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Sara Sutterlin is a Montreal based published writer and poet. Sutterlin has curated and edited a poetry anthology, WHAT KIND OF TROUBLE? which features 34 women writers (payhip.com/b/xDo6) and was published both in print and digitally. Sutterlin also makes and publishes zines; HARVEST SPOONS is a collaborative zine with essays on the importance of solidarity between women/female friendships (available on etsy) and PISSY BABY is a collection of poems and is available via LETTERS FROM BUMMER CAMP DISTRO. You can find more of Sutterlin's work here: http://sorryexcuseforsorry.tumblr.com

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PISSY BABY is a collection of poetry by sara sutterlin

thank you to BARBORA TOGEL for all RI�WKH�DUW�ZRUN�LQ�WKLV�]LQH��\RX�FDQ�¿QG�more of her amazing art here: barborato-gel.tumblr.com

you can reach sara sutterlin at [email protected] or visit her website at sor-ryexcuseforsorry.tumblr.com

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