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NEIGHBOR Books 1, 2, 3

AROUSAL

CALLING YOU

SHADES

Ed Baker

tel let / red ochre press2007

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[Neighbors]

"There exists a creature who is perfectly harmless;when it passes before your eyes, you hardly noticeit and immediately forget again.  But as soon as itsomehow, invisibly, gets into your ears, it begins

to develop, it hatches, and cases have been knownwhere it has penetrated into the brain and flourish­

es there devastatingly, like pneumococci in dogswhich gain entrance through the nose.

This creature is your neighbor."

­Ranier Maria Rilke

  Ahead of All Parting:  p.266

"Giacometti said: 'One day while I was drawinga young girl something struck me: that is to say,all of a sudden I noticed the only thing that re­mained alive was the gaze.  The rest, the head 

   made into a skull, became equivalent to a death's head.  What made the difference between deathand the individual was the gaze  ... In a living person there is no doubt that what makes him

   alive is his gaze.  If the gaze, that is to say life      itself, becomes essential, there is no doubt that 

what is essential is the head."

from James Lord's 'Giacometti   a biography'p. 426

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copyright (c) 2007 by Ed Bakerin conjunction w  tel let

"the imaginary is what tends to become real."                                                       ­Andre Breton

"every page  a book.  each word  more so."                                                              ­Ed Baker

for Every MAGDALENE

tel let /Red Ochre Press

8215 Flower Ave.Takoma Park, Md. 20912

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Contents     1.  AROUSAL

The Edge 8Gone Fishing 9The Runner 10A Valentine 11Object Subject Predicates Upon 12Letters 14Silhouette 16Focus 17The Set­up 18In this quiet She handed 19The Silences 19Dead Ignition 22Tall Standing Nude 23I thought 26The View 29Man Contemplates Framed Sketch        Hung on Wall 31Last Word FIRST 32The Glare 33The Touch 34I was 35

2. CALLING YOU

Calling You 38Fill 'er Up 40Guitar Riff 41The Cut 42Tuesday Morning 43The Fall 44Letter of Intent 46Regarding What I Want 48Stork 49Belt Around Waist 50The Window 51A Complication 52Great American Guarantee 53To Get Eyes Open 54This Poem is Form 55Red Ochre 56Ten Years Bondage 57She has it 59Continued Search for 60Of Course It's Your Mind 61The Face 62The Cut 63Nude: Woman Stands  64Your Eyes 66

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3. SHADES

A Maven Sues 69Eating Your Barb/ecue 70I Opened 72Model Behind Glass 73What Good? 74Two weeks into 75I would 76visions come 77She is Mystery 78I/You Dance 79The Shade came down 81The Silence 84each 85

             

                                                                      PLATES/ILLUSTRATIONS                                                               (all art by the Author)

"Masked woman in Window with two crystal tears"         3/7/98    ­front piece/cover 12"The Embrace"  3/6/98 25"A View"  2/24/98 30"The Glare"  3/4/98 36"You..."  (after A. Giacometti) 4/19/98 65"#2  Through the Window  8:35 A.M." 4/11/98 67"Six­over­One"  4/19/98 71"The Face"  5/5/98 86

                 

          

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    1

AROUSAL

(2/9/98)

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The Edge                                                                                                On sillpeeringhead tilted

towards sun

so closeI can smellyour hair

hanging down

Green eyeshiddenamong the black

embrace acontradiction

briefly

confusedby your look

glare

to get a bettersense ofI

turned

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GONE FISHING

1.

You gave mea can ofworms

andtold meto go

fish ing;

so, I did

I fished&I fished

&I am fish ing.

2.

May have putcorn on line

yet is ponebaiton perch thatsill is

step higher

swim againstcurrent

betterview

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THE RUNNER

                 ­A.G.'s

run s difficulta longtrail

cut throughsunlit  leg slong

rise

fingers, handsbody stretcheslongings

for balance

cling ing

tangle winterbranchesbefore

me

and I    

reach                                                                                    

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A VALENTINE

white wallladderleanedagainst

toget toNeighbor

claim herattention

Ritual israppingonwindow

pain

face reflectionwhatcomesbackto  haunt

little saidor startles

gets usthere

comesby reflectionwhatalso

gets

                                             

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OBJECT SUBJECT PREDICATES UPON

untiedknot legsmade

cave towardsfire  light

to her slittedjust thereher mouthwide

open hand palmhis

due

predicate upontouch

all ears tuned

turn toplace

purslane

inearly

spring

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LETTERS

What beside letterslippedunder back door

three days laidon counter

unopened morning signalsrise too   blinds

smell of breakfast burn ings  waft through half raised wind ow

deliberatelystripped to bare

skin

while leavesin small piles

once were burned

drew all attentiontowards lingering 

smella woman

wait ing.

next to hernext to couchnext

Bonded Jim Beam

did me in...

sealed letter

whiskey on ice

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(she KNOWS I'm a beer man)

brought metobeside myself

This Friday

openitsexpansea woman is

doing

exactly

three times one

drop

ing 

into confusion

issues       predispose

loosefitto knees

tofit.

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SILHOUTTE

             ­for S.S.

1.

Awaken!  daysspentgazing throughwindow(I swear  again)

stand betweenglass/body

light leansthroughthat dressre:veals

breasts, back,front desirerighton

direct to'pudding'

just there

legs curvedelight

pitch to certain

knowledge

2.

"Mine!"

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3.

First sucking   headeverything thatcould get beyondconditions

hair

pungent

caught in eyein ear

'tick'  'tick'

3 A.M.leaps

want

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FOCUS

Stood indistancesandwatched

your reflectionmoving

suddenly

through in sulatedglass

under winter blankettes

her hot fingers yourhotter breath

make lighter

fogged image w blacksofthair

hanging from the draw­string

"gee!" becomes longdevelopedprint­sketch ing

the hurtwas not

my doing.

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THE SET­up

I should have knownbetterthan to have worn

"that"  hatcock s tailfor

show

it is a business not yetwas prepared for

what wentdown

like rabbit in mindin head

switch her 'on'to memorized

image of  "my father

molesting me"

another want to tell herthat the pain  is notthe woman the girl was.

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In this quiet she handed me another  clearly bonded

double whiskey

is  clear  to menowas cold her hands were chilled

to the touch

just so across the roomfire in hearth 

a moment that Icouldnot

getout

of

THE SILENCE

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betweenher opening and closinghands'round

overunder

as clear as glassgave additiona lyher home­brewed

blues accompanied by own guitar  string s

contorted gaze

                atwist                        twistin to                bodystretch ing

another timeplace

I would have quicklypaid

sipped from rimeat ripe persimmon from betweenn her lips...

arms are branchestwist is this headgiving hair flip floppingfly­away up twirl isdizzying ly  full skirt

fingers into my beardinto my mouthputting words

just be yond

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this

;semi­colon

that hair  agai n again no metaphor can do "this" adequate homage...

through obvious gates go countless others foot prints through snow  

to and fromto  and fro m

a momentto be getting outof

just in time!

                                                                                     

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DEAD IGNITION

carparked

betweencommitments

east­wise shadowelongates

pushiton

go­buttonthroughthe cold

motor

whine isanunwelcome d

soundthroughfromthereto here

from towardanother

there

herthinbody

hard against the wind

ow

pain                    2/22/99

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TALL STANDING NUDE

fall of'97firstdrawn

duplicateincornerthrough

red glowon greenskin

reflects sourcea man

comes

intothis

scathed

heatshapeshisrise

ing

prowess

comeson waves

One wavebeckons his

re:solve

what heis

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pressedbetweenhot/cold

moment s

bounded

hungthengone

what was behind

cannottellfrontfromback

alsostands.

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I/thought it was aTree of Heaven,I swear,

she said it was

thisstraddle ingbe/tween our 

properties

sureddefined

beautiful shapeofclay roof tiles

nestled intobirdsnesting

spent yearscacklingback and forth

over property

rights

cut throughperfectlytoutility hut

trench to layelectric  in

trimmed her bigtree

actually a bush­weedfully grown

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warning me to 

mind theclippers

imagine that!

hernear still holdsarms 'round doubt I (nor she)can or will

let go

shearpersistswarning'sendthinbranching s

over­growing takingwind with whitesided house

black between thewindow s shutter

no one sees her so through

nor calls or comes

smooth as silkthe hinge s oil

last one outslams 

door

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on  on   on  on

on clouds these moments de:tangleknots in hair     

braids undone

un doneprecise movement of herlips toward smile

red red the sepia ofrelentless

stiffas

so

Adumbrate

what is be comeof her  of this

sunlit castinglong ing shadow 

blue sky   blue

bird chirps bird sound ing

Shrike­like

mocking cut of myin two

lips  

moist to quick nesssay or

"You can kissss  my  assessss

precisely."

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THE VIEW

I hardly knewyou         then

something in par­ticular slowed medown   leaves catching

sudden warm breeze   lingers in it sdrift 

deliberatelykept my distanceto get a perspective;

for days nothing about anythingsaid

what meant more sojust out of reach

or wantstroke can write

reach over  wringyour              neck

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MAN CONTEMPLATES FRAMED SKETCH          HUNG ON WALL

Skein of lineboundssituate

rage

is continual starebeyond thisperfect wait

cat walks throughfog

closesnumeratepossibilities

hairy formjust so justso

sparse in frame

hung from nail

nailedthrough hands

it s imminentfly     to

phantasy

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LAST WORD FIRST

1.

wire fan­sounds

ch...           ch...                       ch...

content to murder

        The Silence        disappearing into        its own   w h i r r...

set on sill brings what windit can            

2.

night descends    just be yondher rail ling  lean is i nto opened  wide what way wrong  notissued or an saying  stone dropped into half full glass care ab­ruptly closes

3.

Now. To                get                      down                               from                                        this                        ladder!

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The Glare

from herepartsof a girl

a womanismother of

seen atom'scenter with

The Naked Eye

possiblefrags  a clue

it s imagepurehypothesis

hard­edge surrounded by The White 

it s circumferencehas no center

as sunlight light

clouds  over­cover

comes back tolie w me 

under

stand ingswingships

makeseverything(in)visible

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The Touch

what thinkingdemandswalking

along Sugarloaf Mont s rim

round valley up thissideover­grown pines

just beyond   smokewaft ing of a pungency

nuclear waste management facility

restricted access

was also her on paper

felt  skin itch  upbristle her blackhairs

arch on  beyond wordsdive is into without a

sound.

Could longerat least strip down tolinger "there"  see you loosely

held together 

"We have a complexrelationship.

"My father was a garbage man.  Picked up the dead the near dead:

            

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"I was youngandknew nothing."

OH THE STENCH!

burn is both ends towardsmiddle

unfinished /smolders                  /smolders

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