national poetry month || words with taloned claws
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Words with Taloned ClawsAuthor(s): Eileen MaloneSource: The North American Review, Vol. 289, No. 2, National Poetry Month (Mar. - Apr.,2004), p. 12Published by: University of Northern IowaStable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/25127123 .
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NAR
EILEEN MALONE
Words with Taloned Claws
These spiked words about how my son
stopped being my son, became my enemy are too matted, too sad; they will cause you
to shy away, so I draw you in washed
in mauve and gold light
view from the wrong end of a telescope a skimming bird, lilac swallow of shade
that drops feathers on a late-day sea
beyond this marsh where wind laps up all the indigo, I'm there, here, writing
what I say can be found in other letters
from unloved mothers to beloved sons
usually found years later stashed in the backs
of chipped, damp drawers, never sent
I had no choice, no matter how you believe
I sinned, seized or stilted, believe me
the things I did, the things I didn't do
every madness-ravaged minute, I loved you
like the bird who dies for the sake of its hatching
dripping blood from its broken beak, crying out
I write these words with taloned claws
rip them into bits of wet pulpy text
submit them as sodden, weedy shadows
dropped on watery marshes to be picked up
salvaged by other beaks, other mothers
to hang out to dry in order to use later as lining as softening,
as warm intuitive comforting
in other damaged
and abandoned nests.
MARIO REN? PADILLA
Once, I Wanted to Be Ritchie Valens
When I was ten, I wanted to be Ritchie Valens.
Brown skin like his, standing on a couch
I stood upon a stage in his burgundy sharkskin suit, a triple-pickup Fender strapped around my neck
(really just a broom and a piece of rope), no soy marinero but a rock and roll star
that some blond, blue-eyed girl from Germantown, Ohio,
might finally find something in me to admire.
At twenty-one I moved to Hollywood, and after a time, I wanted to be Cheech Marin.
It was the seventies and to be like him
I smoked reefer and said ?rale and vato and pinche cabr?n ese.
Then I went to Tijuana for one long day of drink and fun
with office friends named Matt and Allen and Fred
looking for cheap leather coats and some black wrought-iron chairs we drank cold beers in dark illicit bars
and I bought a ceramic bull with leather horns tipped in red,
passing up a painting of Pancho Villa on black velvet
for a pair of maracas that said Welcome to Tijuana.
And crossing back into San Diego,
they singled me out, ignoring the others in the car:
"Are you an American?" they asked.
And how dare they ask me this in Spanish, me with only three months of Cheech and Chong under my belt
and the high school Spanish I'd always flunked, and shit, wasn't I the same midwestern kid
they let pass that morning without a single suspicious comment?
FINALISTS JAMES HEARST POETRY PRIZE
12 NORTH AMERICAN REVIEW March-April 2004
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