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too. Because that takes you to where Heneeds you to be, because God needseverybody to be somewhere doing some-thing. '

So for each moment everything is per-fect. Even if you think it's the worst, it's stillperfect. Because that's the way it needs tobe for you to do what God needs you todo. So even when it's at myworst times, I know there's aplan, even though at the timeI don't want to be involved inthat plan, because I don't likeit at that particular time. ButGod's saying, "No, this is what Ineed you to do. So I have tobreak you down in order foryou to be where I need you to .be."

Jamie: WelL how did hebreak you down? Tell me this:You said you were very smartin school?Saaphyri: Mm-hmm.

Jamie: And then you'd toldme earlier that you werecaught doing identity theft.How did you get there?Saaphyri: That was somethingthat came about because Iwas hurt. I was going througha lot of problems with a familymember. And it was basicallythe fact that my father hadbecome ill and there was a lotof money at stake. This oneuncle, he had a relationshipwith my dad-it was like aCain and Abel type thing. Meand my dad were extremely,extremely close. I'm his onlydaughter-well, was his onlydaughter. And this uncle didnot like me. And, I was tryingto hold on to the materialthings that I should have letgo of, but I was trying to reallyhold on because I felt it wasmine. So I listened to this unclethinking, "Okay, he's not goingto do this to me," or whatever.But he needed me to sign hisname to these financial papers so theycould go ahead to court. Then he's like,"It's okay. Do you need me to go downand say anything?" Because, really, it was-n't like identity theft where I went and usedo credit card. It's basically unauthorizeduse. He said that he didn't allow me to usehis identity when, in fact he did. It's not thatI was out on a crime spree or somethinglike that. He paid on my disability becauser have BDD.

Jamie: What is BDD?Saaphyri: (laughter) It's called body dvs-morphic disorder.

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Jamie: I've never heard of that. You'reschooling me.Saaphyri: (laughter) I've grown up and I'mschooling you. There's a lot of people thatsuffer from BDD. Body dysmorphic disorderis basically a disorder where you just can'tfind any beauty-you always find some-thing wrong with yourself physically.

even though I still have the scar, God stillloves me. It doesn't matter. You're still you,with this scar. The scar is not you.

Jamie: Okay, so now tell me this, With thisBDD, he knew that you had this, so youruncle played on that? How does he playon that? He told you that you can use his

credit card for getting somethings? Buying things?Saaphyri: No, it wasn't acredit card. It was, like, thisfinancial agreement. Hesigned it, right? Then he stat-ed that he didn't sign it. Butthen he came back later onand said yes, he did. But bythen I'd already been con-victed; I'm already in troubleand nobody's listening tohim. Do you understandwhat I'm saying? And then

, by that time; also, the pro-bate and all that stuff hadalready been done, andthey had won. So that moneyis theirs. So then he was like,alright. whatever with her.

Jamie: So was it a lot ofmoney?Saaphyri: Yeah, it was. It'slike with the actual moneyand properties it was worthseveral million dollars.

Jamie: And you? Or some-body signed for it? I don'tunderstand what happened.Saaphyri: This is what hap-pened: What happened wasmy dad, he had an acci-dent. And because of theaccident he suffered somebrain injuries. His properties,his monies, everything-because he didn't have awill, which I hope all peopledo. Now I know I will definite-ly have a will. Don't just tellyour brothers, sisters and yourmama, "This is who I want tohave this." No, you need awill because people will stepin and take everything, even

people that you feel are close to you orwhatever. And that is what happened withmy dad. It was like once he became illwhen he had this car accident, this unclethe one I was telling you about that did notlike my father-I mean, like, they have theworst history in the world. It was even to the

, point that he believed his son was mydad's son. You know how those familyrumors are, with the cousin. So they were inthe courts. He stole all this 'money. We final-ly got the courts to see that he was stealingthis money.

Jamie: Okay.Saaphyri: When I was 16, I got hit by adrunk driver. I had a scar that was on thebottom of my chin. And every time I lookedin the mirror, aU I could see was this scar,this scar, this scar.

Jamie: Do you see it today?Saaphyri: Yeah, I still see it because it's stillthere.

Jamie: Can they treat this? BDD?Saaphyri: Yeah, you go to therapy, andyou talk about it. I've become a lot better.Because it used to look like this giant scar.It has shrunk, because in my mind now,