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THE PAINUNKNOWN


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Love is a pur e comm itmen t f or just one pe rson f or the whole lif e with whom you would love to shar e eve rything your de cision s, go a ls, ai ms, b od y a nd eve ry de sir e.

-Ta nm ay

When you tell someone some thing ba d ab out yours elf and you'r e scar ed he won 't love you a nymo r e. But th en you ge t surpris ed be caus e no t only doe s h e still love you, h e love s y ou even mo r e.

My enem ie s tau ght me how to love.

Love Is Stra nge.

Ange r a nd Love has no limits ...

you ca n br e ak love , but it w on 't die.

I wish y ou c ould smile , a nd sh e could da nce , a nd I could sing. But if it is no t possib le , if one sh ould suff e r, le t it just b e me.

Br oken he art give s y ou a ll the pai n in wor ld. But do no t hat e it. Be caus e the pe rson youlove , sti ll live s in the r e.

Ange r is just a c owar dly ex ten sion of sa dne ss . It's a lot e asi e r to be a ng ry at s omeone tha n it is to tell them you'r e hurt .

Just b e caus e he r e ye s don 't tear doe sn 't me a n he r he art doe sn 't cry . And just b e caus e sh e come s off str ong , doe sn 't me a n the r e 's no thing wr ong.


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Left Without A Heart

I sat t oge the r with th e dark ne ss of my r oom Te ars leak ed fr om my e ye s like wate r fr om a tap

In the cor ne r I f eel com f orted by th e wa lls hu gg ing my knee s like I was hu gg ing a friend

Ima ge s f loated in and out of my he ad tor men ting me as if I w e r e a pris one r Pictur e s of the one I loved with a no the r guy As if sh e ha d moved on without a car e

Sh e wants t o dat e him some time is th e rumo r f or the thir d time sh e has br oken my he art

I bel ieved he r when sh e sai d sh e loved me Hope ha d been shatt e r ed a nd left me de str oyed

My he art was made f or he r a nd only he r no w sh e has f ound someone else to hold

Sh e gave up on me , sh e f ell out of love I lost eve rything I eve r ha d and wanted

It hurts s o much wh en I think of he r sh e quick ly moved on a nd sh e is happy

It hurts mo r e be caus e I still love he r we we r e on ce so pe rf e ct, no w a ll is lost

As I writ e Ill sing this s ong For the gr e at e st love Ive eve r kno w To my he art, y ou th e onl y ke y,

I beg of you neve r s e t me fr ee I pray ed to god f or a love so true

N I li d h l d k i th d


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Wonde rful momen ts shar ed pr e cious memo rie s sti ll tell me you car e.

I see your sha do w as i lay mys el f to s lee p

Dr e a ms of you oh s o swee t in my he art i wi ll kee p

Loo k in to my he art my lif e Tell me what do you s ee?

Ca n you f eel the need the want as I t o be your husba nd your e my wif e

Much joy a nd happi ne ss y ou've br ought me If no t ha d to live again I'd wan t to with you

My love r, my be st friend a lways a nd f or eve r I'll one you till the end

Ive been lost f or years a nd Ive been dr e aming

Dr e a ming of find ing s omeone that car e s

Ye ars pass ed a nd ha ven t f ound the right one

But no w Ive me t you a nd f ound you....

i think of you day in and day out that i wish y ou'r e with me

And no w i ha ve f ound the o the r ha lf of my s oul Im mo r e tha n willing to give you my a ll

I f el t s o lucky t o ha ve you nex t to me to be in your str ong ar ms a nd wa lk in this jour ne y

I ca nt wait till the day c ome s th e day w e put our s ouls t oge the r


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I am lear ning to smile again; I will be succ e ssfu l f or sur e ,

Wheneve r I miss u, I just ge t lost in memo rie s of olden daysI still r emem be r those lovel y days, wh en in your ar ms I us e to lay

So e asi ly u moved on n no w u tr e at me as stra nge r

Still I tried to help u out but th en u too k me as a cha llenge r

Some time s I f eel so hurt that I lock mysel f in r oom n loudly I sh out

Its u that was wr ong , its u that lied , n then its u wh o ha ve do ubts ?

My poem s w e r e neve r to bla me u, th e y we r e just my f eel ing s portray

Its u wh o played with my f eel ing , then why ca nt I call your fak e love a b e tray?

Some time s I curs e my fate , b e caus e I me t u, b e caus e I loved u

My f eel ing s w e r e true; tell me , thats why I a m in blue s?

Tod ay, I try t o run away fr om this f eel ing ca lled love.

Be caus e a h e art le ss p e rson ca me in my lif e n act ed like a dove ,

But th e bitte r truth is, I a m still in love with you

I still wish t o sp end some momen ts even if they r f e w

I cry a lot then try to find u in my te ars .

That cryi ng neve r gave me pai n but br ought b oth of us ne ar

Pe rhaps u ncon scious ly I a m trying to dr e am of that ti me


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Story

A philos ophy pr of e ss or st ood be f or e his c lass with s ome item s on the tab le in fr on t of him. Wh en the class b eg a n , wor dle ss ly he picked up a ve ry lar ge a nd em ptymay onn ais e jar a nd pr oceeded to fill it with r ocks, ab out 2 i nch e s in d iame te r .

He then ask ed the stu den ts if th e jar was fu ll. The y a gr eed that it was .

So the pr of e ss or then picked up a b ox of pe bb les a nd pour ed them in to the jar . He sh oo k the jar lightly. The pebb le s, of cours e , r olled in to the open ar e as b e tween the r ocks .

He then ask ed the stu den ts a gain if the jar was fu ll. The y a gr eed it was .

The pr of e ss or picked up a b ox of sa nd and pour ed it in to the jar . Of cours e , the sa nd filled up eve rything el se. He then ask ed on ce mo r e if the jar was fu ll. The stu den ts r e sp onded with a u nan imo usYe s .

Now, sai d the pr of e ss or, I wa nt you to r e cogn ize that this jar r e pr e s en ts y our lif e. The r ocks ar e the importa n t thing s y our fa mily, y our part ne r, your h e a lth, y our chi ldr en thing s that if eve rything else was lost a nd only the y r em ained , your lif e would still be full.

The pebb le s ar e the othe r thing s that matt e r like your job, y our h ous e , your car .

The sa nd is eve rything else. The sma ll stuff . If you put th e sa nd into the jar first, he con tinued the r e is no r oom f or the pe bb le s or the r ocks . The sa me goe s f or your lif e.

If you sp end a ll your time a nd ene r gy on the sma ll stuff, y ou will neve r ha ve r oom f or the thing s that ar e importa nt to you. Pay att en tion to the thing s that ar e critica l to your happi ne ss . P lay with y our chi ldr en. Tak e your part ne r out dancing. The r e will a lways b e

time to go to work, c lea n the hous e , give a dinne r party a nd fix the d isposa l.

Tak e car e of the r ocks first th e thing s that r e a lly matt e r . Se t your prioritie s . The r e st is just sa nd.

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f en ce. Fina lly the day ca me when the boy didn tlose his t em pe r at a ll. He told his fath e r ab out it a nd the fath e r su gge sted that th e boy no w pu ll out one nail f or e ach day that h e

was ab le to hold his t em pe r .

The days pass ed and the young boy was fi na lly ab le to tell his fath e r that a ll the nailswe r e gone. The fathe r too k his s on by th e ha nd a nd led him to the f en ce. He sai d youha ve done well, my s on , but loo k at th e hole s in the f en ce. The f en ce will neve r be the sa me. Wh en you say thi ng s in ange r, th e y leave a scar just like this one.

You ca n put a k nif e in a man a nd draw it out. It won tmatt e r how ma ny time s y ou sayIm sorry, th e wound is sti ll the r e.

Make sur e you c on tr ol your tem pe r the nex t time you ar e tem pted to say s ome thing youwill r eg r e t late r .

Story

This parab le is told of a far me r who owned an old mule. The mule f ell in to the far me rswell. The far me r h e ar d the mule praying or what eve r mule s do when the y fa ll in to wells .

Afte r car e fully ass e ssi ng the situati on , th e far me r sy mpathiz ed with the mule , butde cided that ne ithe r the mule no r the well was w orth th e tr oub le of sa ving. Inste ad , h e ca lled his ne ighb ors t oge the r, t old them what ha d happ ened , a nd enl isted them to helphau l dirt to bury th e old mule in the well and put hi m out of his mise ry.

Initially the old mule was hyst e rica l! But as th e far me r a nd his ne ighb ors c on tinued

sh ovel ing and the dirt hit his back, a th ought struck hi m. It su ddenl y dawned on him thateve ry time a sh ovel loa d of dirt la nded on his back, HE WOU LD SHAKE IT OFF ANDSTEP UP !

This h e d id, b low afte r b low. Shak e it off and ste p upshak e it off and ste p upshak e it off and ste p up ! He r e pe ated to en coura ge himsel f . No matt e r h ow pai nful the blows,or how d istr e ssi ng the situati on s eemed , th e old mule f ought pa nic a nd just k e pt right on SHAKING IT OFF AND STEPPING UP !

It was nt long be f or e the old mule , batt e r ed and ex haust ed , st e pp ed triumpha ntly ove r the wa ll of that w ell! What s eemed like it would bury hi m actua lly helped him . . . a ll be caus e of the ma nne r in which h e ha ndled his a dve rsity .

THATS LIFE! If we face our pr oblem s a nd r e sp ond to them positively, a nd r e fuse to g ive in to pa nic, bitte r ne ss, or s elf-pity.


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himsel f into his mo the rs ar ms, sh e sighed , kno wing that his lif e was t o be a succ e ssi on of he artbr e aks . He blurted out th e traged y. A boy, a bi g boy ca lled me a fr e ak . He

gr e w up, ha nd some f or his misf ortune. A favo rite with his f ello w stu den ts, h e might ha ve been class pr e siden t, but f or that . He develo ped a gift, a ta len t f or lite ratur e a nd music . But y ou might mingle with o the r young peo ple , his mo the r r e pr oved him, but f el t akindne ss i n he r he art . The boys fathe r ha d a s e ssi on with th e family physicia n. Could no thing be done? I bel ieve I could graft on a pair of oute r e ars, if th e y could be pr ocur ed , the do ctor de cided. Whe r e up on the se arch b eg an f or a p e rs on who would mak e such a sacrific e f or a y oung ma n. Two ye ars w en t by . Then , You ar e go ing to the hospita l, S on. Mo the r a nd I ha ve someone who will don at e the e ars y ou need. But its ase cr e t, sai d the fath e r . The ope ration was a bri llian t succ e ss, a nd a ne w pe rson eme r ged. His ta len ts b loss omed into gen ius, a nd sch ool and college be ca me a s e rie s of triumphs . Late r he married a nd en te r ed the diplomatic s e r vice. But I must k no w! He ur ged his fath e r, Wh o gave so much f or me? I could neve r do eno ugh f or him. I do no tbel ieve you c ould, sai d the fathe r, but th e agr eemen t was that y ou ar e no t to kno w no t ye t. The ye ars k e pt th e ir pr of ound se cr e t, but th e day did come one of the darke st days that a s on must end ur e. He stood with his fath e r ove r his mo the rs cask e t. S lowly, t ende r ly, th e fathe r str e tch ed f orth a ha nd and rais ed the thick, r edd ish-br own hair t o r eve a l that th e mo the r ha d no oute r e ars . Mo the r sai d sh e was glad sh e neve r le t he r hair b e cut, he whisp e r ed gen tly, a nd no bod y eve r thought Mo the r le ssbe autifu l, did the y? Re a l beauty lie s no t in the physica l app e ara nce , but i n the he art . Re a l tr e asur e lie s no t in what that ca n be seen , but what that ca nno t be seen. Re a l love lie s no t in what is done and kno wn , but i n what that is done but no t kno wn.

Story

One day a man saw a n old lady, stra nded on the side of the r oa d , but even in the dim light of day, h e could see sh e needed help. So he pu lled up in fr on t of he r Me rcede sa nd go t out. His P on tiac was sti ll sputt e ring when he appr oach ed he r .

Even with th e smile on his fac e , sh e was w orried. No one ha d stopp ed to help f or the last h our or s o. Was h e go ing to hurt h e r ? He d idn tloo k saf e; he loo ked poo r a nd

hu ng ry. He could see that sh e was fri ghtened , sta nd ing out th e r e in the cold. He kne whow sh e f el t. It was th ose chills which onl y f e ar ca n put in you. He sai d , Im he r e to helpyou, maam. Why don t you wait i n the car wh e r e its war m? By the way, my na me isBrya n Ande rs on.

Well, a ll sh e ha d was a f lat tir e , but f or a n old la dy, that was ba d eno ugh. Brya n craw led


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Brya n just s miled as h e closed he r trunk. The lady ask ed how much sh e owed him. Anya mo un t would ha ve been a ll right with h e r . Sh e a lr e ady ima gined a ll the awfu l thing s

that c ould ha ve happ ened ha d he no t st opp ed. Brya n neve r thought twice ab out b e ing pai d. This was no t a job to him. This was h elping someone in need , a nd God kno wsthe r e we r e plen ty, wh o ha d given him a ha nd in the past . He ha d lived his wh ole lif e thatway, a nd it neve r occurr ed to him to act a ny othe r way . He told he r that if sh e r ea lly wan ted to pay hi m back, th e nex t time sh e saw s omeone who needed help, sh e could give that p e rson the assista nce the y needed , a nd Bryan a dded , And think of me. He waited until sh e start ed he r car a nd dr ove off . It ha d been a c old and de pr e ssi ng day, but h e f el t good as h e he aded f or home , disapp e aring in to the twilight.

A f e w mile s do wn the r oad the la dy saw a s ma ll caf e. Sh e wen t in to grab a bit e to e at,a nd tak e the chill off be f or e sh e made the last leg of he r trip h ome. It was a d ing yloo king r e staura nt. Outsi de we r e two old gas pu mps . The whole sc ene was u nfamiliar to he r . The waitr e ss ca me ove r a nd br ought a c lean towel to wipe he r we t hair . Sh e ha d aswee t s mile , one that even be ing on he r f ee t f or the whole day c ouldn te ras e. The la dyno ticed the waitr e ss was ne ar ly e ight mon ths pr egn ant, but sh e neve r le t the strai n and ach e s cha nge he r attitu de. The old lady wonde r ed how s omeone who ha d so little could be so giving to a stra nge r . Then sh e r emem be r ed Brya n.

Afte r the la dy finish ed he r me a l, sh e pai d with a hu nd r ed dollar bi ll. The waitr e ss quick lywen t to ge t cha nge f or he r hu nd r ed dollar bi ll, but th e old lady ha d s lipped right out th e doo r . Sh e was gone by th e time the waitr e ss ca me back . The waitr e ss w onde r ed whe r e the la dy could be. Then sh e no ticed some thing written on the napki n.

The r e we r e te ars i n he r e ye s wh en sh e r ea d what th e lady wr o te: You don towe me a nything. I ha ve been the r e too. Some bod y on ce helped me out, th e way Im helping you. If you r e a lly wa nt to pay me back, h e r e is what y ou do: Do no t le t this chai n of love end with you. Unde r the napki n we r e f our mo r e $100 bi lls .Well, the r e we r e tab le s t o clear, su gar bowls t o fill, a nd peo ple to se r ve , but th e waitr e ss ma de it thr ough a no the r day . Thatn ight wh en sh e go t home fr om work a nd climbed in to bed , sh e was thi nking ab out th e

mone y a nd what th e lady ha d written. How could the lady ha ve kno wn how much sh e a nd he r husba nd needed it? With th e baby due nex t mon th, it was go ing to be har d . Sh e kne w how worried he r husba nd was, a nd as h e lay s lee ping nex t to he r, sh e ga ve him a s oft kiss a nd whisp e r ed soft and low, E ve rything s go ing to be a ll right. I love you,Brya n Ande rs on. The r e is a n old sayi ng What goe s ar ound come s ar ound.


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How can you????

Leave everything WE started so long ago?Leave me here all by myself?Leave the home WE Built?

Leave the memories WE made?Everything here reminds me of you.....

The Pain.....

In my mind...In my soul....In my body...

But most of all it hurts in my heart....I Love you so much..........

Love that will never be shown...Scars that can never be hidden....

Wounds that will never heal....Clouds that will always fill with darkness...

I Wonder....

If i will ever love anyone as much as i love you.If i will ever be able to hide the scars....

That you left....If he wounds will ever heal.....

That You Left....If the clouds will ever lighten....

I Cry When

I Think of our unborn children...Ein Warren Hughes-November Sky Hughes-October Rain Hughes

That Will Never Be given life from both YOU and II think of the home WE dreamt of...


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That i left you alone all those long nights....That i couldn't give you everything you wanted...

B ut if you meant to....

Make me doubt myself....Make me cry....

Make me suffer....Make me feel alone....

Make me hate myself....

DEMOLISH ME.....YOU Succeeded....

Have You E ve r...Have you eve r cried at night, Thi nking it was ba d ,Have you eve r lost a love , The onl y thing you eve r ha d,Have you eve r scr ea med out loud, Fr om pai n that y ou ha ve f el t,

Have you eve r st opped and loo ked , At pai n that y ou ha ve de a lt,Have you eve r qu e stioned someone , Of love and if its true ,Have you eve r r ea lly wonde r ed , If the y tru ly f eel f or you,Have you eve r f el t abus ed , Or w orried while you wait,Have you eve r made a bi g hu ge de a l,Ove r s omeone be ing lat e ,Have you eve r ha d them leave ,And watch ed them wa lk away,Have you eve r thought of lea ving ,But c ould onl y sit a nd stay,

Have you eve r hurt s omeone ,And loo ked at what y ouve done ,Have you eve r been the one thats hurt,A nd thought that y ou we r e the only one ,Have you eve r loved a no the r,And neve r told them so ,Have you eve r tried to tell them ,But d idn t kno w how it would go ,Have you eve r been a lone ,Whe r e no one else could see ,So you sat at h ome r em ain ing unkno wn ,ha ving no whe r e else to be. Ive f el t this way b e f or e ,Ive f el t a nd de a lt it a ll,Ive even lied ,Ive even cried ,Ive even f el t the fall.

But no thing mak e s it b e tte r,Th e Guilt or the Pai n I f eel ,I wish it a ll would go away,I wish it was nt r ea l,


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The end of love , the start of pain The blood fr om my he art that no w ach e s, stai nsWith th e thought of your image , the thought of you car e Devo ted to ano the r, whi lst my spirit is bar e Whe r e am I to go , whe r e is my hope no w

Am I no longe r importa n t like our ded icated vowsYou pr om ised to a lways b e the r e , a nd love me no matt e r what

But it s eem s y ouve moved on , loved a no the r a nd f or go tThe br e ak do wn of our r elation ship, th e br e ak of my poo r he artYou pu nctur ed it with your cru el ways ; you stabb ed it with a dartYou too k away my faith, my dr e a ms, I no w ha ve no thing leftMy happi ne ss has disapp e ar ed; a bruta l act of the ftYou pr om ised to a lways b e the r e , but no w it a ll de pend sOn if youve f ound ano the r love and when my he artach e end s

Doe s a nyone kno w that my he art is br oken? Pe rhaps no one r e a lly kno ws b e caus e of the lau ghte r I sh ow when I'm with th em ,Nobod y kno ws that my he art is hurti ng be caus e of that p e rson. Those days i n love it was th e lau ghte r that ma de me happy,

Waki ng up in the mo r ning nex t to the pe rson that I loved ,It was eve rything that I c ould wish ed f or,But th e lau ghte r faded when the pe rson sai d it was ove r .

Ye ars ha ve pass ed by but th e memo rie s ar e still he r e , And I don 't think I could eve r e ras e the pe rson fr om my mind ,Those wonde rful memo rie s fr om my he art .

My he art is b leed ing fr om the sa d memo rie s that w e r e on ce happy,I ca n lau gh a nd lau gh,I ca n lie to mysel f and my friend s,But th e te ars fr om the lau ghte r ar e the te ars fr om the he artbr e ak .


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How ca n I e ras e that p e rson fr om my memo ry,When I still love that p e rs on so much

Ca n you c oun t a ll the time s That y ou've mended my he art

Just s o you c ould a gain Crush it, Br e ak it apart ?

Ye t, you've go t no ide a That I' m hurt a ll the while

Caus e I hide a ll my pai n With a lau gh a nd a s mile

All my ra ge a nd frustrati on The y ar e se cr e ts to you

I'm a pr e tty good act or Caus e you don 't ha ve a c lue

I ha ve made it an art It's gr e ate st lear ned skill

Hiding a ll of this damn Fuckin pain that I f eel

Ye t s ome time s it leaks thr ough S ome time s I b otch my act

Some time s y ou s ee my pai n Some time s I ca n 't hold back

I r eg r e t if you no ticed I didn 't wa nn a s eem sha llow

But s ome time s it's t oo much It's mo r e tha n I ca n swa llow


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How ca n you????

Lea ve eve rything WE start ed so long a go?

Lea ve me he r e a ll by myself ?

Lea ve the home WE Bui lt?

Lea ve the memo rie s WE ma de?

Eve rything he r e r em ind s me of you.....

I Cry Wh en

I think of our u nbor n childr en...

Ein Warr en Hughe s-Novem be r Sky Hu ghe s-Oct obe r Rai n Hughe sThat Wi ll Neve r Be g iven lif e fr om both YOU a nd I

I think of the home WE dr ea m t of ...

The Love WE Shar ed....

The lif e WE start ed....

Im so , s o vary s orry....

That i was n 't str ong eno ugh f or you..

That i was n 't eve rything you th ought i would be.

That i ha d to work long hours s o WE c ould Live..

That i left you a lone a ll those long n ights ....

That i c ouldn 't g ive you eve rything you wa n ted...


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Q uot es

y De ath lea ve s a h e artach e no one ca n hea l. Love lea ve s a memo ry no one ca n ste a l.

y The momen t you start loving that p e rson is th e momen t your brai n shri nks a nd

your h e art gr ows

y When I me t you I liked you,Wh en I liked you I kiss ed you,

y When I kiss ed you I loved you,Wh en I loved you I lost y ou... y Ange r, t e ars a nd sa dne ss ar e only f or those who ha ve given up

y The dee pe st pai n is th e shatt e r ed love I no w f eel.

y You ca n be he a led of de pr e ssi on if eve ry day you b eg in the first thing in the

mo r ning to con side r how you will bring a r ea l joy to someone el se.

y Do you kno w what th e har de st thi ng in lif e is? y To s ee your loved one s go away f or eve r a nd Fa ll in love with a w om an you

sh ould no t love

y Do no t sta nd in a p lac e of da nge r trusti ng in m irac les

y How sa d it must b e to go thr ough lif e with a wh ole he art

y Some time s love is f or a momen t, s ome time s love is f or a lif e time Some time s a momen t is a lif e time.

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ITS TOUGH TO MOVE ON ..

It ca nt be true . I ca nt bel ieve whats happ en ing

I ca nt bel ieve that y ou ar e f or eve r lea ving ..

That .. You ar e lea ving me a ll a lone to cry .

That y ou ar e wa lking away t o a p lac e that is out of my r e ach no matte r how har d I try

Tod ay .I r e a lized I am so helpless .

I ca nt tur n ar ound and go a nd

I ca nt stand he r e to watch y ou go .

You ar e making me f eel lonel y a nd em pty ..

No t be ing with you is my lif e s worst imag inab le thing .

I swe ar I tried r ea lly har d to make eve rything a ll right

I tried har d to g ive you a ll the happi ne ss y ou de sir ed eve ry time ..

I tried har d to make our r elation ship last a nd sur vive

I tried har d to kiss away a ll your pai ns wh en you cried ..

I r e a lly wish ..That y ou c ould see the uncond ition a l love f or you in my e ye s ..

And that y ou ha dn t bla med me f or eve rything that w en t wr ong in your lif e ..

Ca n you just c ome back a nd say that its no t ove r ..


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That y ou ar e a ll a lone without me

That y our happi ne ss sti ll de pend s on me

That y ou ar e no MORE a ng ry a nd ha ve f or go tten eve rything

P leas e look in to my eye s a nd say that y ou ar e still with me

That sti ll your mo r n ing starts with me .

That sti ll your lif e end s on me That sti ll you do car e . That sti ll you ar e the r e .

But . Now when you ar e gone... I kno w I am incom plete without you ..

But sti ll lif e doe snt wait... it goe s on .

I kno w I ll be okay th ough it tak e s a long time to move on .

I think of you in silen ce I often sp e ak y our na me ,

Now a ll I ha ve is memo rie s, with a br oken he art a nd pain. I don t see you ve ry much s ome time sno t at a ll

S ome time s a ll I f eel Ive go t is sa dne ss a nd a lcohol.

I on ce ask ed you h ow you f el t a nd you told me f or eve r,

Now I see the truth u onl y me an t neve r ..

I kno w its been mon th, mayb e mo r e ,

But i sti ll f eel like you ar e linge ring he r e ,

S omed ay i m ight r e a lize you we r e no good f or me

Or p ossib ly it was fat e , or mayb e de stiny.


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I've f ound my s elf many time s ta lking ab out you a ll a lone

I ca n 't st op my heart fr om ca lling your na me

I ca n 't st op my e ye s f or dr opping tears

Wish if y ou we r e he r e with me..

I've m iss ed you

And I just wa n t to scr ea m out loud

And say h ow much I wa n t to see you

Maine cha nd se puchha ki me ri g ift kya hai

to cha nd ne kaha ki hai k o i sup e r sp e cia l su nd ar ehsaas jo tumse dur baitha kar raha hai t e ra aas

har pa l har la mha jine ko te r e sath

de de tu usk o ap na hath

maine cha nd se puchha fir uska kya hai naa m

te r e lab o ki pyas hai saa nso ki aas hai

te ri jind a g i ka jaa m hai chahat uska naa m hai

maine fir cha nd se puchha kaisi hai w o d ikhne me

to cha nd ne kaha ki ussk e a lawa tu mne ko i de kha na h og a su nd ar

de khte hi usk o jee kar eg a basa lu d il ke and ar

sine se sata lu, d il me chhupaa lu

paa n i me aa g hai , a nd he ra me chira g hai


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tujhp e chhayi hai, t e ri jind ag i me sa mayi hai

te ri usk e sath s e tting upar s e (god se) ba n kar aayi hai

fir maine cha nd se kaha ki maine to uska d il dukhaya hai bahut

to cha nd ne kaha a e murakh b e wakuf, kuchh kar ja ldi iss e pah le wo jaye chhut

to maine kaha kya karu

to cha nd ne kaha jis kari me tum dono ho ba nd he ,

us kari me jiyo jind a g i ko m ila kar ka nd he

su n me ri bat, na deg a t e ra k o i sath

hai e k hi jo hai t e r e d il se d il ki dharka n wo hi hai t e ri tarpa n

ma na lo usk o, cha nce do khudko

fir maine cha nd ko kaha ki mai jina chahta hu uski baah o me mai ur na chahta hu uski pa nah o me

pyar kar na chahta hu usk e sine se lipat kar

umra bhar u mra bhar u m ra bhar u mra bhar

to cha nd ne kaha abhi nahi hui hai de r

wo hi te ri jind ag i ki surat hai sirat hai khwaish hai

tu usk e pyar ki az maish hai

nahi h one den a uski az maish k o fail

fir maine kaha cha nd ko ki mai uss e manau ng a

jee bhar k e chahu ng a pyar karu ng a

in te zaar karu ng a aitbaar karu ng a

to cha nd ne kaha ki aa ge kya kar na hai y e bhi bata na par eg a kya


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St age 1. ATTRACT ION

This ca n furthe r be br oken do wn into two ar eas : (a ) physica l attracti on & (b ) emo tion a l attracti on.

A. Physica l Attracti on - happ en s wh en your b od y r eacts t o ano the r pe rson. He art rat e incr e as e s ; tem pe ratur e rise s, pa lms ge t sweaty ; stom ach f lutte rs ; thr oat tighten s ; e tc. This is th e mo st sup e rficial of "love s" on one level , but one of the mo st p owe rful on ano the r . It r e pr e sen ts th e first con tact .

B. Emo tion a l Attracti on - If you find you ha ve thing s in common -- hobbie s, ideolog ie s, car ee r, ed ucati on ,or s ome othe r common gr ound -- then an emo tion a l attracti on starts t o f or m. An emo tion a l attracti on ca n a lso occur even when a physica l attracti on doe s no t. And in this cas e , th e bond m ay even be str onge r be tween the two who conne ct, si nce no pr econ ce ived no tion s bas ed on physica l app e ara nce hasoccurr ed

St age 2. R OM AN CE

The r e ar e two type of r om ance: (a ) selfish r om ance & (b ) self less r om ance.

(A ) Selfish R om ance - occurs wh en you do r om antic acts s olel y f or the purp ose of gaining some thing f or yours el f -- like to ge t gifts, to impr e ss s omeone else , or even sim ply f or s ex ua l favo rs wh e the r your

part ne r is inte r e sted or no t. (B ) Self less R om ance - occurs wh en you do r om antic acts f or the en joymen t a nd pleasur e of your part ne r . You r e ce ive your en joymen t a nd pleasur e thr ough th e ir happi ne ss .

Selfish r om ance will quickly die out. Self less r om ance will end ur e. Be caus e r om ance is a n "act," m anycoup les wh o ha ve been toge the r a long time take it f or granted. With a c on scious e ff ort, it ca n be r e kindled.

St age 3. PASS ION

- a de sir e f or a no the r pe rson , which has gr own to an inten sity that ca n 't be igno r ed. This is often whe r e an emo tion a l r elation ship tur ns into a physica l r elation ship . The passi on sta ge is ve ry im portant. It's aplate au .Fr om he r e , the r elation ship wi ll f ork into two r oads, a nd the coup le m ust de cide which path t o take. The r elation ship wi ll e ithe r bur n itself out or will move on to the nex t sta ge.

St age 4. IN TIM ACY

- a c lose ass ociation with a no the r pe rson of the dee pe st natur e. You shar e you th oughts, y our f eel ing s,your dr e am s . In true intimacy, th e r e is no thing that y ou ca nno t tell this p e rson (though we often he sitat e becaus e of our own unf ounded f e ars ).

Intimacy is no t tota l in one swoo p. It is a develo ping pr oce ss, which neve r end s . If you ca n 't e stab lishintimacy with y our part ne r, y our r elation ship m ay work f or a whi le , but is u nlikely to end ur e thr oughout th e


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TRUE STORIES

One day a ga l ask ed: why do you like me..? Why do you love me..?

HE a nswe r ed: I ca n 't tell the r e as on. But I r ea lly like you.

SHE : You ca n 't even tell me the r e as on. How ca n you say y ou like me?

HE: I r e a lly don 't kno w the r eas on , but I ca n pr ove that I love you.

SHE : I don 't wa nt a ny pr oo f . I want you to tell me the r e as on. My friend 's b oyfriend ca n tell he r why h e love s h e r but y ou ca n 't!

HE: OK..OK!!.be caus e you ar e be autifu l, be caus e your vo ice is sw ee t, b e caus e you ar e

caring , b e caus e you ar e loving , be caus e you ar e thoughtful, be caus e of your s mile ,be caus e of your eve ry movemen t.

The ga l f el t ve ry satisfi ed with his a nswe r .

Unf ortunately, a f e w days late r, th e ga l go t a n acci den t a nd be ca me com a .

HE th en plac ed a le tte r by h e r side , a nd he r e is th e con ten t:

Dar ling , Be caus e of your sw ee t vo ice that I love you... Now ca n you ta lk? No , th e r e f or e Ica nno t love you. Be caus e of your car e and con ce r n that I like you. Now that y ou ca nno tsh ow them , th e r e f or e i ca nno t love you. Be caus e of your s mile , be caus e of your eve rymovemen t that I love you.. Now ca n you s mile? Now ca n you move? No , th e r e f or e Ica nno t love you... If love need s a r e as on , like no w, th e r e is no r e as on f or me to love youa nymo r e. Doe s love need a r e as on?

NO!

The r e f or e , I sti ll love you...

True friend s c ome in the good time s wh en we tell them to , a nd come in the ba d


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Si gns Of A Tru e Lo ve

Possib le sign s that what y ou ha ve may b e true love is you... * acc e pt your part ne r a nd the ir f laws* ar e con ce r ned with your part ne r's need s first* ar e com f ortab le be ing apart fr om one ano the r * slowly f ell f or your part ne r * trust y our part ne r com ple tely* ar e ab le to r e solve a fight a nd gr ow str onge r thr ough it

Si gns Of N ot R eal Lo ve Possib le sign s that it is n 't true love is you...

* think of your part ne r as abs olutely pe rf e ct* ar e con ce r ned with your need s first* need to sp end a ll your fr ee time with your part ne r * quickly be ca me infatuat ed with your part ne r

* tend to be je a lous e asi ly* can 't come to a c om pr om ise afte r fighting

Whe r e did you go lea ving me a lone ,g iving me the pains which I do no t own.

Why did you br oke my he art in to two ,without cari ng ab out me a nd listen ing me too.

Why did no t you try to unde rsta nd my f eel ing s, my love , just le ft me dumb with th ousa nd s of unsai d wor ds .

I f eel so incom ple te as y ou ar e no t be side me ,Just like the he art with out th e he art b e ats,Just like the bod y without s oul,Just like the night with out stars a nd moon. ,Just like a ship with a h ole.

P leas e come back i n my lif e ,


23/103

The Salty Coffee

He me t he r at a party . Sh e was s o outsta nd ing , many guys chasi ng afte r he r, whi le he was s o no r ma l, no bod y pai d att en tion to him.

At th e end of the party, h e inv ited he r to ha ve coff ee with him, sh e was surpris ed butdue to be ing polite , sh e pr om ised. The y sat i n a nice coff ee sh op, h e was t oo ne r vous t o say a nything , sh e f el t uncom f ortab le , a nd sh e thought to he rself, "Pleas e , le t me go home... "Su ddenl y he ask ed the waite r, "Would you p leas e give me some sa lt? I'd like to put it in

my coff ee. " Eve rybod y star ed at hi m, s o stra nge! His fac e tur ned r ed but sti ll, h e put th e sa lt in his c off ee and drank it. Sh e ask ed him curious ly, "Why y ou ha ve this h obby? " He r e plied , "When I was a little boy, I lived ne ar th e s e a, I liked playing in the s ea, I c ould f eel the tast e of the se a, just like the tast e of the sa lty coff ee. Now eve ry time I ha ve the sa lty coff ee , I a lways thi nk of my chi ldhood , think of my home town , I miss my home town so much, I miss my par en ts wh o ar e still living the r e. " While sayi ng that t ears fi lled hise ye s . Sh e was dee ply touch ed. That's his tru e f eel ing , fr om the bottom of his h e art . Aman who ca n tell out his h ome sickne ss, h e must b e a ma n who love s h ome , car e s

ab out h ome , has r e sp on sibility of home... Then sh e a lso start ed to sp eak, sp oke ab outhe r faraway h ome town , h e r chi ldhood , he r family.

That was a r e a lly nice ta lk, a ls o a b e autifu l beg inn ing of the ir story. The y con tinued to date. Sh e f ound that actua lly he was a ma n who mee ts a ll he r dem and s ; he ha d tole ra nce , was ki nd he art ed , war m, car e ful. He was such a good pe rs on but sh e a lmo stmiss ed him! Tha nks t o his sa lty coff ee! Then the story was just like eve ry be autifu l love story, th e prince ss married to the prince , a nd then the y we r e living the happy lif e... And ,eve ry time sh e ma de coff ee f or him, sh e put s ome sa lt in the coff ee , as sh e kne w that'sthe way h e liked it.

Afte r 40 y e ars, h e pass ed away, le ft he r a le tte r which sai d , "My de ar e st, p leas e f or give me , f or g ive my whole lif e 's lie. This was th e onl y lie I sai d to you---th e sa lty coff ee. Remem be r the first time we dated? I was s o ne r vous at that ti me , actua lly I wa nted some su gar, but I sai d sa lt. It was har d f or me to cha nge so I just w en t ah e ad. I neve r thought that c ould be the start of our c omm un ication! I tried to tell you th e truth manytime s in my lif e , but I was t oo afrai d to do that, as I ha ve pr om ised no t to lie to you f or a nything... Now I'm dying , I afrai d of no thing so I tell you th e truth, I don 't like the sa ltycoff ee , what a stra nge ba d tast e... But I ha ve ha d the sa lty coff ee f or my whole lif e! Since I kne w you, I neve r f eel sorry f or a nything I do f or you. Having you with me is mybigge st happi ne ss f or my whole lif e. If I can live f or the se cond time , sti ll want to kno w


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StoryBoy: Baby, w e need to ta lk. Gir l: Ricar do , what doe s u me an? Boy: Some thing has c ome up ... Gir l: What ? What's wr ong? Is it ba d?

Boy: I don 't wa nt to hurt y ou, baby . Gir l: *Thinks* Oh my God , I hope he doe snt br e ak up with me... I love him s o much . Boy: Baby, ar e you th e r e?? Gir l: Yeah, I' m he r e. What is s o importa nt??

Boy: I'm no t sur e if I should say it .. Gir l: Well, you a lr e a dy br ought it up, s o pleas e just t ell me. Boy: I'm lea ving... Gir l: Baby, what ar e u ta lking ab out?? I don 't wa n t you to lea ve me , I love you.

Boy: No t like that, I me an I'm mov ing far away . Gir l: Why? All of your fa mily live s ove r he r e.

Boy: Well, my fath e r is s end ing me away t o a b oar ding sch ool far away . Gir l: I ca n 't bel ieve this .

[FATHER : (Picks up th e o the r ph one , in te rrupts & y ells furious lyERICA!, what d id I tell you ab out ta lking to boys?!!!... Ge t off the damn ph one!!

Boy: Wow, your fath e r s ound s r e a lly ma d. Gir l: You kno w how he ge ts, but a nyways, I don t want you to go. Boy: Would you ru n away with me? Gir l: Baby, y ou kno w I would, I would do anything f or you, but I ca n 't... You don 't kno wwhat w ould happ en if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It's okay .. I unde rsta nd , I gue ss .. Gir l: *Thinking *I can 't believe what's go ing on. Boy: I need to give you s ome thing ton ight, b ecaus e I am leaving on f light 1-80 i n the mo r ning , s o I need to see you no w. Gir l: Okay, I wi ll s ne ak out & mee t you at th e park .

Boy: Okay, I' ll mee t you th e r e in 20 minute s . [The y mee t at a ne arby park, th e y bo th hu g each o the r . And he give she r a no te.]


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It says ... "Erica,You pr obab ly a lr e ady kno w that I' m lea ving , I kne w this w ould be be tte r if I wr ote a le tte r ex plaining the truth ab out h ow much I car e ab out you. The truth is, is that I neve r loved you, I hat ed you s o much, y ou ar e my b**** and don t you eve r f or ge t that . I neve r car ed ab out you, a nd neve r wa n ted to ta lk to you, a nd be ar ound you. You r e a lly ha ve no clue how much I hat e you. Now that I' m leaving I thought you sh ould kno w that I hat e you,b****. You neve r did the right thing , a nd you we r e neve r the r e. I d idn t think I could hat e someone as much as I hat e you. And I neve r wa nt to see you, f or the r e st of my lif e , I

will neve r miss kissi ng you like be f or e , I neve r wan t to cu ddle up, h ow we us ed to. I will no t miss y ou a nd that's a pr om ise. You neve r ha d my love , a nd I wan t you to r emem be r that . B****, you kee p this le tte r be caus e this may b e the last thi ng you ha ve fr om me. F***, I hate you s o much . I will no t ta lk to you s oon bitch ... Good bye. - Ricar do "

[ Erica b eg ins to cry, sh e thr ows th e pap e r in tha garba ge & crys f or hours ]

... A day pass e s, sh e is sa d, de pr e ss ed and sh e f eel s s o lonel y... Then sh e ge ts aph one ca ll.... Friend: How ar e you f eel ing? Gir l: I just ca nt believe this happ ened.. I thought h e loved me. Friend: Oh, ab out that . Ricar do le ft me a me ssa ge. A f e w days a go. He told me to tell you to loo k in your jack e t pocke t or s ome thing... Gir l: Umm.. Okay . [Sh e find s a pi e ce of pap e r in the jacke t,It says :"Baby I h ope you find this b e f or e you r e a d my le tte r . I kne w your da d might r e ad it, s o I switch ed a f e w wor ds ... Hat e = Love Neve r = Always B**** = Baby Wi ll no t= will .... I hope you didn 't tak e that s e rious ly be caus e I love you with a ll my he art, a nd it wasso har d to le t you go thats why I wa n ted you to run away with me... -Ricar do "] Gir l: Oh my God! It's a le tte r .. Ricar do doe s love me! He must ha ve s lipped it in to mypocke t when he hugged me. I ca n 't bel ieve how stupi d I am!! Friend: Okay but I g2g... Ca ll me lat e r . Gir l: *happy*okay, by e , I'll be at h ome waiting f or my baby t o ca ll me! ... Erica tur ns th e T.V. on...... [B r eak ing news] "An airp lane has crash ed. Ove r 47 y oung boys died , we ar e still se archi ng f or sur vivo rs ... This is a tra ged y we will neve r f or ge t; this p la ne was f light 1-80 ... it was on its way t o an a ll boys b oar ding sch ool... " the Re porte r says .


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StoryThe r e was this guy wh o bel ieved ve ry much i n true love and de cided to tak e his time to wait f or his ri ght gir l to app e ar . He bel ieved that th e r e would de finitely be someone sp e cia l out th e r e f or him, but none ca me.

Eve ry ye ar at Christ mas, his ex -gir lfriend would r e tur n fr om Vancouve r to look him up . He was awar e that sh e still held some hope of r e -kindl ing the past r om a nce with him. He d id no t wish t o mislead he r in any way . So he would a lways ge t one of his gir l friend sto pose as his st e ady wheneve r sh e ca me back . That w en t on f or s eve ra l ye ars a nd e ach y e ar, th e guy would ge t a diff e r en t gir l to pose as his r om a ntic inte r e st . So

wheneve r the ex -gir lfriend ca me to visit him, sh e would be led in to believ ing that it wasa ll ove r be tween he r a nd the guy. The gir l too k a ll those rath e r well, often trying to casua lly te as e him ab out his diff e r en t gir lfriend s, or s o , as it s eemed! In fact, th e gir l often we pt in se cr e t wheneve r sh e saw hi m with a no the r gir l, but sh e was t oo pr oud to a dm it it. Still, eve ry Christ mas, sh e r e tur ned , hoping to r e -kindle some f or m of r om a nce. But e ach ti me , sh e r e tur ned to Vancouve r f eel ing d isapp ointed.

Fina lly sh e de cided that sh e could no t play that game a ny longe r . The r e f or e , sh e

con fr on ted him and pr of e ss ed that aft e r a ll those ye ars, h e was sti ll the only man thatsh e ha d eve r loved. Although th e guy kne w of he r f eel ing s f or him, h e was sti ll taken back a nd ha ve neve r ex pe cted he r to r e act that way . He a lways th ought that sh e would s lowly f or ge t ab out him ove r time and come to te r ms that it was a ll ove r be tween them.

Although h e was t ouch ed by h e r und ying love f or him and wanted so much t o acc e pthe r a gain , h e r emem be r ed why h e r e je cted he r in the first p lac e -sh e was no t the one he wan ted. So he har dened his h e art a nd tur ned he r do wn cru elly. Since then , thr ee ye arsha ve pass ed a nd the gir l neve r r e tur n a nymo r e. The y neve r even wr o te to e ach o the r . The guy wen t on with his lif e..... still s e archi ng f or the one but s ome how dee p inside him, h e miss ed the gir l.

On the Christ mas of 1995, h e wen t to his friend 's party a lone. "He y, h ow come a ll a lone this y e ar ? Whe r e ar e a ll your gir lfriend s? What happ ened to that Va ncouve r bab e who

joins y ou eve ry Christ mas ? ", ask ed one of his friend. He f el t war m and com f orted by hisfriend 's qu e rie s ab out h e r, sti ll he just sur ged on. Then , he ca me up on one of his many gir lfriend s wh om he on ce r e qu e sted to pose ashis st e ady. He wanted so much t o igno r e he r ..... no t that h e was i mpolite , but b e caus e at that momen t, h e just d idn 't f eel com f ortab le with th ose gir lfriend s a nymo r e. It wasa lmo st like he was b e ing judged by th em. The g ir l saw hi m a nd sh outed acr oss th e f loo r f or him. Unab le to a vo id he r, h e wen t up t o ack no wledge he r .


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Be f or e he ca n con tinue , h e was i n te rrupted , "Oh y e s! Must ha ve f ound a gir lfriend! Youha ven 't been se archi ng f or one f or the past y ears, ri ght? " The man loo ked up, as if h e has struck gold , his fac e be amed and loo ked d ir e ctly at th e drunken gir l. He r e plied ,"Ye s ...... you ar e right! I ha ven 't been loo king f or a nyone f or the past y e ars ."With that, th e ma n dart ed acr oss th e f loo r a nd out th e doo r, leaving the la dy in muchbe wilde r men t. He fina lly r e a lized that h e has a lr ea dy f ound his dr e am gir l, a nd sh e was ..... the Va ncouve r gir l a ll a long! The drunken lady has sai d s ome thing that aw oken him.

All a long he has f ound his gir l. That was why h e did no t bo the r to look furthe r when he

r e a lized sh e was no t com ing back . It was no t a ny sp e cific gir l he was s ee king! It waspe rf e ction that h e wanted , a nd ye s ..... pe rf e ction!! Relation ship is s ome thing bo th parti e s sh ould work on. Re a lizing that h e ha d le t awaysomeone s o importa n t in his lif e , he de cided to ca ll he r immed iately. His wh ole mind was f looded with f e ar . He was afrai d that sh e might ha ve f ound someone ne w or no longe r ha d the sa me f eel ing s a nymo r e..... For on ce , h e f el t the f e ar of losing someone.

As it was Christ mas eve , th e line was quit e har d to ge t thr ough, e sp e cia lly a n ove rseas

ca ll. He tried again and a gain, neve r giving up . Fina lly, h e go t thr ough...... pr e cisely at1200 midn ight. He con f e ss ed his love f or he r a nd the g ir l was moved to te ars . It seemed that sh e neve r go t ove r him! Even afte r s o long , sh e was sti ll waiting f or him, neve r g iving up .

He was s o ex cited to mee t he r a nd to beg in his ne w chapt e r of the ir live s . He de cided to f ly to Vancouve r to jo in he r . It was th e happi e st time of the ir live s! But th e ir happy ti me was sh ort-lived. Two days b e f or e he was supp osed to f ly to Va ncouve r, h e r e ce ived aca ll fr om he r fath e r . Sh e ha d a h e a d-on car c ollision with a drunken drive r . Sh e pass ed away aft e r 6 h ours i n a c om a . The guy was dev astat ed , as it was a c om ple te loss . Why did fate play ed such cru el game s with hi m? He curs ed the he aven f or taking he r away fr om him, den ying even one last look at h e r ! How cru el he curs ed! How he damned the God s ...!! How he hat ed himsel f .... f or taking so long to r ea lize his mistak e!! That was i n 1996 .

The mo ra l of this st ory is : y Tr e asur e what y ou ha ve... y Time is too s low f or those who wait; y Too swift f or those who f e ar ; y Too long f or those who grie f ; y Too sh ort f or those who r e joice;


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StoryWhile Dad was p olishing his ne w car,

his 4 yr old son picked stone & scratch ed line s on the side of the car .

In his a nge r, Da d too k the child 's ha nd & hit it ma ny time s, no t

r e a lizing he was usi ng a wr en ch .

At th e hospita l, his chi ld sai d "Dad when will my finge rs gr ow back ? "

Da d was s o hurt .

He wen t back t o car a nd kicked it a lot of time s .

Sitting back h e loo ked at th e scratch e s, chi ld wr ote "I LOVE YOU DAD"

For a ll you out th e r e with s omeone sp e cia l in your h e art, ch e rish that p e rson ,ch e rish eve ry momen t that y ou sp end toge the r that sp e cia l someone , f or in lif e ,a nything ca n happ en anytime. You may pai nfully r eg r e t, onl y to r e a lise that it istoo lat e.

StoryOnce up on a time the r e was a n island , whe r e a ll the f eel ing s lived toge the r .

One day th e r e was a st or m in the se a a nd the island was ab out to ge t dr owned. Eve ry f eel ing was scar ed but Love made a b oat t o e scap e. Eve ry f eel ing boar ded the boat . Only 1 f eel ing was le ft. Love go t do wn see ing who it was ... It was EGO ...

Love tried a nd tried but ego was n 't mov ing a lso the wate r was risi ng. Eve ry one ask ed love to leave him a nd come in the boat, but love was ma de to love.

At last a ll the f eel ing s e scap e a nd Love die s with ego on the isla nd...


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StoryOne day a y oung man was sta nd ing in the middle of the town pr oclaiming that h e ha d the mo st b e autifu l he art in the whole va lley. A lar ge cr owd gath e r ed a nd the y a ll adm ir ed his h e art f or it was p e rf e ct. The r e wasno t a mark or a f law in it. Ye s, th e y a ll agr eed it truly was th e mo stbe autifu l heart th e y ha d eve r s een. The young man was ve ry pr oud and boast ed mo r e loudly ab out his b e autifu l he art . Su ddenl y, a n old man app e ar ed at th e fr on t of the cr owd a nd sai d, "Whyyour h e art is no t ne ar ly as b e autifu l as mine. "

The cr owd a nd the young ma n loo ked at th e old ma n 's h e art . It was b e ating str ongl y, but fu ll of scars, it ha d plac e s wh e r e pie ce s ha d been r emoved a nd othe r pie ce s put i n , but th e y didn 't fit quite right a nd the r e we r e s eve ra l jagged edge s . In fact, i n some plac e s th e r e we r e dee p go uge s wh e r e whole pie ce s w e r e missi ng. The peo ple star ed - how ca n he say his h e art is mo r e be autifu l, the ythought?

The young ma n loo ked at th e old ma n 's h e art a nd saw its stat e and lau ghed. "You must b e joking ," he sai d. "Com par e your h eart with mine ,mine is p e rf e ct a nd yours is a me ss of scars a nd te ars .""Ye s," sai d the old man , "Yours is p e rf e ct loo king but I would neve r tra de with you. You s ee , eve ry scar r e pr e s en ts a p e rson to whom I ha ve g iven my love - I tear out a pi e ce of my he art a nd give it to them , a nd often the y give me a pi e ce of the ir he art which fits i nto the em pty p lac e in my he art, but b e caus e the pie ce s ar en 't ex act, I ha ve some r ough edge s,which I ch e rish, b e caus e the y r em ind me of the love we shar ed. Some time s I ha ve given pie ce s of my he art away, a nd the othe r pe rson has n 't r e tur ned a pi e ce of his h e art t o me. The se ar e the em pty go uge sg iving love is taki ng a cha nce. Although th e se go uge s ar e painful,the y stay open , r em ind ing me of the love I ha ve f or the se peo ple too ,a nd I hope s omed ay th e y may r e tur n and fill the spac e I ha ve waiting. So no w do you s ee what tru e be auty is ? "

The young ma n stood silen tly with tears ru nn ing do wn his ch ee ks . He wa lked up t o the old man , r e ach ed into his p e rf e ct young and be autifu l he art, a nd ripped a pi e ce out. He off e r ed it to the old ma n withtr em bling ha nd s . The old ma n too k his off e ring , p lac ed it in his


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In the dark a nd lonel y night, h e lit his ci gar e tte and f el t the Linge ring ach e in his h e art . He couldn 't bring himsel f to adm it that h e Was missi ng he r .

One day, th e y fina lly me t at th e airport, a p lac e whe r e the r e we r e manyRe un ion s a nd good -bye s . He was go ing away on a busi ne ss trip .

Sh e was sta nd ing the r e a lone , with just th e security doo r s e parati ng Them. Sh e s miled at hi m gen tly. (b): How ar e you?

(g): I'm fine. How ab out you? Have you f ound your missing rib? (b): No. (g): I'll be f lying to Ne w York in the nex t f light. (b): I'll be back i n 2 wee ks ti me. Give me a ca ll when youar e back ...You kno w my numbe r ...no thing has cha nged.

With a s mile , sh e tur ned ar ound and waved good -bye.

Good -bye...

One wee k lat e r, h e he ar d of he r de ath . Sh e ha d pe rished in Ne w York. In The even t that sh ocked the wor ld. Midn ight, on ce again , he lit hisCigar e tte and like be f or e , he f el t the linge ring ach e in his h e art . He Fina lly kne w, sh e was th e missing rib that h e ha d car ele ss ly br oken.

Some time s, p eo ple say thi ng s out of momen ts of fury. Most often tha n No t, th e outcome could be disastr ous a nd de trimen ta l.

We ven t our frustrati on s 99% at our loved one s a nd even though we kno wThat w e ought to "think twice and act wis ely", it's often e asi e r sai d Tha n done.

Thing s happ en e ach day, many of which ar e be yond our c on tr ol.

Le t us tr e asur e eve ry momen t a nd eve ryone in our live s . Tomo rr ow mayNeve r come; give and acc e pt what y ou ha ve tod ay .


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What is love? When we claim that it's love that w e ha ve f or s omeone , ar e we corr e ct? Some thing to ponde r up on.....

Ar e your pa lms sw e aty, is y our h e art raci ng and is y our vo ice cau ght within your ch e st? It isn 't love , it's like.

You ca n 't kee p your e ye s or ha nd s off of them , a m I right? It isn 't love , it's lust .

Ar e you pr oud , a nd e a ge r to sh ow them off ? It isn 't love , it's luck .

Do you wa nt them be caus e you kno w the y'r e the r e? It isn 't love , it's lonel ine ss .

Ar e you th e r e be caus e it's what eve ryone wants? It isn 't love , it's loya lty.

Ar e you th e r e be caus e the y kiss ed you, or held your ha nd? It isn 't love , it's low con fiden ce.

Do you stay f or the ir con f e ssi on s of love , b e caus e you don 't wa n t to hurt th em? It isn 't love , it's pity .

Do you b elong to them be caus e the ir sight mak e s y our h e art skip a b e at?

It isn 't love , it's i nfatuati on.

Do you par don the ir fau lts b e caus e you car e ab out th em? It isn 't love , it's friend ship .

Do you tell them eve ry day th e y ar e the only one you thi nk of ? It isn 't love , it's a lie.

Ar e you willing to give a ll of your fa vourite thing s f or the ir sak e? It isn 't love , it's charity .

Doe s y our h e art ach e and br e ak wh en the y'r e sa d? Then it's love.


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Do you stay b e caus e a b lind ing , incom pr e hen sib le mix of pain and r elation pu llsyou c lose a nd hold s y ou th e r e? Then it's love.

Do you acc e pt th e ir faults b e caus e the y'r e a part of who the y ar e? Then it's love.

Ar e you attract ed to o the rs, but stay with th em faithfully without r eg r e t? Then it's love.

Would you a llow th em to lea ve you, no t b e caus e the y wa n t to but b e caus e the yha ve to? Then its love.

Would you give them your h e art, y our lif e , your de ath ? Then it's love.

Now, if love is pai nful, a nd tortur e s us s o , why do we love? Why is it a ll we

s e arch f or in lif e? This pai n , this a gon y? Why is it a ll we long f or ? This t ortur e ,this p owe rful de ath of self ? Why?

The answe r is s o simple caus e it's ...LOVE. It is such a n add iction that even peo ple who ar e no t ha ving it wish t o ex pe rien ce and shar e it with s omeone!

P O EM

If u loo k into the e ye s of the one u love ,u b lush . But if u loo k into the e ye s of the one u like ,u s mile. In fr on t of the one u love ,u tend to ge t shy . But in fr on t of the one u like ,u ca n sh ow ur own self . When the one u love is crying ,u cry with hi m. But wh en the one u like is crying ,u end up c om f orting him. The f eel ing of love starts fr om the e ye. But th e f eel ing of liking starts fr om the e ar . So if u st op liking a p e rson u us ed to like ,a ll uneed to do is c lose ur e ars .


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LOV E FR OM CHILDRE NS P OIN T O F VIEW

Love sh ows up i n a ll f or ms ; even in ve ry s ma ll and chee ky f or ms . It hasneve r been a model. It could be the dullest a nd mo st b oring f or m ...

Flowe rs, a nd r om a ntic momen ts ar e onl y us ed a nd app e ar on the surfac e of the r elation ship . Unde r a ll this, th e pillar of true love sta nd s ... ANDTHAT'S LIFE"Love is that first f eel ing you f eel be f or e a ll the ba d stuff ge ts in the way ."

"When my gra ndmo the r go t arthritis, sh e couldn 't b end ove r a nd pai n t h e r toen ails a nymo r e. So my grand fath e r doe s it f or he r a ll the time , even when his ha nd s go t arthritis t oo. That's love. "

"When someone love s y ou, th e way sh e says y our name is diff e r en t. Youkno w that y our name is saf e in he r mo uth ."

"Love is wh en a gir l puts on pe rfume a nd a b oy puts on sha ving cologne and the y go out a nd smell e ach othe r ."

"Love is wh en you go out to eat a nd g ive some bod y mo st of your fr en chfrie s with out making them g ive you a ny of the irs."

"Love is wh en someone hurts y ou. And you ge t s o ma d but y ou don 't yell at hi m be caus e you kno w it would hurt his f eel ing s ."

"Love is what make s y ou s mile when you'r e tir ed. "

"Love is wh en my momm y mak e s c off ee f or my dadd y a nd sh e tak e s a sipbe f or e giving it to him, to mak e sur e the tast e is OK ."Me an ing Of Love 1b"Love is wh en you kiss a ll the time. Then when you ge t tir ed of kissing ,you sti ll want to be toge the r a nd you ta lk mo r e. My momm y a nd da dd y ar e like that . The y loo k gr oss wh en the y kiss but th e y loo k happy a nd some time s th e y dance in the kitchen while kissing. "

"Love is what's i n the r oom with you at Christ mas if y ou st op open ing pr e sen ts a nd listen. "


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"Love is like a little old wom an a nd a little old ma n who ar e still friend seven afte r the y've kno w e ach othe r s o well."

"During my pia no r e cita l, I was on a sta ge and scar ed. I looked at a ll the peo ple watchi ng me a nd saw my dadd y wa ving a nd smiling. He was th e onl y one do ing that . I was n 't scar ed a nymo r e. "

"Love is-if you h old ha nd s a nd sit b e side each othe r in the caf e te ria. Thatme ans y ou'r e in love. Othe rwise , you ca n sit acr oss fr om e ach othe r a nd be okay ."

"My momm y love s me mo r e tha n anybod y. You don 't s ee a nyone else kissi ng me to s lee p at n ight."

"Love is wh en momm y give s dadd y the be st pi e ce of chicken. "

"Don 't f eel so ba d if you don 't ha ve a b oyfriend. The r e 's lots of stuff y ou

ca n do without one. ""Love is wh en momm y s ee s da dd y s mell y a nd swe aty a nd still says h e isha nd some r tha n Robe rt Red f or d. "

"If you wa nt s ome bod y to love you, th en just b e yours elf . Some peo ple tryto act like s ome bod y el se , s ome bod y the boy like s b e tte r . I think the boyisn 't b e ing ve ry good if he doe s this t o you a nd you sh ould just find a nice r

boy."

"Love is wh en your puppy licks y our fac e even afte r you le ft him a lone a ll day"

"When you'r e bor n a nd see your momm y f or the first time.

"Love is what make s p eo ple hide in the dark c or ne rs of mov ie the ate rs ."

"Love goe s on even when you st op br e athi ng a nd you pick up wh e r e youle ft off when you r e ach h e a ven. "

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ST O RYThis st ory tells us s ome thing ab out LOVE & LIFE.

My husba nd is S/W E ng inee r by pr of e ssi on , I love him f or his st e ady natur e and Ilove the war m f eel ing when I lea n against his br oa d sh oulde rs .

Two ye ars of courtship a nd no w, five ye ars i nto marria ge , I would ha ve to a dm it,that I a m ge tting tir ed of it. The r eas on s of me loving him be f or e , has no wtra nsf or med into the caus e of all my r e st less ne ss .

I am a s en timen ta l wom a n a nd ex tr emel y s en sitive when it come s t o ar elation ship a nd my f eel ing s . I ye ar n f or the r om a ntic momen ts, like a little gir l ye ar ning f or ca nd y. My husba nd is my com ple te opposite; his lack of sen sitivity,a nd the inabi lity of bring ing r om an tic momen ts in to our marria ge has

d ish eart ened me ab out LOVE. One day, I fina lly de cided to tell him my de cision , that I wa nted a divo rce.

"Why? " he ask ed , sh ocked.

"I am tir ed. The r e ar e no r e as on s f or eve rything in the wor ld !" I answe r ed.

He ke pt si len t the whole night, s eem ingl y in dee p th ought. My f eel ing of d isapp oin tmen t onl y incr eas ed. He r e was a man who was no t ab le to even ex pr e ss his pr ed ica men t, s o what el se could I ex pe ct fr om him?

And fina lly he ask ed me: "What ca n I do to cha nge your mind? "

Some bod y sai d it right... It's har d to cha nge a p e rs on 's p e rson a lity, a nd I gue ss, Iha ve start ed losing faith in him.

Loo king dee p into his e ye s I s lowly a nswe r ed: "He r e is th e qu e stion. If you ca n a nswe r a nd conv ince my he art, I wi ll cha nge my mind.

Le t's say, I wa nt a f lowe r locat ed on the face of a mo untain cliff, and we bo th ar e


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I woke up th e nex t mo r n ing to find him gone , a nd saw a pi e ce of pap e r with hisscratchy ha nd writing unde r ne ath a milk glass, on the d ining tab le ne ar th e fr on tdoo r, that goe s ....

My de ar, "I w ould no t pick that f lowe r f or you, but .... pleas e a llow me to ex plain the r e as on s furth e r ..... This first line was a lr ea dy br e aking my he art . I con tinued r e ading.

"When you us e the com put e r you a lways me ss up th e Softwar e pr og ra ms, a nd you cry i n fr on t of the scr een. I ha ve to sa ve my finge rs s o that I ca n help to r e stor e the pr og rams .

You a lways leave the hous e ke ys b e hind , thus I ha ve to sa ve my leg s t o rushhome to open the doo r f or you.

You love travel ing but a lways lose your way i n a ne w city. I ha ve to sa ve my e ye sto sh ow you th e way .

You a lways ha ve the cra mps wh eneve r your "good friend " appr oach e s eve rymon th. I ha ve to sa ve my pa lms s o that I ca n ca lm the cra mps i n your tu mm y.

You like to stay i ndoo rs, a nd I worry that y ou will be inf e cted by infantile autis m. Iha ve to sa ve my mo uth t o tell you joke s a nd storie s t o cur e your b or edom.

You a lways star e at th e com put e r, a nd that wi ll do no thing good f or your e ye s . Iha ve to sa ve my e ye s s o that wh en we gr ow old , I ca n help to clip your nails a nd

help to r emove those a nno ying white hairs . So I ca n a lso hold your ha nd while str olling do wn the be ach, as y ou en joy th e su nshi ne and the be autifu l sa nd... and tell you th e colo ur of f lowe rs, just like the colour of the glo w on your young face...

Thus, my de ar, u nle ss I a m sur e that th e r e is s omeone who love s y ou mo r e tha n I do... I could no t pick that f lowe r ye t, a nd die ... "

My te ars f ell on the le tte r, a nd blurr ed the ink of his ha nd writing. .. And as Icon tinue on r e ading... "Now, that y ou ha ve finish ed r e ading my a nswe r, a nd if you ar e satisfi ed , p leas e open the fr on t doo r f or I a m sta nd ing outsi de bring ing your fa vorite br e ad and fr e sh milk...

I rush ed to pu ll open the doo r, a nd saw his a nxious fac e , c lutchi ng tightly with his


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Story

Afte r 21 y e ars of marria ge , my wif e wan ted me to tak e a no the r wom an out to d inne r a nd a mov ie. Sh e sai d I love you but I k no w this o the r wom a n love s y oua nd would love to sp end some time with you.

The othe r wom an that my wif e wan ted me to visit was my MOTHER, wh o hasbeen a wido w f or 19 y e ars, but th e dem and s of my work a nd my thr ee childr en ha d ma de it possib le to visit he r only occasi on a lly.

That night I ca lled to inv ite he r to go out f or dinne r a nd a mov ie.

"What's wr ong , ar e you well," sh e ask ed? My mo the r is th e type of wom a n who susp e cts that a late n ight ca ll or a sur pris e inv itation is a si gn of ba d ne ws . "I thought that it w ould be pleasa n t to be with you," I r e sp onded. " Just th e two of us ."Sh e thought ab out it f or a momen t, a nd then sai d , " I would like that ve ry much ."

That Fri day aft e r work, as I dr ove ove r to pick h e r up I was a bit ne r vous . When Iarrived at h e r hous e , I no ticed t hat sh e , too , s eemed to be ne r vous ab out our date. Sh e waited in the doo r with he r coat on. Sh e ha d cur led he r hair a nd waswe aring the dr e ss that sh e ha d wor n to cele brat e he r last w edd ing a nn ive rsary . Sh e smiled fr om a fac e that was as ra dian t as a n a ngel 's . "I told my friend s that I was go ing to go out with my s on , a nd the y we r e impr e ss ed , "sh e sai d , as sh e go t in to the car . "The y ca n 't wait t o he ar ab out our mee ting ".

We wen t to a r e staura nt that, a lthough no t eleg a nt, was ve ry nice and cozy. Mymo the r too k my ar m as if sh e we r e the First La dy. Afte r we sat do wn ,I ha d to r ea d the men u. Lar ge print. Ha lf way thr ough th e en trie s, I lifted my e ye sa nd saw M om sitting the r e stari ng at me. A no sta lgic s mile was on he r lips . "It was I wh o us ed to ha ve to r e ad the men u wh en you we r e s ma ll," sh e sai d. "Then it's time that y ou r ela x a nd le t me r e tur n the favor," I r e sp onded. During the dinne r, we ha d a n agr ee ab le conve rsati on - no thing ex tra or dinary, butcatchi ng up on r e cen t even ts of each othe r's lif e. We ta lked so much that w e miss ed the mov ie.

As we arrived at h e r hous e late r, sh e sai d , "I'll go out with y ou a gain , but only if you le t me inv ite you." I agr eed. "How was y our dinne r date ? " ask ed my wif e when I go t home. "Ve ry n ice. Muchmo r e so tha n I could ha ve ima gined ," I answe r ed.


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At that momen t, I u nde rst ood the importa nce of sayi ng in time: " I LOV E Y OU !"a nd to give our loved one s th e time that th e y de se r ve. No thing in lif e is mo r e importa nt tha n God and your fa mily. Give them the time the y de se r ve , b e caus e the se thing s ca nno t be put off till "some o the r time.

Story A g ir l was sitti ng on a chair at th e gas stati on sh e worked at . Sh e loo ked up a nd saw h e r boyfriend wa lk in. As h e was loo king at s nacks, a ma n wa lked in a nd pointed a gun at h e r . He ha d been a dm iring he r ring he r boyfriend ha d given to he r as a t oken of his love. When he ask ed he r to give it to him, sh e sai d no. He r boyfriend loo ked up just i n time to s ee he r sh o t. He ran ove r to the killer a nd be athim ove r th e he a d with a ha mme r that was f or sa le. Then he ran and ca lled 911 . When the a mbu lance ca me , h e was s obbing uncon tr ollab ly ne ar his gir lfriend.

The do ctor ca me ove r a nd f el t f or h e r pu lse. Then he stood up a nd sai d sh e wasstill a live. Late r at th e hospita l, as h e was sitti ng be side he r, h e ask ed "Why didn 'tyou just give him the ring? " a nd then sh e softly sp oke "Be caus e when you gave it

to me , you sai d it was part of your love f or me and I kne w if I ga ve him the ring , Iwould lose that love. " The nex t day, sh e was pr ono unced de ad.

Story10th grade

As I sat th e r e in Engl ish c lass, I star ed at th e g ir l nex t to me. Sh e was mys o ca lled "be st friend ". I star ed at h e r long , si lky hair, a nd wish ed sh e was mine. But sh e didn 't no tice me like that, a nd I kne w it. Afte r c lass,

sh e wa lked up t o me a nd ask ed me f or the no te s sh e ha d miss ed the day b e f or e a nd ha nded them to he r . Sh e sai d "thanks" a nd ga ve me a kiss on the chee k. Iwanted to tell he r, I wa nt he r to kno w that I don 't wa n t to be just friend s,I love he r but I' m just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno w why .

11th grade The phone rang. On the othe r end , it was h e r . Sh e was i n te ars,mumbling on and on ab out h ow he r love ha d br oke he r heart . Sh e ask ed me to come ove r be caus e sh e d idn 't wa nt to be a lone , s o I did. As I sat nex t to he r on the sofa, I star ed at h e r s oft e ye s, wishi ng sh e was mine. Afte r 2hours, one Dr e w Barry mo r e mov ie , a nd thr ee ba gs of chips, sh e de cided to go to s lee p. Sh e looked at me , sai d "thanks" a nd ga ve me a kiss on the chee k. Iwant to tell he r, I wa n t he r to kno w that I don 't wa n t to be just friend s, Ilove he r but I' m just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno w why .


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with he r crysta l e ye s . I wan t he r to be mine , but sh e isn 't think of me like that, a nd I kno w it. Then sh e sai d "I had the be st time , tha nks !" and gave me a kiss on the chee k. I wan t to tell he r, I wa n t he r to kno w that I don 'twant to be just friend s, I love he r but I' m just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno wwhy.

' Gra duati on Day A day pass ed , th en a w ee k, th en a mon th . Be f or e I could blink, it was gra duati on day . I watch ed as h e r pe rf e ct b od y f loated like an a ngel up on sta ge to ge t he r diploma . I wan ted he r to be mine , but sh e d idn 't no tice me like that, a nd I kne w it. Be f or e eve ryone wen t home , sh e ca me to me in he r s mo ck a nd hat, a nd cried as I hu gged he r . Then sh e lifted he r he ad fr om my sh oulde r a nd sai d , "you'r e my be st friend , tha nks" a nd gave me a kiss on the chee k. I wan t to tell he r, I wa n t he r to kno w that I don 'twant to be just friend s, I love he r but I' m just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno wwhy.

A F e w Ye ars Lat e r Now I sit in the pe ws of the church . That gir l is ge tting

married no w. I watch ed he r say "I do " and drive off to he r ne w lif e , married to a no the r man. I wan ted he r to be mine , but sh e didn` t s ee me like that,a nd I kne w it. But b e f or e sh e dr ove away, sh e ca me to me and sai d "youca me! ". Sh e sai d "thanks" a nd kiss ed me on the ch ee k. I wan t to tell he r, Iwant he r to kno w that I don 't wa nt to be just friend s, I love he r but I' m

just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno w why .

Fu ne ra l Ye ars pass ed , I loo ked do wn at th e coffin of a gir l who us ed to be

my "be st friend ". At the s e r vice , the y r e ad a diary en try sh e ha d wr ote in he r high sch ool ye ars . This is what it r e a d: I star e at hi m wishing he wasmine , but h e doe sn 't no tice me like that, a nd I kno w it. I wan t to tell him,I wan t him to kno w that I don 't wa nt to be just friend s, I love him but I' m

just t oo shy, a nd I don 't kno w why . I wish h e would tell me he loved me! Iwish I d id too... I thought to my s el f, a nd I cried.

Story

A Sa d Love Story telling us no t to be afrai d of ex pr e ssi ng our F eel ing s .

I ha ve a b oyfriend who gr e w up with me. His na me is Ji n. I always th ought of him as a fri end un til last y e ar, wh en we wen t to a trip fr om a c lub . I f ound that I f ell in love with him. Be f or e tha trip was ove r, I too k a st e p a nd con f e ss ed my love f or


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No I a m go ing to mee t a friend

He was a lways like that . He me t g ir ls i n fr on t of me , like it was no thing. To him, Iwas just a gir lfriend. The wor d loveonl y ca me out fr om my mo uth . Since I kne whim, I ha d neve r he ar d him say I love you be f or e. To us, th e r e we r en t anya nn ive rsari e s at a ll. He didn t say a nything fr om the first day a nd it con tinued till 100 days200 days E ve ryday, b e f or e we say good bye , h e would just ha nd me a doll , eve ryday, with out fai l. I don t kno w why

Then one dayMe: Um, Ji n , I Jin: What don tdrag , just say .. Me: I love you. Jin: y ou .um, just tak e this doll and go home. That was h ow he igno r ed my thr ee wor ds and ha nded me the doll. Then he d isapp e ar ed , like he was ru nn ing away . The dolls I r e ce ived fr om him eve ryday,filled my r oom , one by one. The r e we r e ma ny

Then one day ca me , my 15th y e ar old birthday . When I go t up i n the mo r n ing , Ipictur ed a party with hi m, a nd stra nded mysel f in my r oom , waiting f or his ca ll. But lunch pass ed , dinne r pass ed a nd s oon the sky was dark h e still didn tca ll. It was a lr e ady tiring to loo k at th e ph one anymo r e. Then ar ound 2a m in the mo r ning , h e su ddenl y ca lled me a nd woke me fr om my s lee p. He told me to come out of the hous e. Still, I f el t joy a nd I ran out happi ly.

Me: Jin

Jin: He r e tak e this Again , he ha nded me a little doll. Me: Whats this ? Jin: I didn tgive it to you y e ste r day, s o I a m g iving it to you no w. Im go ing home no w, by e. Me: Wait, wait ! Do you kno w what t od ay is ? Jin: Tod ay? Huh ? I f el t s o sa d , I thought h e would r emem be r my birthday . He tur ned ar ound a nd wa lked away like no thing ha d happ en. Then I shouted Wait Jin: You ha ve some thing to say ? Me: Tell me , tell me you love me Jin: What ?! Me: Tell me


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That was what h e sai d. Then he ra n off . My leg s f el t numb a nd I collaps ed to the gr ound. He didn t want to say it e asi ly H ow could he . I f el t that Mayb e he is no t the right guy f or me

Afte r that day, I stra nded mysel f at h ome crying , just cryi ng. He didn t call me ,a lthough I was waiti ng. He just c on tinued ha nd ing me a little doll eve ry mo r ning outsi de my hous e. Thats h ow those dolls pi led up in my r oom eve ryday

Afte r a mon th, I go t mysel f toge the r a nd wen t to sch ool. But what made the pain r e surfac e was that I saw hi m on a str ee t with a no the r gir l H e ha d a s mile on his fac e , one that h e neve r sh owed me as h e touch ed the doll I ra n strai ght back h ome a nd loo ked at th e doll s i n my r oom , a nd te ars f ell Why did he gave the se to me Th ose doll s ar e pr obab ly picked out by s ome othe r g ir lsI n a fit of ange r, I thr e w the doll s ar ound. Then su ddenl y, th e ph one rang. Itwas hi m. He told me to come out to the bus st op outsi de my hous e. I tried to ca lm mysel f do wn a nd wa lked to the bus st op. I ke pt r em ind ing mys el f that I a m go ing to f or ge t him, that its go ing to end. Then he ca me in to my si ght, h old ing a bi g doll. Jin: Jo , I th ought you we r e piss ed , you r ea lly ca me? I couldn t help hati ng him, acti ng like no thing ha d happ en a nd joking ar ound.

Soon , h e held out th e doll as usua lMe: I don tneed it. Jin: What .whyI grabb ed the doll fr om his ha nd s a nd thr e w it on the r oad. Me: I don t need this doll , I don tneed it anymo r e!! I don t wan t to s ee a p e rs on like you a gain! I spitted out a ll the wor ds that w e r e inside me. But u nlike o the r days, his e ye sve ry shaki ng.

Im sorry He ap olog ized in a ti ny vo ice. He then wa lked ove r to the r oa d to pickup th e dollMe: You stupi d! Why ar e you picking up th e doll?! Just thr ow it away !!!

But h e igno r ed me and just w en t to pick th e doll. Then

Hon k~ Hon k~With a loud hon k, a bi g truck was h e a ding towar ds hi m.

Ji n! Move! Move away ! I sh outed But h e didn t he ar me , h e squatt ed do wn a nd picked up th e doll. Ji n, move! HONK~!! Boom! That s ound , s o te rrifying. Thats h ow he wen t away fr om me. Thats h ow he wen t away with out even open ing his e ye s t o say one wor d to me.


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One tw o thr ee That was h ow I start ed to count the doll sFour hu nd r ed and e ighty f our f our hu nd r ed a nd e ighty five It a ll ended with485 doll s . I then start ed to cry a gain , with a doll in my ar ms . I hugged it tightly, th en su ddenl y

I love you~, I love you~ I dr opp ed the doll s, sh ocked.

I .lo..ve y ou?? I picked up th e doll s a nd pr e ss ed its st om ach .

I love you~ I love you~ It ca nt be! I pr e ss ed a ll the doll s stom ach as it pi led on the side. I love you~ I love you~ I love you~ Those wor ds ca me out non -st op. I love you Why didn t I r e a lize that .Thathis h eart was a lways by my si de , pr ote cting me. Why didn t I r e a lize that h e love me this much I t oo k out th e doll unde r the bed a nd pr e ss ed its stom ach, that

was th e last doll , th e one that f ell on the r oad. It ha d his b lood stai n on it. The vo ice ca me out, th e on that I was missi ng s o much .

J oD o you kno w what t od ay is ? We ve been loving e ach othe r f or 486 days . Do you kno w what 486 is ? I couldn t say I love you . Um si nce I was t oo shy If you f or give me a nd take this doll , I will say that I love you eve ryday ti ll I die J o I love you

The te ars ca me f lowing out of me. Why ? Why? I ask ed god , why do I onl y kno wab out a ll this no w? He ca nt be by my side , but h e loved me until his lastminute

For that a nd f or that r e as on t o me it b e ca me coura ge t o live a b e autifu l lif e .

Story A wa y o f Lo ve

The r e was on ce this guy wh o is ve ry much i n love with his gir l. Thisr om an tic guy f olded 1,000 pi e ce s of pap e r-cra ne s as a gift to his gir l. Although, at that ti me he was just a s ma ll fry in his c om pa ny, his futur e doe sn 't s eemed too bright, th e y we r e ve ry happy t oge the r . Until one day,


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up his own com pa ny. You neve r fail until you st op trying one rainy day,while this guy was driving; he saw a n elde r ly coup le shari ng an umbr ellathe rain wa lking to some de stination. Even with the umbr ella, th e y we r e still dr en ched. It didn 't tak e him long to r e a lize those we r e his gir l's par en ts . With a h e art in ge tting backat th em , h e dr oved s lowly be side the coup le , wa n ting them to sp o t him in his luxury s ed a n. He wanted them to kno w that h e was n 't th e sa me a nymo r e; he ha d his own com pa ny, car, c om f ort e tc. He made it! Be f or e the guy ca n r e a lize , th e coup le was wa lking towar ds a c eme te ry, a nd he go t out of his car a nd f ollowed.... and he saw his gir l, a ph otog raph of he r s miling swee tly aseve r at hi m fr om he r tom bst one... and he saw his pap e r cra ne s b e side he r . Find time to r e a lize that th e r e is one pe rson who me a ns s o much t o you,

f or you might wak e up one mo r ning losing that p e rs on who you th ought me an tno thing to you He r par en ts saw hi m. He asks th em why ha d this happ ened. The y ex plained , sh e did no t lea ve f or Fra nce at a ll. Sh e was i ll with

ca nce r . Sh e ha d bel ieved that h e will mak e it somed ay, but sh e did no t wa n t to be

his obstac le ..... the r e f or e sh e ha d choo se to lea ve him ... Just b e caus e someone doe sn 't love you th e way y ou wa n t them to , doe sn 'tme an the y don 't love you with a ll the y ha ve Sh e ha d wanted he r par en ts t o put his pap e r cra ne s b e side he r, b e caus e , if the day c ome s wh en fate bring shim to he r a gain he ca n tak e some of those back with hi m ... Once you ha ve loved , you will a lways love. For what's i n your mind maye scap e but what's i n your h e art wi ll r em ain f or eve r The guy just w e pt ..... The worst way t o miss s omeone is to be sitting

rightbe side them kno wing you ca n 't ha ve them

StoryThe pass enge rs on the bus watch ed sympath e tica lly as th e attracti ve young wom a n with the white ca ne made he r way car e fullyup th e steps . Sh e paid the drive r a nd , usi ng he r ha nd s t o f eel the locati on of the s e ats,

wa lked do wn the ais le and f ound the se at h e 'd told he r was em pty. The n sh e 's s e ttled in , p lac ed he r brie fcas e on he r lap a nd r e sted he r ca ne a gainsthe r leg.

It ha d been a y e ar si nce Susa n be ca me blind. Due to a med ica l misdiagno sis


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neve r go ing to r e tur n. A cloud of de pr e ssi on hu ng ove r Susa n 's on ce optimisticspirit.

All sh e ha d to cling to was h e r husba nd Mark.

Mark was a n Air Force office r a nd he loved Susa n with a ll his h e art . When sh e first lost h e r sight, h e watch ed he r sink in to de spair a nd wasde te r mined to help his wif e gain the str eng th sh e needed to be come inde penden t a gain. Fina lly, Susa n f el t r e a dy to r e tur n to he r job, but h ow would sh e ge t the r e? Sh e us ed to take the bus, but was no w too frightened to ge t ar ound the city byhe rs elf . Mark voluntee r ed to drive he r to work e ach day, even though th e yworked at opp osite end s of the city.

At first, this c om f orted Susa n a nd fulfilled Mark's need to pr ote ct his si ghtle ss wif e who was s o inse cur e ab out p e rf or ming the s lighte st task . Soon , h oweve r Mark r e a lized that this arra ngemen t was n 't working - it washe ctic, a nd cost ly.

Susa n is go ing to ha ve to start taki ng the bus a gain , h e a dm itted to hims el f . But just th e thought of men tion ing it to he r ma de him cringe. Sh e was sti ll so fragile , s o ang ry. How would sh e r e act ? Just as Mark pr ed icted ,Susa n was h orrified at th e ide a of taking the bus a gain. "I'm blind!" sh e r e sp onded bitte r ly. "How a m I supp osed to kno w whe r e I'm go ing? I f eel like you'r e aba ndon ing me. "Mark's h e art br oke but h e kne w what ha d to be done.

He pr om ised Susa n that e ach day h e would ride the bus with h e r un til sh e go t the ha ng of it. And that is ex act ly what happ ened. For two solid wee ks, Mark, military u nif or m a nd a ll,acc om pa n ied Susa n to a nd fr om work e ach day . He tau ght h e r how to r ely on he r o the r s en se s t o de te r mine whe r e sh e was a nd

how to a dapt t o he r ne w env ir onmen t. He helped he r be friend the bus drive rs wh o could watch out f or he r,

a nd sa ve he r a s e at . Each mo r ning the y ma de the jour ne y toge the r,a nd Mark would take a cab back t o his office.

Although this r outine was even mo r e cost ly a nd ex hausti ng tha n the pr ev iousone ,


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What do you think we r e the f our wor ds?

The husba nd just sai d "I Love You Dar ling "

The husba nd 's t o ta lly unex pe cted r e acti on is pr oacti ve beha vior . The child isde a d. He ca n neve r b e br ought back t o lif e. The r e is no point in find ing fau lt withthe mo the r . Be side s, if onl y h e ha ve taken time to kee p th e bottle away, this wi ll no t ha ve happ ened. No point in attachi ng blame. Sh e ha d a lso lost h e r onl y chi ld. What sh e needed atthat momen t was c on solation and sympathy fr om the husba nd. That is what h e gave he r .

Some time s w e sp end time aski ng who is r e sp on sib le or who to bla me , wh e the r in a r elation ship, i n a job or with th e peo ple we kno w. We miss out s ome war mth in hu ma n r elation ship i n giving each o the r supp ort. Afte r a ll, sh ouldn 't f or giving s omeone we love be the e asi e st thi ng in the wor ld to do? Tr e asur e what y ouha ve. Don 't multiply pai n , a ng uish a nd suff e ring by h old ing on to f or givene ss .

If eve ryone ca n look at lif e with this ki nd of pe rsp e ctive , the r e would be muchf e we r pr oblem s in the wor ld.

Tak e off all your env ie s, je a lousie s, u nwillingne ss t o f or give , s elfishne ss, a nd f e ars a nd you will find thing s ar e actua lly no t as difficult as y ou think.

Story A sparr ow was i n love with white r ose.

one fine day th e sparr ow pr oposed tha whit e r ose. the white r os e told he r that wh en he tur ns r ed he 'll love he r . then sparr ow tor e he r bod y a nd s lowly spr ea d he r blood on the white r ose the r ose tur ned r ed a nd f el in love but th e sparr ow was no mo r e. Cry

Only on ce in your lif e , I tru ly b elieve , you find someone who ca n com ple tely tur n your wor ld ar ound.

You tell them thing s that y ou've neve r shar ed with a no the r soul and the y abs orbeve rything you say a nd actua lly wan t to he ar mo r e.

You shar e hope s f or the futur e , dr ea ms that wi ll neve r come true , go a ls that w e r e neve r achi eved a nd the ma ny d isapp oin tmen ts lif e has thr own at y ou.


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Neve r do the y hurt y our f eel ing s or mak e you f eel like you ar e no t good eno ugh,but rath e r the y bui ld you up a nd sh ow you th e thing s ab out yours elf that mak e you sp e cia l a nd even be autifu l.

The r e is neve r a ny pr e ssur e , je a lousy or com pe tition but only a qui e t ca lmne ss wh en the y ar e ar ound.

You ca n be yours elf and no t worry ab out what th e y will think of you b e caus e the ylove you f or who you ar e.

The thing s that s eem insign ificant to mo st p eo ple such as a no te , s ong or wa lkbe come inva luab le tr e asur e s k e pt saf e in your h e art t o che rish f or eve r .

Memo rie s of your chi ldhood come back a nd ar e

pain unknown-tanmay shimpi

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