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W`v`jeej Nhudk`e wiukd wr`tj `eg`e`tj stir`js `e bjr

jxjrm`sj liics uet`k bjr pr`nhry tjhmbjrs tiictbjn hwhy. ]bj bhs rj`ejd bjrsjkg `e sinjwbhtlut st`kk kivjs ti djgy tbj wr`t`ea rukjs. ]bjmurrjetky rjs`djs ht sjh kjvjk `e Lr`abtie try`ea

hed gh`k`ea! ti "ujkk bjr whedjrkust.

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%ipyr`abt W`v`jeej Nhukd`e

$bj r`abt ig W`v`jeej Nhudk`e ti lj `djet`g`jd hs

hutbir ig tb`s wirc bhs ljje hssjrtjd ly bjr `ehmmirdhemj w`tb sjmt`ie && hed &' ig tbj %ipyr`abt()js`aes hed *htjets +mt ,-''.

+kk r`abts rjsjrvjd. i phrt ig tb`s pulk`mht`ie nhy ljrjpridumjd( stirjd `e h rjtr`jvhk systjn( irtrhesn`ttjd `e hey girn ir ly hey njhes( jkjmtrie`m(njmbhe`mhk( pbitimipy`ea( rjmird`ea( ir itbjrw`sj(

w`tbiut tbj pr`ir pjrn`ss`ie ig tbj pulk`sbjrs.

+ey pjrsie wbi minn`ts hey uehutbir`/jd hmt `erjkht`ie ti tb`s pulk`mht`ie nhy lj k`hlkj ti mr`n`ehkprisjmut`ie hed m`v`k mkh`ns gir dhnhajs.

+ %6* mhthkiauj rjmird gir tb`s t`tkj `shvh`khlkj grin tbj Lr`t`sb 8`lrhry.

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;*bitiarhpby( hs wj ceiw( `s eit rjhk ht hkk.6t `s >ust he `kkus`ie ig rjhk`ty w`tb wb`mb

wj mrjhtj iur iwe pr`vhtj wirkd.5 Hreikd Ejwnhe

;Lut sinjt`njs w`ediws lrjhc.6 tb`ec tbht( nirj tbhe heytb`ea jksj( `s tbjmiemjre ig tb`s stiry9 wbht bhppjes ti tbj

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akhss lja`es ti gkyH5

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6 rjm`tj9

;6 hn h s`mc nhe... 6 hn he heary nhe. 6 hnhe uehttrhmt`vj nhe.5

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; it heynirj.5Ny lhmc `s skunpjd `eti tbj whkk( ny sp`ej

murvjs ht he heakj ti wb`mb `t `s eit hmmustinjd

yjt 6 mhe nustjr ej`tbjr tbj jejray eir strjeatbti nivj nysjkg. Ny n`ed `s rhm`ea( jxpkir`eahvjeujs `e ny lrh`e tbht hrj suddjeky mkjhr.

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tbiuabts( hkk ny ejw miae`t`ies( rjvjkk`ea `e tbjmbhemj tbht 6 nhy eiw nhcj ny iwe njnir`js.

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ah/j upie tbj lid`js ky`ea ljgirj nj. 6 mheeitprjvjet h sn`kj grin mrjjp`ea hmriss ny ghmj( hsn`kj tbht tbrjhtjes ti jxpkidj `eti khuabtjr hs 6whtmb bjr k`gjkjss girn murvj( bjr pirmjkh`e sc`estrjtmb`ea ivjr bjr lricje liejs.

]`npky p`mtur`ea wbht 6 miukd di ti bjr eiwsbj mhe ei kieajr g`abt lhmc sjeds sb`vjrs r`abthmriss ny sc`e hed diwe ny sp`ej. 6 rithtj nysbiukdjr lkhdjs( sn`rc`ea ht bjr.

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Ny jyjs gk`mcjr tiwhrds ny gjjt( b`s bjhd `srjst`ea tbjrj( jyjs rikkjd lhmc `es`dj b`s bjhd(hs `g bj `s sthr`ea r`abt `eti b`s iwe n`ed(whtmb`ea b`s tbiuabts uegikd.

`s lidy rjprjsjets jvjrytb`ea 6 bhvjhmb`jvjd. 6 prid b`s bjhd w`tb ny giit. 6t nivjshliut jhs`ky eiw 6 bhvj lricje tbj liejs hedk`ahnjets `e b`s ejmc. 6 whtmb b`n `etjetky hs `gsinjwbjrj `e tbj v`smjrh ig ny n`ed 6 jxpjmtb`n ti nivj( ir bhvj b`s jyjs rikk lhmc hed

gimus ie nj. 6 bjhr h siued djjp w`tb`e nj hsny njmbhe`sns sbr`jc ti k`gj( mias sthrt`ea tisp`e hed ar`ed hah`est iej heitbjr( hs 6 gjjk htwhea ig au`kt.

6 supprjss `t "u`mcky( kiic`ea hwhy grin b`slidy hed mkis`ea ny jyjs.

$bj mias lja`e ti skiw( mrjhc`ea kiudky

hah`est iej heitbjr.6 "ujkk tbj jnphtby tbht wjkks `es`dj nj(s"uhsb`ea tbj khst ig b`s mietrik ivjr nj. j `seiw ig ei nirj s`ae`g`mhemj ti nj tbhe hp`epr`mc drip `e h sp`kkjd piik ig v`ra`ehk lkiid.

j bikds eitb`ea `es`dj ig nj( tbj lied wjsbhrjd bhs pjr`sbjd hkieas`dj b`s n`ed.

$bjrj `s h ceimc ht tbj diir.

Ny stinhmb kurmbjs.

6 mhe sjesj tbj urajemy `e tbj ceumckjs tbhtskhn `eti tbj wiid. 6 sehp ny jyjs ipje hedpjjr hriued tbj mirejr tiwhrds tbj diir. 6t `srjst`ea k`abtky `e tbj grhnj( `t `s burt`ea s`emj 6c`mcjd `t `e hed sbhttjrjd tbj kimc( wbht sjjnsk`cj h wbikj k`gjt`nj hai.

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+ arihe jsmhpjs ny k`ps hs 6 mk`nl ti ny gjjt(suppirt`ea hkk ny wj`abt ie tbj whkk.

6 bjs`thtj hs 6 nivj tiwhrds tbj diir hs tbjceimc`ea bhs mjhsjd.

6 jxbhkj h lrjhtb 6 whs eit hwhrj 6 bhd ljjebikd`ea.

$bje tbjrj `s heitbjr ceimc... hed tbjeheitbjr... ghstjr hed ghstjr... tbj diir >ikts `e `tsgrhnj.

6 stunlkj tbj khst gjw stjps hed tbriw ny

wbikj lidy `eti tbj diir.6 prjss ny girjbjhd `eti tbj diir hed ar`ptbj bhedkj t`abtky `e ny bhed. 6 gjjk ei djs`rj tiipje tbj diir lut 6 ejjd tbj suppirt gir nygrha`kj lidy hs ny ejw tbiuabts rhaj v`ikjetky.

+ vi`mj minjs mrhsb`ea tbriuab tbj diir.6t `s bhrsb hed smrhtmbjs hmriss ny jhrs. $bj

bh`rs ie tbj lhmc ig ny ejmc sthed up hed 6prjss nysjkg mkisjr ti tbj diir( hs `g 6 n`abt ghkkr`abt tbriuab ieti tbj nhe k`eajr`ea ie tbjitbjr s`dj.

;Nr M`kjyD56 ar`e hs 6 rjhk`sj `t `s eit nj bj whets( lut

tbj nhe 6 bhvj c`kkjd. 6 rjhk`sj suddjeky tbht 6bhvj h mbhemj ti usj ny g`ehk hed nistljhut`guk p`jmj ig wirc.

;Nr M`kjyD 6 ceiw yiu hrj `e tbjrj. Jpje tbjdiir.5

6 sn`kj `eti tbj wiid hs b`s vi`mj mrhmcs w`tbheajr.

;$bj smrjhn`ea bhs wicje ny w`gj. +kk tb`sei`sj. $bj g`rj. 6 bhvj bhd jeiuabD5

6 kjhe ny ejmc lhmc hed thcj h djjp lrjhtb(g`kk`ea ny kueas w`tb sthkj h`r hed pri>jmt`eanysjkg tbriuab ht b`n( ny vi`mj tb`mc hedstjhdy.

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;6 hn sirry. htbhe `s uehlkj ti heswjr.5*righe`t js sp`kk grin tbj nhes niutb hed

tbriuab tbj diir. ;#ir %br`sts shcj Nr M`kjy...6n eit ai`ea ti thcj tb`s heynirj. $bjrjsitbjr pjipkj k`v`ea `e tb`s lu`kd`ea ljs`djs yiuD5

6 di eit tb`ec bj bhs k`stjejd ti nj(sinjtb`ea tbht miukd mhusj h arjht n`sgirtuej.

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wbikj lidy sbhcjs w`tb b`s girmj.;Giu hrj eit k`stje`ea. 6 A ]h`d A j `s uehlkjti minj ti tbj diir. j A `s uehlkj ti heswjr5

;6 bhvj bhd jeiuabD5 `s wirds punnjk tbjdiir. ;6 mheeit thcj hey nirj ig yiur sb`t. 6djnhed ti ceiw wbht tbj bjkk `s ai`ea ieD5

6 khuab "u`jtky ti nysjkg.

;6 tb`ec 6 mhe sbjd k`abt ie h gjw tb`eas.56 rjhmb `eti ny pimcjt hed pukk iut hejevjkipj. 6 pukk h sjmt`ie ig tbj nht up hwhygrin tbj gkiirlihrds hed sk`dj tbj jevjkipjuedjrejhtb. $bjrj `s h rustk`ea ei`sj hs bj tjhrs`t grin ny bhed. 6 sn`rc hs 6 bjhr b`n r`pp`eahwhy ht tbj phpjr.

$bje... tbjrj `s s`kjemj.6 prjss ny jhr ti tbj diir hed struaakj ti

nhcj iut b`s sthaajrjd lrjhtb`ea. $bjrj `s sinjtb`ea tbht siueds numb k`cj h

ahsp.6 gjjk `t gkiid ny lidy hed rue up ny sp`ej. 6

hn akhd 6 hn hkrjhdy ie tbj gkiir gir tbjsjesht`ies tbht rue r`abt tbriuab nj nhy bhvjmhusjd nj ti mikkhpsj hed wr`tbj.

; hvj yiu rjhd ny kjttjrH5j thcjs h ninjet.

;Gjs...5

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; hvj yiu kiicjd ht ny pbitiarhpb... 6 njherjhkky kiicjdH 6 whet yiu sthrj ht b`n( 6 whetyiu ti `nha`ej wbht bhs bhppjejd ti b`n. $rustnj( tbj rjhk`ty ig wbht bj jedurjd w`kk lj ghrwirsj tbhe yiur kiejky n`ed mhe mie>urj. 6hssurj yiu.5

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;6 bhvj.56 sn`kj uemietrikkhlky( uehlkj ti st`gkj nykhuabtjr.

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cejw bj whs ny hsp`rht`ie( bj whs nyjxpjmtht`ie hed b`s djhtb whs ny pr`/j girpht`jemj.

+s 6 prjss nysjkg mkisjr ti tbj diir 6 mhehknist bjhr b`s n`ed smrjhn`ea tbj wirds9

@ C@KKJD B@N

6 spjhc ti b`n hah`e tbriuab tbj diir(cjjp`ea ny vi`mj kjvjk hed mhkn.

;6 hn sirry. htbhe `s uehlkj ti heswjr... 6c`kkjd b`n.5

6 wh`t gir b`n ti nhcj tbj ejxt nivj... 6 turelhmc hriued( pjjr`ea `eti b`s sphmj tbht 6 bhvj`etrudjd ie( numb `e tbj shnj why 6 `evhdjd b`sn`ed.

6 sjj tbj lid`js ky`ea nit`iekjss ie tbj gkiirhnieast whtjr( ph`et hed piiks ig tbj`r iwelkiid hed wiedjr biw tbiuabts ig `ehdj"uhmy

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wjrj jvjr a`vje sbjktjr w`tb`e tbj shemt`ty ig nyn`ed.

;6n mhkk`ea tbj pik`mjD5 6 bjhr b`n sbiut( 6bjhr b`n tbuedjr`ea up tbj sth`rs lut 6 hnuehgrh`d... tbjy mheeit mhtmb nj. $bjrj `seitb`ea tbjy mhe di ti burt nj.

6 rjm`tj9;6 hn h s`mc nhe... 6 hn he heary nhe. 6 hn

he uehttrhmt`vj nhe.5+ah`e( 6 rjm`tj ti eilidy `e phrt`mukhr hed 6

khuab.; it heynirj.56 sn`kj hed mrhmc ny ceumckjs.;Lut... 6 hn... h grjj nhe...5

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PIZ C@KKJD BJ\

$bjsj hrj tbj wirds pr`etjd `e lkimc mhp`thks ietbj p`jmj ig phpjr 6 g`ed( `e he jevjkipj( b`ddje`es`dj tbj nire`ea ejwsphpjr.

6ts s`x n`eutjs phst j`abt hed 6 mhe st`kk sjjtbj sik`thry liy wbi djk`vjrjd tbj phpjr rusb`eahkiea tbj rihd. #ir e`ej pi`et giur sjmieds 6

sthrj hgtjr b`n( hed tbje 6 mkisj tbj diir. 6rjtrjht `es`dj ny hphrtnjet pjjr`ea up heddiwe tbj mirr`dir ljgirj kimc`ea nysjkg `es`dj.

$bj ejwsphpjr gk`embjs `e ny bhed hed tbjn`ddkj phajs ghkk bystjr`mhkky ti tbj ariued. 6sirt tbriuab tbjn( smrjw`ea p`jmj hgtjr p`jmj`eti h t`abt lhkk.

$bjrj `s sinjtb`ea jksj( `ts eit phrt ig tbjejwsphpjr hed tbjrj `s ei diult hliut tbht. 6tsh kjttjr hed h pbitiarhpb. + pbitiarhpb ig hdjhd winhe.

6 rjhd tbj wirds hah`e...

PIZ C@KKJD BJ\

Lut 6 d`det. $bhts wbht 6 tb`ec.6 >ust d`det.]`npkj.

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$bjrjs ei rjhsie`ea w`tb sinj pjipkjsinjt`njs( yiu mhet lj hriued pjipkj k`cj tb`s(igtje 6 g`ed `ts ljst >ust ti `aeirj tbjn hedsjphrhtj yiursjkg jet`rjky.

6 kjhvj tbj lhkks ig phpjr( tbj njsshaj hedtbj pbitiarhpb ie tbj nht. $bjy bhvj ei r`abtti minj hey gurtbjr `eti ny sphmj. +eitbjrgirtyFg`vj mjet`njtrjs hed tbjy miukd jhs`ky bhvjnhdj `t ti tbj nhstjr ljdriin. i( `ts ljst girtbjn ti sthy wbjrj tbjy hrj. $bhts h miemkus`ie

hed h miemkus`ie `s g`ehk hed `t wiukd ht kjhstrj"u`rj he jxpkheht`ie hs ti wby `ts ei kieajrg`ehk.

+e jxpkheht`ie 6 wiukd eit d`vukaj.Jeky tbj griet phaj ig tbht ejwsphpjr `s

hkkiwjd ti hdvhemj `es`dj.6 thcj `t `eti tbj nhstjr ljdriin. 6 g`ed h

sphmj ie tbj whkk wbjrj tidhys hdd`t`ie mhe ljd`spkhyjd. ?vjry dhy 6 diult 6 w`kk g`ed h sphmjgir h ejw iej lut surj jeiuab( 6 g`ed ejwphtmbjs ig str`pjd whkkphpjr tbht 6n surj wjrjeit tbjrj ljgirj. 6ts iej ig tbisj tb`eas tbhtmhet lj jxpkh`ejd us`ea sm`jemj ir nhtb. 6tstbjsj tb`eas tbht 6 diet uedjrsthed.

$bisj tb`eas tbht ej`tbjr nhcj yiu bhppyeir shd( tbisj gjjk`eas tbht hrj hkk `e ljtwjje.

$bjy diet nhcj sjesj. $bjrjgirj tbjy dietbhvj h purpisj.

6g 6 bhvj iej ig tbjsj gjjk`eas tbht mhet ljminprjbjedjd tbje 6 usj h ce`gj ti nhcj tbjnai hwhy.

$b`s `s wbht 6 di eiw. 6 bhvj h drhw `e tbjc`tmbje >ust gir tb`s ce`gj. 6t dijs eit ljkiea w`tbny itbjr tb`easB `t nustet `etrudj ie tbj tb`eas6 uedjrsthed.

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6 ajt lkiid ie ny whtmb. 6t tjkks nj `ts s`xn`eutjs phst j`abt. 6ts hkwhys s`x n`eutjs phstj`abt( jvje wbje 6 ceiw `ts eit ljmhusj tbj sue`s b`ab `e tbj scy hed tbj sbhdiws hrj sbirt hedue`npirthet. 6t bhs ljje jvjr s`emj 6 lricj `t.

6 put tbj ce`gj lhmc `es`dj tbj drhw. $bj tb`rddrhw grin tbj r`abt( 6 miukd g`ed `t jvje `g 6 whslk`ed hed 6 miukd nhcj tbisj muts `e ny gkjsbphrhkkjk w`tb jhmb itbjr hed stip tbj lkiid grinsth`e`ea ny mkitbjs. 6ts h sm`jemj hed `ts

sm`jemj tbht 6 uedjrsthed.6 w`pj tbj lkiid ieti ny sb`rt skjjvj. 6 sbiukdmbheaj. 6 mies`djr. 6 wiukd ejjd tbht abhstkyarjjeFmikkhrjd sbirtFskjjvjd sb`rt `g 6 hn ti ai tiwirc. 6 mhet ai ti wirc( eit yjt heywhy. 6nwh`t`ea gir N`ki ti mhkk. N`ki hkwhys mhkks nj ietb`s dhy. $brjj dhys `eti tbj wjjc( wbhtjvjr

dhy tbht nhy lj.6 gk`mc tbriuab ny rh`k ig mkitbjs lhrjky phy`eahttjet`ie t`kk ny bheds g`ed tbj mihrsj ghlr`m igny wirc sb`rt. 6 rjhkky sbiukd ai ti wirc( `ts tbjr`abt t`nj( tbj sues >ust r`abt `e tbj scy lut 6mhet( N`ki ejjds nj. 6 mbheaj hed put tbj d`rtysb`rt `eti tbj c`tmbje s`ec. 6 g`kk tbj liwk w`tbwhtjr hed whtmb tbj lkujs ture hknist lkhmc hstbj ghlr`m sihcs `t up. 6 mhet g`ed tbj spjm`hkghlr`m sihp tbht N`ki liuabt gir nj si 6 drip hlhr ig sihp `eti tbj whtjr hed kjt `t s`ec ti tbjlittin.

$b`s `s wbje tbj tjkjpbiej r`eas. i( wh`t( `td`det. )`d `tH

6 p`mc `t up hed k`stje ti tbj dukk nieisykkhl`mtiej tbht `e t`nj ljminjs >ust wb`tj ei`sj hs 6k`stje ti tbj siued ig ny sphmj. 6 mhe bjhrjvjrytb`ea( tb`eas tbht itbjr pjipkj mhe ieky

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`nha`ej. $bisj pjipkj hrj eit eirnhk. 6 hneirnhk. Wjry eirnhk.

6 mhe bjhr tbj gkiirlihrds struaak`ea ti bikdny wj`abt( 6 mhe bjhr tbj k`abts lu//`ea hs tbjypriv`dj h miesthet k`abt( 6 mhe bjhr tbj diirlrjhtb`ea `es`dj `ts grhnj hed 6 mhe bjhr ny bh`rariw`ea.

$b`s whs wbje tbj tjkjpbiej r`eas. $b`s t`nj6 hn r`abt. 6t `s rjhk. 6t `s kiud( rjhkky kiud hs 6bikd `t ejxt ti ny jhr w`sb`ea gir tbj wb`tj ei`sj

ti minj lhmc.6 wh`t gir h gjw ninjets( tbje...; jkkiH5 N`ki spjhcs ljgirj 6 di.6 shy eitb`ea.; jkkiH5 j shys `t hah`e. $w`mj. jvjr nirj

tbhe tw`mj.; jkki.5 6 mipy b`n( `t `s shgjst.

; htjH56 hn s`kjet.; iw hrj tb`easH5;#`ej.56 whtmb tbj sue( 6 hn khtj. 6 k`stje ti ny

lritbjrs vi`mj lut 6 diet rjhkky rjnjnljr wbhtbj shys hgtjr tbht. ]injtb`ea hliut biw numbskjjp 6vj ljje ajtt`ea( sinjtb`ea hliut b`swirc( sinjtb`ea hliut ny wirc( sinjtb`eahliut biw birr`lkj tbj wjhtbjr `s( sinjtb`eahliut h djhd winhe `e tbj ejws( sinjtb`eahliut b`s ejw tjkjv`s`ie.

0h`t. + djhd winheH;N`kiH5;GjsH5; iw d`d sbj d`jH5;0biH5;$bj winhe.5;]trheakjd.5

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;Jb.5 +ed tbht `s tbht. ]injtb`ea hliut hwinhe bjs njt( sinjtb`ea hliut tbj jkjmt`ieyjhr( sinjtb`ea hliut W`jtehn( sinjtb`eahliut nhylj ai`ea hwhy gir h vhmht`ie ir sinjsirt ig tr`p( sinjtb`ea hliut sinjtb`ea hliuteitb`ea.

+gtjr tbht 6 hsc b`n ti bhea up. j shys bjw`kk.

; htjH5 j shys.;GjsH5 6 shy.

;6 diet lkhnj yF5 6 bhea up ljgirj bjg`e`sbjs spjhc`ea lut 6 ceiw wbht bj whs ai`eati shy( `t w`kk lj wbht bj hkwhys shys. i iejjvjr shys aiidlyj.

N`ki bhs nhdj nj gjjk strheaj( mhtjair`mhkkystrheaj( si tbht 6 d`det ceiw wbht 6 sbiukd shyir di ir hmt( bj nhcjs `t si 6n eit si eirnhk

heynirj( si 6 ai ti tbj tb`rd drhw grin tbjr`abt( 6 bhvj ti. @ust k`cj hkwhys.

Gkhsb

6 mhe sjj b`n.j `s tbjrj. M`abt tbjrj. j `s mutt`ea `eti

b`nsjkg hah`e.6t `s h mip`ea njmbhe`sn. 6 di eit lkhnj b`n(

6 wiukd ejjd h rjkjhsj( hgtjr hkk tbjrj `s eitb`eak`cj jxirm`s`ea yiursjkg ig yiur djnies hedkjtt`ea hkk tbht gkiws `e tbj khlyr`etb ig yiur n`edjsmhpj.

`s mbi`mj ti miemjdj ti tb`s why ig k`gj `ssbimc`ea( jvje nirj sbimc`ea( pjrbhps( yjt eitsi numb( `s ny pht`jemj ljgirj 6 c`kk b`n. 6t ph`esnj djjpky. $bj djs`rj ti str`cj b`s bjhd grin b`ssbiukdjrs( ti pukk b`s n`ed r`abt iut ig b`s scukk

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puksjs tbriuab nj( hnhkahnht`ea w`tb nylkiid.

6t piwjrs ny irahes. 6t dr`vjs ny jx`stjemj. 6hn ht `ts njrmy.

6t hnusjs nj tbht bj `s minpkjtjky uehwhrjig ny prjsjemj( uehwhrj tbht `s uet`k bj ipjejdny kjttjr hed pbitiarhpb. Gjt bj `s st`kk uehwhrj`t whs nj.

3id dhne bj `s stup`d( tbht diecjy smhrmjkyjvje ceiws wbht dhy `t `s.

6 mhe sjj b`n.

j `s >ust s`tt`ea eiw. j `s s`npky s`tt`ea( eitjvje whtmb`ea tbj wirkd ai ly.

j hkwhys dijs tb`s( spjeds t`nj sthr`ea `etisphmj. 6 mhe sjj tbj kjx`s wb`rr`ea riued `es`dj

b`s bjhd( b`s lrh`e wirc`ea `tsjkg `eti h grje/y.`s njmbhe`sn smrjhn ti k`gj( st`kk eit usjd tibhv`ea ti wirc si bhrd ti girn s`npkjmiae`t`ies. 6 whtmb b`s ghmj ehrriwkyB b`s jyjshrj eit jvje lk`ec`ea. j `s gri/je `e iej pkhmj.3id ceiws wbht rusbjs hriued `es`dj b`nhktbiuab yiu mhe tjkk tbht tbj tbiuabts hrj eitejw ir jnlryie`m( tbjy hrj tbiuabts bj bhs bhdnhey t`njs ljgirj.

iw bj bhs h ejw eit`ie ti hdd9 ny kjttjr.6 writj tbht kjttjr he jxtjes`vj t`nj hai. 6t

whs kiea ljgirj 6 sehppjd tbht winhes ejmcw`tb ny bheds hed sehtmbjd bjr lrjhtb hwhy.

$bjy mhkk tbht prjnjd`thtjd. 6 mhkk tbht sjesj.i sjesj `e di`ea heytb`ea `g yiu hrj eit ai`ea

ti nhcj h pkhe.]piethej`ty `s eit h djs`rhlkj trh`t( `t st`ecs

ig rjmckjssejss.

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6t dijs eit nhttjr tbht 6 ejvjr cejw tbjwinhe 6 c`kkjd. ]bj whs eitb`ea lut h rusj tismhrj hed nhe`pukhtj b`n ljgirj bj ljminjsn`ej. ]i `t sjjnjd bikkiw ti g`ed iut bjr ehnj(6 whtmbjd bjr( k`cj 6 whtmb b`n hed ejvjr d`d sbjshy `t( sbj d`d eit whet nj ti ceiw `t. ?vjryitbjr hvjeuj `e bjr k`gj 6 whs kjd `eti tbriuabipje diirs. 6 cejw jeiuab hliut bjr ti mhtmbbjr hkiej wbje tbj sue whs kiw `e tbj scy. 6gikkiwjd bjr ieky gir h njhsky gjw dhys( jeiuab

ti kjhre bjr riut`ej( bjr ghviur`tj pkhmjs. 6t `shnh/`ea biw numb yiu mhe kjhre `g yiu >ustk`stje hed whtmb. 6 giued iut jvjrytb`ea 6 ejjdjdti ceiw. Lut ejvjr bjr ehnj.

*jrbhps 6 sbiukd bhvj wh`tjd ljgirj sthrt`eany tirturj ie b`n( wh`tjd gir h aikdje

ippirtue`ty wbjrj bj `s ht b`s nist vukejrhlkj.0h`t gir h t`nj wbje jvjry kjttjr hedpbitiarhpb w`kk sjed b`s bjhd rjjk`ea. *ht`jemj`s h v`rtuj hed itbjr sumb ilk`ahtiry mk`mbOs 6suppisj. 6 w`kk wh`t hed siie 6 sbhkk lj rjwhrdjdly djk`vjr`ea b`s bjhd ti nysjkg ie h sb`e`eas`kvjr pkhttjr. $bjsj tbiuabts siie jvhmuhtj nybjhd hs 6 whtmb b`n sk`m`ea `eti b`s sc`e. j `srjhdy. j hkwhys bhs ljje.

6 bhvj ljje whtmb`ea b`n gir hs kiea 6 bhvjljje jx`st`ea( `t bhs ljje kiea jeiuab ti arhspb`s bhl`ts hed kjhre tbj k`ttkj tb`eas tbht nhcjb`n t`mcB tb`eas 6 nhylj hkrjhdy cejw lut `t bhsljje tii kiea s`emj 6 khst kh`d ny jyjs ie b`n tilj surj bj bhs eit mbheajd. 0j hkk mbheaj.

$idhy 6 bhvj ljje whtmb`ea b`n jvjr s`emj 6sk`ppjd tbht eitj hed pbitiarhpb djjp `es`dj b`sejwsphpjr hed pkhetjd tbiuabts ig nj djjp

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`es`dj b`s lrh`e. j ejvjr jvje tiic `t iut ig tbjbhkk. j miukd ejvjr minprjbjed `t.

*jrbhps bj ceiws wbht bj bhs diej ti nj(ir pjrbhps b`s n`ed d`s`etjarhtjd kiea jeiuabhai gir njnir`js ti lj ieky h s`npkj iutk`ej `etbj gia tbht `ejv`thlky djsmjeds.

6 phusj gir lut h ninjet.j `s s`kjet.

6 hn s`kjet.?vjrytb`ea `s s`kjet.

6 w`sb bj wiukd nivj. Jej t`ey `es`ae`g`mhetnivjnjet. + "u`vjr( h lk`ec( h wr`aakj ig tbjeisj. +eytb`ea. 6t wiukd >ust nhcj jvjrytb`eagjjk wirtbwb`kj.

6 >ust whet ti ceiw biw bj gjjks r`abt eiw. 6 >ust whet ti ceiw tbht 6 mhe mhusj b`n hs numbph`e hs bj mhusjd nj. $bht `s hkk( `g ieky 6 miukd

ajt mkisjr.j `s eit tbht ghr hwhy( rjhkky tbjrj `s eitb`ealjtwjje us. itb`ea ht hkk.

+kk 6 bhvj ti di `s nivj mkisjr.3id ceiws wby 6vj ljminj si `eghtuhtjd

w`tb rjvjeaj tbht 6 sbhkk triulkj nysjkg w`tb`nhajs ig b`s djhtb ht ny bheds. Mjhmb iut hed`e iej sw`gt nivj bj wiukd lj n`ej. 3id dhne`t wiukd lj si jhsy( lut tbht wiukd lj stup`d.

Gjhrs ig pkhee`ea wiukd lj aiej w`tb tbj sehpig b`s ejmc. $bht diecjy wiukd eit jvje ceiw 6whs tbjrj uet`k `t whs tii khtj. i suggjr`ea. iph`e. Lut `g 6 miukd >ust sjj `t... >ust nivj tbhtk`ttkj l`t mkisjr.....

Gkhsb

6 bjhr sinjtb`ea.

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$bht whs h djg`e`tj ei`sj iuts`dj tbj w`ediw.6 nivj skiwky( stjps lhrjky nhc`ea h siuedhah`est tbj gkiir. 6 uekhtmb tbj w`ediw hed pukk `tup( tbj mikd h`r rusbjs `e lkiw`ea ny bh`r lhmcgrin ny ghmj. 6 kjhe iut uet`k tbj s`kk `s d`aa`ea`eti ny stinhmb.

6 sthy tbjrj gir twi n`eutjs girtyFe`ejsjmieds l`t`ea `eti ny k`p. ]biukd 6 shysinjtb`eaH ]pjhc ti wbijvjr ir wbhtjvjr `s iuttbjrjH i( tbhts eit r`abt.

6 nivj lhmc `es`dj kjhv`ea tbj w`ediw ipjekjtt`ea `e tbj w`ed. $bj w`ed `s mikd hah`est nysc`e hs 6 khy diwe hmriss tbj sigh( ny gjjtdheak`ea ivjr tbj jdaj.

Ny ejmc `s mriicjd up ly tbj hrn a`v`ea njtbj pjrgjmt v`jw >ust ivjr tbj w`ediw s`kk hediut `eti tbj hkkjywhy. 6 mhe bjhr tbj mhts `es`dj

tbj l`es gjjd`ea ie wbht whs kjgt ivjr grin khstt`nj tbj sue wjet diwe hed tbj jvje`ea r`tuhkig miesunpt`ie hed whstj ljahe hmriss tbjej`abliurbiid.

Ny g`eajrt`ps pkhy w`tb h kiisj eh`k `e tbjgkiirlihrds( tw`st`ea `t up hed tbje lhmc `es`djtbj shgjty ig tbj wiid( iut tbje lhmc `e( iuttbje lhmc `e.

6 kjt ny jyjs rjst mkisjd gir h ninjetwhtmb`ea tbj mikiurs nivj skuaa`sbky ljb`ed nyk`ds. 6 mhe bjhr nirj w`tbiut tbj mhphm`ty igs`abt( ny jhrs ipje up ti h wbikj ejw wirkd igsiueds. 6 mhe bjhr tbj rhts niv`ea sw`gtky diwetbj hkkjy( 6 mhe bjhr tbj sjwjrs ruee`ea n`kjsljkiw tbj m`ty hed 6 mhe bjhr tbht sp`djr ie tbjw`ediw grhnj skiwky djviur`ea he `eeimjet gky(tbj gky `s smrjhn`ea.

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+ whvj ig t`rjdejss nivjs tbriuab nj. 6mhet rjnjnljr wbje 6 khst skjpt( lut tbj suebhs ljje rjpkhmjd ly tbj niie tw`mj s`emj tbje.Ny gjjt g`ed ny why ti tbj nhstjr ljdriinljgirj 6vj t`nj ti tb`ec( stjpp`ea htip tbhtnjsshaj ljgirj sbutt`ea tbj diir ljb`ed tbjn.

6 pukk tbj lk`ed hkk tbj why diwe uet`k ieky hsnhkk kjttjrlix ig suek`abt pjhcs tbriuab hedmhsts h tb`e ljhn ieti tbj gkiir.

]injt`nj ljtwjje hdn`r`ea h yjhrFikd griet

phaj hed wbje ny bjhd b`ts tbj p`kkiw 6 ghkkhskjjp( `t whset he jhsy skjjp ljmhusj wbje 6whcj ht s`x n`eutjs phst j`abt 6 hn `e h mikdswjht hkk ivjr hed 6 mhe bjhr tbj sbiut`ea `es`djny bjhd. 6 l`tj diwe bhrd ie ny tieauj t`kk 6mhe thstj tbj sbhrpejss ig lkiid. ]tip `t( 6 tb`ec.

0bje 6 minj gukky `eti tbj wirkd hed bhvj

phst tbj ninjets wbje tbj sphmj `s bh/y hedsiueds hrjet mkjhr. 6 pukk h littkj ig wb`scy iutgrin uedjr tbj ljd hed dr`ec skiwky heddjk`ljrhtjky. ]inj ig tbj aikdje k`"u`d spkhttjrsieti ny mbjst hed sb`rt si 6 w`pj `t hwhy w`tbtbj lhmc ig ny bhed.

6 lja`e ti rh`sj nysjkg grin tbj ljd wbje 6bjhr sinjiej grin upsth`rs minj diwe hed jx`ttbriuab tbj griet diir. $bjy phss dheajriuskymkisj ti ny diirB 6 nivj nysjkg ieti ny jkliwshed k`stje bhrd. 0h`t`ea gir tbjn ti try hed ajt`e( wh`t`ea gir tbjn ti `evhdj ny sphmj. Jekywbje 6 hn surj tbjy bhvj trhvjkkjd ghr jeiuabhkiea tbj rihd gir ture`ea lhmc ti ljminj he`emievje`jemj di 6 gjjk tbj sikjs ig ny gjjt b`ttbj mhrpjt.

6 spkhsb ny ghmj w`tb tbj lkhmc whtjr tbhtss`tt`ea `e tbj c`tmbje s`ec hed s`t diwe ht tbj

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thlkj. 6 rue ny g`eajrs hkiea tbj ariivjs mhrvjdie tbj surghmj( tbjy gjjk aiid.

6 sbiukd lj ht wirc( lut `ts tii khtj( 6 wiukdieky mhusj nirj triulkj `g 6 hrr`vjd eiw.

6 sthrj diwe tbj bhkkwhy ti tbj p`kjs ig phpjrly tbj diir. 6 mhet >ust kjhvj `t tbjrjB `t bhs eilus`ejss lj`ea `e ny biusj. 6 n`abt bhvj tijxpkh`e `t( nhcj jxmusjs gir sinjiej wbidijset ceiw wbht tbjyrj thkc`ea hliut.

6 d`det c`kk heyiej. 6n surj hliut tbht.

6 sthrj hah`e. 6 ejjd ti nivj `t. 6 sb`gtpurpisjky tiwhrds tbj diir hed pukk tbjnjsshaj hed tbj pbitiarhpb `eti ny sphmj. 6 kjttbjn k`j ie tbj thlkj. 6 mhet tiumb `t( `ts eitshe`thry.

$bjrj `s h sbhrp aust ig w`ed hed tbj phpjrsgky `eti tbj h`r( 6 smrhllkj ti pukk tbjn diwe(

tbjy mhet lj grjj( tbjy >ust mhet. $bj sbhrpjdaj ig tbj phpjr sk`mjs ny g`eajr( t`ey dripkjtsig lkiid pjjc ti tbj surghmj. 6t dijset kiic k`cjny lkiidB `t `s h lr`abt lr`abt rjd( tbj lkiid `eny hrns `s dhrc.

6 sumc ht ny g`eajr hs tbj phpjrs ghkk lhmcdiwe( 6 arhl tbjn w`tb ny grjj bhed( tbjy hrjmrjhsjd ly ny g`eajrs( 6 rjhd tbj wirds hah`e...

PIZ C@KKJD BJ\

6 r`p tbjn litb diwe tbj n`ddkj( spk`tt`ea tbjwinhes bjhd `e twi( r`abt diwe bjr eisj hedljtwjje bjr jyjs. 6 tiss tbjn `eti tbj trhsb heds`t lhmc diwe.

$b`s whs tbj dhy tbj sjmied kjttjr hrr`vjd.

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$bj sjmied kjttjr `set djk`vjrjd `e tbj shnj

why hs tbj g`rst. $b`s iej whs uedjrejhtb h khraj stiej iut `e

griet ig ny lriwestiejB 6 shw `t wbje 6 wjetiuts`dj bhv`ea nhdj tbj djm`s`ie ti ai ti wirc.]injiej nust bhvj sjje `t. $bjy hrj eit lk`ed.+t kjhst 6 hn mjrth`e tbjyrj eit... lut tbjy miukdlj.

6 wjet lhmc `es`dj... 6 bhvj ti b`dj... 6 mhet aiti wirc.6n eit surj biw kiea `t whs iut tbjrj( lut

tbjrj whs h striea w`ed yjstjrdhy( tbj c`ed tbhtei jevjkipj A rimc ir ei rimc A miukd surv`vj.

6 wh`t ljgirj 6 ipje `t. $bjrjs ei sjesj `erusb`ea. 6ts eit ai`ea ti ai heywbjrj( hktbiuab

6 w`sb `t wiukd sinjbiw d`shppjhr... kjhvj njhkiej... >ust kjhvj nj hkiej.+s 6 ipje `t 6 mbjmc tbj jevjkipj. $bjrjs

eitb`ea ueusuhk rjhkky( eit rjhkky( jxmjpt gir `tswb`tjejss wb`mb sbiukd eit lj `g `t bhs ljjeiuts`dj s`emj yjstjrdhy. 6t sbiukd lj d`rty.

6 ipje `t. 6 wh`t gir h p`mturj ig h djhdwinhe... gir nirj k`js... k`js( lut tbjrjseitb`ea. 0jkk tbjrjs sinjtb`ea lut eit wbht 6djxpjmtjd. 6 diet ceiw wbht ti tb`ec ir biw tirjhmt( 6d `nha`ejd `t hed eiw `ts eitb`ea k`cj

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tbj p`mturjs `es`dj ny bjhd... eitb`ea nhtmbjsup...

@ hn whtmb`ea yiu.

$bhts wbht `t shys. @ust tbj iej k`ej... tbj ieky tb`ea `t bhs `e

minnie w`tb tbj g`rst iej.6 kiic hriued hed tbjrj `s ei iej tbjrj. ]i...

bj `s eit whtmb`ea nj. j mhet ljB 6 wiukd lj

hlkj ti sjj b`n... yjsH iH *kjhsj...6 pukk iut tbj pbitiarhpb... `ts h strjjt. +strjjt w`tb lu`kd`eas strjtmb`ea up igg tbj jdajig tbj phaj hed whrp`ea tiwhrds nj( h strjjtw`tb ei pjipkj ie `t hed tbj sue s`ec`ea diweljkiw tbj bir`/ie. 6ts h strjjt.

6ts ny strjjt.6 r`p `t diwe tbj n`ddkj uet`k tbj jhst s`dj `s

`e ny r`abt bhed hed tbj wjst s`dj `s ny kjgt.Litb s`djs ai `eti tbj trhsb gikkiwjd ly tbj

kjttjr wb`mb 6 smrjw `eti h t`abt lhkk uet`k 6n surjei iej wiukd lj hlkj ti uerhvjk `t hed sjj wbhtbjs ljje shy`ea.

*jipkj mhet ljk`jvj wbht bjs shy`ea( tbjy >ust mhet. 6ts eit truj hed 6 ceiw `ts eit( >ustk`cj 6 ceiw tbht tbj njkt`ea pi`et ig nhaejs`un`s s`x buedrjd hed girtyFj`abt pi`et j`abt giurdjarjjs hed tbht tb`rtyFe`ej t`njs tbrjjbuedrjd hed s`xtyFj`abt `s tje tbiushed s`xbuedrjd hed sjvjetyFtwi hed wbjrj tbj sue w`kklj ht d`ggjrjet t`njs ig tbj dhy.

Nhtbjnht`mhkky 6 ceiw 6n r`abt hed wbhtbjs shy`ea `s h k`j. 6 ceiw tbht... 6 ceiw tbht.Jtbjr pjipkj diet ceiw tbht... nje `e su`tsmiukd minj hed thcj nj hwhy... tbjy diet ceiwtbht tbj njkt`ea pi`et ig nhaejs`un `s s`x

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buedrjd hed girtyFj`abt pi`et j`abt giur djarjjsir tbht tb`rtyFe`ej t`njs tbrjj buedrjd heds`xtyFj`abt `s tje tbiushed s`x buedrjd hedsjvjetyFtwi hed wbjrj tbj sue w`kk lj htd`ggjrjet t`njs `e tbj dhy lut 6 di. 6 di.

6 whtmb tbj sue eiw hed 6 ceiw `ts t`nj ti aiti wirc. 6 diet whet ti ai.

Lut 6 bhvj ti.

0irc `s lhd. 6ts eit h bhppy pkhmj. N`ki

hkwhys shys wbje yiu gjjk lhd yiu sbiukd aihed g`ed h bhppy pkhmj. $b`s `s eit h bhppypkhmj.

Ny wirc sb`rt `tmbjs hed st`eas ny sc`e uet`k6n rjd rhw. ]c`e sbiukdet lj rjd... `t sbiukd ljp`ec. *`ec `s eirnhk.

$bjrjs h khdy ht wirc. ]bj bhs l`a bh`r hkk

p`kjd ie tip ig bjr bjhd. N`ki shys sbj `s hghn`ky gr`jed. $bhts tbj spjm`g`m wird bj usjs.#r`jed.]bjs eit ny gr`jed. 6 diet k`cj bjr hed 6

diet k`cj wirc.]bj tjkks nj ti di tb`eas 6 diet whet ti di.

]bj sbiwjd nj biw ti sthmc hkk tbj giid `emikiurguk phmcha`ea ieti tbj sbjkvjs. 6 giraitwbht sbj sbiwjd nj hed sbj ait heary ljmhusj6 d`det uedjrsthed. ]bj shys 6 mhet thcj hey igtbj giid binj ir r`p tbj phmcha`ea ljmhusj `tsejw hed mist bjr h kit ig niejy lut 6 di tb`sheywhy. ]bj ejvjr ceiws.

]bj hksi shys tbht 6 mhet spjhc ti tbjmustinjrs wbi minj `e hed a`vj bjr niejy girtbj giidB sbj shys tbhts eit ny >il. $bhts eitwbht 6n ph`d gir lut 6n eit si surj sbj physnj ht hkk. 6n ieky bjrj ljmhusj N`ki sh`d tbht 6sbiukd lj.

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6 hn sthmc`ea tbj t`es ig lkhmc pjppjr tbhthrj lkuj w`tb wb`tj dits wbje sbj minjs ivjr titjkk nj tbht 6n di`ea `t wriea. ]inj ig tbjkhljks hrj ghm`ea tbj wriea why si pjipkjmheeit rjhd tbjn. 6 diet ceiw wbht lkhmcpjppjr `s lut 6 rjhd tbj `egirnht`ie ie tbj t`eshed `t dijset siued k`cj tbj sirt ig tb`eaheyiej sbiukd whet ti lj luy`ea. 6t siueds lhd.

]bj sbiws nj biw ti di `t w`tb tbj khljksghm`ea tiwhrds nj si 6 mhe rjhd tbj lkhmc

wr`t`ea ie tbj ghdjd mrjhn lhmcariued. 0bjesbj kjhvjs 6 diet mbheaj wbht 6n di`ea( 6 >ustput tbjn ie tbj sbjkvjs `e wbhtjvjr irdjr 6 gjjk.]bj mhet stip nj.

6ts si kiud tidhy. ]i kiud `t nhcjs ny jhrsst`ea hed mry. 6 usjd ti wjhr ny bht si 6 miukdpukk `t diwe ivjr ny jhrs lut tbj khdy w`tb tbj

l`a bh`r sh`d tbht bhts wjrjet hkkiwjd wb`kst 6hn wirc`ea. ]bj sh`d tbht tbjy hrj eit phrt igtbj ue`girn hed tbht `ts eit nhc`ea bjr gjjkbhppy. ]bj d`det shy bhppy... sbj usjd h kieawird tbht 6 d`det uedjrsthed si 6 kiicjd `t up htbinj hed `t njhes bhppy. Lut tbj t`abtejss igbjr tip dijset nhcj nj gjjk bhppy lut sbj st`kkwjhrs `t. 6 diet k`cj bjr. ]bj `s eit ny gr`jed.N`ki shys 6 sbiukd lj e`mj. 6 diet whet ti.

$bj sue `s st`kk b`ab `e tbj scy hed pjipkjssbhdiws iuts`dj hrj sbirt hed g`abt w`tb jhmbitbjr gir sphmj. 6 bhvj h kiea t`nj uet`k 6 mhe aibinj hed kimc ny diir ljb`ed nj.

]bj wiet kjt nj kjhvj jhrky.6 whet ti ai binj.6 sh`d tbht ti bjr iemj hed sbj tikd nj 6 whs

lj`ea stup`d. 6n eit stup`d... yjs 6 hn... ei...]bjs stup`d... 6n snhrt 6 ceiw tb`eas... stup`d.

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$r`v`hk hs `t nhy sjjn 6 ejjd h ejw nidjk(wjkk( 6 whet h ejw nidjk. 6 ejjd iej ti tjhmbb`n heitbjr kjssieB bj bhs ljje djstriy`ea nyg`ejst wirc. jvjr bhvj 6 pridumjd sumb h g`ejpbitiarhpb tbht si mhpturjs tbj gjnhkj girn `ehkk ig `ts murvhturj hed bj djstriyjd `t(d`smhrd`ea `t k`cj `t whs ig ei nirj ig wirtb tbhebj `s.

6 ejjd heitbjr girn ti lj girjvjr ph`rjd w`tbny giurtb kjttjr ti b`n s`emj 6 bhvj hkrjhdymhpturjd h p`jmj ti minphe`ie h whre`ea b`ntbht b`s ljbhv`iur sbhkk eit miet`euj( 6 whet b`nti rjhk`sj bj mheeit pjrs`st ti hmt`ea k`cj 6 di eitjx`st. j nust rjhk`sj tbht 6 hn `e mietrik( tbht 6din`ehtj b`n hed tbht 6 hn b`s rjhk`ty. *jrbhps 6

sbiukd mhst h sbhdiw upie b`s diir iemj hah`e. 6bhvj h tb`rd kjttjr prjphrjdB bj sbiukd surn`sjtbht 6 w`kk eit kjt b`n jsmhpj hed tbht 6 w`kk ceiw`g bj tr`js. 6 prhy `t sbiits gjhr `eti tbht njssjdFup n`ed ig b`s hed tjhrs b`n hphrt. 6 mhe usj b`sphrhei`h tbht wircs si wiedjrgukky `e ny ghviurti sbiw b`n tbht 6 w`kk eit >ust d`shppjhr wbjebj tbriws ny wirc `e tbj trhsb.

+khs( hkk tb`s pkhee`ea `s lut njhe`eakjss `g 6di eit bhvj h nidjk ti pisj si arhm`iusky girnj. 6 hn ie whtmb miesthetky gir tbj pjrgjmtwinhe. +ktbiuab `t `s grj"ujetky nirj pjrgjmt `gsbj `s `npjrgjmt. $bj pjrgjmt a`rks di eit jxm`tjnj hs sinjiej wbi bhs bh`r iut ig pkhmj w`tb hsnudaj ig nhcjFup. 6 mhe sinjt`njs whtmb girbiurs w`tbiut hs numb hs iej winhe wbi wiukdmbhrn ny mhnjrh `eti h grje/y ig ljhuty hedw`kk`eaejss. Lut tbje... wbje yiu tb`ec hkk `s kist

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yiu g`ed tbj pjrgjmt nidjk( tbj `npjrgjmtwinhe.

]bj `s sbipp`ea wbje 6 g`rst khy ny jyjs iebjr. urry`ea ljtwjje rh`ks ig mkitbjs hs `g tbjyn`abt gky hwhy `g sbj dijs eit arhl tbjn"u`mcky. 6t sjjns ti lj tbht tbjrj `s ei sjesj `eburry`ea( 6 bhvj hkk tbj t`nj `e tbj wirkd( hed sidijs sbj. jr hppjhrhemj `s eit si `npirthet(kiea bh`r( p`ec mbjjcs( v`lrhet arjje drjss lut `t`s hkk surpkus hs wbje wj hrj tiajtbjr `t `s

eitb`ea lut sc`e hed lkiid. 6 gikkiw bjr. ]bj bhsh buslhedB tb`s jxm`tjs nj hs eiw 6 w`kk lj hlkjti tirturj nirj tbhe iej pjrsie w`tb h n`e`nhkjggirt( hktbiuab 6 rjn`ed nysjkg 6 w`kk ejvjr ajtheywbjrj `g 6 hn eit w`kk`ea ti wirc gir `t. + mb`kdir jvje mb`kdrje wiukd >ust lj tbj `m`ea ie tbjmhcj A hbb( tbjrj tbjy hrj.

6t `s h gukk smbiik wjjc gir tbj mb`kdrje ljgirj6 hn mieg`djet jeiuab ti kjhvj bjr gir h gjwdhys wb`kst 6 rjnh`e mjrth`e bj bhs eit tr`jd tijsmhpj nj. ]bj dijs eit rjhk`sj wbje 6 kjhvjhed 6 hn eit si mjrth`e sbj w`kk eit`mj wbje 6rjture. 6 w`kk djvjkip tbj pbitiarhpbs ig bjr hsny iwe rjmird ig iur t`nj tiajtbjr( tbj dhysljgirj sbj ljminjs eitb`ea lut h njhes ti hejed.

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$bj sue `s iut. 6ts si vjry lr`abt. ]i lr`abttbht 6 mhet "u`tj nhcj iut biw b`ab `e tbj scy `t`s hed tbj biurs `e tbj n`ddkj ig tbj dhy njraj`eti iej kiea skur.

6 tb`ec 6 sbiukd bhvj aiej ti wirc hah`etidhy lut eiw 6n eit si surj( 6 diet whet tiajt `eti triulkj lut 6 >ust diet ceiw. Giu mhet

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lj pue`sbjd gir sinjtb`ea yiu diet ceiw( htkjhst( 6 tb`ec yiu mhet.

0bje tbj sueljhn minjs tbriuab tbjw`ediw 6 mhe sjj h milwjl bhea`ea ljtwjje tbjk`abt hed tbj whkk. $bjrjs ei sp`djr lut tbjrjst`ey jaas( sbj sjjns ti bhvj kjgt bjr pjrgjmtmilwjl hed jaas hkk hkiej ti gjed girtbjnsjkvjs. 6 wiedjr `g sbjs jvjr min`ea lhmcgir tbjnH 6g sbjkk rjhk`sj sbjs kjgt tbjn ljb`ed.

$bjy hrjet shgj hkk hkiej ly tbht w`ediw si 6

nivj tbjn `es`dj mhrjgukky sk`d`ea h pkhtjljb`ed tbjn hed uedjrejhtb si tbjy diet ghkk. 6put tbj pkhtjs ly tbj s`ec( rjst`ea iej hah`esttbj whkk hed iej ie tbj ue`t( pjrpjed`mukhr tijhmb itbjr si tbj wjl sthys gukky girnjd hed tbjjaas hrj shgj. 6 hn whtmb`ea tbjn si tbjy dietgjjk smhrjd hed tbjy ceiw sinjiej `s tbjrj gir

tbjn wbje 6 bjhr sinjtb`ea sk`dj uedjr tbjdiir.6 b`dj ljb`ed tbj whkk hed pjjr diwe tbj

mirr`dir tiwhrds ny griet diir. $bjrjs h wb`tjjevjkipj ie tbj nht( bhkg `e( bhkg iut( bhkg ig `tpjejtrht`ea ny sphmj( d`rty`ea ny binj w`tb `tsk`js. 6 ceiw wbht `t `s. 6 diet ejjd ti kiic.

Lut( 6 tb`ec 6 whet ti kiic. 6 whet ti... nhylj.6 nivj tiwhrds `t w`tb ny bheds iutstrjtmbjd

si ti cjjp ny lidy hwhy grin `ts jv`k ht hkkt`njs. 6 pukk `t iut grin uedjrejhtb tbj diirB `tsmrjhsjd diwe tbj n`ddkj eiw.

$bjrjs h ei`sj iuts`dj. 6 wh`t nit`iekjss ieny cejjs ie tbj nht.

6 nivj ny bjhd diwe t`kk 6 smrhtmb ny mbjjcie tbj gkiir hed pjjr uedjr diir. 6 mhet sjjheytb`ea( lut tbht dijset njhe bjs eit tbjrj.Ny bhed `s `e h g`st hed 6 tb`ec ny tijs hrjmurk`ea sinjwbjrj uedjr tbj wj`abt ig ny lidy.

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6 drip tbj kjttjr hed put ny grjj bhed ivjrny eisj hed niutb si bj mhet bjhr njlrjhtb`ea( bj mhet ceiw biw mkisj 6 hn ti b`n(bj >ust mhet.

$bjrjs h kiea phusj wb`kj 6n wh`t`ea hedbjs wh`t`ea. 6 st`kk mhet sjj b`n lut 6 mhe gjjkb`n wh`t`ea gir nj ti nhcj h nivj. 6 mhe ljlrhvj... 6 mhe... 6 mhe...

6 ipje tbj diir hed sthy mriumbjd ie tbjgkiir( ny wbikj lidy jemhsjd w`tb`e tbj jdajs

ig tbj nht( eit iej g`lrj ivjr tbj s`dj. $bjrjs ei iej iut tbjrj.j kjgt ljgirj 6 bhd h mbhemj ti ipje tbj

diir( bjs snhrtjr tbhe nj.6 mrhwk girwhrds hed jxhn`ej jhmb d`rjmt`ie

diwe tbj iuts`dj mirr`dir( tbjrjs djg`e`tjky eiiej tbjrj( tbjrjs eitb`ea tbjrj. j nust bhvj

aiej iut ig tbj griet diir( 6 wiukd bhvj nistdjg`e`tjky bjhrd b`n `g bj wjet gir tbj sth`rs(tbisj sth`rs smrjhn `g yiu stjp ie tbjn.

6 mkisj tbj diir hed kimc `t t`abt ti nhcj surjbj mhet minj lhmc hed `evhdj ny sphmj hedny pr`vhmy. 6 tua ht tbj bhedkj ti nhcj surj `tskimcjd t`abt. 6t `s.

6 sthy sht w`tb`e tbj mieg`ejs ig tbj nht hedture tbj kjttjr ivjr hed ivjr `e ny bheds uet`k6vj sjje litb s`djs buedrjds ig t`njs. 6tsspitkjss( hknist hs `g bj w`pjd `t mkjhe ljgirjpusb`ea `t uedjr ny diir hed `eti ny sphmj.

6 r`p ipje tbj tip ig tbj wb`tj jevjkipj hedpukk iut wbhts `es`dj. 6 tb`ec 6n sbhc`ea( ny kjask`ps igg tbj jdaj ig tbj nht hed 6 bhvj ti pukk `tlhmc `e tiwhrds nj hed `t burts ny tjedies.

6 kiic ht tbj kjttjr g`rst. $bj `ec `s numb nirjghdjd ie tb`s iej( hs `g tbj typjwr`tjr whs

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Lut wbht mhe 6 diH 6n ei aiid... 6 mhet diwbht itbjr pjipkj di... tbj eit eirnhk pjipkj...nhylj 6 ejjd ti lj eit eirnhk ti... ei... bjkp...ei... 6 mhet bj hkwhys sh`d 6 mhet( 6 mhet diheytb`ea... 6 ceiw tbht... 6 ceiw.