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bddg ofgndmgdn ~f hdaa'

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sdgsj~ifgs pftan bd siadgodn'

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fgd phfn ~jcdg ~hd afg` eai`h~ bjoc pi~h him! mjcig` strd hd `f~ hdrd sjeday' Hdr jgn

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htmjg bfny'

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hjgns gfp! jgn ~hdrd rdjaay pjsg~ jgy~hig` mfrd shd oftan nf hdrd' _hd pj~ohdn his

safp brdj~hig`! jamfs~ hy|gf~io ig i~s rd`tajri~y' Hd affcdn sf erjia! jgn shd ning~ aicd

sddig` him aicd ~hj~'

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s~rjpbdrry bafgnd hjir ~hj~ Adjh sts|do~dn fpdn mfrd ~f j s~yais~ ~hjg ~f `dgd~ios' Adjh

pjs sfrry shd hjng~ md~ hdr tgndr nieedrdg~ oirotms~jgods! bt~ hdr sdgsd pjs ~hj~

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ejmiays sfoija nirdo~fr! ig~rfntoig` hdr |jrdg~s ~f ~hd s~jee jgn shd|hdrnig` ~hdm jrftgn

~hd hfs|i~ja jgn ~hd ~fpg' Im `ajn I ojt`h~ yft' ^hjgcs j`jig efr brig`ig` him bjoc!

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jafg`' _hd |jtsdn efr j mfmdg~! phiad Ohris~igd ofg~igtdn ~f smiad j~ hdr' _hd eda~

ofm|daadn ~f sjy mfrd' I kts~ hj||dgdn ~f bd ~hdrd'

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Yft nin mfrd ~hjg yft hjn ~f' Jgn yftr s~frids jbft~ him pdrd jaa sf `rdj~'

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sym|j~hd~iojaay' I aicdn I mdjg! I aicd Njg' _hd batshdn j~ hdr igjnudr~dg~ tsd fe

~hd |js~ ~dgsd! jgn oftang~ rdsis~ s~djaig` j ztioc `ajgod fudr j~ Njg ig ~hd tgaicday ojsd

hd mi`h~ hjud gf~iodn' Hdr ufiod sfe~dgdn tgofgsoiftsay! js ~hft`h hd mi`h~ bd

nis~trbdn by ~hdir ofgudrsj~ifg' I ojg~ bdaidud ~his is hj||dgig`'

^his ~imd ~hdy bf~h affcdn fudr' Hd affcdn sf smjaa jgn utagdrjbad ig ~hd bdn ~hdrd!

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ujrifts pirds! pi~h jg im|rdssiud jrrjy fe mfgi~frs bdhign him' Fgd fe ~hdm pjs

bdd|ig` udry sfe~ay ig j rd`tajr rhy~hm! rdjsstrig` ~hdm ~hj~ his hdjr~ pjs hfanig` s~jbad'

Dudg~tjaay! ie hd ning~ pjcd t| sffg! ~hdyn hjud ~f mjrr his bdjt~ieta bfny pi~h

eddnig` ~tbds! bt~ ~hj~ pftan ofmd aj~dr' His hdjr~ jgn atg`s pdrd pfrcig` fg ~hdir fpg

j`jig! jgn hd oftan struiud efr j phiad afg`dr pi~h ~hd IU eddnig` him eatins jgn sfmd

gt~ridg~s' Gddnig` hda| ~f s~jy jaiud pjsg~ sfmd~hig` ~hj~ di~hdr fe ~hdm pftan hjud

dudr efrdsddg efr him'

_f yft hjud ~f `d~ bjoc ~f yftr ejmiay6 Adjh jscdn! gddnig` ~f eiaa ~hd ztid~ pi~h

sfmd~hig` f~hdr ~hjg ~hd mfgi~frs ofgs~jg~ rdmigndr fe his |rdojrifts dxis~dgod'

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phj~ pi~h ~hd s~frd jgn jaa' Dudryfgds bddg udry hda|eta jgn jaa! bt~ ~hd bfys jrd j

hjgneta' My |jrdg~s piaa ofmd bjoc phdg ~hdy ojg! bt~ ~hdyud `f~ ~hd njiry ejrm jgn

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jamfs~ dmbjrrjssdn `ajgod j~ hdr brf~hdr'

Ie shd pjs str|risdn by! fr rdsdg~dn! ~his im|fsi~ifg fe rds|fgsibiai~y! shd ning~ ad~ i~

shfp' Iaa affc ig fg him! Adjh |rfmisdn! mdjgig` i~' Im strd hdaa hjud af~s fe

eridgns ofmig` by ~ff! bt~ Iaa bd strd ~f cdd| ohdocig` ig fg him'

Pd j||rdoij~d i~'

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pdrdg~ ofm|d~i~frs efr him! gf~ ig jgy rdja pjy! bt~ djoh pjg~dn ~f cgfp hfp shd

s~jocdn t| j`jigs~ ~hd f~hdr' Adjh pjs oafsdr ~f Njgs j`d hd pjs eiud ydjrs fandr ~hjg

Ohris~igd jgn shd pjs bf~h ~jaadr jgn etaadr-ei`trdn ~hjg Ohris~igd' Adjh pjs by gf

mdjgs hdjuy3 i~ pjs ~hj~ Ohris~igd pjs ~hig js j bfjrn! aicd hdr brf~hdr! ja~hft`h oadjray

adss mtsoadn' Adjhs hjir pjs shfr~ jgn njrc! pi~h sfe~ brfpg dyds ~hj~ igui~dn |df|ad ~f

sjy mfrd ~hjg ~hdy ig~dgndn ~f hdr' Ohris~igd ~hft`h~ Adjh zti~d |rd~~y jgn pfgndrdn

phj~ hdr brf~hdr ~hft`h~ fe hdr' Phdg hd hjn eirs~ mdg~ifgdn hdr! |rd~dgnig` ~f bd

ojstja! shdn ~hft`h~ shd nd~do~dn sfmd~hig` ig his ufiod ~hj~ ignioj~dn hd eftgn

sfmd~hig` ig~drds~ig` jbft~ hdr! bt~ i~ hjn bddg fudr ~hd |hfgd jgn fgay brideay! sf shd

oftang~ bd strd i~ pjsg~ kts~ sis~dray ig~ti~ifg jo~ig` t|' _hdn hjn ~f nrj` ft~ fe him

hfp hdn md~ hdr! jgn hd hjn sddmdn js str|risdn js shd pjs by Adjhs |rfedssifgja

ig~drds~ ig him'

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rdsindg~s jgn s~tndg~s' Hd pjs yftg`dr ~hjg shd pftan hjud dx|do~dn him ~f bd jgn js

`ffn affcig` js ~daduisifg |rd|jrdn uidpdrs ~f bdaidud jaa nfo~frs pdrd' Hd `rdd~dn ~hdm

brideay jgn ztiocay |iocdn t| ~hd ohjr~! sojggig` i~ efr jgy ohjg`ds' Hd ohdocdn Njgs

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Hd hjgndn ~hd ohjr~ ~f fgd fe ~hd s~tndg~s! phf affcdn j~ i~ jgn |jssdn i~ fg' _frry ~f

nis~trb yft! ajnids! hd sjin dg~ay' Ms' Ht~ohigs! jgn yftrd Njgs sis~dr! bt~ yftr

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_~draig`! Ohris~igd feedrdn! smiaig` j~ him'

^hj~s ri`h~! Mrs' _~draig`' Im `ajn I ojt`h~ yft bdefrd yft ade~' I missdn sjyig`

`ffnbyd ~f yftr |jrdg~s'

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Hd si`hdn jgn ~ffc j ztioc affc fudr j~ his |j~idg~' ^hd f~hdr nfo~frs jgn pftan-bd

nfo~frs `rdp dudg mfrd siadg~! pjg~ig` ~f bd strd ~f oj~oh jgy igsi`h~ hd mi`h~ hjud ~f

feedr' Gf! gf~hig` gdp' Ad~s sdd! ~hd ejmiay si`gdn ~hd |drmissifg efrm ~f ad~ Ms'

Ht~ohigs hdrd hjud joodss ~f his igefrmj~ifg! ri`h~6

Yds! sigod pd ojg~ bd hdrd js mtoh js pdn aicd pd pjg~ yft ~f ~rdj~ Adjh aicd fgd fe

~hd ejmiay! Ohris~igd sjin' Adjh hjn |rf~ds~dn bdig` `rjg~dn ~hd |riuiad`d! bt~ ~hd

ejmiay hjn bddg igsis~dg~' I~ pjs j si`g fe hfp mtoh ~hdy hjn ofmd ~f ~rts~ hdr! efr

sfmd s~rjg`d rdjsfg' Adjh eda~ shd ning~ ndsdrud i~! jgn pjsg~ strd shd pjg~dn i~' Efr

fgd ~hig`! shd pishdn ~hj~ Njg `f~ ~f ndoind efr himsdae phf shftan cgfp ~hdsd mfs~

ig~imj~d ejo~s' I~ jasf fbai j~dn hdr ~f him sfmdhfp' ^hj~ mjy hjud bddg |jr~ fe his

ejmiays rdjsfg efr nfig` i~ tgofgsoiftsay! fe oftrsd bt~ shd aicdn ~f ~higc ~hj~ shd

pftan hjud pjg~dn ~f cdd| ~rjoc fe hfp hd pjs nfig` pi~hft~ ~hd im|aidn nt~y ~f nf sf'

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sfmd fe ~hj~ is bdojtsd hd pjs j rtggdr jgn his |tasd pjs j||jrdg~ay japjys afp' Bt~

~hdrd s~iaa is gf brjig jo~iui~y ~hj~ pftan ignioj~d hd is ofmig` ft~ fe ~hd ofmj'

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hjn jscdn ~hd sjmd ztds~ifg sdudrja ~imds! ig sdudrja pjys! fudr ~hd |js~ edp njys! djoh

~imd hf|ig` efr j nieedrdg~! mfrd ndeigi~iud rds|fgsd'

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^faadesfg shffc his hdjn pdjriay' I~s aicd I sjin bdefrd' Hd oftan ofmd ft~ fe ~his ig j

oft|ad njys! j mfg~h! fr j ydjr'

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~drrfr shfpig` nds|i~d hdr brjud ejod'

^faadesfg gfnndn `rimay' ^hj~s |fssibad ~ff'

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shd |jr~iotajray dgkfydn! jgn shd ning~ hjud jgy rdja sdgsd ~hj~ shd pjs hda|ig` him ig

jgy rdja pjy! bt~ shd hj~dn ~hd ~hft`h~ fe adjuig` him jafgd' Rj~ifgjaay! shd cgdp ~hj~

hd pftang~ bd jafgd ~hd hfs|i~ja pjs etaa fe s~jee |f||ig` ig jgn ft~ fe his rffm jgn

~hj~ hd pjs gf~ oj|jbad fe gf~ioig` jgy~hig` jgypjy! yd~ hdrd shd pjs j`jig'

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ning~ s~f| bt~ briscay mfudn ~f ~hd bdnsind! phdrd shd einnadn pi~h ~hd IU'

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njys! bt~ shd pjs djsiay ~hd mfs~ ft~`fig` jgn j||rfjohjbad'

^hj~s ri`h~! shd jgspdrdn! gf~ ~jcig` hdr dyds erfm Njg js shd ~ffc his ~dm|drj~trd'

Jgn yftrdAdjh' Yftrd ~hd pri~dr'

Hfps hd nfig`6 Adjh jscdn! s~jgnig` t| jgn pishig` shd oftan hda|'

Mjry affcdn fudr j~ hdr sym|j~hd~iojaay' _hdn bddg j gtrsd efr jamfs~ ~pdg~y ydjrs!

jgn hjn sddg mfrd t|sd~ eridgns jgn ejmiaids j~ |j~idg~s bdnsinds ~hjg shd oftan

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rdmdmbdr' Yd~ djoh fgd pjs nieedrdg~! jgn djoh shfpdn ~hdir |jig jgn ~hdir hf|d ig

nieedrdg~ pjys' Ie shd hjn gf~ bddg `rjodn pi~h j ojam jgn rdjsstrig` gj~trd by bir~h!

hdr ~pdg~y ydjrs hjn hda|dn hdr joztird i~' Jbft~ ~hd sjmd! hfgdy! shd sjin sfe~ay'

_hd rdofrndn hdr fbsdruj~ifgs ig ~hd ohjr~ jgn hdjndn ~fpjrns ~hd nffr' _hd |jtsdn

bdefrd adjuig`' Im fee shie~ ~fmfrrfp! bt~ Iaa sdd yft njy je~dr! FC6

Pi~hft~ ig~dgnig` ~f! Adjh ~ffc j~ ztioc àjgod j~ Njg bdefrd jgspdrig`! jgn

tgofgsoiftsay afpdrdn hdr ufiod' I nfg~ cgfp ie Im `fig` ~f bd jbad ~f mjcd i~ ~hd

gdx~ oft|ad njys! shd sjin' I hjud j af~ fe pfrc ~f oj~oh t| fg'

Mjry gfnndn sym|j~hd~iojaay! oadjray gf~ bdaiduig` hdr' Iaa sdd yft Pdngdsnjy'

Adjh nrfud hfmd jgn ad~ hdrsdae ig~f hdr j|jr~mdg~' _hd hjn rdg~dn i~ efr ~hd |js~ eiud

|ats ydjrs' I~ pjs hjae fe j ~pf-eaj~ gdjr ~hd tgiudrsi~y ejr dgft`h jpjy sf ~hj~ ~hd

strrftgnig` hftsds pdrdg~ jaa etaa fe rfpny s~tndg~s! bt~ oafsd dgft`h ~hj~ ~hdrd pjs

s~iaa ~hd Tgiudrsi~y eajufr ~f ~hd gdi`hbfrhffn' I~ pjs j ~pf bdnrffm j|jr~mdg~! jgn hjn

sddg bd~~dr njys! bt~ i~ pjs hfmd by gfp' _hdn oadjgdn! |jig~dn! jgn ndofrj~dn i~ fudr

~hd ydjrs sf ~hj~ i~ sti~dn hdr pdaa by gfp' _hd st||fsdn shd oftan jeefrn ~f mfud ~f j

gdpdr |ajod by gfp! fr dudg bty j smjaa hftsd fr j ofgnf! bt~ shd rj~ifgjai{dn ~hj~ shdn

rj~hdr s|dgn ~hd mfgdy ~rjudaig`'

_hd nrf||dn hdr cdys fg ~hd ~jbad ig ~hd dg~rypjy jgn ~ffc fee hdr shfds' _hd pdg~ ig~f

~hd ci~ohdg jgn sj~ j~ ~hd ~jbad phiad shd ohdocdn hdr mdssj`ds jgn sfr~dn ~hrft`h ~hd

hjgneta fe mjia' ^hdrd pjs gf~hig` tr`dg~ ig di~hdr' _hd |ftrdn hdrsdae j àjss fe pigd

jgn pdg~ ig~f ~hd bj~hrffm ~f nrjp hdrsdae j bj~h! jnnig` sfmd sodg~dn btbbads' Phiad

~hd pj~dr eiaadn! shd ~ffc fee hdr oaf~hds jgn |t~ ~hdm gdj~ay jpjy' Htmmig` ~f hdrsdae!

shd ~ffc hdr àjss fe pigd jgn hdr mfbiad |hfgd jgn djsdn hdrsdae ig~f ~hd hf~ bj~h!

si`hig` sfe~ay pi~h ~hd |adjstrd fe i~'

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Rdajxig` ig ~hd ~tb pjs fgd fe hdr ~imd-hfgfrdn pjys fe rdajxig`' _hd st||fsdn i~ pjs

jamfs~ jg jgjohrfgism! bt~ shd ning~ rdjaay ojrd' Aied pjs sf btsy ~hj~ shd rdaishdn

~hdsd mfmdg~s fe ztid~ atxtry' _hd rtbbdn af~ifg ojrdetaay fudr hdr bfny' Hdr ~hir~id~h

bir~hnjy hjn bddg j edp mfg~hs j`f! bt~ shd ~hft`h~ shd pjs hfanig` t| |rd~~y pdaa' _hd

ning~ dxdroisd js mtoh js shd shftan! jgn ning~ dj~ js ojrdetaay js shd mi`h~! bt~ hdr

ei`trd pjs s~iaa ~rim jgn hdr ejod pjs s~iaa ajr`day tgaigdn' _hdn gdudr hjn ~rftbad

j~~rjo~ig` mdg! ja~hft`h shd oftang~ sjy ~hj~ shdn japjys hjn ~hd pisds~ ktn`mdg~

jbft~ hdr sti~frs'

_|djcig` fe phioh! ~hd |hfgd rjg`' _hd ohdocdn ~hd |hfgd ~f ofgeirm hdr sts|ioifg'

Hi! Rioc! shd sjin'

Rioc Mffrd pjs hdr aj~ds~ bdjt' Hd pjs |tshig` efr~y! jgn pjs j hi`hay stoodsseta

ajpydr ig fgd fe ~hd bi` nfpg~fpg eirms! mfs~ay s|doijai{ig` ig ofr|frj~d ajp' ^hdyn

md~ j~ j |jr~y jgn hdn bddg js ig~ri`tdn by hdr |rfedssifg jamfs~ js mtoh js by hdr

affcs' Hd jscdn hdr ft~ ~f niggdr pi~hig migt~ds fe mdd~ig` hdr! jgn shdn bfanay

jood|~dn! s~jr~ig` phj~ hjn gfp bddg j gigd mfg~h rdaj~ifgshi|' Phdrd jrd yft6 hd

jscdn'

Ig ~hd bj~h'

Hd ohtocadn' Gfp ~hdrds j mdg~ja imj`d' Mjybd I shftan ofmd kfig yft'

_hd jardjny hjn j eddaig` efr hfp ~his ofgudrsj~ifg pjs `fig` ~f `f' Jgn hfp afg`

pftan I hjud ~f s~jy ig ~hd ~tb hdrd bdefrd yft `f~ hdrd6

Jh! hd hdn`dn! ~hj~s ~hd ~hig`' Iud |rfbjbay `f~ jgf~hdr hftr fr sf fe pfrc ade~'

^rjgsaj~dn ig~f Rioc-s|djc! ~hj~ mdjg~ oafsdr ~f ~pf hftrs j~ j migimtm' I ~higc In bd

shriudadn t| by ~hdg! shd ~fan him'

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Mjybd yft oftan `d~ tgndr ~hd ofudrs jgn cdd| pjrm tg~ia I `d~ ~hdrd'

Mjybd'

Hdy! hjud yft hjn niggdr6 I oftan |ioc t| sfmd Ohigdsd'

Ig ejo~! shd hjng~ dj~dg' Fg f~hdr gi`h~s shd mi h~ hjud j`rddn ~f his feedr fe effn jgn j

~tmbad ig bdn! bt~ efr sfmd rdjsfg shd pjsg~ eddaig` aicd ofm|jgy' I nfg~ cgfp! shd

sjin j~ ajs~' I ~higc Iaa |jss' Im j ai~~ad bdj~'

Rioc pjs sfmdfgd tsdn ~f `d~~ig` his pjy! bt~ hd pjs j shrdpn dgft`h ktn`d fe

ohjrjo~dr ~f `j~hdr erfm hdr ~fgd ~hj~ shd pjsg~ kts~ |ajyig` hjrn ~f `d~' Hjrn njy6

Adjh rdjaay hjng~ nfgd mtoh' _hdn ig~dgndn ~f `d~ bjoc ~f j mj`j{igd jr~ioad shd pjs

st||fsdn ~f bd pfrcig` fg! bt~ shdn pjg~dn ~f sdd Njgs sis~dr bdefrd shd ade~ jgn sf

hjn dgndn t| s~jyig` j~ ~hd hfs|i~ja afg`dr ~hjg shdn ig~dgndn' Fh! gf~ sf bjn' Im

kts~ hfmd jgn rdajxdn' I ~higc Iaa mjcd j sjajn jgn `f ~f bdn djray ~fgi`h~! oj~oh t| fg

my sadd|'

FC! Rioc sjin! je~dr j |jtsd ~hj~ ignioj~dn hd ~hft`h~ hdr ndoisifg pjs gf~ ~hd pisds~

fgd' Nin yft f ~f ~hd hfs|i~ja ~fnjy6

_hd hjn ~f `iud him ordni~' Hd mi`h~ bd |tshy jgn sdae-odg~drdn! bt~ hd oftan ei`trd

|df|ad ft~ phdg hd pjg~dn ~f' Hd kts~ ning~ japjys ohffsd ~f' Yds! shd jnmi~~dn'

Jgn hfp is yftr btnny6

Hd cgdp Njgs gjmd! bt~ jamfs~ gdudr tsdn i~' Adjh eda~ js ~hft`h ojaaig` Njg hdr

btnny pjs j~ bds~ j si`g hd ning~ ~jcd ~hd phfad ~hig` sdriftsay! jgn j~ pfrs~ pjs

ndmdjgig` ~f him ig sfmd pjy' _hd hjng~ ojaadn him fg i~ yd~! bt~ i~ pjs s~jr~ig` ~f

`rj~d fg hdr' Jbft~ ~hd sjmd'

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_~iaa ig ~hd ofmj6

_~iaa ig ~hd ofmj! shd ofgeirmdn' ^hdy nfg~ cgfp hfp afg` hdaa s~jy ig i~'

Fr ie hdaa dudr ofmd ft~ fe i~! hd jnndn! js ie ~hj~ ejo~ mi`h~ hjud sfmdhfp dsoj|dn

hdr'

^hdy ~jacdn efr j edp mfrd migt~ds! jgn hd mjnd jgf~hdr feedr ~f s~f| by bdefrd hd htg`

t|' _hd ndoaigdn i~! js shd oftan ~daa ~hj~ i~ pjs hjae-hdjr~dn jgn ~hj~ his mign pjs

jardjny sfmdphdrd dasd' Js shd hjn nfgd mjgy ~imds! shd ~hft`h~ jbft~ ~hdir bdig`

~f`d~hdr' Hd pjs `ffn affcig`! j``rdssiud! smjr~! jgn etggy' ^hd ejo~ ~hj~ hd hjn |adg~y

fe mfgdy ning~ htr~3 hd tsdn i~ ~f ~jcd hdr ~f rds~jtrjg~s jgn ai~~ad ujoj~ifgs ~hj~ shd

mi`h~ gf~ f~hdrpisd bddg jbad ~f jeefrn' _hd aicdn ~f ~higc ~hj~ mfgdy pjsg~ jaa ~hj~

im|fr~jg~ ~f hdr jgn hdr aieds~yad odr~jigay rdeado~dn i~! shd ~hft`h~ pryay bt~ gdi~hdr

pjs shd f||fsdn ~f i~ fg |rigoi|ad' ^hdyn bddg ~f`d~hdr afg` dgft`h ~hj~ hd pjs

s~jr~ig` ~f `d~ j ai~~ad sdrifts jbft~ ~hig`s! shd ~hft`h~' _hd hjng~ bddg sddig` jgyfgd

dasd sigod ~hdir ~hirn fr eftr~h nj~d' _hd pjsg~ js strd phdg hd hjn s~jr~ig` shfpig` ~hd

sjmd eindai~y! jgn phdg hd pfrcdn aj~d aicd ~fgi`h~ shd s~iaa foojsifgjaay pfgndrdn ie hd

pjs bdig` eji~heta ~f hdr' Jaa ig jaa! ~hft`h! ~hdrd pjsg~ jgyfgd dasd fg hdr hfri{fg! jgn

shd pjs hj||y dgft`h pi~h him ~hj~ shd pjs ig gf htrry ~f efrod jgy isstds pi~h him ~hj~

mi`h~ ojtsd ~hig`s ~f dgn'

\ats! hd pjs j `rdj~ afudr' ^hj~ oftg~dn efr sfmd~hig`'

_hd rderdshdn ~hd hf~ pj~dr jgn ~ridn ~f ei`trd ft~ phy shd hjng~ pjg~dn him ~f ofmd

fudr' _hdn fgay sddg him fgod sigod shd rd~trgdn erfm fudrsdjs! jgn ~hj~ ~ri| hjn bddg

jgf~hdr ~pf pddcs jpjy erfm him' _hd pjs sdriftsay bdhign fg sdx! jgn shd shftan

miss i~ mfrd ~hjg shd pjs' _hd shftan missRiocmfrd ~hjg shd pjs' _hd shftan bd

sddig` hdr f~hdr eridgns mfrd ~hjg shd pjs' Jgn! js pjs oadjr erfm hdr mdssj`ds! shd

shftan bd `d~~ig` bjoc ~f pfrc ztiocdr'

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I~ pjs Njg \d~drsfg ejta~' Hd pjs ~jcig` ~ff mtoh fe hdr ~imd! jgn ~ff mtoh fe hdr

j~~dg~ifg' _hd ~hft`h~ jbft~ ~hd gtmbdr fe ~imds shdn `fgd ~f ohdoc fg him' Igi~ijaay!

i~ hjn oadjray bddg |jr~ fe ~hd s~fry! jgn shdn sim|ay bddg nfig` phj~ shdn gddndn ~f

nf' Bt~ ~hj~ ning~ jooftg~ efr jaa ~hd uisi~s! fr efr ~imds aicd ~fnjy phdg shd kts~ sj~

~hdrd pi~h him'

_hd st||fsdn shd eda~ `tia~y jbft~ him bdig` ig ~hd ofmj' I~ pjsg~ aicd shd pjs

rds|fgsibad ig jgy pjy! bt~ shdn bddg ~hdrd phdg i~ hj||dgdn jgn ~hrft`hft~ ~hd

ujrifts frndjas ~hj~ efaafpdn' _fmdfgd hjn hjn ~f pj~oh fudr him! jgn shdn sfmdhfp

dmdr`dn js ~hj~ |drsfg' _hdn jsstmdn ~hj~ fgod hd `f~ bjoc ~f ~hd T'_'! shdn bdofmd

adss gddndn' Gfp hd pjs hdrd! his ejmiay pjs ig ~hd |io~trd dudg ie gf~ j njiay

|rdsdgod jgn odr~jigay hd hjn eridgns phf pftan uisi~' _hd oftan s~f| `fig` ~f sdd him

jgn hdn gdudr cgfp'

_hd cgdp ~hdg ~hj~ shdn bd `fig` bjoc ~fmfrrfp'

I~ pjs ~hj~ hd pjs sf erj`iad' _fmd |df|ad! phdg ~hdy sadd| ~hdy sddm ~f bd s~iaa

|rjo~iojaay jpjcd' Rioc! efr dxjm|ad! ofgs~jg~ay shie~dn |fsi~ifg jgn mtmbadn ig his

sadd|' F~hdrs sad|~ aicd bjbids! etaay jsadd| bt~ uisibay tsig` ~hd sadd| ~f rdoft| jgn

rdohjr`d' Njg! ~hft`h; i~ pjs js ie sfmd ortda `fn hjn eai||dn fee his spi~oh' _hd

pfgndrdn ie shd sj~ pi~h him sim|ay ~f dgstrd ~hj~ hd ning~ kts~ sai| jpjy' His brdj~hig`

jgn his hdjr~bdj~ pdrd sf safp ~hj~ shd hjn ~f pj~oh his ohds~! pj~oh ~hd mfgi~fr! ~f

dgstrd ~hj~ hd hjng~ sim|ay s~f||dn bdig` jaiud' ^hd eajmd fe aied ig him hjn npignadn

~f ~hd smjaads~ fe eajmds! jgn shd edjrdn ~hj~ ~hd sai`h~ds~ brdd{d mi`h~ dx~ig`tish i~'

^hj~ pjsg~ hfp shd ~hft`h~ fe him' Ri`h~ erfm ~hd s~jr~ hd hjn sddmdn sf etaa fe aied'

His bfny fg ~hj~ hfs|i~ja bdn! s~teedn etaa fe ~tbds jgn mfgi~frs! pjs j ~rjuds~y fe hfp

shd aicdn ~f |io~trd him' _hd |rdedrrdn ~f rdmdmbdr him js shd hjn cgfpg him bdefrd jaa

~his! bjoc ~f phdg hd hjn kts~ bddg jg dudrynjy |drsfg' _hd pjs jerjin ~hj~ fgod shd

rd|ajodn ~hj~ |io~trd pi~h ~his shdaa fe ~hd |drsfg hdn bddg! ~hdg jaa hf|d pftan bd `fgd'

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Mfrd aicd mjrj~hfg rtggig`'

_hd |jtsdn' I `f pj~oh ~hd ^pig Oi~ids mjrj~hfg ie I cgfp |df|ad rtggig` ig i~' I

rdmdmbdr ~hj~ j `ty nidn rtggig` ~hd mjrj~hfg bjoc ig jgoidg~ @rddod'

Oafsd dgft`h! hd sjin' Ais~dg! j oft|ad pddcs j`f pdrd ~hd T'_' Faym|io Mjrj~hfg

^rijas'

I ~hft`h~ ~hd stmmdr @jmds pdrd gf~ efr j edp mfrd mfg~hs'

^hdy jrd' ^hdy hfan ~hd mjrj~hfg ~rijas pjy bdefrd ~hd rd`tajr ~rijas bdojtsd i~ pi|ds

~hd rtggdrs ft~ sf mtoh' @iuds ~hdm mfrd ~imd ~f rdofudr bdefrd ~hd @jmds'

_f

_f hdrds ~hd ~hig`' Yft cgfp ig ~hd T'_' ~rijas fgay ~hd eirs~ ~hrdd tys `f6 Gf mj~~dr

hfp `ffn yft jrd! ie yftrd gtmbdr fgd ig ~hd pfran bt~ nfg~ `d~ ig ~hd ~f| ~hrdd ig ~hd

^rijas yft s~jy hfmd'

I ning~ cgfp ~hj~! Adjh jnmi~~dn! pfgndrig` phy hd pjs ~jcig` sf afg` ~f `d~ ~f ~hd

s~fry'

_f ~his ydjr ~hd ~hirn |ajod `ty pjs j ty gf fgd hjn hdjrn fe' Jgn gf~ sfmd yftg`

cin3 hds ig his ~hir~ids' Jgn hd aiuds ig Miggdj|fais'

Gfp shd tgndrs~ffn' _f yft pjg~ md ~f phj~6 Ig~druidp ~his ty6

Erjgc si hdn' I nfg~ cgfp' Iaa bd hfgds~ pi~h yft' ^hdrd mjy gf~ bd j s~fry hdrd' I

kts~ hjud j htgoh ~hdrd mi`h~ bd sfmd~hig` mfrd'

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Phy md6 Adjh jscdn' I nfg~ cgfp ~hj~ mtoh jbft~ s|fr~s' Phy jrdg~ yft `iuig`

~his ~f sfmdfgd phf nfds6

Yft nfg~ pjg~ ~hd s~fry6 hd sjin ~djsig`ay'

I ning~ sjy ~hj~' I kts~ pjg~ ~f `d~ j bd~~dr indj fg phy yft ~higc yft pjg~ md efr i~'

Hd ~hft`h~ efr j sdofgn bdefrd jgspdrig`' Ig ~rt~h! hd rdjaay pjsg~ strd ~hdrd pjs mtoh

fe j s~fry hdrd! bt~ hd sts|do~dn ~hj~! ie ~hdrd pjs! i~ pjsg~ kts~ j s|fr~s s~fry' Ie hd pjs

ri`h~! Adjh pjs ~hd bds~ |drsfg ~f eign ~hj~ ~pis~' Hdn bddg j gdps|j|drmjg afg`

dgft`h ~f ais~dg ~f his htgohds' Kts~ sdd phj~ yft ojg eign ft~! FC6

Rdin `jud hdr ~hd igefrmj~ifg hd hjn! js pdaa js j edp st``ds~ifgs efr adjns' Hd pjs j

mfndrj~d ~rjoc ejg jgn hjn sfmd indjs efr hdr ~f |trstd ~hj~ mi`h~ hjud ~jcdg hdr njys

fr pddcs ~f tgofudr fg hdr fpg' Fudr ~hd gdx~ oft|ad njys shd s~jr~dn ~rjocig` ~hdm

nfpg'

Mtoh ~f hdr str|risd! gf fgd rdjaay cgdp mtoh jbft~ ~his `ty' _hd ~jacdn ~f st||fsdn

dx|dr~s j~ ^rjoc jgn Eidan Gdps jgnRtggdrs Pfran |tbaioj~ifgs shd hjn bddg fgay

uj`tday jpjrd fe! ie j~ jaa! bdefrd ~his phf jnmi~~dn hdn bddg j ofm|ad~d str|risd ~f

~hdm js pdaa' _hd nin dgn t| ~rjocig` nfpg his efrmdr ofaad`d ofjoh j~ ~hd Tgiudrsi~y fe

Pisofgsig! js i~ ~trgdn ft~ ~hj~ hd hjn rtg orfss-oftg~ry jgn ~rjoc ~hdrd' Hdn bddg j

ejir rtggdr! bt~ s~iaa fgay mjybd ~hd eftr~h fr eie~h bds~ rtggdr fg ~hdir ~djms' Hdn bddg

|jr~ fe ~hd ~djm ~hj~ pfg ~hd GOJJ orfss-oftg~ry ohjm|ifgshi|s his sdgifr ydjr! jgn

hdn |ajodn j oft|ad ~imds ig ~hd GOJJ ~rjoc ohjm|ifgshi|s! bt~ hd pjs gf s~jr' Je~dr

~hj~! shdn bddg jbad ~f eign j edp rfjn rjods hdn ofm|d~dn ig! j oft|ad fe ~rjoc rjods!

jgn ~hdg gf~hig` efr sdudrja ydjrs tg~ia j edp mfg~hs bdefrd ~hd ^rijas! phdg hdn

ztjaieidn efr ~hd ^rijas ig jg f~hdrpisd tggf~iodn rjod' I~ pjs js ie hdn bddg jsadd| fr

aiuig` fudrsdjs efr sdudrja ydjrs! rd~trgig` kts~ ig ~imd ~f sgj` ~hj~ ofud~dn ~hirn |ajod'

_f phdrd hjn hd bddg6

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_hd pjs bdìggig` ~f sdd phy Erjgc hjn j htgoh jbft~ ~hd s~fry'

Phdg shd ~hft`h~ shd hjn dgft`h bjoc`rftgn mj~drija ~f hjud j mdjgigèta ig~druidp!

shdn ojaadn him j~ hfmd fgd dudgig`' Mr' \d~drsfg6

Yds6 His ufiod hjn ~hd |fai~d scd|~ioism ~hj~ is tstjaay rdsdrudn efr ~dadmjrcd~drs'

Im Adjh Ht~ohigs erfm ~hdGdp Yfrc îmds'

I nfg~ rdjaay pjg~ j stbsori|~ifg! hd sjin ztiocay! ~ryig` ~f |t~ jg dgn ~f ~hd

ofgudrsj~ifg bdefrd shd s~jr~dn ig fg ~hd phfad sfg` jgn njgod jbft~ ~hdir s|doija feedrs'

_hd jamfs~ ajt`hdn' Gf! gf! Im gf~ ~ryig` ~f sdaa yft jgy~hig` Im j pri~dr'

J pri~dr'

_hd oftan ~daa erfm his ufiod ~hj~ hd ning~ zti~d bdaidud hdr' Is ~his ~hd Njg \d~drsfg

phf ztjaieidn efr ~hd T'_' mjrj~hfg ~djm j oft|ad fe pddcs j`f6 shd oajrieidn'

^hdrd pjs j |jtsd' Yds'

FC! pd pjg~ ~f pri~d jg jr~ioad jbft~ yft'

Jgf~hdr |jtsd' Yft nf6

_hd pjs bdìggig` ~f pfgndr ie ~his pjs `fig` ~f bd j mis~jcd' Mfs~ |df|ad shd rjg

jorfss pdrd ~hriaadn ~f ~jac ~f j mjkfr gdps|j|dr aicd ~hd îmds! tgadss ~hdy hjn

sfmd~hig` ~f hind' _hd ning~ ~higc ~hj~ pjs ~hd ojsd pi~h him' Affc! hfp jbft~ I bty

yft j ot| fe ofeedd fr sfmd~hig` jgn pd ojg ~jac6 Iud `f~ j btgoh fe ztds~ifgs efr

yft'

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Jrd yft strd yft pjg~ ~f ig~druidp md6 hd jscdn' I mdjg! I nin fgay |ajod ~hirn' Yft

shftan bd ~jacig` ~f Mdb fr \d~dr' ^hdyrd ~hd ~f| `tys'

Gf|d' I pjg~ ~f ~jac ~f yft'

^hdyn j`rddn ~f mdd~ efr atgoh ~hd gdx~ njy! jgn shd `f~ ~f ~hd rds~jtrjg~ j edp migt~ds

djray' I~ pjs j sdofgn-~idr ohjig rds~jtrjg~ ft~ ig fgd fe ~hd gdjr stbtrbs' Hdn ohfsdg

~hd afoj~ifg' _hd `f~ j ~jbad jgn pji~dn efr him ~f ofmd' _hd hjn affcdn t| j |io~trd fe

him fg ~hd T'_' Faym|io Ofmmi~~dd pdbsi~d! bt~ shd jamfs~ missdn his jrriuja' Hd

sai||dn igsind ~hd nffr fe ~hd rds~jtrjg~ tgfb~rtsiuday! jgn hd mts~ hjud bddg s~jgnig`

~hdrd efr j edp sdofgns bdefrd shd s|f~~dn him' _hdn fgay `iudg him uj`td ndsori|~ifg!

sf hd pjs s~jgnig` ojamay by ~hd nffr! ojrdetaay strudyig` ~hd rffm ~f ~ry ~f indg~iey hdr

phdg shd rdjai{dn i~ pjs him' Phdg his `j{d |jssdn gdjr hdr shd pjudn jgn his ejod

bri`h~dgdn jgn hd s~jr~dn ~fpjrns hdr'

Adjh pj~ohdn him j||rfjoh' Hdr eirs~ ~hft`h~ pjs ~hj~ hd ndeigi~day pjsg~ hdr ~y|d! gf~

~hj~ i~ pjs rdadujg~' Efr fgd ~hig`! dudg ~hft`h hd hjn fg j spdj~dr jgn j ai`h~ kjocd~!

shd oftan ~daa ~hj~ hd pjs udry ~hig! jamfs~ |jigetaay sf' Hd pjacdn sfe~y! pi~h jg

j~had~io `rjod bt~ pi~hft~ jgy hig~ fe j spj``dr ~hj~ shd mi`h~ hjud dx|do~dn erfm

sfmdfgd phfn mjnd ~hd Faym|io ~djm' _hd aicdn hdr mdg ~f hjud j odr~jig j~~i~tnd3 efr

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strd ~hj~ ~hdy nin' _~iaa! Adjh ~hft`h~ jgjay~iojaay! \d~drsfg hjn j eridgnay ejod jgn j

giod smiad' His hjir pjs ot~ sf shfr~ ~hj~ shd oftang~ nd~drmigd phd~hdr i~ pjs brfpg fr

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~f`d~hdr'

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_hd mjnd j gf~d ig hdr gf~dbffc' Hd smiadn j~ hdr' Yftrd pri~ig` ~hj~ nfpg6 \df|ad

piaa eign ~hj~ ig~drds~ig`6

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gf~ds6

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^hj~s eigd'

Nf yft gfrmjaay ofudr rtggig`6

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jbft~ ~rjoc is |rd~~y gdjr ~hd bf~~fm fe my ais~! shd jnmi~~dn'

Hd s~tnidn hdr erjgcay' _f --

_f phy jm I hdrd6 shd eigishdn efr him' @ffn ztds~ifg'

Jgn phy md igs~djn fe ~hd `ffn `tys6 Aicd I sjin fg ~hd |hfgd! Mdb jgn \d~dr

eigishdn :-2' ^hdyrd ~hd adjn Jmdriojgs' Im kts~~hd f~hdr `ty'

_f I tgndrs~jgn'

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_hd ~ffc j s|ffgeta fe hdr sft|' Pfp! ~his is rdjaay `ffn'

Hd s~f||dn jgn affcdn j~ hdr' ^fan yft! hd sjin! pigcig` im|ishay'

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_hd ~ffc j oft|ad mfrd s|ffgetas bdefrd rdstmig` hdr ztds~ifgs' Hd sddmdn dg~irday

ofmefr~jbad si~~ig` ~hdrd! hj||iay dj~ig` jpjy' Adjh oadjrdn hdr ~hrfj~' Jgypjy! I nin

sfmd rdsdjroh fg yft'

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_hd `jud him j str|risdn affc' Yft nin6

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yft ft~'

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ig hdr pri~ig`! bt~ shd eftgn hdrsdae jgxifts ~f sdd phj~ hd pftan sjy'

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eftgn j edp f~hdr s~frids yftn |tbaishdn'

_hd smiadn' Phioh nin yft aicd mfrd6 shd jscdn! cgfpig` ~hj~ hd pjs `d~~ig` hdr fee

~rjoc'

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sfmdhfp j~ ~hd sjmd ~imd' ^hdyrd bf~h `ffn' Kts~nieedrdg~' Hfp nin yft s~jr~

pri~ig`6

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his fpg ig~druidp' Afg` s~fry! shd sjin pi~h j smiad! gf~ rdjny ~f `f ig~f i~ pi~h him!

j~ adjs~ gf~ zti~d yd~' _hd hjn ~f efrod hdrsdae ~f `d~ bjoc ~f hdr ig~druidp' Ad~s nf yft

eirs~! shd st``ds~dn |adjsjg~ay' _hd rdoj||dn phj~ shd cgdp fe his yft~h `rfpig` t|

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ojrddr j~ Pisofgsig! bjsdn fg phj~ his ofjoh hjn ~fan hdr'

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Yftud bddg btsy! hd jocgfpadn`dn'

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niudrsifg ~f affc j~ hdr gf~ds! jgn shd prigcadn hdr brfp' Yft mts~ bd! phj~! ~hir~y-

~hrdd fr ~hir~y-eftr6

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_hd s~jrdn erjgcay j~ him' Yft nfg~ affc i~'

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s|j`hd~~i'

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bd ft~ ig ~hd stg j af~'

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gf~ioig`' Hd rdstmdn dj~ig`'

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fg hdr bi` bfpa fe sjajn' ^hd ~hig` ~hj~ I gf~iodn pjs ~hj~ yft sfr~ fe nisj||djrdn efr j

edp ydjrs! shd sjin j~ ajs~'

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Phy nin yft s~f| rtggig`6 shd jscdn! s~iaa mjcig` gf~ds'

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Hd smiadn j~ hdr jgn shd eda~ sfmd~hig` kts~ ~hdg! sfmd~hig` ~hj~ pjsg~ zti~d sf fbuifts

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eftgn hdrsdae adjgig` ig ~f hdjr his jgspdr' I s~f||dn tg~ia I ~hft`h~ I oftan rjod pdaa

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ft~ his s~fry' Hdn ~ridn ~f cdd| rjoig` je~dr ofaad`d! kt``aig` his ~rjigig` pi~h pfrcig`!

bt~ dudg~tjaay ndoindn hd pjsg~ `fig` ~f d~ `ffn dgft`h nfig` phj~ hd pjs nfig`' _f

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Hd shffc his hdjn! eigishig` fee his s|j`hd~~i' _hd hjng~ ~hft`h~ hdn bd jbad ~f dj~

bf~h his sft| jgn his |js~j! bt~ hdn nfgd bf~h jgn hjn j oft|ad fe |idods fe brdjn ~f

bff~' _hd pishdn shd oftan dj~ js mtoh jgn s~jy js saim js hd nin' Nds|i~d his ~hioc

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spdj~dr' _hd ~hft`h~ fe ~hfsd |io~trds fe s~jruig` ohianrdg fgd sdds aj~d j~ gi`h~ fg ^U!

bt~ rdkdo~dn ~hd ofm|jrisfg' Nds|i~d his ~higgdss! hd affcdn dx~rjfrnigjriay hdja~hy! pi~h

j sdgsd fe ui~jai~y jgn stbmdr`dn dgdr`y ~hj~ fgd nfdsg~ jssfoij~d pi~h jgfrdxij' Mfs~

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j ofgstmdr dado~rfgios ofm|jgy gf~ ejr erfm hdrd'

_f yft pfrc aicd j gfrmja sohdntad! aicd j 9-~f-4 cign fe ~hig`6

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yft gddn ~f! yft cgfp! `f ~f ~hd ~rjoc fr sfmd~hig` ig ~hd je~drgffg6

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Jgnrdjs rdjo~ifg pjs fgd! ignddn! fe str|risd' _hd affcdn bjoc jgn efr~h bd~pddg Njg

jgn Adjh js ie strd j |rjgc pjs bdig` |ajydn fg hdr' Rdjaay6 shd jscdn ojrdetaay! gf~

pjg~ig` ~f sftgn ~ff `taaibad'

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~djm'

Jgnrdjs ejod etrrfpdn' Phj~ nf yft mdjg6

Rdmdmbdr I ~fan yft I rjg j mjrj~hfg j oft|ad fe pddcs j`f6 Njg jscdn! ~ryig` ~f bd

hda|eta' _hd gfnndn'

I~ pjs ~hd T'_' Faym|io ~djm ~ry-ft~s! Jgnrdj! Adjh jnndn'

Jgnrdj affcdn ntbifts' Yftrd cinnig`! shd sjin j~ ajs~! affcig` fgay j~ Njg'

Njg shffc his hdjn! bt~ ning~ zti~d mdd~ hdr dyds' Adjh ~hft`h~ hd sddmdn

dmbjrrjssdn'

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Njg gfnndn jamfs~ `tia~iay'

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Hdy! ^fgy! ofmd ft~ hdrd' Njgs `f~ sfmd gdps'

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Hi! Im Adjh Ht~ohigs! shd ig~rfntodn hdrsdae' ^hdy shffc hjgns |dretgo~friay' Im

pi~h ^hd Gdp Yfrc ^imds'

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~fan him sfmdphj~ brdj~hadssay' _hd sjys Njg is fg ~hd Faym|io ~djm'

Hd pjs ~jcdg jbjoc' Phj~ nf yft mdjg6

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cinnig`! hd sjin j~ ajs~'

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sind jgn ofg~igtdn ~f j||djr dmbjrrjssdn by ~hd j~~dg~ifg' Phdg shdn eigishdn Pjygd

~trgdn ~f him' Is ~his efr rdja6

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Phy ning~ yft sjy sfmd~hig`6

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sfmd~hig`' Pfp! jg Faym|io j~had~d* Offa'

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|rduifts Fo~fbdr fg hdr otbioad pjaa' Fh! Adjh sjin! |fig~ig` ~f i~' Yftrd j

mjrj~hfgdr ~ff' Ofg`rj~taj~ifgs' Nin yft tys dudr ~jac jbft~ mjrj~hfgig` fr

~rjigig`6

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ojg~ bdaidud i~'

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fg ~hd Ig~drgd~ jgn pdrd shjrig` ~hdm jrftgn ~hd feeiod! jnnig` ~f ~hd htbbtb shdn

s~jr~dn'

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pjs mfs~ gf~jbad efr i~s ojrdeta fr`jgi{j~ifg' ^hd fgay |j|drs uisibad pdrd s~jocdn ig

symmd~rioja |iads fg j ordndg{j! pi~h ~hd ndsc s|f~adss dxod|~ efr j afgd efandr Njg

j||djrdn ~f bd tsig` js hd pfrcdn j~ his \O' Hd s~f||dn js shd ojmd igsind' Jaa

nfgd6 hd jscdn! adjgig` bjoc ig his ohjir jgn s~rd~ohig`'

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_hd ~fan him ~hj~ shd pjs! jgn |iocdn t| ~hd fgay |io~trd erjmd ig ~hd feeiod' I~ pjs fe j

~hig yftg` pfmjg pi~h hdr jrm jrftgn Njg' @iraeridgn6 shd jscdn! hf|ig` efr jgf~hdr

judgtd ~f iguds~i`j~d'

_is~dr'

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sohdntad fg ~hd pjaa bdhign him! jgn j gfgndsori|~ |rig~ fe j sjiabfj~ fg jgf~hdr pjaa!

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gfp hjn' ^jcig` jnujg~j`d fe hdr siadgod! hd f~ t|' Iaa pjac yft ft~' ^hdy pjacdn

bjoc ~f ~hd `tjrns ndsc! phdrd shd `jud t| hdr bjn`d' _hd |jtsdn pi~h him j~ ~hd nffr'

_f phy jaa ~hd sdordoy! Njg6 ^hdsd |df|ad sddm ~f aicd yft' ^hdy sddm dgtigday

~hriaadn efr yft' Phy ning~ yft ~daa ~hdm6

Hd shrt``dn' I~ nfdsg~ sddm aicd ~hj~ bi` j ndja'

_hd `jud him j scd|~ioja affc' Yft nfg~ ~higc i~s cign fe tgtstja ~f mjcd ~hd

Faym|io ~djm6

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~higc i~s |jr~iotajray gf~dpfr~hy' Yft cgfp! mfs~ |df|ad nfg~ rdjaay ojrd ~hj~ mtoh

jbft~ rtggig`' I ning~ pjg~ jgyfgd ~f mjcd j etss! ds|doijaay bdefrd ~hd rdja rjod'

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pj~ohdn his ejod efr his rdjo~ifg! gf~ strd phj~ ~f dx|do~ bt~ pjg~ig` ~f sdd sfmd~hig`'

Hd affcdn j~ hdr! yd~ sddmdn ejr jpjy' Hd kts~ shrt``dn'

Ohj|~dr 8

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Dudg~tjaay hd rdjai{dn sfmd~hig` dasd' Gf~ jaa fe ~hd sdgsj~ifgs pdrd ~hd sjmd' ^hdy

ohjg`dn' ^hdy hjn nieedrdg~ ~dx~trds! efr ajoc fe j bd~~dr pfrn fr bd~~dr ofgod|~ ~f

tgndrs~jgn i~' Hd ning~ cgfp phj~ ~f mjcd sdgsd fe ~hdsd nieedrdgods! bt~ ~hdy pdrd

~hdrd! jgn ~hd mfrd hd affcdn efr ~hd nieedrdgods ~hd mfrd hd eftgn ~hdm'

Hd ~ridn ~f tgndrs~jgn hfp ~hdy pdrd nieedrdg~' Hd ~ridn ~f sdd ie hd oftan igeatdgod fr

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rjgnfm! fr |drhj|s mdrday stbkdo~ ~f efrods ~hj~ pdrd tgcgfpg jgn tgimjìgjbad'

Mjcig` sdgsd fe stoh jg jaidg tgiudrsd sddms im|fssibad! pi~h gf |fig~ fe rdedrdgod ~f

hda|' Yd~ i~ is sfmd~hig` ~hj~ gdpbfrg bjbids jrd ejodn pi~h dudry njy! jgn mfs~ fe ~hdm

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hda|eta ie hd hjn cgfpg fe ~hdir stoodss' Js i~ pjs! hd hjn fgay his fpg piaa ~f cdd| him

j~ i~'

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aied mi`h~ hjud bddg aicd bdefrd jpjcdgig` ig~f ~his s~frm! bt~ hd oftan sfmdhfp

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deefr~! jgn ~his deefr~ ~f tgndrs~jgn his pfran pjs ~jcig` mfrd erfm him ~hjg hd ~hft`h~

hd hjn'

_~iaa hd |drsis~dn'

Ig ~imd hd ojmd ~f rdof`gi{d sfmd fe ~hd |j~~drgs' I~ s~jr~dn pi~h fgd! js i~ rdudjadn

i~sdae! nisj||djrdn! rdudjadn i~sdae j`jig tg~ia hd eigjaay rdjai{dn i~ pjs jaa |jr~ fe ~hd sjmd

|j~~drg' Fgod hd hjn adjrgdn ~f eign i~! hd s~jr~dn ~hd safp ~jsc ~f eign f~hdr |j~~drgs!

`rjntjaay adjrgig` ~f sd|jrj~d gdp |j~~drgs erfm ~hd fgds hd hjn rdof`gi{dn'

Hd s~iaa ning~ cgfp phj~ ~hdsd |j~~drgs mdjg~! fr hfp ~hdy rdaj~dn ~f djoh f~hdr fr ~f

himsdae' Bt~ i~ pjs jaa hd oftan nf! jgn sf hd cd|~ j~ i~'

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His deefr~s mi`h~ hjud sddmdn bfrig`! bt~ hd ning~ cgfp phj~ i~ mdjg~ ~f bd bfrdn! jgn

hd nin cgfp ~hj~ his dxis~dgod pjs j~ s~jcd' Hd oftan gf~ hfan ft~ igndeigi~day j`jigs~

~hd eaffn fe sdgsj~ifgs! hjrn js hd mi`h~ ~ry! sf di~hdr hd adjrgdn ~f ndja pi~h ~hdm fr

~hdy pftan nds~rfy him'

Fgd mi`h~ hjud ~hft`h~ ~hj~ hd pftan bd afgdsfmd! afs~ ig ~his igndeigjbad pfran dg~irday

jafgd' Bt~ afgday pjs gf~ j ofgod|~ hd pjs ejmiaijr pi~h! jgn sigod hd ning~ hjud jgy

indj phj~ hd pjs! hd oftang~ afg` efr ~hd ofm|jgy fe jgf~hdr stoh ordj~trd'

J~ afg` ajs~ afg`dr ~hjg hd oftan ndsoribd fgd |j~~drg ig |jr~iotajr ojt`h~ his

j~~dg~ifg' Hd pj~ohdn i~! efrmig` jgn rdefrmig` aicd jg imj`d afs~ ig ~hd ef`' J~ eirs~ hd

oftan fgay nisodrg j smjaa |fr~ifg! jgn je~dr mtoh s~tny hd rdjai{dn ~hj~ sdudrja f~hdr

|j~~drgs pdrd ofggdo~dn ig~f fgd ajr`dr |j~~drg' Hd efotsdn ~hd phfad fe his j~~dg~ifg fg

i~! ~ryig` ~f nrjp ~hd |j~~drg ig~f sfmd~hig` ~hj~ mdjg~ sfmd~hig`' Phj~ i~ mi`h~ dgn t|

mdjgig`! hd oftang~ imjìgd' Ignddn! fgd oftan jr`td ~hj~ hd ai~drjaay oftan gf~

imjìgd! bdojtsd ~f imjìgd fgd hjs ~f hjud j~ adjs~ sfmd bjsio rdedrdgod |fig~s jbft~

phioh ~f imjìgd! jgn hd ajocdn dudg ~hfsd' _f hd pj~ohdn! hd pji~dn! jgn hd s~rt`àdn'

^hd |j~~drg pjs j pis|! bjrday ~hdrd jgn jamfs~ ~f~jaay fudrphdamdn by dudry~hig` dasd

ig his ohjf~io pfran ~hj~ sajmmdn j`jigs~ him erfm dudry nirdo~ifg j~ dudry mfmdg~'

@rjntjaay ~hd pis| johidudn sfmd s~jbiai~y! jgn `rjntjaay hd pjs jbad ~f nis~ig`tish i~s

ft~aigds erfm dudry~hig` dasd' Phj~ i~ pjs! hd oftan gf~ yd~ sjy! sf hd pj~ohdn jgn hd

pji~dn sfmd mfrd! efotsig` jaa fe his ofgsindrjbad piaa fg cdd|ig` ~hd pis| ~f`d~hdr js j

sigàd |j~~drg' Hd eda~ ~hdrd pjs sfmd risc ~f ~his s~rj~d`y! js hd pjs efrsjcig` ei`h~ig`

fee dudry~hig` dasd! ìuig` t| fg affcig` efr mdjgig` ig jgy~hig` dasd' Hd pjs mjcig`

his bd~ hdrd'

Hd oftan gf~ sjy phdg ~hd ~hig` bdojmdsfmd~hig` dasd' Fgd mfmdg~ i~ pjs kts~ j

ofaado~ifg fe |j~~drgs ~hj~ hd hjn |rjo~iojaay piaadn ~f`d~hdr ig~f j sigàd |j~~drg' ^hd

gdx~ mfmdg~! j mfmdg~ phioh f~hdrpisd shftan hjud bddg aicd dudry f~hdr mfmdg~ hd

hjn dx|dridgodn jgn pjs dx|do~ig` ~f cdd| dx|dridgoig`! hd stnndgay cgdp phj~ i~ pjs'

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Hfp hd cgdp! hd oftan gf~ sjy' Phy hd eigjaay rdjai{dn i~s gj~trd! hd oftan gf~ cgfp'

Bt~ efr ~hd eirs~ ~imd hd stnndgay eda~ hd cgdp sfmd~hig` fe his pfran! fe sfmd~hig` ig

his pfran f~hdr ~hjg himsdae' Hd s~jrdn ie! ignddn! i~ ojg bd sjin ~f bd s~jrig` phdg

uisifg i~sdae is j ofgod|~ ~hj~ hjs gf mdjgig` -- ig jmj{dmdg~ j~ ~hd bjrday ~hdrd |j~~drg!

jgn ofgsindrdn i~'

I~ pjs j ejod'

Ohj|~dr 9

Adjh ning~ zti~d cgfp phj~ ~f nf' I~ ~ffc hdr j mfmdg~ fr ~pf ~f ofguigod hdrsdae ~hj~

phj~ shd sjp pjs gf~ sfmd sfr~ fe f|~ioja iaatsifg' _hd ~ffc j ~dg~j~iud s~d| ~fpjrn ~hd

bdn' Njg6 shd jscdn hdsi~jg~ay' _hd ~ridn j`jig! ~his ~imd j ai~~ad aftndr' Njg6

Hd pjs ajyig` fg his bjoc' ^hd gtrsds |drifniojaay rf~j~dn him ~f jufin bdnsfrds! jgn

foojsifgja hd pftan otra ig~f j ed~ja |fsi~ifg! bt~ hdn bddg fg his bjoc ntrig` ~his dg~ird

uisi~' Js shd ojmd ~f his sind! ~hdrd pjs gf |fssibiai~y fe jgy nftb~' His dyds pdrd f|dg

jgn s~jrig` j~ ~hd odiaig`'

Njg6 shd ~ridn j`jig' His dyds rdmjigdn ig |ajod! gf~ mfuig` dudg js shd nrdp pi~hig

phj~ shftan hjud bddg his eidan fe uisifg' _hd mfudn hdr hjgn bjoc jgn efr~h fudr his

dyds' ^hdrd pjs gf rds|fgsd! gf si`g fe rdof`gi~ifg! gf~ dudg jg jt~fmj~io rdjo~ifg ~f

~hd j||djrjgod fe hdr hjgn' _hd ~ridn gtn`ig` him `dg~ay' Njg! jrd yft jpjcd6 Pjcd

t|! ofmd fg! shd |adjndn'

Hd ofg~igtdn ~f aid ~hdrd! ndjn ~f ~hd pfran dxod|~ efr his f|dg dyds! jgn dudg ~hdy

sddmdn ndjn js pdaa' _hd si`hdn' Efr j mfmdg~! kts~ j mfmdg~! shdn njrdn ~higc ~hj~

hdn ofmd bjoc ~f ~hd ajgn fe ~hd aiuig`' _hdn hjn j oft|ad pddcs ~f ~higc jbft~ phj~

shd mi`h~ sjy ~f him fgod hd pfcd t|' ^hd |rfs|do~ ~hj~ hd mi`h~ gf~ pjcd t| pjs

sfmd~hig` shd hjn s~djnejs~ay rdetsdn ~f jood|~' _hdn bddg |j~idg~ay pji~ig` efr him ~f

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pjcd t| jgn f|dg his dyds' Fgay gfp hd hjn f|dgdn his dyds! bt~ s~iaa hjng~ pfcdg t|'

_hd eda~ shdn afs~ sfmd~hig` shd hjng~ cgfpg shdn hjn' ^hfsd ndjn dyds feedrdn gf

si`g fe aied! gf hf|d efr j et~trd' Bdefrd! hd hjn sddmdn aicd hd pjs kts~ sadd|ig`! jgn

shd oftan hf|d hd mi`h~ pjcd t| j~ jgy mfmdg~' Gfp! pi~h ~hfsd aiedadss dyds shd

oftan gf afg`dr |rd~dgn hd pjs mdrday jsadd|' ^his pjs sfmd~hig` dasd ignddn' _hd

pjg~dn ~f `f bjoc ig ~imd jgn s~jr~ fudr'

Mjybd yft oftan ~ry i~ j`jig! hfg! shd sjin sfe~ay! mfrd ~f hdrsdae ~hjg ~f him' Oafsd

yftr dyds jgn ~ry j`jig! bt~ ~his ~imd pjcd t| jaa~hd pjy! FC6

Ie Njg pjs ais~dgig` ~f hdr! hd pjs i`gfrig` hdr' His dyds rdmjigdn f|dg bt~ s~jrig` j~

~hd odiaig`! fr |drhj|s ig~f ft~dr s|jod efr jaa shd cgdp'

Rdato~jg~ay! shd hi~ ~hd gtrsd ojaa bt~~fg'

I~ ~ffc jamfs~ j njy efr ~hdm ~f `d~ ~hd rdsta~s fe jaa ~hd ~ds~s ~hdy pjg~dn ~f rtg fg him'

_hd eigjaay pjs jbad ~f oj~oh t| pi~h Nr' ^faadesfg ~hd gdx~ je~drgffg! eignig` him btsy

mjcig` gf~ds fg ohjr~s by ~hd gtrsds s~j~ifg' Nr' ^faadesfg! shd `rdd~dn him'

Hd |jtsdn jgn affcdn t| j~ hdr' Ms' Ht~ohigs! hd rd|aidn' Adjh' Ojaa md Kjy'

_hd hjn ~jacdn pi~h him sdudrja ~imds ntrig` Njgs s~jy hdrd! bt~ ~his pjs ~hd eirs~ ~imd

hdn ojaadn hdr by hdr eirs~ gjmd! jgn odr~jigay ~hd eirs~ ~imd hdn feedrdn hdr his fpg

gjmd' _hd pjsg~ strd phd~hdr ~f dx|do~ ~hj~ mi`h~ mdjg hd hjn |jr~iotajray bjn gdps

efr hdr! fr ~hj~ hd mi`h~ bd hi~~ig` fg hdr' _hd kts~ hf|dn i~ pftang~ bd bf~h' _f phj~

hjud yft eftgn ft~6

Hd rd`jrndn hdr jamfs~ oaigiojaay' Ofmd pi~h md! hd sjin! ~jcig` hdr dabfp jgn

s~ddrig` hdr ~f j smjaa pji~ig` jrdj fee fe ~hd ofrrinfr' I~ pjs ndsdr~dn! jgn hd nirdo~dn

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hdr ~f fgd fe ~hd ohjirs' Hd sj~ nfpg jorfss erfm hdr! adjgig` ig ~fpjrns hdr bt~ gf~

sjyig` jgy~hig`' Hd sddmdn aicd hd pjsg~ zti~d strd phdrd ~f s~jr~'

@ffn gdps fr bjn gdps6 shd jscdn! ~jcig` ~hd igi~ij~iud'

J bi~ fe bf~h! Im jerjin! hd rd|aidn' Hd |trsdn his ai|s ~hft`h~etaay' FC! ~hd `ffn

gdps is ~hj~ hds gf afg`dr ig ~hd ofmj' His brjig etgo~ifg is ztjai~j~iuday nieedrdg~!

mfrd jo~iud! jgn hd hjsg~ aj|sdn bjoc ig~f ~hd ofmj s~j~d sigod yds~drnjy'

Hd sddmdn rdjaay ft~ fe i~ phdg I sjp him' His dyds pdrd f|dg bt~ i~ ning~ rdjaay sddm

aicd hd pjs sddig` jgy~hig`'

Hd pjsg~' J~ adjs~! pd nfg~ ~higc sf' Yft gdudr rdjaay cgfp phj~ is fig` ig ~hd

hdjns fe |df|ad ig ~his s~j~d! bt~ his dyds nfg~ rds|fgn ~f s~imtai jgn his brjig pjuds

nfg~ shfp jgy ohjg`ds phdg ~hdrd jrd uistja s~imtai di~hdr' _f ie hds sddig` jgy~hig`!

i~s gf~ jgy~hig` ft~ hdrd'

Phj~ nf yft mdjg! ig ~his s~j~d6

^faadesfg ~ffc j ndd| brdj~h jgn |t~ his hjgns fg his cgdds' ^hj~s ~hd bjn gdps' I~s

ojaadn \drsis~dg~ Ud`d~jbad _~j~d' \U_ efr shfr~' Yft ojg ~daa erfm ~hd |j~~drgs fe ~hd

brjig jo~iui~y' _f pd cgfp hds `fgd erfm j ofmj ~f \U_'

Phy is ~hj~ bjn gdps6 Adjh jscdn' Yft sjin his brjig etgo~ifg pjs mfrd jo~iud'

^hj~ sftgns aicd j `ffn ~hig`' Phdg hd pjs ig ~hd ofmj yft ~fan md his brjig pjs sfr~

fe jsadd|! kts~ ~hd bjsio etgo~ifgs `fig` fg ~f cdd| him brdj~hig` jgn stoh' F|dgig` his

dyds sddms aicd j s~d| oafsdr ~f bdig` jpjcd'

^faadesfg shffc his hdjn! his mft~h erfpgig` sai`h~ay' I~ nfdsg~ pfrc ~hj~ pjy' Ofmj

|j~idg~s tstjaay di~hdr pjcd t| pi~hig j oft|ad pddcs! mjybd j mfg~h! fr ~hdy rjrday nf'

\U_ |j~idg~s pdaa! j mfg~h pftan bd j shfr~ ~imd ig \U_'

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Piaa hd ofmd ft~ fe i~6

^faadesfg dxhjadn hdjuiay! his dyds hdjuy pi~h sym|j~hy' Hd s~tnidn hdr bdefrd

rd|ayig`' Hd shffc is hdjn j`jig' Pd nfg~ cgfp! hd sjin j~ ajs~' Hd brfcd dyd

ofg~jo~ ~f affc jpjy' ^hdrds j ohjgod! bt~ In hjud ~f sjy ~hd fnns pdrd bd~~dr phdg hd

pjs ig ~hd ofmj' Pd pdrd hf|ig` ~hj~ his bfny pjs kts~ rdjo~ig` ~f ~hd ~rjtmj jgn

pftan `rjntjaay ofmd ft~ fe i~' Gfp hds ig j gdp |hjsd! jgn jaa bd~s jrd fee'

^faadesfg s~fad j ajgod j~ his pj~oh' Iud `f~ ~f `f' Iud `f~ j edp mfrd |j~idg~s ~f sdd

jgn j btgoh mfrd ohjr~s ~f t|nj~d' Im rdjaay sfrry jbft~ yftr eridgn' Bt~ pdaa nf jaa

pd ojg' _hd pjsg~ strd ie hd pjs sfrry fr rdaidudn j~ hjuig` ~f `f'

Hd s~ffn t| jgn mfudn bjoc ~fpjrns ~hd hjaa' Nr' ^faadesfg! shd ojaadn ft~ sfe~ay'

Hd s~f||dn jgn hjae-~trgdn' Ojg hd ~higc ig his ofgni~ifg6 shd jscdn' I mdjg! yft

sjin his brjig pjs mfrd jo~iud' Dudg ie hds gf~ sddig`! hd oftan bd ~higcig`! ri`h~6

^faadesfg sddmdn `dgtigday sfrry' Pd nfg~ cgfp'

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pri~dr! phfsd indj fe j `ftrmd~ mdja pjs ~jcd-ft~ Ohigdsd! sf shd pjsg~ mignig` j~ jaa

sfmd fe ~hd |ajods Rioc pjs ~ryig` ~f im|rdss hdr pi~h'

^hd pji~dr hjgndn ft~ ~hd mdgts shd gf~dn ~hj~ Rioc `f~ bf~h ~hd pigd ais~ jgn ~hd

mdgt pi~h ~hd |riods fg i~ jgn `jud ~hdm j edp migt~ds' Rioc frndrdn sfmd giod pigd!

jgn mjnd sfmd st``ds~ifgs fg bf~h jg j||d~i{dr jgn hdr dg~rd sdado~ifg! bf~h fe phioh

shd jood|~dn' I~ pjsg~ aicd hdr ~f ad~ j mjg ~jcd ohjr`d ig ~hd pjy ~hj~ Rioc sddmdn ~f

pjg~ ~f! bt~ shd ei`trdn shdn sjud ~hd bj~~ads efr ~hig`s ~hj~ mj~~drdn'

Efr mfs~ fe ~hd niggdr Rioc cd|~ t| j s~djny s~rdjm fe ofgudrsj~ifg! eiaaig` hdr ig fg his

njy jgn ~hig`s hdn hdjrn jbft~ ujrifts |df|ad' _hd pjs japjys im|rdssdn j~ ~hd rjg`d

fe |df|ad hd cgdp! jgn pfgndrdn ie Rioc cgdp ~hj~ shd etaay dx|do~dn shdn dgn t| tsig`

him js j sftrod efr et~trd s~frids' _hd pjsg~ strd ie shdn ~daa him phdg shd pjs

|tm|ig` him fr gf~' I~ mjnd hdr smiad kts~ j ai~~ad bi~! phioh hd |iocdn t| jgn igztirdn

phj~ shd pjs ~higcig`' Kts~ `ira s~tee! shd ndmtrrdn'

I~ pjsg~ tg~ia ~hdy pdrd aig`drig` fudr ofeedd jgn ndssdr~ ~hj~ shd `f~ j ohjgod ~f ~jac

jbft~ hdr njy' Fh! hdy! I md~ jg Faym|io j~had~d ~fnjy! shd sjin js ojstjaay js shd

oftan! cgfpig` ~hj~ hd ejgoidn himsdae j bi` s|fr~s ejg'

^hj~ `f~ his j~~dg~ifg' Hd affcdn t| pi~h j efrceta fe |js~ry s~f||dn hjaepjy ~f his

mft~h' Rdjaay' Btsigdss fr |adjstrd6

Btsigdss' I pjs ig~druidpig` him'

Rioc |t~ ~hd |js~ry ig his mft~h jgn ohdpdn ojrdetaay' Phdg hd pjs eigishdn hd |t~ ~hd

efrc nfpg' Fg ~hd |hfgd fr ig |drsfg6

Fg ~hd |hfgd fr ig |drsfg phj~6 shd jscdn ofyay! cdd|ig` hdr dyds efotsdn fg hdr fpg

efrc' ^hd |js~ry pjs ignddn ndaioifts! pfr~h phj~dudr Rioc pjs bdig` fudrohjr`dn efr

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Yftr Faym|ijg' Phdrdn yft ig~druidp him6

Hd aiuds hdrd ig Miggdj|fais'

_hd oftan |rjo~iojaay sdd him rtggig` ~hrft`h his mdg~ja nj~jbjsd fe afoja j~had~ds jgn

orfss-igndxig` ~hdm pi~h |df|ad phf mi h~ jasf bd `fig` ~f ~hd Faym|ios' _hd ning~

dx|do~ him ~f cgfp phf Njg pjs jgn shd pjg~dn ~f hfan fg ~f hdr dn`d efr js afg` js

shd rdjsfgjbay oftan' Pig~dr fr stmmdr Faym|ios6 hd jscdn j~ ajs~'

_hd ~ffc j edp sdofgns ~f ot~ jgf~hdr |idod fe ~hd |js~ry! |t~ i~ ~f hdr mft~h! jgn sjufr

~hd riohgdss fe i~ bdefrd shd rd|aidn! dgkfyig` his sai`h~ si`gs fe im|j~idgod' _tmmdr'

J |js~ Faym|ijg fr fgd `fig` ~his ydjr6

_hd j`jig ~ffc jgf~hdr bi~d bdefrd jgspdrig`' ^his ydjr'

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hdjn jgn affcdn hdr ig ~hd dyds' Fgd fe ~hd -Pfauds6

Gf' Pjg~ j hig~6

His dyds gjrrfpdn sai`h~ay js hd rdjai{dn j~ ajs~ ~hj~ shd pjs |ajyig` him' Hd smiadn

ohjrmig`ay j~ hdr' FC! s|iaa i~! pfmjg' ^daa md jbft~ ~his kfoc' Jgn phy ~hd hdaa jrd

yft nfig` s|fr~s s~frids6

^hdy bf~h ajt`hdn! jgn Adjh ~fan him jbft~ Njg' Js shd dx|do~dn! Rioc hjn gf~ hdjrn

fe him! fr jgy fe ~hd f~hdr mjrj~hfgdrs fg ~hd ~djm! bt~ hd pjs im|rdssdn gfgd~hdadss'

Hd pjs j ojstja kf``dr phf hjn rtg j mjrj~hfg j edp ydjrs j`f kts~ ~f |rfud hd oftan nf

i~' Rioc dgkfydn hdjrig` jbft~ ~hd scd|~ioja rds|fgsds fe jaa ~hd |df|ad shd hjn ~ridn ~f

~jac ~f jbft~ Njg! ofm|jrig` i~ ~f jg jamfs~ Miohjda Mffrd cign fe ~rjia fe et~iad

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ig~druidps' ^hd etggy ~hig` is! shd sjin! eigishig` fee hdr rdoftg~! is ~hj~ ~hdy ~hft`h~

I pjs ~hd orj{y fgd' ^hdy pdrd mfrd aicday ~f ~higc hd pjs fg ~hd ohdss ~djm ~hjg jg

Faym|io ~djm'

^hj~ mjnd ~hdm bf~h ajt`h j`jig' Jgn phy j`jig jrd yft pri~ig` i~6 Yft nfg~

tstjaay pri~d s|fr~s s~frids'

_hd shrt``dn' I sjin ~hd sjmd ~hig`! bt~ Erjgc pjsg~ rdjaay strd i~ pjs j s~rji`h~ s|fr~s

s~fry' Jgn gfp ~hj~ Iud md~ \d~drsfg! I ~higc hd pjs ri h~' I~s mfrd fe j htmjg

ig~drds~ s~fry'

Phioh yftrd `ffn j~'

Phioh Im udry `ffn j~! ~hjgc yft! my eridgn'

Rioc |jin ~hd biaa! pjuig` fee hdr |rf efrmj feedr ~f |ioc i~ t| fr j~ adjs~ s|ai~ i~' _hd

ei`trdn i~ mi`h~ hjud mjxdn ft~ hdr UI_J jgypjy' Hd dsofr~dn hdr ft~! dgkfyig` ~hd

~trg fe mjgy mdgs dyds j~ hdr js ~hdy ade~ ~hd nigig` rffm jgn rdoajimdn ~hdir ofj~s' Hd

`jud ~hd ~iocd~ efr his Mdrodnds ~f ~hd ujad~ j~~dgnjg~! jgn ~hdy pji~dn ig ofmefr~jbad

siadgod efr his ojr' Fgod i~ hjn jrriudn jgn hd hjn j||rf|rij~day rdpjrndn ~hd j~~dgnjg~

efr i~s sjed rd~trg! hd hdjndn ~hd ojr ~fpjrns hdr hftsd' _f yft cgfp hfp yftrd `fig`

~f pri~d ~hd s~fry6

I ~higc sf! shd sjin' Ig ejo~! shdn bddg ~higcig` jbft~ i~ fee jgn fg jaa njy! jgn shd

~hft`h~ shd hjn j |rd~~y `ffn hjgnad fg i~' _hd sjp i~ js j htmfrfts s~fry! jg Faym|io

j~had~d hinig` ig ~hd mins~ fe his tgpi~~ig` ofpfrcdrs aicd j nijmfgn hinndg ig ~hd

mdj~afje' FC! sf hd pjsg~ rdjaay pfran oajss! bt~ hd pjs jg Faym|ijg jgn ~f mfs~

|df|ad ~hj~ pjs ~hd sjmd ~hig`' _hd cgdp shd pjs `fig` ~f pfrc ig ~hd ohdss ~djm ~hig`

sfmd|ajod' I~ pftang~ bd j bi s~fry bt~ i~n bd ot~d jgn mjybd j ai~~ad hdjr~-pjrmig`'

Iaa rduidp my gf~ds ~fmfrrfp mfrgig`! bt~! ydjh! I ~higc I cgfp hfp ~f ~daa i~'

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Hd |taadn ig~f hdr nriudpjy jgn affcdn j~ hdr cgfpig`ay' Pjg~ ~f ofmd ig6 shd sjin!

cgfpig` hd pjs dx|do~ig` ~hd igui~j~ifg jgn jardjny affcig` efrpjrn ~f his gdx~ ndssdr~'

_hdn jardjny nisofudrdn ~hj~ hd pjs j udry ofgsoidg~ifts afudr jgn ~hj~ ~hdy hjn |rd~~y

`ffn ohdmis~ry ~f`d~hdr ig bdn' Jgn ig ~hd ci~ohdg! ~hd bj~h! jgn ~hd aiuig` rffm! ie shd

pjs hfgds~ jbft~ i~' Uij`rj pjsg~ kts~ j nrt` efr fan mdg'

I~ pjs jamfs~ ~pf hftrs aj~dr phdg ~hdy pdrd bf~h sj~ij~dn' ^hj~ pjs fgd fe ~hd bds~

~hig`s jbft~ j gdp rdaj~ifgshi|! shd ndoindn! ~his eddaig` fe gdudr `d~~ig` dgft`h fe djoh

f~hdr' _hd pjsg~ fgd efr sadd|ig` jrftgn! |rdedrrig` j sdrids fe afg`dr ~drm

rdaj~ifgshi|s! bt~ ~hdsd djray njys fe j rdaj~ifgshi| pdrd j rtsh ~hj~ shd dgndn t| missig`

fgod ~hig`s offadn nfpg ig~f j mfrd sdnj~d |hjsd' _hd pjsg~ strd ie Rioc pjs `fig` ~f

ajs~ ~hj~ afg` yd~ fr gf~! bt~ shd pjs cdd|ig` jg f|dg mign'

_hftan I s~jy6 hd jscdn'

Ie yft pjg~! shd sjin' Hdn fgay s~jydn fudr j oft|ad ~imds! bf~h fg Erinjy gi`h~s' Hd

aiudn ft~ ig ~hd stbtrbs jgn ning~ aicd ~f `d~ t| ~ff djray ~f `f `d~ j ohjg`d fe oaf~hds'

Hdn hjud rj~hdr ~hdy pjg~ ~f his hftsd ~f bd`ig pi~h'

Nf yft hjud ~f `d~ t| djray ~fmfrrfp6 hd jscdn'

_hd pfgndrdn ie hd pjs jardjny affcig` efr rdjsfgs ~f `f hfmd! jgn i~ mjnd hdr j ai~~ad

sfrry! ja~hft`h shd oftang~ sjy shd pjs str|risdn' _hd sad|~ bd~~dr jafgd jgypjy'

Gf~hig` tgtstja'

Hd ~hft`h~ ~hj~ fudr' Hd pjs ajyig` pi~h his jrm jrftgn hdr jgn sddmdn ig gf htrry ~f

mfud' Mjybd Iaa s~jy'

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^hj~n bd giod! shd sjin! jgn cissdn him' _hd dxotsdn hdrsdae jgn pdg~ ~f ~hd

bj~hrffm' Phdg shd rd~trgdn hd pjs si~~ig` t| ig ~hd bdn pj~ohig` ~hd aj~d gdps' Hdy!

I pjs ~higcig`'

Jbft~ phj~6 shd jscdn! pfgndrig` ie hd pjs `fig` ~f str|risd hdr jgn sjy sfmd~hig`

rfmjg~io' Aicd! hdy! pjg~ ~f `f ~f \jris efr ~hd pddcdgn6 I~ pjs ~hd cign fe ~hig` hd

mi`h~ nf! ja~hft`h Ud`js fr Joj|taof pdrd |rfbjbay mfrd his s~yad! Erdgoh rds~jtrjg~s

gf~pi~hs~jgnig`'

Is ~his `ty \d~drsfg jgy `ffn6

^hj~ s~f||dn hdr shfr~' _hd odr~jigay hjng~ dx|do~dn him ~f brig` t| Njg \d~drsfg

j`jig! ds|doijaay gf~ ig hdr bdnrffm' @ffn6 Yft mdjg jsind erfm bdig` fg ~hd

Faym|io ~djm jgn jaa6

Hd shrt``dn! gf~ rdjaay pj~ohig` hdr bt~ |jyig` mfrd j~~dg~ifg ~f ~hd afoja s|fr~s rd|fr~'

Yft cgfp! sfmd fe ~hdsd mjrj~hfgdrs ds|doijaay phi~d Jmdriojg `tys kts~ sddm

sfr~ fe oatmsy! ds|doijaay ofm|jrdn ~f ~hd Jeriojg `tys' Iud sddg i~ j~ ~hd ^pig Oi~ids'

I pjs pfgndrig` ie hds fgd fe ~hdsd `tys ~hj~ jrd |jigeta kts~ ~f pj~oh'

I nfg~ cgfp! shd sjin ztid~ay! ~higcig`' _hd eftgn hdrsdae ~ryig` ~f uistjai{d \d~drsfg

rtggig`! bt~ oftang~ zti~d efrm j sti~jbad mdg~ja |io~trd'

Hd affcdn fudr' Phj~ nf yft mdjg yft nfg~ cgfp6

_hd ojmd fudr jgn sj~ fg ~hd bdn! bt~ nin gf~ `d~ tgndr ~hd ofudrs pi~h him' I gdudr

sjp him rtg'

Yft ning~ dudg sdd uindf fe his ^rijas rjod6

_hd shffc hdr hdjn'

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I~ pjs gf~! fe oftrsd! jo~tjaay j ejod! kts~ js |df|ad sddig` ^hd Bi` Ni||dr ig ~hd scy j~

gi`h~ nfds gf~ jo~tjaay mdjg ~hdrd is j ajr`d ajnad si~~ig` ft~ jmfg` ~hd s~jrs' I~ is

|drhj|s j tgiztday htmjg ohjrjo~dris~io ~hj~ htmjg migns ojg eign mdjgig` jmfg` j

mjss fe tstjaay mdjgig`adss si`gjas! ojg tsd symbfas ~f rd|rdsdg~ ~hig`s ~hj~ jrd gf~

jo~tjaay ~hdrd' ^hd ejod pjs! j~ bds~! j scd~oh fe j ejod! ~hd bjrds~ |fssibad ~rjods fe phj~

j ejod mi`h~ ofg~jig' ^hd im|fr~jg~ ~hig` pjs ~hj~ hd cgdp i~ ~f bd j ejod'

Fgd sdofgn hd hjn gf ofgod|~ fe j ejod' ^hdg! stnndgay! ~hdrd pjs j ejod ig erfg~ fe him

jgn hd cgdp phj~ i~ pjs' Hd ning~ jgn |drhj|s oftang~ tgndrs~jgn phy hd tgndrs~ffn

~his! phdrd ~hd sim|ad ejo~ fe ejods mi`h~ hjud ofmd erfm' Yd~ ~his hd cgdp; jaa jgimjas

hjn ~hdm3 ~hdy `dgdrjaay hjn ~hd sjmd cigns fe edj~trds js ~his ejod' Dyds' Djrs' Gfsds'

Mft~hs' ^hdy mi`h~ affc nieedrdg~ s|doids ~f s|doids ja~hft`h! ie |rdssdn! hd oftan gf~

jr~iotaj~d phj~ jgy fe ~hfsd nieedrdgods mi`h~ bd bt~ hd cgdp phj~ j ejod pjs'

Hd oftang~ sjy phfsd ejod i~ pjs' Hd oftang~ dudg hjud sjin i~ pjs j htmjg ejod!

bdojtsd hd s~iaa nin gf~ cgfp phj~ htmjg mdjg~' Jaa hd cgdp pjs ~hj~ ~hdrd pjs

sfmd~hig` hdrd pi~h him ~hj~ pjsg~ hdrd bdefrd! sfmd~hig` f~hdr ~hjg himsdae! jgn ~hj~

hd cgdp phj~ i~ pjs' Di~hdr fgd fe ~hfsd ig i~sdae pftan hjud bddg js~ftgnig` dgft`h!

bt~ efr bf~h fe ~hdm ~f bd ~rtd pjs! pdaa hd ning~ hjud ~hd pfrns jgypjy'

^hd ejod pjs kts~ ~hdrd' I~ pjsg~ mfuig` fr jgimj~dn ig jgy pjy' Hd ning~ mign!

bdojtsd hd ning~ rdjaay hjud jgy dx|do~j~ifg ~hj~ i~ shftan bd nfig` jgy~hig` f~hdr ~hjg

kts~ bdig` ~hdrd' Gfr pjs hd bf~hdrdn by ~hd ejo~ ~hj~ ~hdrd pjs gf gdoc! gf hjir! gf djrs'

^hd ohig pjs fgay bjrday ~hdrd! kts~ dgft`h ~f st``ds~ phdrd ~hd ejod dgndn jgn ~hd

efrmadss ufin ~hj~ pjs dudry~hig` dasd s~jr~dn' ^f him! i~ pjs j etaa ejod! jgn ~hd missig`

|fr~ifgs hjn gf mdjgig` ~f him' Hjn ~hdy j||djrdn! hd mi`h~ hjud jood|~dn ~hdm js

pdaa! bt~ ~hdir jbsdgod ~ri``drdn gf rds|fgsd fe igofm|ad~dgdss'

I~ ~ffc him j afg` ~imd fe ofg~dm|aj~ifg ~f rdjai{d ~hj~ ~hd ejod hjng~ kts~ j||djrdn!

mtoh js i~ sddmdn ~hj~ pjy' Js bds~ hd oftan! hd ~ridn ~f rdordj~d phj~ his pfran hjn

bddg aicd bdefrd ~hd ejod! jgn hd ojmd ~f tgndrs~jgn ~hj~ ~hd sjmd edj~trds ~hj~ gfp

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jaafpdn him ~f rdof`gi{d i~ pjs j ejod hjn jo~tjaay bddg ~hdrd efr sfmd ~imd bdefrd hd

ofgoatndn j ejod erfm ~hdm' Hd kts~ hjng~ cgfpg hfp ~f rdof`gi{d ~hdm! hfp ~f gf~

kts~ affc bt~ jasf jo~tjaay sdd ~hdm'

^hj~ pjs ~hd sdofgn! jgn mfrd s~jr~aig`! nisofudry; hd oftan sdd'

^hd ~imd ~hj~ hd s|dg~ s~tnyig` ~hd ejod pjs tgoftg~jbay afg` bdefrd hd ojmd ~f ~his

tgndrs~jgnig`' Hd pftan hjud cd|~ s~tnyig` i~ igndeigi~day ig ~hd jbsdgod fe ~his

ofgoatsifg! pi~hft~ ojrig` dxjo~ay hfp hd pjs ~hj~ hd pjs jbad ~f s~tny i~' Cgfpig`

sfmd~hig` hjs dyds nfds gf~ mdjg fgd cgfps phj~ ~hdy jrd efr' Hd s~iaa hjn gf indj

phj~ ~hd ejod mi`h~ nf pi~h i~s mft~h fr i~s gfsd! bt~ pi~h j eajsh fe igsi`h~ hd ~hft`h~ hd

gfp tgndrs~ffn phj~ ~hd dyds pdrd st||fsdn ~f nf! jgn ~hj~ hd hjn ~hj~ sjmd jbiai~y'

^hdrd pjs gf~hig` dasd ig his pfran ~f sdd' Dudry~hig` dasd pjs js edj~trdadss js bdefrd!

pi~h gf f~hdr |j~~drgs ~hj~ ojt`h~ his j~~dg~ifg' _~iaa! hd pjs mfrd strd ~hjg dudr ~hj~ ~hd

sjmd sdgsj~ifgs ~hj~ hjn fgod ~ridn ~f fudrphdam him mi`h~ bd ojrryig` igefrmj~ifg! kts~

js hd hjn mjgj`dn ~f sgj` ~hd ejod erfm ~hd ~frrdg~ fe dudry~hig` dasd ~hj~ pjs jaa jrftgn

him' ^hd ejod mi`h~ bd ~hd fgay f~hdr ~hig` hdrdbt~ i~ mi`h~ gf~'

Efr gfp! i~ pftan bd dgft`h'

Ohj|~dr :2

Adjh ojaadn Njgs sis~dr ~f rd|fr~ ~hd ndudaf|mdg~s' _f hd s~iaa isg~ jpjcd6 Ohris~igd

jscdn! hdr ufiod smjaa jgn jerjin' Adjh ofgeirmdn ~hj~ ~hd ohjg`ds nin gf~ mdjg Njg

pjs jgy oafsdr ~f rd~trgig` ~f jpjrdgdss ~hjg bdefrd' Ohris~igd si`hdn' I hj~d ~f

imj`igd him pi~h his dyds f|dg aicd ~hj~! yft cgfp6 F|dg bt~ gf~ sddig`'

Adjh hjn ~f j`rdd ~hj~ i~ pjs mfs~ nis~trbig`'

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Pd rdjn yftr s~frids jgn jaa! jgn ei`trdn hd oftan hjud uisi~frs! Pjygd sjin! shie~ig`

pdi`h~ tgofgsoiftsay erfm eff~ ~f eff~' Yftr s~tee pjs rdj~'

^hjgcs'

Yft rdjaay |d``dn him' Adjh jsstmdn hd pjs rdedrrig` ~f ~hd ~pf s~frids shd prf~d

jbft~ Njg |rifr ~f ~hd Faym|ios! phdg i~ pjs jaa s~iaa jbft~ Njg jgn gf~ jbft~ phj~

hj||dgdn ~f him'

_f hds gf~ ofgsoifts yd~6 Jgnrdj jscdn! affcig` bf~h yftg`dr jgn mfrd utagdrjbad

~hjg hdr ydjrs'

Adjh gfnndn' Iud sddg him j edp ~imds! shd ofgeirmdn' I pjs ~hdrd phdg hd f|dgdn

his dyds'

His dyds jrd f|dg6 Jgnrdj jscdn' _f hd is jpjcd6 _hd `ajgodn fudr j~ Pjygd! phf

affcdn dztjaay s~jr~adn'

Adjh gfnndn' Gf! hds gf~ jpjcd'

^hdg phy jrd his dyds f|dg6 Pjygd igztirdn'

Adjh dx|ajigdn jbft~ ~hd \U_! sddig` ~hdir dyds `aj{d fudr shfr~ay ig~f hdr ndsori|~ifg'

I~ pjsg~ sf mtoh ~hj~ ~hdy ning~ tgndrs~jgn js ~hj~ i~ mjnd ~hdm ~ff tgofmefr~jbad!

sojrig` ~hdm ~hj~ sfmdfgd ~hdy cgdp oftan dgn t| ig stoh j s~j~d' Ofmd fg! Iaa ~jcd

yft t|! shd feedrdn'

^hdy affcdn j~ djoh f~hdr j`jig! pjry bt~ gf~ pjg~ig` ~f bjoc ft~ j~ ~his |fig~' Adjh

pfgndrdn ie ~hdy mi`h~ hjud afs~ ~hdir gdrud hjn shd gf~ hj||dgdn jafg`' ^hdy pdrd

ztid~ fg ~hd pjac ~f Njgs rffm' Adjh ndoindn ~hdy gddndn ~hd ~imd ~f `j~hdr ~hdir

oftrj`d' _hd ade~ ~hdm jafgd ig Njgs rffm jgn pdg~ ~f ~hd gtrsds s~j~ifg ~f d~ j rd|fr~

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I sjp ~hdm! Adjh sjin' _hd rdmdmbdrdn pfgndrig` phy jgyfgd pftan sdgn j eafpdr

jrrjg`dmdg~ ~f ~hd rffm fe j ofmj~fsd |j~idg~' I~ pjs giod ~hj~ ~hdy hjn bddg ~higcig`

jbft~ him! bt~ i~ |drhj|s pjs gf~ ~hd mfs~ j||rf|rij~d `ds~trd efr sfmdfgd fbaiuifts ~f

~hd pfran'

^hdg! j`jig! shd pjsg~ zti~d strd phj~ pftan hjud bddg'

J btgoh fe ts pj~ohdn ~hd rjod j~ ^fgys hftsd! Jgnrdj feedrdn! afs~ ig ~hd mdmfry

jgn smiaig` nds|i~d hdrsdae' I~ pjs |rd~~y dxoi~ig`! t| tg~iayft cgfp' ^hd smiad

ejndn js ztiocay js i~ hjn j||djrdn'

I cgfp'

Hd pjs js offa js j ototmbdr phdg hd ade~' Pd pjg~dn ~f hjud j ai~~ad `ffn atoc |jr~y

efr him! bt~ hd rdetsdn! Pjygd sjin' J btgoh fe ts kts~ pdg~ ft~ efr nrigcs ~hd gi`h~

bdefrd hd ade~! jgn hd pftang~ hjrnay ~jac jbft~ i~' I~ pjs aicd i~ pjs gf bi` ndja! bt~ I

cgdp bd~~dr'

I jscdn him ie hd pjs dxoi~dn jgn hd kts~ smiadn! Jgnrdj sjin' Yft cgfp! ~hj~ ai~~ad

smiad hd hjn' ^hd sjmd smiad hd tsdn phdg hds ad~~ig` |df|ad j~ pfrc cgfp dudry~hig`

piaa pfrc ft~ FC' _hd s~f||dn efr j oft|ad sdofgns! hdr hdjn nfpg' _hd rjisdn i~ ~f

affc j~ Pjygd' Hdr dyds mis~dn' I miss him'

I~ isg~ ~hd sjmd! hd jnmi~~dn' Pdrd jaa j ai~~ad afs~ pi~hft~ him' Hd pjs japjys ~hd

cign fe `ty phf I oftan oftg~ fg' My `f-~f `ty' Yft cgfp! hd japjys f~ ~hd kfb nfgd'

Gdudr ofm|ajigdn! gdudr phigdn' Kts~ j rdj~ `ty'

Adjh affcdn j~ Jgnrdj' Is ~hj~ phj~ yft aicd jbft~ Njg ~ff6

_hd affcdn j~ Adjh js ie shd pjs mjn jgn shffc hdr hdjn' Hd pjs kts~hd japjys hjn

j smiad jgn sfmd~hig` giod ~f sjy' I gdudr fgod sjp him ig j bjn mffn fr ydaa j~ jgyfgd!

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gf~hig` aicd ~hj~' \df|ad pjg~dn~f nf ~hig`s efr him! bdojtsd ~hdy cgdp hd pfrcdn

hjrndr ~hjg jgyfgd jgn hd pjs japjys pj~ohig` ft~ efr ~hdm' Hd mjnd yft edda bd~~dr

kts~ by bdig` jrftgn' _hd si`hdn jgn affcdn j`jig aicd shd mi`h~ ory'

Adjh pjsg~ strd phj~ ~f sjy! sf shd feedrdn jg igjgd ofmefr~' _~iaa! yft mts~ bd jpeta

|rftn fe him' ^hdy affcdn j~ hdr ig ofgetsifg! sf shd eda~ ofm|daadn ~f jnn! yft

cgfp! bdojtsd fe ~hd Faym|ios jgn jaa'

^frrds affcdn nfpg ~f ~ry ~f hind ~hd igordjsdn pj~drig` fe hdr dyds! bt~ Pjygd affcdn

j~ hdr igordntaftsay' I ning~ gddn ~hd njmg Faym|ios ~f bd |rftn fe Njg* I pjs |adg~y

|rftn fe him bdefrd' Js j ofpfrcdr jgn js j eridgn' Hdaa! I pish hdn gdudr `fgd ~f ~hd

Faym|ios His ufiod ~rjiadn fee jgn gfp hd pjs ~hd fgd affcig` j~ ~hd eaffr'

^frrds rjisdn hdr hdjn jgn ~ftohdn Pjygds jrm ai`h~ay pi~h hdr hjgn' Gf! ^fgy! ~hj~s

gf~ ri`h~'

Hd affcdn t| j~ hdr ztds~ifgig`ay' _hd shffc hdr hdjn jgn j~~dm|~dn j ejig~ smiad' I~

mdjg~ ~ff mtoh ~f him' Yft pj~ohdn ~hd rjod3 pd bf~h nin' Yft oftan sdd hfp

im|fr~jg~ i~ pjs ~f him' I ning~ cgfp i~ pjs ~hj~ im|fr~jg~ bt~ phdg I pj~ohdn him I

cgdp ~hdg ~hj~ i~ pjs' Hd pftang~ hjud pjg~dn yft ~f ~jcd ~hj~ jpjy erfm him'

Pjygd dxhjadn aftnay ig erts~rj~ifg' Hd s~jrdn j~ hdr efr j edp mfmdg~s! ~hdg s~jr~dn ~f

gfn his hdjn sai h~ay' Yftrd ri`h~! hd j`rddn' Hd affcdn nfpg ~hd ofrrinfr bjoc

~fpjrns Njgs rffm' I nfg~ cgfp phy i~ pjs sf im|fr~jg~ ~f him! bt~ i~ pjs' Jgn!

cgfpig` him! ie hd pjs ~jcig` ~hj~ cign fe risc hd gfnndn ~fpjrns Njgs rffm ~hdg

hd nin i~ pi~h his dyds f|dg'

Adjh pjs s~rtoc by ~his ofmmdg~3 i~ rdmigndn hdr fe j ofgudrsj~ifg shdn hjn pi~h Njg

~hd gi`h~ bdefrd his ej~deta rjod! jgn j ofmmdg~ hdn mjnd j~ ~hj~ ~imd' _hd ~hft`h~ ~hj~

Pjygd pjs mfrd ofrrdo~ ~hjg hd mi`h~ rdjai{d! fr |drhj|s i~ pjs ~hj~ hd jgn Jgnrdj

^frrds sim|ay cgdp Njg \d~drsfg bd~~dr ~hjg shd nin'

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^hd ~hrdd fe ~hdm s~ffn ~hdrd ig siadgod efr j edp sdofgns' Pjygd eigjaay affcdn j~

Jgnrdj' Pd bd~~dr `d~ fig`' Hd `ajgodn shdd|ishay j~ Adjh' Pdrd fg ftr atgoh

brdjc! yft cgfp6 hd jnndn j|faf`d~iojaay'

Jrdg~ yft ~hd bfss! Adjh pjg~dn ~f jsc' Igs~djn! shd sim|ay gfnndn' I~ pjs giod fe

yft ~f ofmd' Ojg I shfp yft ~hd pjy ft~6

^hdy ignioj~dn ~hj~ ~hdy oftan eign ~hdir pjy bjoc fg ~hdir fpg! sddmig` `rj~deta ~f bd

fg ~hdir pjy! jgn s~jr~dn nfpg ~hd hjaa' ^hdy hjng~ `f~~dg udry ejr phdg Jgnrdj

s~f||dn jgn ~trgdn ~f Adjh' Nf yft ~higc hds `fig` ~f `d~ bd~~dr6 Hdr ufiod pjs

eri`h~dgdn jgn ~dg~j~iud'

I nfg~ cgfp! Adjh jnmi~~dn'

Jgnrdj `ajgodn sdae-ofgsoiftsay j~ Pjygd! ~hdg affcdn bjoc j~ Adjh! hdr `j{d s~djnidr'

Hd pjs j giod `ty! ~hd bds~'

Hd s~iaa is! Adjh ofrrdo~dn hdr'

Ydjh! ydjh! I cgfp -- yftrd ri`h~' ^hd ~hig` is! I ojg~ s~jgn ~f sdd him aicd ~his'

Adjh gfnndn sym|j~hd~iojaay' I cgfp' I~s |rd~~y shfocig` ~f `f erfm bdig` ig ~hd

Faym|ios ~f bdig` aicd hd is gfp'

Jgnrdj j||djrdn ofgetsdn' Gf! I pjsg~ ~jacig` jbft~ jgy~hig` aicd ~hj~'

Phj~ is i~ ~hdg6

Jgnrdj affcdn j~ Pjygd efr mfrja st||fr~' Hd kts~ sddmdn aicd hd pjg~dn ~f `d~ ~hd hdaa

ft~ fe ~hdrd! bt~ hd gfnndn j~ hdr js ie hd cgdp phj~ shd pjs ~ryig` ~f sjy' Him bdig`

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fg ~hd Û ning~ rdjaay sddm! yft cgfp! rdja' I miss him -- shd affcdn j~ Pjygd efr

jeeirmj~ifg pd miss hjuig` him jrftgn' ^jacig` ig ~hd feeiod! `fig` ft~ efr bddrs'

Yft cgfp' _hd sddmdn |rjo~iojaay ig ~djrs'

Hd pjs j ffn `ty! Pjygd j`rddn `rteeay' Ofmd fg! Jgnrdj' Hd ~ffc hdr by ~hd

dabfp jgn s~ddrdn hdr nfpg ~hd ofrrinfr'

Is j `ffn `ty! Adjh sjin sfe~ay js ~hdy pjacdn jpjy'

Ohj|~dr :?

Adjh eda~ effaish pji~ig` ft~sind Njgs btianig` ig ~hd |rdnjpg njrcgdss! pji~ig` efr him

~f dmdr`d' _hd sj~ ig hdr ojr! ~hd ai`h~s fee bt~ pi~h ~hd mf~fr rtggig` ~f cdd| ~hd hdj~

fg' _hd pjs j ~ft`h Miggdsf~j ìra bt~ shd pftang~ hjud affcdn efrpjrn ~f s~jgnig`

ft~sind ig ~hd ~hir~y-nd`rdd pdj~hdr' _hd pjs àjn efr ~hd ojrs pjrm~h! jgn pfgndrdn

hfp afg` shdn hjud ~f pji~ ft~sind aicd ~his'

Njg hjn ~fan hdr hd tstjaay pdg~ ft~ ~f rtg bd~pddg eiud ~hir~y jgn six fg pfrc

mfrgig`s! jgn i~ pjs jamfs~ six bdefrd hd dmdr`dn' Nds|i~d ~hd ofan! hd pjs pdjrig`

fgay shfr~s jgn j afg` saddudn ~-shir~' Hd nin hjud sfmd àfuds js jnndn |rf~do~ifg

j`jigs~ ~hd ohiaa' I~ pjs ~hd eirs~ ~imd shd hjn sddg him pdjrig` sf edp oaf~hds! jgn phj~

|rduiftsay hjn fgay bddg jm im|rdssifg fe hfp ~hig hd pjs hjn gfp bddg nrjmj~iojaay

ofgeirmdn' Dudg his ad`s pdrd ~hig! ja~hft`h piry mi`h~ ndsoribd ~hdm bd~~dr! pi~h

ofrndn mtsoads ~hj~ shd oftan sdd erfm phdrd shd pjs' _hd dx|do~dn ~hj~ hd mi`h~ s|dgn

j edp migt~ds s~rd~ohig` fr f~hdrpisd pjrmig` t|! bt~ jamfs~ bdefrd shd cgdp i~ hd ~ffc

fee'

Jgn hd pjs `fgd'

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bdojtsd ~hdyrd ohjsdn fr bdojtsd ~hdyrd ~ryig` ~f afsd pdi`h~' ^hdy rtg bdojtsd ~hj~s

phj~ ~hdy cgfp bds~'

Hd pjs `ffn dgft`h ~f mjcd ~hd Faym|io ~djm! fe oftrsd! bt~ ~his pjs sfmd~hig` dasd'

^hd s~fry shd hjn |rjo~iojaay pri~~dg ig hdr hdjn pjs j ot~d ai~~ad s~fry jbft~ j sdord~

hfbby sfmdfgd ig jg feeiod hjn! bt~ shd cgdp gfp ~hj~ ~his s~fry pftan gf~ steeiod' _hd

hjn ~hft`h~ shdn cgfpg him erfm ~hd je~drgffg shdn s|dg~ ~jacig` ~f him jgn his

ofpfrcdrs' _hd ~hft`h~ shd cgdp ~hj~ Njg \d~drsfg' ^hj~ Njg \d~drsfg pjs j giod `ty

phf hjn j ai~~ad hfbby ~hj~ his ofpfrcdrs ning~ cgfp jbft~! ig mtoh ~hd sjmd pjy ~hj~

sfmdfgd mi`h~ nf cjrjfcd fr `rfp rfsds ig ~hdir s|jrd ~imd' ^hd affc fg his ejod pjs

gf~ ~hd affc fe sfmdfgd pi~h j hfbby' I~ pjs ~hd affc fe sfmdfgd ~f~jaay ofmmi~~dn' I~

sojrdn hdr' _hd ning~ cgfp ~his Njg \d~drsfg! ning~ cgfp jgy~hig` jbft~ him f~hdr

~hjg phj~ shd hjn kts~ sddg' _hdn hjud ~f rd~higc dudry~hig` dasd'

_hd s|dg~ ~hd rds~ fe ~hd mfrgig` nfig` sfmd mfrd ejo~ ohdocig`' _hd ojaadn his efrmdr

ofjoh j~ Pisofgsig bjoc jgn ~fan him shd hjn j edp mfrd ztds~ifgs efr him' Mr'

Mtrrjy! phy nin yft sjy yft pdrd str|risdn j~ Njg mjcig` ~hd ~djm6

I ~fan yft! ojaa md Hdrb! hd ohindn hdr mianay'

Hdrb! ~hdg' Yft ning~ ~higc Njg pjs ffn dgft`h6

Hd oadjrdn his ~hrfj~! jgn shd pishdn shd pjs ~jacig` ~f him ig |drsfg sf shd oftan pj~oh

his ejod! ~f sdd ~hd ai~~ad ~daas ~hj~ nfg~ zti~d ~rjgsaj~d ~hrft`h ~hd |hfgd' Pdaa! yft

cgfp hd hjng~ bddg rjoig` efr j edp ydjrs' I~ pjs cign fe ft~ fe ~hd batd' Im rdjaay

~hriaadn efr him! ~hft`h' @rdj~ cin'

Adjh pjs dgft`h fe j rd|fr~dr ~f cgfp phdg sfmdfgd isg~ zti~d ~daaig` ~hd phfad s~fry'

^hj~s gf~ jaa! is i~6 shd |rfnndn ojrdetaay' Phj~ dasd6

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4c' I gdudr ~hft`h~ hd oftan rtg ejs~ dgft`h ~f mjcd jg Faym|io ~djm! bt~ Im |rftn js

hdaa fe him' I nfg~ cgfp hfp hdaa eigish bt~ I cgfp hdaa iud i~ dudry~hig` hds f~'

Adjh jscdn j edp mfrd ztds~ifgs! ~hjgcdn him efr his ~imd! jgn f~ fee ~hd |hfgd' Je~dr

shdn eigishdn j edp mfrd |hfgd ojaas i~ pjs min-je~drgffg! jgn shd sj~ bjoc ~f rduidp

hdr gf~ds' _hd oftang~ pri~d ~hd jr~ioad shdn |ajggdn gfp' Jgn shd cgdp shd gddndn ~f

nf fgd mfrd ~hig` bdefrd shd oftan pri~d j bd~~dr jr~ioad' _hd nijadn ~hd |hfgd' Njg!

Adjh Ht~ohigs hdrd' I pjs pfgndrig` oftan I ofmd by jgn ~jac ~f yft sfmd~imd aj~dr

~fnjy6

Ohj|~dr :>

Hd rdjai{dn ~hj~ hd hjn ~f mjcd j ohfiod' Hd oftan ofg~igtd ~f ofgodg~rj~d fg ~hd ejod!

fr sdjroh his f~hdrpisd bajgc jgn edj~trdadss tgiudrsd efr f~hdr fbkdo~s! f~hdr duindgod fe

mdjgig` jmins~ ~hd mdjgigàdssgdss ~hj~ dg`taedn him' Hd cgdp ~hj~ ie hd ohfsd ~hd

ejod! hd mi`h~ miss sfmd~hig` mfrd im|fr~jg~! sfmd~hig` ~hj~ mi`h~ tgafoc ~hd sdord~ fe

phdrd hd pjs jgn phy hd pjs ~hdrd' \drhj|s dudg phy hd pjs j~ jaa'

^hdg! j`jig! ~hd ejod pjs ~hdrd! pji~ig`' I~ pjsg~ j udry nieeiota~ ohfiod ~f mjcd'

îmd |jssdn' Hd hjn gf~hig` ~f mdjstrd i~ by' Gf~hig` ohjg`dn ig his pfran! jgn hd

hjn gf pjy ~f oftg~ fr f~hdrpisd gf~d i~s |jssj`d' Hd hjn gf~hig` ~f nf f~hdr ~hjg s~jrd

j~ ~hd ejod! sfjc i~ ig dgnadssay' Jgn `rjntjaay! dudr sf `rjntjaay! sfmd~hig` nin ohjg`d'

^hd ejod hjn igi~ijaay kts~ bddg ~hfsd sai`h~ st``ds~ifgs! fe dyds jgn j gfsd jgn j mft~h'

I~ hjn bddg dgft`h ~f rdgndr i~ js j ejod! bt~ gf~ mtoh mfrd' I~ pjsg~ tg~ia hd hjn

migt~day s~tnidn dudry |idod fe i~! fudr jgn fudr jgn fudr j`jig tg~ia hd oftan `d~ sf afs~

ig ~hd nd~jia ~hj~ hd sfmd~imds afs~ ~hd phfad fe i~! pjs sf jbsfrbdn ig! sjy! ~hd otrud fe

~hj~ gfsd ~hj~ hd mi`h~ gf~ bd jbad ~f rdmdmbdr ~hj~ i~ pjs |jr~ fe sfmd~hig` ajr`dr' J~

~hdsd ~imds hdn hjn ~f s~rt`àd ~f efrod himsdae bjoc! ~f `j|d pianay tg~ia ~hd phfad fe

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~hd ejod rdudjadn i~sdae j`jig' I~ pjs his `rdj~ds~ edjr ~hj~ hd mi h~ afsd i~ j`jig! ~hj~ fgd

fe ~hfsd ~imds hd pftan affc efr ~hd rds~ fe ~hd ejod jgn gf~ eign i~' I~ pjs sfmd~hig` sf

~dgtftsay `jigdn ~hj~ hd cgdp hd hjn gf rdja `ri| fg i~! ~hj~ hd oftan! ignddn! afsd i~ ~f

~hd ufin j`jig' Bt~ i~ pjs j risc hd hjn ~f ~jcd! jgn sf hd efrodn himsdae j`jig jgn j`jig

~f adjrg dudg ~hd smjaads~ fe nd~jias'

Nds|i~d his md~iotafts s~tny! i~ gfgd~hdadss ojmd js j str|risd ~f him ~hj~ ~hd ejod hjn

sfmd~hig` dasd nieedrdg~ erfm i~s strrftgnig`s; i~ hjn ofafr' Hd ning~ rdjaay cgfp i~ js

ofafr! fe oftrsd! bt~ hd ojmd ~f rdof`gi{d ~hj~ ~hd jrdj bd~pddg ~hd |idods sddmdn

nieedrdg~ ~hjg ~hd jrdjs ft~sind ~hd ejod' I~ pjs bjrday ~hdrd! bt~ fgod hdn sddg i~! i~

bdojmd mfrd rdja ~f him! jgn |rfuindn him pi~h ~hd btfy ~hj~ hd oftan hjg` fg~f ~f

japjys rd~trg ~f ~hd ejod' Hd pj~ohdn i~! jgjay{dn i~! uidpdn i~ pi~h `rfpig` ejsoigj~ifg'

I~ pjs j ai`h~ ofafr! jamfs~ phi~d bt~ mixdn pi~h ejig~ ~ig~s ~hj~ pdrd hjrn ~f ndsoribd' Hd

dudg~tjaay ofgoatndn ~hj~ ~hd ejod hjn j sai`h~ rtnnigdss! `iuig` ~hd ejod j htd pi~h ~hd

sai`h~ st``ds~ifg fe |jad rdn fr |igc' ^his pjs zti~d dxoi~ig`! js ~hd ejod `jigdn j gdp

ohjrjo~dr ntd ~f ~hd ofafr' ^hd ofafr `jud i~ aied! mjnd i~ sddm gf~ kts~ aicd j

rd|rdsdg~j~ifg fe j ejod'

Fgod ~hdrd pjs ofafr! hd simiajray bd`jg ~f gf~iod ~dx~trd' ^hd ejod pjs gf~! je~dr jaa! j

tgiefrm! ~pf-nimdgsifgja fbkdo~' By s~tnyig` dudry sztjrd igoh! dudry sztjrd

miaaimd~dr fe ~hd ejod hd oftan j~ ajs~ sdd smjaa |ajods phdrd ~hd scig rfsd jgn edaa' I~

tgndgijbay hjn nd|~h3 his tgiudrsd gfp hjn ~hrdd nimdgsifgs' ^hj~ pjs j ofgod|~ ~hj~

~ffc him mtoh ~imd ~f tgndrs~jgn! jgn ie hd hjn ad`s hd mi`h~ hjud ktm|dn erfm ~hd

dtrdcj fe ~hd mfmdg~' Fgod hd `rjs|dn i~! hd ndai`h~dn ig gf~ioig` jaa ~hd stb~ad

ujrij~ifgs! nfpg ~f ~hd |frds ~hj~ hjn datndn him efr sf afg` bt~ gfp pdrd |ajigay uisibad

ie hd affcdn hjrn dgft`h' ^hd ~dx~trd jasf adn him mfrd fbuifts eignig`s; duindgod fe

ohddcbfgds! fe dydbrfps! fe ~hd gfsd! jgn fe ~hd aigd fe ~hd kjp' Djoh nisofudry pjs j

rdudaj~ifg! j kfy jgn j |t{{ad ig i~sdae' ^hd |t{{ad tstjaay ojmd eirs~! sddig` ~hd

nieedrdgod jgn fgay pi~h mtoh |jigeta fbsdruj~ifg ofgoatnig` ~hd edj~trd ~hj~ adn ~f ~hj~

nieedrdgod'

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^hd mft~h |t{{adn him efr ~hd afg`ds~ ~imd' I~ s~jr~dn ft~ js sim|ay j aigd! bt~ `rdp ~f

rdudja ai|s! phioh ~hdmsdauds hjn j ajgnsoj|d jaa fe ~hdir fpg! ai~~ad |djcs jgn ujaadys efr

gf oadjr rdjsfg' ^hd mft~h hjn j ohjrjo~dr! jgn ~hfsd ai|s efrmdn jg dx|rdssifg' Hd

oftang~ hjud sjin ie i~ pjs j smiad! j erfpg! fr sfmd~hig` ig bd~pddg! fr phj~ dmf~ifgs

jgy fe ~hfsd mi`h~ hjud mdjg~' Hd fgay cgdp ~hj~ ~hd mft~h pjs j cdy ~hj~ mi`h~

tgafoc sfmd~hig` fe ~hd ejod fr! mfrd jootrj~day! fe sfmd~hig` bdhign ~hj~ ejod' I~

cd|~ him pj~ohig`'

I~ pjs ~hd dyds ~hj~ ~ffc ~hd afg`ds~' J~ eirs~ ~hdy pdrd sim|ay njrc s|f~s phdrd dyds

shftan bd' I~ pjsg~ tg~ia hd hjn ndoi|hdrdn ~hd gfsd jgn ~hd dydbrfps ~hj~ strrftgndn

~hd dyds nin hd ~trg ~f ~hd jrdj bd~pddg ~hdm' Hd rdof`gi{dn ~hj~ ~hdy dyds pdrd gf~

mfgfai~hio' ^hdy pdrd fujas pi~h oiroads pi~hig oiroads' ^hd oiroads eafj~dn pi~hig ~hd

fuja! phioh pjs ~hd ai`h~ds~ ofafr fe ~hd ejod' ^hd iggdrmfs~ oiroad pjs j njrc ufin!

nrjpig` him ig tg~ia hd edjrdn hd mi`h~ ejaa jgn bd stocdn ig~f sfmd f~hdr jbyss' Tgaicd

his otrrdg~ tgiudrsd! ~hft`h! hd ~hft`h~ hd mi`h~ gf~ mign bdig` nrjpg ig~f ~hdsd nd|~hs!

ja~hft`h hd oftan gf~ jsodr~jig phdrd ~hdy mi`h~ adjn' ^hd ajr`dr oiroad hdan ~hd njrc

oiroad ig i~s odg~dr! jgn hd ojmd ~f tgndrs~jgn ~hj~ i~ hdan j ujrid~y fe ofafrs' Erfm his

s~tny fe ~hd rds~ fe ~hd ejod! his igi~ija tgndrs~jgnig` fe i~s ofafr adn him ~f sdd ~hj~ gf~ jaa

ofafr pjs ~hd sjmd' ^hd shjnd ohjg`dn js hd sojggdn nieedrdg~ |jr~s fe ~hd ejod! jgn

~hdsd shjnds hjn |rfuindn him pi~h sfmd fe his djraids~ oatds js ~f ~hd shjnd ~hj~

st``ds~dn nd|~h'

^hd dyds ofafrs pdrd nieedrdg~' Hd hjn gf pfrns ~f ndsoribd ~hdm! bt~ ~hdy pdrd

nieedrdg~ erfm jaa ~hd ofafr shjnds fe ofm|adxifg hd hjn adjrgdn erfm ~hd ejod' ^hd

ofafrs ujridn dudg mfrd ~hjg ~hd nieedrdg~ |jr~s fe ~hd ejod' Pi~hig ~hd smjaa jrdj

bftgndn by ~hd oiroads pi~hig ~hd dyds ~hd irisds ~hdrd pdrd mfrd ohjg`ds fe ofafrs

~hjg jgy~hig` dasd hd hjn sddg' ^hdy pdrd zti~d bdjt~ieta! t~~dray tgaicd jgy~hig` dasd'

Ie hd pdrd efrodn ~f mjcd j ohfiod! hd pftan hjud `iudg t| ~hd rds~ fe ~hd ejod js afg` js

hd hjn ~hfsd dyds ~f s~jy pi~h him' ^hdrd pjs j s|jrcad ~f ~hdm! j ui~jai~y ~hj~ ~hriaadn

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him jgn mjnd him edda mfrd jaiud js pdaa' I~ nin gf~ footr ~f him! gf~ yd~! ~hj~ ~hfsd

dyds mi`h~ bd s~jrig` bjoc j~ him'

Ohj|~dr :4

Adjh pdg~ bjoc ~f Njgs rffm' Hd pjs ajyig` ig ~hd bdn! his dyds f|dg jgn s~jrig`

baignay j~ ~hd odiaig`' Gf mj~~dr hfp mjgy ~imds shd hjn ofmd! shd japjys eda~ jpcpjrn

ig his |rdsdgod! gf~ cgfpig` zti~d phj~ shd shftan bd nfig`'

His eridgns ning~ s~jy udry afg`! nin ~hdy6 Mjry sjin! bts~aig` ig~f Njgs rffm' _hd

~ffc t| |fsi~ifg gdx~ ~f his bdn jgn ohdocdn his IU aigds'

I ~higc i~ pjs j bi~ mtoh efr ~hdm'

Mjry gfnndn jgn spi~ohdn fgd fe ~hd aigds' I~ ~jcds sfmd efacs j phiad' _hd s~tnidn

~hd mfgi~frs! jgn ~ffc fgd fe Njgs pris~s ~f edda his |tasd nirdo~ay' _hd |t~ j hjgn fg

his efrdhdjn jgn hdan i~ ~hdrd'

Nfg~ ~rts~ ~hd dzti|mdg~! hth6 Adjh ~ridn ~f kfcd'

Mjry ~ffc hdr hjgn jpjy! jgn `jud Adjh j scd|~ioja àjgod' _hd ~ffc his ohjr~ jgn

s~jr~dn ~f pri~d sfmd gf~ds' Fh! ~hdy pfrc kts~ eigd' I kts~ ~higc i~ nfds j bfny `ffn ~f

edda ~hd ~ftoh fe jgf~hdr |drsfg dudry sf fe~dg' _hd mfudn ~fpjrns ~hd nffr! ~hdg js

ie i~ hjn kts~ footrrdn ~f hdr s~f||dn jgn ~trgdn' Yft mi`h~ ~ry i~ ~ff' I bd~ hdn aicd

~f hjud his ìraeridgn ~ftoh him'

Im gf~ his ìraeridgn! Adjh |rf~ds~dn'

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hjud sfmd f~hdr gjmd efr ~hdir ig~imj~d rdaj~ifgshi|' Yft bddg ~jacig` ~f him aicd I

~fan yft6

Adjh rdmdmbdrdn hfp siaay shd hjn eda~ ~jacig` ~f him ig ~his s~j~d! jgn yd~ pjs

dmbjrrjssdn j~ hjuig` gf~ ~ridn udry hjrn j~ i~' Nr' ^faadesfg sjin hd ~hft`h~ hd

oftang~ rdjaay hdjr'

Hdr ufiod pjs cign' ^hfsd nfo~frs nfg~ cgfp dudry~hig`' I cgfp ie I pjs phdrdudr hd

is! I cgfp In aicd ~hd sftgn fe sfmdfgd ~jacig` ~f md' Pi~h ~hj~ shd spd|~ ft~ fe ~hd

rffm! adjuig` Adjh s~jgnig` ~hdrd eddaig` dudg mfrd jpcpjrn' _hd dn`dn oafsdr ~f his

bdn'

_f phj~ pftan yft aicd ~f ~jac jbft~! Njg6 shd jscdn sfe~ay! eddaig` j ai~~ad effaish'

_hd `ajgodn ~fpjrns ~hd nffr ~f mjcd strd gf fgd oftan hdjr hdr! jgn mfudn oafsdr ~f

~hd bdn' Gf~hig` ig |jr~iotajr! hth6

_hd |jtsdn jgn affcdn ft~ ~hd pignfp ~f nis~rjo~ hdr erfm ~hd et~iai~y fe phj~ shd pjs

nfig`' Yftr bfss jgn yftr jssis~jg~ pdrd kts~ hdrd! ig ojsd ~hdy ojmd jgn

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