under the rain
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Following her collections of poems about Alaska and Arizona and her "Celtic Epic," Rebecca Morrison now brings us her reflections on nature in Northern California.TRANSCRIPT
UNDER THE RAINPOEMS BY REBECCA MORRISON
© Rebecca Morrison
Some of these poems were published previously in: The UC Davis Arboretum Review, Late Peaches: A Sacramento Anthology, The Third Sunday Anthology, Cache Creek Anthology, Rattlesnake Review, From the Mouths of Angels, Jewel of the Valley and eskimopie.net. Cover painting of the author by Alejandro Escalante.
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The Angel Spider 5
Lilacs 6
Desire 7
Beauty 8
The Olympic Girl 9
The Women of Putah Creek 11
His My 13
Bird Song 17
The All Night Drive Through the Stars to the Moon 18
Upon Eating a Manzanita Berry 21
Two Days 22
The Cabin Bed 25
The Water People 26
Out of the Blue 28
The Ocean and the Woods 30
The Kite 31
A Curve of Green 32
Baker Beach 32
Opening Robinson Jeffers 33
Vacaciones in Monterey 34
Window Panes 35
Untitled 36
From the Sun to the Moon 37
The Sink Hole 37
Quercus Ilex 38
The Pinwheel Heart 42
Written While Blind 43
Why I Come to the Creek 44
The Perfect Dance 47
Oek 'hua 'hua 48
The Sky Is Full of Holes 48
Incandescent 49
Snake of Stars 52
Mount Diablo 54
The White Osprey 56
The Most Beautiful Woman in the World 58
Rapture 61
The Eagle 63
San Joaquin Summer 63
Portent/The Flood 65
Rivers of Ice 66
Into the Blue 66
Poem for the Future 67
Serengeti Dreaming 68
Sea of Bones 69
Why I Could Never Be a Saint 71
A Flower Under the Alps 72
The Devil Mountains 75
The Three Cormorants of Time 76
Between (Summer and Fall) 77
The Dark Angel 78
The Keep 79
Memory 79
The Trunk of the World 81
The Map of the World 82
The Red Sail 83
About the Author 13
The Angel SpiderA small black spiderbody like an unopened flowersees the wrought iron gatewithout realizing she can crawl between the barswithout realizing that smallness of beingis an angel spinning her own wingscasting her spells into the May windher tiny feet whispering across brickshiding in cracks drinking angels’ tears
To the spiderthe sun is overwhelmingseeing nothing but lightshe needs the shadowsthe dark leaves of the mulberry treeone day is her heavenone sparkling webher dance around the Maypolespinning out from the centersun and shadow breaking dew on web into rainbow streamersas she turns her careful patterns ever outwardever subject to the wind a fragile net
waiting for a butterfly to eat
The spider is hard and shiny and blackshe drinks poison not nectarshe fishes in the dark cornersshe hides her hourglass on her red blood belly and dreams of flying
Lilacs increase and decrease and the sun in me is the moon in you and our growing is awkward like the hands of the clock running backwards with no vision in sight except for the lilacs and he told me he was having a crisis of faith in poetry that no one was listening not even the poets poets were just speaking and the voices are like flowers a field of poppies where Dorothy falls asleep in the somnambulistic cradle of the sun and this morning I ask another man why the poverty of the soul in Americaas if we always have to pick the flowers and enclose them in glass paperweights instead of just letting them be and he said poets have the soul of the nation
in their mouths that creativity is spirituality and god is my poem is in your flowers, your hair, your lips, your pain and "April is the cruelest month" and the lilacs' bloom is the kiss of death and spring is a sweet heavy melody that I just have to let go let rush over me pull my earth through my sun and I tell you this is your cross to bear this lilac, this mortal flowerand spring is your witness and words are your rain and my eyes are why you should keep the faith because only by letting go can we hang on and the lilacs are breeding in the dark soil of our awkward glances and I will meet you somewhere between the cradle and the last gleaming and I want to make you believe at 2:00 in the morning in the Denny's parking lot that writing about lilacs and pain will make the spring a little softer
DesireWhen I first opened my eyes I saw that all was good and I wanted everything.
When the sun stood directly overhead I was dazzled and overwhelmed and everything was bright and clear and true and I wanted it all.
But the afternoon cast shadows on bright flowers and I longed to rest in darkness.I slept on a smooth white bed covered with thin black sheets.
The moon laughed in its ancient wisdom as it rose and fell and I wanted it more than anything.
Beauty “Stay on the path" —words of wisdom from the gardenerIf I had knownthere would befine wine and rosesperhaps I would not have comeI am no longer quietenoughMy hands are dirtyBut these are subtle differences,things that shouldn't matter to BeautyIf I had knownthere was a gardenI would have been afraidIf I had knownthere was Beauty,soft light, silence,bird sounds,
I would have stayed at home
Iron gates, perfect lawnsyellow sassafrass—is this really Beauty?The birds who tell weeping stories?The bricks which sweep back and forthacross the lawn?This vein along my arm,the blood—black, blue?
I am azureI am red I am not quiet not pure not BeautyWanting water,finding insteadthe desert.The perfect gardenis no longerany kind of idea of mine.
(Written in the gardens of Villa Montalvo, Saratoga, CA)
The Olympic Girl She of the superior ovarieslost one gold medalbecause she hadtaken ephedra, lost the gold world
for the sake of a flower.Just like Eurydicelost the flowers of paradise,the parasitetaking her future by looking back, telling her the flowerswere not made for humans, not for women. But we know differently.And we never question why we love the darkblue bells of the salviacalling us at dusk.Their sweet silencebegging us to look back, to take them with,like the nutletputs on its summer dressfor the squirrel who doesn’t question his need, or the Indians who chose the ubiquitous redbud for its bi-colored bark but not the buckwheatwhose scarce paniclenow opens only on the wide Pacific.
The redbud in every nursery—Someone choosing one—perhaps the Mormonsadopting ephedrafor its allure, the cowboys growing hemp ropes, the whores dropping belladonnain their eyes, nightshade in his tea.Their superior ovaries like flowers insideflooding them with hormonic colors—I want red bluepale Daturasacred flowerobtuse or acute but always desired.
The Women of Putah CreekTo break into the night
with a handful of women, pushing down the fence, dredging up the past,as Putah Creekflooded our eyes with her story alive.
We sawthe creek split pastthe family of her body, the town of her eyes,filled with living ghostsas a bat circled by.
At twilightwe could almost seethe funeral pyre, mother and child just beneath this empty reservoir.
Patwin boneslining the labyrinth of the past, this maze of timeflowing like the creek across the valley as night settled like the Spanish ranchers (I like this place, I think I’ll stay) on the oak-studded land.
We poets,like Chinese laborers,
dig with our shovelsin the sand, unsettling ghoststo make new paths for the flow of humanitywhich rushes by incessantly like a freeway into the night.
About the AuthorRebecca Morrison is the editor of eskimopie.net, a forum for poets, artists and writers since 2002. She has published several chapbooks and performs her work frequently on radio and T.V. She hosts two reading series: Poetry in the Arboretum at the University of California, Davis, and Hot Poetry in the Park’ in Sacramento. She is a graduate of UC Davis and co-founded the Third Sunday Writing Group which has been meeting monthly since 1995. She serves as a Board Member of the Sacramento Poetry Center and is one of the founding editors of Poetry Now. She has published in a wide variety of journals including Flatlander, Tule Review, Because People Matter and Poems For All. She is a docent and gardener for the UC Davis Arboretum. She has lived in Alaska, Arizona, California, Vermont, and Switzerland.
* The full version of Under The Rain is now available as a Kindle Edition ebook published by Barncott Press. A print edition will be published later this summer.
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