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My mother, Princess Dewa Nimbo, would come and visit me at my foster parents home from time to time disguising as a relative. Sometimes, she would bring me to live with her for one or two weeks. When I was in India, she would write to me. When I entered Gaden Monastery in India, she wrote to tell me that she had separated from her husband and was struggling to put herself through a PhD and raising her kids. She told me that if I have problems, I should see her Guru, Sogpu Rinpoche in Nepal, for help and she would send me money when she finished her studies.
During my stay in Gaden, I was once invited by Sogpu Rinpoche Guru Deva to go and see him in Nepal immediately. It was a sudden request and I did not have any money to travel at that time. I conveyed the news to my Guru, Lati Rinpoche and Lati Rinpoche instructed me to go immediately and lent me the money needed for the trip.
When I arrived at Sogpu Rinpoches Ladrang, my birth father happened to be visiting Sogpu Rinpoche at that time. I had never met my father before that time. My father had already been told by Sogpu Rinpoche of my visit. When I was finally introduced to my father by Sogpu Rinpoche, my father was shaking and crying, smoking and hiding behind a cigarette.
At that time I knew in my heart that it was for real. That Tibetan man was really my father. The first thing my father said to me was, Please forgive me, I am sorry, and took the money he was carrying with him, about 5,000 rupees and gave it to me. I used the money given by my father to pay back the money I borrowed from my Guru when I went back to Gaden. Sogpu Rinpoche was the one that introduced me to my father for the first time in my life. He asked me to forgive my father. I did.
Upon returning to Gaden, I happily wrote a letter to my mother, explaining everything that had taken place in Sogpu Ladrang. My mother denied knowing my father. She said, that old man in Taiwan, I dont know who he is, and told me that she had no relations with him. She also said that if I want a relationship with him, I would have no relationship with her.
My mother severed all contact with me since. Until now I have no contact with my mom or her two sons. She cut off. She is very unhappy with my dad. I understand. But I do wish they could know that I was there child and I deserved love and care also.
This picture was taken at our family home in New Jersey. I am here pictured with my cousins. Left to right Sarah, Sonia Waskin, Susie, myself. Back row: Sonia Tatinow and Ben.
I grew up with my foster cousins. Here is Diana and Darlene. One of my cousins, Sara said that among Mongolians, they all knew I was royalty and they called me Noyen Cuven meaning royal son. They knew who I was and who my mother was, but all had to stay hush hush.
Eventually, the opposition to my Dharma practice became so severe to the extent that my foster mother began spreading very derogatory rumours about my Guru, Kensur Lobsang Tharchin Rinpoche. When I was in 4th to 5th grade, I started having thoughts of suicide and runaway attempts. I attempted suicide twice praying to Manjushri to let me take a new rebirth if I cannot practice Dharma in this life but both attempts were unsuccessful.
I ran away from home three times and was successful on my third attempt where I ended up in Thubten Dhargye Ling in Los Angeles and meeting my next Guru, Geshe Tsultrim Gyeltsen. I stayed and worked in the centre for 8 years until I left America for good for Gaden. It was in this centre that I met my root Guru, H.H. Kyabje Zong Rinpoche. Zong Rinpoche is the guru of Geshe Tsultrim Gyeltsen.
Me with my cousin Susan Carton in Howell, New Jersey. She use to babysit me as a child and take me for games, rides, amusement parks, arcades, eating, roller skating. She and I were very close. She was the sister I never had and I was so proud of her. Click on map above to see the route I took to run away from New Jersey to Los Angeles for Dharma. I was successful on my 3rd runaway attempt. This is the route I took across the United States From New Jersey to New York to Los Angeles, California. In Los Angeles, I worked and lived at Thubten Dhargye Ling (TDL) Dharma Centre until I went to India in 1987.
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