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FOReWORD

Toms Kros The Big Chapel (1971) s n mortnt nov,

rck stor, n nr stor. as n s nur s, t o

n ts nov v tr om trm t woudnt b fu t

s wt t t mrns. T r not of t cntr, of t con-

snsus. But t r not mrnsd o: t mrns r

tr cntr. and t nbt t mrns bcus, s Dns

Donou ss, t mrns s t c for tos fns nd

ntutons tt d f dosnt v c for nd most sms

to surss. and t most mortnt ntuton s of mstr. Or,

s Fnnr OConnor sd, Fcton s concrnd wt mstr

tt s vd; t utmt mstr s w fnd t mbodd n t

concrt word of sns xrnc.

and nowThe Big Chapels cnc to com bck to fu f

ftr trt rs of cts. T Rd prst w tundr n.

T b c w b dscrtd. T Mstr w b fd. and

t mstr f of ts o, ttd nd bffd b n uns

just tt bt bond tr comrnson nd contro, w unfod

n s f for t frst tm. and t nov w b ccmd nd

rndd n. But wt w k t rmnnt vt w b t

rsons t voks onc mor from ts stonsd nd rtfu

rdrs.

BRiaN FRiel


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T town d no vr rmrkb stor bfor ts. Ts ws t

tm from wc ts o woud msur ts , not wt t

sm msurmnt of rs, c wt ts bnc of bd uck

nd rosrt, ood rvst nd bd wntr. instd t woud

s: Wsnt tt t wntr of t troub ovr t B C?

Or: Ddnt s ftr v nd n t row ovr t rst? isnt

t brd of c burnr? Ts, tou t B C

d not bn burnd, sm unroofd durn t rotn n t

town. as t rs ssd dts k ts bcm vu nd unst-

td. T stor turnd nd twstd wt c tn nd ts s

robm.

Or t mt s of dskd mn n t town wo d bn

tod b msfortun: Wsnt tt fows ftr btsd b t

Rd prst bov n t B C, sur ow coud s knd v

ds uck.

it v mnn to t c n t bnnn, ts troub, t

v mnn to t vs of mn fms nd ftrs ssd on

tr nc to t rst (or s nms) to tr sons but tn,

s t rs ssd, ts nr dd n t c k t on

out nd t town rsd nto tmssnss. Tm bn to ss

wtout muc snfcnc on w or notr. Motrs bn to

d wt d nd from tr sons, usn tr usbnds

to snc or wsrd f-stors of t trrb vnts to tr


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dutrs. T womn wound u t mttr btwn tm n

scrt ordn. in ubc t o bcm furtv bout t

bfor strnrs, rock-fcd bfor t qustons (Wsnt t r

tt t rst . . . ?) nd t must v bn bout ts tm tt tc ot ts bd rutton mon trvrs n t count.

Wn t rots wr bd t town ost ts busnss. T

nt d nd cd on t sos of h Strt, tt crz

strcs of dffrnt sd budns u t sd of t st ;

nsd n t tunnn drknss bnd t countrs t towns-

o urkd, wt tr dust, f-mt svs, tr boxs,

tr cts. But wn t rots stod busnss cm bck bttrtn vr. Tt ws wn t knw t d btn m, wn

t sw tt crcuton of mon com bck ovr t countrs,

k bood, w wtrd w n t ddtd rsbtr.

T sw tr nw rosrt k sn from t amt.

yt vn trt rs ftr t rst msf d dd frmr

ws kd b trown stons n t town nd t sd t ws t

od bttrnss.But tt s w nto t futur. T rsnt s t r 1871

nd t rs foown. lt us s btwn 1871 nd 1883 wn

t rst dd n t om of s sstr n Nwtown.

it bn k ts. T rs rst of t c, Wm edwrdlnnn, dfd s bso, s crdn, s o. T susnd-

d m nd cd s rs curc undr ntrdct. hs curc

ws cd t B C. it stood t t to of t of

h Strt. Ts strt drod down to t vr bnk of t

rvr t t otr nd of t town. Ts rvr ws crossd b

brd nd r bn Rvr Strt. On t bnk of t rvr, som

svr undrd rds to t st of t brd, stood tauustnn Frr. insd t trn of ts tr onts, B

C nd brd nd Frr, ws t town, or most of t.

Krwn, grc, Dn, Moor, Nunt, nd Brn. Sm

so fronts, sm wndows, r, wn cmnt ws. No

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ds. No rront coours. On or two huunot nms k

Fountn nd Dubb smd to dnc n comrson ovr

grocr nd provsons or gnr Bkr. But ts ws n u-

son. a t townso wr sod nd modst n mbton, trsrvd tr scrts from on notr nd t scrts of t

town from t count. Tt s, unt t cs of t rst.

in t bnnn no on sw t fu consquncs of t. T

o sd t frst tt ws wfu mn vn to vn s

own w, but tt t woud soon bow ovr. Tn t stnd to

m. T rd m xn wt ws t stk (tt svr, u

d wt ts bck ocks, bck brows, t nss of ts nr,t trn of muscs of ts strnt). h ws trnsformd for-

vr nd uttr bfor tr s, for ood or bd, on w or t

otr. Som of tm srnk nto snc t wt sd nd crt

w from m nd std w. Otrs st n s t. Otrs

st (but fw from t town nd ts ws notr tn to b

xnd, s sttn of town nd countrsd) wnt out nd

bcm nrd t t njustc don to m nd brok tmsvscross s cus. No on n t c or nr t ws untoucd.

Krwn, grc, Dn, Moor, Nunt nd Brn. ec on

dscovrd somtn nw bout s nbour. and most

vron ws to dscovr somtn nov nd trrb bout t

fmr cs of t town, ts four strts, h Strt, Rvr

Strt, Nw ln nd Qurr Rod nd t Cross tt bound

tm, strts nd o, t nxus of tr xstnc, drwntm to som cntr ont t t butt of t k som od

burd d n t round. T woud s: t ws tr tt suc-

nd-suc tn nd.

it ws on t Cross, on cod Novmbr nt, 1871, tt t

Rvrnd Ftr luttr, curt, rd out, not onc but svr

tms to rdu trn mob, tt tr rs rst, s

rs rst, Wm edwrd lnnn, d bn susnddfrom s oston s rs rst.Ab omni juristicione spirituali et ab

omni officio ecclesiastico. (put t nto nu, Ftr, t soutd

from t bck. hs not our rst, soutd t tn curt, hs

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of t dv, t dv.) To t susndd rst, wo ws stnd-

n n t drknss of t orc of t B C ts w

on t to of t , s fw suortrs cm, runnn, to s

wt d nd nd tt t curt ws drunk. h woud mkno commnt on ts, stndn tr n s on, bck cok but

rstrd ts dsrcfu fct to dd to otrs n s nxt ttr to

t Crdn.

it s rcordd n som od trv books tt on ts Cross tr

onc stood mrkt cross, bbt of bcknd wood wt

nn ntrn tt v t to trvrs nto t town, comn

from t four crdn onts of t comss. No on coud swn ts t nd smbo d bn rmovd but t ws no onr

tr n t 1870s.

On or two cs n t town d sc snfcnc n t

rsts stru. T out to b mntond now. lk t

Commons. T Commons ws stutd m nd f bow

t town, just wr t Kknn rod twstd w towrds t

nort. hr, wrrn of Brts rm cotts ws but ftr tNoonc Wrs nd ddd to snc tn. Tr ws tt dso-

st fn nst t Brts n t r but som sc tttud,

btwn fr nd contmt, ws rsrvd for ts vtrns of t

imr arm nd tr brd wo vd on t Commons. T

wr d to b dffrnt s tr nms wr dffrnt, outnds

nms k Stuk or Wnk, common but forn nms k

Bkr or Tomson or grnr nd t irs mon tm,Connors or R vn sod tmsvs w from t town nto

t cntous mrrs of t cotts wt womn wo smd

to com nd o, unsttd nd unsttn wt tr ens

ccnts stndn rt from t mn nd cdrn vn n t sm

ouss.

Bfor t rvot of Ftr lnnn t contcts btwn t

Commons nd t town, w somtms snstr, wr t sttorb. On-rmd mn rd nd dsrd wt t

cn of ssons. at on tm or notr vr knd of mut-

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round t tmbr rds nd swms nr t brd. T c-

drn, c-rddn nd sn wt unr, wkd bck nd fort to

t town to b n strs of four or fv odn nds cross t

wdt of t common w, rd movn from t ft offrtfu orss nd t rsd w of t nr drvr.

But durn t rotn n t town, sc wn t B

C ws unroofd n Novmbr of 1872, t Commons nd ts

brood trtnd to nuf t rmnnt budns nd strts of

t town; strn, mrcnr nd skfu oons md tm-

svs vb to tr sd nd wr rd toutss bfor

t tru consquncs of t nc bcm cr. it ws tn ttownso cm to know t cottrs, to know tr fcs,

vn tr nms, n trrb dstructv nbournss tt

brout tm mor quck to tr common run. T Commons

woud mt tsf nto t town t t roms of ft nd

tos sm frc, srtd womn wt t known, rd fcs

nd t unfmr vocs took to on bout n bnds. T

woud nr crowd of ftn mn wtn mnuts, tkn tbows nd crs bfor tm k food.

at t to of t h Strt, most oost t B C

nd just bfor t st str of ouss t tt nd of t town,

wr t scoos: sn, n, two-stord budn wt two

sod ston sts u to t r, u door nd ts unncssr

brss knockr. T door ws ws on t tc, nt nd morn-

n, unt t troub strtd wn t rst d r bot mdto od t door nst t mob. T to st ws worn to o-

ow tt cut t rnwtr nd md t cdrn sk cross

t trsod on wt d. it ws for t sk of t scoos tt

bn s doomd qurr nst utort.

T wr Nton Scoos, undr t Commssonrs of

Nton educton n Dubn nd , s rs rst bn so

mnr, ws w sd wt t work of t cdrn nd trtcrs wn, wt tt forwrnn, dutton of t

townso cm bfor m, somtm n t 1860s.

T d com nd wr sftn bout n t cuttrd


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rour of t rsbtr, sx mn. On on sowd confdnc,

bond, bdn mn wt rd sm nd , sntrd s.

Ts ws hs, t bkr. pu hs. Bun hs, t rst

rfctd mockn. gtrd nd roomd wt s o-sd brous, t rt d rzord, undrd, snn skn

stock, mmcut frock cot, d confrontd tm wt s

mssv cm. hs nd t Dos, gr Do, gor Do,

Cn Do nd Jud Do, stonmsons. T wr k nms

n nst usn on to of on notr n t confnd room,

rd-fcd nd cums. and Rn, t frmr. T rd suc

un troubmkrs n s st. Tt t woud b romnntnts n s own dstructon, rt to s own umton bfor

t count, bfor t word, ws nconcvb to m tn s

stnd srdonc to wt t d to s.

W? qurd hs, snc t otrs rfusd to ook m

strt n t fc.

and so w wondrd f ou coud fx u t Brotrs n

t town, smd hs s f wr ndn nstd ofbnnn on.

T Brotrs?

T Crstn Brotrs, Ftr, from on of t Dos. For

to strt scoo, Ftr.

Dont ou v our Nton Scoos? t rst skd wt

mcous qut.

T o wnts Ctoc scoos.Wt nd v ou of notr scoo n town of ts sz?

T Nton Scoos soud b cosd down totr.

T Nton Scoos s odss scoos.

h turnd, t ts, towrds Rn, t frmr from Knck,

bron sout of t town towrds Trr. a tn, scrwn,

dr mn wt oos wt of fs bnt s cn. T

rst d rd of ts Rns, brotr nd sstr jondtotr n frutss, frc unon, -tcd n tr vws

nd vn comfortss on t rst frm n t rs. h

ookd sombr nto t burnt, sctc fc of Rn nd sw ts


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nmton, k fvr, bnt t skn.

you fort, Mr. Rn, sd s v s coud tou

s nr surd n s trot. you fort tt our own rst s

mnr of t scoos. Wt v ou to s to tt? Do outnk i woud countnnc odss scoos, s ou ut t? as

fnsd ws most soutn.

it snt m tt sd t frst, t torn fc ws drk nd

turnd sd so tt t rsts tms bt n nr t ts

furtvnss.

Wt do ou mn? and tn, bcus no r cm n t

usd room of v m brtn, S wt ou v to s,mn. Out wt t. i wont tort consrc n m ous, n

m rs.

T Curcs n t Nton Scoos.

Tr govrnmnt scoos. Run b t ens, tn

scoos, to dr w nnocnt irs cdr. Sour scoos!

T Crdns n t Nton Scoos. a, nd t Bso.

and most rsts.its on, Ftr, ts from hs, t suv bkr, to t

rst now scss wt fur, ts on tt w v our own

ood Ctoc scoos now nd t ood brotrs nd o sstrs

to run tm.

how dr ou. how dr ou, stuttrd t rst, tk to m

n m own rour bout wt s or s not ood for m rs.

it d ndd fn com to s own rt. O, d rd tsd bnd s bck, tt ws foowr of fs ducton,

wt fs ds, tt mxd wt protstnts. and t worst,

on t rvous Jun, ftr ordnton n St Krns Co wn

n t t of dbt ovr unc sd tt ducton ws not t

rsrv of t Romn Ctoc Curc nd mor, tt ducton

ws ostv nd t ursut of knowd nd not ntv nd

t mtton of knowd. a ts rortd, s knw t woudb, to Bsos pc nd tn tt tt scont ovr tr to

c m ovr nd n s o so ot voc to s tt ddnt

rov of ts mn M nd s dnrous tcn nd ow ws


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t rs on? Coud n n w?

as t rst rcd t robd fur of owr bnd ts

sx mn n s rour s nr towrds tm btd. h coud s

to tm: your tkn sds n somtn bond our comr-nson. Wt us woud t b? Wt us woud t b for m to

t tm, nornt mn, tt t d bcom dus, dus of

ccsstc owr, tt non of t, n of t, d ntn to do

wt god or mort or suc but on t oc of p conso-

dton trouout euro nd ts drcton trou t Romnst

bsos?

So scond scoo ond n t town, t scoo of tCrstn Brotrs. Mr Fncon v ovr t rd nd ous

bnd s so nd contrbutd undrd ounds to ts dcor-

ton. in t vr frst r t nw scoo took w f t us

from t Nton Scoos; n t scond r Ftr lnnn

ws obd to t nton tcr o bcus t numbrs wr

now down to sxt, fft of tm rs. h ookd bout for mns

to rmd ts stuton, bn dtrmnd to k t NtonScoos on t costs nd, ftr muc rsuson on s rt,

mnd to stbs Mstr Scu s hdmstr of t Nton

Scoos. From tt momnt onwrds, t mt b sd, ts two

mn, rst nd tcr, bcm nockd totr n rtcur

trd wtn t rr ctstro of t c.

T nw hdmstr sowd tt ntussm for s ost.

h movd bout t scoos nd bck nd fort to s cott-kous t t Cross wt knd of ftd crtnt s f d, n

ts coc, bun s own contrbuton to t ncdnt of s own

dt, tr or four rs nto t futur. hs fm woud rmrk

ftrwrds, wn ws dd, of ow bn to f onc

took t rsts offr. But for tt t Nton Scoos undr

Mstr Scu md rd rcovr, stndrds ros; t Mstr

msf, wos rutton n t town bfor ts d bnmbuous, ws sokn w of b mn rnts. T rst r-

son offrd wk csss n ltn, grk nd Frnc. in t

vstton of Mjor Mcastr n 1868 cd ddrssd


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mtmtc robm nd ts souton to t css, frst n ltn,

tn n Frnc, nd t Mjor rmrkd on t func wt wc

t ws trnscrbd on to t wrtn sts b c of t us.

hortcutur, astronom, gor nd gvnsm wr dddto t currcuum, nd r ob, fv ms nd som scntf-

c rtus rrvd from t hd Offc of Nton educton.

it ws bout ts tm too tt t rst d t scoos fftd

to t Scoo of art, Dsn nd Scnc, Sout Duwc, nd

notc to tt ffct rd n t Kilkenny Journal. T foow-

n Sund nstd of srmon sok bout t scoos (t

woud rmmbr ts n tr vdnc n t four ctons wc took for b). h tod s conrton tt from now on t

scoos woud b cd The Academynd ts ws ntd bov

t rt u door nd ts two sts. The Academy 1868.

it s dffcut to dcd btwn trut nd n t rs mm-

dt foown; c sd cmd to v ctd n xtrvnt

contrdcton to wt t otrs rrsntd s t tru ccount.

it s known tt os dutton rortd to t bsotrou t curt, Ftr luttr, tt t prs prst d

drwn us from t nw Crstn Brotrs scoos b

rovoctv nd uncrstn ntcmnts nd rsusons. it ws

sttd t govrnmnt nqur mn rs tr, b wtnss

undr ot, tt Ftr lnnn d rocmd on t ubc

w, durn tos monts, tt ws surroundd b con-

src. Tt t sout to dstro not on m but t wfu stt.Tt t woud stbs t utort of Rom nstd of t w

of t nd. Tt t utrmontns wr nn owr nd, v-

n formd n uno nc wt t lbrs, wr skn to

cn t trdton ntur of t irs Curc. escoc nd

dcttors nstd of frdom nd oc trdton. Tt t con-

src d snd m out bcus r n ts town woud

tort no ntornc, no sctrn v, woud rovd tbst scoos frst nd worr bout t sstm ftrwrds.

Tr ws ood rson to bv tt Ftr luttr of s

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prst, n turnn scoomstr, ws nctn s rs duts

nd tt, furtrmor, d so turnd sokr. Ftr

lnnns sstr Jud, Mrs Rown, ownd sm t nd swt

so on t cornr of Qurr Rod nd Mrtns ln. it wsburnd out, t frst of svn trts frd b t mob n 1872. But

bfor of ts d rsudd r to v (i w o tn,

Wm, for ou, but f oud d m oud v ts trrb

c too) nd d vn r s bssn, s knn n t rn

bsd t crt tt took r nd r boxs down t rod to

Nwtown. S woud com bck t sm rod n, b C

ev nd Snbrd, to tk m on s own fn, funr jour-n from t c, mor cors tn vn mn, wrt nd unt

nst t bttr utumn, scrc notcd b t o, to t

Count hom. Tt woud b n 1878.

at t Cross n t town ws rod-ous. abov t door

ws sn tt sd r stod t Bncon crs on tr w

from Conm to Kknn Stton. W trvrs mt tk

tr rst or rfrsmnt nsd t ous t orss wr wtrdor cnd n t stb rds oost t Frr down on t

Nw ln. Ts rod-ous ws ortd b mn cd

McNmr, n outsdr to t town wo d mrrd nto t

c. Bsd ts rod-ous, nd fnkd on t otr sd b t

dsusd protstnt cmtr, ws t om of Mstr Scu.

Mstr Scu nd s wf hnrtt. and s sons Mrcus

anton, Ncos nd Jms Fornc Scu, cd Forr. and

t r cd emrn.

Wn t rst skd m to tk ovr t Nton Scoos

trd rd to vod t. h d s own tt scoo, dnt ?

evn s t xcus formd on s s t rdcud m nd ssrt srnk; t fv us, soon to dwnd to tr wt t

on w of s own son Ncos to Mnoot nd t hn

bo to ennd. T trut ws tt s own scoo d nvr bn

succss, nou to k s ousod on, no mor.


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ncdnt of vu to b rotctd from t tss rs of s

cdood. h d bn n fct t roomsmn, t fr, mnut

ttndnt on t cou n t unroofd, outd curc on tt

strtn srn mornn n 1874. hs mmor ws ts: tt tntd sft of t cross t rt assumton cnvs bnd

t tr ws vvfd b t r, sn f of sunt

trou t brokn roof w bov s d. ans cm

trou t torn bms, t jd sts, for t cd. Wn

coud tk s s from ts, mrc trnsfurton ws

vrwr. evn t movn mts of rn vs on t snctu-

r foor, bown n trou t brokn wndows, wr not ds-crton to m, t smd vn mor uxurous tn t rd

crt tsf on t tr sts, t wrmt of wc knw

trou s kns s n tr bo. hs mmor, rs tr, woud

on rfus t fcs of t otrs rsnt t t brd crmon.

h woud vu rmmbr t fur of t rst k nt

sdow bov, bond s downturnd s. Of t brd com-

n, notn. Ts ws t st crmon of ts knd rformdb t xcommunctd rst n t condmnd, ntrdctd

curc, ts crmon of mrr of Mrcus anton Scu nd

emrn Donovn (Scu) bcus t d dscovrd notr

nm for r b tn.

Wn t sok of m wt dsk nd dstrust, t o sd

tt Mstr Scu obnobbd wt t protstnts. T wr

tnkn of horc prc Butr wo ws on on mn,

owvr, nd coud not b cd protstnt t . h bvd n

notn xct t scrc rdctb cours of s own con-

scousnss. it coud rd b sd tt t wr frnds or tt

t d vr muc n common, t Mstr of t town scoosnd t Mstr of Wtscourt hous. On t frst Wdnsd of

t mont t crr from t b ous outsd t town woud

rrv t t Cross nd t two mn woud v totr for

Kknn to b n tm for t mtn of t arcooc


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stud, oftn svrn n t suddn rvr brzs, n mctd f-

ur n t brcs nd on stockns. hs d ws sm wt

round, uncturd nos nd sunkn, un s bnd t

nc-nz. h ws sdom known to sm nd st mon to d snur rutton for nrost. To som dr

ts fn mon t o ws t snc knw from t

oss of t bourrs nd t drovrs tt ws fur n t

runnn of t stt nd ts n som w brout t on f-

ur of t mn down to wtn rc of tr t. T knw nd

known forv m tt for s fort-odd rs d rd-

vr vn on bck nto t stbs nd rd nd frut nd v-tb rdns tt rn bck for qurtr of m bnd t

ous. T rdns rkd wt nctd rowt, not just of

ordnr fruts, for Mr Butrs ftr, t od rm mn wo ws

suosd to b scrt Ctoc, d bn n vd xrmnt

rdnr nd from t ubc w qut dstnc w, wt

t wnd rt, on coud b smotrd n t v rdn sms

of rottn brrs, of t qunc trs, t Dutc mdrs, of twd rs nd ums tt wr wd wtout tnnn nd runn.

T odr o sd t woud turn n s rv t dd od mn

wo d rdd usbndr bov vr otr vrtu, wo n s

d d brout bck t Duks Cu from t Dubn Sow for

s drn nd t god Md of t Ro arcutur Soct

for t bst bourrs cotts n t rovnc of lnstr, so

zous dd k s stff nd tnnts to s own xm.St, for t son t d curous ffcton nd tornc

wc coud v notn to do wt fmrt or tron on

s rt. hs motr, od Mrs Butr, ws st v n 1871, bd-

rddn n n ur room nd ttndd constnt b grmn

d nurs. T son, too, mt s w v bn crd so s-

dom dd vntur out. h snt most of s ds cood u n

t monks room t t to of t ous, wt vron scd t stud nd t Obsrvtor. if nord t cut-

vtd fruts nd fowrs of t Wtscourt rdns, horc

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but for t wd fowrs nd not t ttndd, dmndn srubs

tt rw bout t ous. hs wo bn rvotd t t con-

strnt, t mnuton of wt ws ntur, but ts mt not

v ntn to do wt s vodnc, s borrnc vn oft cutvtd fowr bds. in s Obsrvtor, wt ss nd

bd, dssctd nd dntfd t wd scmns tt t-

rd on s wks nd vr occson corrsondd on s fnds

wt botnst crmn n Count antrm. But mor oftn

sm ft s scmn n brokn ts nd vtb skns onc

s curost d bn stsfd nd wnt bck to s rdn or

nd ts woud xn s nm for t room to ookn trout stndn tsco t t wndow. h ws most ston df

nd tou rsstd n tkn undrdt rn of oso-

rus d nd tsoonfu of Fows Sru of t

hoosts knw tr coud nvr b rmd.

evrwr wnt crrd s ornt Convrston Tub wt

ts snn vor r nd mout cs. in tos rs of dstrss

n t town Mr Butr d do, n irs sttr cd lncon.On n ftrnoon n auust 1871 horc prc Butr wkd

bck from t rvr bnk to t ous, foowd b t do

lncon nd crrn n s nds, most rvrnt, on

stmmd wt rvr fowr. h movd crfu on t ts s

f t fowr wr so fr s to dsntrt t rou ndn.

at t d of t rv frontn t ous (tr stors, sx

wndows on c ur v, fv t t round nd sndddoor, totr squr nd rfct structur of wt mston)

stod roundsmn nd sd tt d rd dsturbnc

n t town nd wt coud b t mnn of t. T mn mut-

trd n r but Butr tr dd not r or d rd forot-

tn s own quston snc ssd t mn wtout ston. in

t ous tsf rd, dct scndd t rt ok str-

cs, s s runnn bout t mtnss of t wt ttrtnss of t df. at st rcd s room, tt nrrow c,

nd d s fowr on t cuttrd tb nr t wndow wt

s, sow xton of brt, bot stsfd nd stsfn, s


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wo bod rtkn of t sur from t fowr tt r-

s, ruffd, btwn s nds. h stood momnt ookn

t t oow stm nd t wt fowrs nd t sson of t

bod v w to curost tt movd s mout wtout sound.Tn st down t t sm tb nd, crn sc, md n

t journ t frst ntr tt s of ntrst to tos wo woud

undrstnd t vnts surroundn t B C.

h bn undr n ntr tt rcordd t rcnt vst

to Dubn of t prnc of Ws nd som rmrks on t

ponx prk rotn of t wk foown. h wrot: Cowbn

(Ccut Vros) or Wtr prsn (Sum ltfoum l.) bnt tcrossn stons nd just oost Mrns W. Curous so fr

sout. h consdrd momnt nd tn, s ws s custom,

contnud on wtout srtn t ntrs.

Wt wrot ws ts:

Scu nforms m tt w snd s son Ncos nto t

Romn mnstr t Mnoot. Sd notn. h sd t bo s

cvr, w rn somtn, w v rofsson, rsct

tctr. Tt w us s mnd. lud t ts. h sd w

do ou u. Sd i d rd Mr inrms mt nd otrs

on t bomnb tcns of t co, confsson sxu-

t tctr. h sd no protstnt coud o to undrstnd

suc (tns). Sd notn to ts nd bcm dscomftd.

h skd f i knw ow t rst lnnn n t town d

bn susndd vn tkn cton nst s Bso nt common court. Sd f Mr lnnn ut on t Romn co-

r d bst t msf b d b t. h coud not r to ts.

Tr ws nos tod from t town but t mt v bn

tundr.

T nm of t town s K. Trdton s t tt t nm

cm from rt forsts n tms st. But n 1871 t nd ws

comt cr of tmbr nd rosrous wt ood vw of

Svnmon nd t Commrs to t sout nd wt ow,

ron s to t nort nd t nr ct of Kknn.


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Ncos Scu stndn n Kdr Stton. at, Crow nd

Bnstown. Just tr stos nd tn Kknn. T rt oco-

motv, No. 1-48 n ttrn on ts sd, cmn, round-

d dom nd u, coud ws nr sx ft . Forr

woud ov t st of t, tout Ncos. h d cocton

of drwns of Mr McDonns ocomotvs rd t om. hs

ftr woud s tt wtvr trnsrd Jms Fornc woud

v tm bnd t wt s nvntons nd nns.

Tonn, cndr nd ston szs. But t inccor. a crdt to

t countr, smd Ncos wr t t trt tons of bourn

nd dmnsn xrton movn st m to ts susrn sto.

h trd quck to fnd n mt crr (not bcus,

rud frtfu to msf for t umtnt tm, not bcus i

cnt stnd to mt tm, tk to tm, tk to tm, s ts tt

nd t otr to tm, sm tk: t s t sm) but t bst

coud mn ws on tt rd contnd womn wt

bndd cd nd frckd, rudd, squt mn wo turnd out

to b cttmn from Wtrford.

T countr s on t u nd u, ts fow ws sn to t

womn but wt bot s rd, rn s on Ncos t

w. is t t Fnns? tn skd drmtc nd wtout

cn of ton, sur t Fnns s rt dd nd burd nd

bd css to tm for tr mscf mkn. Rsns nd rvoutons


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ow r ! Tsnt tt ut mt on t nd cu of strbout

n fst. Ncos kt s s vrtd nd s rt snk t t

rosct of vn to ddrss ts mn. Tsnt tt fd us or

t cdr, im tn tt now. T womn cuckd n t cor-nr nd t mn rd to tk t sound s ncourmnt,

mbuous tou t ws. god forv m, s voc bcm

wdn nd ous n w tt Ncos found sc ust-

tn. i tnk t Fmn nd t mrton s don t countr

mor ood tn rm, tou god mrk m f im wron. Ts

s for m bnft, ts s drctd towrds m, Ncos fumd:

tnks i m st crc: i w s notn.at st t jrkd off out of t stton, convovn rs of

smok ssn t wndows nd onc out from undr t stton

cno, t smd, t rn rturnd, t frst rckn t wndows

wt wt nd tn ssn down s t trn trd sd.

it ws on tr ocock nd t Ncos coud scrc s nto

t nrb sdn fds. To mk mttrs wors t mn d

roducd nd bn to stok u fou-smn tobcco. int oom t t s cn rddnd nd dd, rddnd nd

dd k n nn. and t tm, wtout s ookn n tt

drcton, Ncos coud f t rw, nfmd, wsk s ms-

urn m u nd down. Trn rd to rn s c of mnd

Ncos ookd towrds t womn nd t cd nd smd.

T ookd bck t m out of drknss tt d moudd tr

fcs nto msk, t cds bn most comt ddn nrt swts of bnd.

excus m, mstr, sd t orrb mn, nn forwrd

nd ontn, tt b, nd ndctd Ncoss woodn

cots box on t rck bov, tt b s dnr.

Ncos, stndn, swn, nfu sftd t box on t

rck, rt bus usn k td ovr s bod. as

ookd uwrds bvd tt vn s wrsts wr crmson wtmbrrssmnt. and t w s contntd tormntor st

bnd m wtcn, tstn. a mnnss fur sook Ncos

from d to foot. i w st down nd ook nd str t ts ts


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vtb. T mn ookd bck t m, owvr, qut t s

wt msf.

excus m, mstr, sd n. in s ffort to r t

mn nto snc Ncos sw wt sock tt t botc fcd dct fr brows but ts rfnmnt trw vr otr

ftur nto rf. eswr t r sroutd from t b

d n rou, rd tufts.

ys?

excus m skn but woud ou b from t Co? T

d ft Kdr Stton nd Mnoot bnd but t mn cut

t wt twst bckwrds of s d.ys. hs r ws tkn wt dt b t mn wo bmd

cross t t womn s f to s: i tod ou so. ys, rtd

Ncos cru, wtcn tr fcs. ys, but iv ft t c

for ood. h wntd to s mor, to s tt d ft vr-

tn, tt t n tr nornc nd surstton contnud to

od nd bd b, ft nd god. But coud not brn msf

to do so bfor t snt, drk fc of t womn, wo ws s-tnn to wt ws bn sd n rt vunrb swoon of

wrnss nd tmdt.

W nd rnt ou st wrn t unform? T mn

mockd m wt s f covrd, s mout on to u.

Ncos d dffcut n kn s voc v.

i cnt just trow w cots k tt. hs trot bn to

f u wt t for msf nd s ot. if i coud cn tm i woud ts mnut. (On r of cors bck corduro, fftn

sns. On bod cot nd vst, trt sns. On ur cot

of Krs, ound. Two r of brous, nd t d to s

tb tt usd to bon to rndmotr, nd motrs vor sck-

nss crucfx but s sd t ws not bn sod f t ws bn vn

to god. and now.)

Cots dont row on t sd of t rod, ou know. hdnt mnt to s tt t , to sound so ootc, so too muc

k bo, but tt ws ow t cm out. anw ts m own

busnss, snt t, ndd n frc wsr cross to t mn.


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No bons brokn, vn sok bck n wsr too, n

smttc, smn, trn w tt nfurtd Ncos vn

mor. h rsovd not to s notr word to t fow unt t

ot to Kknn. Tr r som tt r md for t, som ttr not. T tn to do ws to vod ookn t m totr. i

ws just sn to Mssus r, ts ws n sout, burst of ru-

cous oodw nd fows, i ws just sn, wsnt i? to t

womn, tt ts ss cr nd mor cows t countr nds,

? On jokn, ddd jov, on jokn, , .

i w ook nto t rn for t rst of t journ, Ncos

tod t strmn wndow. T rt n of t Mdnds wtscrc sn fnc wnt w from t trn nto t dstnt

msts. it md m f vn mor dsot, ts rt unfurrowd

c of nd wtout ost or ston to brk t rn bnkt of

rss. Tr wr s out tr, somtms vn movn rds

of tm but t d vn u tr s to t r ftrnoon,

soddn nd msrb ums of drt wt n t rn. it s

bcus i m on om tt i m so msrb nd w soudtt b, w soud tt b, w soud tt b?

T worst wntr snc fort-t, from cross t w.

Notn k t foods n ennd bn sn for s, ts, oud-

to t womn n t cornr wo cuckd nd movd brf to

f, r sftn bout n t st rsons.

Wt ws so skn, wt ws vn m wtout rtc

of o ws ts drd of on om. it d bn sttd ndDd d wrttn not on ttr but two n t st two wks to

s n tt mtcuous ndwrtn tt vrtn woud b

rt. O tr woud b rtc but t woud b ddn from

m round t tb n t ktcn nd vron woud s, snt

t rnd to v Ncos om? T d sourd n s mout but

t ws not vn ts ( coud v wt ts bcus t svd tm

nd m, too, n) tt sook m vr tm tout ofwr ws on nd w.

T wr runnn trou cuttns nd t bnks on

tr sd sut out wt tt t ws ft to t crr. in ts


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rt drknss t st nd t sound of t brtn smd s

rt s t funnn ror of t nn nd t rtt of t

ws on t ns. it smd to Ncos n s dsr tt

ws trd n box. h d to rvnt msf from jumn und un t t rm wndow. h rd s fnrs btwn

s kns unt drov t bood from t mounts of t

knucks nd s nds ookd skt.

i woudnt tk t so rd. Sur trs rt rosct now-

ds for t oun. T wsk voc. T du rd st covrs.

T brown, stnd woodwork. T own cn fod b

t mns smokn. Ncos v coun u. Sur ooktr, oun fow, i mnd t tm tr ws t Fmn. To t

womn, s dndb, i sn tms, im tn . godmt

i sn tm o outt Wtrford on t bots wt tr bs

stuck to tr bcks nd t sm, t sm mnd , of t

unr comn off tm. O t dont know ow w off t

r ts ds, t oun wns.

Ncos v notr swowd u of contmt.O nd t ws know bttr. h d succdd n nr-

n t mn wo ws nn ovr towrds m, trn to n

m tou ws st ddrssn t womn. T cnt b

tod ntn. O no. youn o-off-m-tumbs wt tr ds

n t r. gon round wt tr ds nd notons nd nd

fntstctons bond tr rs.

Ts roducd ts snc tt ndurd for som tm w tmn muttrd to msf, s fsn, stomc vn, snc

tt Ncos njod wt rm stsfcton. it s not, ssurd

msf, tt i wnt to urt tm, or to sow msf, mk msf

dffrnt, rt, sf, or s t? W botr bout t snc t fct of

m, of m xcton s obvous. Fmn! it s sm our nornc

s mor xctn mstr tn t ens nd tr ndords nd

tr rs. if w knw bttr w woud do mor. Wt usdFtr lnnn s? god md knowd, nvr fr t, fr

nornc.

Rs, ftr w, sd: its our own nornc tt s


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us t w w r.

T fow d u v n s st. is t now, s t now?

Srcstc, Do t us so? Dd r tt sk, Mssus?

T womn, dumb. god bss us , brz, t b tn usnxt wv no rts to t r wr brtn. Crcs, ddd

sv, crcs, godmt, nd tou cr wntd to,

coud s no mor.

i m not crc, Ncos sot out nr.

O, of cours, of cours, i msrmmbrd tt.

i v vn t u.

O, of cours, of cours. yv vn t u. i smd to rou s s muc. Tuntn.

you m, concdd Ncos oft, xcus m of ntn

s. But not tt.

T mn ud, s umour rstord. prsts s o,

rmrkd nrous, un on s , f t wrnt for t

rst n t drk tms t od v bn wtout non to

stnd b tm. O sur i w rmmbr nd wnt on nto on rmro bout s cdood outsd Dunrvn wc

nvovd fmous Ftr Qunn wo d dd, ftr rs of dd-

cton, n t poorous. h ws bck to s od umour n

nd vn mbrcd Ncos wtn t wt mn sds nd

dvcs on wt ws wortw n t cr nd wt not.

Wn d fn fnsd Ncos, judn s momnt

sd: T r crtn crc dcttors n ts countr,n outost of t nw Romn emr. T woud st u t

bso nd s po s t tru rur of t nd. Tts wt our

cr s comn to.

Tts qur tk for oun fow k ou.

im nntn, Ncos ssrtd ot.

O, god bss us, god bss us, wzd t mn, s s

strmn wt utr. W ou stn to tt? d oncmor to t womn, w ou stn to wos tkn?

ar ou gcn or n utrmontn, Ncos furous

dmndd, or do ou vn know wt tt mns? you dont


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vn know wts on on round ou. Do ou know wt t

mns to b n utrmontn?

Bob i dont, t otr concdd but wt v umour n

s s, rd to brk out n nto utr t t . is totcs r tkn bout?

im tkn bout ron, Ncos, cod. Ws tr n us

n tkn bout ntn?

Tm r b words. T mn ws wtcn m srwd s

woud jud oun nm n t fr rd. ar t our

own?

Ncos ws scss wt mortfcton nd ssnss.it ws obvous to m tt ws bn mockd. how woud

Ftr lnnn d wt t fow? h ws t on wod

xn wt ws t stk n t rt stru. T m not b,

sd sow, m own words. But f tr not tsf i know

wt t mn. T fur of t rst stood bsd m,

coud f t rt squr buk s vn rsnc, coud r t

ford voc xoundn, coud ctc t srtd srn of ttckn t voc. h msf woudnt b b to do justc to t rt

dbt nd vn f coud ts nornt furs n t drk

comrtmnt woudnt b b to foow wt ws sn. and

t t of t, t t of t ws tt ts wr t vr ons wo

d to b tod, wo d to b tut, mor tn n otrs. it ws

tr os, t os to b rcd to t oor nd t no-

rnt, t os of frdom, frdom from utortrnsm, fr-dom from surstton. if t wsnt tr os tn t ddnt v

n mnn t . T sdow of t rst wt soutn nd

c n bck fow, smd to cross t comrtmnt btwn

m nd t otrs nd Ncos ft bowd down b t burdn

tt t brout.

Nvr mnd, sd quck to t mn, t nt, wo d

s mout on, f un, bfor m. it dosnt mttr.Notn mttrs.

O t dosnt, ? But ookt, com r now. arnt on

to s t b words for us? i mn rnt Mssus nd msf.


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lookt, Mssus nd msf nd t oun d tr sur wr

md to know wt our tkn bout. Wt dd s t tws

ustr somtn or otr, ?

it dosnt mttr.O bod t dos mttr. h ws njon msf. O

bod t dos. Dosnt t mttr, Mssus?

your mkn mockr of m.

a now, oun d, wo ss tt?

your just jrn.

a now, no wns jrn, no wns jrn t .

you dont know ow srous t s. But ou know, on d.h d qutnd t fow but coudnt o n furtr. h trd

to rc tt srmon of Ftr lnnn n t B C n

Stmbr, t Sund bfor ft t town. Word d ot out

bout t w cs nst t curts nd ow t bso ws

suosd to b on to susnd t rst. T curc d bn

f mt bcus t wr frd. T d on to t Frr

nstd, t londrns nd t hs, Mr nd Mrs Moor, ndvn Mr OBrn, t otcr wo ws suc stwrt n t

curc coctons. evn Tmm R, t scrstn. and otrs.

Woud i b rt, skd t mn n t comrtmnt, un

on s nd uttn on srous fc, woud i b rt n su-

stn tt our n bt of troub ovr t ron, oun d?

Sur, ookt r, ookn bout t comrtmnt s f wr

surroundd b undrds of o, dont w o trou btof m sson, so to sk, now nd n? Non of us s

rfct. W i knw Dr Cronn from Wtrford tt bcm t

ssstnt to t po msf ftr vn n t bst

Durn t Mss d turnd n nd n from t tr

to run t d-st s from rson to rson n t ws, count-

n mb or cckn f otrs d com t, t fow of t

Mss, so trumnt norm n s voc, now brokn nd so-rdc sound. T wn nd wtr d not bn ut out, t Sund

nnouncmnt book ws mscd, ws sv mtnt

wt t tr bos. Wn fn turnd to v out t nm of


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t Sund fst, t rrs for t dd nd t otr wk

nformton, ws unb to rocd. h d ookd bout s

curc wt d, rvn xrsson t k of wc Ncos

d nvr sn bfor. T d d tmsvs totr, t fwfms, t fw ndvdus n t sts nd non of tm doubt-

d now tt tr stur n ttndn on tt Sund d snd

tm out from t communt of t town s cr s t mrk

of dss or dsfurmnt nd t ws wt ts dscomfort tt

t, t frst, rcvd s words. Ncos coud f ts svr of

rconton from s ftr wo st to s rt, s ws s custom,

t t nd of t w occud b t wo fm.an ttmt s bn md to dstro our frdom. Not m

frdom, mrk ou. But ours. im not ftn m cus on, m

o, but ours nd nvr fort t. an ttmt s bn md to

ntroduc dscn nto t irs Ctoc Curc wc woud

mk t t t svs of t cr. i v n cquntnc of

mor tn trt-fv rs stndn wt t Cnon lw nd

Too of t Csn Scoos of Dvnt. M knowd oftt w nd tt too tcs m ot to m Qun s w

s to t hd of m Curc. it tcs m to v to god t

tns tt r hs but st to v Csr s du. Ts Cnon lw

nd ts Too, m dr o, w nor t rtnsons of

pus iX s t woud of pus V or n adrn iV wn suc r-

tnsons r nconsstnt wt t cv rts of t Sovrn or

t Sovrns subjcts. Our lords t bso, t oxd r, sow, wt s sr us, our lords t bs-

o s bn ductd n scoo of Too wc woud ow

Rom nd ts rrsnttv to fout t w of t nd. Ts

scoo of Too w c utrmontn. it s nw nd t s ow-

rfu but ts bss s owr nd not Crst. it w s tt no

Ctoc cn dfnd msf n t ubc courts nst s -

trtmnt b rst or bso. it w s tt t crc s bov tw of t nd nd unmcb. it woud mk t wrr of

ts cor, n s frnz Ftr lnnn rd to stru t

s trot, nds rfn t cot to t t t wt bnd bnt,


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no mttr wt s vc, bov t w of t nd. it w mk

ou t sv of t rst, t rst t sv of t bso, t

bso

aftr tt, t mn ws sn, nvr ookd bck. Wntfrom strnt to strnt. O sur i knw t ftr nd t

brotr w, rnd o tm Cronns f bt fond of t dro.

But i s ts muc, tn t kn of Ncos wo rockd,

stufd, n t st oost, wnc took out of msf

nvr toucd dro trftr. Trs mn for ou. Doctor

Cronn, soutd ovr to t womn, nformtv s f for t

frst tm, Doctor Cronn outt Wtrford bow, now b nosbsd t po msf.

T wrtcd mn, Ncos murmurd mbuous, s

mnd st on tt scn n t curc. i mn somon s,

xnd to t dron s tt burnd t m from cross t

w. i ws tnkn of notr rst. But tn, smn tn,

rnt t wrtcd?

prsts s o k oursvs, cnn, t mnwtcd.

Tt s t bnnn of t trut.

lookt, oun d, iv noton wts u wt .

Wt?

O nvr mnd now but iv ot ou msurd rt. i know

wts btn ou, im tn ou.

Wts u wt m? Wts btn m?T mn squntd ntns. its tt co.

Mnoot ?

a.

you mn Mnoot Ncos d to u. Wtout

brtn.

a, joks sd now. Two wks t om wt bt of fs

on ou nd ou b rt s rn n. its tm rfssors utr. Sur ts common knowd som of tm snt Crstn

muc ss Ctocs.

an u, sort, cokd off.


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you mn tv rund m? and n utr, k

vomt n s dr trot so tt t mn ookd rv nto s fc.

it s. i mn ts Ncos stumbd, ts strn. i mn for

n irsmn to s.But snt t tru now, oun fow. Own u to t. isnt t tru

tr dos b vr sort of n d vn out b t rfssors u

tr? To b tstn t studnts k. Sort of ttn off r. lutr

notons nd t dv knows wt s. T wo countr knows

tt. Sur s t n wondr oun fows do brk down undr t

bfor tr vn n o. a snt godd brk undr tt

crr-on. Suckn s furous t ts outr. i t ouwn tn, oun d, confdd tck, s bod vn, t

o of ts countr s ttn ws to crr-on k tt. im

tn ou tt now, bo.

Ncos mockn: i bvd ou wr rt suortr of

t Curc.

O i m, i m. Dont t m wron now. hs ook of st

fr d tkn n t womn, s on . Ncos ookd t rtoo but s wsnt n n ttnton to tm. Rockn t cd

n r rms to t movmnt of t trn, bot rnt s

nd t not t rst, not rcovrn tmsvs k norm srs.

Tr ws somtn urdd bout tr bods, somtn

wkfu s f t d bn on tm snc t d st n

norm w.

But com r mnut, com r mnut nd t ussomtn, t mn rsd ts cnc to sk s mnd to

Ncos. arnt tr som qur wks of rsts bov n tt

c?

Do ou mn ndndnt mn? Cv, cod.

a, . you know wt i mn. Trn to str u dvmnt nd

t k. Tt css of tn.

if ou mn mn wo w not b cowd, s. But most oftm bon to t bsos. Soud t bout Dr Knn? Not

tt knw wo ot bout m msf s t Junors ddnt

stud Mor. exct n un, r fc undr brtt on t


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wks. and s dnuncton of t indx nd t cnsors of

ds. Ncos d mmorsd t sntncs tt d bn trns-

mttd from t Snor hous ftr t row wt Bso h. if

w r obd to vod vrtn tt s dnrous to ft ndmors w soud v t word totr. W dd god mk

fs? T sd ws nst infbt too nd tt sok

out n fvour of mxd mrrs wt protstnts. Tos tt s

wt t bv, suffr. Ws t vr n otr w n t stor

of t Curc? h ookd w from t mn, on woud

v t t tt.

But com r, oun d. Com r now. Wt bout ttrow out n Rom st r wn Jon Mch stood u to t

itns nd t rst of tm.

Do ou mn t Vtcn Counc?

a. a. Tts rt, tts rt.

Ncos coudnt rsst t. Tr ws n ffort, sd from

rt t of knowd, to contro t po nd s bsos.

But t d tr w nd now w v t infbt oft po.

Wn sks outt s cr, t fows s wr bzn

wt xctmnt, snt tt t? Wn sks outt s cr

cn sk no wron.

as ou s, Ncos rd, dr, wn sks outt

s cr.

O i ws on xnn t t otr d. T rt root of fc ws comc n ts rnstnss. Wn sks outt s cr

cn do no wron. Tts wt t ltn mns, s i ws sn.

and rtd, ovr nd ovr n, s xnton, s words.

Tr r mn n t Curc wo s ts owr for wt t s,

Ncos bn qut but suddn d burst of nr.

T sk out nst t. anst Rom nd ts skn trnts.

and t suffr for t. T r t tru mrtrs of our Curc, ssrtd ccusn to t mn. Mrtrs of snc. Not k

ts otrs. luntcs wt tr sf-torturs nd tr fsts nd

tr tr ov of bood. h ws brtn wt dffcut, coud


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f s own bood, bond s contro, rc nd s trou s

bod, ot ws of ruson tt ws so, n strn w, not

dsrb.

Wn sks outt s cr cn do no wron. T mn ws st muttrn ts, msmrsd, d bobbn. isnt tt

qur tn now for ou? h d cr not bn stnn t .

Ncos coud n s tt muc. T w stn on to wt

t r wn to r. hs fc ttnd wt contmt for t

ot of rcrs. Td to tr focks. S-dos. Dos t

mn, skd t mn n sow, un bwdrmnt, tt

cnt vn t s k t rst of us? Bod god s nrous.Tts i s.

Ncos v sr, drsv u nto t wt wndow t

s bow.

O ou cn u ou wnt to, oun fow. you dont

know t f of t.

i dont, ?

Bod, ou dont.Tts wt ou tnk.

But ws strn movd b t mn or b t ntmc tt

smd to com out of tr contrdcton nd coud not rd

msf of t tout of s ftr. T wnt onwrds n t

vn, crkn comrtmnt nd for t scond tm Ncos

d t uson of bn mrsond on ts nrrow, sttd foor

bnt tr ft wt ts ft tt rvuts of rn wtr but tstm not trrfn, sm fct, vdnc of tr common ot,

, t mn nd t wombd furs of t motr nd t cd

n t drk cornr.

and t ws t t sm mtn tt t condmnd t

Fnns? isnt t so?

at t Vtcn Counc?

a.W, Ncos bn, tr ws dcr but t mn

snd t m n w tt sockd m nto ttnton.

ars-ckrs wt t Brts Qun. O t o on bout


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Ft nd Ftrnd. But bjsus t mk sur tr on t

sd of t govrnmnt nd t mon bs.

Ncos wntd to s somtn tuntn bout ts

cn n drcton n but t rvn, bnt fc ooststod m.

Btwn oursvs. i dont wnt ts to o bond t two of

us, now. T ors, cokn voc. T b nd k um,

comc otto odn s kn t wc strd not drn to

ook nto t fc. T brotr took t ot. M own brotr.

Bow n Dunrvn. an, nscb, t bood-sot s,

rmmbrn, two mournn, fckrn cos n t wrnkd fc.Tr ws t quck nc to mk sur t womn wsnt stn-

n. h ws rd off t tr bow n Dunrvn wt sx ot-

rs. hd to tk t bot to t Stts t nxt mornn. h took

out ft r nd wd s s nd Ncos trd to wtdrw

msf. h ut fnr to t wndow nd smrd ft crc n

t fod ss. Tn rsd t wt t butt of s nd nd

t c cod sot trou s wrst. i w not, vowd, owmsf to b to suffr for somon tt i dont vn know. and

t ddnt sk to on notr n t comrtmnt n unt

t r ot on outsd at.

T trn d urcd nd stod t v crossn nd

ts b r, t dutr of t t-kr, ws usd u nto

tr crr b svr nds. S brout t frc btn wnds

wt r off t ow fds totr wt numrous bskts tttrtnd vron wt tr sz.

im ws n drd of t trn, s bn rt w,

cortn nd rustn r mn skrts nd sws. S wor

frnd cotton c tt bout r d nd t smd to squz

out r ft, snn fc nd bck rnts. evr otr d of t

wk trs tm frc crss bond n ennd. god forv

m, s ddd wt bt of utr, i tout s wr onto o trou t sut ts rsvs ts vr vnn.

T cttmn strrd to f n wt t comn. its k

ts, Mssus, dont ou s, xnd s t movd off n,


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down on Ncos wt r u m of t nd n s con-

strnton ft d smotr s undr rt umd brd,

fn, drncd nd um out of wt sk. Tn s swd

w from m n on t st nd smd cod ndmuttrd som usss contrbuton, xct wt wsnt sur.

T mn cckd s tonu n dsrov nd t wr d

to t rd of r n at. S ot off wt mor rt sovs nd

us nd souts nd t four of tm wr ft totr n,

comfortss, n t crr.

W t trn ws st stndn n at Stton t mn

rsd msf f out t wndow nd survd t wt, drntform. hs rt rr stuck bck nto t comrtmnt k

cows n br nd Ncos snffd n dstst. h od

woud mov soon but nstd t fow crossd s brous

bnd nd rd to b sttd for w. h woud sout

now nd tn t o on t tform, rnt known tm

b nm.

Wt dd ou v for t lr, Jon?i d sn on prtndr but t wor fdd w.

Wt ws s t?

Sx to fv on, i tr.

Dv t bt t mttrs now.

O dv t bt s rt.

hows t Mssus?

O trvn, trvn.To dstrct msf from t rt uncs n t brcs

most v wt s nos nd, too, to tk ts cnc of sk-

n to r wt t fows bck turnd, Ncos bnt towrds t

womn. as snt s coud. Of t nw book sts tt

t d now n t sttons. and, quck, to t no nswr,

ow nc t wtn rooms wr, so cn nd wt turf frs. Ws

s vr n t on n Kknn? S sook r d, urdd.Tt msf ws from Kknn, t count tt s, nd ws on

s w om (cn s not sk? cn s not s ntn?) but

st nd kd t trvn. Trns sc. So fst now nd


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rt srvc to t o. Dd s s ow t grt Soutrn

ws offrn Kknn to london now n on twnt-tr ours

for on twnt-two nd svn nc

T mn brok ts dsrt rmb of words b bcknbck nto t comrtmnt, skn msf of rndros nd

cosn t wndow, runtn, fstnn t on tr ton on

ts ctc.

in ts uncrtn ntrv Ncos skd r f t d bn

to Dubn nd sd qut tt t tt d ws so ood nd so

qut on t on journ.

Tv bn to t ost, ntrrutd t cttmnbrusqu, not ookn u, xcudn n mor qustons.

T took on out of m, t womn sn out unx-

ctd nd n n unxctd voc, sr nd monoto-

nous. at ts t trn bn to mov, bn ts ncosn, mrs-

onn rtm n nd Ncos ft tt now, fn, t ws

nsuortb to b wt tm. T cd d not vn strrd. it

d bn stndn k tt, sow nd frfu nst r knsfor on tm. its tn, brfoot s wr k stcks. Now, wt

cod orror tt snk wtn m k ston, Ncos rcvd

tt ndd t bnd ws down ovr on but for t n-

mton tt t sowd, t otr, drk nd unbnkn, mt v

bn qu stss.

T rn ftd bt ftr Crow nd wt sun cm to t wn-

dows of t trn.

Tnks b to god, sd t mn, t couds s scttrn. h

d bn mkn occson rmrks k tt for ms wtout

non ttndn. Ncos ws wtcn t drk rn t of

t d outsd, mucus t out of t fu, cottd trots of tdtcs. Tnkn of t crturs of ts t. Formd b soddn

fds. Sm. hmsf too.

hom soon, ronouncd t mn, sttn on t foor nd

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