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This issue celebrates growth, but, as we’ve discovered with Slice, growth is rarely what we expect. In the following pages, you’ll encounter characters mired in their struggles. Not all of them will grow up by the last page. But, stepping back as readers, we can see the possibility of growth beyond the story’s end. And, as you’ll learn through interviews with some of today’s literary greats, growing up is more about hope than about reaching a fixed point.TRANSCRIPT
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SPRING/SUMMER 2012 ISSUE 10
GROWING UP
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JOHN FICARRA 20
NINA SANKOVITCH 40
MARTÍN ESPADA 58
OSCAR HIJUELOS 88
CURTIS SITTENFELD 117
JULIA ALVAREZ 134
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“His only vice was that he sang old boleros on the weekend in his apartment using a
thick Castilian tongue that made us question his origins. Although the sounds of our curses ran
easily from our mouths, it was hard to forget whom we were talking about. It was hard for any of
us to understand why he, above anyone else, would steal something as irreplaceable as time.”señor ignacio perú Joseph CáCeres
page 10
“I burst out of the bathroom and wagged the positive pregnancy test wand in front of his face.
Immaculate conception is out, I said. God and I aren’t on good enough terms.”YesterdaY’s whales Megan Mayhew BergMan
page 27
“I asked him if there was anything he could do to make my Slurpee taste better and he
poured a healthy dose of vodka in.”night at the reservoir on airline drive Kathy Fish
page 47
“He and Ashley build a castle of primary colors. Yellows and reds. A tower for a princess
and a turreted wall for the king. In the back, Cuth constructs a gallows. He does not tell
Ashley what it is.”after the intromit Douglas w. MilliKen
page 50
“To produce Jar, I’d been informed, Pascal had emptied out a jar of strawberry jam, wrapped it
in newspaper, and then filled it with two hundred milliliters of Ebola-infected chimpanzee blood,
which he’d purchased from a PhD student at the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine
who was in debt to her skunk dealer. All his other recent work was of that same category.”sealed vessels neD BeauMan
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SPOTLIGHTMAMA’S BOY 129Rachel Maizes
FICTIONSEÑOR IGNACIO PERÚ 10Joseph Cáceres
YESTERDAY’S WHALES 27Megan Mayhew Bergman
THIS IS HOW EVENTUALLY THE WORLD FALLS APART 46Kathy Fish
NIGHT AT THE RESERVOIR ON AIRLINE DRIVE 47Kathy Fish
AFTER THE INTROMIT 50Douglas W. Milliken
IN THIS ISSUE INTERVIEWS
WITH
CURTISSITTENFELD
JOHNFICARRA NINA
SANKOVITCH
MARTÍNESPADA
OSCARHIJUELOS
JULIAALVAREZ
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EL CHOLO 64Marytza K. Rubio
POMP AND CIRCUMSTANCES 68Nina McConigley
TWO DUCKS 76Sarah Gerard
THUMP-THUMP 86Ariel Faulkner
EVERYTHING I KNOW 98Elizabeth O’Brien
ONLY ONCE, AND EVEN THEN 106John Trotta
SEALED VESSELS 112Ned Beauman
IN THE WAKE OF SILENCE 123Nicole Ducleroir
INTERVIEWSJOHN FICARRA 20Sonia Nayak
NINA SANKOVITCH 40Celia Blue Johnson and Maria Gagliano
MARTÍN ESPADA 58Greg Christie
OSCAR HIJUELOS 88Maria Gagliano and Celia Blue Johnson
CURTIS SITTENFELD 117Tom Hardej
JULIA ALVAREZ 134Elizabeth Blachman
NONFICTIONHOW TO BE A JUVENILE DELINQUENT 36Jaquira Díaz
LIKE MOURNERS’ BREAD 80Kelly Sundberg
THE JOURNEY 94Elizabeth Blachman
POETRYWHISPERS THE ASSASSIN 19Chris Haven
WHEN I CAME TO THE GARDEN, I HAD MUCH TO FEAR 38Bethany L. Carlson
THE KINGDOM OF DIRE HEARTS EVAPORATES 39Bethany L. Carlson
UPON A BIRTH 57J.D. Smith
PICTURES OF LISA 66Justin Bigos
DIAGNOSED 96Katelyn Delvaux
WE DO NOT SWIM 97Katelyn Delvaux
IN THE WRECKAGE 110Lucas Hunt
WHEN THE HOST IS AWAY 111Lucas Hunt
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SEÑOR IGNACIO
PERÚJOSEPH CÁCERES
On that distant Wednesday we were awakened
by a yell that sounded late in the evening. At first we
thought someone had died (clarity never comes with
disrupted sleep) and it was a murderous enough sound
for a few, that is, the most curious of us, to respond.
So like a strange monster (with heads protruding
from the windows of the edifice) we saw a man running
barefoot down the Grand Concourse. He had on a pair
of black pants that were held up by suspenders that
crossed over his big exposed belly, and he screamed
some foolishness into the night. The infamous palo
abandoned at the building entrance gave way to his
identification. It was Señor Ignacio Perú. By the way he
was moving we thought he was drunk (and confirmed it
after he rushed past some corner bum and knocked him
off the milk crate he sat on), but when he jumped into
the air, it seemed that he’d clicked his heels, and we real-
ized that alcohol alone could not bear the responsibility
for this hullabaloo. At this point we stopped trying to
make sense of Señor Ignacio and said that some miracle
must have kept that cripple (and those stitches) from
tragedy and shame since he had landed on his feet (and
his moon-shaped belly continued to jiggle without rip-
ping his pants).
Laughter. One of us said that maybe the muertos
were chasing him because he tapped that palo the
wrong way. Our eyes closed hard to fight off the tears,
lost in laughter. Then, one minute he was in front of the
vivero and, moments later, he seemed to have disap-
peared. That’s when one of us said that Señor Ignacio
must have heard us, took one look over his shoulder, saw
us cackling and flew.
Once we realized we were watching the dark we got
angry. We screamed at him and called him a mamão for
wasting our time. Yet we stayed at the windows for a
while longer, laughing at our own stupidity—really wait-
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ing for the reason for his outburst—until the silent street
was the only answer we got. Still confused, we all went
back into our apartments.
During that time the others, that is, the ones who
had covered their ears with pillows and who didn’t find
humor in the situation, told us to shut up. Some even
got out of their beds and slammed their windows shut
in spite of the fact that it was the second night of what
became a three-day heat wave. They placed a great
importance on the fact that peace had been stolen from
them and announced that the things from outside made
all of our lives that much worse. Their complaints only
added to the noise that moments before had begun to
die, and—frustrated—we all closed the windows.
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There’s this picture
of me in bed
with Cindy and
Lisa. We’re drinking
Bud with our shirts off.
My hands are on
their tits. Lisa
looks asleep
because she blinked.
This was all Scott’s
idea. He said
it would be cool
if Cindy blew me but
Lisa said don’t.
It was Scott’s last night
before jail. He’d taken
a tire iron to Carl
after Carl beat him
at arm-wrestling and
Lisa couldn’t stop
laughing. Carl’s short
but he’s got muscles
from his job. They flex
like he’s talking.
He and Lisa
almost had a baby
two times. She says
it’s over. She turns away
when I tell her
she’s pretty. There’s this
star she points to
when she’s high.
Pictures of Lisa
JUSTIN BIGOS
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Some nights it moves.
She says it’s us
that’s spinning. She tastes
like honeysuckle
and blood. I don’t know
what she wants
from me. Maybe nothing
but a way to forget
Carl, or Scott,
her graveyard shifts
at the warehouse.
Sometimes we drive
to West Swanzey,
once all the way down
to Troy. We bring coolers
of beer and chips.
We lie in the shade.
The out of town
plates ride slowly through
the streets. They’re here
to watch the leaves
turn red before
they’re burned. Soon kids
will be banging
on doors dressed
like monsters. Lisa’s
scared. She won’t say
she loves me. I would
name our child
Carl if she wanted.
Anything. I pray
for Scott to stay
in jail forever.
One time he ripped
out my earring
just because. He’s
the one person
I will kill
if he makes me.
I’m not so young
as everyone says.
He said one baby
was his. He showed me
a picture of Lisa
sitting up in bed,
hugging a sheet.
Her eyes were pink
from the flash. I stole
his camera when
they took him. I thought
I could fill it
with proof of who
makes Lisa cry
out to heaven
from every angle. But
the next day was so
quiet I wasted
all the pictures
on rocks and leaves.
The tree I carved
a star in. The clouds
moving high above
Lisa all afternoon
as she slept.
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The women Curtis Sittenfeld writes about are all a little like her. They are
smart, funny, and complicated women—whether we’re talking about Lee
dealing with issues of class at a Massachusetts boarding school in Prep, or
Hannah, an insecure woman trying to navigate through her life in The Man
of My Dreams, or Alice Blackwell, the future First Lady of the United States
in American Wife. But Sittenfeld is also a good enough writer that each is
fully drawn and distinct from the others (and from her). We discussed how
she got into writing, her inspirations, and what she’s working on next.
AN INTERVIEW WITH
TOM HARDEJ
CURTIS SITTENFELD
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What made you want to be a writer? What was your
process for getting where you are now as a novelist?
I was one of those people who always wrote
from a very young age. I learned to read and
write around kindergarten or first grade. I always wrote
stories, and then I never stopped. Obviously it’s a little
different to do it as a hobby and to do it professionally.
When I was in college, I worked for the student newspa-
per, and I interned at magazines. And the summer I
graduated from college, which was 1997, I was an intern
at the Charlotte Observer in North Carolina. I was
working as a general assignment reporter, which I was
pretty bad at, but I learned a lot.
After that I got a job at the business magazine Fast
Company, which was then a new magazine, writing
about Silicon Valley and the new economy. I was a
reporter there, and I stayed there only for about a year
and a half, and then I went to graduate school at the
Iowa Writers’ Workshop. I continued to write nonfiction
and fiction, and to do articles, but before Prep came
out, I supported myself taking journalistic assignments;
but I’ve always done a little bit of both. Prep came out
in 2005.
And Prep was a part of your thesis at Iowa?
It was like I was writing sections of Prep, and
then some of it was my thesis. This is a tiny
difference, but I wouldn’t say I wrote it for my thesis. I
would say that I was writing it, and I used it for my
thesis. The first part of Prep that I ever wrote was in
January 2000, which was my second semester of my
first year at the workshop, and it was what became the
last chapter. It wasn’t like I started on page one and
really systematically worked my way forward. I kind of
dipped in and out. I might write what would become a
chapter of Prep, and then I would go and write a short
story about entirely different characters.
I graduated from Iowa in 2001, and that was when
I had almost backed my way into writing a novel, or I
had pretended to myself that I wasn’t writing a novel,
because it was intimidating to think that I was. At that
point I thought, I need to look at what I’ve written so far
and figure out what I need to do to finish it. To my sur-
prise, because I had written different chapters as these
entirely different sections, or almost like short stories, I
had over 300 pages. So then I thought, okay, I need to
fill in this hole; there’s a big hole in the character’s fall
of her sophomore year or spring of her junior year. And
I thought it would take me six months to finish, and I
think it took me like eighteen months. But eventually, to
my astonishment, I did finish.
Did you have a literary agent at this point? Or were
you working in hopes that some day it would be
publishable?
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As soon as Mrs. Cossgrove turned off the dormitory lights, and the slap of her oxfords against
the flagstone path receded, Lila hopped on Reese’s
cot. She kneaded Reese’s chest, her claws pricking his
pajamas, her long, gray fur tickling his wrists. Reese
closed his eyes and breathed in the cat’s smell—a mix
of cold, tree bark, leaves all but melted into the earth,
and also a raw scent, of mice perhaps. Petting her, his
breathing slowed like it did when he solved equations,
everything balancing out in large, white letters on the
chalkboard.
Around him, boys argued about who was the great-
est, Babe Ruth or Ty Cobb. The 1960 season had just
begun.
Reese massaged the top of Lila’s head.
Melbourne, a boy lying two cots over, said to Reese,
“What do you think, faggot? Huh, fairy? Ruth or Cobb?”
“He’ll say Ruth. He thinks you mean a girl,” Wendell
called across the room. He was a heavy boy, and his
words reverberated against the long, gray walls.
“He wishes he was a girl.” Melbourne threw back his
covers and swung his legs over the side of the bed.
“Maybe he is. Maybe his name isn’t Reese. Maybe it’s
Rose.” Wendell slapped the ends of the other boys’ beds
as he closed in on Reese.
Reese rolled to the floor. He didn’t want the boys to
find Lila, and he was sure to end up there anyway. He
had recently grown, his body stretched out like a boat
paddle, his limbs now long and wide, making for an easy
target. The boys struck his arms and back, yanked off
his pajama bottoms.
“Looks like you’re a boy after all,” Wendell said. They
continued to hit him until Wendell was breathing hard,
sweat rolling off his brow and falling on Reese’s legs.
The large boy climbed off.
Melbourne seemed reluctant to quit, punching Reese
a few more times. “Ah, you’re hardly worth it,” he said,
finally standing and stretching his arms.
Reese found Lila where he had left her. Though his
arm ached, he petted her, counting one stroke for each
MAMA’S BOY
RACHEL MAIZES
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week until he would board the train home, ten strokes in
all. He had no one but himself to blame for the way the
boys treated him.
In the morning, Lila woke Reese, stamping her nose
into the side of his arm. Soon Mrs. Cossgrove would wake
the other boys. “I’ll rip those cobwebs right out of your
heads if you don’t get up,” she would shout from the
door.
Reese stumbled to the bathroom. If he hurried, he
could wash without having his face pushed in the toilet.
He cringed at his image in the mirror. The morning of
his departure for school, his father had taken a razor to
his hair, which had been as curly as a pug’s tail and the
color of yams. It grew back in angry spikes no amount of
combing could soften.
Lila was gone when he returned to his bed. She hid
during the day. The groundskeeper, Mr. Collins, had his
own way of keeping down the population of cats. When
he caught one, he dragged it in a sack to the lake beyond
the hockey field. The wail of the unlucky animal split the
air, traveling to the far ends of the school property—from
the gravel parking lot where the boys were dropped at
the beginning of each semester to the barbed-wire fence
thrown up by a neighbor and marked private property.
In the heart of the New Hampshire winter, when the lake
froze, Collins wasn’t deterred. A single shot from his Colt
ended the animal’s life.
While the other boys rose and dressed, Reese sat
in the garden, Tennyson open on his knees. He recited
the poem “All Things Will Die,” which they were to have
memorized for the day:
Yet all things must die.
The stream will cease to flow;
The wind will cease to blow;
The clouds will cease to fleet;
The heart will cease to beat;
For all things must die.
Reese didn’t want his parents to die, or his older sis-
ter Sarah, or Lila, but at times he wanted to cut short his
own life at fourteen years.
His problems hadn’t begun at school. At home he
had often sneaked into Sarah’s room, going through her
dresser, caressing the fabrics, the panties and half slips,
trying them on before the mirror, his private parts tucked
between his legs. The touch of silk brought goose bumps
to his skin, and speeded up his heart, though he couldn’t
say why. One Sunday afternoon his father caught him.
“Depravity!” his father shouted, his face turning as
gray as the switch he ripped from the maple and beat
Reese with.
A few days later his father announced he was send-
ing Reese to Havermaster Academy. “He needs the com-
pany of boys. You girls,” he said, sweeping his arm in an
arc that took in Reese’s sister and his mother, “coddle
him. He’s surrounded by needlepoint and sweet rolls. He
should be playing baseball or hockey, but you keep him
hidden in your skirts. No wonder he thinks he’s a girl!”
Reese ached for the home from which he’d been
banished. He longed for hand-sewn quilts as he tossed
beneath military blankets. He ate with his eyes closed,
pretending the gray mashed potatoes and dull meat-
loaf were a soufflé. He yearned for his mother’s en-
dearments, whispered them to himself in the shower,
plugged his ears against the housemother’s rough
orders. His homesickness put the other boys off, and he
made no friends.
Reese ached for the home from
which he’d been banished. He
longed for hand-sewn quilts as he
tossed beneath military blankets.
He ate with his eyes closed,
pretending the gray mashed
potatoes and dull meatloaf were
a soufflé. He yearned for his
mother’s endearments, whispered
them to himself in the shower,
plugged his ears against the
housemother’s rough orders.
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ELIZABETH BLACHMAN
Julia Alvarez’s first novel, How the García Girls Lost Their Accents, is a classic
coming-of-age novel—but Alvarez structures the tale chronologically back-
wards, so the four García girls begin as adults and grow younger throughout
the work. When time works in reverse, the moments of childhood, its small
sins and strange discoveries, feel like the climax of who we will become.
Other of her novels make similar trips—the tale of a woman in her sixties
who joins Castro’s revolution is woven with the past of her mother; a woman
looks back on the coming of age of her three sisters and the series of events
that led to their deaths as martyrs of a brutal dictatorship. Even a nonfiction
piece about quinceañeras—one of many books Alvarez has written for young
adults—becomes in part a journey into the past as she remembers what it
was like to grow up as a Latina in the ’60s. As Alvarez’s characters trace
their way back through the episodes that crafted their identities, it becomes
clear that children are creatures of the moment. Growing up is for adults. It is
the story we tell ourselves about who we are.
We asked the novelist and poet about growing up under a dictatorship
in the Dominican Republic, about her work with the sustainable farm and
literacy center that she and her husband started there, and about how
memories become the stuff of stories.
AN INTERVIEW WITH
JULIA ALVAREZ
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The theme of this issue of Slice magazine is Growing
Up. We thought of you right away because I devoured
your novels when I was a teenager, and also because
so much of your work sheds light on what it means
to come of age. I was wondering why you decided to
organize How the García Girls Lost Their Accents in
reverse chronological order so that the four sisters
grow younger throughout the novel.
It’s easy to tell you in retrospect why I
structured the narrative in García Girls that
way. But it’s never as easy or clear a process when you
are inside a mess and trying to make it a novel! Years
later, after many interviews and Q&As, you come up with
brilliant answers, as if these choices came full-blown like
Athena from Zeus’s head. So my honest reply: I wasn’t
satisfied with the traditional chronological bildungsro-
man model of starting with early childhood and ending
when the writer/artist/protagonist comes of age. This
wasn’t the traditional, canonical artist-as-a-young-man
story, so I was fooling around with how to structure the
whole. And I thought, well, structure should recreate the
way that I want the reader to experience the story. And
that’s when I thought, I want my reader to be thinking
“like an immigrant,” always “going back to where we
came from”; instead of progress toward a climax, a
return to a homeland.
The structure also mirrored this quirky habit of mind
I had: whenever I was going through some big mile-
stone in my life in the United States—shipped off to
boarding school, kissed by a guy for first time—I’d think,
you were once a little tiguerita from another world
and language! Look at you now! It’s like I had to pinch
myself to believe that this moment was happening to
the little know-nothing kid I still carry inside me. Again,
always going back. Maybe we all do this? And I fool
myself that this is the immigrant experience?
I’ve always loved how García Girls ends with this one
sin from Yolanda’s childhood, where she steals a tiny
kitten from its mother and the act haunts her. Those
small moments from childhood feel so significant.
Would you share a memory or moment from your own
childhood that stays with you?
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I remember reading Wordsworth in college,
“Intimations of Immortality from Recollections
of Early Childhood,” and the Prelude, where he writes
about “those spots of time,” moments of “renovating
virtue” he keeps returning to for sustenance. Those
moments give him “intimations of immortality.” For me
they are not just moments of renovating virtue. They can
also be terrifying moments that continue to haunt me.
Moments that have this luminous quality: time sort of
opens up.
I write about one of those moments in a poem in
my collection The Woman I Kept to Myself. I call it
“Intimations of Mortality from a Recollection in Early
Childhood.” It was a moment when I was four or five
or six—those years merge with each other . . . I looked
down at my arm, and it’s as if by doing so, I had pulled a
plug, and suddenly I was yanked down into my physical
body. I was flesh and bone (little hairs, little pores, little
beads of sweat), transfixed, and trapped! I had become
incarnate. And, alas, mortal. I don’t know why it took me
four, five, six years to realize I would travel through life
in a body, but there you go.
Do you ever use those moments in your stories?
Absolutely, I use those moments in stories,
and especially in poems. It might be that lyric
poems are all about those moments—not just relating
them, but creating them in language for the reader. Yes,
that happens when you are writing, the very process of
writing creates those moments. I have luminous memo-
ries that I’m not sure I actually lived or lived them in my
reading or in my writing. Does it matter?
What books or authors were most important to you
when you were growing up?
I can’t pass myself off as an early reader.
Growing up in the Dominican Republic, I hated
books, especially because they delivered stories via the
solitary act of reading, of separating yourself from
others. Ours was an oral culture; stories came through
living, breathing people. It was also a “we” culture,
where pleasure came in the collective. I should add that
it was also a dictatorship, where the act of reading was
subversive, branded you an intellectual, a troublemaker.
Reading was not something that I recall being encour-
aged in my family or in the culture around me. Kids get a
big kick when I tell them that I was a terrible student and
flunked every grade through fifth. That said, I always
clarify that I loved stories, and in an oral culture, I had
plenty of storytellers all around me. So actually it was
books, as in censored, bland, lifeless texts, that I hated.
But I do recall one wonderful picture book my aunt
(the only reader in the family) brought me as a gift, The
Arabian Nights. The cover showed an olive-skinned girl
with dark hair and eyes who could have been Domini-
can. She was Scheherazade, captive in the sultan’s
court, telling stories to keep herself alive, and in the
process changing the sultan’s bloodthirsty ways, and
ending up marrying him. (This was the kid’s version, re-
member.) Wow, this little piece of luminous information
slipped into my head: that stories have power, that they
can transform others, that they can save your life.
In your adult novels you often write from the
perspective of your characters as children, and of
course in your novels for younger readers you are also
writing from a child’s perspective. What, if anything, is
different when you are writing for adults versus when
you are writing for young people?
That is a good question. When people ask me
about my kids’ books, I say, “I write for
children of all ages.” I don’t have those separations in my
head when I am writing: this is for kids, this is for adults,
this is for poetry lovers, this is for Latino/as. I think those
categories often have more to do with marketing and
sales strategies than with something integral to the
books themselves. Would The Adventures of Huckle-
berry Finn now be published by the children’s division of
a publishing house? How about Great Expectations? I
think three of my “children’s books” especially (Return
to Sender, Finding Miracles, and Before We Were Free)
take on serious, adult issues through the point of view of
young protagonists.
Perhaps with my Tía Lola books, it did make a dif-
ference that I was thinking of my readers as young
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