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Satan's eyes

She has taken over me for a period of time,

It's because I forgot He, who created me

how is it that I neglectyet He saves me even after this moment I die

I let her take over and put my morals aside.

I looked into his eyes, "fiery" he cried,

resembling that which.. could be our destination.

Because of her he'd bother me each time,

he told me my undivided attention would keep him alive

does he not care that I have already died?

Who is there to love?

When between us, she would intercede

she'd get into my mind

Creating moments of lust.

UmmatulMuslimeen,

what would they say?

On that day with him who taught us the way.He (Allah) won't even look at me, oh the disgust!

The deen I demeaned,

a representation so it seemed.

A hijab I wore but beneath it I was unclean,

I looked ugly it didn't sit right

It never did,

with my clothes so tight and my tongue so foul.

That's when it loosened,

yet again she intervened

I was with him once more.

Months later a done deed

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on these white sheets,

a sin I conceived

no mother nor man to hold my hand.

until this day, I'm alonewatching the sin

as he spreads his bastardly disease

And she's not here for reassurance

neither is he,

they loved each other,

just used me to plant a seed.

The seed, confused, angry, growing into a fragile tree.

With his roots embedded in ungodliness

he curses me, "because of you no daughter of the righteous will look at

me!"

Alone again, so dirty, so cheap

awaiting for those white faces

to send the letter enclosed with "a question for the dead"

If only I had looked away, that day

Or even lowered my gaze.

No son would I have left behind,

With no lesson or guide.

I'm 6 feet under the soil.

Too late for regrets

my heart tightens,

I can't breathe,

my soul torn away.

"If only I could repent one more day!"

waiting for the day of turmoil..

I wake up.

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It's just a dream,

tears run down my cheeks.

Trembling as I wash from head to feet.

I pray and return to my bed,Allah on my mind, dhikr in my chest

I could have died but,

"It's a test".

He Has given me another chance.

I swear to remain chaste and slay the devil that wishes to lead me

astray.

Next time I'm possessed with Satan's eyes.

I'll remember to lower my gazeorI'm destined with her in eternal flames.