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    QUIET LIGHTNING IS:

    a monthly submission-based reading serieswith 2 stipulations:

    1. you have to commit to the date to submit

    2. you only get up to 8 minutes

    [email protected]

    subscribe 1 year + 12 issues + 12 showsfor $100

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    sparkle+ blink 57

    2014 Quiet Lightning

    artwork Daniel Moralesdmorales.mayayo.com

    book design byj. brandon lobergset in Absara

    Promotional rights only.

    This book, or parts thereof, may not be reproduced in any formwithout permission from individual authors.

    The scanning, uploading, and distribution of this book via theinternet or any other means without the permission of the

    author(s) is illegal.

    Your support is crucial and appreciated.

    quietlightning.org

    submit@quietl ightning.org

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    CONTENTS

    curated by

    Caroline Kessler & Evan Karp

    featured artistDaniel Morales

    RAUL RUIZ Call it a Blue Field 1

    BARUCH

    PORRAS-HERNANDEZ The Time Machine

    Was a Record Player 5

    The Time Machine Was a Song 6

    The Time Machine Broke 7

    Brown Crinkly Death Cries 9

    ADAM MOSKOWITZ Going to See Anna 11

    BRIELLE BRILLIANT Say a Man is a

    Confessing Animal 19

    GINGER BUSWELL A Discography for South

    American Temperaments 21

    ARTIE MOFFA Some Assembly Required 23

    MONETA GOLDSMITH Calling All Writers 27

    WILLIAM TAYLOR JR. Blowing Up 31

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    QUIETL

    IGHTNINGISSPONSORED

    BY

    l a g u n i t a s. c o m

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    QUIET LIGHTNING

    A 501(c)3, the primary objective and purpose of Quiet

    Lightning is to foster a community based on literary

    expression and to provide an arena for said expression. QL

    produces a monthly, submission-based reading series on

    the first Monday of every month, of which these books

    (sparkle+ blink) are verbatim transcripts.

    Formed as a nonprofit in July 2011, the board of QL is

    currently:

    Evan Karp founder + president

    Chris Cole managing director

    Josey Lee public relationsMeghan Thornton treasurer

    Kristen Kramer chair

    Sarah Ciston director of books

    Katie Wheeler-Dubin director of films

    Kelsey Schimmelman acting secretary

    Sidney Stretz &Laura Cern Melo

    art directors

    Rose Linke &RJ Ingram

    outreach directors

    Sarah Maria Griffin &Ceri Bevan

    directors of special operations

    If you live in the Bay Area and are interested in

    helpingon any levelplease send us a line:

    evan@quiet l ightning .org

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    1

    RA U L RU IZ

    CALLITABLUEFIELD

    These are the bursts, transient and jellyfishy

    from my heart, which sometimes isnt so much a heart

    as it is a blank book, and the blank pages therein(like with any book) are bent on the eyes of others

    for the sloppy lines and words blurry or misspelled

    or who knows maybe just too small

    (do you know, as everybody else knows, that

    the eyes are the active ingredient in Glue

    and the Ampersand)

    hey, ask me, whats the beautiful thing about each life,

    the truly beautiful

    Ask me, and I will make some toothy noise

    about whats that outside the window

    and is it for us?

    *

    I can feel the helium in my heart sometimes beginningto wane, I am writing this all down because even I,

    55 and fingers all weird (see how thin? Look!)

    believe that yes the next tree is waiting for its fruits

    to come, and what we know and have known all

    our lives

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    2

    is the breathing of Life

    the garlicbreathing of a deafening

    kiss

    Look, and if Im prosaic with the aftertaste of helium

    and other reminders, its just Im as stubborn about

    the innocenceof what constitutes a kiss

    (and here I am kissing you and knocking on the

    windows

    of heaven, all Lost, cmon press your lips to the page

    and hear the racquet I bring with me everywhere)

    *

    Ive got this theory about the theory of

    Everything

    The Everything is a two minute song

    and someone is playing the drums with

    fingers all crooked

    Im working out the kinks but also

    Im absolutely one hundred percent (100%)sure that the words to the song

    are of a color

    and a windless breath

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    RAUL RUIZ 3

    *

    This whole story (I must tell you, for I

    likewise cant stomach a narrator

    who dicks around his lonely readers)

    revolves around this time I got on a plane

    to go to New York, and my saddest toothwas waiting for me somewhere

    this close to the sky, I became aware

    that I was a somewhat broken stem

    and I was young and my breath was of coffee

    and the world was a field and my flower

    could give nothing, is the best way I can say it

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    5

    BA

    RU CH P

    O RRA S - H ERNAND

    EZTHETIMEMACHINE

    WASARECORDPLAYER

    the time machine does not matter what matters is the wolf eyesglowing that came and took my father away. I knew the blades in

    flight jaws would almost cut him in two when the mouth came down

    he bent down, knew he could not escape. I ran. failed. father 8 years

    old slathered in Niva cream hand reaching out crying for the

    stranger from the future for help. but I could do nothing froze as

    the hairy behemoth whose mouth a gaping entrance to a black fireworld dragged my father away.

    I ran after it, but its towering legs leaped over Tolucan buildings their

    glass teeth reach up towards the beast but only slice open my fathers

    child belly blood fluttering from his body drops kissing dust

    my tiny feet kick up dirt trip hit the ground hard enough to rattle

    my lungs. when I traveled back in time I arrived no longer an adult

    I too was 8 years old same size as my father.

    I followed the trail of dust covered rubies on the ground block after

    block past schools past parks pick each small red jewel up

    and burst them on my skin like bugs till passing people point and say -

    look, on your chest, you heart has torn itself apart and is now

    reaching out like a star with five pointy arms. -but it is not my blood-

    I say, - it is not my blood.

    I was supposed to save him.

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    6

    THE TIME MACHINE WAS A SONG

    the journey was slow seasick skipped my mothers hands reached

    up fingers first thing I saw she called out for more humming harder

    I came through the ceiling and so it was my mother face ghostly

    against the rest of the teenage Mexicans sees me on the floor Im 17

    same age as her she sees my clothes laughs like a queen disco ball

    halo dress mint green the people swaying mermaids in the music

    around my mother dont pay attention as she helps me up I know

    my father is somewhere else in the discotca getting a Jarrto for

    himself a Sidral for her I pull her away from the dance floor

    we go outside I tell her everything Me my brother my father

    the rest. all of it all it took was an hour.

    the time machine does not matter

    what matters is that after I was done she left my father at the bar

    walked all the way home past los portales packed her bags kissed

    her parents each on the forehead her sisters her brothers without

    saying goodbye and left. left. never returned to Mexico never

    tried to teach my father to dance never kept a knife under her pillow

    I never heard her sing she never spoke a word of English.

    she reached Paris in a year. her paintings never sold for too much

    while she lived but her novels sold well her poetry collection won

    several awards she was happy till she broke her promiseI said never go to America

    never let your feet touch the water near the Golden Gate Bridge

    but they did, they touched the city the sand, the steel of the bridge

    her heart fell in love with the cold green water of the bay,

    I was supposed to save her.

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    though she left my father in Mexico I didnt cease to exist.

    I was stranded for years in the 1970s read her books every night

    before closing my eyes, and then one day I listened to her favorite

    song the one that brought me to the past and I disappeared.

    woke up in my present nose bleeding everywhere

    the books didnt make it back.

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    THE TIME MACHINE BROKE

    it didnt work I made the same mistake

    twice this time time erased my thoughts I think maybe

    my memories jumbled somehow but I know I came to fixsomething that broke made it worst. all of this is wrong. all

    this is not my life this was not supposed to be the time machine

    was a slide this time? no the time machine was

    a video game? no a blanket? no a drawing? no

    it was a mirror? I cant remember I tried so many ways

    to get back but remained stranded stuck horrificknowing you should not do, then do, still I collected plums

    that fall from trees in the Berkeley hills where rich gringos live

    still walked my brother into the forest smashed

    each plumb onto his clean white shirt over and over and over

    until it bruised his small chest until my hands formed into pits

    sunk into the black purples and reds

    but he came back my brother with me down the hills

    leaving magenta footprints on the soft gray sidewalks of Albany

    at home we ate dinner in front of the small white television

    my mother slowly cuts a fig in two

    places it into my fathers mouth

    no sacrifice could save us.

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    BROWN CRINKLY DEATH CRIES

    I was in 4thgrade

    and obsessed with death.

    My teacher, tired of me starting each day withWhy should I learn anything? Were all

    just going to die, anyway.-tells me

    to take time to watch the leaves fall

    says it would clear my mind

    help give me some answers.

    I tried it

    watching leaves fall.

    All I saw, were fucking leaves,

    falling.

    So I started giving them

    their own individual death cries.

    No dear god! I had so much more to give!

    A leaf would scream as it slowly

    fell from a tree.

    I regret nothing!

    Goodbye cruel world!!

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    Celia, I never loved you!

    I heard all the whisperings and kissesbetween you and that leaf from the other branch

    I ll never forgive you

    with my last brown crinkly breath

    I curse you!

    I never liked making leafs crunch under my feet.

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    A

    D AM M O S KOW IT

    ZGOING

    TOSEEANNA

    Dels friends are over at our house. They order pizzas

    and Pete laughs and says, Lets give his bro a slice.

    No way, says Del.

    Cmon, says Pete. Pete has a Boston hat on and hair

    wings sticking out. He has this plastic bag full of

    brown and green and white things and hes putting

    them all over the pizza like toppings. Hell love it.

    Pete says, Mushroom pizza little man, and gives me

    a slice. He turns back to this Jean-Claude Van Damme

    movie. Del grabs the plate and starts taking most of

    the things off of the pizza and his friends groan. He

    leaves one topping on but they eat their slices with

    lots of them. The pizza topping was gross like it was

    a bunch of dirty chalk. Im watching the Jean-Claude

    Van Damme movie and the music gets going while

    Jean-Claude Van Damme starts getting attacked by

    all these people and it looks like thats gonna be it for

    him but its not and then he starts to punch and kickand win.

    I have this major feeling in my gut. Like Igrow a

    brand new gut. The new gut makes me stand up

    on my feet fast. Like my new gut released all this

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    helium inside and my belly is this volcanic helium

    balloon and the only reason I dont float up like a

    balloon is because my feet feel like they have theseroots stuck in the floor even though everything is

    rising. I take this massive breath like its the first

    breath of my life. I look at everything in the room.

    An envelope, a lamp, a wire, beer bottles, pizza, the

    oily inner pizza box, and the sticky, stained floor.

    Each thing is a creature living in this living room.The room is a jungle and everything is part liquid. I

    take another big life breath again. Dels friends shift

    around and theyre all looking at me, chewing. It

    smells like dirty couch and pizza. Birds chirp like

    theyre from a world thats alive. I have a new name

    everyone, I say. Pete stops chewing.

    Oh shit, says Pete. Andy shaves his head and has a

    tattoo of the number sixty-nine on the back of it. He

    says, Your bro is bonkers.

    Do you all want to know my new name? I say.

    Fuck, whispers Del.

    I realize I dont actually have a new name. The room

    is gross and crawling all over me. I have to leave,

    I say. I look down unsure if I can move my feet. Iremember the helium and I hope that undoing my

    feet from the ground wont blast me through the

    ceiling. I take another breath and a step and things

    might be OK. Then its like I have new limbs that are

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    better than before, oiled and strong. The birds are

    going big time. I bound outside. The world looks like

    it was just born living entirely in our front yard. I amstanding in it. It feels like my brain has dripped into

    my body. I can feel everything anyone in the world

    has ever learned about science in one moment. I learn

    what a moment is. Its not what I thought it was. Its

    way cooler.

    Pete, Andy, and Del have followed me out. They are

    studying me. Theyre careful and serious and they all

    come around me and I get down on my knees in the

    grass and dig each finger into the moistness feeling

    for something dark. I think your bros a hobbit, says

    Pete.

    Shut the fuck up, says Del. I told you not to

    give him any. The boys fold their arms and smack

    mosquitos. They look like theyre thinking about

    Jean-Claude Van Damme. You OK Everett?

    I am fucking amazing, I say. Wind blows through

    this one tree we have. The tree looks like it wants

    the wind. The skin on my head wants the wind too.

    The trees bark has all these ridges. I put my fingers

    between some of them.

    Somethings wrong, whispers Del. He never cursed

    in his life.

    I can hear you, I say. Nothings wrong.

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    Woah, says Pete. I put my palm on the tree. Its scary

    for a second like the tree is sending roots into my arm

    and the roots go deep into the middle of me.

    Yeah, says Andy. Woah.

    Shut up, says Del. Even though its a little scary I

    put the other palm on the tree too. The other side of

    me fills with the roots too and meets the ones thatwent in first and theyre all connected now. The tree

    roots in me start to wiggle around like they want to

    go down to my feet and plant me in the ground or

    something. Del turns to me. What the hell are you

    doing to that tree?

    Somethings seriously going on. I bet this things gone

    on for a long time but Im just figuring it out like

    those kids in The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

    Except they didnt accidentally take illegal drugs. I

    think the tree is doing something to me. I dont know

    what that is. It might be something related to biology,or spirits, or both. I dont know but you should come

    over here and put your hands on this tree, I say. Pete

    goes,

    Dont run into the street little man.

    Does he look like hes about to go run into the street?

    says Del. Hes got his hands stuck to a tree.

    I think I am feeling science, I say. Do you want to try?

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    The weirdest thing of all happens. I hear something

    but I swear its not with my ears. Its from the tree. Or

    maybe all the trees, ever. Do you hear that? I say.

    What are you going to do? says Del. I see that Del

    is not going to stop talking to me. I see that I have

    to stop doing this thing. This has to come to an end.

    I have to part ways with the tree. I hope it doesnt

    mind. I get ready. I mumble some sound to the treethat I hope it knows means something like love. I

    press it more and I take my hands off the tree. The

    tree and its ridges and its leaves and branches and the

    wind and the ground are back to normal, no longer

    some live, humming mystery.

    Be out here, I say. I like it here. Del looks away. I

    feel like were all in a balloon. One big balloon. Its

    everywhere and everyones in it and that tree in

    our yard knows everything about me. Annas in the

    balloon too. Were together.

    My knees shake.Anna has maroon paint on her

    fingernails and the paint is chipping off. She has a

    nose ring and it doesnt look stupid since you cant

    see the part of the ring inside her nose. Her hair looks

    like her nails and it looks like its wet even though

    maybe its not. Its the color of that storm on Jupiterfrom those planet posters in science. Shiny, orangey

    red waves slide down her face like decorations.

    Theres an earring. A silver leaf thing that swings like

    a wind chime.

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    I have to go see her. I dont care what Del said. This is

    the whole big balloon thing were talking about. This

    is not just someone Im going to ask to the dance. Imean that would be great and all. It would be really

    nice to dance with her. But Id rather do that in the

    woods or something. Although I dont know how Id

    get music out in the woods. Maybe we can dance in

    the woods without music. Thats what this is about.

    Dancing with Anna in the woods without music.

    I have to go see Anna, I say.

    Bad idea, says Del.

    Great idea, I say. Heres the thing. Maybe for the firsttime ever something awesome will happen between

    me and a girl. Sometimes when Im deciding if a girl

    is pretty or not I look at their hands and fingers and

    fingernails. Sometimes you see ladies in stores with

    perfect hands and polished nails and sometimes you

    see girls with fingers that are round and you can tellthey bite their nails. Sometimes you see a girl like

    Anna who has these hands shaped like something

    from geometry with slender fingers and nails that

    are not perfect but theyre there and not bitten off.

    Annas skin looks very smooth. It would be awesome

    if big things happened with Anna some day but itwould also blow my mind if she took my hand with

    one of her pretty hands.

    Whos Anna? says Pete.

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    The love of my life, I say.

    Del, says Pete. Maybe we should take him to go seeAnna,

    Jesus Christ, says Del.

    Get your keys, I say.

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    BR I E

    L L E B R I L L IA N

    T

    SAYAMANISACONFESSINGANIMAL

    If you walk along the shadow, you will find a crack.In this crack lives a tiny frog.

    The frogs name is Pete.

    Pete

    I live in a crack next to a shadow.

    PeteIm not a frog.

    Pete.

    I just saw a dead mouse. It jumped.

    Pete

    Re-elect me. Im not a frog.

    PeteI live in a crack next to a shadow.

    Pete

    I water myself daily.

    Pete

    Baking in the bacon of my soul.

    PeteOnce I was a gambler but now Im just a rambler.

    Pete

    2301 Royale.

    Pete

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    Windchime windchime windchime

    Pete

    You think youre special? You think youre so fuckingspecial?

    Pete

    I am a

    Pete

    I am a

    PeteLittle animal.

    Pete

    I am a

    Pete

    I am a

    PeteConfessing animal.

    Pete

    I am a

    Pete

    I am a

    Pete Pete Pete Pete Pete

    A man a frog who lived in a crack next to a shadow

    where people stared.

    Wondered how a man a frog could live in a crack next

    to a shadow.

    Dear Dear Dear, Dearest, I said, he cant. Hes dead.

    And I am a confessing animal.

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    Murray had it but it got lost in the other 300,000

    records. Maybe he never had it. Maybe it wasnt 1948

    and it doesnt exist at all, I just got the year wrong, ormy dad made up the year, or forgot, or both.

    Maybe its ok. Maybe theres something vital in all

    this disappointment, these archival misadventures,

    something alive and irretrievable that graces us with

    loss. Maybe this is what they mean by saudade. Iwalked by Music Man Murrays door on my way to

    the train station three blocks from my house, and the

    door was open, so I stopped to take another look at

    those stacks of records, and instead I found out that

    Murray passed away seven months ago and I didnt

    know, even though I live three blocks away, and Imet Emile and he told me Murrays records are in

    Brazilit took two weeks to get them all out of the

    warehouseand Emile is bored because he finished

    his bucket list too early, and he thinks I should go to

    Hawaii, Id like it there, and maybe Ill go to Brazil

    and find Murrays records and then it will be alrightthat he died seven months ago and I didnt know, and

    Ill have a record to help me remember, even if I dont

    find it, even if its the wrong one.

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    III.

    IKEA Alan Wrench!

    What. The. ACTUAL. Fuck?

    IV

    To the many small tragedies of the human condition,

    add how rarely we are able to choose what we are

    good at. Im good at telling stories. I know exactly

    where the parts should go, the perfect functionality

    of form. I dont recommend you sit on my poems, butif you did, my poems would bear your weight. Im not

    good at assembling furniture. If you think I chose

    my talents wisely, consider the checkout line at your

    local poetry store. Compare it to the checkout line at

    your local IKEA.

    The cruelty is: if I had the mechanical aptitude to

    assemble this sideboard, I would probably have the

    income to buy my furniture someplace better.

    V

    I had been divorced for two months when a friend

    Id known for years called me at 7 oclock on a Friday

    night to ask if I could come help rotate the tires

    on her car. We lay side by side on her driveway, the

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    asphalt radiating back the residual heat of the day.

    I held the flashlight while she tightened the bolts,

    and we made each other laugh with stories of ourworkweeks. When I tell stories, I know exactly where

    the parts should go. During a lull in the conversation,

    I asked her why we were doing this NOW, why the

    car tires couldnt wait until daylight. She replied that

    she was hoping to drive to New York to spend the

    night at her boyfriends house.

    Well, why doesnt he just drive up here instead?

    Because long drives put him in a bad mood. We end

    up arguing all night, and I really want to get laid this

    weekend.

    When her car was road-worthy, we wiped our greasy

    hands on newsprint, and she drove me back to my

    place. As I waved goodnight, she gave me a strange,

    quiet smile before she drove off. I dont know what

    language she smiled in, but I know for sure it wasntungendered pictogram. You see, every female friend

    who hears this story tells me What a kind favor.

    What a good friendship. And every male friend who

    hears this story tells me What. The. ACTUAL. Fuck?

    VI

    Im 35 years old now. I shouldnt have so much

    unscheduled time on a Monday afternoon to put

    together crappy furniture. If the worst thing that has

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    ever happened to you isnt all that bad, it is still the

    worst thing that has ever happened to you. Tautology

    makes for good comedy. It makes for weak poetry. Itmakes for terrifying reality. I dont know what to do

    with that part of this story.

    VII

    IKEA Sideboard!

    IKEA Sideboard, I had wanted this to go differently.

    I had hoped, with time, my days would be worthy of

    songs. If only I had a better sense of directions.

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    WI LL

    I A M T A YL OR JR .

    BLOWINGUP

    He gave my poems back to me and said,

    these are okay, man, but theres a bitterness in them.

    Bitterness wont get you anywhere in life.

    Okay, I said, thanks.

    Its simple, he said, you get out of life what you put

    into it,

    everybody gets exactly what they deserve, see?

    I didnt find that notion particularly

    plausible or comforting, but I let him go on.

    Lifes a game, he said, you either get rich

    or you eat shit and die, its as simple as that.

    Id never thought of it in exactly that way,

    but I figured he must know something

    because he was 29 years old,

    edited a magazineand had a pretty wife and a big house

    in Mexico.

    I came from nothing, he said,

    I used to starve in little rooms for years

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    living on tap water and stale bread.

    But I worked, man, I worked round the clock

    and look at me now, Im gonna blow up real soon.

    I wasnt quite sure if blowing up meant

    becoming really famous or going on a killing spree

    but Im assuming he meant the former.

    When I blow up, he continued,Im not gonna be greedy about it.

    I just wanna inspire people

    and piss off my haters,

    use their energy to fuel my greatness.

    Ill be free while they work their shitty

    20 dollar an hour jobs for the rest of their lives.

    I wanted to ask him about those 20 dollar an hour jobs

    and how I might get one, but he went on:

    Anyway, he said, poetry isnt the way to go.

    It doesnt pay and the only way youll get famousis if you rap it, you know, hip hop style.

    Well, I thought, shit.

    Me, he said, I get paid 40 cents a word for writing

    bullshit.Memoirs, restaurant reviews, anything but poetry, man.

    You just need to learn how things work!

    But dont worry, man, you can make it, too.

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    You just have to work hard every day,

    and you can make it, too.

    Write at least 2000 words every day!

    It was four o clock on a Sunday afternoon

    and all Id accomplished thus far

    was drink four cups of coffee,

    fuck around on Facebook and take a bath.

    Real writers, he said, they figure out

    the way things work and write all day

    and all night until they blow up!

    I thought about the writers I knew

    and I dont think many of them understoodmuch about the way things worked.

    Most of them spent as much time

    in bars and jails and nuthouses

    as they did writing,

    but I guess they werent the real writers

    he was talking about.

    They didnt get paid 40 cents a word

    and I guess most of them would eventually

    just end up eating shit and dying.

    But they were beautiful in their way.

    They had strange light in their eyes

    and sometimes said wise and funny things

    that stayed with me through the lonely hours.

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    Anyway, he said, Ive wasted enough time with you,

    Im gonna go get some real writing done

    and if youre smart youll do the same.

    Ive often had issues with smart,

    and ended up having a beer and another bath

    while pondering things a bit.

    Thinking about how it all workedjust made me tired, so I took a nap

    and when I got up I wrote another poem.

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