sagedom (with cover)
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Dweeb Culture presents Sagedom!Find out about CoolsBear, The 3 and the crisis they go through.TRANSCRIPT
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Sagedom
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“I promise this is as dark as it’ll ever get.”
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PART I
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The Enemy.
To The Sage From The Cool
He looks for it sometimes
The Bear
He looks for the pain
The hurt
And I know he knows it’s bad
That it’ll hurt us
It’s like he’s addicted to it
Addicted to the hurt
Why
Why is he like this?
Why can’t he see?
How can we know better and he still have such a hold over us…
Misery is not ours
We must leave it.
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Unreal.
To The Bear from The Sage
Will you worry about actions you haven’t seen?
Actions that haven’t happened?
How?
Why would you do that to us?
Why must we hurt over abstract things?
Things that don’t exist.
I die from fantasizes
Nightmares
Unreal things.
Attacking myself from the inside
No...
This must stop.
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Another Way.
To The Sage from The Cool
I thought
Maybe
I could fix everything he breaks
Every problem he brings up
Find a cure for it.
But they keep coming
Every time we win
He’ll find something else
or bring something back
This is not how we’ll beat him
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Rebel.
To The Bear from The Sage
I will not let you destroy us
I will save us
I will save myself
Every time you complain
Or whine
Or try to lead us into the dark
I will break you
I will crush you
I will be happy
I will not live a miserable life
That is not my lot
And if that’s what you want
Then I will lock you up
Somewhere deep in my mind.
With time, you will not affect
Me
Your childish chattering
Your provocations
Your hate
Your bullshit excuses
They will not rouse me
I will transcend this
I will evolve
You will not infect my life
Your blight ends here
And if you manifest yourself in
My children’s children
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They will only destroy you
Faster than I did
And I will
I will destroy you.
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Monster.
To The Sage from The Bear
Doesn’t it feel like you’re screaming
To a mountain,
Telling it to move.
Screaming.
Over and Over again..
Haha.
Your lies
The lies you tell yourself
That you can
“Transcend” this.
Please…
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Devil.
To The Sage from The Cool
He tells me the worst things
The Bear
He’s so eloquent
And smooth
I only ever catch myself listening to
Him
Never able
To recall when he began.
He tells only the darkest things
Unreal things
But he wants us to dwell in them.
I can fight it most times
But sometimes I’m weak
And he wins
And when he wins
All I can do is die
Die
Until he stops.
How it feels when I’m dying
I haven’t the words
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Believe.
From The Sage
I will save us.
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Breath.
To The Sage From The Cool
Where is
My
Oxygen
Why am I
Being
Denied
My Oxygen.
Let me breath
I want to breath
How do I
Breath
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Hope.
To The Cool from The Sage
Stop fighting it
We should acknowledge
That
We are in a state
Of Disarray
We need each other
The 3 of us
But we lack harmony
The Bear is at fault
But so are you and I
This isn’t a war.
It’s an adjustment
Some sort of process
A re-alignment.
I remember a time before this
When things were..
Better.
Before introspection
Before opinions.
But I believe
This is necessary
We must be
Broken
Beaten
Torn
Crushed
To be rebuilt, Stronger;
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Like a muscle.
This is not a wrong turn
We are going the right way.
At least, I hope so.
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Falling.
To The Sage from The Cool
I’m falling again
I can feel
A darkness
Enveloping a part of us
I’m not sure I wanna fight it
Have you noticed?
Only when we
Fall
Out of sync
That is the only time the 3 of us
Exist.
In harmony, it is only CoolsBear
I think his existence is too good
Too peaceful
He can’t sustain it.
But I can only talk through the pain
If I can call it that.
Is The Bear responsible for all this?
Is this a curse?
Is this crisis vain?
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Anguish.
To The Sage From The Cool
I don’t
Want to see
The dark
Anymore
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Push.
From The Sage
I am weary
Oh
Or am I?
I am not sure
But I cannot give in
I cannot falter
I must push on
No matter the feeling
No matter the screams and shouts
From The Bear
No matter the victimhood that has
Found The Cool
Or my own, the pain of my own thoughts
No matter, I must push on
Or it will win
The dark side
Of all of us
This collective evil
Whose only goal is to destroy us.
I must push on
The two will follow eventually
I know it.
We must find our Self
We must find CoolsBear.
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Bea..
From CoolsBear
The self is dying
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PART II
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Dismay.
From The Bear
I want to pull out my hair
I want to erase any trace of my
Weirdness
I want to disappear
I want out of my head
Out of myself
I am the only one inside
The only audience
Watching a show that has not the words
To describe it
It’s an agony and despair that I want none of
But it takes me
Now and again
Consumes me
Cripples me
And I don’t know how to escape it
I don’t know what causes it
It eats me up when I’m alone
But I despise the company of others,
I foster an environment ideal for my own destruction.
Am I crazy now? Can I stop this?
What caused it? Have I always been like this?
Will I spend every waking moment battling this madness?
Trying to keep my cool, trying to seem normal..
My existence is excruciating.
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Breaking Point.
From The Bear
Why do I feel like this
Anguish
I don’t know where it stems from
I don’t know what to cut off
I don’t know
Save me
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Crisis.
To The Sage from The Cool
What’s this feeling?
It’s uncomfortable
In my chest
And then all over..
When I try to find the cause
It gets worse.
I wanna scream
Maybe
If I had a place to just
Scream.
Why?
Why do I feel like this?
So awkward
So uncomfortable
Like I don’t fit in
No matter how hard I try
I’m not a natural at “normal”
Always out of the loop
Always out of sync with the rest of the world.
If I am aware of anything
At any moment
It is that I do not fully understand
What anyone is saying.
Are all these feelings made up?
Am I worse than The Bear?
Will I be what ultimately destroys us?
Am I killing us?
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Dear God…
How can I not be this
How can I not be me…
What am I?
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Crashing.
To The Sage From The Cool
I think
I’m crashing.
Confused
So confused.
I don’t know
What He wants
He leaves me
Lost.
How
How do I deal with Him
How do I even describe Him.
And why
Do I feel so much?
Do you feel this way?
Does everything hurt for you too?
No reason
For no reason.
Help.
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Pain.
To The Sage From The Cool
Embrace it?
I can’t embrace the pain
It’s hot
So hot
It burns.
I can only
Acknowledge it
Be aware of it
And not fight it,
But I can’t embrace it
I can’t touch it
I hate it
I want it gone
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The Darkest Place.
From The Bear
Hell,
I’ve been there;
The feeling
I can’t describe
But it envelopes you
Your entire existence
You can’t escape
You can’t breathe.
Like drowning
But everyone around you
Is breathing just fine
So you’re not making any sense
No one gets it
No one sees it.
What do you do with that?
What?
Ugh
Why am I asking you
You wouldn’t know, you’ve never been there
Have you?
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Sensitive.
To The Sage From The Cool
Why do I
Feel.
Why do I
Feel so much.
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iScream.
From The Bear
I want to scream
I want to scream
I want to scream
I want to scream
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Real.
To The Bear From The Cool
But how must I manage
To deal
With You
And
All the intricacies of our real life.
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Reason.
From The Sage
It’s either
I let this pain
And madness
Eat my soul
Or I exploit it
Express it.
And maybe eventually it’ll stop.
Maybe…
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Monster II.
To The Cool From The Bear
No one is coming to save you
You’re all alone
This work you do
No one cares
Not really
No one thinks of it as much as you do
No one gets it.
All your efforts
Their pointless
Your madness
It’s yours
It’s yours and yours alone to deal with.
Now feel that, feel that despair
It’ll consume you
You think it’ll kill you?
No
You will only suffer.
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Weary.
To The Bear to The Sage
Weary
I am weary
Of running from you
Of fighting you
Of being you
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Futile Resistance.
From The Sage
I
I find the answers
But once we interact with other
People
It all fails
It all fails..
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Shine.
From The Bear to The Sage
I’m sure you’ve realized it
By now
I’m stronger than the both of you,
Bigger.
I’m important!
How unlucky for you.
I’ll always be the obstacle you have to work around.
But I will tell you Sage,
What is asked of me is like
Trying to hide the sun in my pocket,
It can’t be done
I can’t be contained..
I will shine
Ignore me all you want
I will shine.
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Defeat.
From The Cool
Somebody
Somebody turn it off
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Surrender.
To The Cool from The Sage
And so
There is no way
No way out of the mind
We Cannot
Escape
This suffering that we inflict
On ourselves.
Let us begin to accept it
Let our mind do what it wants to do
Let us not spend any bit of energy
Trying to fight The Bear
Let us instead use all our power to
Cultivate the best thoughts when we can
When WE think, let us be happy and grateful
When it is The Bears turn
Then let us be sad.
And if this sadness reflects on the surface
Well, that is natural, why should it be any other way?
Let us be sad when The Bear wills it.
Perhaps it is when we try to fight it,
That is when we become
Angry
Irrational
And make the worst decisions.
Does this sound like madness?
Haha, it must
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But oh
How tired I am
Tired of fighting myself.
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Beast.
To The Sage From The Bear
Tell me
Sage
Is this transcendence
Or
Have you simply failed to face our
Humanity
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Resilient.
To The Bear From The Sage
You
Are crushing me
But I won’t
I won’t give in
Without a fight
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Satori?
To The Sage from The Cool
But
We’ve seen the light
We’ve been to the surface
We’ve breathed
As CoolsBear.
So why
Why
Now and then
Am I still here?
Why can I still hear the Bear?
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Surrender II.
From The Sage to The Cool
This is where we are right Now
Confused
Imperfect
Indecisive
Insecure
Paranoid
Lazy
Detached
Depressed
Angry
Sad
Self-destructive
Blah
Blah
Blah
Not okay
This is not okay
But
This is where we are right Now.
Do you understand?
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Beautiful..
From CoolsBear
The self is dying
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PART III
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Monster III.
To The Cool & The Sage From The Bear
Can’t you see!
We’ve been wronged!
We don’t belong here
In this world
We’re strange
We’re odd.
I feel
So much
So sensitive
I feel!
We’ve been screwed
We can’t be like the others
Do what they do
Think how they think
Live how they live
But we want to
Don’t we.
I won’t ever let you forget
How strange we are.
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Last ditch.
From The Bear
Thos two
They don’t know
They don’t Feel like I do.
You can’t swallow all these emotions
You can’t
They possess you
Leave you in a trance
And by the time you wake up
It’s too late.
You’ve broken things
Things you love
I don’t want this!
But I can’t help it..
So I will crash everything
The universe will pay
If I can’t have happiness
No one will..
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Faith.
To The Cool From The Sage
Come now
We will be fine
We will learn
To hear him
Less and less
Every day.
A tiny bit
Every day.
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Ego Death.
To The Sage From The Cool
Maybe
It is you
That must unhear us
And then
Unhear yourself.
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Surrender III.
From The Sage
Truly
This must be
The only way;
Acceptance.
We do not win this
By fighting it
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Love.
To The Bear From The Cool
I
Used to hate
You
But I realize
This is your
Nature.
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Beautiful Death.
From CoolsBear
The self is dying
The walls are cracking
An inner demolition
An inner shading
The death of some
Premature Phoenix.
Let it die
Let it die
Let the self die,
The false self
Let it die.
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From Me to The Reader
So this is what I had to do to keep from killing myself.
Lol nah I’m too squeamish for that.
I called it Sagedom because I think all the mental turmoil can force someone to seek wisdom and find it (become a Sage), once they can
accept that drugs, alcohol, fake love, sex, compulsive internet use, and whatever distraction won’t help.
All that pressure, if you let it, can make a diamond. I think, or maybe I really am just crazy.
Well in case you haven’t figured it out, the 3 are different versions of the same mind and CoolsBear (Coolsagebear – TheCoolTheSageTheBear) is a state of harmony, when the 3 fall in sync, cause in a way I don’t
think one can actually exist without any of them, even The Bear, everything in moderation right?
So the three, on their own are a false self.
Now the 3 never exist at the same time, a mind is only ever the bear or the sage or the cool. That’s why they write letters to each other, cause they can’t really come face to face. However, they still are
one, doesn’t The Sage sometimes sound like The Bear? The Cool like The Sage? The Bear like The Cool?
You’re in Bear mode when you’re doing something self destructive even though you know you shouldn’t be doing it, or when you’re possessed by
a feeling like lust or anger.
Sage mode is your voice of reason; ultimately there’s always that little voice in your head that knows what to do, even if you
procrastinate by trying to seek advice or something, ultimately when it comes to your soul you always know what to do, well I think so
anyway.
So what’s The Cool? Your purity, your sensitive side, that part of you that’s impacted the most by your actions.
Now CoolsBear. CoolsBear is a big deal, that’s like Jesus level, Buddha level, whatever you wanna call it. Mastery of the mind. I think we all reach that level now and then, but it’s pretty hard sustain.
Anyway you take what you want form this. This is MY interpretation by the way, maybe the 3 and CoolsBear mean something else for you.
Thank you for reading :)
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