6. DistractionsI made sure that every day was filled with some kind of “Distraction”, so she wouldn’t bring the “Please, I want you Edward” kind of pleas. I hated denying her what was so beautiful. All I could do was wish I were a real human man.

Why? Well, because than I, Edward Cullen, wouldn’t need to deny her what, I as a husband had to do, please her desires.

We went snorkeling, explored the small jungle on the private Island, watched the sunset, swam, and we “tried” to watch a movie. Every day I would notice she was tired enough not to ask. I knew she was mad at me sometimes, but she easily forgot about it.

I am and will be a BAD HUSBAND!!! I am No gentlemen! I am a Monster and a monster would hurt the people he loves! Dam it! I thought. Since the beginning of our honeymoon I have been cursing at anything. I have been and still am cranky. I have never been like this. I have no idea why I’m like this.

Maybe cause you feel guilty. Maybe you want to feel this way so the lust for bella’s body won’t make you lose your control? Just take a risk. I now we both will enjoy it! The greedy monster inside me said my head. I think I’m going crazy.

That’s when I heard the door creak. I looked up and I swear I saw heaven or maybe just a glimpse.

For the love of what is all holy, I want you NOW!!!! Said the greedy monster. I agreed with him for one second and then said in my head No! That my fragile Bella. My mouth had been open and on the floor, not long enough for her to see, but my eyes didn’t so she saw them pop out.

She was wearing the most sexiest thing ever. She was wearing something black and lacy. It opened from the bottom of her bra, it had a matching thong and by god, I Know my member was asking for attention at that moment.

Thank god, there is a book on my lap. Was all I could think of and about her body.

“What do you think?” She asked, pirouetting so that I could see every angle and curve.

I cleared my throat. “You look beautiful. You always do.” I said trying not to be interested.

“Thanks,” She said a bit sourly knowing I “didn’t” care. You fucking lair. Said the greedy monster. We both know WE want her. It said. STOP! I demanded.

She was tired, she climbed in quickly and I put my arms around her. She’s so close to you. TAKE HER!!!! I ignored that selfish monster inside me that once only craved her blood, now it also craved her beautiful body.

“I’ll make you a deal,” She said sleepily.

“I will not make any deals with you,” I answered.

“You haven’t even heard what I’m offering.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

She sighed. “Dang it. And I really wanted… Oh well.”

I rolled my eyes. Don’t buy it. Ugh.

“All right. What is it you want?” I asked.

“Well, I was thinking… I know that the whole Dartmouth thing was just supposed to be a cover story, but honestly, one semester of college probably wouldn’t kill me,” She said.

“Charlie would get a thrill out of Dartmouth stories, I bet. Sure, it might be embarrassing if I can’t keep up with all the brainiacs. Still… eighteen, nineteen. It’s really not such a big difference. It’s not like I’m going to get crow’s feet in the next year.”

Why oh why!!! I thought we could finally be together equally after this and now you want to delay it! Ugh. I want you every second of the day and now you tell me you rather wait till one semester of collage instead of after our honeymoon.

Then, in a low voice, I said, “You would wait.

You would stay human.”

She was silent.

“Why are you doing this to me?” I said through his teeth, my tone suddenly

angry. “Isn’t it hard enough without all of this?” I grabbed a handful of lace that

was ruffled on her thigh. Rip it, take her! Now! Said the greedy monster. Then my hand relaxed. “It doesn’t matter. I won’t make any deals with

you.” I said breaking the silence once again.

“I want to go to college.” She insisted.

“No, you don’t. And there is nothing that is worth risking your life again. That’s

worth hurting you.”

“But I do want to go. Well, it’s not college as much as it’s that I want—I want to be human a little while longer.”

Why can’t I be human once again? I thought. While closing my eyes and exhaling through my nose.

“You are making me insane, Bella. Haven’t we had this argument a million times, you always begging to be a vampire without delay?” I asked.

“Yes, but… well, I have a reason to be human that I didn’t have before.” She said.

“What’s that?” I asked.

“Guess,” She said, and she dragged herself off the pillows to kiss me.

I kissed her back, but not in the way she wanted me to. Carefully I pulled away, so I wouldn’t hurt her feelings, I cradled her in my chest.

“You are so human, Bella. Ruled by your hormones.” I chuckled.

“That’s the whole point, Edward. I like this part of being human. I don’t want to

give it up yet. I don’t want to wait through years of being a blood-crazed newborn for some part of this to come back to me.”

She yawned, and I smiled. Finally.

“You’re tired. Sleep, love.” I started humming the lullaby I’d composed for her when we first met.

“I wonder why I’m so tired,” She muttered sarcastically. “That couldn’t be part of your scheme or anything.”

I chuckled and went back to humming.

“For as tired as I’ve been, you’d think I’d sleep better.”

The song broke off. “You’ve been sleeping like the dead, Bella. You haven’t said a

word in your sleep since we got here. If it weren’t for the snoring, I’d worry you

were slipping into a coma.” I said.

I haven’t been tossing? That’s weird.

Usually I’m all over the bed when I’m having nightmares. And shouting.”

“You’ve been having nightmares?” I asked.

“Vivid ones. They make me so tired.” She yawned. “I can’t believe I haven’t been

babbling about them all night.”

“What are they about?” I asked.

“Different things—but the same, you know, because of the colors.”

“Colors?”

“It’s all so bright and real. Usually, when I’m dreaming, I know that I am. With

these, I don’t know I’m asleep. It makes them scarier.”

I was disturbed when I spoke again. “What is frightening you?”

She shuddered slightly. “Mostly . . .” She hesitated.

“Mostly?” I prompted.

“The Volturi,” I whispered.

I hugged her tighter. “They aren’t going to bother us anymore. You’ll be

immortal soon, and they’ll have no reason.” I told her.

I knew she wasn’t telling me something.

I broke the silence by asking, “What can I do to help?”

“They’re just dreams, Edward.” She insisted.

“Do you want me to sing to you? I’ll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams

away.” I said.

“They’re not all bad. Some are nice. So… colorful. Underwater, with the fish and

the coral. It all seems like it’s really happening—I don’t know that I’m dreaming.

Maybe this island is the problem. It’s really bright here.” She explained.

“Do you want to go home?”

“No. No, not yet. Can’t we stay awhile longer?”

“We can stay as long as you want, Bella,” I promised her.

“When does the semester start? I wasn’t paying attention before.” She said with a sleepy voice.

I sighed. I started humming again, and she fall asleep.

I slowly climbed of the bed, made my way to the doors into the beach.

It was nice outside. I made sure bella was still asleep, and stripped down. I dove into the water. It was so warm.

Instantly I remembered our first night her. I replayed it repeatedly.

I needed to find a way to release my wants for my beautiful Bella.

Slowly I put both my hands down where I knew I needed attentions. I moved my hands in an up, down direction. I imaged I was in my Bella.

That’s when I heard my lovely wife’s heart beat slow down. I quickly put my clothes on and rushed in my hair already dry. I didn’t release my want for her, Now it was double the need.

That was when she gasped.

“Bella?” I whispered, my arms tight around her, shaking her gently. “Are

you all right, sweetheart?”

“Oh,” She gasped again. Suddenly tears where overflowing form her eyes.

“Bella!” I said—louder, alarmed now. “What’s wrong?” I wiped the tears from

her hot cheeks with my fingers.

“It was only a dream.” she couldn’t contain the low sob that broke in my voice.

“It’s okay, love, you’re fine. I’m here.” I rocked her back and forth, a little too

fast to soothe. “Did you have another nightmare? It wasn’t real, it wasn’t real.”

“Not a nightmare.” She shook her head, scrubbing the back of her hand against her eyes. “It was a good dream.” Her voice broke again.

“Then why are you crying?” I asked, bewildered.

“Because I woke up,” She wailed, wrapping her arms around my neck in a chokehold and sobbing into my throat.

I laughed once at her logic, but I was concerned. .

“Everything’s all right, Bella. Take deep breaths.”

“It was so real,” She cried. “I wanted it to be real.”

“Tell me about it,” I urged. “Maybe that will help.”

“We were on the beach. . . .” She trailed off, pulling back to look with tear-filled eyes at my anxious face, dim in the darkness.

“And?” I finally prompted.

She blinked the tears out of her eyes, torn. “Oh, Edward . . .”

“Tell me, Bella,” I pleaded, eyes wild with worry at the pain in her voice.

But instead of telling me she clutched her arms around my neck and kissed me with so much passion and need.

I responded in the way she wouldn’t like, by pulling her of me.

“No bella,” I told her in a firm voice.

She dropped her arms and once more started to cry again.

I stared at her confused.

“I’m s-s-s-orry,” She mumbled.

Kiss her! Take her! Now! The greedy monster ordered.

Instead I hugged her.

“I can’t, Bella, I can’t!” I moan.

“Please,” She said, my plea muffled against my skin. “Please, Edward?”

Those two words shattered my resolve. I couldn’t take it anymore. The way she said it, the way her voice sounded, I wasn’t want. It

was pure need. Discovering that I knew I NEED her too. I couldn’t bare not giving in.

I watched as she cried for me, the need of my cold body joined with hers. And I just couldn’t bare it.

I pulled her to me, our lips crashed as if they hadn’t for billions of years. This moment was so pure of raw need and love, that I surrendered with a groan.

We stayed like that for what seem eternity. Finally I pulled away so my love could breath. What I saw made my body do things that I thought wouldn’t be pleased. Her eyes showed love, need, Lust. Life faded and it was just my Bella and me.

This was heaven. Or the gateway to heaven.

Slowly I began to lower us to the huge white bed. I wanted this to be perfect better than our first, this time no bruises.

She slowly unbuttoned each button of my shirt. But I needed her now. I ripped my shirt off. And then my boxers.

No time to be self conscious. I told myself.

She just stared at me, waiting for me to undress her. She looked so sexy, I wonder where my innocent little girl went.

I tried to undress her, but I could see our need was becoming unbearable. So instead, I ripped the lace of her body.

There, in front of my eyes laid the most exotic women in the world. I took her in my mind, as a poor man whom takes food. I loved the way her breasts were the right size, the way my hands fit in her curves, and the way her body told me she wanted me.

I minute I’m looking at her, the next she’s on her knees kissing me. The passion in the kiss was…

I don’t have a word to describe it so. I thought.

Slowly I brought my hand to her left breast and pinched it. She moaned in my mouth. Every little sound she produced made me grow.

I broke our kiss and trailed kisses from her jaw to her collarbone. I looked up to ask her if it was okay and my lover nodded biting her lip.

I took her pink nipple in my mouth and she moaned. Cautiously I wrapped my teeth with my mouth and gently tugged her.

Meanwhile, my hand gently rubbed circles on her belly. She then grabbed the hand that was on her belly and moved it downwards.

I looked up, to see my angle’s eyes, they plead for me to please her. Then she opened her legs and push my hand to the small patch of brown hair.

I, being the gentleman I am, panicked. I wanted to do this last time, but I was afraid she wouldn’t want to. Now she did and that amazed me.

I looked at her and she nodded. Slowly I began to rub her small bundle of nerves.

“OMG!!! Edward, pleas…ugh… don’t… stop!!!...ever! She moaned.

Fuck! Need to be inside you now! I thought.

Slowly I began to move my finger up and down her sensitive skin.

So WET!

I circled her opening with my finger and gently plugged it in and out of her, causing her to buck her hips.

The way she looked turn me on to fully power. Her eyes were half open, her mouth was open to the shape of an “O”, and her face held so many emotions.

I added another finger making her cry out in pleasure.

“Edward! STOP!” She cried.

I froze completely.

Did I hurt you? Fuck! I knew I was going to hurt you.

“What?!?!?” I asked.

“Calm… Down. K?” She said breathless.

“Okay.” I answered angry.

“Don’t be angry. I just don’t want to finish like that. I want it with you.” She said.

“Um…Edward? Can I um… Touch you?” She asked embarrassed.

Silly girl. I thought.

I nodded and sat back.

We stayed liked that for a moment.

She looked like she didn’t know what to do so I showed her.

“Here love.” I said grabbing her hand, I place it on my erection and moved it up and down. Then I let go and enjoyed it.

Warm! Hot! Damn! Sexy! LORD GOD! This is Fabulous.

I was about to come so I stopped her.

Slowly laid her down keeping myself in between her legs.

I kissed her in a passionate and…

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