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Positionality Paper Draft
Identity is a mischievous term. It can refer to the identity that others see me as, which is
brought about when I am presented in specific situations and contexts. On the other hand, there
is my own inner identity that is formed by my own mind, constructed by my own life events and
experiences. In many ways, these two sorts of identities can be merged together, as one will,
without a doubt, influence the other. Identities can be thrown onto me, they can be ones that I
make and wear, or they can be the ones that I have chosen to wear out of all the ones that have
been given to me. Out of those three, the two that are chosen by my own decision are the ones
that I would like to share, as I regard them as the identities that I hope to display and emit in my
life.
One of the first identities that I have been given is my ethnic background and culture.
Born into a Cantonese Chinese family on both my maternal and paternal sides, I naturally grew
up learning a developing the identity of being Chinese and holding to the values and traditions
that have been passed down to my parents through their own lineage. Still, I wear my ethnic
identity fairly casually; I do not flaunt that I am Chinese, nor do I truly spend much time
indulging and investigating in the culture. Nevertheless, it has come to be a part of who I am and
how I interact with others. My closest friends, for the most part, are similar in background to
me, as it is easy to bond over the similar upbringings and struggles that we experienced in our
families and cultures. With large extended on both of my parents’ sides, I also have many
international connections, which has been both a blessing and a curse. It allows for me to easily
ask or make contact with specific areas of the world, but it has also made it difficult to really
develop any close familial bonds with those outside my immediate family.
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I am also an only child, which is an identity less readily visible to the outside world.
Whether or not my reserved personally is a result of this, I have grown up being very okay with
being solitary with my time. Spending time with others is never the default activity throughout
my day, and it is much easier for me to listen than it is to speak. Though these traits on their own
are not entirely bad, it is detrimental if I only develop these characteristics and not the ones on
the other end of the spectrum. To be an educator, there will be moments where the knowledge of
listening and solitary reflection is valuable, but there will be just as many moments where it is
essential to be well-versed at creating relationships and understanding how to establish human
connections.
Another identity that has been given to me without much of my own say is my sex and
gender. Some may disagree with me and claim that gender is something that a person grows
into, but I firmly hold the belief that people are provided with gender at birth, and how that
person chooses to respond to that gender role is his or her choice.
For both my familial background and gender identity, stereotype exist and can easily
become harmful in my own development of positionality. I have been fortunate enough to not be
the victim of any serious stereotypical assaults, but even just going to a public school system has
exposed me to struggles and questions about how I should be treating these identities that are
not, per se, ones that I chose for myself. It has not been particularly difficult for me to break my
own stereotypes, and I often find that I am comfortable doing the things that others will not tend
towards. I have found that this is quite an essential trait to have in teaching, as there are so many
situations where it is vital to be willing to step out of your comfort zone and create an
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environment that can cater to the students’ learning. The difficulty for me has never been to
leave the comfort zone, but to know what exactly to do after leaving that zone.
There are plenty of other identities that I have taken on that were not given directly to me,
but of all of them, the most important is my identity as a Christian. The entirety of my value
system and all the choices I develop are a result of my faith and that truths that it holds to. My
end goal of even pursuing music and education is to be able to reach others in that field about the
good news that is offered in the Bible and to hopefully shed some light of the important things
that are to be considered during this lifetime.
My identity as a musician could be said to have been thrown at me from birth, as I know
my mother already had plans to provide me with piano lessons, but I did not truly embrace the
musician role until my high school years. This was definitely an identity that the majority of my
peers labeled me as, and no one was surprised at all when I made the switch from the sciences
into the music field during the middle of my college career.
Up until that switch in college, however, my development as a musician has primarily
been in performing music. As a child, I was trained to practice well and to perform well, but
never received much chance to learn how to teach well. My experience as both a pianist and a
cellist has provided me with a glimpse at two different worlds of music, and these two realms
have definitely shaped my perspective and identity as a musician. As a pianist, I learned about
musical theory and the foundations of harmony. As a cellist, I explored my first large ensemble
and discovered a love for chamber music that spilled right back into my piano playing.
Interestingly enough, Pellegrino (2006) found that “although preservice band teachers and those
students with classroom teaching experience had a more realistic view of the teaching profession,
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string players were identified as having a particularly strong professional performer identity
rather than either a musician or music educator identity.” I have definitely felt that same
experience and tendency to lean toward the profession performer identity, and it was not until I
looked more into education that I began to see the necessity and benefits of nurturing an identity
as an educator.
I began my venture into education during my third year as an undergraduate, and it
opened up an entirely new view on what music is and what it can be, and I found an interest in
developing myself in my ability to teach and share what I have learned in my musical
experiences. However, teaching is not something that comes entirely naturally to me; even
pursuing education is a step out of my comfort zone. I do hope to continue working to establish
my role as a teacher, and I aim to continue learning from each moment and person I encounter.
Because I grew up in an incredibly privileged and sheltered environment, it is easy for me
to forget about the variety of backgrounds that exist for other students and colleagues. At the
same time, it is never helpful to simply make assumptions about a student based purely on the
words provided by forms and paperwork. As an educator, I want to be constantly building a
relationship with each of the students I encounter, and through that relationship, figure out the
best form of assisting that student in learning and harnessing the class material. Each student has
his or her own personal story, and it is up to the educator to become familiar enough with that
story to instantly react to a scenario. This role is already a challenge with one student, but an
educator will need to work with groups of students at once, and when all things are considered,
the task of a teacher is an amazingly high calling.
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The development of my positionality is not one that is soon to end, and as I grow to live
through more experiences, I will learn more of myself, of others, and of how I hope to present
myself as a teacher to the public eye. As Pellegrino (2006) discovered, “identity can be defined
as fluid, dynamic, evolving, situated, layered, and constructed individually, socially, and
culturally. However, using theoretical frameworks and/or methodologies that capture preservice
and in-service music teachers’ identities as snapshots frozen in time while attempting to
represent the changing nature of identities is problematic.” There is never going to be that exact
snapshot moment that will define my identity, but it is definitely important to be taking those
snapshots throughout life in order that I may learn and grow from each of them.
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Sources
Pellegrino, K. (2009). Connections Between Performer and Teacher Identities in MusicTeachers: Setting an Agenda for Research. Journal of Music Teacher Education, 19(1), 39-55.