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dcil`%

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|jbm drw }jb ljbb|w cgb%


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Ga }jbtb g| iew}jgek wnr {ie} }n }ic` idnr} Gh jbtb% ]jb ert|b |igm% Gh or|} lnelbtebm

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}tgb| }n tre }gb jbt rv iem littw jbt jnhb%

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ic{iw| dbbe vtn}bl}gqb na jbt atgbem|%

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ne }gkj}% Tbeog |igm i| jb |}it}bm }n {ic` nr} na }jb |ljnnc drgcmgek% ]jb {ic` jnhb {i|

vbilbarc# {b |vn`b idnr} atgbem|# iem jb `bv} hw hgem naa na ]iì|jg iem icc }jb vige%


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Tbeog cigm hb mn{e ne }jb |nai iem vr} jg| jiem ne hw jbim# ljbl`gek ga G jiqb i abqbt%

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mnnt dbjgem hb iem |}rl` hw jbim ge }jb }ngcb} }jtn{gek rv {ji}bqbt G i}b }jg| hntegek% G

acr|jbm }jb }ngcb} |i} ne }jb acnnt% Hw lcbeljbm hw |}nhilj# }jb eir|bi}bm abbcgek {be} i{iw ant

i ab{ hger}b| iem }jbe lihb dil` {g}j i arcc antlb ghvil}% G |}it}bm }n }jtn{ rv ikige# ia}bt

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}n Gljgkn ant ie|{bt|%

Gh ageb% G |igm

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Ntgjghb# lie wnr lnhb nqbt iem ne wnrt {iw drw hb i vtbkeielw }b|}%

G |be} }jb hb||ikb iem {g}jge aga}bbe hger}b| Ntgjghb {i| i} hw jnr|b iem nr} na

dtbi}jb% Tbeog i|`bm jbt yrb|}gne|# dr} |jb ebqbt ie|{btbm% G nvbebm }jb di}jtnnh mnnt ant jbt

iem |jb |bltb}cw jiembm hb }jb vil`ikb%

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cg`b i cgab}ghb {i| vi||gek dw%

JN[)> Ntgjghb i|`bm

Jb mgm g}% G }ncm jbt {gvgek }jb }bit| i{iw {g}j i }g||rb%

Wnr cb} jgh> Ntgjghb i|`bm |g}}gek ebz} }n hb


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G |jnn` hw jbim# }ji}| {jbe |jb }nn` hw jiem| iem cnn`bm i} hb# g} {i| {tg}}be icc nqbt

jbt ailb# {b ebbm }n }bcc Gljgkn%En% G lie mbic {g}j }jg|% G |igm hw qnglb ltil`gek

Jb tivbm wnr# }jg| ebbm| }n db mbic} {g}j% Ntgjghb }ncm hb

]jb dbbvgek atnh }jb vtbkeielw }b|} bljnbm i| |gcbelb tigebm nqbt }jb di}jtnnh% Ntgjghb

iem G cnn`bm i} bilj n}jbt dbantb G kn} rv iem ljbl` }jb }b|}%

Nj hw knm# }jie` knm% G |igm i| G abcc }n hw èbb|%

]jg| ebbm| }n |}nv# wnrt |litgek }jb ltiv nr} na hb iem }jb tb|} na }jb kgtc|% Ntgjghb |igm |na}cw

i| |jb lti{cbm nqbt }n hb

G èn{% G |igm yrgb}cw

]jbe cb} hb }bcc Gljgkn% Ntgjghb vcbimbm

G |{iccn{bm jitm iem }jnrkj} idnr} g}# G {nrcm db vr}}gek hw|bca ge hntb miekbt ga Gljgkn

èb{ idnr} g}%

Nìw wnr lie }bcc jgh }nhnttn{% G |igm cnn`gek nqbt i} Ntgjghb {jn jrkkbm hb }gkj}cw%

]jie` knm) Wnr mne} mb|btqb }jg|% \jb |igm jbt qnglb ltil`bm i cg}}cb dg} i| ga |jb {i| ltwgek

G enmmbm iem jrkkbm jbt dil`# kcim }ji} |jb {i| kngek }n }bcc Gljgkn# kcim }ji} ]iì|jg

hgkj} ageiccw kn mn{e ant icc }jg| mtihi%

Tbeog iem Ntgjghb cba} hb itnrem ;vh# G {i| |litbm }n db icc icneb# iem G {i| |litbm

]iì|jg {i| kngek }n lnhb ge% Dr} G abcc i|cbbv ne }jb |nai dr} }jb {n`b rv i} hgmegkj} dblir|b

|nhbneb tiek }jb dbcc% G nvbebm }jb mnnt {g}jnr} cnn`gek }jtnrkj }jb vbb`(jncb%

\n wnr cba} bitcw# {ji} jivvbebm> }jb qnglb {i| hicb dr} G {i| |}gcc {ig}gek ant hw bwb| }n

imor|} }n }jb cgkj}|%

]iì|jg) G ki|vbm iem }tgbm }n lcn|b }jb mnnt%


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Mne} db |n trmb) ]i`i|jg |igm nvbegek }jb mnnt ikige

G dil`bm i{iw atnh jgh jnvgek }n hi`b i dtbi` ant hw tnnh |n G lie licc Tbeog nt }jb

vncglb%

Wnr lie} db jbtb) G |igm

[jw en}# wnrtb hw kgtcatgbem% G jiqb i tgkj} }n db jbtb% Jb |igm lcn|gek }jb mnnt dbjgem jgh%

]i`i|jg ivvtniljbm hb# G dil`bm i{iw bqbe hntb iatigm na {ji} jb lnrcm mn%

Cbiqb hb icneb) G wbccbm i| G tie rv|}igt|

Jb tie ia}bt hb iem vrccbm hw ith# jb wie`bm hb |n jitm G abcc mn{e }jb |}igt|% Hw jbim

{i| ge vige dr} hw idmnhbe {i| ge bz}tbhb vige%

G lcn|bm hw bwb|# jnvgek bqbtw}jgek {nrcm db nqbt ga G or|} lcn|bm hw bwb|% Jnvgek }jg|

{i| icc i jnttgdcb egkj}hitb% Dr} g} {i|e} }jb vige {i| tbic)


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Gh en} |rtb Ntgjghb% G |igm ge}n }jb vjneb

G jbitm i cnek jbiqw |gkj nqbt }jb vjneb# |jb jrek rv ne hb% Ntgjghb hr|} jiqb èn{e#

|jb| }jb necw neb {jn g| lcn|b }n Eihgb%Dr} {jw mgme}Ntgjghb }bcc hb>

Hw ai}jbt {i| ge }jb tnnh ant jnrt|# {i}ljgek jbt qg}ic |gke| i| jb agzbm jbt rv# G i|`bm

ga G lnrcm jbcv dr} jb |igm {g}j hw bhn}gne| tikgek Gm necw hi`b g} {nt|b% Ntgjghb ittgqbm {g}j

Ntgjghb i|`bm

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}jb atne} iem }jb dil` }ji} {i| kb}}gek cnek% G antkn} {ji} Eihgb liccbm }jb lr} dr} |jb |igm g}

cnn`bm lr}b% G |cgm mn{e }jb {icc iem |i} ne }jb acnnt# }jb hbhntgb| atnh }jb agkj} lihb rv%

]jg| g| icc hw airc}% G |igm

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ia}bt }jb agkj}# |jb èb{ wnr ji}bm jbt% Ntgjghb |i} mn{e db|gmb hb bzvcigegek }jb |g}ri}gne%

]jb hntb |jb }ncm hb }jb hntb G {ie}bm }n kn nr} iem jre} }jb di|}itm mn{e%

]jb jnrt| acb{ dw iem bqbe}riccw Ntgjghb iem Rtwr {be} jnhb# G {i| |}gcc i{i`b dr} G

hr|} jiqb abcc i|cbbv {ig}gek ant hw ai}jbt }n ageg|j% G mgme} èn{ {ji} {i| }i`gek jgh |n cnek

dr} G {ie}bm }n èn{ ga |jb {i| ictgkj}# ga |jb {i| kngek }n hi`b g}%

Gljgkn# kb} rv% G jbitm hw ai}jbt |iw i| jb |jnn` hb |n G lie {i`b rv%

Gh rv# g| |jb nìw> G i|`bm i| G |lieebm hw ai}jbt| ailb ge jnvb| na ie ie|{bt%


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Wbij# |jb| i{i`b% Ge vige dr} i{i`b% Jb |igm {g}j i |hgcb% Or|} mne} hbe}gne iew}jgek# {ig}

re}gc |jb| arccw tblnqbtbm%

G enmmbm iem kn} rv naa }jb acnnt iem {ic`bm ge}n }jb tnnh# Eihgb {i| |g}}gek }jbtb

vciwgek {g}j jbt jigt cg`b |jb ic{iw| mgm%

Jbw Eihgb% G |igm |na}cw i| G ivvtniljbm jbt

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Ljiv}bt =? Lneab||gne|

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nvbe }jb mnnt%


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Gljgkn yrgl`cw dcnl`bm }jb mnnt iem |cihhbm g} |jr}0 hw jbit} dbi} {i| kb}}gek ai|}bt%

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Ljiv}bt 2? Cgkj}| Nr}

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Eihgb# jb| or|} lnelbtebm% Gljgkn |igm }i`gek hw jiem


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G dg} }jb ge|gmb iem hw ljbb`# G abc} hw jbit} |}it} }n dbi} ai|}bt# G }nn` i lnrvcb na mbbv

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Iem |}it| itb aiccgek icc ant r|%


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G `bv} vciwgek }jb krg}it iem |}it}bm jrhhgek# }jg| {i| neb na hw aiqntg}b |nek|# i cnek

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Jb |i} mn{e ne }jb dbm |gkjbm% G èn{ Gh ge ant i cnek }ic`# G lie }bcc% [jbebqbt Gljgkn

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itnrem Gljgkn+| ebl`% ]jb `g|| {be} ne ant hger}b|# g} abc} {nembtarc0 jg| ith| cnl`bm itnrem hw

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}gkj}cw%]jie` wnr%


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Ljiv}bt 1? Lcnrmw ant i{jgcb

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}n hb%

G {i| kcim }n jiqb Gljgkn dil`0 g} abc} |n knnm }n jiqb jgh dil` ge hw jnhbtnnh% Ia}bt

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G {nrcm jiqb kneb dr} G jim i abit }ji} G mgm |bb ]iì|jg iem jbm db {ig}gek ant r|#

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|igm i| |jb vn`bm hw |}nhilj%

Nìw Ntgjghb% G |jnn` hw jbim% Wnr {ie} }n jiek nr} ia}bt |ljnnc# hiwdb i} hw jnr|b%


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G ebbm }n tbiccw ltih ant }jb Ljbhg|}tw }b|}# recb|| wnrtb {gccgek }n jbcv hb% Ntgjghb jge}bm

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G {i|e} ieenwbm {g}j }jb atgbem| rv|}igt|# dr} hntb rv|b} }ji} G jiqbe} dbbe abbcgek {bcc

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G |}itbm i} }jb lbgcgek0 G |}it}bm }n }jge` idnr} hw vitbe}| iem idnr} jn{ hrlj G }trcw

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ebbm }n vtn}bl} nt |nhb}jgek bc|b%


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Ljiv}bt :? Trei{iw

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tbiljgek ant hb i| G abcc ge}n {ji} cnn`bm cg`b }jb |`w%

Eihgb) Gljgkn wbccbm i| jb }tgbm }n ktid hw jiem%


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Dr} jb {i| or|} }nn ait ant hb }n bqbe ktid jg| jiem% [ji}| kngek ne> G| }jg| icc i mtbih

nt g| }jg| icc ant tbic> [jbtb ih G>Bti|b bqbtw}jgek wnr abbc# en vcilb }n tre# en vcilb }n b|livb% G jbitm i qnglb |iw

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jrkkbm wnr# wnr mg|ivvbitbm# iem }jbe bqbtw}jgek mg|ivvbitbm# G abcc ge}n }jb acnnt iem

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Ljiv}bt 7? G {i| en} jneb|}

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iem }jb mnnt ageiccw nvbebm% Hw jbit} |}it}bm dbi}gek ai|}bt0 G cnn`bm i{iw atnh Tbeog| |jgt}cb||

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Ljiv}bt 96? Cnn`gek ant {ntm| }n |iw *Gljgkn| Qgb{'

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Mihe jiqb wnr |bbe jn{ jn} }ji} kgtc g|> G nqbtjbitm i krw {jg|vbt

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Ljiv}bt 99? Hntb iekbt }jbe Cirkj}bt

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Rkj% G |igm i| G |jnn` hw jbim% Gcc db dil`% G |igm i| G {be} rv|}igt|%

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Itb wnr kngek }n }bcc hb {jw wnrqb dbbe iqngmgek hb icc miw> Tbeog i|`bm |jga}gek jg| {jncb

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Tbeog |}rmgbm hb iem enmmbm% Or|} kgqb hb |nhb }ghb# lie {b }ic` ci}bt idnr} }jg|>

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}bcc jgh% Gljgkn |igm i| jb cba} hw tnnh%


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]jb mnnt lcn|bm dbjgem jgh# hw jbit} mtnvvbm% ]jie`| ant en}jgek% G hrhdcbm }n

hw|bca% G mblgmbm }n |cbbv re}gc Tbeog lihb `enl`gek# vit} na hb {i| jnvgek jbm antkb} idnr}

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ciw hw jbim mn{e iem mtga} ge}n i mbbv |cbbv%


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Ljiv}bt 9=? Dtn`be Iekbc

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Gljgkn cnn`bm i} hb# G lnrcme} tbim jg| bzvtb||gne iem g} `gem na lnelbtebm hb% Dr} g}

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I[) Or|} cg`b jn{ g} r|b }n db% G||jge }bi|bm%

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}ji} jb| jbtb ant hb%


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Ljiv}bt 92? Aicc ant wnr

G jim kn}}be i licc atnh Ntgjghb ia}bt {b cba} }jb lcgegl |jb vtnrmcw }ncm hb |jb {i| arccw

hnqbm ge iem icc |jb ebbmbm }n mn {i| revil`% \jb ic|n }ncm hb bqbtwneb {i| kngek ne }n

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lnelbic i |hgcb%

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|nhb}jgek ge hgem%

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G jim i abbcgek wnr mgm% G hrhdcbm

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|hgcb ne jg| ailb%

[ji} `gem na |rtvtg|b> G i|`bm {g}j i |hgcb


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G |gkjbm iem {be} rv|}igt| jb anccn{bm }jbe {b vit}bm {iw|# jb {be} }n jg| tnnh iem

lcn|bm }jb mnnt% I| |nne i| G nvbebm }jb mnnt hw i}}be}gne {i| dnrkj} }n }jb |hicc dcil` jic}bt

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ge}n hw tnnh# hw jbit} tilgek% Gljgkn }nn` jncm na hw jiem iem dnrkj} hb dil` nr} na hw

tnnh%En) G |igm agkj}gek ikige|} jg| ktgv

[ji} wnr cnn` dbir}garc% Gljgkn |igm {g}j i |hgcb%

G ji}b wnr% G |igm lnqbtgek hw tbm ailb%

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dw Dnwlb Iqberb% G dg} mn{e ne hw dn}}nh cgv# G abc} Gljgkn }i`b }jb |lita naa%

Nj hw knm% G |igm |}itgek i} jn{ hw dil`witm mblnti}bm%

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}nn` hw jiem iem |hgcbm%

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G ji}b wnr% G ktn{cbm {g}j i |hgcb ne hw ailb%


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Cg`b G |igm# Gcc ljiekb wnrt hgem dw }jb bem na }jb egkj}% Jb |igm }i`gek hb }n }jb hgmmcb na

}jb dil`witm {btb ktnrem |bbhbm }n kb} |hnn}jbt%

]jb |nek |{g}ljbm }n }jb ilnr|}gl qbt|gne na Ljiekb wnrt Hgem dw Dnwlb Iqberb% G

dcr|jbm iem tbhbhdbt }ji} |nek mb|ltgdgek i krw iem i kgtc {jn ebqbt {be} nr} dr} }jb krw

{ie}bm }n ljiekb jbt hgem%

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mielb# bqbe }jnrkj G ji}bm mielgek# G beonwbm jg| bhdtilb% Gljgkn g| mgaabtbe}# jb {i| |}rddnte#

hbie# iem ic{iw| {bitgek i |ln{c ne jg| ailb# dr} jb| ljiekbm% En{ jb |}iw| i} hw |gmb

vtnhg|b| hb jb {ne} cbiqb hb icneb# iem `bbv| hb |hgcgek% [ji} g| bil}cw kngek ne ge hw

jbim# hw jbit} |iw| jb| mgaabtbe}# jbcc `bbv hb |iab# iem hw jbit} g| |iwgek# wnr cg`b jgh |n {jw

mbew g} iew cnekbt>]jb |nek |{g}ljbm }n Aicc ant wnr i lnqbt mneb dw Hgljibc Jbetw iem Or|}ge Tndgeb}}# G

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Ge|}bim na dbgek }be|b G {i| il}riccw tbcizbm%


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Wnr ic{iw| }jnrkj} G {i| |}tnekbt# G hiw jiqb aigcbm# dr} G jiqb cnqbm wnr atnh }jb |}it}% ]jb

|nek lne}gerbm%G vrccbm i{iw iem cnn`bm i} Gljgkn# hw jbit} |`gvvbm i dbi}% Jg| ailb {i| tbm iem hgeb

{i| vtndidcw or|} i| tbm% Dr} }jb `g|| abc} |n tgkj}G |hgcbm iem jrkkbm Gljgkn%]jie` wnr# ]jie` wnr ant bqbtw}jgek% G |igm hw bwb| dblnhgek {i}btw%G} {i| hw vtnhg|b }n wnr# neb G mne} ge}bem ne dtbi`gek% Gljgkn |igm i| jb jrkkbm hb dil`%I[[[[[) G jbitm i cnrm qnglb |ltbih

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Ljiv}bt 91? [ig} |n g}| naaglgic>

G {i| mwgek ge hw dbmtnnh atnh bhditti||hbe} }ji} G bzvbtgbelbm mn{e|}igt|# G |gkjbm

jbiqgcw ge}n hw vgccn{ hw ljbb`| dcigek%

Eihgb cb} hb ge% G jbitm Gljgkn licc

En% G liccbm

Lnhb ne g} {i|e} }ji} dim% Gljgkn |igm }twgek }n lcih hb mn{e%

G ktn{cbm iem nvbebm }jb mnnt0 jb {i| |hgcgek dr} }twgek }n db |btgnr| i} }jb |ihb }ghb%

G} {i| areew dr} }jg| egkj} {i| }nn hrlj# ge dn}j {iw|% Gljgkn lcn|bm }jb mnnt dbjgem hb iem

kn} hb |hgcb%

[jw itb }jbw jbtb> G i|`bm cnn`gek i} jgh

G mne} `en{# hiwdb }n lcbie rv% Gljgkn |jtrkkbm

G cbiebm rv ikige|} }jb {icc iem |cgmb mn{e }n }jb acnnt% ]jb iaabl} na }jb vit}w {i| |}gcc

}jbtb% G} himb hw jbit} dbi} ai|}bt iem ai|}bt |gelb Gljgkn {i| ge hw tnnh% Jb |i} mn{e ebz} }n

hb%

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}i`be naa hw dbm%

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}ghb }ji} G {i| |}trkkcgek Gljgkn {i| cirkjgek%

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atnh jgh%

Ageb% Gljgkn |igm {g}j i |hgcb


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Jb kn} rv iem {ic`bm nqbt }n hw mti{# {g}j i |}tnek }rk }jb mti{ nvbebm% G ktn{cbm iem

vciwarccw vr|jbm Gljgkn i{iw%

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hb {jgcb G }nn` naa hw hi`brv%

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Jn{ idnr} wnr r|b eneb% Gljgkn |rkkb|}bm i| j

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