love poems by kanyi thiong'o
TRANSCRIPT
1.
First word
That time, that time
my heart helped not to flower
when our innocent eyes
shook hands, blooming
leaving me in a melt
of sweet compassion
and love.
My soul searched and found
fortune so noble and sound
A dream palace
and laid in place
free from fears and tears
gladly you were all ears.
Your tender welcome
Witnessed: am at home
To dwell in this serene
But create no sin.
Your face was a gleam
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That filled me to the brim
Blessing as the rain
was your wisdom
and flair norm.
Soft, sleek and smooth
was your voice
That sent my soul poise
Subdued in vehemence
Acknowledging your deeds
prudence.
Sincerity holds
Am not dirty
My claim in totality
but ask no party
They'll brand me pity
Take your time
and brand your rhyme
giving room
to your findings
For the short time
we've shared
a blessing not spared
Supreme am not
though you'll weep not
Any a time2
Should my heart confess
So I say
to send out awe
That would send you a bow
Come and let us
Embrace
This long awaited power
That will turn me
To all your ways
But stand in defence
for men's eyes conference
Soiling established fences
That binds two in heart
You too stand witness
that aged fondlers
have gone down the drain of sorrow
Once their ear
gave room to a third ear
2.
I DO
Our feelings forcelessly fused
factly fully fledged3
Taking into our wings
We flew far a universe
To an island of pure fondness
Our hearts flourished in affection
That fussed us strong, shedding diamond
tears
of so sweet romance and fragrant touch.
Fervidly in our movement
We searched and found
A noble world of silence
That filtered our differences
Fitting us firm
After our first fluidal feast
In this fate of flavour
May we root
To sustain it from fading
In true dedication and fidelity
For us and generations to come.
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3.
SOUL FETCHING
Meticulously
Wonderfully made
I dropped to my knees
That by our grace
I may be allowed
to lay my marooned heart
Which by your revered charms
We architectured
When we sang this chorus
of unplanned meeting
and by your honour
You may see me to my feet
That we may crash our differences
Into dust of togetherness
4.
TWO IN ONE
Amidst light and darkness
We met and confessed
Let’s give it a try
Building our hopes
Neither too high5
Nor too low
Till we confirmed
All was beyond fantasy
Shrewdly in words and manner
We shoved our differences
However big or small
but malicious enough
to make two stumble
and fall apart
making it up the ladder
of passion and fondness
In our newly discovered world
Enough for only two
We laid our ardent beginning
Of love and oneness.
And on the pillars
Of utter warmth and liking
Our tower of untold love
Gloriously has pedestaled
And silent winds from all over
Have caught it's sight
And have sought explanation
But mercilessly has collapsed
In an ocean of futility
Words on their part have proclaimed6
Utter surrender
None to be committed
To gossip the grandeur
Of this love between you and me
Stars far a universe
Earnestly has learnt
Of this night mere
And have yearned to ask my apple
Whose answer is my man
And I have quenched the stars ear
-Neither me nor my loved one-
BUT WE
No sooner we had met
Than our hearts metamorphosed
We buried our past
In a bottomless pit
Filled it with blazing sulphur
None ever to climb out
Coming our way
But perish to oblivion
Looking into others smiles
Remained the others pleasure
Like the calm enticing breeze
That soothes rosy flowers7
Into blooming petals
The mark of spring
That no longer do we dwell
In a world of several masters
But one in heart
And our life has become
Utter one.
5.
MY PRAYER
Your heart fetched and found
Deep consolation
When at last we gave
A go an honest go ahead
To this liking
Our hearts fell
For each other
Swiftly so soundless
Only our hearts know
What a struggle
Our dialogue fought
From twilight to twilight
That we may embrace
Such honest sincerity
Of true love and liking
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Upon heavens
Our lord made it happen
For reasons known to him
Reasons too well known
To our hearts
But no one would dare confess
We bowed and worshiped
This warmth
Which we finely found
From time to time
That life at least may have
Some liquid meaning
We bowed and worshiped
The silent heaven
Whose naked dark sky
Filled with stars
And a smiling crescent
At last witnessed our first passionate hug
Each heart registered
How caring our arms will be
In this rejuvenation
Of a long lost dream
Which finally has come our way
Uncoiling the weeping
And woes of desire.9
May this
What we share tonight
Amidst the stars above
-concealed in this dark-
bring to us the long searched bond
for now and forever
keeping Lucifer a bay
never to blaze this passion
as he has to many
In our lord arms
May these wreathes
And whimpers
Weave us with strings of honesty,
Kindness, forgiveness and love.
Above all faithfulness
For each and every day
May we forever see
The glowing light
In one another
Like we do today
never to tumble
in the hands of any darkness.
6.10
SHOULD I TALK
Listening I may look
But ears quite far they are
So close I may look
To you
But quite far I am
Talking I may look
But silent I am
Docile I may look
But racing all over I am
Quiet I may look
But talking I am
Healthy I may look
But sick I am
Awake I may look
But sleep I am
Although listening to the heat inside.
Listen
to the music and dance
But to the beat not
When you glance right through
Into my eyes
Two beans floating in milk
You've described them
But change now your understanding
I've stretched my hands
To encounter your texture11
But felt none
I've listened
When you talked but heard nothing
You hummed to the rhythm
Of your hearts melody
But I heard no tune
I looked at you but saw nothing
You sympathized with me
But no sympathy rung my way
Your warmth I felt
But was cold inside
I replied your smile
But I was crying
Take now take now
Myself to you I give
Caress caress,
With both hands
My succulent breasts
My succulent life
Up and down up and down
Gently touch
Till I stagger, till I fall
And I won't mind
As long as you'll be there
To pick me to my feet12
Touch without touching
Talk without talking
Sing without singing
And run away
From your back to come closer
And warm me up
Till am dead but alive
Go go ahead
Until I whimper
Go go ahead
Until I've sunk into myself
Help me to rest
On your laps
And wrap me
with your arms
till I close my eyes
Bring down
but slowly
your wet fleshy lips
and when we kiss
kiss until the kiss
until the feeling
has ran through
and settled
deep down in me
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Go on until am juicy
Go on until am dry
Go on
Until there are no words
From me
And when I collapse
Unconscious
Help me to your soft serene bed
And softly smoothly
Help me lie sound still
And let it all be
To thy will.
7.
TRUST
So difficult, oh difficult
Quite so hard to digest
When I talk
but quite easy 14
to listen
so easy to talk
but difficult to learn
this lesson
so just trust
these simple words
when I cry that my love is yours
8.
FIRST SIGHT
We met
hearts craving for affection
yearning for harmony
that supersedes eyes twitched
in cherish of all these
mouth confessed
the love for each other
ears calmed
in waiting
for these words so helplessly
The journey began
For a day, a month
And now a couple of years
Let the journey last
And last, now and forever.
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9.
ALL WORDS
All words said
In tears I paid
In utter tension
For your attention
Though halfway
We made a way
Though not in lust
But seem not to last
Reasons to your known
My stance a cone
Whose apex
Is not pecks
But here you see me go
In lost love
Though my ego
Willing to carve
A mark of unforgetfulness
In thy heart seeking forgiveness
But you've said I go
In tears I will go
For you know me too well
But have buried this well 16
Of our finely found love
I have nothing to save
But to wreathe
This bitter end
10.
SILENT HYMN
Soft: dare utter
Soft so that texture fears
Soft: blinder of sight
Soft: that deafens
Soft so odourless
Softness that doves envy
Soft so
Is you
Unto thy bosom
We clenched a bond
Soft so it was
Exchanging my heart
For an angel's
Dwell now soft
Forever in me
That I dwell17
Forever in you
11.
PLEASE
Closest unto thy
Resistant to decay
Unbosom your well
For me to dwell
A destructive wreath
Fashioned words but myth
Their arrow head missing
To set your heart calming
Iced shoulder thy response
Awake thy romance and release me
This burden free
Condemn thy creator
For love strongest thou to utter
Strange so
Then to thy ear
To hell then my passion
My tongue and my mind in rhythm
Thy passion my hymn
Eye me your ugliness
And I'll shun in joy
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But as numb with you
Closer to you
Closer to your eyes
Red waters marking our tie
Nymphet’s virginity
Swept away
And we two shall sigh
Forever more and bind
All hamattans but odd.
12.
ETERNAL FLAMES (I)
Sweet are the memories
Of sweet voices
we once enjoyed
hands we once shook
faces we once admired
blend with sincerity
and honest smiles
sweet scent of olive oil
thy fond of your skin
gently as time unfolded
sweet meals we once shared 19
in joy
and gladness
as white as snow
our hearts remain
in this gladness
which but sorrow and tears
burnt away
living you not
Dear one
behind
But no longer are they
as white as they used to be
but the great flames
of your departure
all have turned
black as coal
why
I wonder why
You had to leave.
13.
BEFORE AND AFTER
Dull was my heart20
But your strange embraces
Resurrected my youthfulness
Passionately, my heart
you conquered
heaven reined my heart
holding my hand
you led me
to your arms
and deeply into your heart
your love set me free
from my deep sorrow'd misery
flying like butterflies
when summer flows
my tears highest rose
but tenderly, you wiped me dry
in love and fondness
your romantic sway
cooled me to earth
and here you are
telling me goodbye
once you are gone
I'll fasten a rope on a beam
On the other end loop a sliding knot
And fathom not 21
We are apart
Sliding the knot
Over my head
My feet will spring
Off the beam
And when I take my first swing
My work will be done
Leaving the rest
To the rope
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ETERNAL FLAMES (II)
Difficult
than your departure
is to imagine we are apart
though our hearts still hold
close close indeed
so sudden was your end
that no man believed
sad so for any soul to embrace
that our faces shall never meet again
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hardly kissed your worth
was I
than your awful departure
revealed
what you ever meant to my soul
I wish I had a chance
To feel your hips, kiss your lips
and suck your breasts again
drunk
with our togetherness:
never did it occur
that we'd drift apart
in the hand of fate
so hard it pains
when I bend
and my feeble hands
stretch to place this wreath
that you may rest
in eternal peace.
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15.
SHOUT OH SHOUT
Shout the loudest you can
And dispel me from your domicile
Use the hottest charms
Known in the world of evil
To cast my corps
Miles from you
But all this will be futile
For am so legless
To walk away
Ever since you showered me
With the warmth of your flesh
Warmth which comes second from none
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That was the real love
Any man can touch, lick
And taste from a human's soul
Transcending so deep into my soul
Filling my heart to the brim
So leaving is a mere lie
If not a myth never hard on earth
16.
I MISS YOU
Grateful I was
For the brief moment we shared
In solid oneness and companion
Your warm assistance to me you gave
With both hands: so selflessly
So dear a call it was
to mind my racing emotions
on earth I search and find none
who can equal your love and gentleness
quite warm and tender
above all is your voice
that is so sweet melodious nurtured
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17.
ALL I KNOW
All I know
is all you pleases
all I know
is all you cherish
all I know
is all you hold
to heart as dear
all I know then
is so simple
-the art to make you happy-
the art to make your face smile
the art to make your heart hum
the most melodious of the tunes
come with me then
to smile forever
-a joy that will transcend beyond26
eternity
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REST ASSURED
The heavens glitter
So clear in thy eyes
When straight
in my eyes you look
so enticing your lips are
your smile crescents
pulling me closer
as I yearn to kiss those dimples
which drive me mad with erections
revealing your set of teeth
that shimmer like two straws of snow
Innocently, forceless so
I find my feeble legs
And to thee I come
Singing the same old song:
-Sounds of sweet compassion-
we once knew
Baibe lets now hug
And unearth
the sweet forgotten past
bring everything
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19.
DISTANT WINDS (I)
Strange were the days:
When legs journeyed
When hands touched
When ears listened
When noses smelled
Sweet so
Your fragrance
When mouths talked
Of your tenderness
Of your sincere innocence
When hearts coiled
Around the blank serene
Nature
Of our makeup
And here you leave
With one whose touch
Is gentler
Whose speech is softer28
Whose ear is keener
Whose gait is handier
Whose conscious is smarter
Whose heart's is dovely
Whose sight is tender
When thy twin anthills
have found their way
When your fleshy rear
has learnt of it's worth
You have set your destination
So far where the distance skies
Kiss the foot of the distant hills
Carving an emptiness in me
of how I'll miss:
Your gentle touch
Your soft melodious voice
Your angel like look
Your cotton skin
Your sweet caresses
that dociled a racing heart
Your long woollen hair
Your juicy kisses
Your white milk teeth
YOUR GUITAR SHAPED WAIST
How deserted I feel
At this time 29
long awaited for
when the play would sculpture meaning
in your feelings
tears
roll
tears
roll
roll
From my eyes
From my heart
As I see your leave
Your back
Making fun of me
Turn and show me
Your face for the last time
That the cool tune of your honest smile
may stick in my eyes
never to cease in my heart
and please wave back
when I wave in tears
not to say goodbye
but to rub off my tears
that I may have your last clear view
and register
Am still something somewhere
however small30
in your loving heart
Once you vanish from my sight
I'll turn to the distant winds
and seek liaison
Ever to bring you
Bouquets of the most lasting
Peaceful serene
And on its way back
Ever to bring me
The sweet scent
Of your endless memories.
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20.
LIVING TOMORROW
Looking for one to love
My attempts in vain shutter
To my people at home I go
Nursing always these wounds
Blisters and scars
Of unreciprocated love
My prayer a strong hold
Convinced so I am
That I'll say good bye
To this world of loneliness
An honest smile
On my face will then creep
-My friend's grand pedestal-
when the gift of love and loving
I will embrace
Silent in soul singing
Let go loneliness
Let come love
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21.
DISTANT WINDS II
Blind were the days
When legs
Days and night journeys
When hands dried lame
In hot fondles
When ears were deaf
To sounds of goodbye
When the nose confirmed
Your gentle scent
Your presence in the heart of the night
Both of us concealed in your mud hut
When mouths confessed in whispers
What I felt of you
When hearts clung
To the endless embraces
Boiling in hot passion
Look not at my mouth
The mouth that lies
I've come this far
But did not the trekking
I've fought our enemies dead
But took no arms
I go to the loo
but does no job33
am hungry
but feeds the stomach
am thirsty
but quenches the thirst
I've seen you my love
But have no eyes
I've had your wise council
But has no ears
I'll miss you
But has no such strong feelings
Of a weeping
Close your eyes
that my words may sip
right through your kind ears
into your loving heart
uninteruppted by whatever
that may catch your sight
Stopping you from receiving
This what my heart has long prepared for you
Your endless compassion
never has been
rain wasted in the sea
but as a desert plant,
I have the modesty
To confess to your heart34
(that which no human word would capture)
(that which no human ear would resist)
(that which no soul would get access to)
That which no poem
Would reveal
but better known
only by the heart of the desert plant
because that is what
I am
Take my word by heart
As no rain or water
Can ever tell the pinch
of growing thirst
and non ever knows
the depth of consolation
it ever brings an arid heart like mine
before I met you
How empty was I
Like the naked sky
but now am full again
with affection, like the turgid cloud
-the mother of health, wealth and beauty-
At your heart I peep
through it's windows -your eyes-
and learn it is the true35
honest and faultless simple love
you had for me
Love with no patches
Love with no bruises
Love with no weevils
Love of so pure a state
I thus turn my back
innocently so
to cause no ill feelings
to a selfish heart
which you neither possess
nor do I
for my joy is your joy
the joy of our heart
my grief the grief of your heart
Blessing one truth heartly
That before I met you
Mine was to wash
My stomach
Leaving my back dry
But now I know
To wash and bath clean
So; the wise words go 36
he who farms
reaps not the sweetness of his labour
but as sound as so the proverb
embrace the reality
that once hunger has conquered our way
like a torn garment
it has to be mend
He found his feed
When he found me and so helpless I was
Like a boiled grain
in the hands of a hungry man
how safe was I
to restore my long searched and found dream
of the past!
we fondlessly shared
in a cool silent bliss
that saw our helpless hearts
cling to the bottom
of utter passion
when your tongue
was mine
when it's your push
I cherished, pleased and patted
Sweet so in whimpers
Only known to you and I
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Take now my words
"my love to see our generation flourish"
a shuttered dream
whose good is none
than meeting his hunger
my heart smiling at one consolation
they who will sustain our species
will need fertile grounds to lay their eggs
Thus my only option to lay and decay
Once his tenure gone
That in the land of spirit so eternal
Ever together shall we remain
But for now am the fertile land
when he takes me
and drops me the next minute
so serene I calm
in the eyes of sincere smiles
in the faces of my young one
this time I turn
to face your face
not to say goodbye
but to bow at heart
to honour and worship what you are and
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in light heartedness
the craze of the queen:
for free from ailment
we can only be should we kiss our death
in place you sat
but neither were you there
nor were you
where you seemed to be
your eyes appeared to read the horizon
but this was a lie
for blank was your mind
for so hard it was
to see me go
but take now
my hand I give thee
look into my eyes and learn
all these which I want to convey
to thy heart and soul
in words and diagrams
that at last
I may send your heart poise
Free from fear
Your heart sound
Free from tears
Before I go39
Am not going
For am leaving
But I'll even stay and remain
For you are something to my heart
Something big and something special
Ever will you be with me
Wherever I'll go, wherever I'll sleep
I WILL ALWAYS WALK AND SLEEP
ON YOUR MEMORIES
Take now may last flesh kiss
I give you
Not that our lips may touch and part
But may bring to reality
How coalesced our hearts will last in the immortality
Of the sweet gone past
And when lips touch
Let them stand stark
Glued hard at heart
When we swallow each other's fluids
Ever to dwell in us
A mark of how memory will ever bind us
Bind our hearts
In the lonely silence of prayer
That is just about to befall
When our bodies part ways
But hearts clinging to each other40
MORE THAN EVER BEFORE
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EYES ENTANGLED
Your bewitching charms
So long they are
With tendrils of my passion
They have met and entangled
Always when it's you I see
Am in this web
How I collapse internally
You don't know
But watch me secretly
And my eyes will tell
Of this long passionate longing
Which equals chasing the wind
Am ringed in finger
And so fragile
My yesterdays flower stands
In the hands of the infidelity
But so encompassed I am
When its your warmth I dream of
When its your skin I touch
Your eyes enticing so
YOUR VOICE SO HOMELY41
That incapacitated I feel
And I always melt in fantacy
That one day
We shall get there
Where ever I am in dreams
When its you I see , I recall
Round and fleshy so
Brown in colour
The paucity of my miss
23.
NO
I say no
in yes for
I mean NO
Hence I say NO
To mean yes
In acceptance
Of your hand
Hence ill' not come
To mean I will
With you
In this journey
Of mercy making
Tears known
worlds of far
If its true love42
For me you have
24.
AFTER ALL
Its no sin
I create
To your ears
When I whisper
Words that curves
a heart
to mean
I love you
I so straight
From my heart
From my soul
They come
For you
To take seriously or ignore
After all
It's no sin
I create
If it’s the truth
I speak
And not a lie
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SIMPLY CONQUERED
In and out 43
I gasp
For my breath
That your sight
In my eyes
Should come tomorrow
Since
The first day
My eyes
Met you
Let me
Breath in and out
Today
And tomorrow
But when it's you
I'll breath in
Stop me
From breathing out
Since I'll not
Breath out
When It's you
I'll breath in
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WHY THE STRUGGLE IS THERE
If all words were sweets 44
And all wrappers were lies
Thence the language stands
A garment of hypocrisy
Words, then dare utter
And say I love you
For so blind to my feelings
Your words are
But as possible
As burying as the ocean
My confession is
That I hate you.
Unwrap my words then
And take them serious
When I say I love you
After all, it only calls
For some understanding
Divorced from our pride and prejudice
And at last we shake hands
~in love~
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PATTERNS
Under the cloudless sky
Stars bared witness
How you kindled45
My love for friendship
Into such a rolling poise
My hand I extended
And yours you offered
Pulling me
From the froth mud
of loneliness
Into such an ecstasy
Of maddening friendship
So long
that my heart will never tire
to mind your happiness and joy,
the well being of your emotion
the only garden I love to tend
real friends then we are
philanthropy known not
to me and you
for my people too I pull
from such agony
so long as my wallet
remains faithful with
my call to mind sharing
honouring the gift to love and give
they too pull their friends
the same manner
a true world of friends46
and friends indeed
friends that an't enemies
enemies that ain't friendly.
28.
HEALING SCARS
To you I said
I love you
But NO you said
To my earnest love
Creating such a wound
Which has only cured
with time
but the scar remains
to you I now say
I hate thee
That at last
You may say
You love me
If and only if
You must give
An opposite answer 47
To my helpless calling
Unto thy gracious ear
But NO
again you have said
the scar yet cured
but at last
a cure must be found
once and for all
a cure for this scar
this longing I feel
but have no words to express
I now get the words
And it is nothing more than
A throat breaking thirst
For nothing else but your love
So honest and sincere
My confession I make
To thy doubting ear
For this the only way
To show that my heart
is laden with passion
for none other than you
so meek and honest
your love can be48
form thy eyes
I can see
If so caring then you are
Bring it forth to love me not
If you have no love for me
But to wipe this scar
Which we both created
When you said No.
29.
THE SAME WAY
It’s the same way
A child cries for a pin
Ignorant of its painful pricking
I cry for the love
So long as you prick
My shyness away and deflate it forever
That I may confess,49
The love I feel inside
The same way
A child cries
For red charcoal
Deceived
By its red attractive colour
So long as you burn
This barrier
Of letting you encompass
The feeling I have inside
Strong so
Heavier than a tonnes load
On ones shoulders
Help me then
To unburden my soul
Off this strong feeling
Even if
You'll keep it down
And walk your way.
30.
WHEN WE MET
It's my lips to you I gave
To kiss and stitch with yours
When my way you came bleating
Chewing grass and cuds like I
For all that time we courted
Until now when this ring50
Has made us one until death
Do us part, but for me I wonder
For your oiled skin off its falling
Revealing an inner carnivorous coat
Your hooves off are peeling
Paws taking their serene place
Hungry with meat you are
Thirsty with blood your dry throat cracks.
31.
AWE'S CURE
Our eyes touched
And all was clear
Between me and you
Our one way this far
We've come
Should we stumble on awe
Lets turn to each other
And get
This touch we once had 51
When our eyes touched
Crescent smiles in our faces
Sending the darkness between us
A little lighter
32.
WHEN I SAID WE PART
I said we part
Your eyes melt
And from your tears
A rainbow I saw
With all its different colours
Each colour revealing
A different aspect of you
Calling for reconsideration
To my decision
Something I hadn't
When my decision I made
Looking only at one aspect
Thence to you I came back
To go forward
In this divine call
When ours is the need to care.
33.
THE PAYING PATIENCE
So far I've travelled52
Calling for my need to rest
When in long silence
My journeys I made
Calling for my need to talk
At last when it's you
Who struck my sight
Calling for my halt
The long fruitless journeys
When my fruit I met
When my way you came
34.
TALKING EYES
At me you cast
Censored so your sight
At them my gospel I spread
My heart in their ears
Doing the slow but deep
Talking my mouth shut
And at last to direction they move
For censored my eyes
Were not, rather inviting.
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35.
YESTERDAY
Good were the days
When we walked our ways
Hearts sweeter than pies
Cogent compelling so
Our feelings we saw
And here we are
Inviting fear
As we draw apart
Never again to pat
Honey hold my hand
However it might look hard
And we say good bye to misunderstanding
When our love again we buy.
36.
TO MY LOVE IN SECRET
To my love in secret these lines are meant
For in thy immaculate honour my need to is written
However humble, in silence my need to love is done
And to myself made to rest at peace
For in thy eyes, warmth that sappathes the blissful
heaven; down to my heart is sent
That when mine is the need to talk, words I do not get
For none exist that can capture in precise
What my way you brought since our hands shook
And at heart I bowed in thy honour54
For so immaculate you stand. May your essence stand in
place and at peace
For it's in the attempt to talk myself gowned in the
realization of how strong your warmth would bring me
I've awaken to learn that the power to let go
would keep me stronger. So to me a love in secret I've
swore you'd ought remain since in contact the spring
flowers of my love for you their petals they'd shed
When what I feel inside is subjected to our human eyes
which make two quarrel their lips stack in a low silent
kiss.
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LOVE AND ROSES
My love for you
Is not
A rose
For roses are thorny
My love for you
Is not
Roses petals
For they grow and wither
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Is not
A rose
For roses, plants are
My love for you
Is a rock
So hard withstanding
Weathering
In its colour
It is the beautiful serene
Marked by the poise
It brings, deep down
My calm heart
Roses prick
Rocks bruise
Mountains; dormant are
And their volcano
Their hypocrisy
My love for you is thus not
Comparable
It's only known
To my heart
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Is then like my heart
For my heart to me
Is like heaven to me
When I am the best
For my self
So is your love for me
No lesser then can I give
To a heart like yours.
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SHOULD MY HEART WHISPER
I if I said I love you
To my heart unfortunately
Your ears of the human
In you; heard my silent voice
What the next thing
Could you do?
Should your wisdom whisper
To thy wise ear
That I am honest and sincere
II I would hate to be loved
At last
If my senses have deserted
I would you then feel good?57
II I would smile, an honest smile
A deep smile
Right deep in my heart
I but I'd be sad
to see you smile
II I would love your sadness too
For with my whole heart
I'd love your whole self
Much more your sadness
For I know how I would drive it away
I But I'd be sad still
For your smile is an acceptance only
Not a reciprocation
And its for I love you
That you'd love me
II But in an answer to your love
My smile of acceptance
Would ride in my face
For my love for you would you take
I I'd rather not take it
Instead leave you
with my wisdom
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you are not loved
II what about when you are loved
Should I then hate
I You should love more
II what if am ready now?
I You'd rather take some time
In preparation for your heart to love
And the more time you'd take
The better
II I'd then take the rest of my life
To remain in love
As I prepare
To love
I And I'd be happy with you
II I too would be happy with you
For I know why I'd be happy
I what if I'd extend my hand
To touch you
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To the dogs?
II as long as that
would make you happier
I and my lips, if I brought them forward
To kiss yours
II I'd give mine in return
I'd not bite yours
I what if I'd draw apart
The lips
Would you love me more?
II I'd love you more
I why don't we then kiss
And hold together?
II I'd rather be pardoned
Seeing the love you have for me
I and for my love for you
I'd pardon thee
II but my pardon
Is not for the love
I have for you60
But the love you have for me
I In addition
II am only a poem
And you are the poet
Your will at last should prevail
When mine is to give you more
Than you ever brought me
I and I'd bring you more
to take less
II and for my love for you
At last I'd take nothing
So that you may at last
take a breath
I and anything from you
I'd take wholehearted
When with you
I leave my intentions
II I love you
I I love you too.
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
Thy brown complexion is waoohh
Smooth, fine and whoopee
So nice to touch and to look at
So serene your words too
Poise is your gesture
And when you stand immaculate
is thy gait when you walk
soft so is thy fleshy and supple palm
when you shake my hand
warmth is in you
but all these known to you
in you is thus so clear
that free from fear
any one, with you
can fall in love
thence to you I've come heather
when form above
its in love I am with you
hands free from love
may be all you have
to offer
for thy dreams above heaven you've set
like me when its you I met
so alien in me this feeling then
to cough it out then am helping62
embrace it and go thy way
for below thy knees my passion rests
so far from thy hands
to catch
but too near you are
should I only extend my hands
we can only embrace
and bring this longing
to a sweet end
only if
IN LOVE
with me you are
40.
IGNORANT
To my heart all is said
But what I want I hear
Your mouth you opened to spoke
My ears giving attention
When I hard that from my loneliness
Your arms are open
And to your arms
You'll pick me
Ever to be with you
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Your words when you spoke
It’s the real words you said
I don wonna hear
Buying my misinterpretation
With one heart and soul.
41.
HASTE AND PATIENCE
With time wisdom comes
Never hurry love
With time plants grow
And mature
Ever hurry love
With time a child is born
Never hurry love
With time our dreams emanate
Into reality
Never hurry love
With time best decisions we make
Never hurry love
With time the best of the best
We achieve
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With time the best love comes our way
Never hurry love
With time God; we come to know
Never hurry love
With time our boundaries we demarcate
Never hurry love
With time we love
Immortality, love's immortality
Never hurry love.
42.
SAY SOMETHING AT LEAST
Like the smooth soothing mellifluous tunes
That gives light to the night sky
Silently stealthily so you softly come
My vision blind of the around happenings
Yours graceful perfume scent
Holds me by my helpless arms
And turn my heart most attention to thy honour;
An angel missing in heaven you are
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Reality sending down sacred tears
That fills my yearning eyes
When it’s the truth my heart holds
In affection with you I am
But like a fresh fish from far waters
So slimy you are in my hands
That at last loneliness lies limp
In my soul when it's my words
I cannot confess.
And when no where, you are to hear
This confession of a weeping soul
Tears stroll my cheeks again
When to learn your soul side of story
Is my set destination
That at last my soul may settle
But as a fish in my hands
Again you slip away from my arms
From my words
To push the world I want
But show me the way either of coming.
And melting in your passionate arms
Or going leaving behind a trail
Of so sad a malignant memory
Of the way to me you came
Dispelling me from my love for you
As you attracted me twice, thrice
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The much you did unknowingly
But no where were you
To lead my yearning hand into your world
But ever there attracting me mercilessly so
That I should never go from you
Yet keeping me at a bay.
43.
WHEN AM IN LOVE
When its love I feel for you
Yet I can't help saying
At last my waning courage
Defeats this building anxiety which places
My feelings nude in your eyes.
It's my naked I feared to show
But like all men I can't help saying
I I love you
But me know not why
II I hate you
And me know the reason.
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I Gi me thine reason
For thy hatred
II For ma wisdom not blank
Long me had seen
You in love you are
With me
My hatred; for not saying;
Taking too long
I Do we now kiss and embrace
For me have confessed?
II No, till reason is in you
Why in love you are
I Reason here wid me I've got
Why am reasonless
II Tell me dear
I Course it’s the love
Me for have we too
Love so, non-definable
True love
II Come we kiss and embrace
For the same reason
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II & I Mmhh, mmh ahh, ahha (our song forever).
44.
IF YOU'D ONLY CARE
If you'd only care
Your ear
Could only hear
My innocent whisper
If you'd only care
Your heart
Could only be there
Embracing my heart
Collapsing with passion
For what you always send
Right through my spine
Only time can tell
When we meet and part ways
However much I'd deny
Simply; in love I am with you
Let's keep down our pride
And tend our feelings
The only way, the gift of loving
Would make sense in our lives
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And from you, should only come
If you'd only take your time
To taste this feeling
Which to me you brought
This dream of me with you
melting in your loving arms
if you'd only care.
45.
DREAMLESS
So empty of words
The feeling inside stand
Dreamless so to add
Increasing in vigour
Moving but standing still
Boiling with lust and desire
But no word to express
Let the dream come
For patience I buy
Until the dream is formed
Let no word come
From me to you
But when the expression
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Take seriously my words
It may not be thy desire
But the much I can afford
A low your heart to learn
That an ounce may be all you have
This not too little for me
For its all heavens
To you have giveth
Let's not yearn for more
Till one we become
And when we coarlise
So plenty soaked in passion
Let the world for me and you
Remain shimmering forever
46.
IN YOUR EYES
in your eyes
my feelings crumpled
counting not more, not less
that what our lives had left behind
banking not on a lustful future
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your face of a rose
your warmth of a polar bear
when ice breath is all fate has in store
in all my endevours
that my need to be above my essence
all to you is known and from you springs
when in your eyes
my feelings were found
giving heed not to your flesh looks
but to the beauty of your soul.
47.
LAST CONFESSION
Like the morning ocean breeze
To me you downed
Blessing my hearts dew
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a part in my soul
so tenderly you always touch
any time when away from you I turn
a drop of tear at my back forms
strong so the feeling
to come back I can't help
straight so from my soul's confines
each word said to thy loving heart
Many, to you have lied
Their innocent words
Saturated with lies
one among the few
who will tell you the truth
I am
For in a world full of liars
Honest men and women must also be found
however few
so sincere my words are
make your last fair decision
for the truth at last has landed
in your caring heart and ears.
48.
DEAR AFRICA73
Holding unto thy romantic sway
Goodbye I say
To my lonely nights of yesterday
So clean cosmetics free your lips are
When to thine kiss I melt
Whimpering in thy warm caresses
I can't help
When it is to you I make love
And no doubt I here by confess
-you are sweet indeed-
your long arms wrapped around me
our lips licking each others juice
invigorating me from neck to toe
that none of my nerves can fail to respond
to your fine touch and your soothing voice
how blessed I feel to night
for if there's someone God loves:
then that is me
collapsing in your thighs
like I do to night
leaves me the happiest and the luckiest man
in Africa
for never had I before
felt the way I do to night
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and I'll shed tears of joy
for in all my longings, never before had I ever thought
that such sweetness ever existed
happiest of all men in the world, I am
tendering to my feelings so
you have answered to all my human longings
I yearn not for anything else
For there's nothing else a man can dream of
After spending such a night
With a lady like you
Who so willingly will hold his hand
And take him down into the bottom of passion
Like you have done to night
Swearing over my dead body
I think from now until I die
I have only one dream to treasure
And that is thinking about you
Come rain come sun shine
Consoling so your words are
Thy mantle of sincerity cherishing
in our modest cultural complexion
wigs, perfumes and lip sticks
a mere fuss to thy wisdomed eyes
for deception in they hide
killing thy rare tranquility
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calm my heart unto thine sinks
touching you when it is something good
I want to touch
Kissing you when it is something good
I want to kiss
Holding you when it is something good
I want to hold
Watching you when it is something good
I want to see
Talking to you when it is to a good girl
I want to talk
The best of it; loving you all the more
For all you are
But humble the beginning looks
For dreams of ours, for each other are quite long.
49.
DISTANT ECHOES
Like the distant romantic drums
Distant echoes from thy heart confines
Into my mind and soul knock in whispers
Confessing earnest so thy ardent reality
Once one a bloom we are
Though tender and young our sought oneness
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into this eternal tranquility once its clear and sincere
to each of us
never does our hearts look sideways
since we became one, empty of property
though bloating with the need to care for each other
holding strong to the bliss we caused each other
never to draw apart
50.
STRANGER
To hurt thy feelings I didn't mean either
But to whisper in thy ear when you come heather
Many the agonies in my heart quietly you cause
For non-better than you can my feelings bow unto
Thy innocent look and cool eyes a lot to me confess
However much concealment I try, between us
Reality hungs thy sallowness making things heavier
For things to come and never try
For loneliness my bread and alternative you'll provide
Though thy heart else where may be ringed
A breath I'll take confessing, so straight my sincere words
were
Absenting infatuation thy fear for men like me are known
to plant awe and deceit
A consideration only should you make, but if too fur for
thy grasp
From me to you I give my last word
To hurt thy feelings I meant neither.77
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