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By he ime I finished reading Leave the Dogs at Home I el sure I washolding a uure classic Te bes hing abou Claire Arbogas besidesher wonderul wriing is her hard-headed sense o inimacy and hersubborn deerminaion o live a lie o love ndash whaever craziness and jur y-rigging ha migh require rom he hear

Bob Shacochis auhor o Te Woman Who Lost Her Soul

In his sunning debu Claire Arbogas inuses deah wih lie giving

readers boh he gu-punch o grie as well as he warmh o a lie well lived Candid powerul and unrelening Arbogasrsquos pain becomes our pain and her love becomes our love

B J Hollars auhor o Tis Is Only a est

Claire Arbogas rewries he sages o grie in his raw someimesunsetling always compelling memoir ha akes us backward and

orward in ime rom he momen her inense complicaed husbandis diagnosed wih erminal cancer Leave the Dogs at Home challengeshe convenional wisdom abou love marriage loss survival andgrace in ways ha are bound o make you hink abou your own lie

Barbara Shoup auhor o Looking for Jack Kerouac

Leave the Dogs at Home mines he messy graceul erriory o lie

lived in he mids o upheaval he roughness and enderness o i allSharp and engaging his beauiul memoir invies us o hink abouresilience and reconnecion wih he sronges pars o Sel

Beh Lodge-Rigal Creaive Direcor Women Wriing or (a) Change



Leave the Dogs at Home is a memoir or and abou aduls and heir veryreal lives Claire and Jim ake nearly a lieime o move ino marriageonly o discover Jim has erminal cancer Bu his is no so much a book abou grie as i is abou love Readers wil l share ha love andarrive a he end boh sronger and wiser

Jesse Lee Kercheval auhor oSpace A Memoir and My Life as a Silent Movie

Lie jus as a garden does no have o be perec and nea o becomplee Leave the Dogs at Home serves as a prime example o howa humble experience in he oudoors can come o our aid in imes oneed and healing

Bruce W Bynar Boxerwood Naure Cener and Woodland Garden

Claire Arbogasrsquos deeply moving memoir records wih honesy and

clariy how she managed o move orward wih her li e despie hedeah o her husband Her sory beauiully depics he afermah odeep personal loss

Carrol Krause auhor o Showers Brothers Furniture Company

Te Shared Fortunes of a Family a City and a University

Tis very personal memoir is a gif o insighul reflecion on how

weahering difficul siuaions and ransiions can help us grow andransorm and blossom again Te vivid imagery and flowing words were a healing balm Claire Arbogas has had he courage o find her voice her rue being and share i

Gwen Botoms Aging o Sage-ing Faciliaor



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We didnrsquot live together until Jim started dying but that wasnrsquot theplan

It was unseasonably warm for November the first icy fingers of

winter 983090983088983088983092 momentarily unclenched when I took the final turn of

my long commute onto the southern Indiana country road It was

dark already and Irsquod been focused on taking off my pointy-toed

shoes heating up the pot of chicken vegetable soup and prioritizing

my weekend chores when I saw an unexpected bright white lightshining through the pines I turned in to the driveway to discover

the glaring halogen spotlights mounted on the front of the pole barn

shining onto Jimrsquos pickup which was backed up to the pale blue met-

al building Every light was on and intensity spilled into the night

through the two open overhead doors

Gawking as I slowly drove by the barn I pulled into the garage

As I got out our black mu dogs Lila and Diggity burst in from

the night to dance dog hellos and to pull me across the broad black

asphalt lot to the pole barn My tight suit and heels wanted to go the

opposite direction toward dinner and house slippers but that would

have to wait

When I had le in the morning for work the barn had been empty

except for lawn mowers and leover fencing My shovels tiller and to-mato cages were stored out back in the garden shed Te pole barn had

always been reserved for Jim Now hulking equipment ndash saws a drill

press and grinders ndash created an industrial walkway that channeled

1

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me through darting dogs to the enclosed workshop he had built

inside Te thick wooden double doors leading into the workshop

were ajar and Jim was siing in his green swivel chair surrounded by a jumble of hammers screwdrivers files and a thicket of card-

board boxes e blazing lights caught his almost auburn hopefully

combed-over hair A sheen of exhaustion coated his washed-out face

ldquoWhy didnrsquot you tell me you were moving inrdquo I asked in amaze-

ment ldquoI would have helped you You could have waited until the

weekendrdquo

ldquoI didnrsquot need helprdquo he said dismissively

He heaved himself up from the chair as I wandered out of the

workshop into the depths of the pole barn taking in the change Be-

hind the workshop towering shelves were packed with an assemblage

of contraptions renditions of wall-size terrariums and every model

of the Dog-Proof Cat Feeder Jim had ever built

ldquoTis is the invention museumrdquo Jim propped his long lean frameagainst a sturdy end post ldquoA monument to a lifetime wasted on fool-

ishnessrdquo he said with a wry smile fliing across his full l ips Bemuse-

ment flickered briefly in his tired eyes

I walked over to him and slipped my hand in his bringing it to

my mouth to kiss his scraped knuckles then running my fingertips

over his calluses ldquoI canrsquot believe you did this all today and all by your-

selfrdquo I turned and leaned my back against his chest and looked up He wrapped his long arms around me ldquoWhatrsquos up thererdquo I asked point-

ing to the dozens of boxes in the storage area above the workshop

ldquoMy booksrdquo

I drew a sharp breath Tese books had lined his study from

floor to ceiling in the house he was leaving Books were the starting

points for galloping conversations that had sustained long walks in

the woods cross-country driving and secluded snowy aernoons

over all the years between us I knew his library as well as my own In

the middle of some developing debate I could walk to his bookshelf



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and pull out his copy of Edward O Wilsonrsquos Consilience Te Unity of

Knowledge and turn to any number of points I had that book on my

bookshelf as well but our collections didnrsquot match book-for-book He wasnrsquot just puing his books up there twelve feet overhead in boxes

he was stowing away half of my reference library too

You think you know someone maybe not everything but some

things I had been sure Jim would always be surrounded by books it

was an ingrained part of him ldquoYou donrsquot need your booksrdquo I said as

nonchalantly as possible twisting to the side to see his face

ldquoI decided to switch things aroundrdquo Jim said releasing his arms

from me ldquoings that used to be in boxes ndash you know stuff like the

carvings Dad brought back from Africa aer the war plates and

bowls from my time in Vietnam shells from when we used to dive

in the Caribbean ndash are now on the shelves that used to hold books

I can always change my mind if I want to If I need some old book I

can just come up here and get itrdquoldquoBut wonrsquot the books mildew in the barnrdquo I protested worry

tightening just under my skin with the discomfort I found in this

jarring shi away from what I had thought to be one of lifersquos lile

certainties ndash that these books would always be handy I would look

back at this as blind stupidity on my part a regretful shallowness that

I couldnrsquot see he was bravely making a fresh start

ldquoeyrsquoll be finerdquo said Jim with a disappointed sternness I didnrsquotunderstand

ldquoDo you want some souprdquo I asked hoping to divert the unex-

pected direction of things

ldquoNo Irsquove eaten I want a shower Irsquom going to bedrdquo Jim walked

away from me and started switching off the lights As the barn fell

dim I hit the overhead door opener and called the dogs e three

of us jogged out together as the door ratcheted down over our heads

Jim had disappeared ahead toward the house in the dark He was

headed downstairs to his bed He had finally moved in



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It had taken us twenty-seven years to agree on living together

Over the decades wersquod been casual friends good friends friends with

benefits friends without benefits hardly friends at all happy lovers bored lovers vacationing lovers cruel lovers ndash every kind of a lover

that two people could be who were unable to completely commit or

completely split up

I was in my mid-twenties when Jim and I became friends forty

when we got serious and had turned fiy-four when we got married

earlier this year and now at this moment when he moved in Our

relationship never came close to matching the Hollywood version

of romance of two people falling madly in love and merging into one

inseparable being with hearts beating in unison

In fact we were the most unlikely of lovers Jim was a reclusive

inventor who until his retirement this year had hidden out in a fac-

tory job I wore suits and schmoozed around in public relations and

advertising He had been a marine I had been a war protester Heate meat almost exclusively I edged on being vegetarian He drank

beer from cans I drank beer from boles We used to say that we had

absolutely nothing in common

Of course that was our lie Tere was an unspoken undefined ir-

resistible thing between us that we could not deny or escape ndash a mysti-

cal gold cord that linked us solar plexus to solar plexus e truth we

never faced was how we relied on each other that I with my hopelessoptimism was the perfect yin to his yang of cynical pessimism He

was the steady current in my changing life I was the fresh air in his

fixed routine Either of us without the other was one hand clapping

Inside the house I kicked off my shoes unfastened the binding

waistband of my skirt and laid my jacket over the arm of the couch

My cat Cirrus meowed her welcome and followed me to the kitchen

e dogs curled up nearby I leaned on the open refrigerator door

staring immobile at the pot of chicken veggie soup leing the cool

calm the flush of the unexpected turn of the evening



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I donrsquot know how long I stood there hanging off the open door

listening to the new eerie sound of the shower running downstairs I

was almost too tired and distracted to move as I thought about whatled to us to buy this house more than two years ago Tis house where

I had lived upstairs with a vacant downstairs until today

It was a bi-level ranch on a lile more than two almost-flat acres

about ten miles west of Bloomington not a place I would have chosen

on my own I thought it had an underlying tacky-trailer character

e land was all fields converted to lawn terracing up twenty feet in

elevation to a pasture plateau Te pasture was set against a neighbor-

ing hill of rough scrub woods full of spiky catbriers thorny multiflora

roses old refrigerators car parts and broken glass To one side was

a wetland across the road were acres of horse pasture and a riding

club stable

I would have preferred a chunk of pristine parklike woods with

no lawn to mow next to the national forest on the other side of townor down by Lake Monroe or a low-maintenance place in Blooming-

ton within walking distance to the downtown restaurants and shops

But the landrsquos openness warmed Jimrsquos northern Indiana flatlanderrsquos

heart and he was the one who oen found it more difficult to adapt

so I agreed e floor plan was perfect for us two levels of indepen-

dent living ndash one for him and one for me ere was a big kitchen and

my upstairs half was open and flooded with sunlight with panoramic views of woods the wetland and grazing horses I could deal with it

I could improve it I could put in a huge sweeping garden

We were in a slump when we made the decision to live together

ready to abandon our affair as eternally insufficient and unwieldy

But just as we were in the final stages of rearranging ourselves as

friends without benefits we suddenly turned the opposite direction

and resolved to buy this house together Out of the blue something

made us continue together It was like a smoldering that mysteriously

flares up just when you think the fire is out



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I finally roused myself to ladle some cold soup into a bowl and

heated it in the microwave I poured myself a glass of wine and sat on

the bar stool by the kitchen counter the bowl on the single placematthat was always there Cirrus jumped up onto the empty stool next

to me as usual and the dogs roused alert to possible dinner scraps

coming

I remembered how we had told ourselves it was a practical thing

to do an unassuming nod toward aging Instead of breaking up wersquod

have one lawn and one set of utilities Someone to notice if one of us

fell and couldnrsquot get up We had joked about installing traffic lights

in the stairwell Green ndash you can come red ndash stay away yellow ndash be

careful If wersquod had that light I would have switched it to yellow but

Jim probably would have had it already red

I had moved into the upper level of the house thinking he would

quickly follow and fill in the lower level with his handmade furniture

and books But it didnrsquot happenStrange as it sounds the previous March we had goen married

It was another pragmatic twist to our complicated situation We did

it for health insurance He was retiring If I was on his policy I could

retire early ndash in six years ndash without having to wait for Medicare so we

could go on long vacations before he got too old to be any fun We

might not have proven ourselves capable of a traditional relationship

but we had vacations down pat Still he hadnrsquot moved inSoup eaten almost unnoticed I poured myself more wine and

walked to the long stretch of living room windows looking out into

the darkness that hid the pole barn Jim had said he couldnrsquot move in

until he built a workshop in the barn but then went about the task at

only glacial speed Granted it was a big project ndash an enclosed insu-

lated room with its own heat and air conditioning He had to com-

pletely rewire the whole barn reroute the water supply line walls of

the barn with shelves to hold his inventions



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Our back-and-forth about when he might move in was as stub-

born as a cocklebur on socks ldquoAny idea when you might be finished

with the workshop and move inrdquo I had asked a gazillion increasinglyannoyed times

ldquoIn the fullnessrdquo he had answered a gazillion unyielding times

back In the fullness of time meaning some distant point in the future

It was true he couldnrsquot move in until the workshop was done

Jim and his shop were inseparable ndash unlike us He would steal mo-

ments or wake in the middle of the night to tinker with his latest

invention like some people pull out a guitar or pick up a crochet proj-

ect or like how I might revise a garden plan A chunk of his mind was

always churning to solve a tricky problem that was on the workbench

in his cramped basement shop Taking a space from a dray nothing

inside the barn and converting it into his dream place to work was an

act of unmitigated magnitude trumping the fact that his delays hurt

and embarrassed me I guessed that he wished he could back out Ischemed about how I might

I closed the heavy drapes to cover the wall of windows sealing

off the dropping outdoor temperature and picked up my journal I

needed to mark this moment ldquoLess than festiverdquo I wrote I guessed

that this was the fullness But it didnrsquot seem like fullness

Instead of feeling elated to have Jim seling in downstairs with

the workshop completed I was wildly desperate For everything was being jerked up out of the ground with the vigor yoursquod take to a

patch of pigweed in the tomatoes What had spurred Jimrsquos workshop

completion was terror ree weeks earlier hersquod had the upper lobe

of his cancerous le lung removed

is was not part of the plan



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1 In the first chapter of Leave the Dogs at Home it says that Claireand Jim ldquowere the most unlikely of loversrdquo and that ldquoa mysti-

cal gold cord linked us solar plexus to solar plexusrdquo Do you

hink Jim hough here was a gold cord linking hem or

was ha somehing ha was here only or Claire W ha do

you hink o he relaionship o Claire and Jim W hy did

Claire like him How would you describe Jim Wha are he

differen ways Claire views Jim W hy did he relaionshipconinue over he years Wha was good abou i Wha kind

o experience do you have wih difficul complicaed love

2 Claire fills the hole that Jim le with friendships and interests

in the larger world In the chapter ldquoFumesrdquo she writes ldquoJimrsquos

gi to me the freedom to find another life was bigger than just

plugging in some other kind of guyrdquo Were you disappoined

or happy ha Claire ell in love again in he las chaper and

why

3 Wha is he influence o popular culure (elevision mov-

ies books poery adverising music magazines daing

services ec) on our expecaions o romance love andparnerships How are people who are no in relaionships

sereoyped sigmaized and discriminaed agains ndash a



983090983090983090

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work financially (rom wo or one coupons o axes) and

socially Wha is he view o relaionships and marriage in


4 Jim and Clairersquos relationship changes from independent to

dependent during the course of Jimrsquos illness Wha were he

orces ha simulaed he shif

5 ere are many places in the book where Claire admits to lying

Do you hink she is a reliable soryeller or does her cones-

sion o lying make her seem less hones I so why How

can a conessed liar seem hones Wha role does lying have

in relaionships wih romanic parners coworkers and

riends

6 Many times in the book Claire deludes herself by ignoring keyinformation or zeroing in on just what she wants to hear or see

Wha does ha ell you abou her

7 Wha ypes o personal growh does Claire experience

Wha obsacles does she have o overcome Wha did you

learn rom he ways she grew and changed Wha did she

do or hink ha made you eel uncomorable or made youlaugh Does Claire leave he In Beween

8 Wha role do he dogs play in Clairersquos journey rom eeling

broken o having a beter lie How do he personaliies o

he dogs (Lila he swee bu cauious Diggiy he ougoing

bu broken-heared) inerac and help Claire Why is he

book iled Leave the Dogs at Home



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9 Claire describes her gardens throughout the book and her visit

to Boxerwood Gardens is a pivotal moment Wha do hese

gardens sugges abou he way Claire sees he world Whydid Boxerwood have such an impac Many eel gardening

is herapeuic Why In wha way does he language o he

book connec emoion o naure Wha role do gardens have

in our sociey

10 How do Clairersquos ravels change her

11 How do roos and amily hisories operae in he sory

Wha role did Emily Clairersquos daugher play

12 roughout the book Claire is a list maker and lover of details

Wha does ha ell you abou her and how does ha help

or hinder her developmen

13 Toward the end of the book Claire revises the seven stages

of grief How do radiions surrounding grie influence

Claire Why does he clinically dismissed sages o grie

model coninue o predominae in grie maerials In wha

ways is Leave the Dogs at Home uplifing despie he grie

and loss a he cener o he sory

14 Wha is changed by Clairersquos move ino own How do

places houses and archiecure influence he sory



983107983148 983137 983145983154 983141 983123 983105 983154 983138983151 983143983137983155983156 grew up among the winding streets and deepfront porches of historic Irvington on the east side of Indianapolis

She started out as a kid who loved to curl up in hidden places with

books and pick gooseberries with her grandmother for tart bubbling

pies Her family owned flower shops and had a fondness for picnics

in state parks She has planted scores of gardens some fruitful and

stunning others bray failures and has le behind a long line of

peony bushes surely still blooming every springClaire now gardens walks with dogs and writes in Blooming-

ton Indiana and relishes every sweet day Shersquos in a thoroughly mod-

ern LAT relationship (living apart together) with her honey Steve

and watches with keen interest as her daughter Emily forges her own

path through the world

But whatrsquos really important is that Claire has been forever exper-

imenting with life first as a war protester then as a tune-indrop-out

hippie A short marriage then a single mom Seven communes in all

and a stint deep in the Alaskan woods created a fierce drive for self-

determination instead of reliance on others leading to college and a

marketing career Now shersquos a writer and local-issue incrementalist

who campaigns for brown rice on the hot bar and improved drains

at the end of the street Clairersquos website is wwwClaireArbogastcom



By he ime I finished reading Leave the Dogs at Home I el sure I washolding a uure classic Te bes hing abou Claire Arbogas besidesher wonderul wriing is her hard-headed sense o inimacy and hersubborn deerminaion o live a lie o love ndash whaever craziness and jur y-rigging ha migh require rom he hear

Bob Shacochis auhor o Te Woman Who Lost Her Soul

In his sunning debu Claire Arbogas inuses deah wih lie giving

readers boh he gu-punch o grie as well as he warmh o a lie well lived Candid powerul and unrelening Arbogasrsquos pain becomes our pain and her love becomes our love

B J Hollars auhor o Tis Is Only a est

Claire Arbogas rewries he sages o grie in his raw someimesunsetling always compelling memoir ha akes us backward and

orward in ime rom he momen her inense complicaed husbandis diagnosed wih erminal cancer Leave the Dogs at Home challengeshe convenional wisdom abou love marriage loss survival andgrace in ways ha are bound o make you hink abou your own lie

Barbara Shoup auhor o Looking for Jack Kerouac

Leave the Dogs at Home mines he messy graceul erriory o lie

lived in he mids o upheaval he roughness and enderness o i allSharp and engaging his beauiul memoir invies us o hink abouresilience and reconnecion wih he sronges pars o Sel

Beh Lodge-Rigal Creaive Direcor Women Wriing or (a) Change
















Acknowledgments xi

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983092 983124983141983154983149983145983150983137983148 983122983141983155983156983148983141983155983155983150983141983155983155 983091983091

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983094 983116983145983150983141 983151983142 983123983137983148983156 983093983091

983095 983108983154983137983145983150983137983143983141 983094983090

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983089983093 983110983145983150 983140983145983150983143 983106983151983160983141983154983159983151983151983140 983089983096983089

983089983094 983107983154983137 983138983138983151983156983156983151983149 983111983154983145983156983155 983089983097983088

983089983095 983120983141983154983145983152983144983141983154 983137983148 983126983145983155983145983151983150 983090983088983090

983089983096 983123983145983160 983129983141983137 983154983155 983116983137983156983141983154 983118983141983159 983124983154983145983139983147983155 983090983088983097

Notes 983090983089983095

Book Club Guide 983090983090983089



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The Fullness



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983094 983116983145983150983141 983151983142 983123983137983148983156 983093983091

983095 983108983154983137983145983150983137983143983141 983094983090

983096 983107983151983150983155983145983148983145983141983150983139983141 983095983096

983097 983106983137983148 983137983150983139983145983150983143 983107983151983150983139983141983150983156983154 983137983156983141 983097983090

983089983088 983123983159983151983151983152 983089983088983092

983089983089 983124983144983141 983113983150 983106983141983156983159983141983141983150 983089983089983092

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Book Club Guide 983090983090983089



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983090983090983089

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why







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Book Club Guide












riends














983090983090983091

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in our sociey






































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983092






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club stable



















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coming


























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983090983090983089

Book Club Guide














why







983090983090983090

Book Club Guide












riends














983090983090983091

Book Club Guide






in our sociey






































983090









weekendrdquo















ldquoMy booksrdquo









983091

Te Fullness
































983092






completely split up



























983093

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club stable



















983094






coming


























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983090983090983089

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why







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Book Club Guide












riends














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in our sociey






































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coming


























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why







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riends














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in our sociey






































983092






completely split up



























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club stable



















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coming


























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Te Fullness




























983090983090983089

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why







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Book Club Guide












riends














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in our sociey






































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Te Fullness













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coming


























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983090983090983089

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why







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Book Club Guide












riends














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in our sociey






































983094






coming


























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why







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Book Club Guide












riends














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in our sociey






































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why







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riends














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why







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riends














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