my fault, my failure, is not the passions that i have, but my lack of control over them. jack...

My fault, my failure, is not the passions that I have, but my lack of control over them.Jack Kerouac to Neal Cassidy

I'm trying to feel more well adjusted than actually I am, which I guess, is the human condition.Douglas Copeland

Have mercy on me God, according to your unfailing love. According to your great compassion, blot our my transgression.Of David

Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your

great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I

sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are right in your verdict and

justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me. Yet you desired

faithfulness even in the womb; you taught me wisdom in

that secret place.

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let

the bones you have crushed rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my

iniquity. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence

or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, so

that sinners will turn back to you.

Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God, you who are God my Savior, and my tongue will sing of your righteousness. Open my lips, Lord,and my mouth will

declare your praise. You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not

take pleasure in burnt offerings. My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a

broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise. May it please you to prosper Zion, to build up the walls of Jerusalem. Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous, in burnt offerings offered whole; then bulls will be offered on your

altar.

context

bathsheba

“You are the man”

repentance

psalm 51

The appeal

Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your

great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always

before me.

The confession

Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight; so you are

right in your verdict and justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth,

sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

A big shift in modern theology related to sin is a move from viewing sin as

primarily against God (criminal) to viewing sin as primarily against each

other (civil). This can mean that as long as we don’t hurt others, God will justify however we choose to live. Our primary

lens related to sin is then justice and “the other” rather than righteousness before God. This can make sin man centered

rather than God centered, and weaken our passion for holiness. David however

knew the true nature of sin when he cried, “Against you only have I sinned,”

even though there was much sin against others.

restoration

wash me

Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being,And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom.Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;Wash me,

and I shall be whiter than snow.

heal me

Make me to hear joy and gladness,Let the bones which You have broken rejoice .

Hide Your face from my sins And blot out all my iniquities.

recreate me

Create in me a clean heart, O God,and renew a steadfast spirit within me.Do not cast me away from Your presenceand do

not take Your Holy Spirit from me.

restore me

Restore (shuv, "turn, return") to me the joy of Your salvation, and sustain me with

a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners will

be converted (shuv, "turn, return") to You.

A vow of thanks

Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, the God of my salvation; Then my tongue will joyfully sing of Your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, That my mouth may

declare Your praise. For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give

it; You are not pleased with burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a

broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.

implications

the cracks inour character

David & goliath

And the girl…

Abigail

hebron

These were the sons who were born to David in Hebron:

The oldest was Amnon, whose mother was Ahinoam of Jezreel. The second was Kileab, whose mother was Abigail, the widow of Nabal from Carmel. The third

was Absalom, whose mother was Maacah, the daughter of Talmai, king of

Geshur.The fourth was Adonijah, whose mother was Haggith. The fifth was

Shephatiah, whose mother was Abital. The sixth was Ithream, whose mother was

David’s wife Eglah. These sons were all born to David in Hebron.

jerusalem

After moving from Hebron to Jerusalem, David married more wives and

concubines, and he had many sons and daughters. These are the names of

David’s sons who were born in Jerusalem: Shimea, Shobab, Nathan, Solomon,

 Ibhar, Elishua, Nepheg, Japhia,  Elishama, Eliada, and Eliphelet.

2 Samuel 5

THE KING MUST NOT ACQUIRE MANY WIVES

The king, moreover, must not acquire great numbers of horses for himself or make the people return to Egypt to get more of them, for the Lord has told you, “You are not to go back that way again.”

He must not take many wives, or his heart will be led astray. He must not

accumulate large amounts of silver and gold. When he takes the throne of his

kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law, taken from that

of the Levitical priests.

It is to be with him, and he is to read it all the days of his life so that he may learn

to revere the Lord his God and follow carefully all the words of this law and

these decrees and not consider himself better than his fellow Israelites and turn from the law to the right or to the left.

Then he and his descendants will reign a long time over his kingdom in Israel.

Deuteronomy 17

The king, moreover, must not acquire great numbers of horses for himself or make the

people return to Egypt to get more of them, for the Lord has told you, “You are not to go back that way again.” He must not take many

wives, or his heart will be led astray. He must not accumulate large

amounts of silver and gold. When he takes the throne of his kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law, taken from that

of the Levitical priests.

1. People with secret sin

THERAPY VS CONFESSION

REPENT

2.People wrestlingin general

accountability

3. THOSE WITHWOUNDED CONSCIENCES

Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy

Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the

curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a

sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty

conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly

to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

Hebrews 10

Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened

for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the

house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that

faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty

conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he

who promised is faithful.Hebrews 10

turning to god, not from god

repent/believe/resist