er noon the uppe r s ai ls of a s hi p f ar a wa y, bu t s ai d not hi ng,

a nd my me n di d not n ot ic e h er . Y ou s ee I wa s a fr ai d s he mi ght be hom ewa rd bound , a nd I ha d no m ind

t o t ur n b ac k f ro m t he p or ta ls o f t he E as t. I w as s te er in g f or J av a- - a no th er b le ss ed n am e- -l ik e B an ko k,

y ou k no w. I s te er ed m an y d ay s.

  " I n ee d not te ll you w ha t i t i s t o be knoc ki ng a bout i n a n ope n boa t. I r em embe r ni ght s a nd da ys of c al m

w he n w e p ul le d, w e p ul le d, a nd t he b oa t s ee me d t o s ta nd s ti ll , a s i f b ew it ch ed w it hi n t he c ir cl e o f t he s ea

h or iz on . I r em em be r t he h ea t, t he d el ug e of r ai n- sq ua ll s t ha t k ep t us b al in g f or d ea r l if e ( bu t f il le d o ur  

w at er -c as k) , a nd I r em em be r s ix te en h ou rs o n e nd w it h a m ou th d ry a s a c ind er a nd a s te er ing -oa r ov er  

the s tern t o keep my fir st command head on to a brea king sea. I did not know how good a man I was t ill

t he n. I r em em be r t he d ra wn f ac es , t he d ej ec te d f ig ur es o f m y t wo m en , a nd I r em em be r m y y ou th a nd

t he f ee li ng t ha t w il l n ev er c om e b ac k a ny m or e- -t he f ee li ng t ha t I c ou ld l as t f or e ve r, o ut la st t he s ea , t he

e ar th , a nd a ll m en ; t he d ec ei tf ul f ee li ng t ha t l ur es u s o n t o j oy s, t o p er il s, t o l ov e, t o v ai n e ff or t- -t o d ea th ;

t he t ri um ph an t con vi ct io n o f s tr en gt h, t he h eat o f l if e i n t he h an df ul o f d us t, t he g lo w i n t he h eart t hat w it h

every y ear g ro ws d im , g ro ws col d, g ro ws s mall , and exp ir es - -and exp ir es , t oo s oo n- -b ef or e l i fe i ts elf .

  "A nd t hi s i s h ow I s ee t he Ea st . I ha ve s ee n i ts s ec re t pl ac es a nd ha ve l ook ed i nt o i ts ve ry s oul ; bu t n ow

I s ee i t a lwa ys f rom a s ma ll bo at , a h igh ou tl in e of mo un ta in s, bl ue a nd a fa r i n t he mo rni ng; l ik e f ai nt m is t

a t noon; a j agge d w all of pur pl e a t s unse t. I have t he f ee l of t he oar in m y ha nd, t he vi sion of a s cor chi ng

 blue sea in my eyes. And I see a bay, a wide bay, smooth as glass and polished like ice, shimmering in

t he da rk. A r ed li ght bur ns f ar of f upon t he gl oom of t he l and, a nd t he ni ght i s s of t a nd wa rm . W e dr ag a t

t he o ar s w it h a ch ing a rm s, a nd s ud de nl y a p uf f o f w in d, a p uf f f ai nt a nd t ep id a nd l ad en w it h s tr an ge

o do rs o f b lo ss om s, o f a ro ma ti c w oo d, c om es o ut o f t he s ti ll n ig ht -- th e f ir st s ig h o f t he E as t o n m y f ac e.

T ha t I c an n ev er f or ge t. I t w as i mp al pa bl e a nd e ns la vi ng , l ik e a c ha rm , l ik e a w hi sp er ed p ro mi se o f                  

mysterious delight.

" We ha d be en p ul li ng t hi s f in is hi ng s pe ll f or e le ve n h our s. T wo pu ll ed , a nd he w ho se t ur n i t w as t o r es t

s at a t t he t il ler . We had ma de out the re d l ight in t ha t ba y a nd s te er ed f or i t, gue ss ing i t m us t ma rk s om e

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c ap ta in i s i n t he l on g- bo at , a nd w is he s t o k no w i f y ou w ou ld g iv e u s a p as sa ge s om ew he re .'

  " 'O h, m y g oo dn es s! I s ay . . . . T hi s i s t he C el es ti al f ro m S in ga po re o n h er r et ur n t ri p. I 'l l a rr an ge w it h

your captain in the morning, . . . and, . . . I say, . . . did you hear me just now?'

  " 'I s ho ul d t hi nk t he w ho le b ay h ea rd y ou .'

  "' I t ho ug ht y ou w er e a s ho re -b oa t. N ow , l oo k h er e- - t hi s i nf er na l l az y s co un dr el o f a c ar et ak er h as g on e

t o s le ep a ga in -- cu rs e h im . T he l ig ht i s o ut , a nd I n ea rl y r an f ou l o f t he e nd o f t hi s d am ne d j et ty . T hi s i s t he

t hi rd t im e h e p la ys m e t hi s t ri ck . N ow , I a sk y ou , c an a ny bo dy s ta nd t hi s k in d o f t hi ng ? I t' s e no ug h t o

drive a man out of his mind. I'll report him. . . . I'll get the Assistant Resident to give him the sack, by . . .

Se e- - t he re 's no l ight . I t' s out , i sn' t i t? I t ake you t o wi tne ss t he l ig ht 's out . Th er e s houl d be a l ight , yo u

k no w. A r ed l ig ht o n t he -- '

  " 'T here w as a l ig ht ,' I s ai d, m il dl y.

  " 'B ut i t' s o ut , m an ! W ha t' s t he u se o f t al ki ng l ik e t hi s? Y ou c an s ee f or y ou rs el f i t' s o ut -- do n' t y ou ? I f y ouh ad t o t ak e a v al ua bl e s te am er a lo ng t hi s G od -f or - s ak en c oa st y ou w ou ld w an t a l ig ht t oo . I 'l l k ic k h im

f rom e nd t o end of hi s mi se ra ble wha rf. You' ll s ee i f I don' t. I wi ll -- '

  " ' So I m ay t el l m y c ap ta in you' ll t ake us ?' I br ok e i n.

  " 'Y es , I ' ll t ake y ou . G oo d n ig ht ,' h e s aid , b ru sq uel y.

  " I p ul le d ba ck , m ade f as t a ga in t o t he j et ty, a nd t he n we nt t o s le ep a t l as t. I h ad f ac ed t he s il enc e of t he

Ea st . I ha d he ar d s ome of i ts l angua ge s. But whe n I o pe ne d my e ye s a ga in t he s il en ce w as a s c om pl et e

a s t hough it ha d ne ve r be en br oke n. I wa s l yi ng i n a f lood of li ght , a nd t he s ky h ad ne ve r l ooke d s o f ar ,

s o h ig h, b ef or e. I op en ed m y e ye s a nd l ay w it ho ut m ovi ng .

" And the n I s aw the me n of t he Ea st -- the y wer e l ooki ng a t me . The whole l engt h of t he j et ty wa s f ull of          

 people. I saw brown, bronze, yellow faces, the black eyes, the glitter, the color of an Eastern crowd.

A nd a ll t he se b ei ng s s ta re d w it ho ut a m ur - m ur , w it ho ut a s ig h, w it ho ut a m ov em en t. T he y s ta re d d ow n a t

t he b oa ts , a t t he s le ep in g m en w ho a t n ig ht h ad c om e t o t he m f ro m t he s ea . N ot hi ng m ov ed . T he f ro nd s

o f p al ms s to od s ti ll a ga in st t he s ky . N ot a b ra nc h s ti rr ed a lo ng t he s ho re , a nd t he b ro wn r oo fs o f h id de n

h ou ses p eeped t hr ou gh t he g reen f ol iage, t hr ou gh t he b ig l eaves t hat h un g s hi ni ng and s ti ll l ik e l eaves

f or ge d o f h ea vy m et al . T hi s w as t he E as t o f t he a nc ie nt n av ig at or s, s o o ld , s o m ys te ri ou s, r es pl en de nt a nd

s om be r, l iv in g a nd u nc ha ng ed , f ul l o f d an ge r a nd p ro m- i se . A nd t he se w er e t he m en . I s at u p s ud de nl y.

A w av e o f m ov em en t p as se d t hr ou gh t he c ro wd f ro m e nd t o e nd , p as se d a lo ng t he h ea ds , s wa ye d t he bodies, ran along the jetty like a ripple on the water, like a breath of wind on a field--and all was still

a ga in. I s ee i t n ow - -t he w id e s we ep o f t he b ay , t he g li tt er in g s an ds , t he w ea lt h o f g re en i nf in it e a nd

va ri ed , t he s ea b lue l ike t he s ea of a d re am, t he c ro wd of a tt ent ive f ac es , t he bl az e of vi vi d c ol or -- th e

w at er r ef lect in g i t all , t he cur ve o f t he s ho re, t he j et ty , t he h ig h- st er ned o ut land is h craft f lo at - i ng s ti ll , and

t he t hr ee b oa ts w it h t ir ed m en f ro m t he W es t s le ep in g u nc on sc io us o f t he l an d a nd t he p eo pl e a nd o f t he

v io lence o f s un sh in e. T hey s l ep t t hr ow n acro ss t he t hw ar ts , cur led o n b ot to m- bo ar ds , i n t he care- l es s

a tt it ud es o f d ea th . T he h ea d o f t he o ld s ki pp er , l ea ni ng b ac k i n t he s te rn o f t he l on g- bo at , h ad f al le n o n

h is b re as t, a nd he l ook ed a s t ho ug h h e w ou ld n ev er wa ke . F ar th er o ut ol d M ah on' s f ac e w as up tu rn ed t o

t he s ky, w it h t he l on g wh it e be ar d s pr ea d o ut on hi s b re as t, a s t hou gh h e ha d be en s hot w he re h e s at a t

t he t il le r; a nd a ma n, a ll i n a he ap i n t he bow s of t he bo at , s le pt wi th bot h a rms e mbr ac ing t he s te m- he ad

a nd w it h h is c he ek l ai d o n t he g un wa le . T he E as t l oo ke d a t t he m w it ho ut a s ou nd .

" I h av e k no wn i ts f as ci na ti on s s in ce : I h av e s ee n t he m ys te ri ou s s ho re s, t he s ti ll w at er , t he l an ds of b ro wn

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n a- t io ns , w he re a s te al th y N em es is l ie s i n w ai t, p ur su es , o ve rt ak es s o m an y o f t he c on qu er in g r ac e, w ho

a re p ro ud o f t he ir w is do m, o f t he ir kn ow le dge , of t he ir s tr en gt h. B ut f or m e a ll t he E as t i s c on ta in ed i n

tha t vis ion of my youth. It i s a ll in that mome nt whe n I opened my young eyes on it . I c ame upon it fr om a

t us sl e wi th t he s ea -- a nd I wa s young- -a nd I s aw i t l ooki ng a t me . And th is is a ll t ha t i s l eft of i t! Onl y a

m om en t; a m om en t o f s tr en gt h, o f r om an ce , o f g la mo ur -- of y ou th ! . . . A f li ck o f s un sh ine u po n a s tr an ge

s hor e, t he t im e t o r e- m em be r, t he t im e f or a s ig h, a nd -- go od -b y! -- Ni gh t- - G oo d- by . . . !"

  H e d ra nk .

  " Ah ! T he g oo d o ld t im e- -t he g oo d o ld t im e. Y ou th a nd t he s ea . G la mo ur a nd t he s ea ! T he g oo d, s tr on g

s ea , t he s al t, b it te r s ea , t ha t c oul d wh is pe r t o yo u a nd r oa r a t y ou a nd kn oc k y ou r b re at h o ut of y ou ."

  He d rank again .

  " By a ll t ha t' s w on de rf ul , i t i s t he s ea , I b el ie ve , t he s ea i ts el f- -o r i s i t y ou th a lo ne ? W ho c an t el l? B ut y ou

h er e- -y ou all h ad s om et hi ng o ut o f l if e: m on ey , l ov e- - w hatever o ne g et s o n s ho re-- an d, t el l m e, w as n' t

t ha t t he be st ti me , t ha t t im e whe n w e we re young a t s ea ; young a nd ha d nothi ng, on t he s ea t ha t gi ve sn ot hi ng , excep t h ar d k no ck s- -and s om et im es a chance t o f eel y ou r s t reng th -- th at o nl y- -w hat y ou all

regret?"

  A nd we a ll nodde d at hi m: the m an of f ina nc e, t he m an of a cc ount s, t he m an of la w, we a ll nodde d a t

h im o ve r t he p ol is he d t ab le t ha t l ik e a s ti ll s he et o f b ro wn w at er r ef le ct ed o ur f ac es , l in ed , w ri nk le d; o ur  

f aces m ar ked b y t oi l, b y d ecep ti on s, b y s ucces s, b y l ov e; o ur w eary eyes l oo ki ng s ti ll , l oo ki ng alw ay s,

l oo ki ng anx io us ly f or s om et hi ng o ut o f l if e, t hat w hi le i t i s exp ected i s alr eady g on e- -h as p as sed u ns een, i n

a s ig h, i n a f lash -- to geth er w it h t he y ou th , w it h t he s tr en gt h, w it h t he r om an ce o f i ll us io ns .

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