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Instruments connected to my chest, hands and head were ringing more alarm

car hit an anvil and just felt in the chest, and there was no pain, but could

not breathe Doctor! In calm tone more disconcerted nurse said: No more

stabilized Ten milligrams? I felt another fine picket left-arm vein came a

strange numbness oppression and all the sounds on that emergency room

became very distant, stopped importing my senses were on full alert, even

when I saw the mask oxygen that put me in the face, it seemed that I no longer

needed anything, seeing the doctor's hands on my chest and not feel what I

was doing and understand why anxiety was gone, nothing bothered me and

the air and not missing.

So How I got here?God!I'm dying! What served all? Yes nothing changed -

respiré deep resigned to it were my last breath And to me why lie to me? I -

Escuché- With half-closed eyes turned around and there was nobody on that

emergency room, a tear closed my eyes again, thinking: It can not be that

this is the end God, how I missed! Now you know, that's what matters to

listen--Volví realizing I was asleep or perhaps dead.

Divine Father not play me I implore! Yes indeed are You let me see. You have

always done But he answered not with the eyes, seeing is just a basic way of

feeling, do not ask what your reason does not understand, or disclose your

senses so you do not have the ability to know, I'm for you now and always;

the human being is to feel each breath and how each life ebbs, so do not fear,

what you call death is the eternal reminder of the importance of life.

Quiet! All anxiety is not caused by death if not by the waste of life he went

every beat is a "tic-tac" that does not really matter rather than boost the verb

in a perpetual and infinite system, but that gives you the sense of urgency

necessary to the existence and drives him to action, as eternity is nothing but

I can dwell.


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How easy you put -Reproché- You who are God eternal Why should you

understand the mortality of life?You talk about what you do not know! And

that, apart from unfair is arrogant. Hahahaha I'm a million times more

deadly than you, as much as every being that breathes and beats in harmony

with the universe! Die and reborn millions of times every day, every minute,

every second; but do not be fool, who speaks not even understand what you're

Pará Is this you called me? To listen How pathetic complaints that we will

be the talk? What a waste do not you think?

I felt so beautiful shame before him and his mockery was a warm invitation

of love that took me away from my tragic lament, I wanted to hold on to my

temper tantrum in my right but not left me rather because I did not let go

repelling. Hahahaha be dying to have a lot of energy in your claims, why you

argue How much you want to convince? would be good to apply that passion

to another cause, such as perhaps continued to live in such a beautiful

mockery You will not die, do not flatter yourself, who has not had the courage

to live life will never be ready to leave, it's like school, who fails a subject

must repeat as many times as necessary, as simple and ugly you're failing!

you have not had the courage, always wondering what you live, looking quite

conveniently, instead of asking what do towards making it with joy and love.

Love! Serve as much if I know I'm a beast, but once loved and she showed

me the difference between a beast and a monster This life is nothing but a

relentless hunt! now will leave me with the story of humility, sacrifice, give

everything that speech and kindly face the difficulties of life, because this is

a race in which you should always go after your dreams and your sorrows

before All that cheap motivation of those who believe serve only to go to

church every Sunday or who only remember you when they need it! Right?


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Hahahaha What are fun! The speech you're giving you, certainly "screwed"

as you say they are mine, so I'm here and now you, you need me more than

anyone in a church are and are not a beast They do not complain ! complain

about having loved no matter result is the saddest of all the cries for I have

shared my best ability and do not enjoy.

Yes, I know, always distracted on his mind always forgetting that night

listening to the heart, so my insomnia, not wanting to sleep my reason, I did

not feel the emptiness and claim my being; I suffered and I had not the

courage to face it, I preferred to stay in hibernation the heart, but I did not

become bad because when good stop being a evil You lose an angel and the

sky a star, no matter what kind-heartedness ever must cease to shine, and ...

Sorry! that disrupts your poetic monologue Hahahaha-again that beautiful

laugh but it's always the same, ahhh ... How You love to talk about stars and

angels when they are not able to be still not fully human! That is the task here

and now, concentrate on it, and stop acting compose castles in the air.

Good, but ... that's nothing! You are human, nothing more, do not learn the

multiplication tables or and now I want to talk about trigonometry The only

equation Hahahaha, I'm true and perfect! It is good then make fun of me, I

would be a great mathematical physicist to express myself properly, but I feel

you and is more accurate than any mathematical operation.Wow! Until you

said something worthwhile indeed feel is the purpose, or understand me

explain foolish, those of whom you speak not make me laugh if not sorrow,

your confusion is fine or elaborate his lie makes them closer to my grace,

however, because they feel terrified, because they know so much and cling to

this miserable building without being able to understand that by not

releasing drown, they suffer from a sad crazy, talk to themselves, they ask

and answer themselves without accommodate me, while ensuring that they

are my closest.


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Then, talk to you is wasting time right? Do not worry the only time you lose

you! Hahaha ... why you punish us both in this life father? Yes it is a test,

then it is unnecessary or only shows your insecurity and cruelty Is maybe a

sadomasochistic way to find joy in the suffering? Why would punish them,

yes that you yourselves are responsible; talk to me is a necessity not only who

feels me, like everything human, whether speaking or any form of expression

by sublime enough, as the arts are no more than a desperate cry of his own

being to find out what can only be reflected therein; everything has to be built

for this purpose, although they say that is in my name and glory, well you

know it's name, fear and builders own vanity.

But the word is important, how else could communicate or convey emotions

if we did not have that capability Tell me? This "capacity" You invented to

fill a growing disability: no longer able to love. His language and forms of

communication are used for convenience, to satisfy desires and ambush lies,

therefore love is silent as every good word, you could write a thousand books,

even the most wise, caulking so beautiful and profound words and all, be well

understood or implemented, they will always be summarized by one: Love.

okay you could do with losing speech and regain his humanity, stop talking

and start loving.

But You gave us that ability despise Why?No sir! I created, so You can create

and develop their own capabilities, and will build on a whim; they call it

evolution or scientific progress, you build your own figures and scenarios, I

have nothing to do with it, I do not speak on my creations creations everyone

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You are the first human then yes made us in your image and likeness What

else can understand? Hahahaha is that You always understand what they

want and they reason why they do not feel! They need an accomplice and the

brain is the perfect go-between, in the heart where I have played them ever

find truth, although they are unable to feel or even understand Who told you

that you are in my image and likeness? I created them, it is true, but not so,

nor have my image and my likeness are much less are my reflection is

different, my exhaled breath, part of me also true, but to create one gives a

way love is freedom, as if the dream of a dream we spoke, you belong to me

and no law but love in his heart, self-determination.

So you allow so much evil and injustice in this world, why we are on our own

then why it so?Ah that fool you! I do not allow anything You do; I do not care

because its not really there or what happens in it why would you import

something that is not true? They want to believe that life came to suffer to

justify their own injustice and wickedness, as if it were one of my design, I

have in my mouth at all times repeating "It is the will of God" is yours when

you governing such a world, it's a bad dream, you who are mine.

So all that's true tale of conscience and free will to what is summarized

existence, if you do not intervene What are you doing here? That

pregúntatelo You, your dream is not mine, it only can you believe that I

answer your questions, as so many have said that I have revealed to them.

Ahhh ... It's a dream no more and my conscience is talking ... You you

feel?Well yes you're here! So to ask? It is the only way, not because it is a

dream, is a stadium would not understand, but for this intersection to turn

off your brain, so before your mental construct these "unconscious" but in

reality they more aware and awake than ever, but so let's leave it, it's a

dream, as it is not labeled shall cease to have real effects.


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Well, fuck! So they will say that this talk was just a dream or a result of fever.

Lol what? anyway never really believe what they "say" and always at your

convenience interpret my existence, do not worry, you will never believe, in

the end, maybe what I said I did you and vice versa, I do not speak well as

none of you I could talk to the other animals in their language, we feel and

understand at times, but nothing more; I am here because I felt for a moment

and now you do not believe neither you, since you need the validation of

others to believe it is true and because you felt.

So what if you have to ... Hey! I'm not here to reveal the secrets of the

universe, then you're part of it to be part of me, you're part of the secret and

do not feel it is the real question; when a being content with the universe, it

ceases to have secrets from him; yes I am your Father Divine's because You

feel my son would not be contrary, since nothing that is comprehensive of its

parts can be fully understood by one of them, which corresponds to only settle

for that However, what you feel and accordingly exist, a situation that

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Love, love!I'm sick of that word! Yes I know, now that I feel hate the word,

with the same intensity that love him pronounce and even those who do not

have poems and love there is only one way to have truly: Being part of Him,

there is no way to you feel or be part of the joy.Not true! You mention these

facts to generate hatred and revenge. Indeed, in a first step, such as manure

as fertilizer, that happens all the time you are desperate, but trust me, all

these facts as you call them, are actually seeds, delayed some more than

others, but without exception intended to germinate in feelings that drive

them only path that can not be otherwise my son Ya do not be stubborn! For

me you understand, love is the real Ley de Herodes, sooner or later, and we

agreed that the time is not important, each and every one of you have to move

on it, no matter how many lives occupy or how much damage cause, that's

something I have no control, how and when to do so, if the result is to be

divine but not imperative, but they will will! As I am who I am.

But that's terrible! If everyone would know you do not care its actions would

not have fear of God as told my Great Grandmother, if already in this world

there is so much evil and injustice How could subsist faith, hope in a better

future to know what now you tell me? Ahhh ... Mecca grandmother saw me

fall as well! But though very wise, too wrong, you should not fear me because

freedom have given them and with it the responsibility for their actions, is

why they should be feared themselves because only you will have to have

effect the consequences, never mi; Be honest, your story is not very consistent

to say about the fear of God as you say you actually would rather be a

constant insubordination and defiance, which amuse me because they are

like mad dogs biting its own tail, I am waiting , I told you, I have all eternity

and a little more, I shall get tired and hurt every last one of you own free will,

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It is ... Like a magnet, no need to call, just all the pieces are and conform to

its rightful place, property or cohesiveness is not in the magnet my son, but

in each of the pieces, by millions and even or small they may be infinite; That

guarantees that I am who I am and everything that attracted me feel obligated

but not part of my creation How do you think they would react if I "unleash

my fury" as many want? Punishing what you call sin and all that You have

defined as offenses against me; simply lose its existence the fundamental

purpose, freedom lost my son, condemning them to an eternity of real shame

to not be deprived of divine beauty conferred you call will, like a thin layer

of dew my creative spirit soaked up my strength so that all that is and even

what is not.

Absorbed breath that ceased to be mine Do you understand? Ask why force

is unnecessary because I have given, should only feel it, run it at will to make

things happen and be. In this force you but unfortunately not always the

willingness to exercise the will and want to do their job I do not always mi

hijito! I repeat, everyone is responsible for his actions and thus his own

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We're so bad right? I feel that the more lights turn on again we turn off father,

we are consuming in an intimate sunset, everything seems to flourish and

progress in the light of science or technology is actually a sad vestige of our

being that is left in darkness, if glitters is because it taps into that essence, as

an oil lamp.

Do not get bogged down, that fuel is infinite, it will allow them to go come

take few wrong paths and as the time we have been not matter, the result is

as I told you, my son safe; the fat of their intelligence transform science and

technology thrives not only emotional obesity that you generate with your

wishes and is also required m'son everything has a purpose for me! To me

everything is useful to me because everything is in my service, even the so

hates for you daughters of globalized modernity, make no mistake, they also

serve to me.

But we are destroying the planet That serves you? being more selfish,

apathetic and indifferent to never How can we regain the right way?

Hahahaha're just creating my son certainly bad creations, more errors than

trials, but because of them will progress to where they should not really have

to worry, your planet and the entire universe will explode or shaped

differently and even made forming dust you follow the right figures and

serving my purpose, iron filings follow the magnet invariably remember?

Either way does not matter because all alike are mine, mine care purpose.

Ummm ... What's that got to do with me? I'm not iron, I'm flesh and blood so

your example does not apply the magnet. Hahahaha You say? So what goes

through you blood iron is not right?You talk because you mouth son! In You

constantly circulate throughout your body metals of which I am good for the

tiny pieces come together by a force field of electromagnetic type for a

change, you do not understand, but you feel it and respond to his call is what


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matter; I have endowed especially infinitely tougher and stronger than

titanium or adamantine microscopic particle.

Since we both like motorcycles tell you I put the carburetor called heart,

through which all the blood is constantly enriched, allowing them, although

of delicate constitution, to shield your heart be more than ferrous creators,

capable of any imaginable and virtually indestructible feat for any adversity

to properly comply with it; the joke is that thanks to that capability more

turnings magnetization occurs as a whole, so their life is one crushing

sorrows and everything you call injustice or evil, is only part of this

electromagnetic process need to strengthen the capacity of answer the call

of the universe, which as I stay clear is merely a small cog in one of my

watches.

Then take him to piss all! With that thought just what matter if the planet at

this very moment with an atomic bomb Not? Hahaha But no! It does not

matter, you cling to your form, but believe me, they will return to form and

will do for all eternity if necessary Ya!Do not do drama! Everything is always

good, no really another form of something is rather than as it should be, a

reflection of me, that is good! See how easily then will not do anything

because it is useless! Anyway it will be as you want right? Ohhh That mule're

serious! Hahaha I told you here is not to like! You can do what you like, but

the end result is the same Hahahaha ... I do not want anything big head! I

need not want, even if it hurts your vanity does not want you or any other

living being.

How, then loving God does not exist? Hahahaha You propose you choke with

laughter! Right? Love need You my son, not I, because I'm at its best and

purest expression, I do not need anything, much less of myself and do not talk

of that infamy they call love, result of his fear , selfishness and insecurity.


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But then congruencia¡ You have not told me you love as the most important

and now you tell me ... Shhht! He who has spoken is You do not have the

slightest idea what is consistency, sometimes you're part of it when you feel

the call settling for your universe and therefore me, consistency is actually

more like what you understand by now confuse identity with equality; that is

why they say to my image, but through me make sense of identity should not

be confused with a sense of equality; but insist on debating something like

what you call mathematics, which by the way is not my language, I

understand it because for you believe it does not make it mine, much less that

he meet all phenomena the universe, if those go, maybe metallurgy can

approach a little bit, it's just a very basic language that assigned them to

engage in some communication with the universe, communication high that

by the way, because the main route is in itsThere dwells heart microscopic

grain or particle of that iron dust, stars or divine spark! As you wish to tell.

Yet they cling to such subsidiary or secondary codes and so limited feel like

see with their eyes, afraid to use their main means of communication forms,

since it imposes feelings contrary to his wishes and is easier understood Me

with the science, but science is nothing more than a demented creation that

always ends up talking to myself for not accepting their ridiculous and

miserable existence borders.

So do not put words in my like all horned up! Hahaha ... I do not speak the

same language that I understand yours is different; want to talk about math

and you can not even put two and two, love and do not know what that means

just want to talk! It's what they do best already, but definitely tell you that we

are talking about very different things that have nothing to do with each

other, like love, is something very different from what you want to understand

And not ask me how indeed it is! Because you is not going to say or rather to


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repeat, and you have it in front of you because they feel inside and still not

understand what is the purpose of your run.

Father, yes talk is one of the most precious gifts you have given us is ... how

epale my guy! Would I gave it gift wrapped with ribbon? Hahahaha No son!

Speaking is only one of its infinite capabilities which have been limited; I

repeat itself -tea you have wanted to do the accessory essential and

inconsequential determination is not my own design, there are actually more

effective to communicate or convey feelings that talking ways, making it one

of them, the action is a very effective language, but requires will and

consistency, not rhetoric or good intentions Shares son! Make these are your

words; underprivileged are created, everything in the universe has a

language, even the stones speak with each other and with the universe as a

whole, just not there any animal that has been in love with his voice as the

men and women who have made lions vulgar and senseless roar.

Hahahaha What happened stubborn? Got your tongue mouse? Words have

thorns As hard swallow! ¿M'son Truth?Yaaa!That's called Bulling!

Hahahaha You're the big, everything you can, what you know and have fun

with me happy I was, it did not matter what was said, only spoke anxiety, fear

that such a beautiful meeting concluded, every cell of my humanity wished to

continue before him and the dream ended or disclosure because he had never

felt so light in my heart, but so much so that spilled from his eyes, to shine

each and every one of my teeth in a smile, well ... could not describe what it

feels like to be happy and happy; but I understood that there was such a need,

we were in a very short time but in an eternal moment and divine moment, I

needed to say a word, because everything, everything was feeling.

I thought you loved to be your most beautiful creation, made in your image

and likeness, all the talk of marketing fanning us in any church to hold our


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insecurity and arrogance by paying a tithe, you and our need for justification

our actions, so many times I thought we actually believe that the devil or

fallen angel The most beautiful! Had to be, for it was nothing more than our

reflective, at least how we saw: The most beautiful thing created by you, who

love you most, but those who betray you more and suffering eternally for our

own faults; really feel that we are not the work of your love, but your humility,

if you had both then.

Is that not explain how else can tolerate such defective work father! Ummm

... because you're not as menso after all horned Hahahaha ... Actually yes my

love be measured by its parameters, you would be actually the most faulty of

my works, as even a stone has more intelligence for its consistency in life;

maybe in some twisted way, like you, I love how they want to end, as a child

you love with down syndrome, only that their disability is more severe than

a brain: is emotional and spiritual. For me you understand, in this analogy,

you are special to me precisely because it is the opposite of perfection, their

disability is that I am very attentive to their rehabilitation exercises that your

life is shaped, in that context, yes they are my most beautiful and special

children.

If then we are about emotional imbeciles or spiritual retarded, I do not know

... But with all our intelligence, we we spent doing pure crap in life, getting

hurt and hurting others, I think it is because of fear, emptiness and despair

of not feeling what we're meant to feel, not knowing that we ourselves have

changed the frequency, the transmission is continuous and awaits our

reception at all times; we let ourselves to go after reflexes, so we become a

reflection of our parents, a reflection of our environment and even fashion,

because we have lost the sight of our essence and we deny our inner self,

thinking that watching others and by imitation or by making a stupid need to

get that acceptance achieve harmony called happiness, and how much is

something called success.


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Now that I'm with you Father I feel like a child and not you ask why, if I do

not I'll tell you, so do not say I'm pure ask.Oops!What a thrill! See, enlighten

me, you have my stubborn attention ... do not already then mock, I have the

security of what I feel and I know that goes without saying but I'm human,

I'm your son and I need your smile, your approval, I feel bad because it is

not finding your way, presence and grace find joy and meaning of life.Orale!

Are you cleared the stubborn, well my guy What else?

I also know that you say to me to note that I'm sorry, it's not my head that is

clearing me, but my heart was cleared of all doubt, all insecurity, all fear

and understand that the kids are so near not because you are angels, they

are, but because they are born knowing nothing and feeling everything as

fresh pintaditos as a brand new motorcycle that has no dust or mud on the

fenders, allowing you to look and get fully rays sun in its journey.That poetic!

Hahahaha ... As you know, I too like motorbikes, actually did his life thinking

of a good shot Really? Well, I know not, but it looks so much and I feel, so I

do not answer ... Hahaha Now that I shut you!If you want I'll leave you alone

to keep you comfortable talking! Hahahaha ... We smile for the first time the

two in peace, rather than God and mortal, father and son, as friends.

You know I seem crazy most of the time when ... look? Hahahaha I were

watching -we briefly in silence, but with a knowing smile as if remembering

a good joke Well, I am then! Hahaha ... When I speak to my thinking, just

looking at the trees, the breeze caressing them, feeling the wind flying birds

and the sun that permeates all alike with his warmth that is pure energy, light

and life; but never, but I always felt, answer me with words like now, you're

like the joke that says talk to the dead but they answer is something else! Why

did not you do it? Because you never give the signals that you desperately

ask Father when we are overwhelmed? Because ... Do not tell me, because I

feel it now! Because we are your signal, your light and because it treats them


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to please What's not?Told you now I tell you! Hahaha ... Ummm!What a good

boy! You applied ... Want your star on the horned forehead? Hahahaha ...

The truth: Yesss! Hahahaha.

Okay passes mad that they and the children are not questioned or evaluated

by the rigorous and inflexible reason for that parameter so its great thinkers

called critical thinking or logical-scientific reasoning, simply because in

their vain greatness need feel benevolent and see them as incompetent and

stupid as poor and for that reason do not hold more than the worth of his

contempt and derision, to explain what we are unable to accept: they are

myopic pitiful and pathetic but strong tyrants only look distorted than they

are not having the ability to feel what really reflects, hate both reflected his

spiritual imbecility, rare in you, it is easier to say that idiots and fools are

those who are not subject to its rules and live within its laws or parameters.

Yes Father, I know, try to convince the true madness, for such a thing is not

possible, nothing can convince it otherwise arranged and shaped to feel

intimate with that something else is convenience, suggestion or taxation;

gave us a little understanding and we now want to sell ice cream snowman

and trompudos cochis Us! In our entire history as humanity if the case have

heard a couple of words in your mouth, so to speak, and sad parrots

repeating what limited learned awkwardly believe that divine compose

symphonies.

However ... I feel that pleases you! see how we sell or give water to thirsty

you! You're the divine source from which all springs and even nowhere So

sometimes I feel you're a woman! What else could love so much while being

so despicable? Only a woman can do, to love even the object of his love being

so flawed, men are proud, we are warriors, strong and robust children.


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Only a woman loves a child so intensely by their weaknesses and

shortcomings, only they are grown with dedication and humility before what

puts us on our knees in a fetal position or plane and only they have a sense

of humor so beautiful and cruel like yours ... Now if you the m'son flew! Lol

Of course I am female! As I also am a man, lion and lamb, the river and

stone; I am what I am; I like your mother what you said, you who always feel

so abandoned, or because you left me waiting for me to bring that one caress

... ashhh!Not me you go psychological issues dating Father! I you know what

I am and why, even if you are God, my life, remember? will not talk about it

to change it or convince me otherwise, I do not need therapy about cabezón

Strongly agree! These more serious for such a superficial remedy Solito

Hahaha ... Ummm I applied it right?You've said that someone out there!

Hahaha ... Just need love and ... Wait!I know, do not tell me! Do I need you?

I asked ironically containing a bitter tear stale claim-You need cabezón you!

I am for you today and forever, for all eternity and a little more, I told you,

but I can not be in force or where you were, in your heart.

Quite simply, to enter claim to be invited, otherwise it would be like a raid,

is my requirement for someone to open me your being, no matter other than

the door, even window, with a slight crack, a small tear enough, I am

extremely flexible'd be surprised!I say cold I strain as Mecca Grandma!

Hahahaha ... Now wipe that face sheepskin half to death and cry once! It's

what you want, do not expect a formal invitation or writing my stubborn part

... Hahaha - just listening to her beautiful smile because my eyes were flooded

so so warm and beautiful that I do not know how long they always overflowed

with his hand on Thank you Father my head was something that embarrassed

me so much to do, please ... Na, na, na! A thank me that I did not do anything,

not my will was not the work, but for yours, agradécete you for letting me

feel and invited to spend.


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? Now what do I have to be religious or read a holy book because they

Hahaha you a stubborn donkey just got to be you Though you are no longer

as before, you should always just be yourself and everything will be fine!!;

read what you want to read if you feel that I am there for so it must be, I told

you what my language and what I recommend you practice, how you do not

care, not even the result, while you sit down and do it for good, I do not I am

franchise or flag anyone, everyone is responsible for themselves, there is no

nation or kingdom where they can be saved if they are not by themselves and

if so there is no procedural requirement to subtract them from my grace, I do

not understand religions but suppose that all are equal if they meet what they

preach and not the true purpose of many.

But they say that Jesus is ... Shhht!Do not get in over my big head sticks!

Then to kill so they do not understand but feel the need to own my Self! They

call the Word, and the Word Grace, no matter if you do not feel that I who

has his; So with these issues and names better go carefully, go through crazy

not to be tried and sentenced by men better let what I say: For me there is

only children or older siblings, all are equal in this respect, that I have some

sense is like no other, they have made special, limited edition tell you, but it

was through the work of His will, not mine; none of you has ever been created

nor different powers or special powers, different from yours, it's my word,

you are same to anyone Whatever you call it! and that is or was like you, the

difference lies in the course of life and will, in the intensity and joy with which

everyone ran their formation with my Self, not all are so willing but anyone

can be if you really feel the called and endeavors in that way.

So do not complicate things, I did not write any book I gave, maybe I inspired,

but these will, all that I inspire to be receptive; all this has been the best of

fools like you stubborn, so they felt in the heart, where I certainly have

intervention and often contradictory, weak briefs to the critical analysis of

reason, low gloss and no value literary, going through trash in the eyes of

those who are full of it.


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But it often happens that the false with the passage of time so called sacred

for its antiquity, and because it was intentional and beautifully crafted by the

council of great minds, convenient reasons that are clones retouched my

image, being outside in its purpose to mine; you'll notice quite simply

because they serve at the convenience of those who support those who seek

to impose and prevail as I said even at the expense of the blood of all

mankind, so are people afraid stubborn, careful there, that are so crooked,

that first and then crucify worship.

No one has the ability to hear my word to monopolize much less the authority

to write saying that I wish a particular truth, because if I do not impose mine's

mine! Who are they, whoever they are, to do it in my name? I have no speech

and my power support than love, we have already agreed not to understand

in its pure and infinite dimension, just to feel what is theirs and settle from

his tiny existence to be part of the universe.

If a parent, but you're here and I see you can not process your image, I'm so

me and I can not even describe your smile, holding you in front, so I know ...

That I'll say I No! Then say I put the words in your mouth, I had not the

courage to pronounce me, so I'll tell you: All images are as false and wrong

as religions that deal with them, and those that impose no images are even

worse, because through rites, words or symbols promoting the distraction of

those who desperately need to give meaning to his life, believing that any

importance or place have, as they are unable to be found by, for and

themselves, feel that their sentences are not the result of their actions but a

test or called your and suddenly everything in their lives but you're such a

sick way, as those who can not assert themselves and stick to the existence of

someone else;!'re in their readings, in his words, empty and frightened all

his life, but they are not in your heart, for it put you insist.


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I feel that you do not need to be served but we serve ourselves to poderte

truly serve, you want me to praise and glorify not pronounce your name but

executing it, not like cowards, fearful children glued to your lap pretending

that everything is sin or live in your grace for repeating as alienated any text

or meet certain rites, as above, as the symbols does not really have any

meaning or power, rather than those who need or want to grant them based

on our needs in this power play, simulation and justification What is life

right? Yes, although that was not worth what you have said, was vanity

Hahahaha ... you know you're right and you want credit for what is not?

Hahaha why do you ask me what you know ... Dad is just so you know you

stubborn! Hahahaha ...

You are the prime example of the type of action to which then call them

selfless love, heroic courage or holy goodness, actually very few of their

actions have human disinterest sticking to mine; give or do always have a

result and they are always planned or expected a greater or lesser extent, so

do not try to do without expecting anything, but waiting for the right thing.

No matter how I represent, even in animal form or dissected into different

deities, the way I conform their capabilities, I repeat again, I have no

interference; if they say I'm a bull, eagle and lion, even the most learned that

I must be in his image and likeness, representing me blonde or tan, brown or

blue eyes, I do not care really, it's something trivial that in no way affects the

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I think our real undoing and self-punishment, we are despicable because we

despise ourselves because we are cowards and prefer to know or think about

other things, look away, never inside where not feel nothing but shame for

all you can be , shame not only do nothing to change it but accept that what

we want to do; Fallen angels are real, those who speak in some religions,

but not for having revealed to you Who or what could? One need not be an

angel to know what something stupid; but otherwise, thinking deeply, why

think so were the humans that reveal us with such scorn, for I believe that

only our stupidity is as infinite as your love and inner shock comes because

having something from you, even in microscopic quantity, compels us to feel

the only good thing that we maybe able: Shame of our being.

That shame is only human and redeeming all that let us be, we have the

patience or mean faith that will germinate in love consequential actions that

have no doubt that you will be able to generate; From the foregoing I contend

that we are not the work of your love if your humility, your faith, your hope,

even if you tell me you are who you are, divine, eternal rest, I need to feel

you have that faith, that hope us, because I already do not have it ... If I have

a big head, I have faith in you, you believe it, I have faith in you ...

For I have seen so much in so little Father, this world is a fratricidal war

without mercy, without pity, where death is the least of the sufferings, so

much blood, so much pain, so much pain that I can not wear this uniform and

hopefully can not find the sense of justice anywhere, not worth anything and

life, sometimes I feel that everyone is guilty, that there is no innocence and

goodness, I feel that everything is useless ... So you feel now and therefore

all others will feel to you and reflects, comply accordingly, but I will say that

I never felt as strong as when I demanded payment, you have the grace to


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turn your complaints into prayers and very effective by the way, why you

always generated force to change that which gave rise to them.

You are a warrior of mine Already you forget? Therefore we uniformaste and

you've started, do saved so many, that at some point should be yours turn and

that has come, do not be alarmed now not to feel satisfaction savior and if

account despair of those who oppressed is helped now I'm the police I

pigheaded! Now you're the girl in a floor clutching the lifeless mother body,

now I feel what you then, to see these helpless, needy eyes and that fragile

little body bent by fear and did everything necessary and did not allow evil

and saw that abducted girl rescued by fire and sword, and saw that girl

abused and persecuted relentlessly to arrest the assailant, so you see I

headed, with love I'm here for you and there will be you can avoid protect

you now that you need not fear, you've already overcome the shame of your

tears the one with which I could not impose my will on this matter further.

Dad ... all that, I did it for vanity, because I felt invincible, a knight in shining

armor who received the awards and honors glad I did not because I know

good! ... Yes I know, you did a proper name with my name on the lips, but

what you did not know in those moments is that while it was a vanity who

received the rewards and pride alpha male which was fed, were not the

source of such actions, for you only know the strength of your muscles and

the certainty of your weapon now that the body has collapsed begin to know

your true strength, its legitimate source; Because it is not the hand holding

the sword or throw the spear, let alone who raises as many times as necessary

or stop doing it if my son, if not the heart, no matter the strength of the arm

without the will .

Do not be sorry for your vain interests were not created perfect but to serve,

and in that sense have pleased me, you've been true to your nature precisely


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even despite all your flaws, so do not compare with lions or other fierce ,

those actually flee face when doing so, destroy who hurt them if they can

actually see nobility in them because as a symbol reflect what in you is

opaque, it is true that men and women injured pleasure but also stay of duty

or sacrifice for what they believe, such is the strength of the light reflected in

his being; is all that matters, do not then torment by the size of their shadows,

because they are simply proportional demonstration of its capabilities, that

although the process can hurt, we've already agreed that eventually do what

they should in this regard, rejoice, the greater the ability to see in your

similar damage must understand that when they decide to build will equal

love.

I understand, I've always thought that the size of the capabilities are the

actions and yes they are good or bad and it's a matter of determination, the

finish you choose them, so I know that you never bless anything, bread even,

then your blessings are our actions ... So mere stubborn! Never tell even

brother who I bless you if your intentions and actions are not governed by

love and goodwill, for indeed, my true blessing it in their hearts, so I made

similar and neighbors for having no impediment multiply it by their actions.

You are my greatest blessing and my son are the messenger of my grace, but

it requires you to do the delivery work, conveying the message in action; be

good or bad is only limited but not limited to, are what determine being, be

created creators, at either end you encounter or side that you have placed

are able to pass to the other, being good does not save you from making

wrong or justified, or bad will be prevented from doing good or demerits, I

think is so simple that there is no need to explain it with apples right?

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Do not you remember when you took your first bribe? Yes I replied lowering

his gaze I also stubborn, I saw what you accepted by not informing your

colleagues and superiors, you were a freshman in your first mission, I felt a

shame and as you burned your hands by the few coins you received, you had

need and went to leave for food for your children, that shame is indeed the

purest and active repentance led to what will always be, because it is not you

never will, even if it was a minor issue, it was born a great conviction and

golden rule of Inspector Iron REMEMBER ME please, since you repeated

every day at roll call in full training for the whole troop ... "never bring food

to your table that is impregnated with tears or blood, eat with and justice

alone, there is something more important in this life to fill the stomach

"replied raising his gaze from that day I was with you in a strange way,

because your words but I stepped always in action I wore your heart.

And you know that! They were saying them all corrupt influences that

threatened you with not being able to bribe you, you had a "godfather" That's

influences traffic lawyer! Sir not Hahahaha ... you said is very true cabezón:

Better a fool and God help you ... I would go with you always to the front in

the bailouts, in every encounter and clarify that ever I protected you from

anything, just went with you, I say so ... do not play romantic ideas Hahahaha

... I love your face tantrum! Hahahaha ...

Yes now these here is because you eat badly, almost no sleep and never take

off like the uniform, you worked both being the best, the toughest of the troops

and always goes to the front you will learn are not steel, but is ...Nothing! Is

your insecurity so sick you, always wanting to show external strength, when

you have a dynamo in the chest, they told you doctors was no reason to

acomplejarte, despair and look to be dead horned shots, should be ashamed

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It was despair, and could not with such dizziness, with much discomfort, and

yes, I was not fit for service, with shame of my condition, I hid under the

image of the rudest uniformed, forcing me to be better than all of them, for

fear of his jokes, I accept, but I have no fault that my brain is unbalanced, I

did not understand the explanation good or because they do not shed either

do not know what substances but listening non-convulsive epilepsy was a

harsh sentence to string life for me.

You know very well the embarrassment that I have used as a pretext by the

memory of my fallen in the line of duty colleagues to justify my discomfort

with the new diagnosis of PTSD, because the truth is I of these operations,

perhaps these clashes ended with a couple of superficial wounds and sorrow

of losing brothers But as I got in! Equally mentally unbalanced or

emotionally, I no longer go on with this charade I'm like I am! epilepsy,

hypertension, neurotic, with irritable bowels and eyestrain, poor balance and

concentration problems, hyperactive and anxious, all that and am more ...

What farce? The farce is your diagnosis stubborn, how could be not suitable

and have done what you did?You acomplejaste for nothing! I'm not here to

explain the energies that run through the human body, some for which is not

entirely capable, but by no means the be occupying it is disabled, but on the

contrary, is not to blame that the ability his heart exceeded those of his body,

that the voltage level say that the heart is able to function your brain

overheats, so confused or atrophy, and there hearts so pure, so rebellious

that no drop in pace or pact with bodily healing sacrificing his divine

capacity, because they know that healing is in all cases ephemeral and

eternal capacity.

Only I will say that many of the diagnosed diseases reflect the inability or

limitation of the method that diagnoses, making it easier to exclude


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understand or repress it impossible to deal with, we would have to see who

the real blind, deaf, dumb or invalid because even taking her fit body are

useless and unable to fulfill the will of those who put such labels; that to

which you curse and you feel shame or weakness is the source of your

greatest strength.

I hope you finally go understanding how this works: Human genetic

influences, but the divine will is determined. Often all suffering is just an

exercise, a chance to effort; you point me to a disabled and you will see a

titan in conformation.

Well, I'll leave you my joke tell Or you'll still mareándome with medical

issues? Hahaha ... Sure, forgive you! Hahaha ... The deer that we like it?

Ummm ... but what a joke, and you you know ... I know everything, but tell

me, you like me and I like to see how you tell ... is that so much to see that

not caring at home resources, did not want to accept that this happened

because it was just a supplier, it was never how you could see that properly

administered? My then partner in their reasons and claims, I in mine until it

was over.

My uncle Eduardo told me that joke saying, "Do not do tantrums, meets the

maintenance of your children and give them better worry with love by good

example, do not buy them objects to assuage your guilt or fill your absence,

destínales quality time and teach them the value of things instead of being

seen arguing with his mother all the time, listen to this and know what to do

", I thought it would be a sermon or a classic story of reflective or

inspirational guy, but knowing him, I could only laugh knowing what to

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Yaaa count it then! Do not make emotion ... buenoooo, behold there was a

field man, skilled with the shotgun but very overwhelmed by the needs of food

from home, were his wife and four children; not happy with this, each

arriving exhausted from days on the mountain with the dam shoulders which

had been hungry, cold, loneliness and dangers his wife always went willingly

with a sharp knife to cut up the deer, even as if asking was her husband,

saying: "This is so juicy thigh to my poor mother, who by their various

ailments are unable to care for herself and even home chores you tired; about

this part, runs daughter to take her to your poor uncle, since by his sufferings

and the sun affects the poor guy can not even take the field to sow by

headaches and waist; and so, the deer was greatly decimated, forcing the

unfortunate man and well rested one day, out again on their perilous hunting;

without being able to object because he was rebuked for selfish and evil by

his wife, so that night he decided to take a couple of beers with Don Teofilito,

bohemian and wise village, who after hearing their plaintive complaints,

thoughtful and smiling said his good friend: Actually the solution is simple,

yes you have your mother's love for her rocking that your hunger and your

brother should consume liters of brandy sleeping is because your body does

not know tiredness and work effort , your nephews could not care less as long

as meat on the table; do not fight against the family of your wife, whom you

must earn it, make it your partner, let the idea of how easy it all seems to you

to believe it will be a romantic adventure Invite her to hunting! Take it with

you tomorrow friend, fondly but spare no effort and see what will happen.

With this idea the hunter came to his humble hut and said, "Woman, I thought

that night on the mountain are very lonely and maybe if you would

accompany me less and warmer" with these words the woman could not

resist the invitation and neither had good striped sun I was ready, with horse

and provisions, freshly bathed, mimosa and perfumed, after all it was an

opportunity to escape the routine of home, children and spend some special

time with man for which ever had completely. So they started the day, two

days of outstanding mountain where they rained buckets and were besieged

by various beasts and dangers, she had lost the brightness of the eyes and

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thanks to the Creator when her husband told her they had reached the place

where deer watered, it was necessary to keep silence and be still and so for

almost another day pass where women felt numb and every muscle in his

body; when finally, the dam showed up, the man said tired but shot, the deer

was his wife gave Gripo of joy and relief as a missed shot any meaning at

least one more day of waiting; so they turned back without romantic evening

or relaxation time, the hair lady was an old broom and his fat swollen feet,

but relieved hurried up the horse to return you doing woman! The horse can

not get enough, can only charge the dam, is a big deer, you and I must walk

back home two days return made women almost enter into trance of

exhaustion and hardships of the mountain, when I finally spotted the hut and

saw the glory, and being near the entrance they came jubilant as ever to see

the deer four children, of which most came provided with knife wondering

what part shall command him this time my grandmother and uncle mommy?

The woman's eyes widened and without hesitation replied angrily: Look girl,

you you touch it and you will remember deer life who is your mother by

varejonazos I will give you this deer is not shared with anyone! How do you

see Santa? Hahaha ... Hahaha Very good stubborn!

That we lack father, empathy and solidarity with the effort of the couple, of

children, of our fellow always thought why an invention that does not exist,

an illusion like money controls the world and understood the perverse

strategy: Of all what power consumption to offer, nothing is necessary, their

best selling items that are not promoted if the idea that we need, we need the

money as vital to satisfy the desire created by insecurity and emptiness, only

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But back to what gas is a good example, I know that will mourn, but is a non-

lethal weapon and a non-permanent suffering, I prefer it, to see them laugh

as they destroy or deform far from satisfied So why the wars, the rivers of

blood and the whole human atrocity? How can you say that is not lethal or

damage is not permanent? I told you I have no interference in their internal

purges, just think better so, because you are obsessed with both order and

progress that are blind to the costs, I'd cry his tragedy, his madness

fratricidal to celebrate their progress in the sun when, without exception will

have to burn and fall; otherwise, it is lethal for humanity not for his divinity,

as the first thing is none of my business nor is actually greater importance,

then I'm sorry, but I do not look at the tire wear motorcycle if not the

breakthrough that gives me the rendezvous Already?

Your matter or corporeality is but an eventual transport to a brief scale of

many, because their goal and destiny to fulfill is so deep but not far, as there

is anywhere else than inside since his arrival transportation will not be

relevant, as any pipeline is scheduled to serve and wear, although like

everything is preferable proper use, not for preservation but a more

comfortable ride based on the good condition of the vehicle, but it has to get

junked, does not really matter; my thoughts, my reasons for you to

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So why do you love us? even if it is in a way I do not understand ... Because

my love is yours! Then then it's alien to me, and the alien must be handed to

the owner ... then what you expect from that? ... That I do not expect ... You

do not understand plain! Think what you want it, you better answer in your

terms to see if once you understand the essence of life: hope mine! A love

that is as beautiful as yours ... -quedé dumb to feel the truth that slipped into

my chest, I could not believe how heavy and dark curtain was now looked

down at my feet Hahahaha That was it stubborn!

Now you feel: I hope my love! and so worth it, wait for it to arrive as though

eternity later, the end of the day I have that and a little more; you are able to

love beyond what you think your soul, which is naturally full of doubt and

fear can bear; I'll be smiling when they find waiting for them there, at that

point, where we shall see the dawn of the spirit to continue the journey ...

Hahahaha You understand and because I can not, rather do not want to

intervene or force its forming process?Because I know that there will be a

great result! And the wait me is no problem in this regard is not only a result

in assault, if not something accomplished.

Ever since I can remember, was not able to explain that the mind was a

fearful brake such progress, thanks for making me feel welcome

explicación.You're! Achievement is all yours, if you had not got it was

because you were looking in the same mind with small torch of reason, now

that you've found your lighthouse, you can not mistake the way and never

lose.

Unless you decide to follow another light -interpuse with a smile alluding to

freewill There is no other true light! Can choose to follow mirages, shadows

or reflections, but sooner or later she will return to the guided you dear Ley

de Herodes stubborn way! it seems that only with that understand Hahahaha

... ashhh it I forget that you can not ... you can not forget, you're a

scorekeeper said Mecca grandmother, nothing Hahahaha ... well Hahahaha,


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I can not blame you for trying, in a of those is gum and sticks! not What no!

Hahahaha ...

Not only did he ever stick any of your gum with me, but also never punish

you for trying that and other daring more, because you always come back to

the road, not just you if other men and women who make humanity You see

because I do not understand or know crime or punishment? They are not my

field, you realize now that sadistic or masochistic What others are not? You

may wonder ... lol. Ummm ... I always end up alone about applying, so I think

I find myself quietly prettier right?Miracle! I let you see how quiet exist and

yes I am that I am! Hahahaha ...

We are so different, so distant from his humanity that we almost touched at

the other end And that's the purpose! Here and now I'm not an invention of

his superior intellect or are you in my image and likeness; Who will build me

a convenience only erecting a monument to his distorted and perverted

mentality and who considers my image and likeness will be paying tribute to

and stupidity, but fearful, shortsighted and arrogant pride.

Everything including his desire, his will be directly weighed in this balance

without possibility of mistake you'll be found to be insufficient or poor all his

works, though they are of one of my creations; equation to understand and

implement the formula correctly, the results are not to be satisfactory for

anyone.

Does that mean you can not be happy in this life? No matter how much we

want it, how we want it, we will find only suffering ... Exactly! Your claim

has found the truth, that means stubborn desire is the trap of reason.


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Who wants to be happy can be difficult because the polluter want happiness,

the trick is simple: Just start be no desire or reason! Today I know just happy

that you can be, the whys do not matter to heart, because true happiness is a

kind of madness, knows no reason, as life itself is not due to mortal desires,

it is you who has to comply with it and not the other, that you know, then you

know the riddle of happiness.

In this game your fears, complexes and insecurities are the measure of

omission, like your love, sacrifice and joy fit your action; what you call

chance is leave your reason and prudence of fear, because those who really

are all looking fewer opportunities; true wisdom is not born to abstain before

what is believed or known notorious consequences, if not at what you want

and want when it goes against your being, although it appears that no

affected in their actions, as in all crimes, there will always be a victim and

not see is the lack of greater care, because very likely be the perpetrator the

victim.

We could continue with all the words that have nothing of consequence to

your actions nor their true meaning, because its language is counterfeit

currency in which only his vanity shines with paid each other, then mourn

because they underpaid knowing who sold false because very often in its

agreements or relationships and go with the flawed will, do as you sow,

hoping to be the one who put the seed, pretend to care but are just next to the

tree to be the first collect the fruit, hoping to get the desired result; there

should not be complaining because who gives waiting, wanting something,

you should at least recognize that the same desire he attends the other hand,

so it is nothing more than a kind, a coin outcome between two hypocritical if

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Overall, pretend to strive but when something does not work or payment is

not as expected, then yes, your entire claim is full of pretense, to make

creditors in the hierarchy or status of innocent, helpless victims and abused

to which they should restore or meet not only damage than initially expected,

if not high interest and if people are not paid and the collection mode

martyr's life, fate or me continue.

Some good words even as vanity, which was originally a fair and healthy

feeling of satisfaction or joy of those are unique creators, have

misrepresented in their pride and arrogance, then disguise of false humility

and modesty, not known of divine vanity, yours is so unhealthy that have just

created a twisted vase mud and think it has flourished life and all the wonders

of the universe, calling GMs then slouching vile holding hands and looking

down in the posture humble false that feeds your vanity plate modesty.

If some of you might be angry that grotesque makeup, covering with its

deformed humanity No more despicable thing that vanity disguised as

modesty and humility dark desire dress! And the justification of a twisted

pleasure passing it through penance.

Anger would not be by evil hypocrites But for stupid! By refusing so pathetic

just and legitimate claims of their abilities; I hope the noble and proud not

submissive or afraid of me, for one who fears or can not be And my reflection

all can! But for that you should feel what true nobility and pride is nothing

but loyalty and compliance to your own being in spite of any adverse

circumstance, I do not need to kneel on the contrary, I love standing upright

and standing tall all your life facing all! Especially to me, who must seek

shelter but a reflection, obtaining in this reflex force protection is implicit if

not stubborn and unnecessary you understand? For otherwise how could

they reflect me if they are kneeling or crawling on the floor?


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Those who humble themselves in are called twisted convenience, crawling

through life in constant emotional and spiritual penance lugging a false cross

of guilt and sin flag tattooed on his chest, her moans of mourning dress,

because in reality they are not suffering but masochistic joy, which is why

they need to satisfy their desires a sadistic, cruel and vengeful god.

Those denigrándose humiliating his divine nature and reach an emotional

orgasm or religious experience are not more than sadomasochistic!They

worship the god sin! Well feel an almost sensual pleasure in the whip and

scourge cry while living in constant fear of his shadow, wanting to get away

from her, not understanding that it is themselves who their being cries

detachment to return to where it should; to that shade called satan, lucifer

the devil or just the look in everyone and everything for the simple reason

that it is reflected to have settled so dark desires, like a kind of sexuality

repressed or denied.

That deity is the most heinous of his inventions, because they are not sinners

They are sin! They do not seek redemption but such continuity orgy of guilt

and sin not cross that one would remove for nothing! Because the need to

justify their perverted pleasure; therefore his is a very popular and

convenient pimp god for low human passions, which justifies waiver or

weaknesses or desires, so they created that can not exist if it is not on par

with its vices and defects.

It is a noble servants of God but not an accomplice, puppet actually so evil

and deformed slave of his passions, frustrations and fears; low men and

women, traitors to their nature and called dark fearful herds that make up

what I am, who turn away from my sins and guilty of their fears fearing light,

always looking for me to look back on the ground without lift the heart,

pursued by his shadow, so caring for him the life of his god, because to stand


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and face me with open chest, that radiated light and shade that deity

evaporate.

But no tas bravo? Hahaha ... I'll say yes, because I know it makes you happy,

you need to make your Father scold you right? have some such masochism

ultimately Hahahaha ... Ummm! If you already know anyway John called me,

why you insist yes you can not ... because it is your nature and called

stubborn, always try, never give up, always move in that sense you are,

although not know, a real salmon; I'll tell you the most important thing in

our conversation: The Self is beyond existence and of life itself, the above are

fundamental requirements for him or for me, which in the end are the same,

are just some of its manifestations, but by no means unique; I am and where

I am, life as the mirage which cling does not exist and therefore does not

matter; why life is sacred because their humanity depends on it, but not

divine because its makes me be; so I compréndelo: Life is accidental and

even transcendental but not essential, so you do not have to be beautiful or

fair and perfect as the self and its conformation.

Well, although the word would you most like yourself would rather Salmon

warrior right? Hahaha ... Yes father, in my arrogance or you know you need

to see me as such, one which his vanity blinded him and fell, muddying his

armor was proud ... That dramatic! Hahahaha ... so I salts with the story that

you were no longer worthy right?No sir! Another bone with the dog, here

holds no dignity, is based, as long as you breath is your duty to do so even

with failure, but never falter to be worth it; my true warriors have very dirty

armor, even rusty, do not care, that is the job of the armor not theirs; I will

say that the most courageous and faithful to me, because of them the skill and

speed with which they act shed, are already more than a protective one

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Relativity does not exist outside us and then it is likely that everything else

either, concern feeling that came over me then maybe you were not relativity

and therefore existed ... Best I braked thinking! Because I was about to ask

if you could then be more relativity and it was a very unpleasant feeling ...

Hahaha Yes I told you that I am absolutely be giving validity to your

uncertainty, it is something that you and only you must conform to determine

... maybe life is an instructional video that can be edited or inserting some

images frame by frame, something like a three-dimensional interactive

material or think more than four times, all the while performing its task:

Teach us, give us experiences that allow us to feel and thus continue to

generate the movement of being; just almost never learn the lessons, we do

not matter or do not recognize the teachers who come to teach them, like a

curriculum, life is not a fad; we can not choose teachers or situations that

teach us, but if we can understand and feel satisfied because of them.


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Sometimes only respect what we think than we, like you for example, I think

that is why we are so bad students, because we have the humility that is the

ability to recognize something or someone smaller to a teacher, or a bad

situation a lesson, we are arrogantly self-limited What's not?Indeed

stubborn! The essence of creation is such, no one can choose their

appearance or circumstance, because their existence; but you all have the

ability to determine them at will by its nature in shaping their due Ser;

happened after this, they will have changed by the volitional work, but never

by mere desire.

Look closely stubborn, that the conformation is an execution of power, magic

if you want, for you all by accident, apparently, can be located at a certain

time, place or circumstance that they can not settle on unless you are Because

permit its rationale is quite the opposite! What do I mean by this: You can

spend a lifetime of suffering or limitation of sickness, poverty or any other

circumstances and still exert such power run And you determine! do you

choose yours or part of your being such a circumstance, but your existence

suffering its effects or consequences; ie you recognize their existence outside

but simply do not accept it or staying in your heart.

This does not mean that the disability or suffering disappear, even you can

overcome them and your life will have a happy end like in the movies,

because there are conditions that are relatively permanent, but if you'll be

guaranteed to be waterproof inside thereto; not understand it as a kind of

denial of the problem, however, is his full acceptance but at the same time

you recognize in this agreement to respect their right to exist you assert a

higher, grand supreme: Your right to be though the conditions of your

existence.

In short, all housed more disability that is in your body, any more hard

poverty and everything that is suffering more traumatic it can not penetrate

beyond this physical existence; can limit your body, your mind, but can not,


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unless you allow, limit or contaminate your heart, even if they, again I stress,

companions look ungrateful life and know that you will have to walk at or

subject while they breathe, that does not mean that your friends do, much

less your masters, or that you marry and procreate suffering negative

feelings; That's when I make guest in their being and my name in their mouths

loses all its importance as exist, for those who call me often is because he

missed his heart instead of my to such pains, sufferings and sorrows.

So shaping allows you to see the defeats and everything that hurts or injures,

as something external happened how it happened and can not or must

change, but that will not hurt you, make you mourn nor cause additional

changes in the physical or material granted to you if you do not tell him that

suffering: I am yours! Or to that sentence are mine! It is the prerogative of

man, run the power of creation in the sense that determine his will and

thereby shape their reality itself, because the hearts of men and women never

have to settle for the dark even though it is a lifetime it, because they know

that their existence is mortal but eternal being.

Therefore I tell you, do not panic by human cruelty, not lose hope in your

fellow man for his infected right, because intelligence has nothing to do with

me, by that which some give them for calling elegantly supreme intelligence,

wishing vainly set myself up in gold to their limited capabilities monument,

I'm not smart nor am right, I am I pure love nothing else, it emanate all

things, the energies of the universe and the conformability of each being

determined by how broad, loud and clear they can both receive and transmit

that energy, that message.

If it were religious I would say that human intelligence is the true whore of

Babylon, with all its scientific and technological pleasures that delight and

sustain the great emperors of the world; for this reason prostitute dressed


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and convenience you agree to be pawns in private chessboards, kill for it, die

for it; is why in their wars all sides are right and want all the glory flags,

even offended on my behalf and offer themselves ready to defend it at the cost

of blood sister; but as I say, in the end everything will be fine, you can not be

nor be otherwise receive peace in your heart, that the future is yours, my

eternity and a little more.

But how I can be at peace with much abuse, so much injustice, living in a

world where ten men own ninety percent of the wealth on the face of the

earth, where children starve while ships are sent to other planets ¿How

father? For settling for stubborn, wealth and everything material is evil

reflection of a desired shape created by the cloned human intelligence to the

ground and the suffering it causes is no transcendent truth, I repeat.

Do not let the hatred in your heart for those fellows who before your eyes

hold great power at great injustice, for only evidences your weakness, your

little tolerance and little compassion for them should feel really, not because

they are to receive divine punishment, but because its structure is so painful

and hard self-determination; every great earthly lord, even belonging to the

largest royal house, believing master of all you look, the king of the board

then, is not an insignificant, microscopic dust particle board in mine, even

as far one of my pawns, which I have entire universes, eternal and infinite

divine things would not understand them.

All my holy warrior must conform as an oak, unshakable pride to be driving

an avenging vigilante, because you misunderstand many of the feelings or

behaviors that despise considering them unworthy of a warrior and your

desire to reason justifies punitive action, say envy for example: Calm yourself

and see with your heart is good that you envy! For such an alien feeling

reflects your size, so you will understand me, who envy you do not know how

to recognize the shadow are toasting, the light that you filter and shelter you


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provide, is a thank badly formed around, take it as a compliment because,

with I know it means your vanity.

So all you rejection, not only of your own reflection as cowardice for

example, which you hate shame could you no longer have to settle for the

feeling in your childhood generated abandonment, sadness and violence,

meant that you could not do anything, do not correspond, was the creation

of your parents not yours; that one feel guilt and shame for small and

unprotected now justifies the projection of your megalomania, your violent

and intolerant nature; by the way, as a novel concept is good What did you

call? Ahhh yes ... Tenochtitlan syndrome or blood of cowards, the complex

of the violated and the mentality of those who can not shake off his past social

genetic memory of rape and abuse, such as emotional shape deformations

that you approach to be useful.

In this theory or definition of this syndrome I argue, aversion fans you know,

those who go screaming for the blood of do not know who has power, who

actually even that was too cowardly and faltered at some point, so for me,

the power is in the blood of cowards, not that of the brave chosen because it

is the fuel which will have to settle for what they are called to be; that

courage, that courage which does not emanate from the attack of the lion but

the nobility of the servant is really what I feel like no matter what? As your

resort or Tenochtitlan syndrome is merely a way of putting the conformation

and I like, since you consider yourself still that fearful which child for hate

crying and studs coward, I guess I can work with more people headed, as far

as I know I do not choose anyone, no brave elected but cowards who are

chosen, which have made themselves like you and me accordingly.

If Father, truths are very simple, but sometimes complicate both the desire

not to believe, to say that we do not know, to justify our fears, even squirm to


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create the lies that are the reflection of our inability to complying with this

truth; therefore I do not have conflict, feeling that the human being is evil in

his actions, I see this condition so we are proactive sucks! Yes, because we

are the fertilizer that will germinate your seed of love and will.

Father understand that men and women do not have to become demons have

been through hell, and have assured Paradise for having grown up in a

sanctuary; and speaking of fallen angels, I believe in demons redeemed,

everyone determines that you gave your power to conform with our feelings

over our existence; in the end, angels or demons are made of the same, you

and you will return as they should, the determination or conformation that

implement will only plot the route, a more or less direct What's not?'re

Hallelujah! Finally got it headed, as you say, twenty or thirty times you

repeat things you understand ... Hahahaha

You know I felt from the first second you came to talk to me, just ... I would

last for all eternity this meeting Padre therefore replied both, but really no

more to say, because everything is sense and agreed This is ! You also know

that you came because you felt it, so no need to explain or discuss anything,

how many times do you repeat to consolidarte up to you; I make company

because you are forming and I require, it is a divine command which even I

am bound to obey the will and self-love.

Ahhh ... Look at it! Do you then to obey this command or control command

as it were?Of course stubborn! I obey because I obey because I am the most

true to myself, my instant eco, pure and clear, that does not expect or ask for

anything, playing and running in perpetuity and perfect; because in the end

his free will is only emptiness, the time it takes to play my Being, in faithful

echoes settle in resonance with the universe and the infinite, meanwhile, are

free to complete the resonance as replicas or echoes of yourself, my echoes,


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but must always be in mine accordingly; but I will not spoil your moment of

joy flavored vanity as you are good human Hahahaha ...

Only I will say that is very true what you both repeat to your troops, you

better know who best know send obey; in this regard have no idea of my

obedience, nor on its significance or in its infinite and divine dimension,

which is why I am what I am, so the infinite, the all or nothing obey me

without even the need ordering, what is more, without even the need to think

... order. Hahahaha ... Yeah ... .Jajajajaja stubborn! You have no idea of the

significance of the joke, the grandmother said Makkah Vos you thought ...

you have no judgment! I told my old cute ... Indeed I have no judgment! I

have no reason or need for everything your intelligence involves.

I'm here as your ability allows it and implies therefore I am to you that

Heavenly Father who both require to settle, but so am also nowhere for the

atheist the cross for whom it chooses to believe all is valid for the

conformation! While running the delegate power to his being divinely

ordained endorsing all circumstances without allowing them to absorb them,

because as I said, may be a lifetime there, but be human prerogative to settle

them in desire to or settle them in the exercise of volitional and loving power.

Why men and women need something to go them life, were experiments,

revolutionary inventions and great explorations before, now every moment

is captured in photographs that will never return, but still time holds for me

its purpose, it is like money, a cheap currency change and small

denomination, exists because it is my will spend it on what or how is your

proof of life, exercise of will and determination of conformation.

All what you consider evil and injustice is not more than the default of such

determination, the reflection of the empty waiting for the project due; who is

bad is because they simply suffer the emptiness of not finding the way to be


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missing that one retransmission frequency allowing it to be eco, but will,

because no matter how long that his humanity as what its meant to be it

therefore .

Do you remember when you were young and beautiful tell you? That

Psychologist with which therapies became discussions and then in love

Hahahaha ... What's your name? Misogynist! Unbearable Macho Remember

as you were making Raging What you were saying about women? Go! Tell

me, do not portes me as thin person who does not suit you cabezón Hahahaha

... Ummm, is to mess with women is like agreeing with Dad devil always

leaves one missing, better not think already then! ¿we will carry as knights

or what we are? not always ask that people? not afraid to let you see or

losing sympathy for your future book for telling me the phrase both makes

me laugh Why were saying not used to discuss with women after her? because

then fall in love the women can not contradict, less nagging because they fall

in love, like the bad life Happy? Hahahaha ... Yes! Hahahaha ... you know

they are like to be more receptive to me tolerate more manure of life, would

you say shit, so they are able to love you the men Hahahaha ...

Both were right, she to say you were a quarrelsome child needs affection,

your God has not loved if you were indeed the jerk that you strive to project

fear and insecurity, you you had not loved if thou art not heard beyond their

hurtful words and felt his heart to heal, to protect and complement you; as

you see, had a language other than conventional, because sadly his words

almost never consistent with their true intentions; Meanwhile lawsuit were

formed both with each other and everything works like stubborn love, no need

for agreements and what is said is superfluous when you feel what you do

and it always will be indicated by what all, as I have repeated ad nauseam,

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But Dad, that relationship and all that followed, was finished I do not think

has been a good end does it? It is not yet the end, men and women also make

couple in love, to finish his work in this regard, to be integrated with the

duality of being, some need a single pair, others try on different, not no

failures or errors, everything is progress indeed, all are destined to join

couples not to procreate, as many say is the purpose, if not for the call of

being in duality ... as I explain ... it's like the cells that together not to create

another if not for the end result link, it would be like mitosis because ...

ashhh! Maybe, let's talk about something else, in a matter of women you've

tried as much as what you lack and do not understand yet, but you will

someday.

Already you see, I told you it was a difficult issue for you just stubborn! So

we approach it better not because you do not have the capacity to do so to

listen romantic poems and all claims that women do suffer them to you poor

men, defenseless to the charms of such treacherous beings, endowed with

almost diabolical cunning that like to hear it? now let's talk about something

else, because I get bored with that issue, as always parrot the same, the same

complaints without understanding that they reflect all their insecurities and

shortcomings as men, their fear to settle for them, because it would grow and

grow somehow no longer be the way it was, what his selfishness understood

as the worst death threat to its existence that's it! fear love as a woman can

do and call their desire or pride wounded love, when it is only the selfish

claim your fear, insecurity and need for affection, when they lose the fear of

loving without expecting to be satisfied will then be filled in his absence.

Because it is not comfortable to accept that there is any wrong doing in them

is simply the direct result of his failures as a couple what do we do, if we do

not understand? It is not about understanding cabezón understand!

Hahahaha ... The symbiosis between two people is not achieved by reasoning

or speaking, but feeling and acting accordingly, best dialogue and requiring

no word is love If you want to understand a woman amala! But then you fail


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to understand the selfish in you and that does not suit the man who enjoys

the pleasures that the selfishness provides, so it's better to say that nobody

understands women, right?

So when a man falls in love lives in reality agony, because the woman has

the ability to make sacrifice to the beast inside why so afraid! Thus the desire

for revenge, not for those psychological nonsense invented the womb and

stop being breastfed, but because that beast known that in this sense the

woman is the tip of my spear with which his heart will always be exposed and

helpless, however hard the shell.

Entonces ante su temor le permiten tomar el control y actuar a esa mitad

destinada a ceder su espacio para la pareja, es la que simula entender,

simula amar cuando en realidad solo siente deseo y un vacío compulsivo que

no pueden saciar en ninguna mujer porque se encuentra en ustedes; por ello

engañan y tienden emboscadas a la mujer, para hacerla caer en su trampa,

satisfacer sus deseos sin exponer el pecho, porque de hacerlo estarían

perdidos sin remedio; por ello van de romance en romance, tratando de

encontrar lo que llaman su complemento, su media naranja, cuando no están

dispuestos a partirse por la mitad para conformarse con ésa mujer.

¿Cómo pueden conformarse en un solo ser, sí de las dos mitades una de ellas

no está dispuesta a ser mitad y en su egoísmo quiere solamente consumir al

ser amado, servirse de él? Nada puede ser uno y medio, ya que si se conforma

con algo más, no importa que sean dos o tres según el caso como el de su

entendida trinidad, el resultado de tal ecuación siempre será el Uno.

Y es un egoísmo estúpido el suyo, que al final trae más conflicto para ustedes

que para las mujeres a quienes burlan, porque ellas tienen un propósito en


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la vida adicional, sin que sea obligatorio, pues también queda a su

determinación, mientras que ustedes se condenan a vagar por el desierto de

la vida como leones viejos, tristes y enfermos; vacíos y decadentes en su

egoísmo por no entender que para conformarse es necesario ceder ¡Pero es

que ellas también son peores! Jajajaja ¡Claro que lo son cabezón! Si tienen

más capacidad para una cosa, por lógica también la tendrán para la otra

¿Qué no? Yo no te dije que fueran santas, ni que sean superiores por el

simple hecho de ser mujeres, simplemente que ellas han determinado

conformarse en un ser mejor de lo que es el hombre; por tanto al igual que

tienen la capacidad de amar como a ustedes tanto les cuesta, también tienen

la capacidad de engañar como a ustedes no se les imaginaria; lo anterior,

de nuevo solo es el reflejo, el efecto lógico de la carga social ancestral a la

mujer impuesta, que le permitió afinar sus sentidos y desarrollar otras

capacidades dormidas cómodamente en ustedes ¿Qué esperabas? En modo

o mentalidad de guerra una mujer es de temer, porque es experta en soportar

la agresión de un sitio como ciudad amurallada, por ello cuando no lo

permite, ustedes solo pueden pensar en la fuerza para acceder a ellas en

cualquier sentido, porque de otra forma son totalmente incompetentes a su

lado.

And when violence is exercised to obtain a result this will always be flawed,

no matter which justify it or wear makeup with words like tradition or

custom, if you exert violence on something, violence receive at some point, I

think that's understandable to within their rudimentary limited logic and

reason Or I'll explain with sticks and stones? Hahahaha ... So take off the

idea that a woman would conquer, because it is not a trophy or a prize

accessed by force, a woman he loves her and she does the rest.

Oh Dad, but if the first crafty, cunning and strategic thinking are they

otherwise What if we could not have them winning? Applies the riddle of

happiness that you know stubborn, it is necessary to have them do not, you


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wish you possess, freedom will love and loyalty all eternity, no need

strategies, record yourself this: If you think of strategies , is at war mentality

and therefore willing to harm or do violence to that of obtaining a result.

Love Is not strategies, perhaps because strategy is the highest there, so you'll

understand me Oh great warrior! Hahahaha ... It's when you receive calls

and only those who do not feel the urge to give, remains the subject is not

happy and is willing to be the happiness of being loved; it comes to offer

himself in sacrifice to be eaten without even think of asking for something in

return or want to own even a single hair of the beloved, so both will be fully

satisfied, settling in one alone; and I hasten to fear or question, if something

goes wrong and gave all the other party does not correspond, however you

will have gained the ability to love and you've got my grace of person that

stays with you: You yourself, it will be like a fruitful and leafy tree that cares

little if someone starts one of its fruits and sneak thief flees like, it has the

ability to provide as many as needed.

So those who know how to love do not care of the fruit, unlike those who cling

to all they have, because it is not a fruit, it is actually a decoy, bait to be torn

not have the ability to regenerate, then running out of his hunting tool is why

love is not selfish or apprehensive with fruit, because it has infinite capacity

to obsequiarlos, regardless of the tree is valued or not; It is for this that the

happiness of the loved one, whether son or wife depends on trust, respect and

freedom of your being.

How often I hear of manipulators: I do it for your sake I just want you happy!

Certainly, they just want the happiness of being loved denying it! They want

to keep him hostage, not to let go, to continue living through it again for fear

of his selfishness; look at that woman to be more faithful to my eco is more

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and understand why they say no because they do not want, does not suit them

in their current area understand convenience! Deaf ears and say they speak

different languages and even are from different planets by fear of his desires,

because when a woman communicates with the heart is love that speaks not

suit you and listen because they impose the law love that alienate them

satisfaction and vanity I feel, to feel to be served and obeyed, that are lords

and masters of the castle.

Therefore, women have been victims of their oppression as a result of fear

and insecurity; hostage to their interests, desires and vanities, has been a

captive genie in a lamp, a prison social conventions which could easily be

released doblegándolos by the strength of their skills acquired in such

slavery, but because even offering which deer when rightly protest by that

status, heart gladly accepts his mission as my best warrior, guardian and

transmitter of life.

Their existence supports such penalties imposed by selfish fearful and

resentful like you, who envy them or claim to be able to love you feared a

level and want the love when they are not up to that capacity to love; they

are there, to love and even with all its faults love them with all my heart, but

you are what your attitude is not allowed, however they do not lose hope or

become discouraged by the constant failures or shortcomings of man,

because they feel the call, the significance of his being and thanks to that

oppression, to that gender inequality have been able to sublimate, to comply

with me, so far from harming them have done them a favor they return them

caring life inside and bringing them into this world.

Ahhh, but you stay quietly m'son! What happened? Did not you want to talk

about women? Hahahaha ... This Yes! Let's talk about something else

Hahahaha ... That I liked you! Hahahaha ... it is that you're absolutely right


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What could I say? Yeah men are few spoiled children and berrinchudos badly

needed them and so ungrateful at once, so I say that sometimes I think you're

a woman, everything you know and love us even with all our faults is not that

enough proof for such a claim? especially because everything you know, you

do not forget anything and always, in some mysterious way, you end up being

right and winning the Hahaha ... Hahaha Crafty! say discussions that I am

female to imply favoritism towards them and demerits qualities and skills

obtained pulse deservedly, they are the best apprentices for their effort does

not mean that you have influence or preference of mine because of their

gender, look no excuses stubborn, they have done better on its own merits,

period.

Another important aspect of family, group or couple formation, is not to

impose itself by analogy, as one of the most dangerous pitfalls of reason is

selfish and vain imposition of what is considered right, how things should be

for the simple fact that one or many of you see them in a certain way; That's

how you get offended when they see you eat a piece of chicken or beef and

they tell you are vegan or vegetarian and you have answered them ironically

"Do not worry, I like you regardless of your religion" be anything that

considered positive is good, try to impose it on others by force or intimidation

no longer.

That has left us very clear father, no more dangerous than an overwhelming

general idea that stands as just and true, to be validated by both tax for the

sake of others own; is a constant in our history which unfortunately have not

learned much, right?Apparently! Well thanks to those ideas that have

become rivers of blood even as a genre you have advanced and will continue

as always wake tyranny by violentamiento or constriction of its powers to a

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So the wicked tyrants, murderers are justified in their existence? Ohhh the

song you stubborn, again with the same, nothing needs to justify its existence,

only conform, or homicidal tyrant maybe that is part of yours, steep slope or

hill, you will have to climb and overcome making you stronger for their So I

duct as athletes "no pain, no gain" say? Without pain, no gain?Nooo

stubborn!You're an ass! Hahahaha ... So get it because you got used to pain,

but this is optional, the key in this life is the effort and the difference between

the joy of effort and pain of being forced is determining who will run in the

heart .

No matter who you impose or how you are assaulted, abused or hurt, you

always have two choices, take the mark and give way to the pain and strive

to overcome it and settle for clear and faithful to me, stronger, as the process

which steel hardens your sword, so you understand; in a way everything in

life is violence, it is work, it's effort depends solely on your relativity and the

approach you want to give; yeah you as you determine warrior never give

up, you will be invincible, perhaps killed in the battle because we did not say

immortal! But you've never known defeat; how to interpret the alien's own

struggle, it's not your stubborn problem, defeat or victory, as you all are

relative too.

That as a warrior you know and never escape the pain because it would run

away from yourself, in your own words I remember you because you were

drowned in tears and almost asleep told me: "Father, yes I have to suffer or

mourn it so! Your love makes me remember that I am not steel Tungsten Do

you know? Well I'm made of what follows Divine! Much can hurt me, maybe

destroying my body and extinguish my existence, but nothing to destroy my

self or extinguish the flame of my heart, "I will not answer because there was

no need, your heart did it for me; there I was contemplating you while you

convulsionabas with the panic of losing your mind and all your abilities, not

understanding that you were acquiring it really matter, I then looked like you


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did what with the wounded bird, pleased with your effort, your will, strenuous

exercise your power by letting your comfort without actually doeth for you.

Do not say how proud I am of you that would feed your vanity or give reason

for your fears, but my love and clarity with which my voice echoes in your

heart is the best of the signals; why you are one of my holy warriors, though

not the most suitable for human genetics, yes that indicated by his divine

genetics; must understand not to hate your condition, as is the fertilizer

where such seed germinates, where shall the fruit of your will that makes you

worthy to me, I do not need nor ox Titans in force, need hearts like yours,

without amount the state of the body where they are, their hearts are for me

like little sparks of diamond, which are always buried in stone and earth,

which is his reason and his body, sometimes dirt and mud, which are their

wishes and their passions.

But you must learn to moderarte, true warrior's discipline is temperance,

mixed patience, fortitude and humility; I know you hate the fisherman, who

found a way that fish weave, expand and robustezcan network with which

they are caught, such a clever way to make the same school deploying their

networks every morning and save each night, you da wrath of view, however

is not by challenging or grief that you will have to succeed as my warrior but

by that temperance that will make ofrendarte non-fight, I guarantee you will

have the expected satisfaction, you have to see how your peers the destroy,

but it does not have to be for your glory, not even mine, but for all of them,

which is their due conformation.

Now that you have laid down their arms, it is that you know better, you look

at your neighbors as your reflection, so will settle, since you talk so much

sacrifice, but unable to run it by those who despise expect a queen worthy to

die in his name! Or just cause in your eyes right?Does not work like


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stubborn! you have to settle for this change you and the rest will not it to

taste! You must sheathe your sword to what you offend or provoke, however

you might have to draw it to what pleases you, whether you want or want,

such is the power of my warriors, having nobility of strength and self-worth,

and as true humility and dignity to themselves to others, is that your ability,

otherwise you would fall in what you criticized one day to say, "do you know

of slaughter pigs, even when they are intended for slaughter".

I remember what you said to whom claimed a saint for not having done the

miracle: "Miracles do not have to happen every day, but can occur in any of

them and not see them does not mean they have not happened Lady ; have

faith in God while the miracle is always possible, does not deny his hope nor

claim to all who gave us "then I invite you to be part of the miracle of my

being, without distinction or prejudice claim, proyéctame in your actions

without you care about the outcome.

I know how the great master whom you admire so much, you know that he

died on a cross, no longer opened his eyes never, however expected to rise

in the heart of each of you when you are ready for it's resurrection you! What

is your brother, neighbor and the stranger, thanks to whom on that cross was

formed; Imagine if there struggled with his golden armor that was any great

king; Instead, he walked barefoot carrying his cross and broke his sword

opening the chest and finding the immortal weapon.

Be a warrior without strategies without honor is what most will be costing

you, because who thinks of strategies other than what we've said is war

mentality, also implicitly accepts defeat, because planning is pretend to be I

who play such a heavy game will always scraping stubborn because

everything is fun, everything is under control until you sink or troublesome;

His life is full of unforeseen and follies that have no more consequence than

most leave satisfied.


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Ultimately I know that it is not to have faith in you, we are in this life because

you have faith in us father; I know that if you allow a fall is because you have

faith that we can put ourselves in the foot; no need to believe in you, let alone

our love, now I understand, you need us to love and believe in ourselves; few

books I lost, others burned with these poems and verses from childhood

writing and discussions with my brother Niet among others, did not bother

me because growing and feel the strength of my muscles I was ashamed of

them and gave good losses.

He regarded the filled poets cowards and pathetic claims was a warrior!

That sustained strength in his right, arrogant I said, no longer read poetry,

nor write it on paper, you have a poem of your life Live it and make a decent

ode to a hero of legend! He had learned that life has many variables, the

most adverse or unpleasant, but it was a constant able to change the whole

equation: I.

I then fell in the way of the warrior, I feel that settling for one minute could

be an eternity and that it was worth giving everything in an instant, because

it would be the best of my life, that would last forever; I fell in love the

reflection of my armor and I forgot who had to reflect to be truly a gentleman,

and was for many years, proud, strong and brave as a bull, I managed as I

set or even when a beloved asked me to I wrote a poem like my adolescence,

arrogant and proud I said what? I made you a son, who is the fairest of all I

would write because it is my greatness incarnate; I really felt invincible

warrior armed yourself with a mission that justified all my faults and

shortcomings, because acting on your behalf as I therefore was otherwise

not important.


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Now that the body has failed me and that force was exhausted, I realize how

wrong I was, will always be the least most important, now I see my sin if

there is one: The usurpation of my vanity and arrogance in the right place in

your name and love; even more, now I see my stupidity, encrypt my value as

limited physical strength, when he was the heart and ignored; before coming

here crying in the quarter and for the first time that warrior cried with me,

knelt down and took his gun to get it over with his thankless existence, he had

not stopped, now I would have been the final act of his pride and vanity,

suicide in payment, show repentance and honor.

It was when the general alarm sounded and the rest you know, the distress

call of a kidnapping in progress so I know you didst set! And do not tell me

so want to believe, I do not care, and it was so; the joke is that as honorable

warrior saw the perfect start, going to face killing and dying without anyone

knowing that it had risen to such a confrontation dead; talk about it for years

as an example of courage, courage and honor That glorious end! However,

none of the bullets touched by more than front progressed, the victim rescued

alive and that tightness that brought me here was the result.

Thank you Father for that stupid snatch his heroic death, not to cede any

bullet turn the wheel and giving me the opportunity to look through your

service, honoring the covenant made true; because that warrior fell to his

knees and not to you, to himself, to his own falsity and recognized with bitter

days it was just an arrogant armor coward, bowed his head and sheepishly

took off, he understood that true courage is temperance, mixing strength and

patience, will and faith, it was not by force that was to get the correct results,

but by the love and sacrifice that such correct results were not always

successful, and most important joy with which one tries by them when they

are a good and just cause.


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It was that man so desperate, fearful and lost not find himself, much less you,

now longed for death as an escape, playing Russian roulette to prove

manhood or looking for that reserved for the brave in the battlefield death ;

was not a true warrior at heart who believed in going out to meet immortality

in battle, nor was the value its momentum, it was just a coward desperately

seeking a way out; thank you Father because I was part of it and now he is

part of me and you and being present at last we are one, we found the

entrance.

Now I realize that all the fear and suffering is because our humanity clings

to remain part of our divine being, requires privilege and extend its existence,

even when their purpose has been fulfilled; therefore human evil in this life

Now I see clear father! It's just our human unconscious rebellion to your

divine call to form the dust, dirt, mud from which our bodies are made, such

as small pots of fertilizer are, of which flourish the seed planted in our hearts;

is the selfishness of mankind learned to reflect some of your seed that is born

of desire and suffering claim; sin is actually your best blessing, because it is

human decomposition is compost! It is the claim of our mortality to our divine

being, is by his conduct that we have a way into the forgiveness that is a basic

form of love.

Because true love is self-sufficient, sovereign and independent, not only of

the capabilities and responses to be loved ourselves but actually he gives us

the privilege to dwell in our chest, like a divine force that comes to life in the

heart of every man and woman; love is nothing but the germination of the

seed, to love is to make the heart full of joy in the embryo from which will

emerge at the outbreak of our divine being, which is why love hurts, that is

why the pot afraid it is why we do not let the seed dry out fears and desires

because converted ground breaking will take root to said container for you.


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We are deceived seeds with wishes, passions or sedated with indulgences

with satisfaction, to which mankind of being kept as it can not germinate in

comfort zones; however, well understand what you say, Things will be as they

should and will be fine, because they can not be or be otherwise and these

seeds have by divine nature not only the ability to dry, but the urgency to take

root in you , at the end of such accounts humanity knows its inevitable end,

so do not try to change the inexorable simply postpone using desires,

pleasure or fear to accomplish.

I feel that all will be well, indeed the need, can not be anything other than

good, just and perfect form; now be demolished and is no shame, I realized

that the ground serves as a platform momentum, we must acknowledge and

leverage; fall has its advantages, being shot down is necessary at least once,

because the ground gives us a sense of direction and reference was not made

for us to stay in it dragging or lamenting, but that through them conform us,

we use it , we use to our advantage the pain of the fall, since not fall on

something soft if not hard and cold What better base or catapult might ask?

Falling into pillows I do not think will do much good, though some would ask

and would appreciate amortiguaras them hit so others know and that there

is nothing better than the floor, which will be two options after crash:

Wasting breath what would be killed or used as spring and propel higher,

but remain there is not an option in life.

Well I think I already grabbed as spectator or to cry my self motivational

speech is not it Dad? Hahahaha ... You go sir! Do not worry, total, in all

ways end up getting what you feel, both knew what not? Hahahaha ... I'm

here for you stubborn, but you said you did not need therapy or you turned

me off steam and cunning look who grabbed therapist and without paying

Hahahaha ... How do you feel about Dad? Hahahaha ... I'm sorry you my

son and that pleases me, but stop chattering and therefore there is much to

do; we will have opportunity to keep talking to him!


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I opened my eyes and did not know how many days had passed, i felt that a

truck had run over me, breathe it hurt, even flashing me tired, I saw the nurse

checándome pressure and the doctor reviewing some laboratory results at

the foot of my bed Do it was truly a heart Doctor? No commander, he did

have a very strong arrhythmia, heart rate was like a drum ............ ..

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A war tachycardia Acme! She smiled as she took my ways about clinical-

record But actually suffered a severe hypertensive attack suspect even spent

some clot, I think it's a miracle that no leakage or organ damage any

inspector Watch your body! Has all levels through the roof, cholesterol,

triglycerides, finally, his life has to change, advantage of this second chance.

breathing never did! He smiled the doctor In fact is as strong as a bull, in my

thirty years of service he had never seen such high pressure levels in the

blood like you wearing when he entered, say to review these records are

wrong by incredible if not scored any myself, his heart was heard from the

other office when I received it, verily his bodyguards saved his life thinking

it was a heart attack; seriously do not understand how it came out without

any damage I do doctor! I smiled ...

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