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THE PERILOUS PATH TOWARDS AWAKENING
By Bernhard Guenther, January 29th, 2017
Topics:
• The Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System (recap)
• The Process of Awakening
• What does it mean to be “Awake”?
• Traps on the Path towards Awakening
• Occult Hostile Forces Targeting The Seeker
• Sincerity and Radical Self-Honesty
• Life as a Catalyst and Teacher
As the the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused with the
contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during this Time of
Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not of this elevation in
contrasting vibrations) are experiencing breakdowns and breakthroughs at an
accelerated pace. We are being pushed to awaken – to align with the divine
force. This process is bringing up anything that is not of the same frequency
that our spirit is currently “downloading” in order to be transmuted. Many
things are transpiring and shifting on multi-dimensional levels which lie outside
of our conscious awareness. The strong currents of these galactic waves are
pressuring us to ride the flow of transformation. Any resistance and/or
desperate need to control this process (based on fear) can cause us to get
sucked into the undercurrent and be held under, until such a time as we can
get back on the wave again, i.e. learn our lessons and keep doing the
necessary clearing work in order to embody the higher frequencies.
From a hyperdimensional perspective, the anti-divine, dark occult forces are
operating on overdrive, trying to lock as many human beings as possible into a
frequency prison (which will be heightened with the dawning of the
Transhumanism/A.I. agenda, which enables “soul snatching” to occur) so as to
counteract the “Divine Awakening Force” and thus ensure they do not lose their
“food” source. Yet, this increase of friction and suffering has a teaching-function
– as part of the evolution of consciousness – and serves as a catalyst and
opportunity for internal alchemical initiation for those people who have the
soul-seed capacity to truly start questioning everything they ever believed
in/were told/taught by official culture. Most importantly, it can activate an
engagement in sincere self-work and embodiment practices (soul
growth/integration). The choice to “answer the call” is, as always, within each
Individual, and also depends upon his/her soul potential (and personal lessons),
for not everyone is here to “awaken” in this current cycle (and there is no
judgment around that) as we are also in the midst of a Timeline-Reality split.
This is, after all, the apocalypse, which means “unveiling”, not “destruction”
(and “occult”, for that matter, means “hidden”, nothing inherently to do with
“evil” intent).
The Hyperdimensional Matrix Control
System
Anyone who is are familiar with my work knows that I write and talk a lot about
the Hyperdimensional Matrix Control System (HMCS), i.e. the non-physical
occult hostile forces and their mechanisms which aim to keep us spiritually
asleep. To recap this phenomenon in a nutshell: humanity is not on the top of
the “food chain”, and humanity is not in control of its sovereign decisions on a
‘macro’ scale. The idea of “free will” is, in many aspects, an illusion. Most of
what you see on the world stage is manipulated and designed to create this
“food” frequency of scarcity-fueled fear and reactivity…to keep humanity in a
frequency prison, governed by forces who operate outside of our five-sensory
perception. These forces work through us/others (including through the
elite/controllers on a 3-D level, whom they use as portals/puppets to carry out
their agenda) and distract us by projecting the shadows of separation
consciousness on the wall/world stage (divide & conquer) and official cult-ure.
“Government” (or any belief in external authority) is also an “archonic”
creation; the perfect foundation to keep people stuck in an endless loop of
conflict with each other, ensuring that we remain disempowered so as to
produce all the “loosh” they require to keep well-fed.
“There are beings in the spiritual realms for whom anxiety and
fear emanating from human beings offer welcome food. When
humans have no anxiety and fear, then these creatures starve.
People not yet sufficiently convinced of this statement could
understand it to be meant comparatively only. But for those
who are familiar with this phenomenon, it is a reality. If fear
and anxiety radiates from people and they break out in panic,
then these creatures find welcome nutrition and they become
more and more powerful. These beings are hostile towards
humanity.
Everything that feeds on negative feelings, on anxiety, fear
and superstition, despair or doubt, are in reality hostile forces
in supersensible worlds, launching cruel attacks on human
beings, while they are being fed. Therefore, it is above all
necessary to begin with that the person who enters the
spiritual world overcomes fear, feelings of helplessness,
despair and anxiety. But these are exactly the feelings that
belong to contemporary culture and materialism; because it
estranges people from the spiritual world, it is especially suited
to evoke hopelessness and fear of the unknown in people,
thereby calling up the above mentioned hostile forces against
them.”
~ Rudolf Steiner [Source (German): Rudolf Steiner – Die
Erkenntnis der Seele und des Geistes – Berlin, 1907]
However, this is a “concept” that is really hard for most people to grasp and
accept, and is most often ridiculed and laughed off as “sci-fi”, “conspiracy
nonsense” or “mental/psychological delusion” because it’s so far out their
conditioned beliefs and view of life (a perspective that is inserted into our
minds by the same “force”). And yet, despite the cynical skepticism, all of the
ancient mystery schools, true shamanic insights, and esoteric teachings (much
of which have been suppressed and/or distorted over thousands of years for
obvious reasons) have conveyed this truth for ‘the ones with eyes to see and
ears to hear’, using their own language and symbolism, be it “The General
Law” (Esoteric Christianity), Archons (Gnostics), “Lords of Destiny”
(Hermeticism), Predator/Fliers – “The topic of all topics” (Shamanism,
Castaneda), “The Evil Magician” (Gurdjieff), The Shaitans (Sufism), The Jinn
(Arabian mythology), Wetiko (Native American Spirituality), Occult Hostile
Forces (Sri Aurobindo & The Mother, The Integral Yoga), etc… It also relates to
the UFO phenomenon and alien forces that have genetically modified human
beings – downgrading our race from the original blueprint – eons ago.
It is not a “fairy tale” nor “superstition”. Our entire (modern) civilization is, for
the most part, a product of this “force”…our society is an “alien” construct
which we have been led to accept as arising from “human nature” – a condition
wherein pathology has become normalized.
Don’t wait for this Knowledge and Truth to be brought to you via TED, Oprah,
The NY Bestseller list, mainstream “science”, let alone any politician or
celebrity-style spiritual gurus….and don’t believe me either….find out for
yourself! But I suggest you not ridicule/judge – or have an “opinion” about –
something until you have sincerely researched it yourself … which, in this case,
also implies sincere esoteric self-work in order to perceive these forces directly,
to “see the unseen” beyond appearances….and to ultimately free yourself from
its influence via tapping into your own embodied connection to the Divine and
Spirit within, i.e. DNA activation to reconnect with your original blueprint prior
to our collective (and ongoing) genetic modification.
“We are asleep—in a dream state—and mistakenly think we
are awake. One of the fundamental aspects of the ontological
category of ignorance is ignorance of this very ignorance; he
not only does not know, he does not know that he does not
know. We are in a kind of prison but do not know it. This BIP
(Black Iron Prison, i.e hyperdimensional matrix) is a vast
complex life form which protects itself by inducing a negative
hallucination of it.
The occlusion is self-perpetuating; it makes us unaware of it.
We are supposed to combat it phagocyte-wise, but the very
valence of the (BIP) stasis warps us into micro-extensions of
itself; this is precisely why it is so dangerous. This is the
dread thing it does: extending its android
thinking more and more extensively. It exerts a
dreadful and subtle power, and more and more people
fall into its field (power), by means of which it grows.
This is a sinister life form indeed. First it takes power over us,
reducing us to slaves, and then it causes us to forget our
former state, and be unable to see or to think straight, and not
to know we can’t see or think straight, and finally it becomes
invisible to us by reason of what it has done to us. We cannot
even monitor our own deformity, our own impairment. Being
without psyche of its own it slays the authentic psyches
of those creatures locked into it, and replaces them
with a spurious microform of its own dead psyche. The
very doctrine of combating the ‘hostile world and its power’
has to a large extent been ossified by and put at the service of
the Empire. The BIP warps every new effort at freedom into the
mold of further tyranny. The Empire is only a phantasm,
lingering because we have gone to sleep.
So long as the root of wickedness is hidden, it is strong. But
when it is recognized, it is dissolved. When it is revealed, it
perishes…. It is powerful because we have not recognized it.
The bombardment of pseudorealities begins to produce
inauthentic humans very quickly. The artifact enslaves us,
but on the other hand it is attempting to teach us to
throw off its enslavement. Compassion’s highest power
[embodied higher love] is the only power capable of
solving the maze.
The true measure of a man is not his intelligence or how high
he rises in this freak establishment. No, the true measure of a
man is this: how quickly can he respond to the needs of others
and how much of himself he can give. If the final paradox of
the maze is that the only way you can escape it is voluntarily
to go back in (into it), then maybe we are here voluntarily; we
came back in. Anamnesis was the loss of amnesia. You
remembered your origins, and they were from beyond the
stars.”
– Philip K. Dick
“Due to the lack of a state of higher awareness, the planet
Earth is a small hell, where by divine grace or infernal evil, the
individual neither notices nor evaluates his precarious
condition or the cloudiness of his awareness. Like true
madmen, each sapiens, like Don Quixote, the Castilian
nobleman, strikes out against his own windmill. Thus,
battle after battle, youth is lost, illusions die, purity withers,
and the last glimmers of lucidity gradually disappear.
If we were perverse gods or immoral despoilers, we could not
invent a better method to make a group of slaves work
peacefully than to make them believe, by means of collective
hypnosis, that they are happy and important. We would then
have perfect robots who would work untiringly, producing what
we desire. In addition, these robots would make and maintain
themselves. It could be argued that sapiens, unlike other
species, sows, produces, and labors only for himself and not
for other beings. This is true for the products and material
sapiens uses for his own maintenance. No non-human species
steals the material product of sapiens’ efforts.
On the other hand, this is not the case with the subtle fruit
produced by the human nervous system in everyday life. This
fruit is rapidly reaped by certain beings who are much higher
on the evolutionary scale than the human being; veritable
gods of space, who profit from human efforts, but in turn fulfill
certain cosmic functions and occupy an important position in
the universal economy. These beings have been mentioned
previously: they are the Archons of Destiny.
All of Earth’s inhabitants are under the sway of one or more of
these ‘gods’, who regulate, shape, and direct the destiny of
humanity. But this is not so for the destiny of the Hermeticist,
who attains his vital autonomy at a certain moment, releasing
himself from the mandate of the Archons.
The Archons of Destiny are terrifying beings, not because they
are evil, but due to their cold and inexorable severity in the
manipulation of sapiens. If we were to establish a symbol for
these beings, no doubt they would be depicted with a whip in
their hands, a girdle of bristles or netted wire with which they
chastise humanity in order to ensure their progress, although
this evolution may be imperceptible during our earthly time.
For example these occult judges pitilessly provoke a world war
in which millions of people die.
Sapiens, in his extreme fight for existence and in his various
relations with the natural and social environments surrounding
him, inevitably experiences all kinds of tribulations, suffering,
deceptions, and other experiences, both pleasant and
unpleasant. As a consequence, his emotional and
nervous systems develop certain embodied elements,
that are extremely powerful, and which abandon the
human body in the form of vibrations (everything
vibrates; matter is only vibratory energy). These
vibrations are transmitted through antennae
incorporated in the biological unit which are tuned to
the frequency of the Archons, who then reap this power
and use it for purposes we cannot divulge, again
stating that they accomplish a cosmic function.
It is thus that sapiens is unwittingly stripped of the most noble
product he has produced; the final distillate of human
experience, the broth in which lies the blood, the soul, and the
very life of the individual. The individual lived for this, suffered,
loved, enjoyed, worked, built things, went to war, studied,
investigated, only to prepare the golden broth of his life. We
must understand that the “central computer” only exists in
relation to the Archons of Destiny as an instrument to control
sapiens.
The object of life [from the archonic perspective], the reason
for which sapiens was created [via genetic
modification/engineering], is not for him to enjoy life in the
garden of the Lord, but rather to be a pawn in his vineyards, a
worker so perfect he can act as cultivator and food at the
same time.
If man could prevent his golden broth from being
stolen, with this vital product he could become equal to
the gods, rapidly evolving by integrating within himself
the products from the chemical laboratory of his
physical body. This is exactly what is done by the student of
Hermeticism, who is temporarily freed by the Archons of
Destiny. This individual, by virtue of his understanding and
responsibility, has no need for an overseer with whip in hand to
oblige him to evolve through suffering, as he takes
responsibility for his evolution into his own hands, and if he
deems it necessary, submits himself to the same temporary
suffering in order to attain eternal happiness. This is in
contrast to the profane or worldly person who chooses fleeting
pleasure at the expense of eternal suffering.
Enough revealing of secrets which are hidden from sapiens.
Let us spread a cloak of silence on this subject in order to
comply with the mandate of the esoteric Sphinx who demands
silence. Speech and silence are two swords, which must be
handled with sublime skill in order not to disrupt universal
harmony. Those who have “eyes to see” will understand
everything not stated in the written word, but in the
cryptic language of the initiate. For those not in this state,
it is best that they understand nothing and continue to sleep
tranquilly. Ultimately, the Archons run no risk of a bad harvest
from a possible rebellion of sapiens. Sapiens is too blind to see
where the danger is really found.
It is sad to observe the tremendous limitation of sapiens, who
shuts himself up in the small world of stereotypical concepts,
of memorized knowledge, of imitation, and mechanisms of
compensation and defense. His mental disability prevents him
from realizing just how small the cubicle is which imprisons
him. And, thus, with a mind made up in advance, he accepts,
condemns, or tolerates without bothering to intelligently
analyze the situations with which he is confronted.”
– John Baines, The Stellar Man
If you’re not familiar with this topic (and/or new to my site), here are some
starting pointers:
• Timeline-Reality Split, Frequency Vibration and the Hidden Forces of Life
• The Matrix of Control – Beyond its 3D Manifestation
• Hyperdimensional Manipulation and Anchoring a Higher Frequency
• Hyper-Dimensional Interference and the Keys to Discernment – Panel
Discussion
• How Much Are You Willing To Know? – by Lisa Renee
• The Hidden Forces of Life – by Sri Aurobindo
• The Positive/Negative Realms of Higher Densities – by Michael Topper
The Process of Awakening
Despite the madness and seemingly-increasing chaos enveloping the outside
world – or rather, because of this development – I see more people
experiencing an “awakening” in their lives. At the same time, the same
intensification of energies has other people getting caught in (and
unconsciously aligning with) the divide & conquer agenda of the occult forces,
as we currently see manifested in the shadow projections (or worship) which
surrounds their latest authoritarian puppet installment, Donald Trump (and thus
generating all of the resulting emotional “loosh” for the hyperdimensional
puppeteers to feed upon), which I’ve written about HERE.
“In the big picture, it really does not matter what person is the
President, what organization is spraying chemtrails, running
the cabals, or financing negative alien “black op” projects.
They are a symbol of a collective “mind controlled puppet”
playing out their role as the unseen force manipulates their
ego’s behavior to keep the same 3D structure feeding the
same vampires. They will just pluck another dominating ego
persona from the masses to play out the same fear
manipulation program.”
– Lisa Renee, How Much Are You Willing To Know?
Some people believe themselves to have finally “woken up” from the
manipulation of the Matrix Control System. However, the word “awake” seems
to be a very abused and overused word these days. What I notice is that more
people are becoming aware, for the most part, of the symptoms of the Matrix
on a 3D surface level (which is encouraging to see and a good start), but
mistake that for having truly “woken up” in the holistic sense of the term, and
therefore most of them oftentimes don’t follow up or keep “going”, especially
with regards to inner self-work. Our inner voice – stemming from the real self
(“speaking” to us through a sense-embodied intuitive knowing, not via head-
centric thought-injections), hidden behind the socially/cultural
conditioned/programmed mask of personality we identify with – also whispers
to us to go deeper, if we can hear and heed its “signals”. These echoes are
hardly recognizable at first, but become more audibly-apparent as we shed our
layers of conditioning, programming and trauma/wounding. It’s the voice of
Spirit and the Divine, asking us to recognize our true nature, to keep going
deeper within…to self-realize, self-actualize.
“Knowledge is the comprehensive embodiment of imagination
that surfaces in observation and finally ripens through the
reinforcement of experience, thereby inculcating knowledge.
This, in fact, is the short story of life.”
– Q.M. Sidd
It should be noted that “awakening” is a process that is different for each and
every one of us as we reach towards higher/broader levels of consciousness.
For example, relatively speaking, you can be “awake” to the basic 3D aspects
of the Matrix, but if you get stuck there (especially when there is lack of sincere
inner work taking place), you’ll still be subjected to hyperdimensional
interferences and manipulation, especially when you’re caught in the external
expression of shadow-projection.
Being “awake” (or “woke”, as the cool kids like to say) about the matrix and the
various control mechanisms and deceptions – and based on a purely
intellectual informational level – is a necessary stage of growth, but only the
very beginning stage of a true Awakening …and cannot even be called “taking
the red pill” from an esoteric perspective. This stage of awareness are mere
baby steps which must be taken prior to crossing the threshold towards self-
realization, which entails esoteric self-work, embodiment [soul integration] and
alchemical internal transformation in order to reach a higher level of
being/consciousness …one that is based upon frequency vibration. The
neurological mind can’t go there, and is, in fact, an obstacle to higher
awareness beyond the five senses. This is not a very pleasant process at times,
especially at the beginning stage, for it results in utter disillusionment and
death of the conditioned personality, which doesn’t like to give up and let go of
control that easily.
For that reason, many people in their process of seeking “truth” wind up
avoiding sincere inner work by constantly externalizing the “dark” (especially
with regards to shadow projection) side of reality, and thus get lost in the
information swamp or hooked on sensationalism, mechanical activism, or wind
up locked in the tunnel vision of the 3D matrix, decorated as it is with shadows
on the wall, which is a puppet-on-a-string-pulling trap in itself, and only works
in favor of the occult matrix architects. But “self-work” – to truly “Know Thyself”
– is also a tricky thing, and self-deceptions in this pursuit are very common.
Some people tend to over-estimate themselves with regards to their level of
being/awareness. They claim to “know themselves” when they actually mistake
“the Self” for their personality (with its more subtle programming/conditioning
features) …or they talk about “living their truth”, which can also be a falsehood
which misleads/distorts the actual calling of the self, and instead acts as a self-
justification, a denial, and a buffer. I also see people talking about the
hyperdimensional matrix, claiming to be “free” from it, but don’t realize/see
how it’s still working through them, especially when they get trapped in victim,
blame, martyr, or savior consciousness archetypal programming.
It is important to understand the fundamentals of true deep self-work,
especially since much of that has been corrupted and over-simplified via New
Age/pop-spirituality and pop-psychology mechanisms. The most difficult aspect
to grasp in esoteric self-work is detecting and confronting the moment-to-
moment lies we are telling ourselves, and the buffers/masks we create so as to
avoid the internal friction that is necessary to ignite the alchemical fire of
transformation within.
“Knowledge of oneself is a very big, but a very vague and
distant, aim. Man in his present state is very far from self-
knowledge. Therefore, strictly speaking, his aim cannot even
be defined as self-knowledge. Self-study must be his big aim. It
is quite enough if a man understands that he must study
himself. It must be man’s aim to begin to study himself, to
know himself, in the right way.
Self-study is the work or the way which leads to self-
knowledge. But in order to study oneself one must first learn
how to study, where to begin, what methods to use. A man
must learn how to study himself, and he must study the
methods of self-study. The chief method of self-study is self-
observation. Without properly applied self observation a man
will never understand the connection and the correlation
between the various functions of his machine, will never
understand how and why on each separate occasion
everything in him ‘happens.'”
– G.I. Gurdjieff, In Search of the Miraculous
Now, I don’t take myself out of this critical equation, and would never claim to
be fully “awake”, let alone “enlightened”. There are vastly-different levels and
steps on the “spiral out”; one step cannot be claimed to be “better” or” worse”
than another, it all depends upon one’s individual soul lessons/path (which
includes divine timing with regards to what we’re being shown, which is not left
to the impatient ego to determine), and the current condition of one’s state of
being and sincerity/self-honesty. I can see in myself how hard it is to stay truly
conscious every single day, how some dormant programs still resurface,
enticing me to react mechanically (under the illusion that it was actually my
“true self” calling to me), how my mind tries to rationalize/justify itself at times.
I can see and sense how the occult hostile forces still try to interfere through
my own mind via thought injections, tempting me with old cravings, or trying to
generate a reactive response in me by working through others (who are not
aware of at all that this is occurring).
It’s certainly not as severe as it was in the past – and I can see/sense it more
easily – but “waking up” demands “super-efforts” (Gurdjieff)… not in terms of
“doing”, but with regards to sincerity, self-remembering, conscious suffering
(not giving in to internalized programs), staying grounded in the body and in
the present moment, remaining calm, floating in zero-point non-reactive
consciousness, intending and “working” (not forcefully) towards a conscious
connection to spirit within as an instrument for the Divine without any sense of
ambition, pride or vanity, without the egoic self-centered notion (and illusion) of
the “me” personality. This entails a basic understanding of how to observe
oneself and how to do “self-work”, as well as how the matrix actually operates
on the unseen levels through us – not just an intellectual understanding, but an
embodied Knowing… to truly “see” it in the world, in oneself…to see the
unseen.
We cannot do this work alone all the time (especially at the beginning of the
process), for we all have blind spots and need “alarm clocks” from others who
are also engaged in the same work – people who can provide us with “mirrors”,
observations which don’t stem from their own shadow projections…people who
can also offer us support and encouragement. So, it’s tricky work to engage in,
and the potential for self-deception and over-estimating one’s level of
awareness (or “awakened state”) is huge.
What does i t mean to be “Awake”?
But what does it actually mean to be truly and fully awake? Well, we’re entering
slippery territory here – a place where we meet the limitations of words and
language. It is something the mind cannot comprehend via a thought process
or language decoding, for it is an internal experience beyond thought,
emotions and feelings; a higher state of Being. As Lao Tzu said: “The Tao that
can be told is not the eternal Tao” or the classic Zen metaphor of mistaking the
finger pointing at the moon for the moon: “To point at the moon a finger is
needed, but woe to those who take the finger for the moon…” – D.T. Suzuki
With that understanding of limitations firmly established, we can, however, do
some basic “finger-pointing”. As mentioned before, beyond being simply
“awake” on an intellectual level – and thus seeing through the deception and
illusion of the Matrix externally (and the various levels within that) – the true,
deeper and real awaking can only happen within, beyond thought. It ties into
what I wrote in a previous essay about the embodied Individual:
[…]Individuality in this context is the embodied individualized soul as a
conscious transducer for higher energies, being the “instrument” for Divine
Will. Individuality DOES NOT mean ego/personality identification (the false “I”),
or what the matrix/official culture promotes as “Individuality” which is most
often a “cult of personality”.
In the same context, becoming a sovereign emancipated Individual does not
imply that one is an “independent” human being, separate from everything
else. That illusory idea stems from the over-riding head-centric male aspect of
consciousness, the (inner) tyrant who is identified with self-achieved (false)
independence. From a spiritual and holistic perspective, being a sovereign
embodied Individual is based upon a deep recognition (on an embodied level)
of the interrelationship of life, fully tuned into nature and the Divine/Spirit as
an individualized (but not separate) expression of it – a fractal aspect of the
universal Hologram. It stems from the feminine aspect of consciousness, which
is grounded in Being.
A sovereign emancipated Individual is not influenced by external
influences/intrusions which the Matrix attempts to inset into their
consciousness: any form of rulers/authority (including hyperdimensional
interference) or social/cultural programming/spiritual conditioning. But he/she
is also not an isolated, “independent” and separate being, but deeply
connected to (and in alignment with) nature, spirit and the Divine, as a
conscious vessel/transducer for Divine Will.
Being (or the Zen notion of “non-doing”), in the true meaning of the word, does
not mean that one is just passive (another common misconception). It is the
still point (zero-point non-reactive consciousness) from which our wholeness
can be informed by the world’s wholeness (listening to world through the body,
anchored in the pelvic floor/gut, the seat of the feminine aspect of
consciousness), and then respond to it from this grounded space.
It is from this state of Being wherein spontaneous, perfect action arises – action
that is in alignment with nature and Divine Will. It is receptive to “what is”,
contrary to the reactionary “tyrant” of the male aspect of consciousness
(nothing to do with gender), who is threatened by the present moment (and,
essentially, afraid of the Feminine), addicted to “willful doing” and head-centric
analysis, with a desperate need to control the “outside world”, which only
results in more and more fragmentation, for the intellect/mind can never ever
perceive wholeness[…].[end excerpt]
“Individualization is the capacity to take up all
experiences and organise them around the divine
centre. The aim of the psychic being [soul/higher self] is to
form an individual being, individualized, “personalized” around
the divine centre [“growing” the soul to become fully
embodied in one’s being]. Normally, all the experiences of the
external life (unless one does yoga [not to be mistaken for the
physical practice] and becomes conscious) pass without
organizing the inner being, while the psychic being organises
these experiences serially. It wants to realise a particular
attitude towards the Divine.
Each individual is a special manifestation in the
universe, therefore his true path must be an absolutely
unique path. There are similarities, there are resemblances,
there are categories, families, ideals also, that is, a certain
collective way of approaching the Divine, which creates a kind
of “church”, not materialized but in a more subtle world —
there are all these things — but for the details of the path, the
details of yoga [union of the human individual with the
universal and transcendent existence], it will be different
according to each individual, necessarily, and conditioned
physically by his present bodily structure, and vitally, mentally
and psychically, of course, by former lives.
To be individualized in a collectivity, one must be absolutely
conscious of oneself. And of which self? – the Self which is
above all intermixture, that is, what I call the Truth of your
being. And as long as you are not conscious of the Truth of
your being, you are moved by all kinds of things, without
taking any note of it all. Collective thought, collective
suggestions are a formidable influence which act constantly on
individual thought. And what is extraordinary is that one does
not notice it. One believes that one thinks “like that”, but in
truth it is the collectivity which thinks “like that”.
The mass is always inferior to the individual. Take individuals
with similar qualities, of similar categories, well, when they are
alone these individuals are at least two degrees better than
people of the same category in a crowd. There is a mixture of
obscurities, a mixture of unconsciousness, and inevitably you
slip into this unconsciousness.
To escape this there is but one means: to become more
conscious of oneself, more and more conscious and more and
more attentive. It is thus that gradually, slowly, with
perseverance, first of all with great care and much attention,
one becomes conscious, learn to know oneself and then to
become master of oneself.”
~ The Mother, “Collected Works of the Mother” – Sri Aurobindo
Library
From an absolute perspective, what is being described is essentially the
dissolving/transcending of the “I” we think we are …this opens up to
experience a realm beyond duality, where there is no sense of separation. We
grasp, however fleetingly, a unity with all that is, embodying an instrument and
unique expression of the Divine in tune with the natural flow of life. It is a state
beyond thought, desire, or even emotion and feeling – a state of pure Being,
fully tuned into the present moment.
“Behind this petty instrumental action of the human will there
is something vast and powerful and eternal that oversees the
trend of the inclination and presses on the turn of the will.
There is a total Truth in Nature greater than our individual
choice. This apparently self-acting mechanism of Nature
conceals an immanent divine Will that compels and guides it
and shapes its purposes. But you cannot feel or know that Will
while you are shut up in your narrow cell of personality,
blinded and chained to your viewpoint of the ego and its
desires.
For you can wholly respond to it only when you are
impersonalized [embodied] by knowledge and widened to see
all things in the self and in God and the self and God in all
things. The state of ignorance in which you believe that
you are the doer of your acts persists so long as it is
necessary for your development; but as soon as you are
capable of passing into a higher condition, you begin to
see that you are an instrument of the one
consciousness; you take a step upward and you rise to
a higher conscious level.”
~ Sri Aurobindo, The Integral Yoga
This state of fully-accessed being-ness is obviously not what most of us
experience in our striving for awakening, let alone on a consistent basis.
However, what I have noticed in myself and others is that more and more
people experience glimpses of this state here and there, or slowly approach it
with the growing sense of “being in this world but not of it”, like a
witness/observer …not from an intellectual “seeing” or “thinking” perspective…
this impersonal “witness” also recognizes that you are a part of the game,
seeing through the veil of all appearances and manifestations of the “one
consciousness expressing itself in infinite variety”. It is an embodied
experience, beyond the self-image identification of “I”. It is not attached to any
thoughts. It’s a state where there is not will-full doing, nor any sense of
“personal will”, as it has suddenly morphed and conjoined with Divine Will.
Ambition, vital desires, vanity, the need to be “liked” or “desired”, the notion
and pressure to “become” something/someone, any comparison/competition
with others (and resulting judgments), or even “dislike” of others all fall slowly
away, as do any triggers and reactive behaviors. It’s the ultimate letting go of
egoic control, and a surrender to life and spirit, realizing that control was an
illusion all along. There is a deep and embodied sense of peace and trust, of
faith and “being taken care of” (as in trusting the flow of life), knowing that any
challenge that will come up serves as a deeper lesson for the purpose of a true
awakening. It is the end of fear, the death of ego-identification, and re-birth of
the real “I AM” – embodied spirit – expressing itself uniquely through “you”. It is
being in flow with the Tao, the Divine Will of nature, as it is flowing and
expressing itself through you without resistance and, as Sri Aurobindo
mentioned above, you begin to see that you are an instrument of the one
consciousness.
“Men usually work and carry on their affairs from the ordinary
motives of the vital being, need, desire of wealth or success or
position of power or fame or the activity and the pleasure of
manifesting their capacities, and they succeed or fail according
to their capability, power of work and the good or bad fortune
which the result of their (conditioned) nature and their Karma.
When one takes up the yoga [work towards Awakening, union
with the Divine] and wishes to consecrate one’s life to the
Divine, these ordinary motives of the vital being have no
longer their full and free play; they have to replaced by
another, a mainly psychic (soul) and spiritual motive, which will
enable the sadhak (spiritual seeker) with the same force as
before, no longer for himself, but for the Divine.
The only work that spiritually purifies is that which is done
without personal motives, without desire for fame or public
recognition or worldly greatness, without insistence on one’s
mental motives or vital lusts and demands or physical
preferences, without vanity or crude self-assertion or claim for
position or prestige, done for the sake of the Divine alone. All
work done in an egoistic spirit, however “good” for
people in the world of the Ignorance is of no avail to the
seeker [and will keep the door shut to the Divine].
I do not mean philanthropy or the service of humanity or all
the rest of the things – moral or idealistic – which the mind of
man substitutes for the deeper truth of works. I mean by work
action done for the Divine and more and more in union with
Divine, merging one’s will with Divine Will. Naturally this is not
easy at the beginning, any more than deep meditation and
luminous knowledge are easy or even true love. But like the
others it has to be begun in the right spirit and attitude, with
the right will in you, then the rest will come.
One becomes liberated from the shackles of the outer
nature; one becomes aware of one’s inner being and
sees the outer as an instrument; one feels the universal
Force doing one’s works and the Self watching or
witness but free; one feels all works taken from one and
done by the Divine Power acting from behind the heart. By
constant referring of all one’s will and works to the Divine, true
[embodied] love and adoration grow, the psychic being
[individualized soul/true self] comes forward.
Finally, Works, Love and Knowledge go together and self-
perfection becomes possible – what we call the transformation
of the nature. These results certainly do not all come at once;
they come more or less slowly, more or less completely
according to the condition and growth of the being. There is no
royal road to divine realization.
All this insistence upon action is absurd if one has not
the light by which to act. The advocates of action think that
by human intellect and energy, making an always new rush,
everything can be put right; the present state of the world
after a development of the intellect and a stupendous output
of energy for which there is no historical parallel is a signal
proof of the emptiness of the illusion under which they labour.
It is only by a change of consciousness that the true
basis of life can be discovered: from within outward. But
within does not mean some quarter inch behind the surface.
One must go deep and find the soul, the (true) Self [behind the
masks of the conditioned personality], the Divine Reality within
us and only then can life become a true expression of what we
can be instead of a blind and always repeated confused blur of
the inadequate and imperfect thing we were.
The choice is between remaining in the old jumble and groping
about in the hope of stumbling on some discovery or standing
back and seeing the Light within till we discover and can build
the Godhead within and without us.”
– Sri Aurobindo, The Integral Yoga
It is also the state wherein we are not subjected to any attacks or
interferences of the the occult hyperdimensional forces, since we find ourselves
resonating on a higher frequency, beyond their vibrational realm, i.e. we have
truly transcended the Matrix. The “reality” we subsequently experience is of a
much richer and more subtle impression, not bound to the illusion of linear
time, hence there is no pressure to do, no hurry, no impatience. Will-full doing
dissipates, to be replaced by an embodied responding to what is – and what life
brings – that is uniquely tuned to our soul lessons and talents; it guides us from
an embodied inner place without expectations and attachment to outcome.
Goal setting and ambition are replaced by a quiet aspiration with intentions but
without expectations or need to control. Making choices and decisions don’t
stem from a thought process anymore or any head-centric analysis of “should”
or “shouldn’t”, but emerge from a gut-level of nonverbal intuitive knowing. Life
becomes like a dance in the river of life as we don’t fight the current anymore,
being in the “zone”, locked into the rhythm of life (Tao).
Contrary to popular beliefs, this awakened state is not a constant feeling of
“bliss” or ecstasy (even though there can be peak experiences like that), nor is
it a “feeling” of love or happiness. It really transcends anything we
usually experience in ordinary consciousness states that are related to
emotions and feelings. Ultimately, it transcends the duality of pain and
pleasure, happiness and suffering. There is a deeper, silent contentment, a
grounded calmness and sense of peace, not depending on any external
circumstances… a sense of slowing down and simplifying.
It’s a place of true freedom. Thoughts may still come and try to
attach themselves, but it becomes easier to detach from them – to release
from believing in them or identifying with them. This sense of deteachmment
is, however, not an intellectual form of dissociating, but an embodied
recognition of one’s true nature in contrast to the illusion of thought (and who
we “think” we are). One recognizes that the mind is just a tool, a servant, but
not be looked upon as the master/guide. It’s not about demonizing the intellect
either, for it needs to go through its own transmutation to become an
instrument for the Divine, accessing higher knowledge (Gnosis). We can also
still “use” it in practical ways to live out our daily routines, since we didn’t just
“check out” of our existence here on Earth; on the contrary, we are more
involved with reality – more fully-embracing of life – and whatever this dance
may bring in full conscious participation with the rhythms of life, we will
participate in…without attachment and will-full doing.
“All of us, in our own process of awakening, will visit the
limitation of our personal will. Most of us will visit it several
different times, on deeper and deeper levels, until it is fully
extinguished.
The loss of personal will isn’t really a loss at all. It’s not as if we
become the doormat of humanity, that we stop knowing what
to do or how to do it. Quite the opposite happens. By
surrendering the illusion of the personal will, a whole
different state of consciousness is born in us; a rebirth
happens. It’s almost like a resurrection happens from
deep within us. This resurrection is very hard to explain, like
many things in spirituality, but in essence we start to be
moved by the completeness and totality of life itself.
The depiction of this kind of movement is very vivid in the
Taoist tradition, which focuses on the expression of the Tao, or
the truth, through us. If you read through the Tao Te Ching or
look at some of the Taoist teachings, you start to get a feel for
how willfulness is replaced by a sense of flow.
When you get out of the driver’s seat, you find that life
can drive itself, that actually life has always been
driving itself. When you get out of the driver’s seat, it can
drive itself so much easier—it can flow in ways you never
imagined. Life becomes almost magical. The illusion of the
“me” is no longer in the way. Life begins to flow, and you never
know where it will take you.
As their sense of personal will diminishes, people often say to
me, “I don’t even know how to make a decision anymore.” This
is because they are operating less and less from a personal
point of view. There is a new way of operating, and it is not
really about making this decision or that decision, the right
decision or the wrong decision. It is more like navigating a
flow. You feel where events are moving, and you feel for the
right thing to do. It’s like a river that knows which way to turn
around a rock—to the left or to the right. It’s an intuitive and
innate sense of knowing.
This kind of flow is always available to us, but most of
us are too lost in the complexities of our thinking to
feel that there’s a simple and natural flow to life. But
underneath the turmoil of thought and emotion, and
underneath the grasping of the personal will, there is indeed a
flow. There is a simple movement of life.”
~ Adyashanti, The End of Your World
Personally speaking, over the past few years I’ve had more glimpses into that
state of ‘flow’ being, and started to increasingly experience life and “reality” on
a different level that is hard to even put into words. I’m more and more
grounded in the present moment, unconcerned about the past or future. As
mentioned before, by no means do I claim to have fully “awoken”, let alone
achieved a real state of “enlightened” existence, but there have been internal
changes within me – which reflect my “outer” reality – that are undeniable
(which have also resulted in an exponential increase in positive
synchronicities).
There is also more joy and simple contentment and gratitude in my heart, as
well as humility for the mystery of life; a deeper trust and faith in the here and
now and the “universe”…a sense that I’m being “taken care of” and
“supported”. Yet, my personal emancipation and embodiment process
continues, and there are always more lessons to learn. I still have my days
when I get stuck in the head, get disconnected, reactive, project (and my ego
gets the best of me), melancholic, down on myself, or caught up in a thought
loop, but it’s not even close to the state of Being I was in a few years back.
Many of us experience glimpses or subtle impressions of what I described
above, but most of the time they don’t stay with us, and aren’t permanent by
any means. That is normal as well, so even when the “light” diminishes and we
get caught up into our thought loops and mechanical behavior once again, we
must not despair. Much is happening behind the veil, as Spirit is busy doing its
work.
The Awakening process is not a linear process. Many factors come into the
journey as it is so very different for each of us. From a broader perspective, we
all are where we need to be when it comes to soul evolution. The trap is to
compare ourselves to anyone else, or get caught in the mindset of what
“should” be happening, or where we “should” be with regards to our inner
development, or become bogged down in our mind’s idea of “success” and
“failure”, all of which most often results in anxiety, depression, impatience,
frustration or anger.
When I find myself in such a state (especially when a thought of
“should/shouldn’t” comes up), I use it as a feedback signal that I’m currently
dis-embodied (not in my body) and disconnected from my true self/spirit (in the
absolute sense, we are never disconnected, of course) and I don’t attempt
to make any decisions from that state. Instead of fighting it, acting out of
desperation, or forcing myself to get out of it, I surrender to it – meaning that I
don’t avoid these feelings, nor act upon them, but simply accept and observe
them. Usually, I go into meditation to fully feel them in my body (other times I’ll
dance or take a walk in nature) and also inquire deeper into any thoughts
associated with these emotions, since there is usually a feedback loop between
thought and emotion – one triggering the other.
As I surrender to what is, an underlying (false) belief from the past (based on
conditioning/wounding) – which the thought is associated with – usually comes
to light…or I sometimes sense an archonic thought injection, bringing it into
conscious awareness through simple inner perception without identifying with
it, which helps to dissolve the thought, i.e. metaphysical detachment.
Sometimes this also results in emotional processing (without resulting
judgment) by “loving what arises” and just feeling into it with unconditional
acceptance. Self-love – as in wholeness, accepting the “dark” and “light”
within, without judgment – is a key ingredient in this process.
Traps on the Path towards Awakening
Let’s look at some of the traps on the journey towards awakening, and also
examine some of the pitfalls we can fall into in the wake of experiencing a
glimpse into the profound “other-ness” of an awakened (if still impermanent)
state. All traps described below (this is merely a selection of the main ones I
have observed in myself and others) can happen at any given stage of the
awakening process, and many can occur simultaneously. Personally speaking,
I’ve fallen into many of these traps in the past (and learned the hard way), and
some of them still creep in here and there if I don’t “catch myself”.
Spi r i tua l Bypass ing
Spiritual Bypassing (first coined by John Welwood in 1984) is the use of spiritual
practices and beliefs to avoid dealing with our painful feelings, unresolved
wounds, and developmental needs. We engage in spiritual bypassing when we
bypass necessary basic psychological work, believing ourselves to be more
(self)aware than we actually are, and thus over-estimate our state of being. It
relates to intellectualizing higher spiritual truths, ideas, and concepts, and
thereby distorting/diluting them in order to avoid facing our blindspots and
conditioned personality.
Spiritual Bypassing also reveals itself when we judge negative emotions as
something “bad”, “un-spiritual” – a virus to be avoided…believing that “being
spiritual” means to always be nice, positive, smiling and non-confrontational
(resulting in a lack of boundaries and reality-avoidance).
Signs of spiritual bypassing:
• exaggerated detachment (intellectual/stuck in the head)
• emotional numbing and repression
• overemphasis on the positive
• anger-phobia (most often resulting in passive aggressiveness and a “make
nice” mask)
• blind or overly-tolerant compassion/weak boundaries
• lopsided development (cognitive/intellectual intelligence often being far ahead
of emotional intelligence —> lack of embodiment)
• debilitating judgment about one’s negativity or shadow side
• devaluation of the personal/physical relative to the spiritual – separation
illusion
• delusions of having arrived at a higher level of being
• forceful efforts to kill/eradicate the ego, or judging it as “bad”
• using statements (absolute/higher “truths”) such as “everything is perfect”,
“it’s all an illusion”, “we are all one”, “love is all there is” as philosophical
(intellectual) concepts to avoid dealing with the not-so-pleasant aspects of
every day life in this 3D duality (bypassing responsibility and lessons of our 3D
incarnation)
• using spiritual practices to escape unpleasant emotions; for example, using
meditation to dissociate from emotions, rather than transmute them.
“When we’re immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light
but not the heat. And when we’re caught up in the grosser
forms of spiritual bypassing, we’d usually much rather theorize
about the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there,
suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more alive,
espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not permitting
love to show up in its more challenging, personal dimensions.
To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too out-of-control,
bringing things to the surface that we have long disowned or
suppressed.
But if we really want the light, we cannot afford to flee
the heat. As Victor Frankl said, “What gives light must
endure burning.” And being with the fire’s heat doesn’t just
mean sitting with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also
going into it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and
getting intimate with whatever is there, however scary or
traumatic or sad or raw.
Spiritual bypassing is largely occupied, at least in its New Age
forms, by the idea of wholeness and the innate unity of Being
— “Oneness” being perhaps its favorite bumper sticker — but
actually generates and reinforces fragmentation by separating
out from and rejecting what is painful, distressed, and
unhealed; all the far-from-flattering aspects of being human.
The trappings of spiritual bypassing can look good, particularly
when they seem to promise freedom from life’s fuss and fury,
but this supposed serenity and detachment is often little more
than metaphysical valium, especially for those who have made
too much of a virtue out of being and looking positive.
A common telltale sign of spiritual bypassing is a lack
of grounding and in-the-body experience that tends to
keep us either spacily afloat in how we relate to the
world or too rigidly tethered to a spiritual system that
seemingly provides the solidity we lack. We also may fall
into premature forgiveness and emotional dissociation, and
confuse anger with aggression and ill will, which leaves us
disempowered, riddled with weak boundaries. The overdone
niceness that often characterizes spiritual bypassing strands it
from emotional depth and authenticity; and its underlying grief
— mostly unspoken, untouched, unacknowledged — keeps it
marooned from the very caring that would unwrap and undo it,
like a baby being readied for a bath by a loving parent.
Spiritual bypassing distances us not only from our pain and
difficult personal issues but also from our own authentic
spirituality, stranding us in a metaphysical limbo, a zone of
exaggerated gentleness, niceness, and superficiality. Its
frequently disconnected nature keeps it adrift, clinging to the
life jacket of its self-conferred spiritual credentials. As such, it
maroons us from embodying our full humanity.
Cutting through spiritual bypassing means turning
towards the painful, unwanted, scary shadow elements
of ourselves. To do this we must cut through our numbness
and defenses, approaching it with as much care as we can. If
doing so seems to heal our heart, we are on the right path.
When heart heals, it opens and expands, not shatters. When
we denumb and become more comfortable with our own
comfort we see what drove us into spiritual bypassing. This is a
challenging journey to say the least.
True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered
state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times
call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible;
something radically alive and naturally integral; something
that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual
deepening as something to dabble in here and there. Authentic
spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not
a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some
exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but
a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and
sanctuary, providing both heat and light for the healing and
awakening we need.”
– Robert Augustus Masters, Spiritual Bypassing
Spiritual Bypassing also ties into Spiritual Materialism, coined
by Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche and defined as “a distorted, ego-centered
version of spirituality” where we “deceive ourselves into thinking we are
developing spiritually when instead we are strengthening our egocentricity
through spiritual techniques.” It relates to getting “addicted” to spiritual
teachings and practices, with people continuously looking for the next
workshop, the next teaching, the newest guru in town, going from one seminar
to the next, traveling all over the world to find “truth”, going from healer to
healer, “master” to “master”, in the hopes of someone healing them or
bringing them “enlightenment”. Spiritual Materialism also shows itself
by building a library of spiritual techniques that their ego likes to “show off” to
prove their worthiness – to reveal how much of a “properly spiritual” person
they are, and how much they have read, “know”, and practice.
Trap o f Super ior i ty
The sense of feeling better than others who are still be plugged into the Matrix,
or who haven’t had any profound awakening experiences; the lure of looking
down on them is the most common trap many people fall into. This is especially
the case when truth seeking is not combined with inner work. In the more
extreme manifestation of superiority, we lash out on others, calling them
names and attacking them personally for being “blind” and not aware (most
often conducted via the internet/social media, hiding behind a screen).
The delusion of superiority is, in fact, a symptom of still being plugged into the
Matrix, since the Matrix feeds off of Service to Self (STS) ego separation-
consciousness (with its manifestation of “competition” in people’s personal
and/or professional lives). We see this attitude play itself out most often in
“truth seekers” who just “woke up” to the basics of the 3D matrix (the political
illusion, government corruption and relating symptoms: the banking cartel,
fake war on terror, lies of the mainstream media, false flag attacks, etc.) and
lash out on people who are still asleep and hypnotized. In a sense, this is a
normal stage as well. As the saying goes “The truth shall set you free, but first
it will piss you off” (ironically enough, this was coined by CIA controlled
opposition asset Gloria Steinham). So, anger is not to be judged as “bad”
(spiritual bypassing), but we need to remain mindful to avoid projecting it
outwardly.
This trap subject also ties into shadow projection. When we get emotionally
riled up and project that reactive energy onto others – coming from sense of
superiority – we actually feed the occult forces in the hyperdimensional realms.
It stems from the “predator mind” by which these forces work through us,
triggering mechanical/reactive behaviors to produce the “loosh” frequency they
feed upon. There are varying degrees of superiority complexes, with various
manifestations which we all can fall into (from subtle to very apparent). As long
as we have an inner sense of superiority (especially the disease of moral
superiority) or “specialness” in comparison to others – even without any
external projections – the matrix has its hooks in us. This can also happen
to “wanderers“, (individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density
(4th or 6th density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish
in order to assist humanity), who are very identified with the wanderer
(“starseed”) concept (seeing oneself as “better” than “humans”), and the ego
feeds off of this divisionary mentality. This is also how negative forces target,
hijack and derail wanderers from their mission – by appealing to the shadow
aspect of their ego.
The trap of superiority is so common that it is almost a “natural” by-product of
the awakening process. It can manifest itself at any given stage, even after
having had a mystical awakening experience which the ego then hijacks. In
other words, the ego believes itself to be awake, turning into a “spiritualized
ego”. Many self-proclaimed masters/gurus (or even popular figures in the “truth
movement”) have big superiority issues (cult of personality disorder) which
their followers often feed with their “worship” and hierarchical-authoritarian
programming, coming from a self-perceived inferior state of being, and thus
putting another person on a pedestal.
“No matter what the practice or teaching, ego loves to wait in
ambush to appropriate spirituality for its own survival and
gain.”
– Chögyam Trungpa
More often than not, we have no control over when thoughts/feelings of
superiority enter us. It can happen as a mechanical reflex response – as the
sudden appearance of feelings of jealousy or anger. The key is self-observation,
not trying to get rid of it (the axiom “what we resist persists” applies here), to
say nothing of judging ourselves for thinking/feeling that way, which is very
self-defeating. Avoid trying to push it away or acting on it; instead, we keep to
working on ourselves, which helps to eventually detach our vibrational field
from such thought intrusions; by not identifying with them positively
(accepting) or negatively (judging ourselves/forceful resistance), we can slowly
release them. Patience is key here.
A good thing to keep in mind that everyone reading this article was once fully
“asleep”, caught up in the Matrix control mechanisms – none of us were born
“awake”. We’ve all had our individual awakening moments, realizing that we
have been believing in lies our entire lives, and that path to freedom is
different for each of us. That’s where compassion and empathy come in, for
both ourselves and others, even though blind/unconscious people who “dream
to be awake” tend to support the matrix agenda, and hence unknowingly do a
lot of “harm” despite their well-meaning intentions (for example: the belief in
government, engaging in the political puppet show, which stems from a
“Stockholm Syndrome” mechanism which is based on social conditioning, i.e.
authoritarian programming, and hence feeding into the divide & conquer
agenda). It is important, though, to not fall into “blind compassion” or
intellectualize compassion, which can result in a fake mask of “compassion”
and pity for others, which, ironically, also stems from an unconscious sense of
superiority. From a bigger picture perspective, it is also important to keep in
mind that not everyone is here to awaken during this current cycle. There is
nothing wrong with this truth, and there is no judgment…it is merely a function
of the cosmic equilibrium.
“Blind compassion is rooted in the belief that we are all doing
the best we can. When we are driven by blind compassion, we
cut everyone far too much slack, making excuses for others’
behavior and making nice situations that require a forceful
“no”, an unmistakable voicing of displeasure, or a firm setting
and maintaining of boundaries. These things can, and often
should be done out of love, but blind compassion keeps love
too meek, sentenced to wearing a kind face. Blind compassion
is kindness rooted in fear, and not just fear of confrontation,
but also fear of not coming across as a good or spiritual
person.
When we mute our essential voice, our openness is reduced to
a permissive gap, an undiscerning embrace, a poorly
boundaries receptivity, all of which indicate a lack of
compassion for ourselves (in that we don’t adequately protect
ourselves). Blind compassion confuses anger with aggression,
forcefulness with violence, judgment with condemnation,
caring with exaggerated tolerance, and more tolerance with
spiritual correctness.”
– Robert Augustus Masters
Trap o f forcefu l ly t ry ing to wake up others
Many of us who have taken the “red pill” and are increasingly-seeing through
the lies and illusions of official culture can be eager to tell others what we have
found out and realized in our journey. We want others, especially our friends
and family, to “wake up” as well. We see how they suffer needlessly,
supporting the forces which are oppressing them and leading them astray, so
our intentions to wake up others are coming from a well intended place;
sometimes, they’re just coming from a place of excitement with regards to
sharing information. However, two things are important to understand and
apply: External Consideration and Strategic Enclosure.
“External Consideration” means adapting to the worldview/beliefs of another
person, and thus not pushing information onto someone who didn’t ask for it in
the first place. Sometimes, this approach involves supporting other peoples’
‘illusions’ because they are not ready to hear the truth, let alone be assisted in
becoming “un-plugged” from the Matrix Control System. In esoteric terms,
“Giving without (sincere) asking” is a violation of free will. It may interfere with
the soul lesson/path of the other person involved – an individual who needs to
learn certain lessons for him/herself, even if that entails long periods of
suffering and struggle.
In this context, we cannot “do” anything for another person, nor “save” them –
if they are not engaged in the process of sincere self-work and earnestly
seeking truth for themselves, it will most likely be counterproductive to engage
with them by providing a contrasting point of view. The “asking” part of the
equation doesn’t have to be verbal in nature – it depends upon the situation
and context. On the other hand, not every “asking” cue is sincere, so trusting
one’s intuitive hunches regarding what to share (and what to withhold) is
important; simply being “curious” is not a sincere form of “asking”.
“To those people who simply pry into the occult from mere
curiosity, we have nothing to say. They will obtain just as much
as they deserve, and nothing more. “Ask and ye shall receive,
seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you”
is equally as true today, in relation to esoteric knowledge, as it
was 2000 years ago. …
It invariably presupposes that the supplicator and the
knocker are in real earnest, and that they seek only to
satisfy the deep yearnings of the immortal soul. The
doorkeeper, or guardian of the temple of truth is as mute as a
granite rock to all others. They may supplicate, they may shout
and bawl until they are hoarse, they may knock and buffet the
door until they rouse a nation with their clamour, and if they
approach in any other spirit than [earnest desire to satisfy the
deep yearnings of the immortal soul], it is all to no purpose.
We can never take the Kingdom of Heaven by storm.”
– “The Hermetic Brotherhood of Luxor: Initiatic and Historical
Documents of an Order of Practical Occultism” by Joscelyn
Godwin
“Strategic Enclosure” relates to having a strategy with regards to how to
present information that may challenge another’s belief systems. Sometimes it
is more productive to remain silent than to drop “knowledge bombs” on an
unsuspecting mind, let alone trying to convince another person through
argument and debate (which only creates the emotional loosh for the occult
forces to feed upon). This also ties into the saying “Do not give what is holy to
the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their
feet, and turn and tear you in pieces” – such is the biblical description of
“cognitive dissonance” in its most basic of terms. At other times, however,
directness and “calling a spade a spade” is needed as an appropriate response
as well.
The drive to seek out truth in oneself and the world – and act upon it with
integrity – has to come from oneself. No one can do it for another, and no one
can push another to do it, until he/she himself/herself realizes the precarious
times we live in (most often arising as the result of personal suffering and
disillusionment), acts upon it, and starts to work on him/herself. Oftentimes,
people do not start to sincerely seek truth or engage in deeper self-work until
they have suffered, and are confronted with the inevitable disillusionment
which subsequently arises, and surrender to it.
“Whether we use psychological or esoteric terminology, the
basic fact remains the same: human beings do not earn free
will except through self-discovery, and they do not attempt
self-discovery until things become so painful that they have no
other choice. If the individual makes no effort to expand his
consciousness so that he can understand the nature of his
total unfoldment and can begin to coorperate with it, then it
will seem that he is the pawn of fate and has no control over
his life. He can only earn his freedom by learning about himself
so that he can understand what value a particular experience
has for the development of his whole self.”
– Liz Green
What we can do, however, is spread some “seeds of awareness”, giving people
some “food for thought” so to speak, without trying to convince him/her of the
veracity of the information, nor having any expectations about how they’ll
receive it. Some seeds sprout, some never blossom, but never underestimate
the butterfly-effect over “time”. Each situation is different, of course, which
goes back to “External Consideration” and “Strategic Enclosure”.
“If you do find an extraordinary truth, shall we say, from
extraordinary evidence, more than likely, then in the course of
your life, if you come upon that, you quickly learn there was a
path to that view. And it may be complex, it may be simple,
but there was a way to it. You don’t jump straight to it without
the intermediate stages. And the more remarkable that
truth is the longer it takes to deeply acknowledge and
know it—know it at a very inner [embodied] level.
Yet, we can observe that there is sort of a tremendous impulse
to want to share our discoveries with people and to prove to
them and to underline things and expound what we
believe. But everybody has to wake up for him or
herself. I’ve said this over and over. You cannot really
do it for anyone else. So it is both unrealistic and unwise to
say, to expect someone touted in a mainstream view of politics
and culture and education to suddenly entertain [esoteric and
fringe ideas].
The more outstanding the revelation the longer it takes to get
to it. So we have to sort of respect that in a way. We have to
expect also that it takes time for people to understand what is
real and what is unreal. All we can do is set forth our
discoveries and let people make of it what they will. And
that takes discipline and a high degree of self-confidence. And
amongst academics that is not always to be taken for granted.
Because it is not just academic discipline but it is personal
disciple in your own growth in your own being not just the
computer element of our minds but all of the rest of the
faculties as well.
And if we falter in our convictions, if we constantly need
validation and reassurance then we start to compromise even
our own materials. It is better not to do that at all. Just play
your own game. Do your own thing and get as sharp and
authentic as you can. And don’t stop and keep doing it. And it
brings to mind the question of what actually is it when we say
truth. And I very much feel, having worked with all levels of
sort of philosophers, and academics, and psychologists, and
mystics, and new agers…that being smart is not sufficient to
know the truth.
And I would say that the truth reveals itself slowly
depending on the intellectual, emotional,
transcendental awareness of the individual. And those
last two elements are sorely lacking in the average
investigator—I would say. So their inquiry is necessarily
therefore flat and rather one-dimensional. It is limited, to put it
politely, like a [person] who cannot see the real substance of a
situation because he does not really get it. He lacks sincerity,
humility, and insight.”
– Neil Kramer
At the same time, I also feel (and have seen) that the ideas of “external
consideration” and “strategic enclosure” have been used as a buffer, an
avoidance strategy, and a rationale to excuse people from being outspoken
about the important issues which our world is facing in this day and age – or
even with regards to what we truly think and feel, our own sense of
vulnerability and openness. Oftentimes, there is this irrational fear and
paranoia about what others may think of us as individuals if one is more
outspoken – allowing opinions to frame our own sense of self-worth.
More on this topic in my past essay: Vocation and Seeking Truth – The
Challenge of Making a Living while Exposing and Transcending The Matrix
Trap o f want ing to he lp others
This trap is closely related to the drive behind forcefully trying to wake others
up. Since, in many instances, there is obviously nothing wrong with wanting to
help others – and in fact, it is often encouraged to be there for others in need –
respecting free will applies here as well, since we cannot truly help anyone who
is not willing to help him/herself, or who is not asking for it. The desire to help
and be of service is also coming from a well-intentioned place; however, if we
start to give people unsolicited advice, or tell them what they “should” or
“shouldn’t” do, we are not being considerate, but rather, are coming from a
place of selfish desire to change the other person, especially when we
disrespect previously-established boundaries. This doesn’t mean to stay silent
when people behave in abusive ways towards others and we need to step in to
provide support against injustice. Again, it all depends on the specific situation
and context.
“It would be necessary to develop oneself to such an extent
that it would be possible to know and understand enough to be
able to aid someone else in doing something necessary for
himself, even when that person was not conscious of the need,
and might work against you, that only in this sense was love
properly responsible and worthy of the name of real love.
Even with the best of intentions, most people would be too
afraid to love another person in an active sense, or even to
attempt to do anything for them; and that one of the terrifying
aspects of love was that while it was possible to help another
person to a certain degree, it was not possible to actually “do”
anything for them…. If you see another man fall down, when
he must walk, you can pick him up. But, although to take one
more step is more necessary for him even than air, he must
take this step alone; impossible for another person to take it
for him.”
– G. I. Gurdjieff
The drive to help others can also come from a place of avoiding our own
“stuff”, and most often the advice we give others is what we need to apply to
ourselves, first and foremost. We have much more impact in helping and
inspiring others if we live by example (as embodied frequency anchors), but we
ought to be careful of the superiority complex creeping in, as well as the savior
complex (addressed later). The notion of “Service to Others” (STO) has also
become very distorted, in particular amongst the “New Age” religion, where
STS (Service to Self) is usually mistaken for STO, especially when we primarily
“help” others to make us feel better about ourselves, or even feel the need to
tell others how much we have been of service, and thereby feed off of the
attention/adulation. This ties into the “spiritualized ego” deception. Michael
Topper gives an overview of the STO/STS dynamic from a higher
perspective HERE.
Both traps – trying to wake up, and attempting to help others – can be
particularly challenging in intimate relationships, when one partner starts to
wake up and is engaged in sincere self-work and truth seeking, but the other
partner isn’t. If both partners don’t start “looking in the same direction” and
have no foundation of sincerely working on both themselves and the
relationship, separation is oftentimes inevitable, for both partners wind up
essentially interfering with each other’s soul path. It is important to note
that relationships take on a whole new level when both partners are sincerely
engaged in truth seeking and self work, and hence mainstream-style
relationship psychology has its limits, since it usually approaches relationships
from a “matrix” perspective, without considering other factors, such as “The
Dark Side of Cupid/Love Bite and Hyperdimensional Interferences in
Relationships.”
Trap o f the Revolut ionary Mind (s tuck in 3D)
This is also a very common trap: we get caught up in the tunnel vision of the
3D Matrix (fighting it externally), which is, after all, only a manifestation
(symptom) of the non-physical hyperdimensional matrix; by doing so, we
inadvertently feed into the Negative Realm’s agenda of divide & conquer, and
then the “matrix has us” by working through us, feeding off of all the projected
emotional “loosh”. It also ties into the limitations of 3D thinking (stuck in the
head) with regards to trying to “fix” the world, as well as the mis-perception of
“evil” and trying to eradicate it, instead of transcending it/the matrix. This trap
is based on a lack of awareness/understanding of the occult hostile forces
operating outside our range of five-sensory perception.
“[Look] at what happened in 1914 – or for that matter at all
that is and has been happening in human history – the eye of
the Yogin sees not only the outward events and persons and
causes, but the enormous forces which precipitate them into
action. If the men who fought were instruments in the hands of
rulers and financiers, these in turn were mere puppets in the
clutch of those hidden [hyperdimensional] forces. When one
is habituated to see the things behind, one is no longer
prone to be touched by the outward aspects – or to
expect any remedy from political, institutional or social
changes; the only way out is through the descent of an
[embodied] consciousness which is not the puppet of
these forces but is greater than they are.”
– Sri Aurobindo, The Hidden Forces of Life – The Integral Yoga
I have addressed this trap (also related to the trap of “fighting evil”) in more
depth in previous essays:
• Timeline-Reality Split, Frequency Vibration and the Hidden Forces of Life
• Individuality, Embodiment, and the Anchoring of a Higher Frequency
Trap o f Meaning lessness
Another self-defeating state of being which some people find themselves in at
some point on their awakening journey is the notion of meaninglessness, or
“nothing matters anyway”. We can slip into this dis-empowering state even
after having had experiences of a deeper experience of self-realization (wherein
we embody the wholeness and unity of it all, with the dissolution of the “me”
personality and loss of separative consciousness, giving way to an an all-
inclusive, expansive experience of the Divine, realizing the illusion of the dream
state we have been caught within). This is also how the ego can sneakily hijack
such profound experiences after the “coming down” period commences in the
wake of such revelations, thereby distorting “higher” truths (such as “all is
illusion”) into a sort of paradoxical, spiritualized nihilism.
We therefore don’t see any purpose to do anything at all, for whatever we do is
irrelevant, since we believe that nothing matters anyway from the absolute
perspective, which from THAT perspective is “true”. However, the trap is to
assume “god’s point of view” (not talking about any external religious idea of
“god”) and “forgetting” that we still have to play our roles in alignment with
Divine Will, incarnated into a body and placed within the grand scheme of the
evolution of consciousness. The frequencies of creation from the “One”
transduce through all expressions of energetic manifestation, intermixing with
our incarnated Being, and are all a unique expression of “God”, which (from a
individual perspective) is our unique soul path with all its expressions, unique
talents, and lessons (i.e.”purpose”).
This trap is even more severe when one uses absolute truths such as “all is
one” and “all is illusion” from a strictly intellectual belief-structure perspective,
without ever having experienced a true embodied awakening. Many followers
of the non-duality philosophy can fall into that trap, reinforced by their own
rationalizations and over-estimating their level of Being. We see this as well in
distorted New Age spiritual teachings that have co-opted and distorted “higher
truths”.
Falling into the “meaninglessness” trap can also occur when we get
overwhelmed by the collective meltdown madness. As we shed the layers of
illusions and lies we’ve been indoctrinated with, and can perceive more and
more of the normalized pathology in our world (with millions of programmed
people dreaming to be awake), we can succumb to a state of “frozen shock”.
This rigidity can hold its grip when we get stuck in the necessary process of
disillusionment and the resulting sensations of despair, depression and
hopelessness take hold; we only see negativity in our world, and isolate
ourselves from everything and everyone (note: learning to be alone in solitude
– not to be mistaken for loneliness – is a necessary lesson to learn in this
process as well). We then tell ourselves that “it is of no use”, “the world will
always be as it is”, “there is nothing I/we can do”, “nothing matters”, etc.. This
is the ego’s desperate grip to not let go, to recommit to the illusion of
separation, and it also hijacks the process of “making the darkness conscious”
by turning it into self-loathing negativity. Hyperdimensional attacks and
interferences can also increase during this “dark night of the soul”, trying to
keep us in the “underworld of darkness”, even to the point of pushing us into
suicidal tendencies.
However, as mentioned before, the disillusionment process is a necessary (and
in fact, positive) stage of the awakening process (i.e the dissolving of illusions);
hence, feelings and periods of despair, depression, shock, loneliness, and
meaninglessness are normal symptoms of a deeper soul awakening, and there
is a light at the end of the tunnel if we have faith and persist without giving in
to the darkness within and without. Ultimately, it lays the groundwork to ignite
the inner alchemical fire of transmutation; from lead (matter/ego-
consciousness) into gold (spirit/divine will).
Avoidance o f every-day respons ib i l i t ies
Some people can become so infatuated with living a “spiritual life” – or get
trapped in the revolutionary mindset – that they use it as an excuse to avoid
dealing with ordinary daily affairs. They tend to reject anything which they
don’t perceive as “spiritual” (or what they see as “the matrix” reality) in a
knee-jerk/black & white reactionary way – such as not paying their bills, rent or
feeling too “good/spirtual” to even get a source of income and work. In the
more extreme cases, they tend to manipulate, leech (and essentially feed) off
of others in order to provide for themselves (and themselves alone).
The rejection of the material world is another area of a distorted understanding
with regards to the spiritual life (the flip side of that coin is using spiritual
concepts as a justification/means of obtaining materialistic greed/addictions).
Many truth/spiritual seekers believe that their inability to function in the
“3D world” and inability (refusal) to manage ordinary daily affairs is like
wearing a badge of merit — a proof of their great spirituality (“I am too spiritual
to…”) This ties into the martyr complex as well (addressed later). The Zen
saying “Before Enlightenment: chop wood, carry water; after Enlightenment:
chop wood, carry water” applies here, which basically means having humility.
This also applies to the trap of “fighting the 3D matrix”. While the matrix
control system mines us for our energy, and keeps many of us preoccupied
with survival and “making a living” while stealing from us (taxes) or
manipulating us into debt (or worse), we need to be strategic planners in order
to avoid attracting unnecessary negative attention from the matrix that could
compromise both our ability to function and to be of help to others. When we
refuse to deal with ordinary life affairs – stemming from an inflated sense of
being “spiritual” or an emotional reactive “fuck the system” attitude (projected
at the symptoms/shadows on the wall of the 3D matrix) – the “matrix has us” in
this case, too, for we essentially react out of ego/survival consciousness, which
is exactly the frequency where the matrix overlords want us to be.
Some people focus their whole energy and life to get “off the grid” or look for
loopholes and ways not to pay their taxes, essentially trying to live “under the
radar”, which can compromise their ability to be of service. It can also become
an “escape” avoidance strategy, based on 3D-survival thinking. While I’m
obviously not condoning the tax(theft) system, nor am I against striving
towards self-sustainability or living “off the grid” (quite the contrary), we need
to be cautious not to fall into the 3D revolutionary (round we go back to the
point again) mindset trap, nor into reactionary black & white thinking/behavior.
As it is mentioned in various esoteric teachings, such as “Gnosis” by Boris
Mouravieff:
“From his first steps on the track [way of access towards
awakening – transcending the General Law/Hyperdimensional
Matrix], man must apply the principle: ‘feed the crocodile so
that we are not devoured.'”
In other words, sometimes we need to feed the “crocodiles” to keep them
calm, i.e. play by the matrix “rules” to an extent in order to protect ourselves
so we can continue with the Great Work and not draw unnecessary negative
attention upon ourselves.
Trap o f Vic t im and B lame Consc iousness
As we wake up to the “horror of the situation” (as Gurdjieff described it) and
realize the madness of the world – with sleeping people “dreaming to be
awake”, as well as our own sleep state and conditioning – it can feel like we’re
caught in a prison, and that analogy is correct in many ways. As a result of this
“shock”, it can be natural at first to feel like a victim and blame the powers-
that-be (the global elite on a 3D level, or their hyperdimensional puppeteers)
for our situation. However, getting caught up in blame and victimhood is
essentially a dis-empowering state that feeds the matrix. While the whole set-
up feels like being in a prison, from a higher perspective, life on earth is a
“school” for the evolution of consciousness, and all there is are essentially soul
lessons.
When we are subjected to personal attacks (hyperdimensionally, or from other
people), or have to deal with difficult interpersonal relationships (where we
tend to blame others or our partner for what they/he/she has done “to us”),
and we go into reactivity, the matrix is being nourished. Obviously, this doesn’t
mean to put up with abuse, and boundaries need to be made. However,
essentially, we cannot blame others for how we feel. The victim/blame
frequency is exactly what the hyperdimensional matrix feeds off of, and “they”
want us to engage in interpersonal fighting, for it all creates the emotional
“loosh” for them to feed upon. The moment you take anything personally, the
matrix has you, triggering your self-importance (identification with your
personality/ego).
“Self-importance is our greatest enemy. Think about it – what
weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of
our fellow men. Our self-importance requires that we spend
most of our lives offended by someone.
Every effort should be made to eradicate self-
importance from the lives of warriors. Without self-
importance we are invulnerable. Self-importance is not
something simple and naive. On the one hand, it is the core of
everything that is good in us, and on the other hand, the core
of everything that is rotten. To get rid of the self-importance
that is rotten requires a masterpiece of strategy.
In order to follow the path of knowledge one has to be very
imaginative. In the path of knowledge nothing is as clear as
we’d like it to be. Warriors fight self-importance as a matter of
strategy, not principle. Impeccability is nothing else but
the proper use of energy. My statements have no inkling of
morality. I’ve saved energy and that makes me impeccable. To
understand this, you have to save enough energy yourself.
Warriors take strategic inventories. They list everything they
do. Then they decide which of those things can be changed in
order to allow themselves a respite, in terms of expending
their energy. The strategic inventory covers only behavioral
patterns that are not essential to our survival and well-being.
In the strategic inventories of warriors, self-importance figures
as the activity that consumes the greatest amount of energy,
hence, their effort to eradicate it.
One of the first concerns of warriors is to free that energy in
order to face the unknown with it. The action of rechanneling
that energy is impeccability.
The most effective strategy for rechanneling that energy
consists of six elements that interplay with one another. Five of
them are called the attributes of warriorship: control,
discipline, forbearance, timing, and will. They pertain to the
world of the warrior who is fighting to lose self-importance. The
sixth element, which is perhaps the most important of all,
pertains to the outside world and is called the petty tyrant.
A petty tyrant is a tormentor. Someone who either holds the
power of life and death over warriors or simply annoys them to
distraction. Petty tyrants teach us detachment. The ingredients
of the new seers’ strategy shows how efficient and clever is
the device of using a petty tyrant. The strategy not only gets
rid of self-importance; it also prepares warriors for the final
realization that impeccability is the only thing that counts in
the path of knowledge.
If seers can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they
can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then
they can even stand the presence of the
unknowable. The mistake average men make in confronting
petty tyrants is not to have a strategy to fall back on; the fatal
flaw is that average men take themselves too seriously; their
actions and feelings, as well as those of the petty tyrants, are
all-important. Warriors, on the other hand, not only have a
well-thought-out strategy, but are free from self-importance.
Petty tyrants take themselves with deadly seriousness while
warriors do not. What usually exhausts us is the wear and tear
on our self-importance. Any man who has an iota of pride is
ripped apart by being made to feel worthless.”
– Don Juan in “The Fire From Within” by Carlos Castaneda
Regardless what happened “to us”, in light of the process of awakening, we
need to become aware of the victim archetype that is strongly embedded in
our collective psyche in order to empower ourselves and take self-responsibility
for our healing, growth, and life journey.
“The root of the Victim archetype is a fear that you cannot
survive or will not survive. Not just physical survival but the
survival of your identity, your hopes and dreams or sense of
self. Deep down there is a belief that you don’t deserve to
thrive and the Victim is a way to have passive control over
your life. All victims are entitled. It may take you some time to
see your own sense of entitlement but it is important to
identify it to be able to transform this interesting archetype
from shadow to light. Working through the Victim may be the
most difficult thing you do but it is the most life altering as
well.
[…]
The Enlightened Victim understands that real power
comes from within and is bound up with personal
responsibility. When you are the Enlightened Victim you
cannot blame others because you can see that the loss of
power happens from within. It would be useless to look for
empowerment where it does not exist. The Enlightened Victim
asks “what can I do with the situation that I have been given?”
There is this great scene from The Lord of the Rings movie
where Frodo, feeling victimized by the fact that the ring of
power has come to him, says to Gandalf: “I wish the ring had
never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.” And
Gandalf answers him wisely: “So do all who live to see such
times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide
is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other
forces at work in this world Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo
was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also
meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought.” Here
Gandalf shows Frodo where his true power lies. There are
some things in life that are not for us to decide but we can
decide what to do with what we have been given, or what has
happened to us. It is a very encouraging thought.
[…]
The Enlightened Victim is not afraid of weakness and fragility
because you maintain vulnerability as a strength. You have
learned that power can be found even in the worst
victimization. You are no longer afraid of failures, losses,
tragedies, suffering and misfortune because none of
these outer circumstances has the power to control
your life. Vulnerability is the keystone of your strength
because it allows you to discover different kinds of power and
especially recognize the strength of openness. Vulnerability
makes you pliable and willing to be changed by your
circumstances without losing your power.”
– Susanna Barlow, Understanding the Victim Archetype
We see the victim/blame archetype playing out on social media these days as
well. A good way to check yourself in order to ensure you are not falling into
that trap (and thereby essentially giving your power away energetically) is to
observe how easily you get triggered/upset about other people’s posts,
opinions, pics, etc… especially on a baseline emotional level. Observe how you
may be projecting inner turmoil onto people you have never met personally,
nor talked to face to face… taking things personally, getting offended, even if
you feel justified in doing so because you were “attacked” (by the way, there
is nothing wrong with blocking/deleting people – making clear boundaries is
important, too!). Observe, when sharing personal stuff, if it is actually coming
from a place of self-pity and blame, instead of honest vulnerability that’s
supported by humility (not to be mistaken as “self-diminishment”) and personal
responsibility….or posting something in order to seek out attention, which
relates to Narcissism.
All this of this emotional “loosh” – based on egoic self-centeredness – is
sustenance for the Matrix. It’s tricky at times to catch it in yourself, and the
ego/predator mind can camouflage itself and shape-shift like a chameleon. Self-
sincerity, radical self-honesty, and observing oneself are key tools to deploy in
order to check in with our actions and thoughts at all times in that regard (a
good question to ask oneself: what is my true – most often hidden – intention
for posting this or that?). All of this is especially true in relation to the internet
and the archonic A.I. infection we are all exposed to via technology, keeping us
head-centric and isolated (despite the positive side of connecting, networking
and sharing information).
At the same token, it’s important not to blame ourselves, especially when
buying into the New Age distorted idea of “You Create Your Own Reality” and
the over-simplified idea that you “created” everything in your life, based on
your thoughts and emotional state.
The so-called “Law of Attraction” (as it is commonly used these days in
corrupted New Age/pop-spirituality concepts of “You Create Your Own Reality”)
is a gross distortion of its true esoteric meaning and source, just as the saying
“Ask and You Shall Be Given” has also been corrupted from its original esoteric
meaning and watered down into “I can have anything I want from the
“universe”, if I just “ask” for it and align my thoughts and emotions with my
desires”. First of all, the “law of attraction” (based on the saying “like attracts
like”) was geared towards the sincere seeker engaged in esoteric self-work,
meaning that he/she will “attract” (through his “SINCERE asking”) anything
that will help him/her for his/her soul evolution with the aim of union with the
“One”, i.e. soul embodiment, self-realization, awakening/enlightenment, etc.
The phrase “Ask and You Shall Be Given” relates to esoteric Knowledge, Truth,
assistance, and “occult secrets” that will help him/her on the path , not a
“thing” (or job, money, relationship) based on the ego’s culturally-conditioned
cravings.
However, what he/she will be “given” or “attract” is not up to “him/her”, but
relates to his/her soul lessons and even includes (besides “positive” things,
such as the right teacher/teaching, and assistance appearing at the right time)
challenging situations, trials and initiations (including attacks by occult forces,
which can be teachings/initiations in disguise) that may seem “negative” to the
uninitiated eye, but are necessary lessons for him/her to pass through as part
of the awakening process. They have nothing to do with “attracting them
because of his/her negative attitude”. In the end, it’s about letting go of the
monkey mind conditioning, and realizing the illusion of “personal will” (ego
identification) so as to give way to Divine Will – becoming an embodied
sovereign Individual, a conscious instrument for Spirit to work through,
expressing itself in this reality plane by merging with him/her/it as a unique
frequency anchor.
Trap o f Sav ior and Martyr Consc iousness
On the other side of the victim coin is the Savior/Martyr complex, which ties
into the previously-discussed ‘waking up/helping others’ trap. This inflated
state – being identified with the “savior” – is based upon the illusion that there
is something “wrong” with reality (as in, the creative force of the
Source/God/Universe from which all originates/is manifested from, is somehow
a “mistake”) and we therefore need to “save” or “fix” the world. By assuming
“god’s point of view”, and thus resulting in a sense of grandiosity and feelings
of “special-ness” (superiority complex), this trap ties into the misconception of
what “evil” actually is, and how it operates within the duality of light and dark.
It doesn’t mean to just sit by either, but rather, to actively engage in the
evolution of consciousness, with all of the collective and personal lessons
contained within that process, in order to become frequency anchors in
alignment with Divine Will.
The savior complex is also very common in people who are overly-identified
with the the ‘wanderer/renegade/starseed/family of light’ concept, which their
ego hijacks so as to put themselves on pedestals while “looking down” on
humans (as mentioned before in the superiority trap). This topic is explored in
depth in this essay: Wanderers, Purpose, and Esoteric Work in this Time of
Transition
It also relates to people who are very attached to (and identified with) what
they perceive as their “mission” and “purpose”. While we all do have our
individual callings in life – which we can (and should) be passionate about – it is
important to keep in mind that purpose is not a definition, but a process, and
should be seen in light of our individual soul evolution and how it aligns with
our unique talents, our development, and our lessons to learn. The moment
ambition, pride, will-full doing or a need to “prove ourselves” kicks in, we are
not aligned with spirit within, but rather with ego-consciousness…cravings take
over, and the matrix has us.
The martyr complex is an even more exaggerated form of the savior complex –
it is activated whenever we feel we need to suffer “for others”, and pride
ourselves for carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders. It shows itself
when we proudly “show off” how we are being “attacked” for what we do
(activism or speaking out) and often needlessly put ourselves into
compromising situations to somehow prove how right we were all along. This
behavior is also based on a lack of external consideration and strategic
enclosure as explored before in this article. It relates to deep dogmatic religious
programming as well, especially the Christian idea that “Jesus died for our
sins”, and ties into the collective external savior program, with the masses
looking for someone to save/lead them (based on authoritarian programming).
In order to avoid any of these traps (or pull ourselves out of them again if we
fall into one), humility and modesty are key assistants on a basic foundational
level:
“Like it or not, humility exists only in the wake of arrogance.
Few people know humility for itself or opt for it right away.
Most of us have fallen into arrogance and egotism and have
failed. We come to humility after having thoroughly tested the
alternative.
True humility is a choice we make each time there is a
confrontation, and unless a person is supremely
comfortable, self-assured, and safe, he or she cannot
easily be humble.The dynamically modest person
chooses to be humble out of strength. The humility of the
Changes [I Ching / Yijing] is an active power. As such, it is more
than a moral position: it is a virtue.
Humility is akin to compassion— at least in the sense that true
compassion means extending one’s energy and talents on
behalf of others. One cannot be merciful from a position of
weakness.[…] Remaining humble even when you are
under great duress, staying self-possessed in the face
of insults, and refusing to bully others with your
position and power are all examples of humility from
the vantage of great strength.
Those who are humble will gradually discover other
advantages. They will not hesitate to go beyond themselves.
With nothing to prove, they are willing to explore new
situations. True, they might make mistakes. They may even
suffer embarrassment. But the humble person acknowledges
and accepts that. The immodest make mistakes too – but they
try to hide their errors and deny their fallibility. That worsens
their mistakes and increases their isolation.
– Deng Ming-Dao, “The Living I Ching; Using Ancient Chinese
Wisdom to Shape Your Life” (Hexagram 15)
THE PATH TO THE TEMPLE OF SECRETS
The Temple of Secrets is located on a high mountain, and
everywhere thorns are covering the path leading to the
Temple. The inconceivable, mysterious height of the mountain
is the reason why many people doubt the existence of the
Temple of Secrets. Some think of it as a Fairy Tale, some
consider it an old Myth and others believe it to be the Truth.
At the entrance of the narrow path stands Ignorance, with her
sisters Stupidity and Laziness, and they tell awful tales to the
travelers and of horrible adventures the travelers will
encounter if they set foot on this path. That is how lazy Human
Beings and fearful Human Beings can easily be persuaded to
turn back.
There are a few Human Beings on which ignorance attempts
her deceptions in vain. They climb up the first part of the
thorny steep path, and when they are about half way up the
mountain, they reach a plateau on which they find the Temple
of Self-Love. Next to this Temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and
Know it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he
drinks his own Self in great gulps and thereby becomes
intoxicated with himself, with his own “I.”
These travelers then become so intoxicated with themselves
that they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is
the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing, above
them. The inscription on this temple, the Temple of Self-Love,
reads as follows: The Sanctuary of the Wisdom of the World.
Desires, passions and wantonness are the servants of these
priests. However, those whose heart searches for the truth will
not find any satisfaction with this and they will keep on
searching.
A few thousand steps from this Temple you will find a very
secluded little hut, inhabited by a hermit, with the following
inscription above the door: The Residence of Humility.
The man who lives here guides the strangers to the
residence of humility, which in turn leads them to Self-
Recognition. This Divine Beauty becomes the traveler’s
companion, and with her, he conquers the inaccessible
mountain. Whosoever tries to reach the Temple of Secrets
without this Divine Beauty can very easily be misled by his
Self-Love, and as a result, will follow the wrong path.
His greed for knowledge will lead him to the Temple of
Curiosity. The inhabitants of this Temple are: fraud, seduction
and deception, the founders of most of the secret societies,
and those Human Beings who in search for the Truth and for
the Temple of Secrets will, if they join these Secret Societies,
be robbed of the ability to see with their Soul. They are then
led to the top of the mountain, where they fall into the abyss
or into the labyrinth or maze, in which they will walk in circles
for eternity without finding the Truth.
Humility alone is the best guide. This alone will lead the seeker
to the Master of Teachers of all secrets. This Master Teacher is
the pure will. This pure will becomes the friend of the highest
of knowledge and they enter into a bond of eternal union
[Divine Will].
The knowledge of the effects of the Eternal Light of godliness
in all created beings is True Magic in Theory. The conception of
this Light, or the transition from the intellect to the will, is True
Magic in Practice.
– Von Eckarthausen, Magic: The Principles of Higher
Knowledge, 1788
Occult Hosti le Forces Targeting The
Seeker
The aforementioned traps on the awakening journey relate more to our inner
attitude and ego-hijacked spiritual insights, experiences and knowledge
(including knowledge of how the matrix works), which leads to the ego
believing itself to be the awakening self. The way I use the term “ego” is in
relation to identifying with who we “think” we are, the conditioned personality,
or anything we “do” based on the illusion of being separate, caught in a
fragmented state of consciousness, i.e. lack of wholeness, (which is also the
result of the division of the inner male and female that shows up in the body-
mind(head) split that is so prevalent in our modern society).
However, all of the traps mentioned before are also “enhanced” by
hyperdimensional interference and attacks which lie “outside” of our ego-
structure or shadow issues – as important as Shadow work is from a Jungian
perspective, it has its limitations (as does psychological work in general, which
I have addressed in this essay.) The occult hostile forces affect us in more ways
than we are aware of, especially with those people who are actively engaged in
consciousness-raising activities, spiritual self-work, seeking truth, and speaking
out about it. Be it through our own minds, like psychic attacks or entity
attachments, or forces working through others who are being used as “portals”
to vector us off our path, vigilance is essential. Think of Agent Smith being able
to inject himself into any character in the virtual world within the film “The
Matrix”, trying to stop Neo from awakening to his actual abilities. Hence,
cognitively-blind people – people who are asleep, plugged into the Matrix, the
grand illusion – can become unconscious “tools” and puppets of the Matrix,
deploying tactics like peer pressure/social ostracization to make sure no one
jumps out of line.
“In addition to the weak and defenseless, [these
hidden] vampires seek out people who are on the verge
of a quantum, evolutionary leap in consciousness, but
have not yet fully integrated their realizations and
come out the other side. These individuals are in an
energetically sensitive and “charged” condition, and their
openness and vulnerability invites the vampiric entities to help
themselves and gorge on the light of their prey’s expanding
awareness. Paradoxically, though, thriving on the absence of
light, vampires can be said to be “light-eaters,” as they draw
and consume the light belonging to others into the cavernous
black hole of their congenital emptiness. Economically
speaking, vampires want to corner the market on energy, on
light, so as to centralize their power and control.
Unable to generate the light-energy source themselves, they
need to steal and use the reserves of the beings harnessed in
thrall to them. The emerging positive-and healthy elements in
the other person are either co-opted, neutralized, or corrupted.
Once their victim is cornered, the vampire literally wants to
keep their captives under lock and key. Paradoxically, vampiric
wetikos try to destroy others’ light, as it reminds them of what
they’ve killed in themselves, while simultaneously trying to
appropriate the fight for themselves.
Wetikos see their job as “arresting” the creative expressions of
love, because genuine love threatens their reign of terror. The
strategy of these predators is to distract us so as to
keep our attention directed outward, thereby stopping
us from finding the light within ourselves, which would
“kill” the vampires. If we hold up a mirror and reflect back
the insanity being exhibited by those stricken by the wetiko
psychosis, we run the very real risk of being accused of being
the ones who are crazy. lf we do manage to connect with
the light within ourselves and try to share it with
others, these nonlocal vampiric entities (what I have in
previous writings called “nonlocal demons,” or NLD for
short), not bound by the 3-dimensional laws of space
and time, will try, via their “connections” to the
nonlocal field, to stop, us by influencing other people to
turn against us.
This process can destroy us, or, if we have the meta-awareness
to see what is happening and are able to skillfully navigate our
way through, can serve to further strengthen our intention,
deepen our connection with the light of lucidity [within], hone
our skill of creatively transmitting our realizations, and
cultivate more open-hearted compassion. It is as if these
psychic, nonlocal vampires are guardians of the threshold of
evolution.”
– Paul Levy, Dispelling Wetiko
“There are highly conscious forces whose sole aim,
apparently, is to discourage the (spiritual) seeker and
divert him from the path he has chosen. The first sign of
their presence is easily perceptible: joy is clouded,
consciousness is clouded, everything becomes shrouded in an
atmosphere of melodrama and gloom. Personal distress is a
sure sign of the enemy’s presence. Melodrama is a favorite
haunt of these forces; that is how they are able to create the
greatest havoc, because they play with a very old teammate
within us, who cannot help loving melodrama even as he cries
out for relief.
First, they generally make a point of forcing us into sudden,
extreme, and irrevocable decisions in order to take us as far
away as possible from our path–a pressing, exacting vibration
that demands immediate compliance; or else, they take apart,
with remarkable skill, the whole system of our quest to prove
that we are deluding ourselves and that our efforts will come
to nothing; more often, they bring about a state of depression,
playing with another well-known teammate within us whom Sri
Aurobindo calls the man of sorrows: a fellow . . . covering
himself with a sevenfold overcoat of tragedy and gloom [self-
pity], and he would not feel his existence justified if he couldn’t
be colossally miserable.
The method for dealing with these adverse forces is the
same as for the other vibrations: silence, inner stillness
that lets the storm blow over. We may not succeed the first
time in dissolving these attacks, but more and more they will
seem to take place on the surface of our being; we may be
shaken, upset, yet deep down we will feel the “Witness” in us,
unscathed and unaffected–he is never affected. We fall and get
back up again, each time becoming stronger. The only sin is
discouragement. In practice, the [sincere] seeker will be
far more exposed than others [for his/her aim is a
threat to the occult hostile force’s agenda].”
– Satprem, “Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousnes”
Anyone who is on the verge of a true awakening will attract the attention of
these forces, and it has not always the result of having negative thoughts or a
negative attitude (as is claimed in the distorted New Age version of the “Law of
Attraction”). The simple reason for their sinister acts is that they don’t want to
lose their “food” source, and so they attempt to derail you in the midst of your
frequency shift (as a result of the awakening process). They especially target
our own blindspots, wounds and predominant ego-identifications, which are
different for each of us. For example, if you have an inherently built-in “white
knight” syndrome, they will enhance your savior complex, as well as inducing
you into the trap of (forcefully) trying to wake up/help others. Or, on the other
hand, if you suffer from low self-esteem and self-pity (most often due to past
trauma/childhood wounding), they will enhance the victim complex. Same goes
for the superiority complex, and so on. Anything that I mentioned in the traps
section can and will be augmented by hyperdimensional interference and
thought injections.
That’s why, in light of the awakening process from an absolute perspective, the
most important part of the experience is to get out of the head and not identity
with any thoughts which reside in there, regardless if they come from our own
internal ego-structure or are infused via “external” insertions. The way out is by
instilling a calm and grounded non-reactive state of being, anchoring to an
embodied higher frequency, which results in activating our original blueprint
prior to genetic modification so as to transcend the matrix. But before we can
do that, we need to clear the vessel within, and that is much harder work than
fighting the matrix externally (which is futile anyway, at the end of the day),
especially when getting stuck in its 3D manifestations.
It is through “mistakes” and attacks that we learn and grow – at the end of the
day, even these forces (whether they are working through others or targeting
us directly) are our “teachers”, making us aware of where our work is required
within our inner-verse. When it’s all said and done, these are just lessons and
initiations to help us become more aware and conscious. The trap lies in the
possibility that we might get stuck within a lower vibration (or purely-3D
“thinking”) prison, and get bogged down in negative emotional “loops”,
projecting them onto others and the world-at-large.
“While we may not always be the source of injustices against
us, we are the cause of its entrance into our lives. The Matrix,
even with all its imbalances and corruption by those freewill
entities who have overstepped their place in nature, is
nevertheless still a learning program entirely responsive to our
own ignorance and weaknesses. It may be a predator’s choice
to attack, but it is our choice to accept the attack and succumb
to it.
The Matrix Control System can only trip us via the elements
within us that correspond to its low vibratory nature. If we
ignore our intuition, have blind spots in our awareness, or
engage in ignoble feelings and behaviors, then these are the
avenues through which we are had. Attacks serve to
identify our own weaknesses, thus providing focus for
where to take the next step on one’s path of spiritual
awakening.
In the absolute sense the Matrix Control System serves
to accelerate your spiritual growth, and although its
agents see you as the enemy, know that you can utilize
them as teachers. You do not need to seek them out, for
they will find you as you progress in your learning path. Most
importantly, know that you will never be given anything you
cannot choose to handle successfully.“
– Tom Montalk
“There is always a spiritual test before being able to
attain the next stage of power. Each time you have to
make progress, you have to undergo an
examination. When Divine manifestations take place, they
have also to pass through great difficulties and sufferings as a
result of oppositions of dark and anti-divine forces which have
had a hold upon earth since the creation. Those dark powers
always oppose the new Lights because they do not
want to give up their grip on the earth and sometimes
their hostility even takes the form of war on earth [created
and initiated by occult/hyperdimensional forces working
througt their human puppets], but in spite of all obstructions
the Divine Will succeeds at last.”
~ The Mother, “Collected Works of the Mother” – Sri Aurobindo
Library
Trap o f Parano ia and At tachment to
Exper iences
I see more and more people becoming aware of the hyperdimensional matrix
forces and how they might possibly be interfering with their own lives, working
through them or through others close to them. This is encouraging to witness,
for awareness and education about this topic helps many people to heal and
work through their tribulations. At the same time, I also see people getting
caught up in paranoia mode – or the victim/blame complex kicks in.
Oftentimes, I also notice (in some people I work with) that they are actually not
dealing with entity interference, but with their own thought projections (based
on fear/paranoia) that have taken on a “life” of their own and have become
“entities”, so to speak, but are not directly-related to the occult hostile forces
interjecting from a different realm.
Sometimes people can also get very attached to their experiences and “story”
on an unconscious level, while at the same time wanting to heal and move on
(via a conscious healing process). This unconscious attachment and inner
contradiction results in an inability to fully let go and heal, as the ego actually
feeds off of the story/experience by strongly identifying with it. Usually, there is
an unconscious “self-importance” or a sense of feeling “special” at play here in
relation to having these experiences which define one’s self-image (i.e. who we
“think” we are). Sometimes, it is also just an underlying morbid fascination with
the topic, and a part of themselves (the “predator mind”) that actually “likes”
the drama identifies with this subject. Essentially, it still provides the frequency
which these forces lock onto; meanwhile, none of this is recognized by the
person on a conscious level, which shows how tricky it can be to deal with
these forces in order to establish a sovereign embodied state of being
(complete with energetic boundaries).
I see the same pattern occurring in the fringe/UFO/alien community, where
some researchers and people who had/have encounters with occult hostile
forces (in whatever shape or form they manifest, and specific names we give
them) are getting caught up in a tunnel vision, and tend to “forget” or miss the
point of essentially transcending the occult influences/interference via sincere
esoteric self-work, embodiment and anchoring to a higher frequency. While it is
obviously important to understand the “modus operandi” of the
hyperdimensional entities and educate ourselves (and others) about it, we
need to be careful not give “them” more power by giving them too much
“attention”. It’s not a black & white scenario and as always, each situation is
different. This also relates to the Trap of getting stuck in the rabbit hole of
information overload, which I’ve addressed HERE.
“We have considered the modus operandi of telepathic
suggestion in detail because it forms the real basis of every
kind of occult attack. Whether it be a discarnate entity, a being
of another order of evolution, a demon from the Pit, or merely
the panic-stricken soul of a selfish friend, clinging to the life of
form regardless of consequences, in all cases the opening
gambit is the same.
Until the aura is pierced, there can be no entrance to
the soul, and the aura is always pierced from within by
the response of fear or desire going out towards the
attacking entity. If we can inhibit that instinctive emotional
reaction [zero-point non-reactive consciousness, grounded in
the body – embodiment/soul anchoring], the edge of the aura
will remain impenetrable, and will be as sure a defense against
psychic invasion as the healthy and unbroken skin is a defense
against bacterial infection.”
– Dion Fortune, “Psychic Self-Defense -The Classical Instruction
Manual for Protecting Yourself Against Paranormal Attack”
“It is so that they [the hostile suggestions] must be regarded –
without interest, with indifference. That removes the necessity
for constant struggle which is itself a form of interest, and it is
as discouraging and more to these suggestions. To think too
much of the hostile Powers is to bring in their
atmosphere. One has to recognise them when they
come and repel them, but to think much about them, to
fear, to be expecting or looking out for them is a
mistake [for it invites them]. It is better not to trouble
about the hostile forces. Keep your aspiration [to the Dvine,
your embodied I AM presence] strong and sincere. If you begin
to concern yourself about the hostile forces, you will only make
the path more difficult.
The worst thing for sadhana [spiritual self-training and
epractice] is to get into a morbid condition, always
thinking of “lower forces, attacks.” If the sadhana has
stopped for a time, then let it stop, remain quiet, do ordinary
things, rest when rest is needed – wait till the physical
consciousness is ready. My own sadhana when it was far more
advanced than yours used to stop for half a year together. I did
not make a fuss about it, but remained quiet till the empty or
dull period was over. The adverse forces take advantage of any
perturbation of that kind, for it opens, as it were, a passage to
their action. Fear is the one thing that one must never
feel in face of them, for it makes them bold and
aggressive. Moreover, fear, calls the thing feared – it
must therefore be thrown out altogether.
It happens so with everybody so long as there is not the
positive siddhi of transformation by which it becomes contrary
to the very nature of the instrument to respond to these
vibrations – because they have become foreign to it. Till then
all depends on the vigilance of the consciousness and its will.
The repetition of the response does not increase the difficulty –
it only retards the clearing out of the invading forces.”
~ Sri Aurobindo, Letters on Yoga
Sincerity and Radical Self-Honesty
The most important part in the process of and work towards awakening is self-
honesty, how sincere we are with ourselves. As mentioned at the beginning of
this essay, lies to the self are the most harmful and biggest stumbling blocks in
esoteric self-work and also the hardest to detect. As we gain higher levels of
awareness and consciousness, we realize the responsibility we have, what
“awakening” truly is about and how challenging true freedom actually is for it
entails letting go of control (the illusion/limitation of personal will), realizing
that we cannot blame anyone or anything.
“Forgiveness is the most fundamental forward movement
towards the integration of light and shadow within. Without it,
we run aground in the quagmire of judgment and denial. It is
the foundation of the shamanic journey, which requires that we
immerse ourselves in the waters of perpetual renewal.
Shamanic forgiveness instigates a dynamic that employs not
only the emotions and intellect, but reaches the very
fountainhead of behavior – the DNA – setting up new neural
pathways and changing the chemical balance within the
Human brain.
In this way, the electromagnetic field then holds a resonant
support system for forgiveness, creating an inner dialogue of
compassion. When we forgive, we embrace absolutely our
response-ability within the interconnectedness of all creation.
The gateway to the path that leads to the transmutation of the
life-death-rebirth cycle is opened through forgiveness, and is
the shedding of the first layer of mortality, initiating the
journey from victimhood to creatorship.”
– Juliet Carter
The more sincere we are in this process, the more we will detect the traps we
can get caught up in, and the more predominant our inner voice (Spirit)
becomes as it increasingly “checks in” on us; conversely, the more sincere we
are in this process, the less we’ll be able to pretend to ourselves – and to the
outside world (and others) – of being someone we “are not”. Essentially, it’s
about coming out of hiding, dissolving the buffers and masks that cover up the
real “I”.
“I have found over the years of working with people,
even people who have had very deep and profound
awakenings, that most people have a fear of being
truthful, of really being honest—not only with others,
but with themselves as well. Of course, the core of this fear
is that most people know intuitively that if they were actually
totally truthful and totally sincere and honest, they would no
longer be able to control anybody.
We can not control somebody with whom we have been
truthful. We can only control people if we tell half-truths, if we
shave down what is true. When we tell the total truth, our
inside is suddenly on the outside. There’s nothing hidden
anymore. For most human beings, being that exposed brings
up incredible fear. Most people walk around thinking, “My god,
if anybody could look inside of me, if anybody could see what
is happening in there, what my fears are, what my doubts are,
what my truths are, what I really perceive, they would be
horrified.”
Most people are protecting themselves. They are
holding a lot of things in. They are not living honest,
truthful, and sincere lives, because if they were to do
so, they would have no control. Of course, they don’t
have control anyway, but they would have no illusion of
control, either.
Most people don’t get out of childhood without having many
experiences of being wounded for telling the truth. Someone
said, “You can’t say that,” or “You shouldn’t say that,” or “That
wasn’t appropriate.” As a result, most of us have very deep
underlying conditioning that being just who we are is not okay.
We have been conditioned to believe that there are times
when it is okay to be truthful and honest, and there are times
when it is not okay to be truthful and honest. Most human
beings actually have an imprinting—not only in their minds,
but in their bodies and their emotions—that if they are honest,
if they are real, something bad is going to happen. Somebody
is not going to like it. They won’t be able to control their
environment if they tell the truth.
But telling the truth is an aspect of awakening. It may not
seem like it, because it’s very practical and very human. It’s
not transcendent. It’s not about pure consciousness, it’s about
how pure consciousness manifests as a human being in an
undivided way. We must be able to manifest what we realize,
and we must also come to grips with and start to notice the
very forces within us that keep us from manifesting
truthfulness in every situation.
Almost every time I’ve given a talk like this in public, someone
will come up to me later and say, “You know that talk you gave
on truthfulness and honesty and all that?” And I’ll go, “Yeah, I
remember the talk.” And they’ll say, “Well, somebody came up
in the parking lot afterward and decided that she needed to
tell me all the rotten things she thought about me, in the name
of honesty.
And I just kind of shake my head. I hesitate to even give talks
on this topic, because it’s so easy to misunderstand.
Truth is a very high standard. Truth is not a plaything. To tell
what is true within ourselves is not to tell what we think; it is
not to tell our opinion. It is not to dump the garbage can of our
mind onto somebody else. All of that is illusion, distortion,
projection. Truth is not unloading our opinions onto someone.
That is not truth. Truth is not telling our beliefs about things.
That is not truth. Those are ways that we actually hide from
truth.
Truth is much more intimate than that. When we tell the truth,
it has the sense of a confession. I don’t mean a confession of
something bad or wrong, but I mean the sense where we come
completely out of hiding. Truth is a simple thing. To speak the
truth is to speak from a sense of total and absolute
unprotectedness.
To tell truth with any consistency, we not only have to
meet every place in ourselves that is afraid of telling
truth, we also have to see the belief structure we have
that tells us, “I can’t do that.”Those belief structures are
by their very nature based in unreality. To know this is not
enough; you have to actually see it, to really perceive exactly
what you believe. What are the exact belief structures that
cause you to go into duality, that cause you to go into conflict
and hiding? Only then can you tell truth in the way I’m
discussing here.
Freedom is the realization that everything and everybody gets
to be exactly as they are. Unless we’ve come to that point,
unless we’ve seen that this is how reality sees things, then
we’re actually withholding freedom from the world. We’re
seeing it as a possession, and we’re only concerned with
ourselves. How good I can feel? How free I can feel? True
freedom is a gift to everything and everybody.
The important thing is allowing the whole world to wake up.
Part of allowing the whole world to wake up is recognizing that
the whole world is free—everybody is free to be as they
are. Until the whole world is free to agree with you or
disagree with you, until you have given the freedom to
everyone to like you or not like you, to love you or hate
you, to see things as you see them or to see things
differently—until you have given the whole world its
freedom—you’ll never have your freedom.
This is an important part of awakening, and it is an easy part
to miss. Again, if we were fully awake, it would be impossible
to miss this, but most people do not awaken all at once. The
idea of freedom is very important, however. Everybody gets to
be as they are. Only when everyone is allowed to be as they
are—when you have given them that freedom, the freedom
they already possess—do you find within yourself the capacity
to be honest and real and true.
We cannot be true as long as we are expecting or
wanting others to agree with us. That will cause us to
contract—maybe they won’t like what I say; maybe they won’t
agree; maybe they won’t like me. When we are protecting
ourselves, we are also withholding freedom from everybody
else. When we realize that we are the one and only Spirit that
manifests as everything and everyone, in the very nature of
that realization is total freedom for all.
There is a certain fearlessness in this realization. People
sometimes come to me and say, “Well, Adya, there’s still some
inner place”—and, I find, it’s often a very early childhood place
—“that’s afraid to just be what I know to be true.” And, of
course, I’ll say, “You have to look at it, to see how you,
yourself, formed certain belief structures based on what
happened in the past. You have to look into it and see if those
belief structures are really true.” But also, we need to
recognize that we have no way of knowing or predicting
how the world will receive us. Part of being awake is
being willing to be crucified. If we think that to be
awake means the whole world will agree with us, then
we are in a total delusion.
Inside human consciousness there is a deep taboo that says it
is not okay to realize the truth of being. I’m not talking about
preaching it, necessarily; I’m talking about just being what you
perceive. This taboo says, “That’s not okay. You will be
crucified for that; you will be killed for it.” Of course, in our
human history, people have been killed for it. We have a long
history in many societies of getting rid of or killing truly
enlightened beings, because true enlightenment does not
conform to the dream state. In fact, many times the dream
state feels offended and threatened by true
enlightenment, because a truly enlightened being
cannot be controlled. Even the threat of death cannot
control an enlightened being.
Thus, as a human being, we can’t have these childish
ideas that enlightenment means “everybody loves
me.” Maybe everybody will love you, but more likely some will
and some won’t. But when you have given the whole world its
freedom, then you have gone a long way toward finding your
own freedom. They are tied inextricably, one to the other.
The most important thing is not that you try to
convince anybody of the truth that you see. What is
really important is that you are truthful with yourself. If
you can be truthful with yourself, then you can be
truthful with anybody. There is no real usefulness in
becoming overly focused on being truthful with everybody
else. Although that’s necessary, the place to start is with
yourself — can you be totally sincere with yourself? Can you go
to that place that is beyond blame, beyond judgment, beyond
should and shouldn’t? Can you go to that place that is so
sincere you won’t shy away from any part of yourself
that is still in conflict; you won’t use the perception of
truth to hide from something that feels less than
liberating?
It is really a question of sincerity. As I said, this is not a self-
improvement program. Once you discover the level of sincerity
and honesty I am describing, you find that sincerity and
honesty are manifestations of the absolute nature of being. To
be this sincere with yourself may not be easy, initially.
You may see things about yourself you don’t want to
see. You may see the parts of yourself that stand in
seemingly stark contrast to everything you have
realized. Nonetheless, this is where awakening moves;
awakening moves toward and into that which is not
awake. Sincerity is what allows this movement to happen, and
it does happen if you are real with yourself.
Coming completely out of hiding, being willing to see every
point of fixation, every way you go into division, enables this
part of the journey to continue. As this happens, you feel your
heart opening, your mind opening; you feel yourself opening
on levels that you never dreamed possible. These levels are
not just transcendent of humanness, but also right within your
humanness, because there is no separation between your
human being and your divine being.
Sincerity is the key. You have to be willing; you have to want
to see everything. When you want to see everything, you will
see everything.
A lot of students who come to see me have the unconscious
idea that enlightenment means one should be able to feel
complete happiness, total bliss, and total freedom in any
situation. This is one of the unconscious beliefs that many
people have about awakening, and it’s another misperception.
If you believe the misperception that enlightenment is only
about happiness, bliss, and freedom, you will be motivated to
transcend or escape those areas of your life that feel less than
fully functional. But sooner or later, as we become more
awake, we find that there is more and more pressure to
encounter and deal with those areas of our lives that we have
been avoiding, where we are less than fully conscious.
I have found that a lot of people become quite afraid when
they start to realize where this whole movement of awakening
is taking them, that it is taking them into an area where they
will be called to be unusually honest and real and come
completely out of hiding. This is contrary to the idea of
awakening being simply a transcendence of life, the finding of
a safe haven in some inner experience where we don’t have to
deal with life as it is. Awakening is, in fact, quite the
opposite: it’s a state of being in which we find the
capacity to deal with our lives as they actually are. But
as I said, many people are afraid of this part of the
process, because it demands that we come out of
hiding on every level.”
~ Adyashanti, The End of Your World
Coming out of hiding – and being sincere with oneself – can be particularly-
challenging for people who predominantly live in their heads (caught in the
male aspect of consciousness). This personality possesses a strong intellect
that has the ability to rationalize and self-justify everything (including crafting a
clever exterior persona), especially in relation to the lies stemming from the
false personality – it also has a tendency to get trapped in analysis-paralysis,
being unable to recognize anything “above/beyond” themselves, i.e. the higher
intelligence of the Divine and Spirit. Caught in overriding thought loops and the
rationalizing mind, the door to the Divine is therefore shut – they are cut off
within the prison of the monkey mind. The underlying mechanism behind this
behaviour is actually unconscious fear, stemming from ego identification. Fear
of the loss of control. Fear of surrender to the flow of life/Tao (with the resultant
illusory fear of chaos) which is itself based on the fear of nature (the feminine
aspect of consciousness) and, essentially, fear of true love and freedom. It also
ties into the fear of being “insignificant”, fear of not being “strong” (fear of
appearing as “weak”), fear of “not knowing” (and essentially the “unknown”),
and fear of how others will perceive us if we’d open up to deeper, authentic
expressions of humility and vulnerability.
“A dangerous habit is constant self-justification. When this
becomes strong in the seeker, it is impossible to turn him in
this part of the being to the right consciousness and action
because at each step his whole preoccupation is to justify
himself. His mind rushes at once to maintain his own idea, his
own position or his own course of action.
This he is ready to do by any kind of argument, sometimes the
most clumsy and foolish or inconsistent with what he has been
protesting the moment before [but not obvious to him], by any
kind of mis-statement or any kind of device. This is a common
misuse, but non the less a misuse of the thinking mind; but it
takes in him exaggerated proportions and so long as he keeps
to it, it will be impossible for him to see or live the Truth”
~ Sri Aurobindo, The Integral Yoga
“If man does not accept his situation and, in particular, his
inner state as it appears to him, thanks to brief illuminations
from the consciousness of the real ‘I’— if he is obstinate
against all evidence, justifying his Personality by protecting
himself behind logic, legitimacy and justice, he will then turn
his back on the path of Access, and thrust himself further into
the wilderness. Nobody can reach the path of Access to the
Way [of union with the Divine], without first passing through an
interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse [disillusionment].”
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis
Life as a Catalyst and Teacher
For those of us who keep working on ourselves with sincerity and radical self-
honesty – facing the lies we’ve been telling ourselves (stemming from the egoic
mind/personality and social/cultural conditioning, augmented by thought
injections of the occult hostile forces), realizing the futility of “personal will”,
etc. – and as a result have had glimpses into our true nature and birthright
which lies hidden behind who we “think” we are, the gifts begin to reveal
themselves in weirdly wonderful ways. We start to see, feel and align more and
more with the natural flow of life (Divine Will) which is “simpler” than we
“think” it is. As Adyashanti said: “This kind of flow is always available to us, but
most of us are too lost in the complexities of our thinking to feel that there’s a
simple and natural flow to life. But underneath the turmoil of thought and
emotion, and underneath the grasping of the personal will, there is indeed a
flow. There is a simple movement of life.”
As a result we also start to simplify our lives and slow down. No longer driven
by ambition (with its side effects of competition/comparison), conditioned/vital
cravings, the need to “become”, and externally looking for love and happiness,
we surrender to the simple movement of life. Compartmentalized, will-full
doing and reactivity are replaced by an embodied call-and-response to life
itself. At the same time, we don’t avoid life, nor do we see ourselves as
better/worse than anyone else. We recognize (on an embodied level) the unity
and interrelationship of all that is. It’s not a state of constant “bliss” and “awe”,
but rather a sober and grounded state of being, fully embracing life, whatever
may come.
We also recognize that life itself is our greatest teacher and catalyst for
awakening. No longer mechanically/outwardly projecting our inner
fragmentation, we realize the teaching-function of everything in our everyday
life. We don’t use “spirituality” to avoid life, nor do we seek out “peak
experiences” – we engage in everyday life more fully in the present moment,
for that is the real “peak” experience (when we are fully tuned into life on an
embodied level). There is no need for “more” than this.
We start to trust life more and more (and as result we trust ourselves more and
more as well), not because we expect life or spirit to give us anything we
“want”, but because we know that life (as the movement of the Divine) is
supporting and helping us to remember ourselves, assisting in our awakening
process. We instinctually-comprehend that life and spirit will essentially guide
us towards what we “truly want” and need (including lessons we need to learn)
from a soul perspective, not based on the ego’s whims, entitlements and
conditioned desires. Interestingly, this surrender (and letting go aspect) is the
hardest part for most people to accept, for they don’t like to hear that control is
an illusion; they most often equate relinquishing personal will with “defeat” or
“failure”, and fear that without taking “control” of their lives, they won’t find
happiness, fulfillment, prosperity, etc., or will usher in utter chaos by doing so,
all of which is matrix programming lies to keep humanity trapped in this fear-
survival frequency.
But nothing could be further from the truth. The surrender/letting go process
(in alignment with the awakening/embodiment journey) leads us eventually to
true joy, love, contentment, fulfilling relationships; it opens the pathway to our
vocation, purpose and calling in life, as well as abundance that can’t be
measured in materialistic terms (however, it doesn’t mean you have to be
“poor” nor completely reject materialism so as to be “spiritual”, which is
another misconception of spirituality). But it also requires faith and trust,
stepping out of one’s comfort zone and embracing the unknown and
unpredictable. The “counter-arguments” for this process are the voices of the
ego or predator mind (occult forces), reinforced by the matrix cult-ure that
worships personality over essence. It doesn’t like to give up its reign (and
doesn’t give up easily), for it would mean the end of its rule. These thought
injections are not stemming from the true “self”/the real “I”.
We then know that any difficulties and challenging situations that may arise are
opportunities for a deeper awakening, most often resulting in “shocks” that are
necessary to shake us up and yank us out of illusion. Despite these moments of
“fierce grace”, we also experience more and more beautiful equanimity and
moments of bliss, happiness and joy that don’t depend on any external factors.
We become less afraid of discomfort and the unknown, realizing on a deeper
level that life is not about “winning” or “losing”, but all there is are lessons, and
that we are being guided and helped at every moment if we can tune into our
own magnificence. Consequently, we are getting more in touch with our
intuition, our internal guidance, connected to spirit within (and essentially, with
Divine Will), all of which are uniquely expressed through us as sovereign
embodied soul-integrated individuals. Life then becomes indeed more effort-
less, as we don’t try to fight the current of life (Tao), but trust that the river of
life carries us where we need to be, and delivers to us what we need to
experience, based on our unique soul lessons and talents.
“While we measure our own success in terms of our personal
comfort and security, the “universe” measures our success by
how much we have learned. So long as we use comfort and
security as our criteria for success, we will fear our own
intuitive guidance because by its very nature it directs us into
new cycles of learning that are sometimes uncomfortable. In
developing your skill [of intuition] in your own life, you must
trust your gut responses – a fact I cannot emphasize enough.”
– Caroline Myss
From a bigger picture perspective, this is how we transcend the Matrix as well,
even though we still live in this world (since we have’t gone anywhere
physically), but start to experience “reality” and life on a whole different level
(“being in this world but not of it”). Essentially, we realize that “heaven” is right
here, right now, and always has been within us, even though that impression
may sound ignorant, ridiculous or “escapist” to anyone who hasn’t had this
experience, and keeps pointing at the shadows on the wall in an effort to prove
what he/she perceives as the “real world”. However, it is far from being
anything close to “escapist”, because there is no denial of the “dark” either, in
fact there is deeper “seeing” and understanding of “evil” (beyond its 3D
manifestation) and its role within the duality of 3D experience, as seen in the
light of evolutionary consciousness with all the “different faces of god”. But no
words or “arguments” can convince such a person, and there is no need or
pressure to do this anyway, since everyone has to realize that for him/herself,
an internal realization, for it is beyond language and words.
No one can show it to us or bring it to us. No one is “bailing us” out, no leader,
no savior, no authority, until we answer the call of the divine voice within,
which lies hidden behind the illusory constructs of personality-identification. It’s
a higher state of being, an embodied experience which the mind and intellect
cannot come close to comprehending. The differing states of reality-experience
which manifest within (and between) human beings during this time of
transition is also becoming more and more apparent, and relates to the
Timeline-Reality Spilt (explored in a previous essay), for some people reinforce
and fall deeper into a dream state (while dreaming to be awake, mistaking
reality for illusion and illusion for reality), getting caught up in the Matrix with
all the “traps of agreement” laid out by the occult forces. Meanwhile, others
start to increasingly (and courageously) wake up to their true nature, becoming
conscious transducers of Divine Will as frequency anchors within the unfolding
of the “cosmic plan”. There is also no judgment about these differing journeys,
because the “splitting” from a higher perspective also reflects the cosmic
equilibrium and the vast difference in soul lessons for each human being to
embody in this day and age.
Essentially, every human being is destined to awaken, each in their own “time”
and own way (and over lifetimes) as we play out the cosmic drama/comedy.
However, we are far away from experiencing any notion of a “collective”
awakening in any near “future”. So, embark on the path, watch out for the
traps, don’t be afraid of the dark, and most importantly, enjoy the ride. The
only way out is through, and there is light at the end of the tunnel…in fact, the
tunnel is made of light itself.
“This isn’t a journey about becoming something. This is about
unbecoming who we are not, about undeceiving ourselves. And
so one of the most important steps is to come into agreement
with your life so that you’re not turning away from yourself in
any way. And the amazing thing is that when we are no longer
turning away from ourselves, we find a great amount of
energy, a great capacity for clarity and wisdom, and we start
to see everything we need to see.”
– Adyashanti, The End of Your World
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