manuel arturo abreu - monday, june 24, 2013
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1.
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I try to think
about howoften I think
about howI treat people.
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It seems 'utterly
unimaginable'that other
people in theworld think of
me.
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Do other
people alsohave to kind of
will themselvesto think about
others?
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Right nowI don't feel
capable of'remembering,'
'imagining,' orknowing the
difference.
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It seems
strange, callingall of these
diverse mentalphenomena
“memories,”
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like thinking
the differentspecies of a
genus are allthe same
species.
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My love forclunky
expressions,repressed
for years, isresurfacing a
little.
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I mean, try to
imagine yourtears floating
in the spacebefore crying.
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Or imagine
being old andtelling someone
you've “run outof good days,
none left.”
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Those bothseem really
awkward.
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I feel
compelled byan empty,
formless gleewhen I'm online
sometimes.
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that says “is
there anevolutionary
advantage toforgiveness?”
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I think of
how much timewe spent
in one or theother of two
rooms.
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In the future
when June isover I'll be
able to call thenext page a
poem:
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All June
it rained.
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For now, since
June is notover, and since
poems can onlyever be true,
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it remains what
it always is:four words
and alinebreak.
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Rememberinga field with
scattered balesof plastic-
wrapped hay.Like
marshmallows.
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My Nepalifriend told me
a story abouta kid whose
parents won'ttell him he's
dying.
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Everyone else
in the villageknew the kid
was going todie, except my
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friend, who
found out onlywhen he saw
him burning ona pyre.
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This is the first
conversationabout death
that hascomforted me
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since a goodfriend I went to
middle andhigh school with
killed himselfon May 18,
2013.
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I didn't get to
see him beginbecoming the
person hewould end up
being.
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I feelabsolutely
stupid andempty, like a
college campusduring the
summer,
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knowing it tookme losing a
good friend tobe able to say
“I for surewant to be
alive.”
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I'm imagining a
panel ofdictators
talkingamongst
themselves
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about what
advice theyshould give me.
Trujillo stepsforward and,
somewhat
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coyly, says in
Spanish:“Never let
anyone knowhow much you
are suffering.”
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My 15-y.o.
brother gaveme $50 when I
was in NYC.It felt bleak.
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On 6/10/13I tweeted this:
“It is June. I am
tired of beingbrave.”
Anne Sexton
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The other
person in thiscomputer lab is
using twocomputers
at a time.
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Now try to
imagine thepain the body
feels in being'absent' for
surgery.
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That's how I
feel: you hurtme, but mostly
you're back tobeing a
stranger.
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