02 regret
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This series of booklets present the results of an online questionnaire I circulated worldwide, focussing on 4 aspects of the expat lifestyle - 01 Arrivals - 02 Regret - 03 Home - 04 ReturningTRANSCRIPT
REGRETS: NEVER FORGET:
Missing the chance to say goodbye Nan Blue Water, The Wilde Rover, Babalouis, The Palace, The Brass Monkey, CBH, Roasters, Bojangles, Novaks, Central, Hectors, The Three Brasseurs
the little boy with the fifty dollar notes, coming back again and again
the smiling face in the paddy field
stepping through sand that squeaks
showbags and scoundrels
that journey, there and back again
the nodding monk in the minibus
potato juggling racoons
all the colours under the sea
flying fish at the market
flying fish in the ocean
sixty seconds free falling
firing a glock seventeen
stepping into fresh snow each day
riding huskies and sculpting snow
the lizard in the bin, next to the broom
watching shooting stars in the outback
sunset on yellow water river
the view from the harbour bridge on the way to work
creatures that crawled out of the toaster at night
playing piano with my feet
watching two hands
sweet cherry pie at twede’s cafe
peanut butter and honey on toast
possoms in the tree
my hair frozen
uluru heights
the burger robbing bush turkey
driving from dawn til dusk
cowboys singing around the campfire
a moose in the middle of the street
the eagle-eyed vulture
how lucky you are.
‘My 23th birthday. I felt like a nobody. I used to have many friends to celebrate it with me. But this year, I celebrated it with 3 of my classmates as well as a sweet n sour chicken fried rice. Its even worst than having a lonely Xmas or being single on St. Valentine day.’
“The first day of the Lunar New Year. this is the first time that I had my lunar new year abroad, without my family beside me. I received two ‘red packets money’ (‘Lai Si’) from my elder sister by post together with a letter. In the letter she told me that Dad’s situation was getting worst. I need to be prepared that he would leave this world when I am still in UK. I couldn’t stop crying after reading it. I know I need to be beside Papa. And I really hope ‘that day’ (the day that papa leaves the world) will not come forever.’
‘I haven’t had any days in dk where I can remember being truly happy. In general, my best times living abroad have consisted of traveling elsewhere in Europe. For instance, in 2010, I visited about 10 other countries, with some countries visited multiple times. I think the best part of living in Europe is the ease of travel to other destinations.’
‘The day I found out my Mum had cancer I was living in the USA. All I could think about was getting home to be with her & my family. At that point we didn't know how long she had. She had to tell me this from hospital over the phone. All I wanted to do was give her a hug but I couldn't. I just wanted to be there. I was home within 2 days, but those 2 days seemed to take forever. Sitting alone at NY airport looking at the Christmas tree wondering if Mum was going to be with us for Christmas. Time with those you love is precious...’
‘The day I see my room packed with sheets off the bed and the dresser empty of all my things, that is the day I realized we are really leaving the only home I ever knew. I am seven years old and there is a mix of sadness and excitement that takes my breath away.
I feel the room spinning and flashes of where I've been, the friends I am leaving and expectations of new places excite and terrify me at the same time. I recall saying goodbye to my best friend, not through words but just looking at each other we spoke silently, sadness etched on her face. Forty years later I still see the look on her face in my mind's eye.’