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HOPEFUL AGNOSTIC SYMPATHETIC MORMON

2011 Jared Anderson

When is a Mormon no longer a Mormon? Whose decision is that, anyway? Is it

completely up to the authority figures in an institution to determine who is out and who isin, or does the individual have some flexibility as well? This essay will address theboundaries of Mormonism, the needs of individual and community, and especially the

role of criticism within the Church.1

The Role of Criticism and Needs of the Individual

Views have been shared on online forums that the LDS community needs to shed the

poisonous elements which claim to be part of Mormon liberalism, but which, in fact,have no interest in promoting faith and are in many ways very harmful to the [liberal

Mormon] movement. I agree that individuals who feel the LDS Church needs to be

*destroyed* should not be a part of the institution. To be part of the institution with thatperspective would truly constitute a double agent, wolf in sheeps clothing, viper at the

hearth. I also agree that it should be a given (though we too rarely implement the

principle) that we should focus on the approaches that will most likely meet with success.

I fully agree that we need to focus on loving each other, working together, and givingweight to positives.

I disagree with such individuals, however, on the role of criticism in the Church. Myquestion is, how do we parse problem and solution, distill poison from antidote? Though

I agree that some approaches and tones are more productive than others, I feel that thehurt and frustration so many feel is also legitimate. The institution deserves love and

loyalty, but so do its members even more so I would say. I think the LDS emphasis on

supporting leaders and the institution at all costs can be unhealthy and destructive, just asan overemphasis on the negatives can be.

Here is how I approach criticism. I am fully sympathetic and fully critical of the Church.I give full weight to all the positives and all the negatives. I think I have a gift for

maintaining this tension, and I am not saying the approach is for everyone. But it is

important to me to acknowledge fully the beneficial and destructive, good and bad,

healthy and harmful. I see the whole, and love it. Now, I am critical of the Church*because* I love it. I want it to succeed. I cherish Mormonism and want as many people

as possible to be able to benefit from it. I especially mourn when people feel unwelcome,

that they dont belong, when they feel the need to leave when , according to the principlesof the gospel, they should not have to.

This topic is probably worthy of a separate essay, but I sustain the Church leaderswithout always agreeing with them. And if I think Church policies and practices are

1 This was originally posted on faithpromotingrumor, in response to a specific post by Chris H.:

http://www.faithpromotingrumor.com/2011/05/hopeful-agnostic-sympathetic-mormon/For this version I

have tried to generalize the discussion.

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harmful, I will stand up for my beliefsin the post positive, productive, and loving waypossible. I want to remain in the Church. But I also sincerely hope it becomes better and I

want to be a part of the solution as much as I can. I have a model of revelation that makes

this work for meI think that revelation is given to us according to our expectations,and so the leaders of the Church are sincerely doing their best with the world views and

understandings that they have. I think God gives them as much truth as they can accept. Ialso think they are wrong about some issues, caught in outmoded paradigms. I realize thisis controversial, but I think scripture and logic support this approach.

I will now make personal my initial leading questions. The question is whether I have a

role in the community, as I define myself as a Hopeful Agnostic Sympathetic Mormon.Here is how it works for me. I will preface this by saying though I am sincerely agnostic,

I am also open to the Mormon narrative being true in many ways. I love the idea of Jesus

as my Savior, Heavenly Father and Mother greeting me in heaven, and all the otherMormon beliefs I cherish. Functionally, in most ways I live like a believer. I hope that

many of these ideas have at least some truth to them. You could say I live by faith while

also thinking WAY too much about the limitations of knowledge. ;)

Religion, Symbols, and Perception

Each of us needs to figure out how to negotiate the balance between our individualopinions, feelings, and needs with the needs of the people and institutions with whom and

which we have relationships. Though I am acutely aware that the same approach will not

work for everyone, I find this one to be very satisfying and hope it may prove helpful toothers.

First, I believe in the symbols and meaning of religion even if I am agnostic about the

referent of those symbols. I sincerely believe in the power of belief in God, the power of

belief in the priesthood, the usefulness of choosing to live within a world view withloving Heavenly Parents and eternal friendships and progression and individual worth

and indomitable hope. I love the Mormon worldview and I live as if it were true even

though when I press the limits of my intellectual belief I admit I dont know if I canaccept it literallyin fact, if most of it were true it would be a pleasant surprise. I find

love the parallel of religion to languageI delight in the dance of effective language and

wordsmithing. Does it make a bit of difference that there is no objective correspondence

between the letters I am typing and objective reality? Not at all.

As I said before, I see religion as a shortcut to access metaphysical principles we dont

fully understand. So I can enter a different state of being and thinking that is a religiousworldview and find meaning and benefits in that state of being. There are real benefits to

believing in a caring deity, to prayer, to believing in the potential of every person we

meet. There is power in accessing a mythical framework to forgive yourself andtranscend limitations. At the same time, I fully acknowledge the weaknesses and potential

damage that these same principles can do. The avoidance of responsibility being one of

the greatest among them.

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Do I wish that I could just believe in things literally again? Sometimes, kind of. But notreally. Because this approach allows me to consciously choose the very best of religious

tradition and put it together into the way I want to conceptualize myself and the universe,

kind of like a form of metaphysical home decorating. And I am aware of the hurt andnegatives that come with my cultural conditioning, and I can reject them and live a model

of my religion that represents the best of its potential while putting aside damagingelements.

Second, I am realistic about the fact that we cannot engage with reality outside of our

own perceptions (and our conceptions, though we can change those). This is a big

philosophical reason I am agnostic, but it also helps me interact with literal believers withlove and integrity. I realize that the way they see the world is REAL FOR THEM. Thus I

can engage with that reality honestly and respectfully even though I personally dont

believe it in the same way they do. This is where my ideas of precise communication andtranslation come in. I dont want to shatter their productive worldviews with my

doubts, though I can find opportunities to challenge unhealthy aspect of culture and

religion. But by focusing on the underlying principles of the literalistic stories, I cancommunicate with integrity. So if I were speaking about the Atonement, I could speak

fervently about the power of the Atonement to overcome our weaknesses and find peace

and transform our characters For me, the Atonement works as a sort of cosmic drama

with different parts of me playing the role of sinner and savior. But I can translate iteasily over to the person who takes it all literally.

And here is the central idea whether Jesus is objectively the Savior or simply a veryeffective symbol, IT DOESNT MATTER. It doesnt matter because the only reality we

can engage with is the intersection of our perceptions/world views and others and theoutside world. That is the reality of others that I engage with. Meaning transcends

explanation and carries its own truth, a truth worth respecting. Thus I can be an agnostic

active Mormon and engage with literally minded members and still have integrity to whatI believe and have a hard time believing.

People have asked me if I am really a Mormon. Here is a partial response: For me, I amMormon because I believe the Church and its leaders and its history are all inspired of

God. I am Mormon because with all its faults, I don't know of any religion better,

especially once you factor theology and potential into the mix. And most importantly, I

am Mormon because this is my faith language, my heritage, my people. I love thiscommunity and religion and want to do all I can to make it as healthy and good as

possible.

I realize many will feel uncomfortable with this model, but I have a question:

If the alternative were between someone rejecting Jesus or accepting this model, whichwould you prefer as believers? Can reality be affected by our beliefs? If Heavenly Father

and Mother, Jesus Christ as our Savior, all the elements of the Gospel.... if these are true,

there is nothing we can do to change that.

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What we can do is choose what we believe. We can choose to live in a world, live a life

where all these things are true for us. And those beliefs will interact with our lives for thebetter, and in that space of personal experience, the reality is unquestionable. This is what

living by faith is for me; I just happen to be someone who needs to work out all thedetails as much as I can. ;) I am trying to craft and approach that is resiliant because itworks no matter what happens to be "real".

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