you cannot realize the self
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Bliss Music
Kip Mazuy
Realizing the Self
"You cannot realize the Self
through the senses.
You cannot taste it,
see it, hear it, smell it
and you cannot touch it.
You have your eyes open.
You see
and then label what you see.
'This is my body.'
'This is my computer.'
'I am using my hands to
type on the computer.'
But close your eyes
and be still.
From this point of stillnesstell me about your hands.
If you can't see them,
then where and what are they?
You can say
that you feel them resting
on your mouse or keyboard.
But what is that feeling?What is the sensation
that you are calling your
hands?
Forget the defining
that they are your hands
and actually experience what
is here
beyond the words.
With your eyes closed
forget the defining
of your body
and experiencewhat you refer to as your body.
Not a part of itbut the whole thing.There is the sensationthat you are here,but instead of defining itas a body, as a name,simply feel it.
Feel the sensationof what is here.
Feeling without touching.Feeling without using words.Here you experiencesomethingthat you cannot define,you cannot accuratelydescribe.Because what is heredoes not have boundaries,
cannot be described by thesenses.But there is an experienceof existing.
There is the awarenessof existing.Here, existing and awarenessare one and the same.
This is not something thatyou can learn or understand.You have to close your eyes,let go of thinkingand experience it.You will seeit is not a statethat comes and goes.It is what is always herewhether you give it attention
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or not.Blessings,
Kip"Be Naked
"You often hear the popular
slogans
'Be Happy'
'Be Grateful'
'Be Positive'
But what happens
when you try and be thesethings
when they are not your
experience?
Suddenly you are imposing a
mask
on top of what is already here.
You are really saying to
yourselfthat how you truly are
is unacceptable.
And that you have to lie
to yourself and others
in order to feel accepted.
If you really consider this
you will see that
this is self hatred.
Meditation
is about allowing yourself
to be exactly as you are.
Simply in this allowing
there is peace.
And from this allowing
comes awarenessand from awareness
comes transcendence.
Simply by being
aware of what is here,
you no longer
are confined
by the body/mind/ego,
you exist as awareness.
Then your natural stateof love and gratitudeshines forth.Not because of something you
do,but simply becausethat is what is.Awareness itself transforms.But any sense of tryingto control yourselfto change yourselfyou empower your ego evenmore.You lock yourselffurther into the ideathat you should be differentthan you are.So rather than be positive,be naked,without the make upand the hair extensions.Be aware of your experience
exactly as it is.
The moment you do this,you rest as awareness.You move into your true stateof unconditional peace.Even in the awarenessof the deepest anger andsadness
there is incredible peace andbliss.
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The mind could be whining,cursing and hatingand you would be immersed inbliss.
This is the honest truth.Peace is not something you do,it is what you are.It is what is naturally herewhen you stop resisting thismoment.Blessings,
Kip"The Key To Freedom
"There is no endto trying to figure it out.The mindis an endless puzzlethat has no solution.
If it had a solution,that would be the endof the reign of mind,and the mind does not wantthat.The mind wants to existand it gets it's powerfrom you identifying with it.And so it continuesto grab your attentionany which way it can.
Just like a TV channel.The TV channel's purposeis to keep you watching.
That is what it wants.
So you are sitting thereand the TV channelputs you on a tropical islandwith beautiful people,then you are flying an airplane,
then you are chasing bad guys.But it has nothing to do with
what is actually happening.
What is actually happeningis you are sitting on the couch,drinking a cup of tea.But in your experience,there is no couch or tea.How could there be whenyou are flying an airplane?It is the same with mind.The thoughts are constantlygrabbing your attention.And so the world you know tobe realis made up of your thoughts.But if you really lookbeyond your thinkingat what is here,you would experiencesomething totally differentthan what the mind perceives.Something that even if I triedto describe to you,you would miss.
Because then it would becomeknowledge,it would become aninterpretationof what is actually here.For you to truly find outwhat is here beyondinterpretation,you have to look.
It is this looking that is mostimportant,it is the witnessing what isherethat sets you free.Whether you are witnessingthoughtswitnessing sensationsit is all about the witnessingnot the objects themselves.
Not the knowledge
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of what you witnessed asecond ago,but the looking right here andnow.Not witnessing to getsomething,because then you are backin the mind.
The witnessing itself isfulfillment.The witnessing itselfis joy.This is the key to freedom.
Blessings,
Kip"
Technique of No Identity
"The nature of awareness
is freedom from identification.
If you are aware of anger,
then you are not identified with
anger.
If you are aware of a thought,you are not identified with the
thought.
The thought arises, the anger
arises
but it has nothing to do with
you.
Identification
is always happeningat an unconscious level.
You are walking to work
and unconsciously
identification is there.
'My name is Jon, I am a dentist,
I am on Main st. where I turn
left
to go to my office...'
Always defining
'This is me.'
'This is who I am;
this is where I am;
this is what I am doing;
this is where I am going;
this is where I have been.'
So instead of practicing
awareness
from the perspective of
identity,
you could try consciously
not being identified with
anything.
You allow the thoughts, body
and sensations
to be as they are
but you consciously
disidentify with them.
'This body is not mine,
this name is not mine,
these thoughts are not mine,
this emotion is not mine,this belief is not mine.'
Not as words to repeat
but to consciously
not identify with anything at all
(just by being aware of them.)
If you choose to not
have an identity
then awareness is automatic.
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You will experience life
in a completely different way.
By consciously
letting go of all identity,
you exist as energy,
as formless consciousness
completely free of ego
& all the conflict and
separateness
that goes with it.
Blessings,
Kip"
Transcending Mind in 3
Stages
"There are 3 stages
of mind in meditation.
The first stage is personal.
The thoughts are about you,
your world, what you've seen,heard, tasted, felt etc.
It's experience is one
of duality.
There is you and everything
else.
Conflict and control,
desire and resistance.
Once you learn
to witness your thoughts
instead of identify with them,
you enter into the second
stage.
In the second stage,
the thoughts are no longer
about your personal life.
It is here you have dreams,
visions,
and even beyond visions
you experience very subtle
thoughts,
that are beyond words, sounds
or images.
Although you experience this,
you are not bound
by what you experience,
it no longer defines you.
There is no personal reaction
to what you experience.
There is not the solidseparation
that was there in the first
stage.
In the first stage things
happened to you.
In the second stage there is
just a happening
that arises in consciousness.
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In this stage there is incredible
bliss
and with the lovely visions to
entertain you,
it is difficult to let go of the
bliss
and take the step into the next
stage.
By letting go of the thoughts
as they arise,
you enter the 3rd stage of
mind.
You experience that which
is beyond mind.
That which cannot be defined.
To say you even experience it
is not true,
because here,
there is no experiencer
separate from the experience.
There is only pure,eternal consciousness.
Blessings,
Kip"
1 Simple Point About
Meditation
"I often hear people
saying they can't meditate.
But what they are really saying
is they won't meditate.
Whatever reasons they give,
the truth is in meditation
they have come across
an experience
they do not wish to
experience.
Whether
they are conscious of it or not,
they have felt a sensation that
they
do not wish to feel.
The reasons on top of this are
just excuses.
The moment you allow yourself
to experience those sensations
you are avoiding,
then you see the futility of your
reasons,
the futility of your thoughts.
The futility of trying to figure it
all out.
It really has nothing to do
with mind.
You just didn't want to feel a
certain sensation,
and once you did, it wasn't so
bad,
ironically, it was quite blissful.
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Suddenly you are filled with
love and peace
until the next sensation you
unconsciously resist
makes itself known.
Once you realize this
one very simple point,
that the reason you can't
meditate
is that you do not wish
to feel a certain sensation,
then meditation becomes very
clear.
Then you see the power
is in your hands.
Most people
are just looking for the bliss
and they don't want
to do the work to get it.
And that is perfectly fine,
a little relaxation andmeditation
will give you this.
But if you want more than this.
If you want freedom,
from this constant conflict
of seeking pleasure
and avoiding pain
and all the stress & sufferingthat goes with it,
then you will be willing to sit
through
the uncomfortable experiences
and enjoy the peace that goes
with it.
Unconditional peace
does not come fromfeeling happy all the time.
Unconditional peace comes by
being present with what is
here
regardless of how you think it
feels.
You give it a try
and I bet you'll really like it.
Blessings,
Kip"
You Are The Doorway
"In this moment,
you cannot be the person
you want yourself to be
or others want you to be.
You can only be how you
are in this moment.
Happiness does not comeby emulating
the peaceful smiling Buddhist
monk,
or the tan new age guru
promising you riches and the
soulmate of your dreams.
The secret is
you are exactly as youare supposed to be
in this moment.
Your experience is exactly
as it is supposed to be
in this moment.
That you keep turning
away from yourself
in search of something betteris what breaks your heart.
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The doorway
to unconditional peace, love
and bliss
is through the awareness of
you,
exactly as you are in this
moment.
In the full acceptance and
awareness
of yourself in this moment,
you immediately transcend it.
You enter into a whole
new reality
free from definitions,
descriptions,
and separation.
You with your sweaty armpits
your cranky disposition
and your insanity
is the doorway to Divinity.
Because if you really becomeaware of what is here
in this moment,
you will find it is has
nothing to do with what you
think.
Blessings,
Kip"
"The ego exists
out of the experience that life
is
not the way it is supposed to
be.
It lives in a perpetual state of
control
in an attempt to make life
the way it thinks it should to
be.
It's very nature is stress.
Awareness isthe means to be free of the
ego.
Because in awareness
you are watching
this moment.
And in order to watch this
moment,
you have to allow it to be as itis.
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You have to accept
that everything is as it is.
You let go of control,
then you can watch.
And then what you are
watching
no longer defines you.
You realize you are the
watching.
Meditation is a constant test
of faith and surrender.
Faith that everything
will be okay if you stop trying
to control this moment.
Surrender because yes,
it is quite possible the world
you knowmay fall out from beneath your
feet.
Suddenly the illusion
of trying to turn this moment
into something else ceases
and you are simply left with
this moment.
Once you let go ofthat constant urge to move
forward
there is only awareness.
That is where true beauty
shines.
Not in the objects of your
obsession
but the awareness that giveslife to all objects.
It is the awareness that is bliss.
And if you are aware,
then you are bliss.
Blessings,
Kip"
How to be Free of Ego
"The ego exists
out of the experience that life
is
not the way it is supposed to
be.
It lives in a perpetual state of
control
in an attempt to make life
the way it thinks it should to
be.
It's very nature is stress.
Awareness is
the means to be free of the
ego.
Because in awareness
you are watching
this moment.
And in order to watch this
moment,
you have to allow it to be as it
is.
You have to accept
that everything is as it is.
You let go of control,then you can watch.
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And then what you are
watching
no longer defines you.
You realize you are the
watching.
Meditation is a constant test
of faith and surrender.
Faith that everything
will be okay if you stop trying
to control this moment.
Surrender because yes,
it is quite possible the world
you know
may fall out from beneath your
feet.
Suddenly the illusion
of trying to turn this moment
into something else ceasesand you are simply left with
this moment.
Once you let go of
that constant urge to move
forward
there is only awareness.
That is where true beauty
shines.
Not in the objects of your
obsession
but the awareness that gives
life to all objects.
It is the awareness that is bliss.
And if you are aware,
then you are bliss.
Blessings,
Kip"
An Instant Shift inConsciousness
"The mind functionsby defining.And through definitionsboundaries are created,separation is created.There is this bodythat is meand everything elsethat is not me.So you experience somethingthe mind defines as pain inyour chestand that pain is separate fromyou.
It is somethingthat is happening to you.
It is alien to youand a threat to youand therefore somethingmust be done about it.
This is the natural process ofthe mind.It is how the physical bodysurvives.Most people tryand approach meditationfrom this mind perspective.How can I,as this bodyget blissand get away from pain.
And so begins the struggleand sufferingof frustrating meditationsthat bear little fruitbecause you have already
separated yourself fromyour experience.
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But you can be free ofall of this in an instant.Simply by closing your eyesand allowing yourself
to experience what is trulyherebeyond thought.
By 'feeling' what is herewithout defining or describing.Without the mind,all that is leftis sensation.An experience
of energy,conscious energy,that has no boundaries.What you experienced beforeas pain is nowsimply a movement of energy.
Instantly you are freeof all separation and conflict.All stress and self-importancegoes out the window.The mind / body experiencebecomes something youwitnessinside you rather thanyou inside it.So awareness is completelyuncomplicated.This simple shift in perspectivechanges everything in aninstant.
Simply by removing the mindas the perceiver,what was an experienceof incessant conflictnow is just conscious energy;An experience of unconditionalpeace.
Blessings,
Kip"
The Truth about Meditation
"According to your mind,
bliss and freedomare just around the corner.It will bein the next book you read,the next Guru you see,the next diet,the next spiritual movement.And somehow the idea ofmeditationgets woven into all of this.
But meditation is the opposite.Meditation is about beingpresentwith what is here.It is about letting go of thisconstant tendencyto leave this momentin search of something else.
It is about surrendering towhat is here,being aware of what is here.Because here is not thesuffering.The avoidance of hereis the suffering.And if you can be aware of thisavoidance;If you can be aware of thisconstanturge to leave this moment,then half the battle is won.Because if you can be awareof the resistance,the resistance will disappear.And when resistancedisappears
there is only peace.A peace so delicious,
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that any pleasure outside ofthis momentis painful in comparison.
Blessings,
Kip"Pure Existence
20 August, 2009 12:11 PM
"If you greet someoneand ask them how they are,they will referto the last few hours, weeksor months for an answer.Thoughts of the pastare constantly repeatingthemselvesand that becomeswho you think yourself to be.You might wake up in themorning
feeling blissful,and then the thought arisesthat 3 days ago you got aspeeding ticket.And now you don't feel blissful,now you feel awful.It is like you are getting thatspeeding ticket over and over!How many times will you getthatsame ticket in your mind?If your mind was reality,they would have alreadytaken away your license,probably your car too.But it was just that once.Over and done with.It has nothing to do
with how you are in thismoment.
It always come down to themind.The mind is the troublemaker.
Not the thoughts themselvesbut the identification withthem.The attachment to them.If I ask how you are,it has nothing to dowith how you were yesterdayor the week beforeor even a minute ago.It has to do with right now.
Right nowhow are you truly?Without referring to yourhistoryhow are you in this moment?You cannot really answerexcept to say thatin this momentthere is the sense of existence
and you are awareof existence.not as a person with a historybut as existence itself,pure impersonal being.And if you are aware ofexistencethen you are blissful.There are no two ways aboutit.If you are awareof the oneimpersonal existencein this moment,you are blissful.All problems solved.Now go pay your speeding
ticket.
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Blessings,
Kip"
The Path of Surrender
Thursday,
13 August, 2009 10:18 AM
Thursday,
"When you feel your chest
contracting,
when there is stress
and despair,
that is a good sign
that you are trying to control
what cannot be controlled.
That is a good sign
that the best thing you can do
is surrender
and allow yourself
to experience what is there.
Thoughts of strategies,
justification and even revenge
could be swirling around
like a hurricane,
offering you something to hold
on to.
But it is best to let them go,to trust and allow,
to be vulnerable and humble
and absolutely present
with what you feel.
Such times are tests
on your awareness.
It is one thing to be blissful,
sitting in a quiet air
conditioned room
with lovely music.
It is another thing to be
present
when all hell seems to be
breaking loose around you.
There are always two paths
in every moment:
the path of control,
and the path of surrender and
awareness.
And the two paths
take you in two completelydifferent directions.
Most people walk in circles:
they surrender a little
then back to control,
surrender and back to control.
What would happen
if you just remained aware,
surrendering to what isin every moment?
You can decide that today
you choose peace in every
moment
and it could alter your entire
life.
Blessings,
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Kip"
You Are Consciousness
Thursday, 6 August, 2009
11:39 AM
"Rather than enter meditation
as a person
trying to become more
conscious,
enter meditation
with the realization
that you are consciousness.
Not as an affirmation,
but as the truth.
What you are exists
beyond thoughts, beyond
physicality.
Take away all thought,
what is left?
If you like,use the method:
'who am I?'
Which is to ask:
'What am I
beyond thinking?'
'What is this
that I keep referring
to as "I"?
What is this sense
of existing in this moment?'
It will take you back
beyond the mind,
to where there is no answer,
where there is only
consciousness.
Somehow you keep turning
your back on this truth.
Or you turn it into knowledge,
a belief that you no longer
validate
but hold in your pocket like a
lucky charm.
And you end up again
involved with thoughts,
as though the thoughts
make up a person,
and that person is you,
and this person
has to find freedom from itself.
Rather realize from the start,
that you are consciousness.
And the way to yourself
is not to seek outside
of yourself.
But to let yourself restin this moment
as you truly are.
No need to deny anything,
no need to convince the mind
what is real.
Just be honest
about what is here.
Whenever you look beyond the
mind,
the truth exists,
naked and pure
and absolute.
This is meditation.
Blessings,
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Kip"
How to Grow in AwarenessFriday, 13 November, 2009
8:21
"You grow in awarenessby becoming consciousof what is unconscious.You have been meditating foryearsthinking your mind is still inmeditation,and then suddenly you see
you have been lost in yourthinkingthe whole time without evenknowing it.Because of our conditioning,the tendency is to feel downabout yourself,to feel like this realizationthat you have been
unconscious for so longmeans you have failed.But the realizationthat you have been caught upinthinking for the last 20 years ofmeditationis a great realization.Because it means
suddenly you are aware ofwhat you have not been awareoffor over 20 years.You take a quantum leapin awareness because of this.Many people spend their timetrying to convince themselvesand othershow great they are,how aware they are.
It is not wrong,we were taughtto impress others.It is ingrained in us to do so.
But in spending so much timetrying to create ourselvesto be a certain way,we do not see whatis actually here.We have simplycreated the idea ofconsciousnesson top of our unconsciousness.For awareness to growyou have to be willingto observe without judgement.To allow yourself to be honestand vulnerable enough to seewhat is unconscious.It can be as simple as closing
your eyesand watching your breathand then becoming awareof everything that takes youawayfrom your focus on yourbreath.The momentyou become aware of theunconscious,
it becomes conscious.It does not matterwhat you see.It is the seeing itselfthat is important.Blessings,
Commitment to Awareness
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Thursday, 5 November, 200911:52
"Once you becomeaccustomed to experiencing
what is here beyond yourthinking,(call it presence, awareness,consciousness)then all that is left is to keepyour focus here.Which is the same thing assayingto stop being identified withyour thoughts,to stop being involved withyour thinking.This seems simple enoughand would be quite easyif it wasn't for self-importance.A thought arisesand immediately you give it
importance.You think it is something thatneeds attention;something that needs to bedealt withor indulged or figured out.You place more importance onthe thoughtthen you do on awareness
and then awareness flys outthe window.That is why meditationis so important.You give yourself time everydayto say'for this period of time
my focus will besolely on awareness.'
Because then when thethought arisesabout what you have to do forwork tomorrow,
you will be willing to let it gobecause you made thecommitment to do so.And because you have thattime every daythat you use only for thepurpose of awareness,that awareness begins tooverflowinto the rest of your day.So that you will be driving toworkand without any effort orreasonyou will find yourselfin a sublime state of peace.
Blessings,
Witnessing ExplainedThursday, 19 November, 200914:23
"The nature of existenceis peace.You do not experiencethis peacebecause of your identification
with thinking.If you can witnessthe thoughts,identification would ceaseand you would experienceunconditional peace.You can learn to witnessthoughts by letting them goas they arise.
But thinking
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is happening at great speed.So many thoughts rushing bythat it is like being caught ina raging river.
By beginning towitness thinking,you stop getting caught in theriverand thoughts begin to slow.The more thoughtsslow down,the easier it is to witness.In the same way,as you identify with thinkingthe power of identificationincreasesand thinking speeds up.
So the more you caninwardly slow downthe easier awarenessbecomes.
At firstit seems impossible.But with persistenceeverything slows downand you begin to restas the witness.It is simply a matterof consistently choosingto let go of the thought.
To keep coming back toawareness.And eventuallyyou stop leavingin the first place.Blessings,
Becoming Aware ofAvoidance
Thursday, 26 November, 200910:06
"Even behindyour thoughts, emotions,
and physical experience,there is still a sense ofseparation.And this sense of separationhurts,not in a physical sense butenergetically.It is uncomfortable.
But this sense of separationis not a thing,it is an action.It is something you are doing.You are avoiding this moment.You are constantly avoidingbeing present in this moment.
The irony is,the moment you fully allowyourself to rest in the moment,the discomfort goesand there is an explosion ofenergy.You find that this infinite powerthat you have been seeking forso long
has been right here the wholetime.But at the same time,the moment you allowyourself to be fully here,the ego vanishes.You still exist,but not as an ego.
And so through all of yourtransformation,
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you free yourself fromemotions,you free yourself from themind,
and then you reach this coreexperience of avoidance,and you want to run the otherdirection.For some reason,it is too muchto surrender.By instinct,the ego wants to survive.You do not wantto give up control.So you seek more problems,more solutions,more teachings andknowledge.Anything but surrenderingto this intensity
of this moment.Just by being awareof this constant urgeto avoid this moment,half the battle is won.Because once you seethat you are doing it,you can stop doing it.
And the ultimate experienceis unconditional peace.It is what you have beenlooking for the whole time.Blessings,
Kip"