my story - the happiness habit

A Story – My StoryTHE HAPPINESS HABIT

My mom says mine was the hardest of her pregnancies.

BIG baby. LONG labor. WRONG gender. My mom cried when she saw me.

No, I do not hold it against her …

okay, maybe just

sometimes ;)

I am one of 4 girls – number 3.

Not the oldest, not the youngest, smack in between.

“In-between” makes BAD branding

Never the best, not quite the worst … always mediocre …

Quite appropriately, I had a very mediocre life for a while

I can tell you, mediocrity

sucks!

Mediocrity was exhausting. And any attention felt like consolation.

“No,no … you are good

too”

“You are great at

other things” …

So I shunned mediocrity and attention …

“Okay, I think I will just stay in my room and try to be better

than ME ;) “

And I let my life take a nose dive for a few years, at least socially

“Why is she in her room ALL the time???”

Was not the best decision, but at least it wasn’t so boring anymore

Did I already say

mediocrity is boring???

And I enjoyed being left alone

I liked anti-social, it gave me the space

My FIRO-B indicates zero

Inclusion Wanted and Expressed!

To grow and understand myself

Turned out I was a LOT more understanding with myself than the world was

Music, journaling, dreams and poetry

I got to know me …

And live with the “me” …

Still boring, still anti-social and still loving it …

I wasn’t as miserable as it seemed.

I had started to LOVE myself, remember?

As I dug myself out of the deepest “abyss” in my life

You have heard THAT part before ;)

And then a few things happened -

Life became more about the journey, not the destination

I will NEVER reach my goal if I do not enjoy the process

first.

And I took my decisions and was wholly responsible for them

A LOT less complicated

that way!

And I was in total control of my happiness from then on ….

And all of a sudden, being social was not so bad …

Once I stopped expecting the world to understand me

Once I stopped blaming myself for the misery of other people …

Happiness became a habit

It was easy too

Happiness was just about figuring what my biggest needs are

And fulfilling them

The need to explore became my biggest driver

And the journey towards “something” became my life force.

I love sharing and helping …and people love to share and get help from the happy ones …

The happier I was, the happier the people in my life were …

My passion became my energy – always there to share …

Happiness sure became a habit.

Life is not all about me, but then it is largely about me.

Being selfless is about being selfish .... about a few basic things …

Understanding what makes me happy enough to be able to give

For me, it is about finding my next big purpose and going for it …

A purpose, a passion … a source of my energy.

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Where the story continues …

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make happiness a habit – and you will have a lot to be happy about!