midterm project
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Midterm ProjectTRANSCRIPT
The overarching theme of these photos I’ve chosen in conjunction with the lyrics
from creep I wanted to portray a women that is dealing with issues of self image and how
these internal feelings of self hate are tearing her apart.
The first photo I took I wanted to convey a rather drab and mundane surrounding
contrasting with the red shirt the pained women is wearing. This red shirt is representing
her internal conflict with her self image and this consuming pain has caused everything
else to seem mute (hence the very plain color of the concrete and bench surroundings).
Lastly she stares to the left with a melancholy gaze rather than gazing off to the
burgeoning concrete path that awaits her to the right. Her internal pain of self hate has her
first of all not addressing the problem and not looking forward in any meaningful way,
she is simply stuck on the bench waiting.
The second photo is an interior photo and I had great difficulty getting the lighting
right but after much experimentation, I ended up liking the tint I used. This photo
portrays the women at her most honest and desperate moment. She gazes up at the
burgeoning red flower light that consumes half of the photo as if she is desperately trying
to barter with her self hate in order to gain control over her life once more but her self
hate fills the room.
The next photo is of the women standing by a great body of water. The sun is
shining along it’s graceful waves which creates a beautiful scene only to be
overshadowed by her inability to enjoy her own beauty. In this photo I had her turn her
back away from the body of water as if she is becoming even more isolated from the
world. The light shins all around her but indicative of her black cloths she no longer
belongs here. Lastly I cropped out her eyes to indicate that she cannot see beauty for
herself anymore, she is blinded by her self hate and further isolating herself.
The line “I want a perfect soul” is perfectly complemented with my next photo
which is a tower peering high above with a cross on top. In this photo I wanted to find a
cross with an imperfect view so I chose to have tree branches in the shot. The tree
branches represent the imperfection of our souls covering the cross but with the sun still
shining on the cross its suppose to mean imperfection is the norm. The empty blue sky
that consumes most of the photo is the women’s fruitless strive for perfection that leaves
her feeling empty.
The last photo has the women whispering in my ear with the same tint I used for
the last interior photo. The tint I used in the interior photos is meant to be somewhat
unearthly. I wanted the tint to express that her self hate is an internal problem and that she
can only cry (express herself) when she is behind closed doors This photo was taken to
complement the line “I want you to notice when I’m not around.” Her desperate desire
for someone to hear her cries is not satisfied because I’m acting in this photo as if she
isn’t even there.
“Creep” by Radiohead
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
The visual aesthetic I chose was inspired by the video for the remake of the song creep by
the Vega Choir. They used a realism approach and in some of the scenes from the video
they used black and white to give a since of isolation but ironically enough this sense of
isolation is contrasted with the fact that there are multiple women in these scenes. I chose
to borrow the contrast between tinted images and non tinted images to express feelings of
isolation and helplessness.